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kindred-spirit-93 · 1 month

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plate of sambusa is the new fruit bowl

#a few days ago mama walked in with piping hot sambusa #this was like 10 in the am #and i dont eat when im stressed #(sometimes i stress eat but thats beside the point)#anyway i could have cried #it was so simple but my feels and the rest of me were already on the verge of collapse #im not spending as much time with my family as i used to #always in my room hunched over books only seeing them at mealtimes #family ocassions are express (which we dont mind actually lol)#and to think that it only gets worse from here just *hurts*#i wonder if one day ill look back and think i should have done more #prioritised my family and spent more quality time with them #will i regret this?#will i lie awake at night and go over my every waking second spent away from them thinking how i could have balanced things better?#will i take initiative to change my life for the better or mope around and wait for the worst to happen only to then #find some semblance of comfort knowing there was little i could do to change the outcome and that this was bound to happen?#im tired #mostly of myself #why am i so careless?#why isnt fear motivating me to do more anymore?#it feels like the word proactive has been permanently replaced with procrastinate in my lexicon. and i hate it #its going to be my end i just know it #why am i like this?#anyway im going to eat a donut now #see yall soon #:)

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art-from-the-juice-box · 3 months

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gen loss dump part 2 :]

i have a gen loss playlist so the last two was me hitting randomize and drawing a pic based on the song before it finished. the second one technically isn’t that cause charlie’s inferno isn’t on apple music cause they hate me so it’s way more of the song out of spite because they wouldn’t give it to me.

#spotify is prolly better (definitely is for finding playlists i use spotify to find playlists still and then add those songs to my own lmao #but dad pays for a family apple music subscription and free music streaming is infinitely better then paying for my own spotify #also my wound reference i feel like i let him off easy from the seven foot tall wire security monster #but idk this was drawn a year ago idk what i was doing #like i agree w the vest just being REALLLL bad bruising and internal stuff but i feel like he had wayyyy more open area besides that to get #fucked up besides just his arms #but i guess since the wire monster also got turned off by the button since it didn’t immediately go at ranboo next then maybe that’s still #reasonable idk #generation loss #generation loss fanart #ranboo fanart #continuing my not spamming tags trend so even though i bc puls have tagged all three of them im not gonna #still posting this primarily for me and for everyone else second #OH THE OUTFITS ARE FROM MY PIN BOARDS #I MAKE OUTFIT BOARDS FOR EVERYTHING ITS SO FUN #LIKE EVERY FANDOM IVE POSTED HERE HAS ONE #ITS BAD #and then irl i wear sweats and t shirt lmao #i found mouse trap game board earrings #i spend too much time on those finding highly specific bullshit #the jrwi one is especially cringe cause i have a different section for all of the what ifs #and that shit lasted one (1) episode #also the full color drawing i’m so >:| about it #i need to practice coloring sooooo badly but i always get frustrated w it #i need to slow tf down idk #but thats also from nearly a year ago so

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puppyeared · 5 months

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Ouhhhh friendship I love friendship……..

#I’m reading volumes 14-16 of the ouran manga OOUGHHH MY HEART #I love this weird little friend group so much its unreal #like u have this charming sweeps you off your feet prince but he’s actually a huge lovable idiot with a kind heart and his friends #who are all misfits that he reached out to and drew in because of his kindness and own weirdness like that shits TIGHT BRO #and the trauma part where he has some deep seated issues with love bc he thinks that itll break a family apart like with his mom #how his family isnt allowed to be together because his mom and dad fell in love and how he says he wants to build a big house #so that way one day everyone will get along as a family like. all he wants is not to lose everyone and the only way to do that is #by maintaining a certain order.. he both wants a complete family so bad and doesnt want anything to sour between anyone #so he assigns each of his friends a family role based on how he sees them and YEAH its mostly played for giggles and tamakis #already weird so its his way of showing theyre close to him but. god damn this boy has LAYERS #it also feels kinda meta towards how found family tends to get thrown around to assign characters as 'siblings' or family roles instead of #using it to describe characters who are close enough to be each others family. cuz tamakis doing that EXACT THING in a way tht #ties in with his character and i have to say its fascinating using that within the story itself and its completely plausible #theres a lot of things i can say about ouran that are good bad and questionable but. god i love it when characters are niceys to each other #i remember i really liked the mall episode bc kyoya and haruhi got to spend time together and their relationship isnt very close #but it was really nice to see their personalities bounce off each other. i think i also wouldve liked to see haruhi alone with kaoru #i also firmly believe all of the hosts are at least a little in love with haruhi and this can be anything like endearing romantic cuz like #who DOESNT love haruhi. kyoya i think would want to study her under a microscope like his fascination with her draws him in #but im fucking obsessed with whatever haruhi and tamaki have going on because YES hes obsessed with her YES he jumps at the chance to #put her in a cute costume but haruhi? she just fucking goes with it because she knows hes fun to be around even if hes a little wacky abt i #theyre all so. NNGGHHHH #ouran #ohshc #yapping

