#insecurities are killing me
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiita#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#megumi#yuuji#im shaky and numb the way this took years off my life#genuinely cannot believe i thought it was smart to make it a comic i could have stuck at a painting and it would have been fine#but nooooooo in my hubris i thought Surely im an expert at this longform stuff now Surely i can do it :)#and then it killed me it killed me dead this is like over twice as long as the train comic and 4 times as detailed#backgrounds . angles. i yearn fr death.#AND I HAD 2 WRITE THEM ACTUALLY TALKING GGSDH i am actually so insecure abt the way the dialogue flows gomen....#i wanted to add more to it to fix how clipped and rushed i think it reads#but that would mean drawing more expressions would mean drawing more panels would mean more gd hyDRANGEAS#so ultimately i decided 2 have the conversation take the hit because let me tell u.#if i have to draw. one more blue petal i will snap i will lose it#i knew tht would happen n wanted to alleviate some of the pain so i found a few brushes that helped speed up the process#but the thing w a lot of premade flower brushes is they also come preshaded n look uniform in a way that stands out badly against my style#so i had 2 render over them anyway........#yuuji's domain rly putting me through the wringer first the train station now death by a bajillion petals smh#all that to say tho . my labour of love . i am going to take a nap#hina.comic
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Cinematic parallels - "F*ck them kids!"
Twilight Breaking Dawn Part II (2012) Insecure (2016-2021) Killing Eve (2018-2022)
#this gifset came to me in a dream#also completely unrelated im on my period happy unpregnant day to all who celebrate#goodnight sleep tight#issa rae#dakota fanning#jodie comer#villanelle#killing eve#insecure#twilight#breaking dawn#movie gifs#tv gifs#cinema#mygifs#cgedits
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idk what girl out there needs to hear this rn but your big/pointy/crooked/etc nose is SO cute and also i’m SO gay for you like insanely gay for you
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#met so many women with the most attractive pointy noses i have ever seen#and EVERY time theyve told me they hated their nose#like!!!#girl im going to kill society for you who tf taught you that i’ll bite them#the world making so women insecure about their best features is the beginning of my villain arc fr#had ANOTHER girl tell me she hated her nose today and i am frankly quite done with the nose slander#i love all of your noses i want to place little kisses on them and boop them with my finger#if you talk shit about ur beautiful nose anymore we WILL have beef😤#im gay and i like sleeping
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Bet Soap shuts down all the diet talk around the office girls by generally being outraged that they're talking about how they should do this diet or that diet (all of them wildly unacceptable to him from a health standpoint, like fuck off you work on a military base 400 calories for a day is NOT ON) and then loudly saying he is going to fuck some self worth into them while already taking his clothes off. There is a massive sigh and Gaz drags him out of there while profusely apologising (but also telling them to meet him at lunch and if they want to talk about good eating habits he can help).
Soap will spend the rest of the day pacing and grumbling under his breath about how much he would die to get stuck into these girls and how he cannot believe they think they're not hot as fuck.
#mhairidrabbles#and I bet they listen instead of saying that actually it's totally fine that all people can talk about is losing weight#me? projecting? OF FUCKING COURSE I AM MY OFFICE IS UNBEARABLE SOMETIMES#if you want to lose weight I fully support you but maybe stop loudly announcing how much you need to lose weight to everyone#the women I work with are all perfectly healthy weights it kills me to watch them all make each other insecure
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"He has friends, Tommy. I'm right here. I'm his friend... What are you gonna say about that? You think I'm not his friend?" — Punz —
Thought it was only fair that I do c!Punz after doing c!Dream, so here he is, ready to fight anyone who messes with his friend. And yes, just like with c!Dream all of his Minecraft skin elements and colors are apart of the design in one way or another.
