#is it some kind of body dysmorphia

[mochela]

the body i own feels is different from the body i am

[qoldenskies]

mentioned donnie is shown to be pretty chill about being a mutant now im thinking and like,,,, ive always kind of headcanoned raph to be the one out of the four with the biggest complex about it. he's the most physically imposing (which makes him the hardest to hide in plain sight, and people are more likely to be afraid of him), and being the oldest he's had to worry a LOT about keeping them safe from other people. also i think it would explain his dismissive behavior in bug busters really well?? like he's just being petty towards leo because he thinks he's a contrarian, theyre just like that with each other, but i think raph would be the MOST comforted by the fact that there are people like him. that there's a whole community of them.

ive already seen a lot of people interpret him as just as insecure of his size as he is relieved by being able to use it, so i enjoy the idea of going a little harder. make him harbor some resentment, feel insecure about his place in the world because he in particular was taught to be afraid as the oldest. its fun

[ihavetoomanyocsdealwithit]

Can be read platonically or romantically/beginning of relationship.

Summer Celebrations were well underway, and the Lounge was blossoming. The seamless designs of glass walls and cavern arches blending into familiar walls was time staking. Some portions and rooms weren’t exactly symmetrical, and other areas were some interesting shapes but he loves it. He loves the work and painstaking time he put into it.  

Yuu did as well, he knows that. Often finding her simply curled up on the couches facing the tanks and watching the wave of coral and fish. It was one of the reasons she got along so well with all three of them. An appreciation for land, but a fascination with the ocean. Where he found calm and intrigue on the sands, she found it within the waves.  

But he hasn’t found her curled on the couches, or even lingering in the breakrooms. She wasn’t stopping to chat with any coworkers, or even eating during her required breaks. Her jaw was clenched, her smile polite but tight, and she had even snapped at Floyd. She had apologized immediately afterwards, but the point stood.  

Azul thinks he knows exactly what it is, when he sees her fidget with her uniform again as she ran food. Azul thinks he understands exactly.  

It’s the end of the night, and he asks to see her after changing out of her uniform. When she walks in, she looks tired, that’s not unusual. What is the obnoxiously large black hoodie and sweatpants.  

“Ms. Yuu,” Azul starts, setting aside his pen, “Welcome! May I offer you a drink?” 

“I thought we were past the point of pleasantries, Azul.” she sighs, trying to muster a smile. “What do you need?”  

“Very well, to the point then.” He circles to the front of the desk, leaning against the front. “I’ve received some reports of some out of character behavior from you-” 

“Has it impeded my job?” she interrupts.  

“...No.”  

“Have I been harmful to the business or my coworkers?” she asks, hands tight in her pockets. 

“No.” he sighs, crossing his arms. 

“Then you have nothing to worry about and it’ll pass. If that’s all-” 

“Fine!” he snaps, standing fully. “Fine, I’m not asking as your boss. I’m-as your friend. As somebody who-I think what-maybe...” 

“Where’d that silver tongue go, eh?” she laughs but it’s humorless.  

“Oh, hush!” Azul was never good at this part, fixing his glasses “I’m getting there.”  

He looks out the window of the VIP room, into the lounge itself. They both watch the slow movement of a shark across the room. 

“Floyd tells me that he sees you all the time at the gym recently, at least twice a day. I’m guessing that’s where you're going now?” She doesn’t say anything, pulling the hoodie closer to her body. Azul would understand, she thinks, she knows he might, but she doesn’t know if he could handle her like. If she trusts him enough to not use it as blackmail in the future. But if anybody would understand in this college of entitled, take everything for granted- 

“I lost 50 lbs.” He flinches. “I lost it. I gained muscle and strength. I worked. I worked damn hard. I’m proud of the work I have put in. But I’m never-” she looks down at her shoes, “I’m never going to look like people like Floyd or even Deuce. All the extra fucking skin-”  

He nods, feeling his own throat tighten. Yes, nobody mentions how it hangs, how the stretch marks reach for any available surface. That the mirror never looks right compared to what you can do.  

“And I just-It’s not fair. I know life isn’t fucking fair but damn it!” Her hands wave at her figure before just ripping the hoodie off. “When does it get better?” she looks at him, gesturing to her body, “When-” she chokes, gripping at the baggy t-shirt. “When do I finally get to feel beautiful?” 

He pulls her close, her head dropping to his shoulder and muffling the sounds of quiet tears. Tears that he recognizes all too well. His arms go around her waist, rubbing her back and letting her go. It’s not uncomfortable, surprisingly. Even when she hugs him back, arms wrapped his waist, and he doesn’t worry if she can feel his body through the shirt. It’s perhaps the first time that has ever happened.  

“I can’t tell you that.” he whispers. “But I can tell you that I like you regardless. I enjoy you regardless. I will continue to. And that until you can believe so and even after, I will find you absolutely lovely.”  

Yuu nods, and neither of them say anything when they finally separate and there is a wet spot on her shoulder.  

“I will believe for you too.” She whispers, wrapping the hoodie around her waist. 

Azul only smiles softly. There is a small part of him that wants to disregard it or laugh it off. It’s what he’s done with every other person who has ever hinted as much, even the twins. But a smaller part, smaller than the little pot that he grew up in, wants to believe her.  

