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xx-thedarklord-xx · 11 months ago

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The only cool thing about getting sick is what it does to your voice. I could never sound this low if I tried

#my voice sounds awful #my throat hurts #I can feel it getting worse #I hate it #I hate being sick #I can still breathe through my nose #here’s to hoping I will stay being able to do that

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the-yearning-astronaut · 1 year ago

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#☉#already getting stress induced nose bleeds again lmao #bro's not even back in the house yet but him and dad were going at it tonight #yelling at each other in the kitchen and i could hear them from my room in the basement #im so tired of it all #especially since my mom and i get to listen to them bitch about each other afterwards #before he moves back in im setting a firm boundary: unless i ask about something specifically *i don't want to hear about it*#ive hit minute 22 with this nose bleed now #i thought it was gonna be a short one (10-15 mins) but nooooo #i can feel it getting worse #based off my experience last summer im pretty sure that if i could just....#get out of this fuckin house #80% of my health problems will improve on their own #since all of them are triggered/aggravated by stress #too bad im fuckin stuck here for the foreseeable future #tbd #edit: 25 mins in and i think it's stopped for the time being...#i can hear my dad bitching about my brother to my mom rn while she's trying to get ready for bed #because she just got home with working her second job #and has to be up in 7hrs for her first one 😭#i want to yell at him to shut up or yell at my mom to tell him to shut up #neither of us will do such things tho #and so it goes

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akanemnon · 2 months ago

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It could get worse and it DID get worse

FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT

MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)

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romijuli · 2 years ago

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It’s not that I don’t LIKE the Fandom Popular Pairings, it’s that I find the assumption that everyone ships them and the general all-consuming nature of said pairings to be kinda exhausting,

#the funny thing about me getting into pro////////seka is that i can FINALLY articulate this #because it somehow feels worse than in any other fandom I’ve been into #that said I’ve been thinking about this for a while #also hi. if you’re here to throw some ‘have some originality’ comment please don’t that’s not the fucking point.#it’s not ‘they suck because they’re unoriginal’ it’s ‘it’s very frustrating to feel mildly positive to neutral #about a ship everyone keeps shoving down your throat’#people can be like this with any and all ships. it’s just that the popular ones tend to have this attitude be totally inescapable

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bixels · 3 months ago

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I'm not explaining why re-imagining characters as POC is not the same as white-washing, here of all places should fucking understand.

#personal #delete later #no patrick. “black washing” is not as harmful as white washing.#come on guys get it together #seeing people in my reblogs talk about “reverse racism” and double standards is genuinely hypocrisy #say it with me: white washing is intrinsically tied to a historical and systematic erasure of poc figures literature and history.#it is an inherently destructive act that deplatforms underrepresented faces and voices #in favor of a light-skinned aesthetic hegemony #redesigning characters as poc is an act of dismantling symbols of whiteness in fiction in favor of diversification and reclamation #(note that i am talking about individual acts by individual artists as was the topic of this discourse. not on an industry-scale)#redesigning characters as poc is not tied to hundreds of years of systemic racism and abuse and power dynamics. that is a fact.#you are not replacing an underrepresented person with an oft-represented person. it is the opposite #if you feel threatened or upset or uncomfortable about this then sorry but you are not aware of how much more worse it is for poc #if representation is unequal then these acts cannot be equivalent. you can't point to an imbalanced scale and say they weigh the same #if you recognize that bipoc people are minorities then you should recognize that these two things are not the same #while i agree that “black washing” can lead to color-blind casting and writing the behavior here is on an individual level #a black artist drawing their favorite anime character as black because they feel a shared solidarity is not a threat to you #i mean. most anime characters are east asian and i as an east asian person certainly don't feel threatened or erased. neither should you.#there's much to be said about the politics of blackwashing (i don't even know if that's the right word for it)#but point standing. whitewashing is an inherently more destructive act. both through its history of maintaining power dynamics #and the simple fact that it's taking away from groups of people who have less to begin with #if you feel upset or uncomfortable about a fictional white character being redesigned as poc by an artist on twitter #i sincerely hope you're able to explore these feelings and find avenues to empathizing with poc who have had their figures #(both real and fictional) erased; buried; and replaced by white figures for hundreds of years #i sincerely hope you can understand the difference in motivations and connotations behind whitewashing and blackwashing #classic bixels “i'm not talking about this chat. i'm not” (puts my media studies major to use in the tags and talks the fuck outta it)

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dukeofthomas · 5 months ago

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Here's my controversial opinion; if you're trying to write Bruce as a non-abusive, good parent, you should also write him respecting his kids' privacy, boundaries, and not stalking&surveying them.