#and on that note… speaking of punz XD#ah and now you see why I've had such punz brain rot I've been working on this for like months...#flora does art apparently#once again so insecure... i so despise doing people... but also I wanted to do a more unique punz design ya know#dsmp#dream smp#post people is so stressful…. but damn I’m pretty proud of the face. I was really scared of doing it#dsmp art#c!punz#staged duo#and if you’re wondering yes ideally it would be fun to complete wanted trio… but I’m honestly not sure I have the skill to do techno…#punz fanart#dsmpblr#c!stagedduo#c!drunz#dsmp punz#shoutout to the person who I can’t find the comment/post on about punz always being in just a boring hoodie#I hope you like the different take <3 :)#that quote still kills me…#pandora's vault
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mostly correct 911 + bonus
#the im insecure one is so fucking funny it kills me#THIS FUCKING WEEK BY THE WAY THIS FUCKING WEEK#911 incorrect#911 abc#911 what's your emergency#911 my edits#911#buddie#tevan#evan buckley#eddie diaz#ravi panikkar#maddie buckley han
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My prompt from @sixteenth-day-event was Ghostbur and Tommy - shovel ! This was a lot of fun to work on, working on painting practice :]
#sixteenthdayevent#ghostbur#tommyinnit#ctommy#chommy#ghostbur fanart#ctommy fanart#dreamsmp fanart#dsmp fanart#cwilbur fanart#dott does the draw#I hate greens and yellows#the irony of the ghost of your brother helping you bury himself amuses me greatly :] like yea he hated himself so much hes actively trying#to kill what little remajns of himself in thr livign world im so amused im so happy hahahaha#ghostbur bleas 😭😭😭 the insecurities of yout living self your insecurities your fears they aren't true you don't make the world worse you#can grow and cjsge you arent evil never wereeeeeeeeee abshsh#sorry artists little ramble there done <3 ty for viewing
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im not the biggest alhaitham/kaveh shipper (because im a rare pair ho) but it seems to me that in alhaitham/kaveh getting-together fics tend to be... unequal.
the beautiful thing about alhaitham and kaveh is that they're both equally right and equally wrong and equally dicks about it. but the writers for alhaitham/kaveh much more frequently seem to give alhaitham the burden change (the burden of the character flaw) instead of kaveh.
in any good character arc, the main character has a fatal flaw or misconception, and by the end of that arc they have addressed that flaw in some definitive way. scrooge was a scrooge and learned that being that way was detrimental; merlin from finding nemo was overprotective to a fault and had to learn that he couldn't (and shouldn't) control everything and to let go; the wolf from little red riding hood learns that you should stop while you're ahead.
stories centering around romance tend to lean heavily on character arcs, which makes sense. and since romance generally requires two individuals to be vulnerable and open and emotional with each other, it makes double sense that alhaitham/kaveh authors zoom straight into alhaitham's lack of emotional vulnerability.
this bothers me.
in society, individuals are expected to experience and present emotions in a specific way. if someone dies, you cry. if someone smiles at you, you smile back. if you're at a party, you're supposed to be having fun. if you don't do these things, you're seen as impolite at best and a inhuman freak at worst. when these behaviors are frequent it's often viewed as emotional immaturity, or a lack of ability to feel at all. the inability or lack of willingness to conform to societies emotional expectations of you is seen as a flaw and a reason for exclusion.
alhaitham is canonically disliked and avoided for being the way he is. he prefers it this way, but that doesn't mean the people perpetuating this avoidance are in the right. they are the societal pressure to conform that alhaitham blows off. alhaitham could be the way he is for a lot of reasons: avoidant attachment style, trauma, following someone else's example (eg. his grandmother), or just his base personality. it doesn't MATTER. he is the way he is. kaveh having to accept that should be part of the story.
putting the burden of the fatal flaw on alhaitham, making the way alhaitham treats kaveh and the people around him the problem, feels invalidating. it implies heavily that alhaitham's way of interfacing with the world, alhaitham's very SELF, is incorrect. my suggestion is to flip a larger portion of that burden onto kaveh. kaveh 👏 character 👏 arcs 👏
some examples/recommendations:
- make kaveh project his insecurities onto other people but especially onto alhaitham; he's overly reliant on other people for his own self worth, and he perceives alhaitham's lack of positive feedback as a direct reflection of how alhaitham feels about him. but learns along the way that alhaitham doesn't hate him, kaveh's actual struggle is with hating himself and being unable to his own self as worthy of love. maybe throw in how you are responsible for your own recovery, other people can help but you can't rely on them to carry you through self actualization.
- or, kaveh tries to make alhaitham behave more like a "normal" person, to be more pleasant and emotive and forthcoming, and then realizes he's in the wrong for trying to make alhaitham into something he's not, possibly for all the wrong reasons (not because he likes alhaitham better like that, but bc society says that's healthier and a better/more conforming way to be)
- or you could go ahead make alhaitham's issues the main problem but they're too complicated to overcome in a short period of time, so kaveh has to accept alhaitham is doing his best in his own way and not push for unrealistic and unhealthy changes. he could alter his own behavior to give alhaitham space and time and a safe place to land.
that got sappy so it's past time for me to dip out. go forth and ship things; but maybe consider letting alhaitham be a rude stone-faced bastard if he wants to be.
