#im so uncertain about this

[lagunapoint]

MAOW

summary: Solas is once again dreaming of the Fade, and Lavellan is comforting him, naked. This takes place during or after the events of Veilguard.

pairing: lavellan x solas

genre: experimental

rating: 18+

word count: 0.8k

a/n: I’ve finally decided to take part in at least one day of DAtober. Of course, I missed the deadline, so here’s my little experiment on the theme of Edge (Day 21). If you want to join too, consider yourself tagged <3

warning/includes: I haven’t experimented like this in a while, so I totally understand if something goes wrong <3

Edge.

A flash blinds. Forces the eyes shut. Wild vibrations pound the ears. A hum. Fear. Emptiness. Someone is watching. Asking to turn around. Pulse felt at the fingertips. Lips freezing. Loneliness. The burning fear of eternity. In the dark. Alone. Madness spins within a confined world. The edge. Was this always the only true reality? Icy hands reach for the throat. Thin fingers. A familiar scent pulls away the obsessive thought. Movements in the shadows. A hungry gaze. Ragged breath. Hot lips gleam from the poison of a kiss. I know your face. I kissed your lips. Your neck. Your chest. Your body. Is it possible to keep breathing?  Am I breathing anymore? 

Space falls. There is no beginning. No end. Demons in the shadows devour fears. Create images from consciousness. Desired. Tortured. I cannot breathe. The whirlwind of the Fade’s energy devours reason again. There are no sounds, except for the pulse in my head. The beats grow louder, swallowing the world around me. I reach out. Nothing there. No one. Only Fade. Endless. Consuming me whole.

Darkness. Everywhere. Always. Only darkness remains in my heart. I surrender to it. I want to surrender to it. To not see. Not remember. Not feel. There is no air here. There is nothing. Bitterness. Regret. A shiver runs through the skin. Icy. Intoxicating. Lyrium. Pure energy. Forget you. Forget everything. Fall into the abyss. Disappear. Let the darkness erase everything within me, but spare the memories of you. Forever. In blissful ignorance. Hands covered in blood. Your blood. The air is gone from my lungs. My heart pounds in my ears, in my temples. Hot blood cools in veins, arteries, capillaries, bursting like a billion explosions across my body.

"Solas" 

She brushes away the remnants of his nightmare with a soft kiss. He opens his eyes. Breathes. He can still breathe. Looks into the void. She touches him. Warmth. First gently, like a whisper. Pulls him from the void. Is it real? His heart pounds in his ears. Nightmare. Edge. Fade. 

"It was just a bad dream."

Her voice. Real? Is it really her? Her scent. Familiar. Real. The Fade recedes. Her touch grounds him. Pulls him back. To reality. To the sweet fog. To the softness of the bed. The darkness is still there, but muted by the heat of her body beside him. Fear dissolves. Another touch. She’s real. A flash. He grabs her wrist. Pulls her to his chest. An embrace. One. Strong. Hungry. Needed. Salvation. His arms hold her naked body tightly against his. She hears his heart pounding wildly. Strokes his shoulder, his neck, caresses his cheek, calming him. 

"I’ll never leave you alone again," she whispers into his chest. Kisses him. Softly. Lightly. Tenderly. His hands are cold. Burning her warm back. They slide down her waist. Over her chest. Over every inch of her skin. He needs to know she’s real. Forever. Right now.

"Never," he repeats after her. Catches her gaze. A second. A breath. The sweet warmth of her mouth and tongue warming his lips. Desperately sliding lower. To her neck. To her nipples. To her core. To feel every second. Every lost chance. His hand cups her jaw. Lowers to her neck. Shoulders. He nibbles her sharp ear, leaning in. The smell of home. Reality. Here. Now. Sweet movement inside. Whispering. Breathing. Touches deeper. Insistent. Pressure. Passion. Desire. Life. Her soft moan stops time. 

