#it is a lovely place too

[demaparbat-hp]

He's never happy

[brainrotcharacters]

When irl pisses me off, I rewatch the Honda Odyssey scene to relax

[cincodenada]

Gods yep, I saw a couple frames, maybe even this very image, go by on Twitter. When I picked it up from the library, I read half of it on the walk home and then sat on the couch and finished it. I cried less back then, but I cried about this book even so.

And like, it didn't come out of nowhere. My transition was a long, slow tiptoe. By the time I read Cheer Up! I'd been growing my hair out for three years, my Mastodon gender had made it to "??? but trending femmeward (they/them)", and my first appointment with a new therapist to talk about gender was three days away. But I also still couldn't quite shake the idea that there was some essential transness that I just didn't have in me. That surely I didn't want to get that deep into this whole gender thing.

So I was NOT prepared for how intensely I wanted to be Bebe. To be Bebe. I'd been slowly, painstakingly unwrapping layers of external expectations and self-doubt, and this book came along with its messy, recovering people-pleaser trans girl and gave me what may have been my first glimpse of the messy, recovering people-pleaser trans girl I could be. The first time I remember really sitting down and daring to shift from "sure I'm gendery but I'm not, like, trans trans" to actually allowing in "but what if...what if I could be? Like, for real?"

And phew. This book certainly wasn't the only factor, but a month later, after re-reading Cheer Up!, I read On a Sunbeam and the name Ell stuck in my brain. A month after that I casually asked my doctor about HRT ("theoretically speaking"). Over the next few months I started HRT, used my new name in ever-widening circles, and slowly started believing my therapist when he told me repeatedly that I was, indeed, trans enough.

And here we are, two years later, and I am so damn grateful to Crystal and Val, and everyone who shared their stories, so many different experiences told in so many ways, making space for me to carve out my own.

So here are a couple of the many photos I took of Cheer Up! on my second readthrough. I love these characters so damn much.

you! guy who likes fictional lesbians to the point of feeling a strange sense of pain! you can be a lesbian. but there are some steps you have to complete first

[egophiliac]

buckle up lads we're going BACK INTO THE BOOK

[chloesimaginationthings]

Five nights at Springtrap’s is just William Aftons arguing..

[idontmindifuforgetme]

One thing I’ve noticed about people in or entering their 30s is they don’t make as many compromises anymore. If someone doesn’t meet them halfway, is not up to standard, is just not where they’re needed to be, they’re just like “ok cool” and they move on from the person. Which is not to say they’re less empathetic or understanding, but more that they have learned that time is their most prized possession and they’re not willing to make massive compromises on it. They are not obsessed w the idea of fixing someone (bc the concept of fixing a person doesn’t really exist). They simply move on to someone who is up to par. I want that. I want to always move w the awareness that time is my most priceless belonging and I can never buy it back. Ever. So I have to use it wisely

[mipmoth]

It's only me and you in this cruel world walking radiator

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

You made her cry, time to die.

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[blondie-drawings]

I recently got a bunch of TNG novels at a charity shop and this passage from the FIRST BOOK is making me feel craaaaazy

[lutheban]

None of them are equivalent to eachother but you get the point

[rendevok]

step into the light

what do you see?

my sun,

my stars

shining on me

[technically-human]

Part two of the reverse verse is here! The reverse boys meet the original boys. They're not really getting along as well as I had hoped...

Again, this was a commission for @i-am-as-normal-as-you-are and they asked for angst/funny vibes... I think it's mostly just angst though. Oh, well...

Part one

[pixieplushe]

over the course of watching arcane, vi absolutely stole my heart in more ways than one. her character is one of the most complex, misunderstood, and realistic out of the entire show

vi was shoved into prison at 15 years old, getting out 7 years later with nothing. every character in the show had somebody and moved on. ekko had the firelights, caitlyn had her family, jayce and viktor had each other, jinx had silco, sevika, then even isha. vi had no one. being locked away in such an environment, knowing full well you're the reason why your sister got taken by an evil man, does a number on you. vi had no chance to develop a sense of self, it is very prevalent in both seasons.

vi has little direction unless it's for someone else (which in turn is why i believe cait had a negative impact on her in s2 act 1, influencing her into being an enforcer + vi rationalizing it as a lesser of two evils, using the grey on chembarons vs allowing enforcers to storm the undercity). almost, if not every action she made was to help others, because she is so beyond selfless. it's her fatal flaw. like vander said to her, "you have a good heart". vi clings to people like glue because she cannot bear being alone again, letting the ones she loves slip through her fingers like sand.

she's just as traumatized as jinx, but her trauma is displayed in more subtle, self-destructive behavior as we see in episode 5 when she truly believed she lost everything again. which in turn is why I point to her being realistic, in real life it isn't obvious to spot when someone has trauma, it isn't supposed to be obvious. vi is the perfect example of that she finally got to choose for herself in the end, not be everyone else's plot device to make their lives better. i feel like she was written beautifully, everyone wants to dog on her for choosing to be in love? the past 2 seasons she chased jinx through every crack in the earth. she tried her damn hardest! jinx chose to cut the rope and let her be happy, let her go. much to vi’s dismay, we all know that was the last thing vi ever wanted. i love her so dearly, my favorite girl :(

(also, caitvi being canon makes me as a lesbian feel represented, i love them a lot. no more burying your gays trope! yay!)

[aria-greenhoodie]

WOE, NEXT SUMMER DESIGNS FOR SOME OF THE GRAVITY FALLS KIDS, GO!

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Pt 1/2/?

[egophiliac]

So I was doing some math, and I THINK Skully is almost as tall as Malleus without his horns

I think the main reference to his height is Epel being surprised they're the same age because he's taller than Sebek, yes? which I find interesting, considering Jade and Malleus -- two of the tallest guys in the main cast -- are also there. and, since I've never been one to not think waaaay too much about the absolute stupidest minutiae about fictional characters, I see two possibilities:

one is that Epel is extremely good at eyeballing heights (I actually do feel like he could be? like. I'd believe he can estimate someone's height fairly accurately by calculating based on the life stages of an apple tree, or how many apples tall they are, or something else apple-related like that.) and Scully does, perhaps, fall into that narrow margin between Sebek and Jade in height.

OR two, out of the three certified Tall Guys there, Sebek is Epel's main frame of reference because he's the only one he's had any real interaction with for, let's be fair, pretty obvious reasons.

SO in conclusion, we still have no concrete answers and will probably have to wait until next year when we get his card profile, alas alas. 😔