#genshin#alhaitham#kaveh#alhaitham x kaveh#kaveh x alhaitham#kavetham#haikaveh#fanfiction#fandom discussion#meta post#i finally used a readmore are you proud of me#as an avoidant attachment girlie alhaitham is my oshi#pls just allow him to not emote#let the man vibe#i feel certain there must be a real word for the concept of... socially enforced emotional conformity#unrealistic societal expectations and for your inner world which is none of their business#but i sure couldn't find it#if anyone has any words for this pls let me know it's kind of killing me#anyway#i get so mad when the avoidant attachment coded character is forced into (independently by themselves) the arc of:#i realize now that my way of interfacing with people is wrong and bad. yay! i will change that immediately for the big emotional finale#like! with what therapy!!#and why is THEIR world view the incorrect one!!#i have seen fics where it was all a big misunderstanding and actually alhaitham loves kaveh deeply#and kaveh just has to get over his insecurities and understand alhaitham's love language or whatever#and sure. good effort.#but i feel like a lot of those fics aren't very accurate to alhaitham's character#they're retrofitting alhaitham's core personality to better suit the traditional romance narrative#i also think part of the problem is that alhaitham is a pov that's divorced from regular emotionally well adjusted people#and it's difficult to understand or write povs that are drastically different from your own
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two...
#ditto#garchomps granddaughter#my art#THIS is the shit that kills me💥#but yea ev inviting her over for a sleepover and ditto noticing right away that this kids a ditto and projecting her own insecurity onto he#and being kind of judgy. thinking stuff like “she really needs to work on her transform” etc#but then...she says this. and it just yknow.. hits her ig...
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im so sick of reading ooc dabihawks fics make them try and kill each other fr i have a GUN
#always written as lovesick morons. i can handle it better for dabi ironically like he is an emotional little asshole#i can see him obsessing over someone and accidentally falling in cringe gay love about it#but it can't be done in a way where he is anything but the specific brand of pathetic i have in myhead#like ooo make him insecure do u know how juicy it is that touya 'dont ever put me in second place or i'll set us both on fire' todoroki#is shipped with takami 'i am literally always gonna pick my job over you lol' keigo. and yet NO ONE UTILISES ITTTTTT#INCOMPETENT! that's the word im looking for omg. you can make him emotional and pathetic but do NAWT make him incompetent in front of ME#and hawks.. deep breath wtf is his fanon characterisation.... you made him a himbo....#like i complain about dabi characterisation bc that's my best friend and only i understand him but in general fanon is actually fine#BUT HAWKS???? WHAT ARE YOU PEOPLE DOING TO THAT MAN 😭#he needs to be an asshole im afraid. i loveeeeeeeeeeeee dabihawks fics where dabi is the villain for objective shit like murder and crime#but hawks is the one who is just so so much worse from a reader's pov like he needs to be kinda heartless#will always prioritise his duty over himself and certainly over any lover. dabi is just his target at the end of the day#and yeah obvs he needs to love him back AT SOME POINT im not a masochist im a sucker for the unrealistically fluffy ending#but they need to suffer for that shit!!!! and hawks has to betray dabi at least 4 times#and for fuck sake MAKE THEM TRY AND KILL EACH OTHER FR!!! I HAVE A GUN!!#stop depolluting my toxic yaoi. um. pretty baby. dont suck the rot right out of their bloodstream?#dabihawks#mha#this coming from ur local fujo who has beaten the dabihawks ao3 tag for all its worth. can anyone help me… a rec… pls….
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first xander brought her back with human breath and determination... then willow with supernatural power and love.... smth smth two halves to keep their third in balance from drifting too far into either side and losing herself.....
#PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I'M FUCKING BEGGING FOR A GOOD FIC ABOUT THESE THREE THAT ISN'T JUST SMUT PLEASE!!!!!!!1!!!!#I can'ttt stop thinking about them I don't even have anything coherent to say#even with other partners it's still THEM THREE they're so !!! it's just them. three. always#s7 just ruined me guys I missed them so much#still thinking about xander's stupid quip about how he always brings her back from the dead#if u tell me willow only resurrected her cause they were all insecure without buffy to throw her weight around sunnydale...#they LOVE her. so much. so so so much. they're so selfish but they LOVE her it's why they can't ever let her go they're missing without her#I despise seeing people treat the scoobies with bad-faith bc ik they're not the greatest but oh my god#they are IMPORTANT!!!!! there is no buffy the vampire slayer without willow and xander being WITH buffy#look me in the eyes and tell me tweed boy giles and lurker freak angel were going to be able to keep buffy alive all by themselves.#without xander buffy and willow are left without something firmly human to grip onto when they lose themselves in the supernatural#without willow xander and buffy are left with a gap to properly bridge them. someone to make it easier to understand both sides#without buffy xander and willow have no reason to ever grow and try and learn. to want to be more. to live up to who they can be#plus those two give buffy something tangible to fight for. it's not just the vague “world" she can't feel the affects for it's wil and xand#I need someone smarter than me to articulate this dumb post bc I can't I've tried so many times and I can't but I FEEL it I feel it#buffy summers#willow rosenberg#xander harris#btvs#buffy the vampire slayer#I tried to find their ship name and I'm actually going to KILL everyone. why don't they have one. what is going on.
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One of my biggest fears when seeing people talk about “Fandom misinterprets all my blorbos and it makes me want to kill myself” is the feeling like oh my god…… what if I’m misinterpreting the blorbos……… what if someone thinks about me like that……. just bury me alive atp
#loreltxt#ITS A REAL FEAR#also I’m so insecure it’s so funny cuz#I’ll see someone with a mildly different opinion on a character than me#and instead of thinking ‘oh they’re wrong I’m right’ I think#I think ‘oh ok clearly I just fucking suck at characterization I’m going to kill myself’#I’m so insecure#I feel like I’m not autistic enough about them#I feel like out there someone is WAY more autistic about them than I am
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Help
#poolverine#I'm writing a fanfic....kill me now#I'm crying#they're in love your honor#i am so (not) normal about them#i love them so much#and they were roommates au#possibly 👀#i need heeeeelp#wade wilson#insecure wade#soft logan#logan howlett#x men origins: wolverine#deadpool and wolverine#xmen#theyre gay your honor
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yeah he gets to "complain" all he wants actually
#sorry wanted all these caps here#sam: give this antichrist kid you may have to KILL one day all the love you gave me and do it instantly and without limit#that is how we save him and more importantly rewrite my childhood and heal my leftover insecurities. i'm normal btw#they're both so messed up and projecting all over the place that's what makes it fun!!#supernatural#whatever this is#jack kline#s13#patience#the big empty
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i wanted to draw them interacting in casual clothes, blaze would be one of those people who question what everyone is doing while also doing it too
this action doesn't mean anything at least not anything i know i just drew a random pose
#art#sth#blaze the cat#amy rose#rouge the bat#curse sonic characters for not having very different body types I WILL GIVE THEM DIFFERENT BODY TYPES IF IT KILLS ME#that being said Amy has long legs Blaze is tall and lanky with wide hips (to make up for her small chest shes canonly insecure) and rouge i
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elaborate self hate and ungodly amounts of yapping. underneath is just the main ones without text on it
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#lobcorp spoilers#abel lobcorp#abram lobcorp#adam lobcorp#x lobcorp#too much. too much effort into this. far too much. why. why.... i know why pointless to qsk its becwuse i didnt want to do things irl#ADAM WHY DO YOU LOOK LIKE THAG AUGHHGJGN the text is also placed weird im syill trying to figure out ways to layout text w drawings its odd#its supposed to read top section then left to right to left bock then righr block but its. weird. ITS WEIRD but serviceable so shitpost#quality for formating or how ever you call it with genuine effort . for SOME reason. anyways. elaborate self hate was supposed to be a#captjom for a different work i had in mind before i lost power and thus motivation. might still do it though. its just the As beating the#shit outa eachother in a very shit way. adam would bite someone to win. all im saying. and abram wears slippers. throwable. abel cane. smack#anyways the text i put isnt what i can call really in character its just whay i remember off basic beats and then stretched longer for comic#timing and just to have text there. yeah.... dont kill me..#(says that when ever i end up writing dialog due to my insecurity in the ability to capture the essence of a chatacter)#lobotomy corporation spoilers#i dont remember which spoiler tags i use typically. uhhh works. theres like 3 variations or smthn#can you see where i decided to put actual time into this. it was not planned to have this muhch effort.. visible shift
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