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the body i own feels is different from the body i am
#it feels like shit#i dont even know what it is#i dont relate to trans people experiences#is it some kind of body dysmorphia#maybe? but i dont know#there is something inherently wrong about my body#it never looks like how i feel like it should look like#my hair my face my proportions#it all feels off#it feels like im disconnected from it#but i dont know if i should call it body dysmorphia#i wished it could stop#i stopped looking at myself in the mirror#getting ready#taking pictures of myself#i stopped drawing myself#and when that happens it means something is wrong#like my body is something too terrible to look at#too horrendous#but at the same time. if i rationaly think about it#i think i'm not ugly#i'm ok#i'm good#people have compliment me and i have people who fell in love with me#but it feels like i can fool people to think i'm pretty just because i doll myself up#i am naturally horrendous i am artificially beautiful
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The books reveal that Ford is actually a secret partier
(Available as a print on my Etsy Shop)
(wips under cut)
#doctorsiren#gravity falls#the book of bill#billford#journal 3#stanford pines#bill cipher#jheselbraum the unswerving#gravity falls fanart#digital art#my art#procreate#RAHH MY LOVE FOR MAKING MIDCENTURY-STYLE ART AT TIMES CAME IN SUPER HANDY#I think I surprised myself here 😳#(also don’t take this as shipping him and Jhes 😭💀 that’s his space fish mom 😁)#in the book of bill. obviously he and bill get drunk that time#and then in the 3rd journal#it says that after Jhes told him he had the face of the man who would defeat bill (meaning stanley lmao)#he ‘was so excited’ that he and Jhes ‘spent the entire night partying and drinking cosmic sand’#it’s funny bc Jhes is described as speaking with a steely resolve and is very calm#so it’s silly to me to picture her partying haha#I might make this one a print as well bc I really love how it looks#I’ll print it out tomorrow and decide if it’ll work well enough :) if it does I’ll put it on my shop#😭 the bill…his thumb is backwards BUT THATS NOT MY FAULT THATS LITERALLY HOW IT IS IN THE BOOK OF BILL PAGE THAT I REFERENCEDTHIS FROM WAHH#he can do whatever he wants ig
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they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?
they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.
you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.
you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.
mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.
you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.
#writeblr#warm up#to be clear let me state again: i think you should id however you fucking want if it helps you seek peace#but there is a HUGE difference between being like '.... im undiagnosed but i think i might be X'#and a person who is like ''omg my intrusive thoughts made me buy a birkin!!!''#babe mine made me throw up bc they disgusted me so much <3#mine made me hurt myself evenly. even when i wanted to stop. i have had to put my hand on the stove MULTIPLE TIMES#and again i'd rather have 10000 people get help for something they don't need help for#than have 1 kid NOT get help#but there has GOTTTTT to be a middle ground here#bc at this point it isn't ''raising awareness''#it's . fucking misinformation. and ''what this picture says about you!!!!!''#& yes! im mostly talkin about ppl who are actually disgusted and offended by signs of mental illness#but use it to defend THEIR actions#like babe you hate when kids start yelling in the walmart? but you YOuRSELF can yell?#you are depressed so it's fine you were cruel to your spouse?#but if your spouse spends too much time in bed she's a lazy fuck?#your partner needs to do everything for you bc of your history in trauma? but when SHE has needs she's being clingy and gross?#HUGE difference here between whom i think most of my followers are btw. like#all it takes is fucking anyyyy empathy or kindness . like.#anyway it's hard to explain im hoping we all know the person im talking about lol
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Okay okay, NOW i'm done- (kind of a redraw of that one screencap from bon voyage, but also extended!)
#one piece#straw hat pirates#mugiwara crew#rorona zoro#monkey d. luffy#sanji#tony tony chopper#cat burglar nami#usopp#robin is taking the picture :)#i have no buisness making chopper so cute but I can't help myself
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precious idiots
#opla#one piece live action#one piece#monkey d luffy#roronoa zoro#guys i was never much of a zolu shipper but this show is making me go feral for them#what's my poor poor heart gonna do when sanji enters the picture#the monster trio it is then#now i'm finding out how little fanfic there is on them like???#i always though they were a popular ship#puts hands onto hips and huffs#do i have to do everything myself around here#guess i shall take this opportunity to dive back into one piece fanart it's been far too long a
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My ocs, Sir and Ser, aka the eldritch malevolent policemen 😔
#art#my art#oc#original characters#basically Sir came into existence during Russian empire#when the table of ranks was in its full power#so he is really competetive and individualistic#and sneaky in his misconducts#Ser came to existence during USSR#he is a perfect soviet picture of a police fugure that gone wrong#but at least he is more determined to adapt to the world changing#because he really wants to be a part of the community (you know... communism)#because of the same reason he follows Sir around#at first Sir despised him#bc the last thing that you wanted during the table of ranks historical period is for someone to take the higher place than you in hierarchy#and Ser WAS “created” to replace Sir#but in the end they both became the remnants of the past#so they mutually grew on each other#i have like...a whole story segment about them psychologically torturing one of my protagonists#but I cant help myself and draw some silly arts with them when the mood strikes#tfsg
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I made a Sebastian Solace mask + tail!
this is mostly a makeshift cosplay and not meant to be 100% on model. I might remake the tail for Halloween.
for the mask, I've used a feline base, for the tail I've used plush fabric and felt fabric - all hand-sewn.
