#is this anything or is it just in my head? doesnt matter. its real to me

[spvce-oddity]

no i don't believe men are born to be killers / i don't believe that the world can't be saved / how did you get there and when did it start? / an innocent child with a thorn in his heart

[david-box]

There's a certain something something to Bojack Horseman that makes it not really furry media despite ostensibly having all the elements it needs. I think I need to rewatch that Patricia Taxxon video bc for the life of me I cannot figure out what it is

[arolesbianism]

I've been brainstorming stuff for the second main story tee em and I am proud to say that Im pretty confident on how the medium and formatting now but I am sad to say that I still have no idea for an actual name 😔

[orcelito]

Ok I got to actually looking at my classes for next semester. Reorganized things a little bit into clear categories. See the thing is, the 3 classes I thought I was gonna choose 2 from? None of them are being taught anymore lol. It's just that my enrollment term is so old, it's showing the old requirements. So I'm choosing 3 classes from the general list of classes, which makes me glad I picked out so many potential ones to choose from!!! So the 3 categories I've sorted these classes into are:

Quality assurance: "six sigma data quality" is the 1st choice, "quality engineering in IT" is 2nd choice

General theory: "policy, regulation, and globalization in IT" is 1st choice, "advanced systems development methodologies" is 2nd choice

Coding/computers: "applied machine learning" is 1st choice, "UNIX administration" is 2nd choice, "front end web coding" is 3rd choice

(Putting commentary under a cut bc it got a lil long)

'Cause how my school does scheduled now, we submit a list of requests & they compile them all and then figure out what classes work best for everyone. And u wanna include multiple options for each class slot in case the first doesn't work out for some reason. So that's why I have 7 choices, despite only needing 3.

As for the actual sections. I wanna make sure that my semester is as well-rounded as possible. I wanna get at least Some kind of coding in, to make sure I get some more practice before leaving. I have applied machine learning listed first for it bc I really know very little about how machine learning works, & with the way the IT field has gone, it's a little inevitable that I'll be working with it some. Best to learn about it now so I know what I'm doing later. But if I can't take that for some reason, I have the UNIX administration which would honestly kind of suck to take, but it'd be useful. And then front end web coding is less generally useful, but could still be a good skill to have.

The policy, regulation, & globalization in IT is one that I think would be very good for me to take. More of a theory class than a tech class, & it's focusing on learning about technology's effects on the world in economic, social, cultural, and ethical dynamics. I already have taken an ethics of IT sort of course so I've got some context for that, but I still think it'd be important to learn more about globalization. If for whatever reason it's not available tho, then another systems development class could be useful.

& then the data quality thing. Six sigma put at priority here bc it's smth ppl always talk about but I just don't know that much about it, outside of how it's supposed to help improve things. By taking this course, I'd also get a certificate in SS, which could only help in job searching I think. Then quality engineering in IT after that, which I don't know that much about but it seemed about in line with the goal of Data Quality stuff.

[hxney-lemcn]

non-request Idia thought of the Day:

Consider hieght difference.

OUR BOY BE TALL!! Easily being able to duck under his arm or get into small spaces to fix tech because you're small.

being absolutely done with a situation (Dorm head meeting?), walking over to Idia, and promptly zipping yourself up in his jacket. while he's still in it. He doesn't know what to do. he's just standing there with another person in his jacket with him. WHAT BUTTON DOES HE PRESS FOR THIS HE DOESNT KNOW-- Not even your head is out, the jacket is zipped all the way up.

Also sweater paws for that one hit K.O. to Idia.

ALSO SHORT BUT STRONK- IMAGINE BEING SMALL AND ADORABLE BUT YOU JUST PICK IDIA'S SKYSCRAPER ASS UP LIKE NOTHING. "Hi Cater, Need Idia. Bye." Straight just yoinking him and leaving. Why did you need him? Parallel play reasons obviously.

Idia is 6 ft (183 cm) tall, and he never really thought about his height. Why would he? He barely leaves his room, if anything, he wishes he was smaller so he could blend into a crowd better.

And then you come along. It doesn't matter how much shorter you are, whether its only an inch or a foot, he notices that your shorter.

It would be so funny if you try to kabedon him, if you're really short you gotta stand up on your tippy toes. Instant K.O. Idia is gone, deceased. He finds it both adorable and lowkey hot and he secretly wishes you do it again.

If he tries to get you back...he dies of embarrassment if you slip under his arm. HE WAS TRYING TO DO THE THING! AND YOU JUST- YOU WEREN'T SUPPOSED TO DO THAT! (give him a little kiss to make up for your teasing).

He is crumbling at any sign of affection (even more so if its public). You zipping yourself in his hoodie? Or just slipping it over your head as well. Sharing a hoodie while he's still in it...yeah he's a jittery mess. You're heat seeping into him, your hair tickling his skin, you look so peaceful with your head against his chest and arms around his torso...if your in a private setting he watches you with a blush. He can't get over the fact that you're real and you choose him. If you're in public his hood is over his head and he's trying to act cool but his bright pink cheeks and tips of his hair clearly give away his true feelings.

