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animazed · 11 months ago

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do i go out and get food? or do i just stay here in pajamas? 🤔

#So this is the first (and I think only) vacation we have from school #And I’be just stayed inside all day watching videos and relaxing #and i kind of feel like i should use this time somewhat productively #Like getting groceries and whatnot #Not then again i feel like when else do i have the time to just veg #But truthfully kind of every night #But at the same time #night’s always when u when to do something but it’s too late or I’m too tired #So I’m not really sure what to do #or how to spend these ‘vacation days’#in which i believe is just tomorrow now #so #It’s going alright i guess #i wouldn’t call this ‘depression’ so to speak #But it does definitely feed into that homebody life #rant #idk #at least i have another cup noodles left if i don’t want to make real pasta lol #sometimes i feel i mooch too much #or sleep too much #and other times i feel like i just don’t have time to think #but the truth is i just don’t give myself that time #and i hate that reality #the reality that makes me just want to take a nap if I’m bored and not actually do anything #but on the other hand it’s like it’s my right to if i feel like it!#and that’s basically how you get no where in life #so that’s how I’m here i guess #😶

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front-facing-pokemon · 7 months ago

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#honestly i like falinks. i think it's rather cute #falinks #first impression havin' no retreat lookin' megahorn-usin' ass #i thought it was a bug-type for a bit‚ honestly. just because of how many good bug-type moves it learns (two) (it learns two)#but they're so ubiquitous. they'll always end up on your moveset. which means you have a fighting-type with two bug-type moves #which. made me think it was a bug-type. also look at it. that looks like a bug #also hi update from the future. you may have noticed i missed a few galarian forms. i am aware and they will be coming after falinks #you'll get galarian ponyta at 4:40 PM today. eastern time #i left this one first in the queue because tumblr user swadloom‚ i believe it was‚ was excited for this one #and i gave them like. an exact time and date. and if i changed it now that would look downright inconsistent #so! the galarian ponyta line will be split up over two days. sorry galarian rapidash fans! you'll see them tomorrow at 1:20 PM #(that's the same time as this falinks right now‚ for those outside of eastern time)

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dont-offend-the-bees · 3 months ago

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Anyone else just not feeling like a real person much lately?

#'lately' he says #as if he's not been feeling this way for the last 28 years #idk man #maybe it's bc I'm getting older and so are the people i hang/chat with #but it feels like everyone else has a real life and real interests and experiences and things to say #and I'm some kind of hollow scarecrow person just full of memory loss and sadness #i feel very stupid and very boring #which i know is too harsh. and i know i should be kinder to myself bc life and covid and shit can't have helped the brain situation #and i should absolutely believe my friends when they say they wanna hang with me bc it's mean not to take them at their word #but I'm still like... why though?#genuinely what's the appeal of being around me. my head is empty i have nothing to add and I'm not interesting or that funny #it's been creeping up on me. this feeling like i just genuinely have nothing to offer.#i don't even know who i am #except for a person who like. lives vicariously through fictional characters experiencing feelings I've never had cause to feel #i can relate to emotions SO vividly except i myself haven't even felt the half of them #i just sort of quietly exist somewhere on the spectrum between content and discontent #with occasional drops into the despair zone #and even if the stuff i think is keeping me here went away tomorrow. like if mum stopped being an issue and i was free #like... what would i even do?#i don't even know how to want something #anyway. this has been morning mental breakdowns with newt #I'm going to go make some made up guys live the life i haven't now #mr. bees speaks #negative

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canon-gabriel-quotes · 10 months ago

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as the guy who paid Gianni to do that (I seriously wasn’t expecting *that* I was trying to be serious) I would be insanely honored if you posted it 🥺

If the requester wishes, then it will be done.

