#im going to go to sleep this is making me so upset

[baby--vera]

First taste of Love

alexis ness x reader

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it's february 14th. a notorious day. valentines day.

this is the first valentines you're spending with ness. you didn't have much planned but hopefully it would be memorable and sweet. and memorable for ness it was.

you woke up in the morning to the light melody of chirping birds and the sunlight peaking through the slightly ajar curtain of your shared bedroom. you sat up while rubbing the sleep out of your eyes and turning to the other side of the bed. your gaze lands on a mop of ashy brown and magenta hair sprawled out on a pillow. ness' breathing was slow and steady, still asleep. a loving smile pulls at your lips, entranced by the sight of your lover.

you slip your way out of the bed quietly without waking ness. your his tshirt falling to circle around your mid thighs as your bare feet make contact with the cool wooden floors, sending a shiver up your nerves. you pad your way out the bedroom and mke your way down to the kitchen.

-

ness is stirred awake by the lurking feeling of your absence beside him in the bed. he blinks his eyes into focus and fixates on the empty area beside him, where your figure would usually reside.

he groans and forces his body up, on a mission to find where you went. why'd you leave him so early alone in a cold bed without the warmth of your body?

ness stands to full height and stretches his tight muscles, feeling the complaint of his muscles from being cramped and curled around your own body the whole night. he lets out a sigh of content as his tendons are no longer taut, and swings the bedroom door open to go seek out your presence.

-

you're leaning over the kitchen corner, scrolling on your phone as the quiet hum of the coffee machine sounds in the kitchen. you suddenly feel a pair of arms wrap around your waist and a familiar scent fills your senses.

"ah! ness, you scared me.." you pouted and leaned into his embrace.

he buries his face into the top of your hair and allows his eyes to flutter close in your presence.

"i woke up and you were missing beside me.." his voice muffled against your hair.

"mm..i'm sorry, i was just gonna make breakfast for us."

he lifts his head slightly and opens his eyes.

"why? you never usually make breakfast?"

"do you not want me to?" you turn around in his hold to face him, resting your hands on his chest.

"ah- you know that's not what i meant.."

you let out a small giggle.

"i know. i'm just teasing you 'lexis."

ness lets out a breath he didn't even know he was holding.

"no but really..why are you cooking?" he tilts his head to the side, kind of resembling cat. cute.

"'lexis..do you know what day it is?"

"..no?"

there was a short pause. you both standing staring at eachother.

"ness. it's valentines day"

ness' eyes widen slightly.

"oh."

your eyebrows furrow slightly.

"what's wrong 'lexis?"

ness diverts his gaze down towards the floor, and you feel his grasp on you tighten slightly, almost unnoticeable.

"nothing..i've just..seen the point in celebrating valentines."

oh. that's why.

of course you knew about ness' childhood, but you never would've thought that he wouldn't see the point in celebrating valetines.

"well, i'm gonna make this the most memorable valentines you'll ever have!" you kept your hopes up, not wanting ness to start the day off upset.

ness leans into your touch, a silent 'okay' from him.

-

and the most memorable valentines, you did.

but in ness' mind. any valentines with you would be the best. even days that weren't deemed a special holiday.

this was so ass and the ending was so rushed😓 i just needed to post something for valentines and bc im always inactive...👀

[mldn1ghtm00n]

vent post (um tw sh, suicide)

im not doing good at all and im really thinking of killing myself so if i do something funny to myself my account will go to my friend,, i dont know if i can keep going on with this much stress and weight on my shoulders,, i keep cutting myself several times a day cause nothing else works at this point,, my friends are leaving and replacing me, sending me death and rape threats, and it's making me really upset to the point im writing this,, also I fucked up my sleep schedule and generally fucked myself up im a horrible human being

there's much more going on, but I won't adress all of it

[mazeofyeni]

ⓘ youtube.com ▹ now playing . . .

KEIKO AND WONBIN CUTE MOMENTS . . .

↺ |◁ II ▷| ♡ | intro. another compilation of wonko cute moments 💕

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ clip one — keiko japan vlog⠀⠀峠

during one of their breaks keiko went to japan to see her grandmother and wonbin came along .