It would be absolutely comical for short but strong reader to pick up Idia. Oh my gosh and if people are around...yeah he's floundering (ik I keep saying that but lets be real...he can barely handle a normal social situation lmao). To be fair, if you can lift over 140lbs (63kg) you can probably carry him (he is thin so I'm assuming we are a similar weight and I added some lbs cus he's taller than me). This is probs your way of getting him out of a situation he doesn't want to be in (any social one 💀).

Cater is trying to be buddy buddy with Idia, wanting to finally have at least one friend from Ignihyde. Idia looks like he wants to be literally anywhere else. So you decide to step in, pick up Idia, and tell Cater that y'all had plans. Idia is holding onto you for dear life, Cater is eating it up (this is now added to his gossip folder and he definitely got photos of you carrying Idia). After the panic wears off, Idia is impressed. Who knew you had so much muscle? Totally not another reason for him to simp for you.

[archiewantsheetmetal]

hey guys.

here is my collection of layton being lukes dad that nobody asked for since i feel like you guys should see it too. + extra screencaps from the games when i played them. and also a little commentary

SLIGHT SPOILER WARNING!!

these are screenshots from all of the mainline games + a few from plvpw, but for that one they dont really spoil anything. its mostly just layton being mildly affectionate towards luke because i lose my mind whenever he is. this will be multiple parts because i have quite a few

here we go!!

Hershel Protecting Luke or Being his Second Dad in General (Part 1)

Starting with plvspw.

The way Luke is looking up at Hershel makes me claw the ground. He looks up to him so much. He is in awe with him and what he's saying. He is INTERESTED in what hes saying.

Hershel placing a hand on his shoulder to reassure him is so sweet. Hershel is letting him know that he's there.

He notices Luke's troubled expression and demeanor in that cutscene. He's looking up at the sky and is deep in thought after what Hershel said about witches. (Plus the thunder that's scaring him a little.)

And he's quick to reassure him. He knows Luke is scared of the supernatural (Understandably so because of his Experience) and Hershel is quick to let him know that witches can't hurt him. They aren't real, and they never were.

I just thought these were sweet. I like the idea of Hershel answering Luke's questions while he stays at his flat/office. I feel like rainy days for them would be very calm and sweet. Just tea and a book to read. Stories to tell and questions to ask.

As for the second photo, I just find Hershel's concern for Luke to be very sweet. All Luke did was pratfall. He didn't break any bones or get any bad bruises but Hershel rushed to his side to make sure he was alright.

Luke's first instinct when he's scared is always, ALWAYS, to hide behind the professor.

VERY SLIGHT SPOILER FOR LAST SPECTER BELOW! Skip to the next set of images if you want to avoid it.

It's not as noticeable here, but Luke meets Loosha for the first time and immediately backs up behind Hershel for safety.

So much in this game shows that he starts to feel safe around the professor (which I think could be a reason he is so eager to go with Hershel on dangerous trips. Hershel has made sure he was safe each time)

Hershel's first instinct when he feels there's danger is always to shield Luke first. Especially his head.

The grab and tuck thing he does makes me so ill. He's protecting his boy with his whole body and it doesnt matter what part of himself gets hurt as long as Luke is safe.

On the third photo they are falling QUITE A DISTANCE! Yet Hershel's first thought is to grab Luke and put himself between Luke and the ground. Luke is to be safe at all times no matter what.

Putting this here because it was funny. not to the pilot!!!!

[melted-braiin]

Ramblings abt my favorite Ghost

But dudes, Danny.

I am a sucker for characters that are goofy and silly and juuuust angsty enough to break my heart and I think its hilarious when this absolute hopeless romantic grows up to be a fucking ladykiller.

Like, 12 year old Danny being nice and wholesome, talking about how pretty girls were and giving them flowers (the girls just laugh at him) and 15 year old Danny realizing hes bi and openly admitting that he finds his male classmates hot sometimes (this got him bullied) and it doesnt help that hes this dorky, snarky, kinda gloomy loser. And hes kinda unnerving so nobody really likes him.

Highschool passes by mostly uneventfully. Sure, ghosts attack and whatnot but something happened in junior year that put a massive power rift between Phantom and his rogues (rumors of Phantom overthrowing the ghost king and taking his place float around. Nobodys sure but Star claims Ember started the rumor and nothings really disproven that so-)

That specific class of Casper high leaves for college. At the time of their graduation party, Danny had grown just a bit taller, and his eyes a bit brighter, but he was still mostly a dork.

Fast forward a few years- the high school is hosting a reunion.

Old friends meet up, some after years and some after a weekend. That one jock became a famous author, and his buddy became a single dad- The weird goth girl and the prettiest girl in the grade are dating now. That one Tech geek has made a program that revolutionized computer engineering.