The edge of madness. Of love. Her passion hotter than fear. Her breath sweeter than poison. I’m ready to die from this poison. She writhes. Moans. Trembles. Her shuddering under my hands. Under my fingers. My lips. She leaves wet traces from her bitten lips on my face. She breathes against my neck. Presses her lips to mine. Forces me to not be gentle. Power. Persistence. Conquest. She shifts the roles. Rises above. Takes initiative. The honey taste. Her lips. Mouth. Tongue. Despair still glimmers in the reflection of her desire. In her tight embrace. In the closeness. In the depth. In her grace. Tremors. Rocking. Love. She takes me. I surrender to her. Forces me to close my eyes. A flash blinds. Ar lath ma, vhenan. Nothing else matters anymore.

[nocofamilyau]

I love your story, but I have a question

Besides Tyler x Lindsay and Cody x Noah, are there other ex-camps who have children who are the new changes?

For example, Ella is Gwen's daughter.

Will we also see those from the World Tour?

man that reminded me, I updated that list from a while bak,, here I'll get it up:

asterisks mean that characters are only children/single parents

(also damn, kinda didn't expect how many ppl would get Ella being Gwen's kid right)

((ALSO also, I was kinda self conscious about making this au yet another 'Gen 1 (and I guess by extension RR) contestants as Gen 4's parents' AU, but I guess we all have our own lil spin on things. I also really love how despite some ships/lovechildren are ubiquitous (eg. Wayne being a Lyler kid, Emma being a Gidgette kid, that sorta shite) the one thing that usually sets these things apart, and in a way changes the whole trajectory of how the AU is like, is based on who Noah's shipped with/who his kids are)

[creaturefeaster]

This new lineup is already looking so gorgeous!! :D

:D Thank you! While I'm still trying to get over being shy sharing the living's line up right now, you can have a V.2 of the mime's line up since I colored them in:

[iridescentmirrorsgenshin]

the fulfilled motifs in alhaitham and kaveh's relationship are on my brain!!

- most poignantly, the two coming together to unveil the temple of silence in cyno’s story quest, which parallels their thesis on ancient architecture and runes of king deshret’s era, as the two appropriate the other’s respective signature (alhaitham recognises architectural structures whereas kaveh is struck by the beauty of an emblem) - where the two once fell out due to the disharmony of their viewpoints, they have reconciled them within this quest

- there’s the two working together in the house of daena, where they argued in the house of daena upon meeting them in the archon quest, where they were described to have a ‘terrible’ relationship by the npc geoff, which is mirrored in cyno’s story quest by the two actively working together - as well as paralleling the npc archon quest scene the player has to actively seek out in which the two argue once more, whereas in cyno’s story quest, the two willingly exchange information and are supportive in helping the other

- we have the fulfilment of kaveh losing his family and therefore his idea of ‘home’ through him actively referring to the house he and alhaitham share as ‘home’, and that he wants to return to it together with alhaitham, as a set, and by implication a family, in cyno’s story quest

- by extension, kaveh not concealing his living arrangements by openly referring to him and alhaitham’s ‘home’ in front of his friends, which refers back to when kaveh asks the traveller to keep it a secret upon meeting him officially in alhaitham’s story quest

- kaveh buying wine and coffee beans in the tavern, alhaitham and kaveh sharing wine in their house, which is something they are mentioned to do in the bulletin boards of sumeru as well as in alhaitham's story quest, going hand in hand with the two drinking coffee together in the house of daena, with kaveh mentioning he wishes he had made some for them before leaving the house, which refers back to his 2023 birthday letter where he and alhaitham taste tested coffee beans (i am, once again asking, for an alhaitham mention in 2024....),

for future sumeru quests or events i am thinking of the unfulfilled instances or things that can be addressed??