Edit: also I think it’s really funny that almost every single time someone requests noises rather than words it Ends Up Like That

#Not today or tomorrow since I have 2 posts queued but maybe Sunday lol #would you guys believe me if I said the document where I write all this shit down is now 18 pages #which makes it seem like more than it is since each clip is like 2-4 lines of text #but I have to start organizing that shit it’s getting too big #Anyway. I’ll have to uhh check to see if there’s any way for me to make that even worse #if not it’ll just be a scream <3 #non voice post #ask #asks

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deus-ex-mona · 2 months ago

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i miss her…

#cant believe i forgot about her till the photobook q&a im so sorry witch mona~~~~~~~#press f for honeypre atelier gachas it was gone too soon™️#(currently e x t r e m e l y worried and stressed for tomorrow like never before b u t i have to appear like im fine sobs save me monachann)#(can i go on a stress-prompted tangent here about something inane? no? toooo bad im gonna go off anyway~~~~)#ok so. like. since witch mona is the image i have up ‘ere and since it’s still 七月… today’s tangent will be on irl spooky stories!!#s o. presenting a decently repressed memory from my childhood that resurfaced while i was hibernating at home:#anyways. well. thoughts about the afterlife can vary from person to person yes? there’s no one true correct belief after all #but the one question that unites us all is probably the one and only ‘are ghosts real?’#and well. for personal reasons i think so. i mean i’ve seen this one dude i hate get possessed a couple of times so welp. cant deny it ig.#wild story about that actually. back in the day my family’s finances were allegedly doing so badly that [dude i hate] had to pick up #a *c e r t a i n* side hustle for extra cash. that side hustle? literal grave digging at the cemetary. at night no less #and *ofc* he wasn’t respectful about it in the least so ofc some spirits followed him home. yay. free roommates.#one(?) of them even took residence in my room at the time and im 80% sure they ate my history textbook :( much sads #anyways well once that guy had too much to drink (which was rather often tbh) he’d get possessed. fun!#the only possession i ever saw was the n-rarity angry ghost who’d just huff and puff in silence with unfocused eyes most of the time #he’d occasionally put on a leather jacket too. but that was like a r-rarity event that didn’t happen that often #my mother had the chance to also witness the mosquito (who tried to barge into my room for fresh blood) and the 姑娘 (self-explanatory)#which is kinda unfair tbh. i wanted to see the ur-rarity ones too :( mostly bc it’d be funny to see a guy i hate act ooc (impure intentions)#oh right. how did we get the dude out of his possession? we just shook his arm really hard. prolly caused some lasting effects but who know #i think he could also just sleep off the possession but idk i was asleep for the ur-rarity incidents.#cant ask the one witness of it bc i dont want to bring back unnecessary flashbacks of [guy we hate]#anyways it’s been years since we moved out from that place and i still want my history textbook back. mostly for the principle of it but—#and so that’s the tangent of the day. i feel weirdly less stressed now thanks witch mona #i do wonder how my grandparents are faring on this 七月 though…#b u t !!!!! tomorrow’s date on the lunar calendar says it’s an auspicious day for wishful activity and starting a new job!!! so… maybe~~~~?#hauauauauauauauuauaaaaaa anyways insane tangent over stream mona’s new album ok bye #oops forgor to disable rbs i hate how easy it is to forget to use this function man

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zemnarihah · 2 months ago

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pretty sure i have a kidney infection but i think everything is gonna be okay

#i called the doctors office neither of my beautiful lady doctors who believe me every time i say i have a problem were there and a guy #doctor was the only person to talk to #and he said PUSSY ASS BITCH TAKE AN IBUPROFEN AND SHUT THE FUCK UP #just kidding he gave me some other symptoms to watch out for and said to go to the er if i get those. but that for now i should just keep an #eye on it. anyway i cried a little bit i called my mom and she said that i should be peeing after sex and i said yes mom i'm a grown ass #woman. i called my bf he had a theory that i am making myself anxious about it and making the pain worse. which may have been true but also #i think he's biased bc he gives himself psychosomatic symptoms of everything all the time.#but i'm taking a bath and watching dumb youtube and i actually feel way better so maybe it's true.#anyway i'm already on antibiotics. i'm going to survive the night. if it's not feeling better tomorrow i can call my doctor again!!! bitch!#like calm down jesus....

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ilkkawhat · 4 months ago

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i love niko uusitalo

i love alan wake

i love ilkka villi

fuck!

