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settling in at their new apartment
#is it any bigger than the last one? no#do i just like making myself suffer? yes#ts4 gameplay#ts4#the sims 4#randomlegacy#rlgen1#tala#diwa#m
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doggone it!
#bird art#impulsesv#skizzleman#tangotek#bdoubleo100#ethoslab#zombie cleo#traffic smp au#trafficblr#the dog tag#sizing is not consistent between each section as impulse is slightly bigger than cleo as a large american bully#but if i made bdubs any smaller hed be microscopic#also shoutout to that one person who called grian a griffon on the last post#he isnt- but bdubs is!
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call him cake cause he's got layers baby
#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#ryu ga gotoku 2#yakuza series#yakuza 2#yakuza kiwami 2#daigo dojima#snap sketches#he doesnt have any cake himself tho </3#prob like. average.#anyway Its No Secret i draw daigo a bit. Different.#and sometimes i forget the add ons i do for him#and my last 'model' sheet is crusty SO new one and i figured id share it :)#my biggest struggled with drawing daigo is his puffer.. idk why every time i draw it he just looks bigger than i want him to#so this was originally just supposed to be Jacket Practice and maybe ill do a bit of that later#but then i was like. EEEEEE model time#my biggest crime with drawing daigo is that i get rid of his leather pants but the ripped jeans speak to me on a personal level#ignore the fact i hate jeans listen they look great on everyone else#ok i should probably get food or something. bye#my ass gon look like daigo's emaciated self if i dont walk down to the pub and get a panini or somethin ☠️
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we are so fucking back. despite intending to go into vlr/ztd spoiler free i could not handle it anymore and ended up spoiling myself on a few things (...not everything bc its Mostly just related to characters I care abt and im gonna try and gaslight myself into pretending I didn't see it anyway).
but oh my fucking god clocking phi as transfem in the first hour of vlr was some incredible foresight because she is even more transgender than I thought
original post here if anyone wants to see it or my additional reblog but god. im crazy
#trevor.txt#okay obviously i know how this conversation goes later and it's about phi actually having red hair but dying it#but something about the phrasing of it all is kind of. Okay#plus she specifically says she dyes it white because she doesn't like how it looks red#and plus the framing of the character models - from a filming perspective Even Tjough They Are Kind Of Ugly makes it sound like she's going#to reveal something much bigger than just I Dye My Hair Guys. maybe thats part of the joke but like. stick with me here#also it is kind of a stereotype to be like trans = dying your hair but i did. mine's dyed partially blue. i know SEVERAL other trans people#who have or want to dye theirs#^ which is kind of just a funny concidence but also like. has a lot to do with your sense of identity too? cutting/dying your hair for a lo#of trans people is kind of like. a huge part of transitioning or whatever. if this makes any sense because i sound somewhat crazy here? but#it def plays into gender euphoria/dysphoria commonly#in regards to the second point: kind of a weird trope i've seen a few times but when you view it through a transfem lens#it comes across as a gender dysphoria thing a bit#i would know from my own experiences. like it's obviously kind of the other way around bc im a trans Guy but like...#and then the last image. okay man. this was in the trivia section for ztd.#i don't even think i have to explain that one#anyways i sound a bit crazy with this but like. does anyone understand me. do you get it.#zero escape#zero escape phi#zero time dilemma#ztd#phiposting
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Happy autumn guys. In celebration I offer. uh. um. silly horror podcast
#totally not nervous to post stuff for a bigger fandom I just joined hehe#<- lying he’s lying he’s terrified#still kind of figuring out how to draw characters you don’t rly see ever at all#getting a lot of inspiration from fanart but still#I went only a bit crazy and got through 4 seasons in less than two months. so this is the result#very silly non serious doodles#except for the last one#I rly liked the buried episode#tma spoilers#the Magnus archives#tma#tma fanart#Crab Doodles#eeeeeeeeeeee ok after this I’m doing OC art I need a break from the anxiety of big fandoms#tw claustrophobia#tw scopophobia#god someone let me know if I left out any warnings plz plz plz
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me, procrastinating on one project with another one: it's fine they're both for content I do this for the people and the people will receive SOMETHING sooner by me working on either one 😤