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newtness532 · 9 months

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im so annoyed with everything today, i think i need some tasty food and a million hours of sleep and then I'll be back to normal

#the teacher at the first class today was so dibsjdhdhdhdhsgs 😫#like she was teaching us things that are like unrelated to the class that shes teaching so idek why she was teaching it #but also its things that we have been learning since the 1st semester and we've done them in at least 10 classes and she was acting like #this was the 1st time we were hearing about it #like oh yeah we're on the 7th semester of studying nutrition but no one bothered to tell us how many calories are in a gram of fat #and she gave us homework 'to see if we know this' like #oh yes i can make a meal plan for a child with crohns or cystic fibrosis or celiac disease or everything else we've done this semester and #all the other semesters but i guess i cant tell you what micronutrients are in this one breakfast meal #like fuck off and stick to what you're supposed to be teaching #anyway i know im getting more annoyed than i should but she was just even more annoying than usual today #like she interrupted the lesson every 5 minutes to yell at someome to be quiet i wasnt even aware there were people talking until she yelled #anyway #also my new earphones aren't working well idk why ive definitely not been mistreating them that much for them to break in less than a month #like i had my old pair for at least 4 years until the broke and i dont think the wire got cut in them like the sound was coming out weird #but there was sound coming out. in the new ones you need to hold them in a very specific angle for sound to come out #and like im careful with how i put them away so what is up with them?#my theory is that they make wired earphones shitty on purpose so that you will spend a lot of money and buy wireless #also we had said from Tuesday that we would hang out with my friends today but i guess they forgot or idk and they made other plans #(to go home and sleep) and during the weekend the one friend wont be here and next week my family will be here so we probably wont hang out #again until next year and we have exams almost immediately so we wont be hanging out much then either #also my period is supposed to come soon and i hope that it will either come today or it will wait until after Christmas #ideally it will never come ever again but we cant always get what we want #anyway im gonna go eat the rest of my μεσογειακό and go take a nap #jo says stuff #personal ramblings

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radgeorgie · 2 months

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i love being drunk :)

#problems??? idk her!!!!#money??? sorry.... my mommys paying for me today #i get drunk and get lovey dovey so im gonna be lovey dovey on here #so SO fucking happy i deleted twitter because it sucked and provided no happiness in my life #so SO fucking happy im drinking with family & spending so much time with my family #i LOVE !!!! L O V E !!!! my family they are amazing i adore them so fucking much god bless them all #@ my grandma up in heaven.... i hope you are watching from above and seeing just how much we all adore and love each other so much #it is so nice to relax and get drink with people that love you #ALSO!!!!! ALSO!!!!! ALSO!!!!!! i just ADOREEEEEEE georgie ◇♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡#hes the love of my life.... the LOVE of MY life #i just adore him #i thank god that michael introduced us #even tho i have my qualms with him thank god he introduced us im so happy i have george in my life #i know im ungrateful and a brat and dont deserve a lot but the eay the fate aligned enough for us to meet.... i could start crying #i love him so much #ive never been so in love... i thought that wasnt possible #i love him #me.... in love w a man.... wow #and hes PERFECT!!!!!! I ADORE HIM!!!!!#i love the love we've cultivated...... god bless george may his soul feel light forever and always and more #i love u george #personal

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nomairuins · 2 months

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ive just realized you guys dont read my posts in my voice... twisted. semirelated what do u guys think i sound like ... do you think i have any strong accent do u think my voice is deep or high quiet or loud whats up.