#my dc posting #dc #batfamily #batman #bruce wayne #dick grayson #jason todd #tim drake #damian wayne #looking thru ur kids phone tracking them giving them no privacy etc etc is deeply damaging #but yall aint ready for the ''stalking is their love language' is super toxic' conversation </3 #also can we retire the JL being completely chill about it. 'batman just knows things' not being bothered their secret identities were found #out etc can we. stop coddling the batfam #i just need someone anytime to please just call them out like 'hey dont fucking surveil me' like that is actually extremely unethical #and its frankly not hard to write a batman who doesnt invade his kids privacy n boundaries etc #controversially when reading fic where theyre supposed to be healthy n getting along i want to actually feel like its deserved n good for t #hem #instead of sitting there going 'woo thats toxic' 'oh that even worse' 'why are we passing over all that'. like i dont wanna be thinkin they #should go no-contact when its supposed to be fuffy n good :(#like if you can write away the hitting n other abuse why is this the one thing that just must always stay #like genuinely it aint hard to write a parent not stalking their children. actually maybe i should remind you all that stalking is not good #or funny #like i feel like w all the joking some of us are actually forgetting its not good. ever. like absolutely never dont stalk ppl #eh idk. this is why i cant stay in any one fandom too long bc i start developing Opinions which inevitably make me hostile to like #90% of the fandom's content 😔

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localapparently · 6 days ago

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Doksoo week 2024 day 5: time travel

Prompt list here

#orv #omniscient reader #omniscient readers viewpoint #omniscient reader fanart #orv fanart #hankim #doksoo #kim dokja #kdj #hsy #han sooyoung #if you are reading this and you feel like you have struggled for so long and tried your best for so long and you just feel worse and worse #or you feel nothing but numb and nothing will get better; or you feel like you should start to distance yourself from friends and isolate #yourself so you can rot alone; or if you think that “even if i disappear no one will care tomorrow and everyone's lives will stay the same”#please reach out for help. a trusted adult or a close friend. a suicide hotline or email or website. even if it doesnt work or even if the #response is so robotic and shitty. just by surviving to the next day you are succeeding. you dont have to get better immediately and if you #don't reach your own expectations of recovery you are still alive and you are doing so well and thank you for trying so hard up until now #i love you and i am proud of you and i love you i love you you are doing what you can and you are enough #crit's art: orv

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dykedvonte · 1 month ago

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I think it says something that Jimmy absolutely destroyed the crew and ship in half the time Curly was captain. Like he couldn’t even get them past 2 full months before breaking down.

Like he really couldn’t be half the man he thought Curly was.

#like I think it’s crazy cause the whole trip from when we start the game is like 6 months #they are only six months into the trip post crash it’s why getting help was so futile #they had to survive another 6-7 with almost no resources sense most actual food resources where blocked off or destroyed #I see people saying they were surviving for six months after the crash or at least five but it’s only two #they were on the ship for 4 months before hand like the time frames we play are extremely small in retrospect #it’s like what 187 days when we get into the game? that’s about 6 months total #like I’m sorry this is also about peop saying Anya was liek 5 months pregnant but I think a big point is the assault just happened and Curly #didn’t react to it correct initially cause like have you seen someone whose 5 months pregnant? Anya is clearly not even with artistic l #liberty like 2 months is perfect because it’s literally like the time when you confirm the pregnancy is stable and can feel the first signs #of life which is why she was getting worse and worse cause it was getting to the point she couldn’t hide it from Swansea and Daisuke and Jim #he already knew but imagine him seeing her with a stomach? he’d lose it completely #it was just showing signs of life hence the ultrasound and horse fetus and the heart beat #like the minimum time is around 8-10 weeks which is two months like the two months is super intentional both in accordance to what he did #and the time before hand #mouthwashing #anya mouthwashing #jimmy mouthwashing #curly mouthwashing #mouthwashing game #captain curly #nurse anya