#*6 more pages to finish for next lemon chapter (issa long chapter cause last one was shorter than usual)#10+(I think) insert illustration linework and 30+ colour left for next matriarchy video (and then the rest of the remaining editing too)#something about lemons#matriarchy#both have some bits of art so far that I am really really happy with bc they look cool as hell#(and I can't post YET BC OF SPOILERS AAAHH)#as part of my recent to current crisis of faith and identity and disillusionment with media industry among other things#I have arrived at a point of not measuring my content by industry standards anymore#as in like it is not about whether it's marketable or will ever be monetiseable#it's fucking art#it's not supposed to be marketable or monetiseable#it's about making it cause it's fun and you want to and the people enjoy it#and by that measure any content I post is of equal value regardless of production quality or subject as long as y'all enjoy it#and no amount of industry recognition or lack thereof will ever change that#that's the point of being an online creator#fan work original work academic theory work big budget industry work etc etc etc all of equal value#even if I ever do get a budget for something it won't change a damn thing about the worth of the resulting piece of art#even if I ever get it more widely published than my own pond it'll merely make that pond bigger for all my work
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abby might genuinely be one of the most poorly written sympathetic/grey characters ive ever encountered im forever thinking about how they tried to make her some sort of parallel to joel, an actual well written sympathetic/grey character, and fucked it up so badly
#muscles dont make a character interesting lol#she fr did so many ugly things got all her friends killed relished in murder and torture of friends and foes#doesn’t show any remorse doesn’t show at all how years of dreaming of revenge#and then getting it fuck her up like she’s fine lol#her relationship with lev is rushed and it’s 2 days and they want you to believe she’s earned some sort of redemption through him#and beyond all that she’s so bland lol#the writing fucked her over too like she could a) not been the top soldier in her FASCIST militia#and b) they could have spent more time with her and built her an interesting arc that did work as a parallel to joel#if they’d just kept her story separate#neil’s issue was he wanted to do an abby story but he also wanted to make sure ppl who loved ellie and joel bought the game Lmao#so he lied and he tried to ham fist them into the same story and it was a mess#imagine if abby had encountered lev on her way to joel and helped him and through that realised she didn’t need revenge#it wasn’t gonna help#and it could have helped her understand joel’s choice#that could have broken that cycle of violence in a much more interesting way#rather than them completely breaking ellie and taking everything away from her and she still having to be the bigger person lol#abby continues the cycle of violence and is rewarded and redeemed through the narrative#and the person who actually breaks the cycle is the one who loses everything#make it make sense#the last of us spoilers
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A few quick random tidbits about Yanshang Teahouse:
— Teahouse/casino. While said to be 'disguised' as a teahouse, Yanshang does seem to genuinely function as one, or at least during the daytime. And it's primarily during the evening hours that it functions more actively as a casino. Now I need to note, the latter is not public knowledge. Or rather, it's more so a rumor that holds a fair bit of truth to it. But a rumor is a rumor nonetheless. This is vital, because it is because of this that it is still running. I've spoken a fair bit about this behind the scenes lately, but Yanshang functions as a casino because it draws 'less than good people' into a surrounding that has everything playing against them, and through that, Yelan is able to gather intelligence that benefits everyone, especially Ning. So if the latter for example, Ningguang were to know its full ins and outs, it would actually mean that she'd have to turn a blind eye to something that is not fully legal, which spells all kinds of trouble for the person responsible for, well, the law in Liyue Harbor?
— Gambling. Yelan has gained a reputation for her gambling skills, and is even rumored to cheat when the need calls for it (though of course, this isn't picked up on, it seems!), as is noted in her fifth character story: "If there is a draw, that could only mean one thing: Her opponents are cheating too.", and so potential opponents are advised to steer clear of playing against her through word on the streets of the harbor.