#tell me if u want im curious...#spoilers so dont read if yr gonna guess what i sound like #but to be fully honest i sound gay. like i just sound Like a faggot it haunts me bc lamp made fun of me for it like once #i also have a sliiiight appalachian/southern accent i dont usually notice it but when i spend time with family its way more pronounced ^_^#<- like w the kids the other day i kept scaring myself bc i kept sounding like my granny 💀#but yeah idk. gay voice sometimes accent iiiiiiiii um kind of well. i dont think my voice is actually deep #but its deeper than it used to be bc i was on t for like 2 years off and on. so imagine if a guy was on t off and on and was gay and from k #and pretty much thats what i sound like. idk maybe ill go back to olden times and post a vocaroo <- i wont do that. but imagine #tb to quotev....... there was a repost game that was like omg give me a song and ill sing it and somebody rqed i sing wolf in sheeps clothi #g. so somewhere out there is a recording of like 11 year old me singing it. i didnt even know the song b4 they rqed it #semi funny. good song though 11 year old me ate it up

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earl-grey-love · 5 months

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Ugh I had a pretty intense day. I wanna spend some time with Sim.eon, that'd make me feel better.

#honestly I really want to take a bath but I don't have a bath 😔#its so hard being a girl....#I'm pretty proud of myself though like you wouldn't believe what I did #I arranged a venue for my leaving party/wedding celebration #complete with the catering I want which is a classic British afternoon tea #because apparently my husband thought that only existed in Assassin's cr**d??#so I want him to have that experience for real like he wanted #and then I had to call all my guests to double check they can attend that day + arrange travel cus its in my families hometown and not mine #then I ordered the custom celebration cake I want...#and THEN I booked two different hotel stays like one is just an overnight one in the hometown #and the other is a spa hotel for us to spend some solo time in #Im really very excited for that!#but after so much phone calls and tedium and money out of my bank Im just 😴#getting all of this sorted has been weighing on my mind a lot lately though so Im glad its done #oh also my older brothers dryer literally exploded so now I have to buy him a new one...#and I still need to arrange with my family's church minister to bless us but he isn't available on weekends #needless to say I definitely deserve some rest and relaxation after all of that!!#sunny speaks #qpr: coffee shop companions

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daforged · 6 months

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there’s a lot of things im not enjoying about my life right now but i think the worst one is that i don’t have anything to talk about other than how miserable and tired and unmotivated i am

#im exaggerating a bit. the only positive and changing thing in my life is my dog #but like. this really is just 8 weeks of constant suckage #[ context. im in school to be a cpa while working full time. i have quite literally 0 free time. this will continue until about sept 2025 ]#i keep spiralling into questioning myself on why im even doing this #like deep down. i dont think society as it stands is going to last into my 40s. so why am i wasting my 20s on The Grind #spending my life until i turn 26 hustlegrinding so i can get a solid job and then coast the rest of my professional life #is only a good idea if the world stays functional and i live until. idk. 50 or 60 i think would make it worth it #im just so jealous of people who dont have to financially support their family. i didnt pick this. i dont want this #nobody around me gets it either. nobody i know is in this situation #every time somebody tells me to slow down or take a break i want to kill them. like im an only child and my parents are aging #they do not have retirement savings. there is a very real ticking clock for me to hit an income level to keep the 3 of us going #part of me wishes i were irresponsible and could just. do what i want until it blows up in my face #but im too serious im too cautious im too risk averse im too pragmatic #so here i am. spending my 20s ignoring any and all personal enjoyment in favour of Building My Future #i dont think life ends at 30 or anything. if i knew the world was going to be okay i wouldnt worry so much #but i cant shake the belief that we’re headed for a societal collapse in my lifetime. likely when i’m middle aged.#i dont want to be a doomer but what the fuck is the point of it all. why am i doing this if not to set myself up for the next 60 years #freewheeling bitextual

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hearties-circus · 1 year

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Ohhhhh you know what would be fun for pokemon xy? If we got a legends game like a legends zygarde or something that'd fucking rock

#gamer txt.#i wanna see my man AZ wandering around!! i wanna actually talk to him !#also right its odd that theres so few pokemon that actually have megas right? seeing as every pokemon esp those killed by the ultimate-#-weapon have the opportunity to get a mega and even stranger that no kalos pokemon get megas #so im thinking since the ultimate weapon went off 3000 years ago and no one nowadays really knows much it wouldnt be surprising if a bunch-#-were lost. either like buried over time or under debris #people picked em up thinking they looked cool and they never thought more of it yknow #so! if we do get to go back in time i would want us to see more megas. more stuff that hasnt been lost yet #also maybe like. see more ppl with a sort of lys mentality?#cause the fact that hes Like that and everyone just lets it slide is odd right like wouldnt it make sense if a (much tamer) version of-#-lys' mentality is somewhat common in kalos and even more common back in the day. yknow. the french and guillotines and all that #because the fact no one really questions him and so many ppl are willing to join team flare and spend that much money on it makes no sense!#if it turns out that lys just has a bit more of an old fashioned mindset (esp since he already is more old fashioned) that would make sense #anyways #i want to see an augustine relative whos better at battling #i want him to be good at battling so bad!! and he isnt!!#i think it would be funny if he was the runt of the family though

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bunnyb34r · 9 months

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Well glad to know I'm not the only one not feeling the Christmas season this year. Mom isnt either

Now we dont know why, but here are my guesses. Feel free to place your bets.