Its all fun and games, comparing lives and embarrassed apologies because they were all kind of asshole teenagers.

They count heads of their year and find a few people missing (as is to be expected). Danny is among them.

"That's odd," Sam Manson- resident goth- notes.

Kwan blinks, as he's the one who was counting, and asks, "Why?" because it wasn't unusual to skip highschool reunions (especially considering Fenton's experience)

Tucker snickers something incoherent, about getting lost in space. Sam sighs.

"I'll text him?" she asks, to which Tucker shakes his head.

"No I wanna see what he does," Tucker giggles. At Sam's raised eyebrow, he tacks on a hasty, "He has court today"

While Sam gets a look of understanding followed quickly by mischief, everyone else in their general vicinity is very concerned.

"Why's Fenton in court?" Kwan asks, Star nodding beside him, "Did he do something?"

Paulina makes a strangled noise, as if she wants to ask but showing worry might seem somewhat hypocritical of her all things considered. Dash raises an eyebrow and his lips thin in worry but he doesn't voice anything.

Danny does not show up. He doesn't show up during the official reunion, but Sam claims he and Valerie may show up at the spontaneous after-party (they literally all just pile up into their vehicle of choice and head to the nearest decent bar)

Valerie does, in fact show up— in her Red Huntress suit.

She complains about owning a company and being a Hero alongside it. How she's graying even though she's barely twenty seven, and it sucks. People ask why she's revealing her identity and stuff- she just shrugs and says, "Its kinda pointless now, dontcha think? I mean-" then gestures vaguely with her ecto-blaster. All the girls around her nod solemnly and the guys mutter and question if this is some kind of inside joke.

(it is. Im not gonna tell you what. Cuz idk. I wasnt in the know, sadly)

Anuways, the only other thing of note is that resident heRO THE AMITY PARK PHANTOM SHOWED UP. YO WHAT THE FU-

When asked what he was doing here, Phantom blinked real slow, looked at his hands and went, "Oh."

(it is worth noting that ghosts dont age. No matter how old they get. Phantom is no different, he's always been, is, and will be, Amity's Fourteen year old protector)

He looked over the heads of the crowd, saw his two best friends snickering to eachother like the assholes they are, and thought, "Fuck It™."

This is the story of how Danny's class found out that the same dork who rambled about space in grade school is now the Ruler of the Indefinite Multiverse.

(I should mention that Danny is like, really Pretty. And I do mean pretty.

His hair seems weightless and soft even in human form and his blue eyes too bright to be real, constantly crinkled at the edges with a sharp smirk or silly grin. He has light freckles that look like a smattering of stars on his skin and his teeth are just a little too sharp. His voice is usually bright and kind of high pitched but his real voice is like a deep tremor that isnt quite human anymore- it sounds like glaciers breaking and Space humming and the Thousand murmurings of his subjects. Hes gotten taller and more fae-like and hes just- !!!!!

I am so normal about him can you tell?)

[seeminglydark]

Honestly I wanna make a podcast but I'm so insecure about my voice

I feel you anon. I was actually more worried about that than ANYTHING else, voice reveal feels very intimate, like too much of me and it gave me pause for a while, I actually was like, who is going to play Caro? Surely not me. When I launched the podcast, I was terrified people would be like 'That doesnt sound at all like how I imagined Caro' since they already had a following from my comics. But guess what, that didnt happen!

I started out doing little live streams and stuff, getting reassurance from my listeners and that helps SO MUCH, many of them told me they already heard Caro with my voice as their voice head canon, so that also helped. I asked around for reassurance from people who loved me. And then I just threw myself out there, cuz you know what? You're playing a character. No one is looking at you. Its all imaginary. And now I don't even think about it, except when people tell me they really like the voice acting or that my voice is soothing, or that my voice is EXACTLY what they imagined.

Your podcast is your puppet, and your voice brings it to life. Don't be afraid. It's going to be better than you think.

also I dunno if this is relevant to you, but I'm going to add this in here because I have SO MANY trans and enby readers and listeners and i know voice dysphoria is real. I am not on T, but a lot of people assume I am because of how i speak (which is actually so gender euphoric for me as a person who identifies masc.) I do pitch my voice a bit physically without equipment, not much but some, and that will come natural with time whichever way you are going. You can hear the difference of me naturally pitching my voice in the Halloween Interruption episode really well. In the beginning when I'm playing Caro, I'm speaking very slightly lower than my natural tone, and when I switch characters, I'm using my Customer Service Voice which is a higher octave to achieve a more femme tone. Neither of these are terribly different, but the listener suspends their belief and their mind convinces themself that it is two very different characters. No matter WHAT your voice sounds like (trans or not) your listeners will suspend their belief and hear the character. it'll be ok, i promise. And as you listen to yourself during editing, theres a lovely possibility youll grow fond of the sound of your own voice. I did <3