“we’re in yokohama today.” keiko said walking along the road , the boy walking beside her. “we’re here to see keikos grandmother.” the boy smiled at the camera. “i got some free time and i wanted to see my grandmother , so i bought wonbin along.” the girl put her face close to the camera. “don’t tell him this , she’s his favorite.” the boy smiled , hearing her . “of course i am , why wouldn’t i be.” she rolled her eyes. “she loves his long hair , he cut it though.” she reached up running her fingers through his hair. “will she still love it?” his hand engulfing hers , she nodded. “you’re handsome , she’ll love you regardless.”

*at her grandmothers house* “ah ! what a surprise” her grandmother let the two into the house. “he’s so handsome.” the boy gush bashfully. “thank you.” her grandmother tapped his cheeks. “such a polite young man.” keiko laughed , hugging the older woman. “grandma , you’re ruining his image.” she said. “i will stop for now , come sit and eat.” she guided you back to the eating area. “are you guys staying ?” she filled the table with different foods. “only for the day , we leave tomorrow.” keiko said , wonbin peeling the shrimp , putting it on her plate. “will you go visit the ramen shop your grandfather took me to on our first date , i think you two should go.” keiko blushed , covering her face. “grandma.” she whined. “you can’t say that.” she stressed. “what , it’s a cute date stop.” the girl was stressed , wonbin laughed feeding into the ladies antics. “we’ll go before we leave tomorrow.” keiko slapped his arm , he laughed , placing another shrimp in her plate. “it will be fun no? let’s go okay.”

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ clip two — compilation ⠀⠀峠

a compilation of the everyone trying to do damage wonko control and wonbin not giving a fck …

“look at this photo of keiko” wonbin showed anton the photo he took of you in his phone; anton looked at the camera signaling that they were in fact live. “where’d you take this.” he said , pushing the phone up so the camera didn’t pick it up. “japan.” he smiled at the picture , turning the phone to the camera , anton snatched his phone out of his hand before he could show. “don’t show that.” the soft spoken boy turned the phone off smiling. “it’s fine , she’s decent.” anton rubbed his temples. “yah , why wouldn’t she be decent? guys ignore him , he’s crazy today.” wonbin shrugged smiling down at the picture of her.

“what are you doing?” shotaro asked the girl. “oh i downloaded a dress up game on my switch.” she said showing him. “it was 20 dollars.” shotaro tried to justify that price in his head as wonbin came over. “im tired.” he said , laying down on the couch , putting his head on her thighs. “go to sleep.” she raked her fingers through his hair , he smiled up at her , it was cute — shotaro on the other hand , quickly sat up so the camera couldn’t see them , keiko laughed at how fast he moved. he giggled , standing up to find somewhere else to film. “ah stress.” he said through a smile.

“come here.” wonbin beckoned the girl over. “no im upset with you right now.” he smiled at the stubborn girl. “i said i was sorry , why can’t you forgive me.” she ignored him. “you’re being stubborn.” he stood up , walking over to her. “no don’t.” he was already laying on top of her. “get off of me.” she huffed. “say your forgive me.” he said . “i’ll get you a new charger i promise.” he said wrapping his arms around her. “I’ll order one as soon as i can.” he pouted. “please forgot me.” *caption in video: friends making up quickly* even the camera had to cut to the next clip.

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ clip three — rise & realize⠀峠

“we’re practicing for our dance collab.” she pointed the camera to the boy who was dancing his part with the choreographer. “he looks so serious.” he turned his head to her. “don’t look so serious , it’s a happy dance.” she did a smile motion with her hand. “smile.” he stuck his tongue out at the girl. “i didn’t say do that.” she laughed , he walked over to the girl sitting down next to her , flipping the camera.

he laid his head on her shoulder , intertwining their hands. “she got the dance down so fast because she choreographed it.” he said , his eyes closed. “i told you let’s do it together and what did you say?” she said , he smiled. “don’t try and act cute , what did you say?” she giggled , tapping his cheek. “i said you do it better.” he said. “but i wasn’t lying , you do but it’s hard.” he said , his head still on his shoulder , she smiled into the camera lovingly. “it’s okay binnie-ah , take a rest.” she fixed his hair , moving a piece of hair out his face. “you did well for today.”

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ clip four — compilation⠀⠀峠

keiko being just as down bad for wonbin than he is.