Is it:

Bc our aunt/great-aunt died and essentially dissolved the family

|_> Bc of this we've faced so much bullshit from the surviving family we have left.

Bc the only remaining family we have are major assholes aside from like 4 people.

Long covid?

Work stress/ working under a tyrant piece of shit.

Bc I'm an adult now so the *magic* is gone?

All of the above??

#marquilla #we still havent made cookies and are like i want the cookies but i dont want to make the cookies...#so we agreed we can do it after christmas if need be #i really think it's all of that combined. like my g-aunt dying really tore this family apart. we weren't like close close before but i mean #everyone started taking sides (the executors (my mom) vs my cousins. like listen you motherfuckers she left you [insert number bc i also #got this amount and am not disclosing]. you little freaks need to get over the fact that she loved me as much as if not more than you.#maybe bc i wasn't a fucking entitled brat and was always a polite well behaved child (for her) and didnt take my mommy/daddy issues out on #her. you already got: 2 free cars. 3 fully paid for weddings. 4 college degrees (one that you're not even using bc you havent worked since #college bc you became a tradwife. (not dissing stay at home moms im dissing her making college a BIG DEAL for her and then just #essentially saying haha thanks for the 100k in tuition but no ❤). COUNTLESS hours and money poured #into your lives from her and our g-uncle. amongst the 4 of you. (only 1 is not a brat but thats bc they pretend she doesnt exist bc shes #annoying and autistic so a drain on them they were ever so happy to dump on their dad)#you aren't entitled to any of that. that was a GIFT. your inheritance was well thought out. it is an insult for you to suggest otherwise #anyway so theyre being whiny brats and oh boo hoo you exects are SO MEAN to poor Ally who didnt sign the fucking will and thus held up #$50k FROM A CHURCH. and my uncle (not their dad. their moms brother) is taking their side. his wife is a massive piece of shit ab it too.#dont know whose side dog cousin is on bc shes close to my mom but very close to them. and i know lesbian cousin is on moms side to some #degree. and idgaf what Murderer cousin thinks bc that bitch can and will rot in hell.#so anyway any one we could possibly spend time with this season is either dead or hates us. or lives states away and won't be in til after #and only for a day anyway. and we just dont have the fucking energy to deal with anything

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rinhaler · 1 year

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I’m soooo excited to finish writing toxic!megumi btw 🤤

#🧚🏽‍♀️ — luxe chit chat #the doc is low key gathering dust but it’s okay #idk if I mentioned Kay is here until Monday so we are just hanging out and having fun!#we’re rewatching spy x family atm!#just been watching a bunch of stuff and playing games together it’s been rly nice #idk how many of u here followed me from my old blog #I mentioned having a rly tough time with a friend and tbh the situation hasn’t improved in the least #my mental health is super bad bc I feel really trapped with no options #but spending this time w Kay has been so nice #I’ve just had a shower n we r gonna watch more sxf!!#ANYWAY my point is I just haven’t had a chance to write lately since he’s visiting!#he uses my laptop to play Pokémon and stuff bc I have a better gaming one hehe <3 #but I am gonna finish toxic megumi sometime next week #im hoping I might be able to squeeze some time in to write in when Kay sleeps in!#i wanted to do it today but he woke up not too long after me!#he usually sleeps in super late he doesn’t sleep too good :(#omg I’m rambling so much I’m sorry I hope ur all having good days and nights and taking care of yourselves!!