[your-favourite-yapper]

barty crouch jr x barty crouch sr

OMG ?? U FREZK ?? WHY WOU,D U EVEN SAY THAT DONT EVEN-

barty jr spent his whole childhood tryna be good bc thts wht dad wanted nd he thought if he was perfect if he was good if he got all Os nd did all the right things nd stood up straight nd didnt cry when dad ignored him then maybe maybe maybe dad wld look at him one day nd say good job son. but barty sr never did. just nodded if barty did well but never said he was proud. nd barty jr told himself its fine bc emotions r for the weak nd hes not weak hes a crouch nd crouches dont get sad crouches dont get desperate crouches dont beg.

but hes six n hes seven n hes eight n hes waiting waiting waiting for dad to look at him for real but dad is always busy always tired always looking past him like hes not even there.

so fine. if dad doesnt care then neither does he. yr 3 n hes rolling his eyes when his classmates talk abt family like wtv its not a big deal my dads a war hero hes busy u wouldnt get it. yr 5 n hes breaking rules just to see if dad will notice nd he does but not in the way barty wants just a lecture abt how his behavior reflects on the crouch name nd not him just the name nd barty nods n says yes sir n feels sick.yr 7 n hes stopped pretending he doesnt care. hes top of his class n hes got a future but it doesnt matter bc dads still looking thru him like hes made of glass. but hes not hes solid hes here hes breathing hes screaming hes begging dad plz just look at me plz just say ur proud just once just once just once but all dad does is sigh nd say stop making a scene.

n then azkaban. n its cold n its dark n theres nothing but silence n his own head his own thoughts looping looping looping nd at first hes like dad will get me out dads got power dads the law but dad doesnt. dad doesnt even look at him at the trial nd he wants to throw up bc maybe he rly was invisible all along. maybe dad never saw him at all.

but then imperio. n suddenly hes light hes floating hes not thinking hes smiling bc theres nothing in his head anymore n it feels good not to feel. n dad takes him home but its not home its a prison nd hes a puppet nd its fine its fine its fine until its not bc one day he blinks n the spell is gone nd he sees dad looking at him w shock w fear like hes a monster like hes something to be put down n he almost laughs bc yeah hes a monster but dad made him this way.

so he flips it. puts dad under imperio n sees how dad likes it n dad fights at first bc hes strong hes crouch hes the law but barty jr learned from the best n now dads smiling blank n empty just like he was nd he thinks does it feel good dad does it feel nice to not feel do u like it when its me pulling the strings r u proud now r u proud r u proud r u proud.

n then he kills him. nd its not loud its not dramatic its not anything its just over n hes standing there looking at dads body nd waiting to feel something but theres nothing. just silence.

n he laughs nd laughs bc he finally got his dads full attention nd it still wasnt enough.

[phagodyke]

hmm.

[verboselocket38]

tw: a//bu//se

Before I get into this I just want to say that although I am a critic of HH/HB, I still like the show either way. This post is not meant to attack anyone, its just to give my thoughts.

So there has been something about Stolitz I have been thinking about recently and I just think that even IF Stolas is sorry for what he did to Blitzø, its best for the two to just move on. I mean imo if you were to get back together with your abusive ex after they apologized for the horrible stuff they did (whether it be physical, mental, emotional, or in this case coersion) then what is stopping them from doing it again? Even if they DO stop hurting you, it doesnt change the fact that they hurt you. Just because the abuser claims something like "Hey, whatever horrible things I might say and do to you, I still love you no matter what" is a BIG red flag. Stolas is an abuser. Blitzø is a victim. People say that its Blitzø's fault he does not feel the same way Stolas does. Even if their relationship was healthy, you can't force someone to fall in love. Even IF Blitzø felt the same way as Stolas those moments are few and far between. And just because you have a crush on someone that doesnt necessarily mean that you should be in a relationship with them, ESPECIALLY in this context. Just because Stolas was sexually repressed does not excuse the fact he forced Blitzø into sexual coersion. Just because he had a mean wife it does not excuse him for his actions. The show puts Stolas in a light where he didnt do anything wrong, and made him and his relationship with Blitzø a predictable cliche love plot. I always WANTED to like this ship, I really do... But when I see people trying to romantacise something toxic, it makes me worry if this is how they will treat REAL people. Because, lets be real most Vivziepop stans are 13 year olds who think saying the f-bomb in every sentece is peak writing.

To Stolitz shippers: Just because someone doesnt like Stolitz, does not make them homophobic. I dont like Stolitz because it romanacizes a toxic relationship. Yes the show is fictional, but fiction has bleed into reality before.

I think this is the best video that hits the nail on the head. I am not trying to demonize people who like this ship. I HATE HARASSMENT.