“i had a schedule today it was fun.” keiko said , looking at her nails. “i got my nails done too.” she smiled , showing the camera. “i got a bunch of jewels , i think one came off earlier but it’s okay.” she said , someone knocking on the door , slowly opening it. “im live.” she looked up. “oh it’s you.” she smiled up at wonbin. “come.” she called him over. “im on my way to a schedule.” she frowned , grabbing his hand. “let’s do one later okay ? did you get your nails done?” she nodded, his hand brushing over her knuckles. “they look nice.” she smiled. “I have to go okay?” he waved to the camera. “i’ll see you later .” she waved as he left , she was still smiling , turning back to the camera , cheeks still a little red.

“and look who we have here.” wonbin aimed the camera up at the girl who was currently putting different color barrettes and pins in his hair. “hi keiko.” he giggled as she smiled. “hi binnie.” she said , wrapping her arms around him. “did you make me look pretty?” he asked , she nodded. “mhm.” she said , resting her chin on her head. “can i go on stage like this tomorrow?” she nodded. “wear it just like this , i’ll tell the hair stylist to do it.” she pinched his cheeks. “cute.” she said to herself.

𓈃⠀⠀🎞️ ๋ clip five — wonko live⠀⠀峠

keiko interrupting wonbins live but he doesn’t care

wonbin sat on the couch , stringing along on his guitar — when he heard a familiar knock pattern , he immediately smiled. “it’s keiko” he said full of joy ; the door opening up. “the camera is on.” he called her over , patting the seat next to her. “sit down.” she sat down , smiling putting her knees up to her chest. “i went to the store today with sohee and i got these.” she said showing her fake tattoos. “i thought they would be cool.” wonbin smiled to himself while she talked , stringing his . “i have my own , but these are so cool.” she then went on to tell the camera every single thing she got that day while shopping. “do you want to see?” the boy nodded , she got up. “i’ll be back.”

he waited for her to close the door before he turned to the camera. “isn’t she so cute?” he smiled. “she talks a lot but i like to listen.” he strung the strings of the instrument. “she buys unnecessary things too , but it’s okay if it makes her happy.” he heard her skipping down the hall. “as long as she’s happy that all the matters.”

©️MAZEOFYENI

[barghest-land]

ata tu corazón, mi amor, y arrástralo por la tierra

[todayisafridaynight]

[b4kuch1n]

siren

[witchyfemmee]

started playing life is strange,,, i don’t feel so good guys 😭

[avianurges]

if i randomly say some like. serious shit here and there would anyone listen lol. like i know im all about being haha funny clown but i have like. commentary on real life shit that i deem important to me,

i want to create more art with actual substantial meaning regardless of if there's an audience for it i've just been inspired by a couple things lol

the more I learn about media literacy and how to actually understand the media i consume,—like a LOT of people right now—the more harmful propaganda, covert commercials, or slot-reel like attacks on our dopamine receptors i find inOH MY GOD I WAS SO VUSY TYPING MY SERIOUS SHIT I FORGOT I QAS MAKING TEA ON MY STOVE AND STARTED A TEENSY TINY FIRE LITERALLY THREE FUCKING FEET AWAY FROM ME

OBVIOUSLY I HAVE MORE LEARNING TO DO IN LIFE IM GOING TO GO DO THAT NOW SRRY MY SOAPBOX WAS MADE OF SOGGY CARDBOARD IG MY B

[zackcharine]

I need to try harder to get out of bed but augh

[darewolfcreates]

run Run RUN

*lays on my stomach and kicks my feet* CMYK mono printing is fun :]

Bit of an explanation here- we had a printing assignment to put a twist on a fairy tale. I picked that one fairy tale where some guy proposes to some woman but then the woman gets turned into a bore and is killed by her betrothed and the cook finds her ring in the bore's stomach and proposes to his own love with it. IDK what it was called and I cant find it again but it may have been an Irish or a Norse folk tale- I remember having my mother read it to me in highschool when me and my sibling somehow managed to convince her to start reading us bedtime stories again. If anyone knows what I'm talking about please tell me its name. I cant find it in any of my books or online.

so the twist-

I had this one dream around the time of highschoolish that had some parallel themes that poped up in the story of the bore. So ill tell that dream to you now.

