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jrueships · 3 months ago

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i genuinely cannot stand being around ppl who have to take their anger out on others . i'm so sick of always having to act like the bigger person to my Older brother while he can just tornado around my entire life & belongings & relationships without warrant all over smthing that had absolutely nothing to do with you or anyone, rlly.

#but HE runs and tells on ME?#i was just going to let shit blow over #lock myself away as fucking alwys like when we were little and he would cuss up a fucking storm #screaming crying and throwing the shit i bought over being unable to beat a game he plays every fucking day #set on fucking Easy mode #and hes hitting a bat into the door or wrecking my shit in my room or fucking. yelling abt me to the fuckin dog #and in the 'dog's voice' making the animal agree with him bcs im? acting crazy #over a fcking video game that u cant even tell him to turn off or at least stop fucking screaming and wailing or else it'll just set it off #sooner #when dad did it he was fcking drunk and i was illegitimate #it's like i cant even fcking escape fcking hell.#hiding all my bad grades in math bcs i couldnt read a stupid fking number right bcs i didnt want ppl screaming at me #for causing even more trouble than they already have to deal with and just living as dumb bcs it costs less #ill get over it ill try harder #i always have to be the bigger fucking man and im so fucking tired of it #but how are u supposed to cut off someone youve been assigned caretaker as b4 u were even born #im so fucking exhausted #anyways so yea. im pretty sensitive to tone so if i seem like a baby to smthing i apologize #i rlly just. cant stand sme things sometimes #i love getting told i never felt like a friend to my other siblings not only bcs of our massive age gap but also theyre legitimate and #i dont drink or smoke so apparently we cant hang without them always checking the time on their phones #while im taking them out to smthing they like like it's so fun i fcking love it here #anyways yea. love zero comprehension or compassion. love it. loving my life

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