- whether kaveh accepts alhaitham's research into sachin's influence over his father as closure for his involvement in his father disappearing into the desert, as his reaction differs from whether alhaitham tells him vs when the traveller tells him. since cyno's story quest 2 indicates that alhaitham telling him is what happened in canon, this subsequently betters their relationship. the idea of kaveh's cycle of self-detriment due to his past guilt hasn't been addressed since apop and it remains uncertain as to if kaveh has made steps to forgive himself or if he even wants to. this development of kaveh's character is truly interesting and i would love to see it explored at some point, and also in turn what alhaitham's involvement is in this, as in his newly accepted support of kaveh

- kaveh writing to/visiting his mother in fontaine? or at least a mention of kaveh's mother, as his hangout has a heavy focus on faranak's past relationship with kaveh and her hopes for his future, which we see in her advice to him as a struggling artist being that to found reliable companions. if kaveh undergoes a reconciliation arc within himself, as in he aims to forgive himself for his past guilt, then it would make sense for him to have a reconnection with his mother to talk about the past in order to truly look to the future

- kaveh and alhaitham having a role to play in the exploration of the temple of silence in future events - hints of this may be seen in sethos cautioning cyno that he may only invite people he and lord kusanali deem worthy, for cyno to then tell alhaitham and kaveh upon arriving back in sumeru. To this, kaveh expresses an open interest and cyno tells him that he will have an opportunity to investigate in the future. As alhaitham and kaveh have teamed up together in order to investigate into the temple of silence, and are indirectly connected to it through their thesis of king deshret, it seems they will likely be a part of the role the temple of silence will play in the future

(- i thought that an unfulfilled instance could be kaveh referring to alhaitham as his friend in game as this would be a callback to when paimon asked whether he and alhaitham were friends, to which he replied that they ‘used to be’ but weren’t anymore… but in terms of how alhaitham and kaveh's relationship is handled in-game, i think queercoding plays a big part in having labels such as ‘friends’ continue to be evaded (i have spoken about definitive labels being avoided in the writing of haikaveh here), this is backed up by sethos’ voice line as the two are paired together as “alhaitham and kaveh” and are referenced as a set with “those two”, rather than a definitive label such as ‘roommates’ or ‘friends’ being placed on them. Rather, they are conceived to be something outside of this, as sethos conveys their ‘otherness’ with “something about those two hanging out, you just can’t look away”, so i think, imo, it would fall more in line for them to continually not be assigned definitive relationship status, but if the improvement of their relationship is actually mentioned in-game since it was only shown and not told in cyno's story quest 2, it would make sense for them to say something that indicates they overcame misunderstandings or something vague like that. as there's an air of secrecy around alhaitham and kaveh's relationship, the traveller won't ever be privy to the specific details)

[napping-sapphic]

I talk so much about how i want to fall in love for all the things i could do for someone and all the things someone could do for me but deep down, if i’m being honest, i want to fall in love because i just so desperately need to know that love is actually real and that there are people out there capable of truly loving me

[rouge-the-bat]

the way i see team urameshi after meeting shiori is like

[coriander-candlesticks]

Hail Apollo and Hermes for helping me get my ass in gear to take care of a couple financial things that have been stressing me out for a while! ...and for the reminder to not impulse spend.

[cyani07]

i don't know what im doing half the time to be quite honest

[mamawasatesttube]

space fic ch1 tomorrow i think

[queenerdloser]

reading baldur's gate fic is so funny to me sometimes because almost every single tav i've read is like. a nerd. awkward. stuck in a library/commune/forest and doesn't know How To Do People. combat unready. a wee paper slip of a person. self-doubting and uncertain.

whereas i am out here with my bard who dumped all her stats in charisma and perception and therefore is no longer able to fail a persuasion check. and my personal backstory for her is that she's an insanely well known frontman for a rock band in baldur's gate so literally everyone they meet knows who she is. nonstop flirt. clocks manipulation left and right because seeing through performances is like half of her skillset. oh yeah. and she can fucking oneshot you by being mean in your direction.