[agir1ukn0w]

Ariana: Don’t comment on my body, do not reply.

everyone: she looks so skinny and unhealthy it’s making me wanna starve myself

[tired-and-unjellied]

Would it feel right to have a character with regeneration powers have plenty of scars while one without only has one or two?

they both like(d) to get in the thick of a fight

[homestyle-silences]

I feel like more therapists should recommend playing with fake blood as a way to curb the impulse to sh.

[multiversegideons]

I need to stop speaking negatively about my body

[theskeletoninthegarden]

Will I always be sure to wedge Marcy Playground's A Robe of Elvenkind into every story I can where it can be seen as being even slightly relevant? Yes, yes I will.

[yvmoveon]

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[mercurialmagpie]

not to get emo on main but like. how do I learn to think of myself in third person. I think that stomachs on other women are very pretty and attractive and soft. but I look in the mirror and I dont like my own. how do I see myself the way I see other people. what button do I press to turn on 3pov.

[vole-mon-amour]

it's hard to deal sometimes with the fact that all you touch and all you see is all your life will ever be. that there is/(are) no other world(s), no other life, no other possibilities to experience some fantasy life (non human, agender, other sex and gender, out of human body experience, out of ANY body experience, shapeshifting, other fantasy races, etc). I want so much more than this life and this body are able to give me.

upd: a woman with no reproductive organs is still a woman (if she wants to identify that way). a woman with a penis is still a woman (if she wants to identify that way). sex/gender related anatomy sucks.

[littleeyesofpallas]

I can't tell if I fully appreciate or resent the sort of recent-ish trend of truly shallow, post-Record of Ragnarok, fight series that have become so genre savvy and who know their audiences are too, that they just forego even the pretense of a plot and will just roll out a fighting tournament roster in chapter 1.

On the one hand it's not like the fights weren't going to be the selling point in the long run anyway, so why distract from it. Like, every giant monster movie or just martial arts film, you kind of always just suffer through the human drama waiting for the next action scene, and even/especially the good ones just sort of leave you wishing there'd been more fights.

But also, I dunno, it feels a little uninspired? Unambitious? Not lazy per say, but kind of visionless? It's like the Hoyoverse of manga in terms of blandness, but at least Hoyo presents the pretense of being an interactive experience, even if their games are mechanically just polished dogshit. I'll hand it to them, at least these weird featureless fight manga tend to have a more diverse array of character types than any hoyo roster.

Like i dunno maybe i'm just being a hypocrite because there has always been stuff like Ikki Tousen or Basilisk that have kind of a similar set up, right down to the vague and confused pseudo-historical links, but like even those had subplots and diversions. I mean, arguably something long standing like Baki isn't so different, but I dunno Baki still has this pretense of having a plot that develops, even if that plot is inevitably just a string of fights, it doesn't have like clear line from start to finish visible from the get go, you know?

Like, Tenjou Tenge is ostensibly really close to quality and structure to these kinds of thing too, but Tenjou Tenge had the decency(?) to get so far up its own ass with backstory that it just lapsed into like a hundred chapters of flashback where we legit didnt even see the protagonist for like a year of publication. And that's a ridiculous thing to be able to say about a series but that's absolutely more interesting than being shown a fighting tournament bracket 19 pages in and then just sticking to that roadmap for 20 volumes.

I dunno what I'm getting at here, but it just feel odd to me. Like for all the incidental or superficial similarities to previous trends it's somehow a different breed, and i don't know how i feel about it.

Actually speaking of hoyos crap approach to character design, I think I can blame this trend as having spun out of some weird mid range videogames that really peaked in the mid-late 00s. Crap like fate, and countless digital card gatcha things, and whatever that one big tactics game with the historical figures all turned into waifus, and the one notoriously expansive card game with the ww2 battleships that that god awful strike witches anime was spun off of... Ya know, the art first, story never, and fill the gaps with existing historical references so we don't have to write anyone's back story ourselves modys operandi

[tanksarefluffy]

Idk how many people this will be helpful to, but i came to the realization that the parts of my body I am most insecure about are the parts I inherited from the native american side. This lead me to question how much of my self-esteem issues around my body came from trying to conform to Eurocentric beauty standards that parts of my body have no way of conforming to.

I’m sure POC can and have explained it much better, but if you are constantly conforming to unrealistic standards you are really shooting yourself in the foot in the area of forming a realistic view of your body. Just because your body is different from the beauty standard does not mean it’s ugly, it means that your ancestors needed this type of body part to survive. Just because you are not the norm does not mean you are abnormal, infact you likely conform to a different norm.

Basically this is all to say if you start to beat yourself up about your body try to remember that the standards you’re aspiring to are steeped in racism and do not paint a realistic view of what is actually beautiful. Most importantly, you can and should find beauty in yourself and all the traits that helped your ancestors survive.

[kalashtars]

venting in the tags yippeee

[tarotmantic]

through a combination of severe depression, autism, an intense desire to never be perceived, gender fuckery, and aroaceness, I completely swerved the performative femininity/body dysmorphia thing and i still don't have a skincare routine

[deliciouskeys]

I just needed to point out that the graphic is based on a season 1 (episode 5) screencap 😏

I haven’t gotten around to putting up my SDCC poster yet, but it’s striking how fat he looks. I was really taken about by how overweight he was last season (the one that was so bad it gave me a thyroid infection,) practically to the point of obesity. It was so much weight to put on in only a few months. He looked much better in season three.

It’s gross when men are fat. And they don’t have to be, it’s a series of poor lifestyle choices for them. There’s nothing evolutionary about it.