#im fucking tired of this shit
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YES!!!
(i'm highkey gonna be raging under the cut, i'm sorry to anyone who enjoys my normally positive manner :[)
Genuinely, I don't care what people say. Neville was an irresponsible, ridiculous, idiot. He leaves his 'beloved pet' around random places and loses him constantly, is cowardly and incompetent for the most part, and is the most forgetful person in the series that I can recall. See, this wouldn't really be a problem, except for the fact that he endangers other people frequently because of these flaws. For fucks sake he left a list of all the passwords to the Gryffindor dorms WITH A MASS MURDERER ON THE LOOSE!
Even the everyday things he does that are supposed to be regarded as funny or comedic relief are horrifying. Potions was an incredibly difficult subject, but Snape was an incredibly competent teacher (completely tossing the textbook out the window and teaching the subject properly). Neville was still out here creating the magical equivalent of pipe bombs! What would have happened if one of his fucked up potions blew up a cauldron and permanently incapacitated someone? (Actually, something pretty close happens in canon; the damage isn't permanent, but what if it had been? Thank god he never made it to N.E.W.T.s: "Neville had somehow managed to melt Seamus’s cauldron into a twisted blob, and their potion was seeping across the stone floor, burning holes in people’s shoes. Within seconds, the whole class was standing on their stools while Neville, who had been drenched in the potion when the cauldron collapsed, moaned in pain as angry red boils sprang up all over his arms and legs.") I don't know about you guys but I swear to god if this kid was in my class I would have fucking lost it.
Maybe I just think this because I'm Asian but the teachers were completely correct to chastise him for his incompetency. It was not their responsibility to coddle him or 'accommodate' his stupidity. He can clearly get shit done when Hermione is secretly whispering instructions to him, so why can't he copy the instructions that are written perfectly clearly on the board? What the fuck is happening during his normal working time? Is he just purposefully fucking everything up? It would have been completely different if even Hermione couldn't save him, but for god's sake, he is clearly at least capable of brewing a potion!
Draco Malfoy was turned into a small animal and bashed against a cobblestone floor multiple times! Do you see anyone crying about how he was traumatized and abused by a teacher/death eater in disguise? No! You see people glorifying said death eater and declaring it canon that he's secretly cute and gay and punk or whatever. Snape never physically abused OR abused Neville at all, actually, he was a rightfully strict teacher fed up with this kid's idiocy. He's not even the only teacher to lose it over him! McGonagall does it as well! Neville is just an absolute idiot, and it's tiring as fuck seeing people defend him!
You know what, fuck Neville Longbottom.
He was NEVER supposed to be a sympathetic character! He's very clearly a character written to be made fun of for being ridiculous! Him being so scared of everything isn't an endearing character trait designed to evoke sympathy and understanding, it's a FLAW that's meant to make you wanna shake him and yell at him to get a fucking grip!
I grew up reading boarding school books, specifically the Enid Blyton ones, which I believe almost every single British child has read. The school stories are mostly traditionally girls' books, and they all have very similar character tropes and themes, some of which are shared with Harry Potter, which is a boarding school story. There's always at least one jokester, such as Alicia in Malory Towers. She's brilliant, intelligent, but she's rather unkind and thoughtless, and always pulls pranks, or rather tricks, on people, especially the one french teacher. She's exactly like Fred and George, practical jokers who are popular and well liked but not always very kind and don't always consider the outcome of their pranks. There's always an incredibly strict teacher the girls don't dare play funny with. In the third book there's this one teacher I cannot recall the name for, but she, I believe, is considered mean and strict and awful up until the end where it turns out she's actually got a good heart. She's not the level of pantomime meanness as Snape is, (perhaps because she's not a male teacher and also not teaching the kids something that could kill them all), but she's a similar trope.
Actually, Snape reminds of the teachers from the old Beano comic, overly strict and mean, but when you consider the shit those kids put them through you can kinda understand why. But ultimately, Snape is a classic children's trope: the mean strict teacher who actually deep inside would take care of the students.
Neville? He's ALSO a trope! The ridiculous coward!
Going back to Malory Towers, there's Mary-Lou. She's a very cowardly, nervous girl (and a sweetheart, but a scaredy cat nonetheless). And that's a FLAW. NOBODY SYMPATHISES WITH HER BECAUSE WHAT SHE'S AFRAID OF IS NOTHING TO BE AFRAID OF! They at best pity her because it's a miserable way to live, but they don't support her for it. There are multiple full plots where the aim is her having to do something scary to get her to shake off this cowardliness, at least one outright organised by another character in an attempt to show her she can be brave.
