#im fuckin yelling here
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This is both a reminder to myself and others
YOUR BOOK OF SHADOWS/GRIMOIRE/WITCH JOURNAL/WHATEVER YOU HAVE
IT DOESNT NEED TO BE PERFECT
IT DOESNT NEED TO BE PRETTY
IT DOESNT NEED TO BE "AESTHETIC"
HELL- IT DOESNT EVEN HAVE TO BE ORGANIZED IF THAT DOESNT WORK FOR YOU
DO WHAT WORKS FOR YOU
NOT WHAT WORKS FOR OTHERS
WHAT WORKS FOR YOU. YOU. THE PERSON READING THIS RIGHT NOW.
#witchblr#witch#witchy#book of shadows#reminder#i would say 'gentle reminder' but#im fuckin yelling here#caps warning
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wait... are they actually gonna keep doing the steve, Jonathan, and nancy love triangle thing? Is that... was that confirmed? i dont wanna watch any more of that... that literally ruins ALL of their characters and any growth they've had through the seasons???
#i fuckin hate it here#i dont wanna.... im only gonna watch the new season after i see all the spoilers#and honestly.... nobody yell at me for saying this#they might as well kill steve if they're gonna do this shit im done#im out. im very mad and frustrated about being so attached to some of these characters#mine
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i genuinely cannot stand being around ppl who have to take their anger out on others . i'm so sick of always having to act like the bigger person to my Older brother while he can just tornado around my entire life & belongings & relationships without warrant all over smthing that had absolutely nothing to do with you or anyone, rlly.
#but HE runs and tells on ME?#i was just going to let shit blow over#lock myself away as fucking alwys like when we were little and he would cuss up a fucking storm#screaming crying and throwing the shit i bought over being unable to beat a game he plays every fucking day#set on fucking Easy mode#and hes hitting a bat into the door or wrecking my shit in my room or fucking. yelling abt me to the fuckin dog#and in the 'dog's voice' making the animal agree with him bcs im? acting crazy#over a fcking video game that u cant even tell him to turn off or at least stop fucking screaming and wailing or else it'll just set it off#sooner#when dad did it he was fcking drunk and i was illegitimate#it's like i cant even fcking escape fcking hell.#hiding all my bad grades in math bcs i couldnt read a stupid fking number right bcs i didnt want ppl screaming at me#for causing even more trouble than they already have to deal with and just living as dumb bcs it costs less#ill get over it ill try harder#i always have to be the bigger fucking man and im so fucking tired of it#but how are u supposed to cut off someone youve been assigned caretaker as b4 u were even born#im so fucking exhausted#anyways so yea. im pretty sensitive to tone so if i seem like a baby to smthing i apologize#i rlly just. cant stand sme things sometimes#i love getting told i never felt like a friend to my other siblings not only bcs of our massive age gap but also theyre legitimate and#i dont drink or smoke so apparently we cant hang without them always checking the time on their phones#while im taking them out to smthing they like like it's so fun i fcking love it here#anyways yea. love zero comprehension or compassion. love it. loving my life
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can people stop fuckin bricking amazon for the tiktok water bottle I'm not a consumerist trendygirl I just live in texas.
#i only want the damn thing bc it's giant and leakproof#and doesn't just have a big hole that sloshes it all over your face when you try to quickly inhale water between customers in the summer#just take the stupid stanleys im fighting for my life here#skit yells#the weather is getting warmer and my seasonal depression is nigh#when the days get longer my mental state hits the fuckin dirt the sun was not meant to set past 7pm#cruel cruel world#fun fact i didnt even know it was a tiktok thing hdjchdjd#i had never even heard of it and i was like ooo new secret goated water bottle? 👁️ bc i saw some tweet comment about it#and then everyone on the planet was trying to buy one ffs#yes i realize this is silly I'm just sitting in the target parking lot mad bc i wasted the gas bdnfhdkjd
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Sakura gets a second point for being the first to complete the tree climbing at being better at chakra control, but at the same time it just feels like she was made good at it so no extra training segment time would have to be put into her getting good at it and it can be all about Sauce and Nart. Idk that feels too pessimistic but also could totally be true.