To Critics/Haters: PLEASE DO NOT HARASS PEOPLE WHO LIKE THIS SHIP. While I find myself uncomfortable shipping relationships that are toxic, its imature to harass people over it. It does not make you a better person. Not all Stolitz shippers are horrible people, there are both horrible people in the Fandom and Hatedom. We already have many people in the community who left the community from both sides. So please be more open minded about this.

Thats all

[4pfsukuna]

Hiii❤️can you write some headcanons about sukuna with a asexual reader? It could be modern sukuna or any version. Of course you dont have to if youre not comfortable with it🙏

OMG Can i? This is my first request you can bet Sukunas masochism i can! Originally i had no idea what to write and then i had 17 ideas.

Then i began writing couldn’t save it as a draft it got deleted so now here’s the second idea i had.

It’s not often someone steals Sukunas attention but you do it with ease.

At first he’s annoyed by the way you stare at him with a deadpan gaze. No thoughts, no emotions just gaze.

He’s used to either fear, adoration or lust but you just give him a blank stare it’s torture…he kind of likes it.

• He likes listening to you read, sing and cook you do those things with such passion it engulfs you to the point of you forgetting he’s there.

That’s when he takes the time to Admire  your hair, dark pink curls that resemble the soft texture of cotton Candy… kinda smells like it to. (It’s vanilla) 

and no matter how many times you swat his hand away he cant help it…its pretty. Like you.

He’s infatuated and how dare you not be equally infatuated with him as he is with you?!

You get lots of…gifts. The head of a goat, skull of…something and the blood of your enemies. You don’t want to question how he got any of these things.

“What? Why do you not look happy?” He questions yet youre speechless unaware of the same dead gaze you’re still giving him. He cant read it but he knows its not joy.

“I shower it with gifts and yet still no emotions, these human things are so confusing”

“I’m not a thing or an it im a human and im not emotionless im asexual” 

Now its his turn for the blank stare except you can read his and hes completely confused.

You laugh at his idiocy, how can you not. Or maybe the irony of someone like Sukuna trying  to get you to show emotions.

He wants to hate you laughing at him but he likes the way your plump lips reveal your sharp teeth and you’re shaking with laughter.

He definitely ask uraume about asexuality. Uraume just stares— the same stare you give and it dawns on him uraume is also asexual. 

Sukuna is very hands on hes just adapted to different ways.

Biting? Yes he will bite you just for his own shits and giggles. Hard enough to leave bite marks but never enough to break skin…ok maybe once but he thinks its okay because your blood didnt make him want to eat you.

hes learned your blank stares at this point and this one means you think he’s an idiot.

He also will just randomly pick you up and sit you on his lap as you rant about the characters in your book. And when you think he isn’t listening…

“Sweetheart if they were real id dismember them and make a necklace of their blood for you to wear” he promises wrapping a curl of yours around his finger ignoring the countless times youve told him to stop touching your hair.

This results in you biting his hand. 

He likes having his hair played in, he won’t say it aloud but the soft groans he lets out that turn into snores is all the confirmation you needed.

Imagine how angry he was waking up to an empty bed, hair not being played with to see you talking to one of the guards in the middle of the night.

“Jealousy doesnt suit you, king Sukuna” and he hates when you call him that as if you were nothing more than just a servant and he meant nothing to you.

He uses all 4 arms to make sure he doesnt wake up in the mornings without you. Sometimes he’ll peak one if his eyes open and it’s never long before you feel his gaze and smile.

“Im still here… Now go to sleep before i poke you in your eye” Did you just threaten him? He smirks turning his head the other way… he wasnt willing to risk that.

You sometimes wondered if being asexual bothered him… it didn’t. He like that someone just wanted to spend time with him no fear, no lust, no requirements to do or be anything.

Especially after a long day of being king he just wants to rant about how annoying everyone is especially you since you weren’t there because you were soooo busy.

You went shopping with uraume, who seemed to like you for Sukuna. Though After spending the day with uraume you understood why they were bestfriends. Uraume was equally as unhinged just quiet.

He hates when you use your pointer fingers to direct his frown literally upside down. And your giggle that you let out… he needs to punch something— or turn away so you cant see him actually smile.

When it comes to dates he takes you to grand places he’s not a date person. He heard you talk about stars once so he takes you to the top of the castle and explains each constellation watching the way you hold onto every word with fascination.

Or he shows you his domain for the first time and tells you about war stories and as you look around at the piles of skeletons you notice this may be where he got the skull he gave you as a piece of him. 

You realize he might have a crush on you.

Or the day he avoids you completely after you yelled at him about plucking a fish from water just because only to wake you up at 2am to show you the koi fish pond he had installed with so many different colored fish.

Hes shocked when your tiny body hugs him, laughing in pure excitement before leaning over the lake admiring each and every fish.

Its when you turn back to him the same adoration on your face this time aimed at him that his brain lags for a second. He finally… FINALLY got what he’s been wanting for so long.

and like the greedy man he is he wants more vowing to say yes to whatever you want.