Scaredy Cat characters in British children's media, especially in these school stories, are never scaredy cats to be sympathised with. They're there as a sort of comedic relief or to make things interesting, and are often considered a nuisance, the way Neville is! In the first book there's a very classic "you need to learn to stand up for yourself" piece involving Neville. Which he does!
People seem to be projecting all sorts of trauma onto Neville. Especially regarding Snape. There seems to be, in this current time, an attitude that him being a coward is something other people need to be accommodating for, and that he's a victim, especially regarding Snape. Neville is not a victim. He's not supposed to be accommodated for, especially in the climate he's living in. He exists as a comic character, and clearly to be a bit ironic as he's a coward in the house of courage. But regardless, his cowardice is not the result of trauma no matter how much people project it onto him and blame Snape for it.
Neville's cowardice is a flaw. It makes him ridiculous. He's afraid of absolutely nothing important at all. He's afraid of a teacher? That's absolutely stupid! Everyone laughs at him. Even he's aware that this is something stupid to be afraid of. He's more afraid of his grandmother, to the point that he didn't mention her because he was that afraid of her being his boggart. It just happened Lupin used the grandma, unaware of the situation, as an idea of how to make the boggart look ridiculous. So it makes me mad that people use the boggart scene as proof that Snape traumatised Neville. Neville is not traumatised. He's just an idiot.
Yes, I've gone there and I'm staying there. He is an idiot. He's frightened of stupid things. He keeps fucking up basic potions, basic spells, everything, to the point that McGonagall forbade him from doing anything in front of the visiting schools because he's that bad at everything. Can he help it?
Yes. He can help it. Instead of being a coward and crying about it, he can just as easily be confident, own up to it, and be more bold in trying to be better. His cowardly nature is what makes people lose respect for him. Something that makes sense considering the setting of the story!
Neville's arc is him growing up and getting confidence by going through difficulties and rising to meet them, not by other people gently helping him through his nonsense (and it is nonsense). That's not how things work in the setting of Hogwarts at all. In the setting and culture of Hogwarts, there's no gentle helping, it's "pull yourself together!". That's exactly the attitude everyone gives Neville, from the students to the teachers.
Neville's cowardice is ridiculous. It's as much of a flaw as Draco's arrogance, Snape's unpleasantness, McGonagall's competitiveness, and so on. He is not meant to be babied for it, or called "traumatised", he's meant to be scolded and shaken until he gets some sense knocked into him.
Snape's approach to Neville is exactly what you'd expect in this context. Maybe another teacher would have less of an unpleasant attitude about it, but in the end they WILL lose patience with him because all he's doing is not learning and trying to make him learn the same thing everyone else learnt last week is going to waste everyone's time. It makes zero sense to spend time trying to get one child to understand a basic concept that everyone else understood ages ago instead of moving with the curriculum. Snape is naturally mad at Neville for messing up the clear instructions that are right there on the board. He's rightfully mad about it. He's rightfully mad that Neville won't learn. He's rightfully mad that Neville's putting them in danger. Yes, he's got an unpleasant attitude, but he's right to be mad. He's also right to use Trevor to make Neville learn. People make it seem like he wanted to poison Neville to upset him. No. He was raising the stakes for Neville so that the love Neville had for his toad would force Neville to get his act together! Which is exactly what I'd expect from a teacher in this context dealing with a student like Neville! Fuck that, that's exactly what I would have done if I'd have had to deal with this idiot for multiple years and he still fucks up the simplest and clearest instructions. If Snape wanted Trevor hurt, he simply wouldn't have restored Trevor to his original state and killed him.
And lastly, not every unpleasant experience is a traumatic experience. One single unpleasant teacher is not going to traumatise Neville or anyone else! It's just a part of life. What, do you want everyone to be nice and coddle these kids so when they leave the safety of Hogwarts they aren't equipped to deal with people who are unpleasant? People love to project and find trauma in every unpleasant situation (for fucks sake they say DUMBLEDORE traumatised Tom when in reality Tom's a sulky baby who's mad that Dumbledore did not fawn over him like everyone else and actually called out his shit) but not every unpleasant situation is a traumatic situation!
And you know what, fuck it but some people have to go through a traumatic event to learn a fucking lesson. Dudley abused his cousin. Being "traumatised", or rather punished for his actions by being turned into a pig is what he deserved/needed, and even then did that stop him tormenting Harry? No! Draco being turned into a ferret? Yes, traumatising, but he's also a bully who needed to be taken down a peg! Neville being "traumatised" by Snape? Good! It may kick the cowardice out of him and make him a bit more cautious about dangerous potions!
Trauma is Snape being bullied by the Marauders for no reason, being abused by his father. Trauma is Harry being abused by the Dursleys. Trauma is what Ginny went through in her first year. Trauma is Neville having to see his parents there but not there when visiting them.