#she takes on a very 'obsever' role. like kashi is the teacher watching over them. but sock is the watching and commenting from the same#perspective of nart and sauce and also the viewer unlike kashi. cuz he provides a lot of exposition and whatnot in his inner monolgues#and its like. of course the girl is just the observer who watches alongside us as the two main boys grow and develop#AND I DONT WANNA FUCKIN BE PESSIMISTIC ABOUT THIS BUT GOD ITS IMPOSSIBLE!!!!#but her whole character so far is 'i hate the class clown. im book smart. i diet and im in love'#and the way i see it is. 12yo girl TRYING to fit into the femininity she sees in the world around her so she forces herself to be like this#but she has inner sock who speaks what she really feels showing that she puts on quite a front and isnt really much like that at all#and you expect her to grow into wanting her to truly define herself. and she does with getting stronger and training under tsunade and#learning medical ninjutsu so she really finds a spot for herself. she does!!! but then she KEEPS hanging onto the love nonsense#and admittedly there are moments that push a very obvious trope of thinking she likes sauce cuz hes cool but finding out that the real 'gem'#is nart so i definitely understand where n@rus@kus are coming from#but then she just STICKS with sauce until its the worst ship possible and its an utter mess of 'ill never give up on him'#EVEB DESPITE HIM TRYING TO KILL HER!!! THEN THAT FUCKING WORKS OUT!?!?!?#AND TOO THIS DAY SAUCE STILL NEVER COMES OFF LIKE HE ACTUALLY LOVES HER#IM SORRY BUT ITS TRUE. SARD WE ARE GETTING YOU BETTER PARENTS. ON GOD!!!!!#so she just hangs on to this one little thing that she SHOULD have gotten development for to move on from BUT IT NEVER FUCKING HAPPENS#so its like half her development never fucking happens and thats why it#s such a fuckinf mess!!!!!#i fucking hate this show. i need to go back to watching mike's dino game vod. what am i doing here?????#i did this to myself btw. i didnt need to start yelling about that but thats just how it is with nart#start thinking about something good and then it reminds you of something related thats bad and now its like. yeah this shit sucks#remember when kishi said he regretted not making hina the heroine???? we could have lived in a better timeline.#but if i say that i will get assassinated#anyway.#sock count#personal
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back to thinking about quitting
#but for like. slightly more legitimate reasons this time#on one hand its like. sometimes my coworkers act like five year olds and fuck around and yell at each othet#customers csn see and hear us also just knock it the fuck off please just do your job if you’re going to be in the job area#other hand? fucking hate my new manager. why are you. as someone NEW TO THIS STORE AND ITS EMPLOYEES#why are you being passive aggressive when nothing is fucking wrong#rancid vibes like hes a decent dude but as a manager i am blowing you up with my mind#my first shift FIRST SHIFT working with him was the first time i nearly cried at work because of a coworker#ive heard he thinks people need to ‘earn their hours’ as in earn being scheduled and????? you’re the newest guy here number 1#number 2 what the FUCK are you on about genuinely that is DERANGED. we’re a fucking food store why do you think the fuckin#majority high schoolers i work with need to earn the right to work at a store that is usually busy. are you stupid#i need to look into other jobs at this rate bc if he’s as bad as he makes me feel i need to jump ship#earn hours the fuck are you talking abt. ive been here a year tf you mean i need to earn my hours.#no one should have to EARN being scheduled to work esp in this fuckin us economy. fuck off man i work for min wage#if you start giving me less hours for dumbass arbitrary reasons im out. i dont like work but i don’t mind it i want to work#is that weird???? a manager saying people will earn their hours??? that he halfway threatened a guy with less hours bc he was sitting
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something about infected emma being so aggressive just for abi to ask what’s wrong. and emma softens like “i don’t know…. abi?” seconds before turning ..,,,
abi’s “not again.” even when abi is annoyed with her at first….