[thepoisonroom]

i don't give a fuck that i'm getting older but seeing my loved ones aging does make me insane if im honest

[simplydnp]

Stop im rewatching why dan is leaving me bc of ur post theyre so disgustingly domestic i adore them

sometimes i watch that video just to feel something

[onawhimsicot]

uWUEEEE CAR TROUBLESSSSSSS i was hoping id forever be lucky and never have my car break down on the side of the road, ive had to make so many phone calls, my social anxiety is so bad for this!! this is what i get for trying to be a good worker bc i woke up today like i wanna call in siiiick, i dont wanna goooo, but i MADE MYSELF GET UP ANYWAY LIKE A RESPONSIBLE LAD and now i have to call in anyway and had to experience the horrors (talking to like 4 strangers and making phone calls in an unfamiliar situation) i hate it heeeeere

[theygender]

My gf and I just completed an extremely taxing move almost entirely on our own that was made even more difficult bc we were moving out of a roach-infested apartment and trying to make sure we didn't take any with us. We weren't able to pack anything up in advance bc roaches love cardboard boxes so we had to pack everything day-of (after thoroughly inspecting it all) and then immediately load the boxes into my car. One of my friends got COVID and another was having a chronic pain flareup so they couldn't help, and Trixie's friends who had all said well in advance that they were going to help us move on Saturday all bailed on us when the day actually came. Saturday was also the only day we could take our old furniture to the dump, but due to no one showing up to help we took too long to load it and missed our window and had to pay junk movers to come get it from us instead. My partner and I have spent the last five days doing nothing but packing and moving furniture and boxes (up and down stairs at both locations) making countless trips back and forth, and in between all of that I've also had to deal with pet sitting AND my college assignments. We were down to the wire today on our very last day to vacate our apartment, on a Monday when both of us had to go in to work bc we didn't know we would still be moving after not having any help on Saturday. We are both mentally and physically exhausted, and now that it's all over here we still have to unpack all of our everything

BUT! We're in a nice new apartment now with no roaches! It's bigger and it's pretty and it has two (2) bathrooms and a balcony and a fireplace and lots of windows that let in natural light and we (and our cats) absolutely love it. We're so so happy to be here and to no longer have to put up with our old place

And although we had to get rid of our couch and mattress for fear of roaches, we found a new couch and a new mattress that are even better than our old ones at very good prices (the mattress is queen-size! the couch folds out into a sleeper for our friends!)

And while I was carrying a box in I ran into one of my new neighbors who was walking his dog and he gendered me correctly, confidently, multiple times without hesitation. His puppy started pulling on its leash to try to run over to me and he jokingly told the dog "You can't help them. You can't help them! You don't have any hands, you can't help them!"

And then when I went to the store to pick up more supplies a woman stopped me to really excitedly tell me that my hair (side-shave mullet) was "so fly"

So yeah. All in all. I think I've had a great weekend

[robotsafari]

i know riku was pointing at sora’s heart in that one kh2 scene because wordless storytelling is a virtue (and unfortunately becomes straight up nonexistent in modern kh) and like the audience already knows, they dont need to spell it out and its also just a very riku thing to do but…..

can i say something. it’s probably not canon at all but i always found it strange how riku-ansem’s voice went back to riku after the reveal that it was riku. it feels strange, like could he always do this? switch his voices back?

the way riku stays silent most of the time feels like he doesn’t even want to hear ansem’s voice come out of him. but the pointing part with sora (and many other scenes) feels like he only speaks when he finds it necessary, which doesnt feel necessary now that his voice is back to normal, because thats what we hear, and that should be true.. unless you think of it this way:

headcanon: riku’s voice coming out of riku-ansem can only be heard by sora and kairi (and by extension, the audience) after feeling his heart’s connection. (the thing where they closed their eyes and felt his heart)

i like to think that to anyone else he still sounds like ansem, including.. to riku himself. so he does the same as before, because to him, nothing has changed. he feels that hes still not himself, even after his friends know that its him now.