Trauma is NOT dealing with an unpleasant teacher.
Especially when you look at the context of when Harry Potter was written and where Hogwarts is set.
And Neville's cowardice isn't cute or endearing or something to baby, it's a fucking flaw that needs to be dealt with sternly.
#anti neville longbottom#neville longbottom critical#im fucking tired of this shit#sigh#pro severus snape#harry potter fandom#aj rambles
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why do minors think they’re so fucking entitled to be in adult spaces. like y’all need to learn some goddamn respect.
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yeah im still not back, but i knew people would be talking shit as usual, so just popping in to remind everyone that a parent not wanting their child to be queer because "the world will be cruel to them" is fucking bullshit, and apart from everything else is a fairly common trope for parents of queer kids in media that shows how NOT to fucking react
#she didnt even do anything wrong yet#but you idiots already jumping to your girlboss's defence like her being against it (if she is) is understandable#im fucking tired of this shit#archer speaks
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STOP DISCOURSING MATPAT IN MY NOTES STILL
#im so fucking tired of matpat fuck you. now its tubbo pregnancy#I DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT MATPAT OK#pregnancy tw
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I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself I am estranged from myself.
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i want floyd to get high at a rock concert and start a fight in the moshpit
#trolls#trolls band together#trolls world tour#floyd trolls#riff trolls#fliff#fliff trolls#im of the firm belief ringpops are a hard drug for trolls#also of the firm belief floyd gets fucking crazy when he's high i think it contrasts with his timid personality so well#my art#i stayed up all night making this shit im so tired
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I be checking my phone like I mean something to someone
😂silly fucking me 😂
#actually mentally ill#depressing shit#kinda depressing#mentally fucked#mentally tired#suic1de#this is depressing#tw depressing stuff#discusting#dying inside#self h4te#self half#sadnees#sorry for being depressing#im so tired#sadgirl#sad thoughts#im fat and ugly#always alone#feeling alone#alone with my thoughts#alone in the dark#menatl health#mentally exhausted#mentally unstable#mental illness#mental health#idiot#im hurtin#im dying
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Your "non-confrontational" choices not to communicate hurt the people you don't confront btw. You're not a martyr for keeping everything inside and then running away when other people don't know what's going on with you. You just decided avoiding rejection and sparing your own feelings was easier than being honest and giving them the agency to respond and make their own decisions. You chose to hurt them so they didn't hurt you. You think your feelings are realer and more important than their own care and love for you. You were always just waiting for a sign to run.
"If they cared about me they would have–" did you tell them that? Did you let them know how you feel? How much importance you place on those requirements they don't know they have to meet? This secret criteria and secret signs for your secret feelings? Or are you making them play a game they don't know even exists?
Your choice not to communicate isn't cute. You didn't run because they didn't feel the same for you. You ran so you wouldn't have to risk rejection. You chose to prioritise your own self-protection over their trust in and love for you. At least own that.
#vent post#i'm having enough of non-confrontational people in my life atm#im tired of paying the price for their emotional cowardice#i'm too neurodivergent for this shit#either spell it out or fuck off#nice to know how much all my love and care and loyalty is worth#personal#knee of huss#relationships#toxic relationship
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try to be gentle while tearing me apart
#depressing shit#tw depressing thoughts#depressing life#sad thoughts#self h@rm#quotes#i'm sad#im sorry#suic1de#trauma#tw self destructive behavior#tw self destruction#tw depressing stuff#tw abuse#toxic love#toxic relationship#heartbroken#please help#im so tired#im not okay#mentally fucked#mentally exhausted#mental health#bpd vent#bpd thoughts#su1cide#su1c1dal#su1c1d3#sexualassault#family issues
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i got lazy in the second panel and didnt feel like coloring or whatever bite me
#i think she'd be petty enough to do this if rebecca actually lived#flirting with her man. unacceptable. eats#the trend of uzi in the suit and n in the dress is the funniest shit ever to me. n would be so willing to wear a dress#and she'd totally wear her combat boots over the pants. they're not going anywhere#she should be allowed to say fuck#art#murder drones#murder drones uzi#murder drones n#serial designation n#i can finally tag it myself exclamation mark#biscuit bites#uzi x n#murder drones nuzi#lizzy was recording it to send it to v i swear shes not just playing subway surfers#i dont understand outfit design in the slightest im just making it up as i go#ill figurre out a speechbubble design for uzi later im tired#oh yeah uhhh#murder drones rebecca#murder drones lizzy#hope i didnt forget anything ok bye
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something. about. the horror of being sent on an impossible (death) quest and obligations and hospitality politics. the trauma of not having a home, and then the trauma of being in a house that becomes actively hostile to you, one that would swallow you whole and spit out your bones if you step out of line. all of this is conditional, your existence continues to be something men want gone.