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adhdandcomics · 2 months ago

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perhaps the most important question i’ve ever asked:

does anyone have tips for people trying to stop being chronically late to everything in the world that aren’t weirdly judgmental and aggressive or flat out lies

#when i tell you every single resource i’ve ever found or tried to get through or anyone i’ve ever asked #has been just so. mean about it #not even intentionally #not always at least #but there’s so much inherent shame tied to being late to things or being a person who used to be late to things #that i don’t think people can untie that from their ‘helpful tips’#it’s all ‘i used to also be a lazy uncaring piece of shit! you don’t have to be a horrible wretched loser anymore!’ and it’s like. okay.#you see how that’s not helping. right.#making me feel worse about it is NEVER helpful. i promise you i already have tortured myself over it FARRR more than any ‘on time’ person #ever had #this has been a comic i’ve been stewing on for ages as well but. well there’s of course the shame #idk it’s something that people are always despicably mean about bc fundamentally people who have never struggled with it #see it as a personal choice to be late #and as something one needs to just ‘try harder’ to fix. and that if you don’t #you inherently don’t care about other people’s time or even other people in general #and that feels horrible! it feels really bad!!#i mean i’ve got it from EVERYONE. disability allies. other adhd folks. disability resource offices #it’s something that nobody ever cares to acknowledge or try to accommodate for #bc time blindness and exec dysfunction are NEVER taken seriously as disabilities. they’re always always viewed as a personal failing #and i’m sick and tired of it. bc all this does is make people struggling with this Hate themselves #and worry endlessly that maybe they Are selfish and actually Don’t care about anyone else #there’s a bit too much here to keep in the tags i should really do the comic for adhd awareness month

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uncanny-tranny · 1 year ago

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Hey, if you have speech impediments, you are so amazing.

If you stutter or have a lisp or misspeak easily or you have a flat affect or a limited verbal vocabulary or if your voice is AAC or if you just have a difference in your vocality, you are so incredibly important and amazing.

Just know that your voice is yours. Nobody will ever be able to truly take it away. Your voice is part of you, and you deserve to make it as true to you as you deem fit. I hope you have the space to grow with your voice and whatever about it makes it unique.

#positivity #disability positivity #partially because so much of voical differences arise from disability #i've developed a really annoying lisp-ish issue #and it's hard to be positive about it because it makes me feel like i'll be treated as lesser because it's a 'childish' affect #but i literally can't help it unless i spend 110% of my focus on it. and i don't have that amount of energy #but it makes me think about others and especially those who have it more intensely than i do #and i just want to uplift everybody because vocal differences are neutral at worst #man my dad always tells a story about this coworker he had who had a stutter like you wouldn't believe...#...and he was fucking BRUTALIZED for it... 'c-c-c-c-CAN YOU GET TO THE POINT?!' is how people would talk to him...#...and obviously that made his stutter twice as fucking worse and i can't imagine the shame and humiliation that followed...#...i hope he learned that those assholes were a fucking waste of time and that he doesn't have to deal with that...#...like i'm sorry but there is no fucking need to be that sadistic toward somebody who is obviously already anxious and worried

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enemywasp · 3 months ago

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I HATE tiktok and the Internet in general rn for the obsession with "oh this person's smellyyy" "Brother it STINKS over here" "BOO 💧🧼🧽🚿" and stuff like that. I wish I could put into words how demeaning and patronising that whole idea is and people implying anyone they don't like doesn't wash.

For one there's something grating about being insulted in a manner like we're in nursery again. But also WHY is that the go to insult. Why do you associate these things? Especially to those you deem "chronically online". Like I don't want to sound pathetic but it feels so nasty to me.

is it extreme to say this feels tied to ableism? And classism too?