like stop it. stop right NOW. no ship has given me this much angst
#supermassive drop a blygbank route NOW#yall talk about dylan yelling for kait to get away from him all the time but#wheres the appreciation for emma showing so much concern for abi literal moments before she turns.#nick fuckin chucks her ass away and jacob can be so aggressive to emma when he's turning#but emma gets SOFT when its with abi#like YEAH she can be ur typical werewolf aggression w the fuck you line or mocking her but. in that last moment........ come on#you know what im sayin here
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#day six death and dying over here due to kidney stones#pain meds really give u false sense of security briefly but overall difficult to concentrate on anything#cos when they run out they really fuckin run out level 8-10 pain#and the first hour after taking another dose is mostly waiting for the pain relief to kick in again#hour two maybe into three feeling like a normal person again wow i can exist normally#then it starts runnning out again and it goes from like 3 to 9 real quick#really trying to make the full 4 hours between the tylenol and ibuprofen so that the range between doses of the same are well past 6 hours#on top of still having to work 11.5 hour days and getting yelled at by customers and having them wish ill heakth upon you#and i still got 2 full days before my surgery wed morning#having a real fuckin struggle#ursa speaks#i knwk they prescribed me the oxy if i really need it but i really dont want to have to take it#really wish theyd done the scan when i first went jn to the ER the week before instead of being like#well we ruled out a UTI so it's probably a kidney stone ok go home now bye#then week later when i get whammoblammod by crippling pain theyre like ok now that we know its a 10mm stone we should schedule u with a uro#arg arg arg 5000 im just ranting bye#ohhhh youre a bit young for kidney stones says the urologist#ok tell that to my bitch ass kidney
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#☉#already getting stress induced nose bleeds again lmao#bro's not even back in the house yet but him and dad were going at it tonight#yelling at each other in the kitchen and i could hear them from my room in the basement#im so tired of it all#especially since my mom and i get to listen to them bitch about each other afterwards#before he moves back in im setting a firm boundary: unless i ask about something specifically *i don't want to hear about it*#ive hit minute 22 with this nose bleed now#i thought it was gonna be a short one (10-15 mins) but nooooo#i can feel it getting worse#based off my experience last summer im pretty sure that if i could just....#get out of this fuckin house#80% of my health problems will improve on their own#since all of them are triggered/aggravated by stress#too bad im fuckin stuck here for the foreseeable future#tbd#edit: 25 mins in and i think it's stopped for the time being...#i can hear my dad bitching about my brother to my mom rn while she's trying to get ready for bed#because she just got home with working her second job#and has to be up in 7hrs for her first one 😭#i want to yell at him to shut up or yell at my mom to tell him to shut up#neither of us will do such things tho#and so it goes
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I say this in the most loving way possible, how the fuck can you write the most expressive and magical tags ever?? How do you have the mental energy to form words? 50% I can only say "nice post op". You inspire me to spread positivity to everyone but I literally can't be this positive and kind all the time. Just want to send you love and know that I appreciate you <3
HKJGH AW RED!! :'] <3 it does take a lot of energy, i understand :'0 i keep a lot of cool art in my tumblr drafts. the art stays in there until i have energy to type all my thoughts out. a lot of things stay stuck in there… i try to make sure art from my friends get out soon though :0 don't feel bad if you can't type a lot!! anything you can manage is okay! no one can be positive and kind all the time, and that's normal! just do what you can. i promise it's enough. (<- these are things i need to remind myself too <3)
a lot of it is literally just me needing to scream hkjfh, i have a lot of thoughts and i love sharing them always. i love rambling, can you tell? (<- joke) also i have a lot of love to give and i love artists and their creations. like WOW someone made a thing!! and they wanted to share it with the world!! AND I GET TO SEE IT!!! i GOTTA tell them i enjoy it!!!!!
it's also my empathy acting up because im also an artist!! and he's like "hey!! you love people writing nice tags on *your* art!! imagine if you were this artist, wouldn't you be happy to see someone tagging it with nice things? :)!" and im like yeah!! if this makes me happy, i should make other people happy too :3
ANYWAY I APPRECIATE YOU TOO RED YOU'RE DEAR TO ME!! SENDING LOVE BACK!!!! <33