#looks like it's a new tradition to get drunk when one of my employees departs the company #whether i fire them or they resign without telling me #(this one just directly told HR which leads me to believe it's my fault they left cause they didn't say a single word to me)#(i'm the worst supervisor ever)#but anyway at least looking at pictures and gifs of ilkka is making me feel somewhat better?? ish???#i said earlier before i didn't want to wake up today but now i don't want to go to bed and face tomorrow

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pandora15 · 1 year ago

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so yeah I still feel the same way I felt at the beginning of the ahsoka series

there are things I really REALLY liked about it. but there are also things that I find frustrating and like. not really fleshed out at all?

like.

ezra's whole arc was amazing. his dynamic with sabine? him getting to make a new lightsaber that looks like kanan's? him finally getting to go home and reuniting with hera? i was almost CRYING at that part and I literally screamed when it cut away before we could see them hug. all of it was AMAZING.

but I'm also like. frustrated with the way that they didn't really explain sabine's past? or like, the things that connected her from the end of rebels to now. like I feel like I still don't understand what happened between her and ahsoka before the events of this show. there was that moment where huyang talked about it to ezra a bit but it's like. so quick and just like "oh ahsoka was worried about sabine turning to the dark side" and then it's never mentioned again???? it's just like how baylan mentioned mandalore's destruction in ep4 and how it drove sabine and ahsoka apart as like a throwaway line and then it's never brought up again? i'm??????

but I also really REALLY liked baylan and shin, and the fact that the mortis gods are referenced at the very end of this season INTRIGUES me. i need to know where this is going.

every time hayden showed up in this series he was INCREDIBLE. probably definitely my favorite part of the series. episode 5 is definitely my favorite episode.

but I'm also like. not feeling great about how ahsoka seems to think about the jedi at the time of the clone wars. she says this line about how anakin was the only one to stand by her, even when no one else would, when homeboy literally turned to the dark side and later tried to kill her in rebels? did she forget about that?

did she forget about all the jedi who mentored her during tcw? about plo koon, luminara unduli, tera sinube, aayla secura? about obi-wan? we haven't seen her even mention any other jedi from that time other than anakin (and kanan, in today's episode, but that's literally because of ezra).

i'm just hnggggggggggg so conflicted. the show does some things so WELL and I'm in awe of those things but then it also just. completely misses the point or confuses me or just makes me vaguely upset and it just leaves me in this state of being frustrated

anyways.

overall I did enjoy the show, even if it sounds like I didn't. It's just. I think it would've been better if the ahsoka series and the rebels sequel were two different things, y'know? it would've given more time for both of these storylines to be fleshed out more properly.

but here we are, I'm accepting that this is the show that we got, and I think it was good. I'm intrigued to see what happens next.

#ahsoka spoilers #ahsoka show #ahsoka tano #ahsoka finale spoilers #also the whole sabine suddenly becoming force sensitive thing is something i just have to accept now #i was really hoping they'd like. make her someone who believes in the jedi way and the force but isn't necessarily someone who can wield it #i would've loved to see her find balance #the show kinda hints at it a bit i guess? like she has the opportunity to jump after ezra #which is something she probably WOULD have done before the whole ''giving baylan the map'' thing #but she realizes that she has to stay for ahsoka #and she DOES #which is like. baby steps #i'm gonna shut up and go to sleep now #i will think on this a bit more to gather my thoughts about this show #and maybe post something more coherent tomorrow

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crossbackpoke-check · 1 year ago

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Why I Am Not Coming In To Work Today [abridged], Jess Zimmerman