There was a realm that lived alongside our world. Like how some worlds live in our shadows, this one lived in our light. I could enter by stepping forward into the sun with my eyes closed. And when I was a child I was discovered by an organization in this realm. I was thought to be human but when I was stressed I would start to change, these changes allowed me to fly. It was discovered that I was a creature from a whole other dimension. A “Survivor”, if a Survivor’s life was threatened they would gain more and more traits that would allow them to survive even the worst apocalypse. If a survivor was pregnant while in their full survivor form for longer than a certain period of time, the baby instead of developing, would be sent to another dimension and go into the womb of something that could carry them. The child would develop with the characteristics of the species carrying them. The one who discovered me worked as an investigator for a crimes division and I had fun helping him solve his cases due to my ability to essentially: not die. Unfortunately due to my proximity with crime I was discovered by an individual who took advantage of the fact that I was not from this dimension. While there were many creatures from other dimensions I was the only Survivor that had ever existed in this one or was known by anyone who had ever lived in this dimension. Because of this there were no laws on my species about slavery or ownership. The individual in the dream ran a freak show circus of sorts and bound my soul to them so that they owned me. I didn't like that so I just left the realm, ran away and never went back. Years later I was an adult and I ended up being selected as the “average joe” in a princess-off composition in the realm of light. They wanted one randomly selected individual to take part so there could be a comparison to judge the princesses off of. It was a bit stressful since I didn't know what was happening most of the time but there was a race at one point and I realized I could just fly, there were no rules saying I couldn’t, so I ended up winning that part. At the end of the day I was going to go home but my brother wanted to come see me when I told him about the composition and he got lost in the train system. I ended up spending a lot of time out in the open tracking him down and at one point when combing through train cars I passed by the man who owned my soul. I ended up finding my brother and I took him home immediately, but the damage was done. The man followed me and the rest of the long dream consisted of me running, and running, and running, and slowly losing myself as I changed more and more. I couldn't stop. Everytime I did he would catch me and with every time it was harder to escape. So I had to just keep running. My eyes went black and my nails turned into dark claws. The dark black fur crawled up my arms and over my body. My eyes turned to bright purple and my hands turned into knifed hooves, my teeth turned into long needles, I grew a long tail, and my vision went black. I could no longer see normally but instead I could see souls. An adaptation that allowed me to avoid all forms of sentient life and I ran on and on and on. I had no more thought about my life that I had lived, I had no more thoughts about rest, or my family, or anything other than my need to RUN.

So basically the parallels were the transformation and the being hunted. But also I'm loosely twisting the "belonging" to someone being the hunter as well. I mashed these two stories together to make something new. The prints mostly just retold the dream but instead of the continual running I was subjected to the story ends like the one with the bore, an arrow delivering a final blow. The golden ring in the bore's belly became the shinning light where the arrow struck in the last piece.

[corpsecoochie]

Can’t a bitch have a mental health day without someone immediately trying to make it theirs instead!

[slutdge]

Not to get deep here or anything but i really think i dont want to have a relationship with my sister anymore and ive been reflecting on that a lot. like sure she didnt abuse me or really do anything to directly traumatize me, but she voted against me having human rights because im queer, as well as voting for a party that wants to harm first nations people despite both of us being first nations i just.... i dont think i can forgive her for that. weve had laughs and good times together but i find myself unable to forgive her for her politics. i wouldn't tolerate bigotry from anyone else, i shouldnt tolerate it from someone just cause theyre family.

[larkthorne]

everyone: I bet you're sooooo done being pregnant right!??

me: idk actually, I'm enjoying late pregnancy, I'm treasuring this quiet time with my husband preparing our home and minds to intentionally welcome our son, he can take all the time he needs I hope he's cozy in there! 🥰💞🤰✨️💗

my beloved beautiful baby and my body, conspiring together, adding on new discomforts every hour: lmao watch this *they high five*

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

'yandere sebastian' 'yandere abigail' 'yandere wizard' give me yandere clint 🖐✊🖐✊

[butnotbubblegum]

using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, read at your own risk.

[steaksex]

Neeeeeeeeed to be a dumb mutt again i think. Need to make mistakes and not understand basic things and instead of getting yelled at i just get a condescending look and accomodations. Next time i eat so fast i feel sick or try to save the best bite of food for last i need someome to put that shit in those scary spiky dog bowls that make it harder for your dog to eat so fast they throw up. Smiel