#my conceptualization and my empathy handshake WE GOTTA COMPLIMENT ALL THE ARTISTS IMMEDIATELY!!!#i used to take art classes and we were taught how to do art critiques? so i use a lot of that terminology too but only the compliments part#i don't remember much from those anymore but you'll see a lot of my tags talk about ''wow i love the warm colors you used here!''#''the poses are so dynamic!'' ''what an interesting composition!'' ''really good use of texture!'' <- it's basically habit now#talk about what you notice! talk about details you like! talk about how it made you feel! (<- did you laugh? smile? cry?)#truly sometimes i just write ''this made me feel indescribable emotions'' and thats cool too hkjhg <33 also uh. scream a lot?? :']#''WAAAAUHGKJH!!!'' <- very common in my tags hgkjh <3 i know it's hard a lot of the times though!! words are DIFFICULT... we try our best!!#it helps when its a character i know too lmao you'll see me YELL SO MUCH about a post with volition in it bro i will not shut up jhkjdh <3#or when theres a lot of things happening in a scene to comment on! like if theres a lot of characters or its a comic!#THAT'S MORE THINGS TO COMPLIMENT BABEY!! B) i just like supporting artists. we're all creating such cool things to show to each other :]!!#my whole fuckin goal on earth is to be kind and silly and loving and earnest so!! im trying my best hkjhg <3#volta transmissions#esprit: Red
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the YELL I MADE
#snap chats#i got one of those free ssr tickets and i was like Ok W/E#and im calling bestie and i fuckin yelled when i saw daigo 😭😭#hehe........ hes here.....#not gonna replace saeko on my current team. Probably. so ill make a new team for him
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there’s one on here currently and they’re bringing back up old controversy (jashshipping)
Yeaa I saw that. They also seem to post a bunch of CJ related things, so I might make the daily photos one since there isn't one for just CJ screenshots/photos
#im gonna be a fait bit busy today so I cant make it rn#also wont be making it tomorrow as there's another strike happening then [ill make a post on that later too btw]#but i want there to be an account just of stuff from the vids or of the ones he posts on twitter#as for the shipping thing#i wish ppl wouldn't be so rude with things sometimes man#my stance is basically the same as CJs. interpret it however you'd like just don't show it to ppl who are uncomfortable with it#also don't harass or be a dick to people who do or don't ship it#im glad it died down since then at least & that there's not a bunch of hate going around#this fandom is simultaneously really nice to be in & also really draining sometimes#tho it definitely isn't the worse. ive been in a lot of ones that are a LOT worse than here. big & small#place is actually quite nice mostly. despite some things that deserve needing to be called out [like some of the ableism toward Heart]#I think things would be a lot better if people just let others do their own thing. as long as its not like. fuckin illegal or offense#or against CJs boundaries. just let others vibe out in there own corner#ain't that what we all said when TH purists complain about CJs covers? No ones forcing you to consume the content. is all good#just stay where you're comfortable! if anyone's forcing you to look at their stuff then they're the issue. and that goes both ways#again just listen to what the guy said. don't show it to people that don't like it. don't harass people who do it don't like it. an like#just be groovy#sorry for the rant this has just been on my mind for months now#im generally very neutral on things but i hate everyone just yellin at each other when there doesn't need to be yelling in the first place#again this place is hell of a lot better than other spaces ive been in#its a main reason this is the first fandom I've actively participated a shit ton in#im actually using discord & talking [a bit] to other ppl for once lol#idk man i like it here. Just don't make a reason for people not to like it here#again apologies for the rant op. this has just been on my mind for some time & i really don't want shit being blown up again#also apologize if anythins spelled wrong or sounds like nonsense#shitty keyboard + dyslexia + not being able to edit tags can make dumb results lol#moss rants#[atlas asks]
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Im so excited to bike around my roads and town starting this spring just going out a little ways is already really nice, i never really have a choice on where we go so i dont see the backgrounds and hidden bits as much. And its nothing compared to some places but it really is very nice and has beautiful quiet bits, perks of living in valleys you live in a cute lil bowl filled with trees and if you can reach the top of hills you get absolutely stunning views.
The hype i have!!! To go get fuckin cider this fall!!!!!!!! Ah!!!!