part one | part two

#toronto maple leafs #HELLO EVERYBODY THIS HAS BEEN MONTHS!!! MONTHS IN THE MAKING BECAUSE i AM UNHINGED AND NEEDED THE PRECISE PICTURES THAT I KNEW I WOULD GET #like. seventy five percent of this has been done since the first time i posted this and while it has gotten better with time because #my narratives simply got more complex and there's so much of this that is For Me but don't worry i will explain but aLSO goddamn mitch coul #you have gotten married any later in the year. also willy you truly disappointed me by not getting an absurd haircut this year (now that #i've said this he's going to debut it on instagram like. tomorrow. but anyway that meant y'all got to enjoy my neuroses of #Loving Tyler Bertuzzi who is a goddamn leaf. the joys of having to wait to post this (was not a leaf at the time i started it) and anyway i #have at length i think had the breakdown about tyler in pigtails girl dad & how i got a bob & then tyler copied me which was rude. that's m #gender. ANYWAY starting from the top we got sheldon keefe documentation which was really just the personal decision that i wanted all the #coaching staff to be the markers in the poem/the bold & also at the TIME keefe hadn't re-signed &we thought it might be everybody out w/kyl #anyway the title of the scrap of an old lover's flannel is literally 'u think this is about sheldon & kyle NO it's about timothy liljegren'#bc. liljegren was on the marlies winning cup team & has had a contentious relationship w/keefe ever since & was healthy scratched in playof #& the narrative is sooooo. also at one point for the ryan o'reilly i was going to edit the stlb out of his grandma's shirt or cover it w/th #childhood dreams line but THEN i found the gio snapped stick one which was too perfect for 'crumbling copy' the ryan o'reilly To Me is so.#ur insane in ways u did not think for that one. like. how soft her hands were. his grandma you guys. he grew up a leafs fan. if he ever get #to lift the cup with her again i will lose my shit. the cup run a movie i remember nothing--OKAY the spezz one i knew i needed him stresse #but also i believe in the spezz/kyle narrative so. it comes up later don't worry ALSO SPEZZ FOLLOWING HIM TO PITT CAME AFTER I MADE THIS bu #the muzz tea one makes me a little sensy bc muzz was out with an injury for most of this season & it was a really scary spinal one & so yea #& then the simmer one just straight up makes me cry bc i love him so much & the work that he does for anti-racism in hockey means so much &#if you have that video open & watch it i promise you will cry i do every time it's so beautiful he had to be on comforted by beauty & sammy #boy is on the a man who doesn't know me because EYE remember the caps goalie tandems. baby lilya. the mo one is a little funny bc it is #solely due to wade's thread about mo rielly the coal miner homestead husband. that's why he moves to omaha also i think it suits him (quiet #OK NOW OLD MEN IN LOVE NARRATIVE this one's in contention for my fave bc it's spezz coping w/retirement fundamental meaningless of existenc #u heard abt tyler already that's for me the minchy picture was just too good i had found it earlier & i spent SO LONG looking for an empty #leafs rink picture for bathtub i have some cool construction photos but i wanted the melting ice ones (thought about tahoe lol) & the sprin #one i manip'd a lot bc i needed a spring picture bc playoffs clinch in spring & that one fit so coincidentally perfect bc it's 7 straight #seasons 7 guys so. :) & i KNEW i swore to god they did more milk advertising i knew i was gonna do this one from the minute i saw the poem #the milk patch & it took a hot minute BUT I FOUND THIS ONE this one's for funsies. AND THE PIC I WAITED SO FUCKING LONG FOR this is actuall #from kerf's wedding but i was like i know on god mitch is getting married this summer & that's about to be the drunkest shenanigans wedding #i'm waiting for the pics. & then i was BLESSED with this one which is beautiful & perfect & LOOK AT THEM. anyway the last one is bc

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philzokman · 6 months ago

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i have a 10-6 shift tomorrow i’m going to SCREAMMMMM

#and then next week i have 2:30-11 shifts three days icbaaaaaa #one of my jobs also just doesn’t believe in breaks (WHICH IS ILLEGAL BTW) istg if they don’t give me a break tomorrow i’m gonna walk out #my only hope now is writing a best selling novel and becoming mega rich i fear😔🙏#lea.txt

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unproduciblesmackdown · 24 days ago

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also riawin timeloop ("canon compliant" (still focusing on character so not canon compliant in that way)) ft. the attempts to make things work but that only goes Winston? more like Win State over giving up on that b/c he's in a situation where no matter what he does the other person chooses to see him as a nonperson (so canon compliant it's barely an au. the role sure exited the iterative loop upon giving up on all that (not possible to Win (the final Lose is others killing him))