He doesnt process you running back into his arms with pure excitement until you speak.

“Can we get more? I think a bigger lake. Sukuna could you imagine a wall in our bedroom with these fish? Or a secret mini pond in the throne room that can only be accessed by us” 

And the sounds of we, our bedroom and us along with the way your bright eyes gaze up happily and hopefully at him makes his insides hot. 

You never talked about the status of your relationship but he was yours the moment you gazed at him with that deadpan expression. And the way his name rolled off your lips through your razor sharp teeth infatuated does nothing to explain how he feels about you.

[missmemisssixty]

this is on a bus back from camp

im thirteen and so are you

before i left for camp i imagined it would be me and three or four other dudes

i hadnt met yet running around all summer getting into trouble

it turned out it would be me and just one girl thats you

and were still at camp as long as were on the bus

and not at the pickup point where our parents would be waiting for us

were still wearing our orange camp tshirts we still smell like pine needles

i like you and you like me and i more than like you

but i dont know if you do or dont more than like me

youve never said so i havent been saying anything all summer

content to enjoy the small miracle of a girl choosing to talk to me

and choosing to do so again the next day and so on

a girl whos smart and funny and who if i say something dumb for a laugh

is willing to say something two or three times as dumb to make me laugh

but who also gets weird and wise sometimes in a way i could never be

a girl who reads books that no ones assigned to her

whose curly brown hair has a line running through it

from where she put a tie to hold it up while it was still wet

back in the real world we dont go to the same school

and unless one of our families moves to a dramatically different neighborhood

we wont go to the same high school

so this is kind of it for us unless i say something

and it might especially be it for us if i actually do say something

the suns gone down and the bus is quiet a lot of kids are asleep

were talking in whispers about a tree we saw at a rest stop

that looks like a kid we know

and then im like can i tell you something

and all of a sudden im telling you

and i keep telling you and it all comes out of me and it keeps coming

and your face is there and gone and there and gone

as we pass underneath the orange lamps that line the sides of the highway

and theres no expression on it

and i think just after a point im just talking to lengthen the time

where we live in a world where you havent said yes or no yet

and regrettably i end up using the word destiny

i dont remember in what context doesnt really matter

before long im out of stuff to say and you smile and say okay

i dont know exactly what you mean by it but it seems vaguely positive

and i would leave in order not to spoil the moment

but theres nowhere to go because were on a bus

so i pretend like im asleep and before long i really am

i wake up the bus isnt moving anymore

the domed lights that line the center aisle are all on

i turn and youre not there

then again a lot of kids arent in their seats anymore

were parked at the pickup point which is in the parking lot of a methodist church

the bus is half empty you might be in your dads car by now

your bags and things piled high in the trunk

the girls in the back of the bus are shrieking and laughing and taking their sweet time

disembarking as i swing my legs out into the aisle to get up off the bus

just as one of them reaches my row

it used to be our row on our way off

its michelle a girl who got suspended from third grade for a week

after throwing rocks at my head

adolescence is doing her a ton of favors bodywise

she stops and looks down at me

and her head is blasted from behind by the dome light so i cant really see her face

but i can see her smile and she says one word destiny

then her and the girls clogging the aisles behind her all laugh

and then she turns and leads them off the bus

i didnt even know you were friends with them

i find my dad in the parking lot he drives me back to our house and camp is over

so is summer even though theres two weeks until school starts

this isnt a story about how girls are evil or how love is bad

this is a story about how i learned something and im not saying this thing is true or not

im just saying its what i learned

i told you something it was just for you and you told everybody

so i learned cut out the middle man make it all for everybody always

everybody cant turn around and tell everybody everybody already knows i told them

but this means there isnt a place in my life for you or someone like you

is it sad sure but its a sadness i chose

i wish i could say this was a story about how i got on the bus a boy

and got off a man more cynical hardened and mature and shit

but thats not true the truth is i got on the bus a boy and i never got off the bus

i still havent

[leejenowrld]

back to you is so good im getting pissed bc id have to wait for a while like three more chapters BUT its also like i’m so engrossed that it doesnt matter I JUST NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS NEXT😭😭😭 but im also about to rup my headd off

you’re such an amazing writer btw♥️ atp you should really make a career out of it like your shit is CRAZY it deserves to be published in a hardcover book😭😭

(ps. pls give a LITTLE spoiler😭)

this message is everything. everything. i need you to know that — you have no idea how much it means to me that you feel that engrossed, like you want to rip your head off (i am right there with you, fully bald, screaming at my own keyboard). that’s exactly the energy i want you to feel in this story. i’m lowkey feeling the same but i also don’t want ‘back to you’ to end😭😭😭

and your words about publishing?? i am clutching my heart. truly. the fact that you would say it deserves to be in hardcover — i am so deeply grateful you see this story in that way. i pour my whole chest into every scene, every twist, every moment between them, and knowing it’s reaching you like this makes every single second of it worth it.