— Home? While this is not Yelan's home whatsoever, there is an upstairs area that is something akin to her 'private quarters'. It holds no personal affects that are tied to her directly, but to an extent, if one were to ever intrude/break in (past The Halbert and the Fang, somehow), you'd find the 'guise' tied to this notorious woman who owns Yanshang. But this guise is not quite her. Again, she works in personas, some much more realistically than others (the art of it, is knowing what of yourself you put into personas as to add to their authenticity's longevity). Either way, there is a comfort and peace that she finds in it, and the room is somewhat styled into a decorum that Yelan appreciates, beyond the 'keeping up appearances' aspect to it. It is hers in the end, to some degree.
— Finances. While one would be led to believe that Yelan gains a lot of financial benefits through Ningguang, Yelan's second character story might beg to differ: 'The way (Yelan) sees it, she is not so much working for Ningguang as making good on her end of the deal, or rather... she is honoring a certain pact. She plucks the fruits of intelligence from the tree of danger for Ningguang, and in return, all she asks for is danger itself and the sense of achievement.' While I'm decently certain that Yelan might occasionally stand to gain some sort of financial gain through the Qixing, it seems evident that it's not what her primary motive is. Yelan seems to not be interested in luxury by default (she lived in a hut for a long time), and more so seeks a sense of freedom, thrill and personal achievement. Now do I think that because of this, she's not well off? No, I simply think that the majority of her income may actually come from Yanshang Teahouse, and, to put it not-so-eloquently, ripping off bandits, and hopefully, specifically some Fatui in the process.
#[ meta. ] the chances are if i open this door; there can be no witnesses left alive. is that a sufficient reason for you?#[ a big motivator for the last one also is that the security and 'receptionist' for yanshang never changed after yelan took it over. ]#[ which tells me they're likely loyal to coin (as most in that field are to be fair) or are subject to blackmail. ]#[ one may be tempted to think the latter; but that's not quite... safe enough. as in jail there's resentment that forms and then... ]#[ word of mouth and they'd become yelan's (or the tea house's) enemies rather than keeping them neutral or friendly. ]#[ so i like to think it's coin. but also considering the direct trade route/delivery route that we know canonically runs from... ]#[ chenyu vale to yanshang-- there's /got/ to be enough money in circulation there. ]#[ she has a decent pouch of mora on her. that and an even bigger pouch of favors people owe her (and vice versa). ]#[ any way; i'll likely be adding to this! ]
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#rant#i think one of the most annoying things about being fat is having to be so conscious of how often you say you wanna be skinny#like oop don't wanna be annoying to the skinny people in my life#oh don't wanna piss off the people who are bigger than me in my life too#also it's not that easy to get skinny when you're poor and busy#i can't afford to buy another sports bra in my size because I'm a 32 M#the last one i bought didn't fit#any now my sister who started ozempic is comparing bodies with me as if she hasn't been fatter than me our entire lives#and I've always made sure never to talk about my body or food intake around her because i knew she waa jealous#i remained completely body neutral#and now this bitch is comoaring body composition bitch you're on ozempic and unemployed shut the fuck up#i can't imagine hiw kuch worsw it is for people who are bigger than me
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the question isn't do I want to see Slipknot in August it's do I want to see Slipknot by myself
#I've never been to a metal show bigger than the ones at this little church in my home town lol#but#man#LOL my bestie WAS saying he wants to go a concert any concert#like he almost talked me into seeing the fucking goo goo dolls last year but then we forgot lol#no way in hell he'd let me drag him to that tho
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The amount of talking and negotiating I'm doing with this landlord is giving Andrew Garfield as Jonathan Larson talking to the electric company. Y'know?