#maskerat crafts#sebastian solace#roblox#pressure roblox#roblox pressure#sebastian pressure#pressure sebastian#cosplay#i will take a picture whilst wearing this attire. but probably later on. I'd need to edit the photo and draw over myself.#sewing#whale tail#pressure fanart#sebastian solace fanart#handmade
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get in little one 💕
#I could lure sooooo many dumb puppy girls in here#myself included#I haven’t even gotten in yet#just taking pictures as got me 🥵#mine
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POV: You’re never going to forget your night with the trans girl who beat your ass at Virtual On.
#mech fighting games rule#girls like us#trans#trans is beautiful#sexier in motion#queer nsft#trans nsft#t4t nsft#girlslikeus#transgender#transisbeautiful#secret tag (reblog if read): i came in between taking the picture and posting cause I was so turned on by myself
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#photo#water#ocean#california coast#all taken of the same patch of water more or less over less than a minute#also. i don't by habit do postprocessing of images besides cropping so no exposure adjustment#it's aN aRtIsTic cHoIcE#or. laziness.#or: a challenge to myself to get the shot right in the moment and learn the camera#or: i don't enjoy it in itself#whereas I do enjoy the act of taking pictures#and i don't have to spend time on what i don't enjoy!#so here have my over and underexposed images that reflect that i was captivated in the moment by the swell of the waves and not thinking -#of the metering. imperfection a reflection of joy in a transient thing and also lack of skill
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Pick your poison,
Charles "Sounds a lot like you, maybe that's why I like her so much" Rowland
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Edwin "I keep attracting freaky ass guys towards me (Crow, cat and own bully/murderer)" Payne
#dead boy detectives#edwin payne#edwin paine#charles rowland#dead boy detective agency#dead boy detective spoilers#dead boy detectives agency#dead boy detectives spoilers#cat king#monty#i'm so normal about them#rip simon#had to take his picture myself#mixed feelings about him tho#so i dont feel that bad#forever cannot come soon enough#season 2 please#im not saying anything#but does this make Edwin a furry#attract all sort of guys except his own crush#bless his heart#i need charles and edwin to smooch
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coming soon to a pasture near you <3
#it's so hard to remind myself to smile in pictures lmaoooo#i am such a :| ass bitch when it comes to taking pictures#it’s meee
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#ts4#sims 4#sims#simblr#sims 4 townie makeover#oh my GHUWRHGUIER H#the last one literally took me like a month because i felt like i was ruining her the more i tweaked#but i kept going and made peace with just making her over to look more like how the sims i make look#and i still have more sims to makeover in my inbox </3#also bottom sim by winkious!#i will never forgive myself for forgetting to take a different picture with my new reshade </3
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🕳️✨
#honkai impact#kiana kaslana#herrscher of the void#black hole#i caffeinated myself and instead of just one i drew a bunch of pictures again#now im worried that all those pics will now take attention away from what i want to show the most
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more Andrew Minyard 🧍♂️
#Love taking silly little pictures of myself for these poses#I feel so cool#aftg#andrew minyard#aftg fanart#My art#all for the game#Andrew showing concern??#Neil watching this interaction like 👁️👁️
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Little Megumi takes Gojo's picture on his Graduation day, (2008)
"They only had each other." 🩷
please zoom in for better quality and close-up details like satoru's yellow socks with hearts on them and megumi's pink Nike shoes (I spent an awful amount of time on them😭) I'm still new at drawing backgrounds but I like how this turned out.
(Reference below) Reblogs and Shares always appreciated! thank you💕
#they only had each other#imagine shoko taking this picture#I'm gonna make myself cry#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#gojo satoru#steve rogers#gojou#megumi fushiguro#dad gojo#gojo fanart#gojo satoru megumi fushiguro#artists on tumblr#satoru gojou#gojou satoru#megumi#jjk megumi#jjk 0#jjk season 2#jujutsu kaisen season 2#hidden inventory arc#teen gojo#jjk gojo#satoru#jjk satoru#shoko ieiri#fushiguro megumi#jjk fanart#jjk manga#my art
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