#iterative process of [background market events(tm)] + [abuse] like that is the framework in which winston is contained yes #(remembers i already had this idea) (remembers this is like. barely a change from any ideas along the lines of how yeah riawin could #happen in a form & just be [abusive friend sometimes wants to have More Intimacy from abused friend (emotional; physical; sexual; &c)])#timeloops as device to contain Efforts navigating xyz emotional process like sure it could be escape room for a preexisting dynamic #just that the ''right'' way to interact w/someone isn't a relationship development involving any increased closeness lol #the fun part that is pursuing like Relationship Growth & getting seeming ''successes'' now & then but ofc not actually #not Lastingly either. next day being a potential seeming reset whether you're in a loop or no #as per the [would barely change anything from irl] as per the idea of What If Your Day Repeated only being so different if like #the idea is that during that day you did some Big Shift by the end so that the tomorrow would be so [wow; post That]#also just for emphasis like wouldn't even be like loop ends with riawin Breakup. wouldn't necessarily start w/them ''together''#''canon compliant'' had them being a coworker duo & ''friends'' or having just out of frame interactions all the time(?) anyway so like #the breakup / opposite of Successful Getting Together / Relationship Growth getting to be entirely personal #given that the personal sure isn't going to be genuinely interacted with by the person who sees the other as Other / object / nonperson #can't believe the ''person'' i totally liked & was friends with stopped talking to me & w/o explanation (that i would accept) evil wtf #people just don't want to date & get/stay married & have kids & defer to their abusive relatives these days. We used to be a Society :(#they don't even want to go the extra mile & be a team player & no overtime pay & professionalism(tm) & in charge of my ego &

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hella1975 · 1 year ago

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my mum picking me up this morning: you're not as hungover as i thought you'd be

me, just yacked in an alleyway: yeah haha

#it's 3pm now and i still cant believe that happened that was. an experience #basically my mate's 21st coincided with her sister's 30th so they both had this big joint Event last night #where they literally rented out a farm house and the field nearby and set up a whole campsite and barbeque and everything #it was really random but also really good esp bc ive been friends with this girl since we were super young #and our mums were friends so ive just got. lots of connections to her family and it was nice seeing them all again #but there was fully like 60 people at this thing and i DID drink more than i meant to but i wasn't paralytic which is good #and my hangover ISNT that bad in terms of how bad my hangovers can get #it's just that my mate's dad picked us both up at 9am this morning which was already going to be... rough #and then proceeded to do the bumpiest drive down the country lanes ive ever experienced #i was literally grinding my teeth like i am NOT about to throw up in this man's car please if there is a god do not let me throw up #and i didn't! my mum picked me up from this (thankfully very quiet) road that has this rickety old alley coming off it #and i had the very humbling moment of 'im actually going to be sick aren't i' and had to WAIT FOR AN OLD WOMAN #TO FUCKING MEANDER OUT OF THE ALLEY AND WALK FAR AWAY ENOUGH FOR ME TO AT LEAST HAVE A SHRED OF DIGNITY #and proceeded to throw up. in a public alleyway. at 9:30am on a sunday. so of course i needed to tell you guys about it #im now force feeding myself garlic bread. im going to manchester tomorrow. i have a flight at the crack of dawn on tuesday #what is even going on anymore #also fully did just do nos last night with some 30 year olds. i cannot express how fucking odd a thing that is for me to do #actually no i can express it bc youse know that im funny about drugs so for me to not even be that drunk #and get offered a fucking balloon of all things and be like 'yeah why not!' is.... odd #i know i inhaled wrong though bc it didn't do a thing which honestly im happy about <3 #hella goes home

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theoscelosaurus · 21 days ago

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(bit of a vent lol)

So. I get a lot of derision for 'giving up as soon as things get hard' and in some ways I get it. I know how it looks but I just– I'm so. so fucking tired of hearing 'just try, you'll see it isn't so bad'

As if I haven't tried. As if I don't know full well that it is that bad. It took 3 months of 'just pushing myself' to almost kill me. It sounds so stupid when I say it like that and I don't think ppl would really get it even if I told them, i mean how could they? I barely know what happened and I was there

It took me 3 months to go from being student at a top 5 university with the single minded goal of getting a PhD in theoretical quantum mechanics to not being able to read.

I couldn't talk; no matter how hard I tried the words were so slurred people couldn't understand what i was saying (not that I would have understood it if they replied). I've been an artist my entire life but I couldn't remember how to hold a pencil, let alone how to drink a glass of water without pouring it all over myself.

