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first xander brought her back with human breath and determination... then willow with supernatural power and love.... smth smth two halves to keep their third in balance from drifting too far into either side and losing herself.....

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sometimes I think about the fact that I knew about spike before I even knew about buffy herself. back before I started watching the show the only information I knew was that there were two main vampire boys: one that had dark hair, and another lean one named spike who was the "bad boy" and had white hair. y'all why did I know about spike specifically and not even like y'know the girl the show is about xD

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so, my mom accidently got pizza with no sauce instead of no cheese, right? and she said she can't eat so I have to. and while I was holding the most stiff piece of pizza I'd ever even had, I thought, well, hell, what if I pulled a dawn summers and just... put random shit on it that I already know I like?

do NOT mix bbq sauce with chocolate sauce on top of bland gross pizza I can't get the taste out of my mouth oh my god I had to throw it out I straight up gagged trying to eat more after that I am never making that mistake again food experimentation is NOT for me

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TARDIS dragons

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Buffy, if the master rises…

BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER

1.12 | "Prophecy Girl"

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what about ianto and owen? I've been thinking about them since u explained their relationship to me

I love the ambiguity of this drawing. Is he taking the piss out of Owen? Is he trying to be optimistic? Is he apologising to someone? We don't know.

(I better not see anyone tagging this as owento or I'll come to your house and bury you alive)

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I need an answer why do y'all hate on s7 like it's in vogue here what is going on I fucking loved that season. like hello? I can't decide if s5 or now s7 is my favourite of the show it was that good of a watch to me

I missed the closeness of the scoobies so bad I didn't even realize until we hit episode three and I was aching for it. oh, god. and the spuffy of it all! I can't even get into it right here but ohhhh. oh. and DAWNIE my sweet girl oh sweet niblet I love her so much. anya's episode? probably one of my favourite episodes of the entire show tyvm. I really liked kennedy and honestly I think she made a great second in command for buffy when she actually listened, though I think she'd be a god-awful leader. almost all of the episodes held my attention that weren't, y'know, bewitched bothered bewildered part two electric boogaloo over there. and DRUSILLAAAAAA ik she wasn't real but IDC I was fawning every time she was on screen both as the first as actually her oh I just adore her I'll never understand her and I don't even care. taking it back actually getting into the spuffy of it all for a second because oh my GOD they had an actual conversation about themselves where she neither ran away nor punched him!! and the montage of everyone screwing, only to cut to spuffy simply cuddling? to show THAT'S their intimacy? 'bout fuckin killed me it did

them kicking buffy out of her house and then literally no one saying ANYTHING about how she was RIGHT except spike ofc really bothered me. and gosh the way they just kinda... did buffy's plan anyways. a little different, but not really? still invaded the vineyard when half the reason no one was listening to her was bc they didn't wanna go back that. but that was like the biggest issue I had the entire season honestly. there was no riley to make me furious, 15 minutes of angel that I hated every second of but is so small it's whatever, and robin wood kinda annoyed me once he turned on buffy and spike there but y'know he gets less relevant so pshh. I'll admit I also got a bit peeved at myself every time I smiled at something andrew said but he grew on me wayyy quicker than I was expecting or wanting I get why he shows up in fics so often now he's entertaining to watch

anyways. I'm sure there's like a billion million things I've missed in my endeavor to simply enjoy myself while watching but as it stands? I love this season. I love it to bits and pieces and I think it was incredibly fun. y'all might just be the biggest haters in the world cause I am SO glad I decided to actually give it a go

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right. finished s7 of buffy. I cannot believe what made me start bawling my eyes out wasn’t like idk fucking spike burning to a crisp, or maybe the loss of sunnydale cause those sorts of things can make me sad, or even the fact the show was ending, but anya. oh. my. god. how could they DO that to her?

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I'm soo nervous... I've seen everyone talk about how shit s7 is but like so far I'm LOVING this season oh my god. I just finished episode 11 showtime and !!!!! I don't want this to get bad!!!! I'd rank this totally equal or above the second half of s3 for me come onnnn how's it gonna get ruined 😮‍💨

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Girl, I am outta here. There’s a DVR at home full of unwatched TV waiting to remind me how ridiculously single I really am.

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waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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A litol Jack kitty because I don't do anything productive. Ever.

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BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER REWATCH -> School Hard (2.03)

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My Friend John (The Fratellis) 🧡

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look into her eyes...how can u be mad at her?!

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I've always found it rather strange that Spike is shown to be someone who doesn't spend a lot of time thinking complex thoughts or focusing on any self reflection, while Angel/us is, given who both of them were as human. Liam was a drunkard who spent a lot of time in taverns, not going to school or seeking out any kind of career. William was a romantic poet. And yet when they became vampires, Liam turned into Angelus, who took the time to learn lots of languages so he could psychologically torture his victims. Then, when he was ensouled, he spent a lot of time brooding and reflecting upon the things he'd done without a soul.

Whereas William turned into Spike, and lost interest in poetry and essentially became an almost mindless killing machine. Though he did retain his romantic inclinations. Then when he was ensouled, it initially drove him insane for a few weeks. But once he started to receive emotional support, he slowly regained sanity. Yet as soon as he did, he didn't seem to spend much time brooding, and even told Robin that he wasn't interested in self reflection. Even getting a soul wasn't much of an intellectual choice. It was an emotional choice. He hurt Buffy and figured that the only way he could make sure he never did that again was by getting a soul. Sure, that involved some thought, but it was mainly emotion that drove that decision. I don't think he gave a lot of consideration as to how it would really affect him past taking away his desire to hurt Buffy.

So why? Why did they both react that way to becoming vampires? I've discussed how people react to becoming vampires in the Buffyverse on this blog, and have come to the tentative conclusion that what happens isn't that a demon with its own mind simply possesses the human's body, because the vampire retains parts of the human's personality and emotions. Liam kills his entire family because as a human he didn't really care about them, at least not enough to counteract the instincts of the demon soul that possessed him. Whereas William turned his mother into a vampire because the love he felt for her as a human was so deep that he wanted to save her from her human suffering and be with her forever. He also didn't kill Cecily despite her cruel rejection, and I believe that's because of how much he cared for her as a human. So what I think happens is that the human soul, which holds a moral compass, goes away, and is replaced by a demon soul, a soul which has no mind of its own, simply gives the human vicious instincts. A desire to kill and torment. But the essence of who the human was is still there. It's why Spike was capable of falling in love with Buffy and wanting to protect her loved ones, while there's no chance in hell that Angelus, who was not shown to have been romantic at all as a human, would have been able to do that.

I also think that the vampire isn't different enough from the human to absolve the vampire of its responsibility for the actions they took while soulless. In s5 of Angel, Spike is shown to be destined to go to hell, despite the fact that he had a human soul. Then again, perhaps his human soul would be parted from his vampire soul and go to heaven while his vampire soul would go to hell. Who knows?

But again, why were Angelus and Angel so interested in deep thoughts? Why weren't soulless and ensouled Spike? You'd think it would be the exact opposite. Was this just a case of Whedon not putting enough thought into it? Or am I missing something?

Open question, I want thoughts.