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dog-girl-zezora · 1 year

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#personal #so like ive been thinking about why i have this strange uncaring feeling about family during this vacation #i hate spending time with them i find them annoying and just not enjoyable to be around extended family is like having a customer talk to m #and bc of that i am the most insufferable person to be around. i dont have it in me to care about looking happy or being my best #i just exist i am here i am here with you and thats all it is to me. if i had a choice i would not be here.#they get mad with the way i am they dont like my indifference about everything we do but i am just LIKE that im honest about my feelings #it shows on my face and my voice. but i would never say anything bad outloud. so why does my body language matter anyways #i still think they should be happy im physically with them even if my heart is not so it should be enough...#i dont know when i stopped being happy around them #i think ive been this way for so long that i just have no room to really grow too much #and my friends and partners have a side of me that will never be shown to my family.#i feel two faced. but its not a bad thing #i wouldnt abandon them i respect what theyve done for me #but that doesnt erase the past.#... i understand it more. we have to live with our demons and the ghosts thay haunt us #but learning to not hold on to the hate and dread. not letting it kill you #thats. the hardest. part. because it comes back and it goes and its back and its gone #mmm #sometimes i do wish i could forget.#i would maybe be nicer.

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pepprs · 2 years

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having some time alone in the hotel this week (which is abt to end bc we’re moving back home tmrrw even though the renovation isn’t finished 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪) and being able to have the bedroom to myself has made me think rebellious thoughts my family would be very offended over. like maybe i listened to less and less music these last few years due in part to the fact that ive spentmore time at home than i used to and i also lived on campus w roommates in a very uncomfortable arrangement and im unable to move freely about the cabin when im living w other ppl whose needs don’t align w mine and so ive just gotten used to not having all of my needs met and always being the person to take the short end of the stick…. but i actually need to be able to sing and dance and draw and do whatever and when im alone (which is almost never) im able to do that and that’s actually legit and as important as anyone else’s needs in a space i share w them. idk if i worded that well but yeah

#like yes it’s definitely that ive been depressed… but maybe that dynamic creates the depression. you know?#purrs #delete later #not to say this bc it’s BLASPHEMOUS but i was also thinking abt this in the context of my bday. i was happiest in the moments where i was ei #either alone (dancing / singing / whatever and doing karaoke w mtself at 2am LOLLLL and just enjoying having peace and quiet and being able #to do what i wanted) or at work (around ppl i choose to be with in a place i choose to be in). any time i was around my family i was #agitated and annoyed and maybe some of it has to do w the renovation and the fact that we were at home for like 4 hrs moving furniture bc of #the renovation but also… maybe it’s just i don’t enjoy spending ng time w them as much as i do other things. like passively spending time at #around them bc there’s ALWAYS noise or conversation or bickering or whatever. and also in part bc i share my bday w my twin sister so its #not actually *my* day it’s ours and we’re lumped together and treated as a unit and my parents have expectations abt that and whatever. idk.#i don’t want to be / sound selfish or ungrateful for my family or whatever bc being a twin has its perks and my family situation could be so #much worse and it’s not like i had a horrible birthday or it wasn’t acknowledged or whatever. but my point is… what if… there will come a #point in my life… where the majority of things i do / people im around / aspects of my environment are things i get to choose or at the very #least have a say in. what if someday my birthday can just be my birthday and not OUR birthday(which again is the evilest most horrible thing #i have ever said in my life i know i know i know but ummmmm being a twin has dealt some significant psychological damage to me and i am #still figuring out how to be an independent person and how to determine who i am outside of the context of that relationship which most ppl #at this age / stage in life have already had years to do). idk what i was saying i lost the thread but basically: i love having alone time #where i am truly alone and i get to sing and dance and make music and eat and whatever without being yelled at or having to be quiet or #getting overstimulated. and that is not to say that i do not appreciate company or would not want to live with other people. i think im #actually kind of an ambivert now where i used to be very extroverted. but i think my biggest thing is choice. i value choice so so so much.#which is ironic in some ways bc here i am not wanting to like mess up the original layout of my acnh island… idk. it’s situational but i thi #think w the big stuff choicemeans so much to me. and i wish that was more okay to my family than it is bc asserting myself and growing into #my independence has been and will continue to be an extremely painful and unpleasant process bc no one is happy w it lol. ok ive been talkin #talking A LOT more than i thought i would and i still have more thoughts but i need to stop and keep packing out the hotel lol. bye #‘being a twin has its perks’ sounds so terrible omg. i meant that like.. it is a gift to be a twin and i love my sister. AND there are parts #of it that fucking suck ass and hopefully those parts will recede once we are living separate lives and have gotten distance from dynamics

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nomaishuttle · 1 year

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i worked onmy ermmm. little good habits reward sheet a lot .. im pretty excited :] i was gonna wait to start it until ive moved home bc a lot of the things r home specific (like spending time with loved ones etc) BUT i think im gonna go ahead n start it tmrw... i think itll be good to go ahead n get started on it b4 i move back that way its not such a big transition bc i think thats why my like. plans t get better when i moved up here. failed. so horrifically lol. bc i didnt give myseld any lead in i just made a huge change and then got upset when i didnt immediately adjust.