#“take a shower” me sitting here with depression and no will to even move rn. That doesnt make me feel worse or anything #dry to wet change is also evil. and i get decision paralysis a lot and just struggle to motivate myself to do basic human tasks #and thats just me #what about the people with physical disabilities that struggle to find the energy and strength to do these things #And also like environmental factors too?#like kids can be unhygienic cause they arent being cared for and learning properly #people with learning disabilities and neurodiversity too may struggle with not being taught properly as its a “basic thing everyone knows”#people are homeless karen.#people cant afford to wash regularly #people grow up or are forced to live in unhygienic places and surrounded by smokers and alcoholics #people who are smokers and alcoholics and generally people with addiction can smell #people with health issues that cause them to sweat more #Like the list goes on #but idk maybe I'm just sensitive #anti anti #profiction #proship #neurodivergent #cringe culture #ableism #classism

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shutupineedtothink · 2 months ago

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okay a few other notes about ep 5:

OBSESSED with the way that a) Rio was the only one who said the brooms were a good idea and b) she and Agatha INSTANTLY started doing the ritual together, like they’re done this a thousand times before. Amazing choice to show their history yet again without actually saying anything. Show don’t tell baby.

We all love the way Agatha looked at Rio when they were flying, but I also love the moment of pure bliss on her face when she closes her eyes. She loves flying. And she probably hasn’t let herself fly in centuries.

The CGI on the broom flying scene was the exact amount of cheesiness I wanted, A++

Jen has absolutely no patience for Agatha, and I get it, but I have a feeling she’s going to be the first to realize that Agatha is actually telling the truth and forgive her. I’m assuming this will happen whenever the truth is revealed about Nicky.

They all heard the “Stop, mama” not just Agatha. Also confirmed that was a CHILD not a baby, double yikes.

I can’t BELIEVE this episode was basically 30 minutes flat what a RIDE

Okay FINE he’s Billy I’m jumping on the bandwagon now jeez

I didn’t point this out but somebody said Agatha confirmed he was Billy once he said Nicky’s name out loud bc otherwise the sigil would have prevented it and THAT’S SO GENIUS OMG also maybe it was the final nail in the coffin to get her to lash out at him bc she still wanted him to be Nicky

Rio hung back to kick that ghost’s ass you can’t convince me otherwise - “I hate ghosts” yeah I bet you do.

The way she started laughing when the ouija board spelled DEATH I can’t

“Sweetheart you okay?” And “Woah! Where’s she goin, what’s she doin” are easily top lines of the ep

Catch me psychologically analyzing this shit for DAYS

How am I supposed to sleep now???

#agatha all along #agatha all along spoilers #agatha harkness #rio vidal #agatha x rio #agathario #ooooh it’s only going to get worse I can feel it comin

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otaku553 · 9 months ago

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Procrastination doodles of sabo for the king sabo au :)

#one piece #sabo #king sabo au #I wonder sometimes if I keep thinking about this au because i like putting my blorbo through crushing existential nightmares #something something. it must feel so wrong to him. to be born like this and know that he’s not suppose to be there #but not having the memories of times in the wild with his brothers to contextualize why he feels wrong or where he’s supposed to be instead #directionless. knowing that he has to exist for some reason but not the reason that everyone around him tells him he should exist for #and continuing to try to bridge the cognitive dissonance through fallacy after fallacy until he is in too deep to escape #anyways. thinking about Him #Him is the academia mentality of ‘just keep going and you’ll eventually reach the light at the end of the tunnel’#‘because you’ve tried so hard to get here and surely you must belong here because you’re so academically highly-achieving’#does that make sense? maybe the parallel is a bit of a reach. I could write an essay about it tbh #I love this au lmao it’s both a lot of projecting and a great chance to be like ‘god I can make him so much worse’

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dhmis-autism · 3 months ago

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been thinking about them lately ok