it's about going back as far as I can with the perseus narrative because there's always a version of a myth that exists behind the one that survives. the missing pieces are clearly defined, but the oldest recorded version of it isn't there! and there's probably something older before that!! but it's doomed to forever be an unfilled space, clearly defined by an outline of something that was there and continues to be there in it's absence.
and love. it's also about love. even when you had nothing, you had love.
on the opposite side of the spectrum, this is Not About Ovid Or Roman-Renaissance Reception, Depictions And Discourses On The Perseus Narrative.
edit: to add to the above, while it's not about Ovid, because I'm specifically trying to peel things back to the oldest version of this story, Ovid is fine. alterations on the Perseus myth that give more attention Medusa predate Ovid by several centuries. this comic is also not about those, either! there are many versions of this story from the ancient world. there is not one singular True or Better version, they're all saying something.
Perseus, Daniel Ogden
Anthology of Classical Myth: Primary Sources in Translation, edited & translated by Stephen M Trzaskoma, R. Scott Smith, Stephen Brunet
#perseus#danae#komiks tag#long post#every other week i start to say something about how greek heroes are a good case study in diaspora and exile trauma#but man perseus makes me so sad. so does danae. she loves her son :(#perseus turning a whole island to stone is a huge mood. i would also do that if i were him#anyway (salutes) take care everyone i gotta watch yunho's new video it looks like a fucking movie im so excited#(i singled out ovid bc i remember the fucking shit perseus discourse that ran through this site. i remember#im preemptively loading a gun and pointing at it before it can touch this post#it hasn't died out either i see it on twitter all the time in the most ANNOYING ways possible i am TIRED#esp bc they're actually doing medusa a narrative disservice like congrats! you made it worse! stop telling me it's better!!!!)#it’s all greek to me
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why the fuck am I the way I am
#i want to use all the insults i know on myself#im so tired#vent#venting#i'm sad#depressing shit#vent blog#mentally fucked#mentally tired#tw depressing thoughts#actually mentally ill#suixide#su!cidal#angry#self h@te#tw selfhate#i hate my self#anger issues#mentally drained#mental illness
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If they only knew....
#aesthetic#mentally tired#mentally fucked#depressing quotes#mentally exhausted#drugs aesthetic#edgy theme#iv drugs#mentally unwell#i am unstable#suic1de#suislide#tw depressing stuff#tw death#tw self destruction#sorry for being depressing#depressing shit#depressiv#tw depressing thoughts#i wanna kms#i wanna die#im going to kms#ready to kms#i want to kms
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a little bit crazy
#qkdraws#id in alt#please zoom in.i beg of u#mob psycho 100#mp100#mob psycho#teruki hanazawa#mp100 teruki#now that i can finish bigger pieces like this one in one sitting i finish it and then im like well now what.#back when i was painfully slow at art it woulda taken me like 3 whole days to finish this fucker#but now it's done after one sitting. and my back feels like it's being electrocuted. and there's no more art to work on#the fuck is this shit .#anyway hi it's draft jay back at it again at 1am .im so tired#didn't rly sleep last night. i think i got maybe 2 hrs#last couple of nights before that have been rough too so im kinda runnin on fumes#we stay silly tho [thumbs up with a shaking hand]
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i see
#pressure#pressure roblox#roblox pressure#pressure fanart#sebastian solace#pressure sebastian#sebastian pressure#roblox fanart#roblox art#school been fucking my shit up im so tired man#need that sem break rn#this is an old artstyle test practice thingy majingy cause i wanted to see if i could draw in it again#unfortunate to say i dont like it anymore#the little seb in the corner isnt tho i love that guy..
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「coward」
#geshuyan#jiyan#geshulin#wuthering waves#wuwa#THIS IS FOR U 7 PPL IN THE FANDOM#I SUFFERED FOR LONG FOR THIS THING OMG#anyway thats all done#im dONE#my art#u know their clothes gave me trauma#jiyan was supposed to have his mf cottontail looking flowers#but i aint abt to cover up anything in this#THIS TOOK ME DAYS TO COLOR BC IM DUMB HOLY SHIT#but hehehehheeh omg please geshulin playable? bls#i need my toxic yaoi to survive this world#this is most def gonna flop but at this point do i care?#i just want it out of my system#tfw the bg coulda been 10000000x better but im just tired#O RIGHT WAT TAG#ummm#dragon boi#<- thats jiyans tag looooool geshulin can fuck himself#jiyan's boyfriend#jk ily geshulin they did u dirty those#ungrateful konoha wannabe villagers
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