It didn't kill me but it killed every part of me I cared to keep alive. It's been 3 years and while I can paint and hold an only slightly stilted conversation and do just enough of everything to get by I'm nowhere near the person I was and I don't think I ever will be.

I can't remember the last time I wasn't in pain and I spend an average of 18h a day in bed. But yeah. If I just try a bit harder this time, care a bit more. As if I don't live every day with the knowledge that if push came to shove I would rather die than risk ever experience it again

And yeah, that does mean I would rather die than get a job. I don't care how childish that sounds it is not worth it, it is never ever going to be worth it

#lmao i just realised this is the first time I've told anyone even parts of what happened #well apart from the therapist i saw a few months afterwards #he was very bad at hiding how much he believed i was exaggerating the whole thing #(i wasn't. there are so many things that happened that i don't think I'll be able to be completely honest about now. let alone then)#i don't even remember most of it (let alone know which parts were actually Real) but uh.#spent a good few of the early months genuinely believing that I'd died and this was some sort of personal hell #my entire life was based on nightmare logic #phychosis fucking sucks man #the depression afterwards sucks even worse #it is the biggest most influencial thing to ever happen to me and no one will fucking believe me #anyway i need to go to bed and pretend it'll be better tomorrow #welp that sounded overly pessimistic #(or however you spell that)#things will get better #i know that #it's just really hard to believe sometimes #i need a tag for my own posts so i can laugh at myself in 2 weeks when i'm a better person

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girlthativealwaysbeen · 1 month ago

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sometimes my bestfriend is like an angel in disguise istg

#i was justttttt thinking that aw it's so sad that navratri music is playling everywhere and i don't have friends to go with #like last year atleast i had tuition sorta friends but now ive isolated them too it sucks #but i was like well it's okay ill do it when i grow up celebrate every festival i didn't get to in my house because we just never do #and then she calls and she's like let's go this club jahan every year famous hota hai full celebration #and i was like ehh i don't want to i don't even know how to play and ill have to convince dad for raat can't we just #go to a cafe or something dopahar mein uske liye i don't even need permission #and she even agreed but she sounded sad and disappointed about it so i was like well fuck it you want to go club na #and she was like yeahhh so i was like aagh okay and i asked and we're going tomorrow!!!!!#and it's so ridiculous like i just say i don't want to go but it's actually so exciting to go someplace other than a cafe!!!!#and i was complaining to her ki okay ill go but i won't dress up and five mins later me and mumma are making full outfit with dupatta #style decided jewellery she has saved for years that are specifically navratri types and she's like we'll get my blouse altered it's fine #you know being sick has really given me perspective on my parents #im not going to hate my mom anymore i never used to growing up i always thought she was brave but helpless #but a stupid day in 12th i realised when we were talking that technically she COULF get divorced she just #doesn't want to because she'll be alone and she thinks we're growing up and leaving anyway so why should she let go of financial #stability for us. which is wild to me because girl you can't buy anything you want without his permission so i don't understand what's the #point if he's rich or poor but whatever whatever she's been raised this way etc etc #but anyway being sick really made me realise who the real monster is😭 all dad did was shout horribly at me all the time #and was like don't you dare take meds they're fake this is all just junk food stop eating it and you'll be fine. when i was literally #having 103 FEVER.#and mom was the one who was making me different drinks juices cutting up fruits staying with me as i get my blood drawn #checking my fever sote jaagte #like wow i literally wouldn't have gotten better if it wasn't for her and i couldn't believe how attentive and nice she was being #like yes i understand she just thinks this is her duty she's just playing her role a mother a housewife but still #idk i just realized that okay atleast she's good at being a mother dad isn't even that why am i feeling good about him when his love #not even love his politeness is so fucking conditional #and mom healed me even tho i told her about clubbing and drinking lots of alcohol she's kinda against it because she's seen #horrible things in life family yucky men but still she understands ans trusts my sister mostly and know we just do it for fun and she #wasn't even mad!!!!!!! like wow ooay #moms love is actually not conditional for the first time in my life i felt like if i fall maybe she could be there to catch me and dad wld

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the-best-bagel · 1 month ago

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Ooku is so close to having something cool to say about gender but the second i think they might do it they curve me and have the unwell crossdressing lady's happy ending be becoming traditionally feminine and submissive to her husband who became assertive and traditionally masculine.