#im in hell. this is my personal hell#i havent been at my current job for at least six months but i was at my last one for over six months#which should meet the requirement#she said i need a job in the city i want to move to to be accepted#maam its hard to have a job in a city i cant live in yet#so i asked if i was accepted to a job that met income requirements would that count even if i havent started yet#she didnt answer. now shes asking for dates for my last job#ive rented from this company before! ive met this woman before!!#i was never late on rent. never needed any maintenance. left my apartment in good condition#that should speak for itself#maybe im crazy. maybe im the one in the wrong here#but i dont think i am! i think landlords are a little full of themselves#this apartment doesnt have a bathroom in unit. you have to walk across the hall to use your bathroom#i think that should be a bigger concern than how many months ive been at my job#im just saying maybe no bathroom in unit is a bit of a hard sell#you eant a cosigner? ill get a cosigner. ill get a job in the city before ive moved to the city. ill jump through your fucking hoops#because i have no other option#idk maybe i should become like dexter#but just for killing landlords. cuz im getting a little sick of their attitude
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2023 Art Purge
Original edition! Ended up having to split the doodles into two parts, I didn’t mean to end up with so many left over but oops - onto the commentary!
Remember crayon Edgar? I drew this one at the same time! Loosely based off Circus Baby but really just more of a general cutesy look - layering with colours is fun :)
Eyes, every year. Two general eyes, and two characters! Bottom left is Souichi, and bottom right is Vivian :) Vivian always gets a spare eye haha
Some concept art for a false backpack I still kinda wanna make - it’d be a prop for a game I made earlier this year, as the prize container! It’s meant to be kind of like a pop-up shop that can fold away fairly small and hold a bunch of small items safely and inconspicuously, though it wouldn’t actually work as a real backpack lol
Some Cherubsona concept art, thinking about their hair and the light rays - I considered having a single asymmetrical hair tuft, I think while I was still on the fence about having asymmetrical wings as well - I’m happy with the final design :)
And some baby angels! Based on my DQIX/AGE headcanons/actual canon lol, took a few tries to get a design I was happy with before settling on the bottom-most one with the fuzzed ears, lolling about haha. Cute!
Also thinking about “Fallen” designs, since my cherubsona is meant to be a fallen angel - or even just biblically accurate angels! Maybe they became more normal-looking after falling haha
More Charm doodles based on the Hungry idea - neither Frankenstein nor Zombies were quite what I was looking for, but they were close! Poor Charm, even if it is a Look
More eyes! Concept sketches of the Yanderapy boys :D Mitsu’s swirls and Ishida’s sleepy ♥ eye expression haha
An alternate panel of Mitsu being shy to admit his love language haha, I wanted his expression to be a little more visible but him hiding in the book is also very cute haha
Little doodle of Ishida singing Daisy Bell! He’s half-crazy all for the love of Mitsu after all
Technically these are from later in the year but I was really hoping to have the set up for a silly concept rolling - Ishida wants to play a game! The game would allow each of them to take a turn, with the goal of the game to be to sneak a gift into the other’s bag or pocket when he’s not looking. A cute and silly and fun concept to reverse pick-pocket the other and give a little treat! Totally harmless and not at all strange or weird or with any kind of underlying sinister vibes!
The punchline of course was that since they’re both yanderes that it basically turns into stalking each other, which as featured here, Mitsu is very into, who could have guess lol. The double punchline is that they’re both so aware of/obsessed with each other that they notice each other right away, but play along because it’s obvious that they’re both enjoying it haha It’s yandere enrichment! Ishida would also get a real rush from “hunting” Mitsu, as would Mitsu enjoy being “hunted” - yet more twisted love languages ♥
Random deer :) Actually one of the animals I considered for Dahlia early on but decided to scrap, because I don’t know how to draw deer lol
Also went through a couple scrapped designs for her artist friend, just to make sure I explored all my options thoroughly! I’m glad I did, but I’m happiest with the one I decided on, of course
Brief Dahlia and Tala meeting. They’re unsure of each other! Squirrels and dogs don’t have the best track record admittedly
Bit of vent :( Bar’s always good for it ♥
Bucket! :D Been a bit since I drew anyone from that cast, though I somehow made him on-model by accident lol, and of course he’s still cute! That’s the important part really
Eyesssssssss <3 <3 On the left were some quick comparisons between dot/filled-in eyes and eyes with a differentiated pupil and iris, since I’ve been defaulting to dark eyes a lot lately (it’s the Vargas influence lol); and on the right were a bunch of Cure eyes! I think at least partially studied off of some character creators? Lots of eye styles to choose from, which one suits her the best hmm. She has very sparkly eyes
And another sort-of study off a character creator haha, it’s very cute! Not very Cure, though
One of the early ideas that made me want to dig her out of storage was actually an animation idea that was maybe a liiiiiittle ambitious to go about making without her having a fixed design lol - I’ve always been a fan of magical girl transformations that completely glow-blot out the body and then they explode into frills and bows and fluff at the end haha. I would still like to come back to the idea at some point!