#i do eventually wanna move back to wa on my own bc i feel like. i didnt rly get to spend time here due to the everything. i just dont think #i was at all ready. and thats entirely on me i chose this i ignored literally everybody around me telling me it wasnt a good idea #i brought this all on myself. but i wanna try n improve #n im excitedd!! i think next year/whenever im Fr ready. im gonna try n move out to my old hometown #since my family moved away from it #which i think will be rly nice bc ill like. be independeny but in a familiar place and like. still close to home. ill still be able t have #the same insurance etc etc..#itll get rid of a Lot of stressors basically. and ill be able to visit family way easier !!#plus my hometown is way more walkable and since. idk if ill ever be able t drive just bc of like. my general nature #thats something im rly rly looking for...#i think my new goalsheet is rly well balanced as well. its likee #its based on thise little metallic walmart star stickers bc i miss those rly bad #thats the entire inspo. obv rn itll have to be digital bc i cant get my little star stickers #but. its like a points system #red is 5 points yellow is 3 points green is 2 points and blue is 1 point #(might move them around to make green 5 points bc green was my star color when i was little lol)#and each point is worth .50 cents. and so however many points i have at the end of the week thats how much money i get t have in my like #personal acct. and i get to use that however i want #and everything else will go to likee. savings and bills (i wont have bills for a while but yk)#and i even have likee. a streak system #i need to work on that sl its like balanced. bc idk if it is rn #my idea was t just have it be like. bc th way it is like #the tasks r split up by difficulty. more difficult tasks earn different colors #so my most difficult on there rn is to go for a walk #/ go to a public place / spend time outside #rly that goal is rly geared toward my hometown but im still gonna try n do it in my parents town... yk :] like i can ask my mom t take me #to th library and stuff. bc i wanna start going more #we went to th one here a couple times but it kinda got. shelved. yk. and i miss it #the one in ny hometown was rightt by our house and i never went #and im mad abt kt.

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roaringheat · 1 year

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I was really productive today and i'm trying to be proud of myself but theres nothing like being reminded by my family that they consider me lesser and an after thought to kill my mood and motivation

#vark posts #dont rb #all i did was ask my dad and my sister if they wanted to play mc and an hour later i get some half assed 'idk'#ik that might not seem like much but this happens everytime i make some attempt to spend time with them #whatever i suggest is never good enough and i'm lucky if i even get texted first #they never personally inv me over and everytime ive pointed it out theyve spun it around on me #they even go so far as to ignore me and put me down in person #maybe its time i go low contact #i so badly want things to go back to how they used to be but nothin good is gonna come out of putting myself in this situation over and ove #i responded to the idk text with 'you can just say no. its not that big a deal' and ik thats gonna piss my dad off #so i havent looked at my phone since #nothin like family trauma to make me use desktop tumblr lol #sorry to vent this like all happened at most 10 mins since posting this #and im very hurt #anyways fuck them check out the shit i did today #i took out the trash + worked out + did the dishes + started a russian study journal #+ cleaned and disinfected 1 of 4 cobweb and spider covered chairs so now we have a chair for the dining table!#cleaned the chair outside on my apts front porch while it was raining so it was actually pretty nice and peacful #wasnt playin any music or anything just listening to the rain and letting myself get swept up in chair cleaning lmao #im a bad bitch as soon as im left home alone all day

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bitchapalooza · 2 years

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So we have to sit here and wait for Wednesday or Thursday to hear if we're getting help with our rent, being told not to stress or pack yet until we know the outcome. Well I think I'm gonna stress anyway but I think I'll curve the nausea inducing overstimulation by playing pokemon.

#ive been doing okay to not stress so much about money by drawing and spending time with my family #but now idl what to draw and theyve gone home now so dihsjsjs #mom is refusing to take my last 8$ too so i think ill use that to get a snack i like #or save it to have a relaxing day out on tuesday to get a few new buttons and dad a birthday gift #idk what im gonna get him since i usually get him a watch buuut he cant see it so :/#or i get him power tools buuuut yeah #idk maybe ill get him a pound of his favorite candy or some fudge #i am rambling lmao #im still trying to fully wake up sjhsjs #talkies

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