#winter speaks#moods goin up and down woth yhe weather- seasonal depression whomst#one more month. one more and im goin to town on my friggin bike and i am exploring and getting a lil tea and snack and walking around#i eill get used to oytside and people damnit im not spending anothrr summer hiding in my room#im excited too i wanna ask the library and loval historical socirty about cragting thinhs so bad#i know theres a club and i wanna fuckin join it. im really wondering since theres the historival whatevrr if they have anywhere i could#further learn lace making and get help and maybe some guidance. theres so much to learn right heckin there and i was never able to explore#fuckin any of it. feel like a weird detched plant that got yanked out of the habitat andflivked and now im just like#erlp i belong here dont mind if i fuckin do outta my way but also please excuse.me and dont yell or i might die ty
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Haha lol I love going downstairs and getting yelled at every single time because the dogs go fucking crazy when I come down the steps and I can't do anything to fix that and it makes me want to die because I hate getting yelled at and I can't fix anyfhing and I can't stop the dogs from going fucking ballistic because I chose to go downstairs but god every single fucking bit of progress I makw goes doen the drain every single day amd i might as well just get back into one meal a day and maybe a drink a day because that minimizes the amount of times.im.down there amd minimizes ehen I'm getting yellwd at
#elias.zip#the dogs are too reactive to us coming downstairs but yelling isn't helping. i dont know how to stop that. its annoying sure but jsut fuckin#live with it i guess. youre the stupid fucking idiots who chose this house with none of its soundproofing and your dogs who lived in a trail#er with you for fucking years what do you expect i dont know stop yelling at me!!! stop yelling at me!!!! im small and little and i dont#like it. i don't like when adults raise their voices i don't like the sound of angry yelling i hate being here. im never going to grow up.#im goingto be 9 and trapped in my room forever and a brat and waste of space and a mistake and unplanned and a burden. i wish we never fuck#ing moved in with them. they should've stayed in Florida. They should've chose another place. i hatw it here i hate them. go live with my mo#ms sister or something leave us. i fucking hate everything. i hate living. i hate living here. never going to fucking escape bc im poor and#stupid and i should've gone to university and just left everyone and be forgtten about. im never going to make enough to save myself. i sho#uld just give up because nothing good ever fucking happens. everyone's going to be disappointed in me no matter what i do I can't ever#fucking make anyone in my family like me. im always lying.#whats the point anymore! i dont fucking know.
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wish ig wasnt so fucked i do miss posting art on there but itll never be like that again. how zuck managed to make it feel physically bad and gross to use an app is incredible. its like a corpse of the app i used to use. a bad puppet. a shell. parading around, empty and awful. came back wrong. i cant use it the way it is anymore. "reels" and "stories" and the algorithm. im not using those. im not using that. it feels gross. its sliming me. its oozing slime out of my phone. i just wanted to make posts. have all my stupid art in one place and chill with my mutuals. but no. its trying to sell me ads and pretty people. and now i cant view my notifications bc it sold pretty people too hard and broke teenager's brains. itstelling me to watch reels. all the people i follow are posting their posts in their stories that im not watching bc ive refused to evolve the way i use that app past like 2016. why dont ppl just make posts. what the fuck is the point of stories. is that not just snapchat? im not downloading that either
#toy txt post#unreality#? not really but for some of the way some of this is phrased i guess?#i hate instagram now and it makes me so sad#but i miss it. posting art here isnt the same. but its not the same there either#on the rare occasion i do draw smth it doesnt feel worth posting fuckin anywhere#i dont want any tips on how to use it i just want it to not exist anymore tbh. at least people acknowledge that twitter is dead#it feels like everyone just keeps using ig and im just standing here like. its fuckjng dead. its a corpse being paraded around by ads#it died the day they introduced that fucking algo timeline.how are you all still using it. can you not feel the fucking slime?#similar to fb. i just. everytime i open it#every part of me starts screaming. how the fuck are ppl still using it? why am i expected to still use it?#at least that is like. im not expecting my nana to make a tumblr and i dont want her to#anyway. this has been old man yells at cloud#i feel like i have always used ig in a way that was fundamentally different than how other ppl were using it but i used to be able to get#away w it and have no issues but its not possible now#it wont stop reminding me what a horrible thing its become. it wont stop helpfully suggesting ppl it thinks i should follow for one reason#or another god fucking knows why
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so astarion x durge. amirite
#i keep seeing the posts and discussions about the writers “canonizing” the pairing and being unapologetic about them getting more content#i dont want to get into it but here i am. getting into it#after stressing myself out in previous fandom spaces i vastly prefer to be ignored and yell into a void about characters i'm obsessed with#but as someone who fucking adores astarion x durge and has 200+ hours in two different playthroughs with this pairing I FEEL SO GUILTY#astarion's romance and storyline is literally the golden child being lovingly swung around the pool#while the other companions are in various stages of drowning#some more than others. cough. wyll and karlach#it fuckin sucks that other characters and pairings weren't given the time and care that astarion x durge got#its supremely unfair and shitty to the other characters that they get so much less#im grateful to larian for making my game of the year but damn. the other companions were done so fucking dirty#obviously bg3 is not a game with strictly defined canon and anyone who says that is being so fucking weird#each player's particular story is true to them and different to everyone else#that said... astarion x durge is my “true story” though and i hope no one thinks less of me as i talk about them constantly#okay ive said my piece and now i'll hopefully feel less bad about being a nasty little vampire-loving durge#astarion x durge
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