Ended up with a good handful of muscle studies, even after the ones I already posted - a lot of the poses ended up silly haha
And a lot of skull/face/neck studies as well, with mixed success :P
I’ll get it figured out eventually!
Sometimes it’s fun to just doodle around, shapes :) My own original human style feels so constantly in flux with the fanart I like to make and having so many non-human characters haha, probably doesn’t help that I prefer high stylism
A trio! They look kinda familiar, hmmm....
Yet more eyes lol, the first trying to figure shines. You can really see what a lack of editing does to the implied shapes pfft ♪
Always trying to figure out how to dragons! Another one I’ll have to get to Someday. There’s gotta be a trick to them >:0
Out of general studies and tests - hey I thought Just Desserts already had a sona??? And that she was like the most important and best and all that?? I got curious what my sona might be in the JD universe without being the villain haha, and I came up with a Chocolate-Chip Brioche Bun lad! :D I’ve always had something of an affinity for brioche, also somewhat inspired by Edgeworth’s cravat haha. But would Charm still exist and be wreaking havoc, or would this be the alternate universe Charm equivalent?? ‘Cause they’re definitely not “Charm”
Speaking of Charm tho! She’s holding a tooth lol - something something, candy people mining teeth? Because cavities? I dunno lol, but she’s certainly not all that much bigger than a tooth so that’s some fun scale for you :)
And finishing off with some cutesie little chibis :) I made the first as a reference for proportions, and the second to show how my holosona would look in that style haha, what a cute evil computer
#Doodles#Original#Long post#Extreme link-out edition lol#Multiple editions!#Had to be working on this one up to the last minute since y'know - still making even up to the end of the year!#Luckily this one was very well-behaved and didn't break even a little bit :) Very polite! Very appreciated haha#I have to admit I'm a little nervous about the fanart one on that front#But for now! Mostly silly sona stuff and OCs and the like :D Some concept art here and there#I'm gonna try harder in 2024 to have fewer leftovers - I like all of these! I want to show them off in their good timing!#I had fewer mixed salad greens in one post this year :0 That's on me#It's tough when I only end up with a small handful of doodles leftover to any given subject! But it's fine if some sets are smaller haha#I think the eyes will always have a spot in the end-of-year roundups tho haha#As always there'll be more 2023 doodles on the way! More than the previous years actually since I've gotten these roundups done early#Cuts both ways haha - queues still absolutely kill me |P But they do give me a cushion to work on bigger projects!#Just need the focus and energy for them lol#Anyway I'm getting ahead of myself a bit lol - there's still a whole 'nother one of these coming up sheesh lol#And I doubt that one will be as polite XP Even more reason to like this one! Haha#I'll letcha know when 2024 is ''officially'' here art-wise - I can tell you it won't be for a while haha
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[This is probably from the thread several days ago by the time it posts (working on it right now as I type this) but, @rxbelling-hxrald - this song kinda had the vibes I was going for, plus, it just feels like Dan theme in that fight.]