#the jury is still out but. im skeptical #im on ep 5 and for the last few eps the focus has been a kind of effeminate monk getting like. force masced to be a breeer for the shogun #who is a girl forced to take on her fathers name and masculine role. then raped and impregnated at 14 #then the baby dies and shes back to being masc. she doesnt even have a name bc her sole role is to be her father until she can birth an heir #which is very thematically juicy!!! and she is abusive in the exact same ways you'd expect of a patriarchal ruler!#and then she forces ex-monk guy whose been mascing up to dress as a woman for her amusement #which then culminates in him draping her in women's clothing and embracing her #which is very thematically loaded!!#and had me very hopeful! but then he's shitless and built after a timeskip doing very traditionally masculine shit #and visiting the shogun who now wears womens clothing and constantly asking him if she's displeasing him #which like. there's 5 episodes left they could do something with this. its clear the lady shogun is still fucked in the head #and her grandma who did all the identity stripping and treating ppl like broodstock is still bitching that she's not pregnant #but will they stick the landing??? idk if i trust the writers man #also just on a petty personal note they ruined my insane masc blorbo. shes not killing ppl anymore >:(#im gonna continue watching tomorrow but my hopes are low #might have to rewatch utena after this #cant believe i forreal thought Ooku was gonna do some “escaping the cycle of patriarchal violence and gender” with a het couple #in my defense they have a great setup for it 😔#who knows maybe ill be surprised

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my-thoughts-and-junk · 2 months ago

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thinking about nora again

#fallout #okay first of all her full maiden name is lenore dubrovhsky #she's somehow related to the russian diplomat who is the grandfather of natalia dubrovhsky #maybe his niece? idk but she immigrated to the us after meeting nate during his tour because she claimed she was IN LOVE #i imagine she was in her late teens and nate was in his early 20s #and she falls for him and he promises he'll help her with going to college in the US and they'll have an equal marriage yadda yadda #so they get married and nora becomes a lawyer #so they've been married around seven years and she's doing her training as a legal secretary when oops! she becomes pregnant #(nate sabotaged her birth control but shhh she doesn't know that)#so nate persuades her into putting her career on hold just for a little while until they can start putting their son in daycare #(shaun takes heavily after nora's side of the family to the point nate jokes about whether his DNA had any say at all)#(he also later joins the army and dies in action)#so nora's being kept at home all the time. taking care of the kid. cooking all the meals. cleaning the house. barely any time for herself #and she gets so frazzled she gets into a minor car accident while taking shaun home from the doctor #nate freaks out and confiscates her car keys so now she can barely get out of the house without him on her arm #barely any adult social interaction and any family she could have had keeping her company was all the way over in russia #so she has a quickie with a door-to-door salesman and when her next kid pops out with red hair #the lack of resemblance to nate stops being funny #he agrees not to leave her but says he can't trust her at home alone anymore so he gets her a job at shaun's elementary school as a teacher #this happened around when shaun was 11 and he's harbored a hatred for his mom and his sister ever since #nate promised to raise the girl like his own but he's distant with her which rubbed off on shaun #so the girl. i'm calling her annabelle. TOTAL mommy's girl. wants to be just like her #so when shaun's seventeen he fakes his enlistment papers so he can be enlisted early and dies in combat #i imagine nora misses the baby boy she raised and is utterly upset he turned out this way #and by 'this way' i mean i imagine him as a patriotic misogynist and nora does not hold kind feelings towards the US for various reasons #nate was proud of his son for dying for a cause he believed in #so when annabelle's six nora gets pregnant again and that's when i imagine the bombs drop #the school nora works for is a really privileged private school (nate comes from old money) and that's where the cryo pods come in!#i imagine it would be like a 'saving america's youth for a brighter tomorrow' thing idk #also the day the bombs dropped nora killed nate before heading off to work. woulda been totally caught had the bombs not dropped HEYOOOO

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