now… your little (big) spoiler because you deserve it. (future me will regret this) i haven’t actually written anything yet but i have a lot of plans so this is what i was able to come up with in a few minutes lol it’s not something that will be in the fic but more so teasing an arc i want to heavily explore <3 brace yourselves. i warned you.

there was a time, in college, when karina would’ve done just about anything to get jaemin to look at her the way he looked at every other girl in the room. she played it cool, of course, always cool, never desperate — she had too much pride for that. but it was there, in the quiet ways she lingered near him at parties, in the sharp one-liners she threw across the room just to see if he’d catch them. she watched him slip away with girl after girl, all eager to feel his mouth on their necks, his hands under their skirts, while he brushed karina off with little more than a polite smile. not my type, he told her once, flat and unapologetic. not looking for something casual. and the worst part? he meant it. there was no game in his voice, no hidden tease. jaemin, for all his reputation, had always been the kind of man who guarded his real appetite behind a smirk and a mystery, keeping some parts of himself tightly leashed, some lines even he wouldn’t cross.

but time is cruel. time cracks men open from the inside. time makes a man into what he swore he’d never be.

years later, they find each other again, not at some reckless college party, but across the wide sweep of a new york gala, lights burning cold over them, city alive outside the glass walls. he’s not the boy she once knew, and she’s not the girl who used to chase his shadow. they’ve both sharpened into versions of themselves they couldn’t have imagined. jaemin’s a pediatric resident now — and it’s almost funny, almost, if you don’t look too close at the jagged edges underneath. he carries himself with that same rakish charm, that careless roll of his shoulders, but there’s a hard shine in his eyes that wasn’t there before. a man who never expected to become anyone’s hero but stumbled into it anyway, all rough edges and unexpected tenderness, a product of too much pain layered over too many sleepless nights. he’s seen things. felt things. and instead of softening him, it’s carved him into someone dangerous.

karina’s no less of a weapon. she’s cutthroat in the industry now, creative director for a luxury fashion house, her signature dripping off campaigns across the city skyline. she doesn't chase anymore — she commands. her gaze, when it lands on jaemin across the gala, is assessing, cool, full of the kind of quiet contempt only a woman who has moved on can wear convincingly. her heels click as she crosses to him, silk dress hugging her frame like it was poured over her skin, her voice smooth and razor-sharp when she stops beside him at the bar.

"i don’t do boys who used to fuck their way through half of campus," she says, lifting her glass to her lips, eyes never leaving his face. her words are deliberate. calculated. because she knows the irony cuts deepest here, now, when they’ve both become exactly what they once weren’t. jaemin, who once turned her down with a straight face, is now the man she assumed he was back then — loose, reckless, fucking anything that’ll have him just to feel something pulse beneath his skin.

his smirk twists wider, but there’s something fractured in it, something that nearly aches to look at if you pay too much attention. he raises his glass in return, toasts her cool gaze, and lets the weight of history pull the corner of his mouth higher. "good thing i’ve got the whole half left," he replies, low and rough, like gravel under velvet.

but it’s not cockiness, not really. it’s hunger. it’s regret, twisted into want. it’s the unspoken memory of all the times he brushed her off, and the sharp sting of knowing she doesn’t need him now, not the way she once did. she watches him, just watches, like she’s peeling him apart with her eyes alone, and for the first time — maybe ever — jaemin feels like he’s the one being hunted.

there’s a moment, right then, that catches between them like a live wire. it thrums with every unspoken thing, every missed chance, every burn they thought time had buried but never really cooled.

and they both feel it.

god, they feel it.

[fairytaehl]

lgief rewatch eps. 4-5

okay, this is definitely the final in my little triology of posts here. i shared ep. 4 here and most of ep 5. here but tumblr has a photo limit and i cant speak without my visuals! and i wont make gifs, i want stills. so this is the last big post for ep. 5~

ep 1 / ep 2 / ep 3 / ep 4 pre-festival / ep 4 festival / ep 5, 5 part 2 / ep 6 / ep 7 / ep 8 / ep 9 / ep 10

STARTING OFF STRONG WITH THE BEST SCENE. oh, you guys dont even know how many times i replayed this on my FIRST watch. 10 times? 15 times? way more than necessary. whoever directed this deserves every award possible. i mean, COME ON.

she's desperately looking for her dad, in an absolute fire hazard of a costume, and who grabs her to save her? MU SHENG!!! the way he grips her arm and stares so intensely. oh my gosh, i could not believe this was 0%. 0%? HOW IS THIS ZERO PERCENT? and i wont dive much into it here but when i read this post about yaos it made me totally think his 0% has to be much different than what humans would feel at 0%. (my friend also said his measured in celsius instead of fahrenheit.)