#i feel so small/but so alive | music#Telling myself it’s the last time/Can you spare any mercy that you might find? | Murk Musings#I’m meaner than my demons/I’m bigger than these bones | Tenebrosity Musings#It’s alive like a parasite inside of me/And it feeds on the trauma of what used to be | Tempest Musings#don’t worry we’ll be back one day/to celebrate our glory days | queue#//in other news: those who have alternate forms/can be absolutely /terrifying/ if they're truly PISSED OFF in a fight#//idk this song just has 'eldritch horror goes OFF' vibes to me#Youtube
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Things that seize your soul and won't let go unless you rip them out, taking part of your soul with it--these are things that without which, you would be less yourself. You don't take them on because they're fun; they take you on. They appear, divert you from your comfortable life. They are complex-- they can be fun, more often interesting, exciting, points of happiness, deep stress and sorrow to where you can't sleep and begin to lose your sanity... entangled to the point you have to step back, but shouldn't stop, even if people tell you to stop, because these are things you were meant for, even if they end up burning you up from the inside
#im tired#:)#passion#cause#2022#problem is i burn up before i am even noticed by any of the people im following lol#vaguely connected to on tumblr#unable to form real connections or community which is why i will burn up without being efective#unable to help even myself#something wrong w me#maybe thats alll this is#but to leave would mean all this for 2 y for nothing#besides its bigger than me so if i burn up so what#artistic temperament#sensitive to pain#but easily crushed#so...#lying awake for hrs last night not good for me or anyone....#thoughts turning that probably mean nothing as i know almost nothing compared to everyone else#little crybaby american who cares about Ukraine and russia#and othes but this captured me. i...#well i need to speak of feeling somewhere even if no one notices
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oh so now the birds are eating the <25 cherries i've got growing on my tiny tree
literally everything i've planted in this fucking garden has either died on its own or has been killed by birds/bugs
#my garden is a microcosm of my whole life right now#my life has been on a downward spiral since last july and bestie i am starting to reach my fucking limit#defaulting to thinking ''i wish i were dead'' at every little inconvenience is BAD!!!! i know!!!! but it's true!!!#the mint from trader joe's was infested with aphids and i've been cleaning it off every day for 2 weeks and it's STILL got them#like... this plant is 1 foot tall with two little stalks and less than 30 leaves. it hasn't grown in the 2 months i've had it#the money plant still reeks of mold and has to live outside because of its smell and the fungus gnats#the golden sage just fuckin.... burned to death????? it turned gray and DIED#the one and only bean plant that sprouted just ejected the only 2 true leaves it bothered growing#the originally robust blackberry cane is withering. the other two did get better but started from the ground up. there's 1 blackberry total#the rosemary hasn't gotten any bigger in the 3 months i've had it#the scotch brooms don't look so good. the salvia haven't gotten any bigger in 3 months and the creeping phlox bleached and died#the thyme is doing okay and the culinary sage is hanging in there but i don't have high hopes#not a single fucking wildflower sprouted in the yard. i used 2 bags of seed+mulch that was supposed to cover 600sq ft (the yard is 400)#the mourning doves ate a bunch of the seeds and the rest never sprouted#there's a few puny sunflower sprouts but the cottontail came and ate some of those leaves#the cottontail also ate an entire stalk of the potted mystery flowers#the huge plant i moved in November... the one that surprisingly survived frost/freeze... can't handle the heat and is now dead#i just...#the job market is awful. the salaries are worse. the neighborhood is in the middle of nowhere and inhabited by paranoid cops#everyone has big dogs who go apeshit when they hear ppl walking#and the fences are short and the dogs are big so i'm scared to go walking because EVERY. DAY. on the nextdoor app are people#announcing that they found a dog wandering the neighborhood. or ppl saying ''omgggg my dog got out of the yard! have u seen it?''#spring was all wind/gusty and it battered the blackberries and sucked all the moisture out of the yard#so the 2 tons of compost that we rototilled into the dirt? it's just dust now. there's nothing living in that soil#and now summer is here and it's too hot and these plants don't have a chance#i hate everything
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I bought a new laptop today since my old one was dying and it is so nice to play a heavily modded Stardew Valley without it lagging
#i had to be economical with mods on my last laptop- consider which ones i really needed#but this laptop is an upgrade and i’ve gone mad with power- 45 mods and i still may add more if any catch my eye#granted none of those are the massive expansions like sve but it’s still plenty of stuff#also i wasn’t thinking about screen size at all when i bought it but it is bigger than my old laptop and that’s a bonus#i’ve also looked up and it meets the minimum requirements for hades 2 👀 i may give it a shot#zippy speaks
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