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[camellcat]

sorry saw a CRAZY incorrect take called "faith didn't love anybody but herself" ARE WE WATCHING THE SAME SHOW? DO PEOPLE WATCH WITH A PILLOW OVER THEIR HEAD OR SOMETHING? HOW DID YOU COME UP WITH THAT

[camellcat]

thanks to my sudden and numerous rewatches of at least the first half of s1, I think it's interesting that xander became the runner. because he really isn't in the early days. he's out there and ready to fight right alongside buffy. he doesn't run from danger, he actively chooses to stand against evil on the front lines, whether it's from monsters or humans. he's the one who decides to help buffy first, even

I don't want to say he stops being like this in later seasons, because he doesn't. he's still always ready to be her right hand man. but he didn't used to suggest turning tail and fleeing either

[camellcat]

question, but does dawn actually have ANY opinions on angel in canon? or did we all just collectively decide she wouldn't like him? bc she totally wouldn't. even if I've probably got a different reason why than most of you, I do agree she wouldn't. it's just a little funny to me bc I cannot remember her EVER mentioning him like even once

[camellcat]

going insane for stray mutt xander harris again. he's their dog he's buffy and willow's DOG don't you people understand. traumatized and trying and so very theirs

[camellcat]

there is really not enough bandillow in the world. theyre so not normal guys. thank u for ur work 🙏

I love when people say bandillow to me. I'm influential to a group of like four people but I have made waves. so much nicer than typing out buffy/willow/xander ain't it? read that in a joking tone cause I sound pretentious in my head. anyhow. so glad u see them too. gonna try and come up with more scenes in my pretty-much-just-canon-but-slightly-different bandillow au soon bc we could always use more in this rarepair (which, so odd it's a rarepair but whatever)

[camellcat]

2019 to 2025 suchomimus ily forever and always

[camellcat]

when I first got into the sex pistols, I played their music and interviews for three days straight while playing httyd for the xbox 360. I cannot listen to this music anymore without like itching to turn on my xbox and play the game. what kind of fuckin pavilion response have I trained into myself here

[camellcat]

spike head tilt is just. means the world to me okay.

[camellcat]

I love how selfish spike is. his love isn't "unselfish" it's SO selfish

when he tries to be good it is always for an ulterior purpose. even if that purpose may not be evil, it's certainly not unselfish. you think he'd give a shit about dawn if she wasn't buffy's entire world? do you lot remember how quickly he dropped her when buffy started fucking him? even if we want to talk about the beginning of s6 that was out of guilt and obligation. and I'm not saying he didn't care about anyone else there because he definitely did, but he wouldn't have been there if not FOR buffy

he enjoys buffy happy because he does love her, yes, and her joy is a beautiful to him. but he likes her upset just as well too. he revels in buffy's suffering. he likes her hurt and he likes that she hurts him and he likes to hurt her. it's a language he understands, that he enjoys. he just likes her in whatever way will make her pay attention to him longer

I'll freely admit that he's emotionally supportive for her, which is something she needs desperately. but a lot of the times that's just when he himself isn't being someone who's actively deciding to tear her down. either way, as long as he's affecting her on some tangible level that makes him feel like he matters to her, he doesn't particularly care if it's for the better or the worse

I've just seen a lot of people call him unselfish and I don't agree. at all. probably ever. I don't know if this is a common fandom idea or if I've done that thing again where I've stumbled across a minority that I can't escape, but. just putting my opinion on it out there I suppose

[camellcat]

WE HAVE NOT TOUCHED THE STARS ->

a spuffsilla au in four chapters, covering the end of btvs s2 through the beginning of ats s5. now complete on ao3.

“Dance with me, Buffy,” Drusilla murmurs in her ear, and Buffy laughs again. “Okay,” she says, and they sway together, hands linked, arms around each other, sitting pressed up next to each other in the backseat of the Firebird. She puts her head on Drusilla’s shoulder and catches Spike turning to watch them on a straight stretch of freeway. Yeah. She’s not alone. Not now, and not ever again.

[camellcat]

I do think it's so funny how dru pushes spike toward the slayer even when she was so upset about it. like, honey, he wouldn't have gone to her if YOU didn't push him away! this is a self-fulfilling prophecy! she saw it therefor she made it happen even if it was never written in stone to be so before her intervention. I love her forever

[camellcat]

whatever i do, you still won’t be there

[camellcat]

more animal than human.

[camellcat]

oh my god I have a tumblr blog. I have a PUBLIC DIARY. if I wanted to start documenting my time playing ark again none of you could stop me AND it'd be easier to keep track of everything. you'd all hate me but I COULD. oh my god. y'all. if I wasn't so swamped with school rn... watch out these upcoming months. be prepared to filter a new tag

[camellcat]

this probably would've made the show worse but i wish in s6 when tara and willow are broken up and buffys all secretive because she's seeing spike and she covertly asks tara to help her work out why spike can hurt her they dragged that out for a little longer and the scooby gang suspect buffy is dating tara. this would not be approached with any tact at all. it would push the queer rights movement back by decades if anything. but it would've been very fun for me personally

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I put on lie to me last night, and like. I dunno man! I really like angel and willow. I always wanted more from them I think they're really entertaining together. I don't even know WHAT I want but their strange awkward sincerity is just. it's sweet. they're silly. I like that they're almost friends