"are you out of your mind?" YEAH. SHE IS. logically she should've caught on fire and had to backflip into the river like one of the guards.

going as far as to beg him to help her, even knowing he planned on doing something to get her dad punished for justice, grasping him and pleading, meanwhile hes looking at her like she's crazy.

he looks just as hot as the scene around him... jesus.

and the way he sees how frantic she looks and forcibly turning her around, hands on her shoulders. oh we're in deep, arent we?

i wont include it, but then her saying "why is it full?" and him looking away, i think he had the same question too, but i wonder if he felt weird because even she was questioning it...

sorry, the way he sneaks up here... gosh he has NO bad angles. and then confronts him about why he seems disappointed, ugh, we love a justice-seeking baddie.

moving on to much later, as even though we had some physical contact between the two from here with her stopping him from destroying all of the funds her dad used, i dont know if i have that much to say! i mean, him and fuyi having a tense moment with the crates was symbolic of their relationship, ill mention.

his head tilt... so cute... and miaomiao looks extra adorbs too. i know we compare him to a cat a lot but this was very puppy-like of him.

wiping his hands after burning the fake accounting book and acting like it was nothing when she stares at him. uh huh, sure, it was just for justice, totally.

oh please, her calling him out on being a softie... you got him down already, cause he really is! acting so tough because he suspects her, but lets be real, you cant hate her now that you know her. again, knowing when shes looking, and asking "what are you looking at" as if he doesnt know!!! this whole scene i couldnt help myself but say "tsundere, smh"

and even after saying "this isnt over since you stole my precious sisters snack from me" hes STILL just baaaaarely got a smile on his face... yes, the percentage changes next ep back to negative but... he was already falling here, lets not get it twisted.

would you believe i still hit photo limit? sigh... life as a shipper is so hard. i love these two. i might keep doing this, not because i have any true analysis of anything deep (though i could), but simply because i love how ding yuxi portrays ziqi, and how esther yu portrays miaomiao. they sold it so well, where every expression and movement matters, and you can see the characters (mostly ziqi) changing based off how they react. oh its so good...

[tenaciouschronicler]

January 26-28 2025 2010

I thought the effigies of the Felt were neat for making sure spare hats were in place and ready but I didnt realize that anything that happened to the Felt member would also show on the effigy.

We have two burned ones and a hole filled one reflecting the members weve seen. Its also important to note that Stitch says "[Fin] should be just fine if [the effigy] can be patched up" implying the Felt is not just a name. I didnt really put much thought into what the Felt could be, thinking them just a different color of carapace for the intermission, so to have it implied they are a different kind of species is wild. On the next page where Fin bleeds out it actually shows that the burned state is not because they were burned but instead a reflection of the fact a member is dead.

But does that really matter in the face of Clubs Deuce?

Everybody out of the god damn way. You got a hat full of bomb, a fist full of penis, and a head full of empty.

Barreling in with a not-so-dangerous C4 bomb, he acts as a distraction as Doog sneaks in and knocks Stitch unconsious. He emplys the same tactic as Deuce and shoves Stitch into his Brawlsoleum both as a potential personal tailor and to use against English later on. We get a quick look at more time shenanigans with Boxcars before Slick removes Crowbars pin taking him to an alternate timeline.

Here, the MC and Felt are in the midst of a gun fight in some other part of the mansion. Now weve seen timelines along a, supposed, single stream in the main story, but now we are getting a taste at potential building blocks to open up the possibility of seeing different timelines. I dont know how well or how much that will come into play in the main story but it may be a possibility at some point and Im curious how/if that will play out.

We also get a look at the mysterious Snowman, a femme fatal character of the same black carapace as the MC. This would explain why Slick wont kill her outright, if she was originally part of the MC and defected thats probably a worse offence than just being a rival gand member. Everyone stops the gunfire as she makes her way to the fray. @homestuckreplay made a connection with the 8 cue ball to a magic 8 ball and its very apparent in the way Snowmans text is typed out on a black textbox and slowly fades in, much like when you shake an 8 ball.

But another thing of note for me is remember how I said no MC member had an equivilant weapon to Rose? Well, if Snowman was originally an MC member then here is the match.

Slick gets stabbed in the eye with a needle while Snowman carries on her merry way. Now at this point Im gonna take everyone back a few updates.

Remember this doll in Johns room? I originally connected the 'injuries' to the harlequin doll in Johns house, but now I propose in some odd way this is an effigy of SLICK/JACK. Mark my words, there will be a point where the intermission and main story intersect and I believe its gonna happen when both these characters have injuries that reflect the doll. Slick is already halfway there and its weird to think it may be predestined.

Conspiracies aside, theres another thing to note about Snowman, "If you kill her you destroy the universe." Now thats a pretty wild jump from the normal time powers and as best I can tell may mean destroying her causes time to cease (which doesnt cause much issue in the Incipisphere). Or, being different from the Felt, destroying her affects space and reality. I have no real basis for this theory without seeing more of Snowman and potentially Lord English, but Im gonna set this here to marinate for now.