#lots of doodles ok these arent even close to finished and never will be #dhmis humanizations #dhmis duck #dhmis yellow guy #dhmis red guy #dhmis #anyways. i think rgs crush on duck is insaene in general i think its WORSE WHEN THEYRE HUMAN #i also think its really fucking funny #obsessed with this tiny balding little man who is Mean To Me #hes like a kid who would get bullied in high school to me #like idk. theyre da same to me in human au. which i suppose this is an au even tho im just trying to translate them as closely as i can #in my heart theyre still in the pink house #this is not like the apartments au to me at all. so to me the dynamic is still the same #and for those of u who dont remember that dynamic is RG being down bad for duck bc he WEIRDLY is godbless. but also insanely evasive and sh #and duck does not act like anything is happening between them but also in his head theyve been married for 30 years. but its obvious to him #so he doesnt feel the need to say anything duh.#and if he ever brought it up it would be a best friend debate again #'you think IM your husband?!?!' of course you are !! :] 'IM NOT. YOUR HUSBAND !! YOU DONT HAVE A HUSBAND!!'

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bixels · 2 months ago

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Be honest, what are your thoughts on appledash? Do you hate it or its more of not a big deal

Not a big deal to me. I like it, I see all the appeals, I just personally like Rarijack more.

#ask me #anon #if you wanna know why i like rarijack more i just think they're a healthier depiction of a domestic and longterm relationship #appledash gives me the vibes of gfs that'll eventually break up #because from s1 to s8 their relationship and communication with each other on serious things never really matures or grows #they were competitive and petty in s1 and they were competitive and petty in s8 #arguably worse cuz in that s8 episode their dynamic becomes so toxic they almost cause a student under their care to drown #both of them have a superiority complex that's constantly conflicting with each other and it never really gets resolved #but with rarijack there's a very clear arc of development you can follow in their character #and multiple episodes show how they'll argue and eventually come back together and apologize and communicate and work to better things #you can watch them grow to like and understand each other. in s1 aj scoffs and makes fun of rarity's work in fashion #but in a later season (after some conflict) aj says that she doesn't understand fashion but she knows it means a lot to rarity so it means #a lot to her too. and that's what love is to me. “it didn't mean anything to me until it meant something to you”#it's genuinely really sweet and i'd argue rarijack /feels/ the most romantic out of all the main 6 ships. through arguing they grow closer #which is how it's supposed to be in relationships that last! you argue to work out your interpersonal problems and understand each other #(which is why it's genuinely kinda baffling to me that appledash ended up being canonically married because they never gave me those vibes)#but it really doesn't matter. they're cartoon horses! have fun with them

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reefs-camp-blog · 7 months ago

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sally and percy were always each other’s constants, they became a bit more distant once percy found out he was a demigod, but they were still each others firsts

then estelle was born

percy loves estelle so much, so much it physically hurts

but he sees estelle and how happy she is, how she had a mom that doesnt work the night shift nearly every night and instead is home nearly all the time, and she has a dad that’s present and there and is safe and percy is so so happy that she has what he never did

but at the same time he knows thats the exact reason why it hurts

estelle has what percys wanted his whole life

and now estelle has the only thing percy had his whole life

being his mothers first and top priority

he knows why, he understands why, estelle is a baby and needs to be cared for constantly, and percys nearly 18 and doesnt need his mom all the time anymore

but it hurts because all the food is no longer blue, it hurts because he sees estelle grow up and get help, it hurts because he sees estelle with the life he always wanted, but knows he will never had

and it hurts because hes no longer his mother’s constant.

sally has paul now, she has paul to help her through her issues and she has a child that doesnt get expelled from every school shes been in

and percy has his family. but its not the same. annabeth has always been there, but she doesnt understand, thalia has been through the same childhood as percy but she doesnt know what its like to watch the bad go to good in the same household, grover has always listened but he just doesnt understand

because hes happy estelle has the life he always wanted. hes glad his mother has the life she always wanted. but hes not in that life. because hes moving out soon. and hes no longer his mothers son, at least not in the way he was before

#i would apologize but im actually not sorry #he used to come home from anything and his mother would be there in an instant #checking him over and making sure hes ok #then estlelle is born #and he loves her so so much #but now when he comes home sally is on the couch holding estelle gently #and she can only pay so much attention to her son #and listen. i love sally #i really do #shes the best mom there was #however #she can no longer be that perfect safe space she once was #to other demigods? she is still that safe space #but thats all theyve known her #but percy has seen sally risk everything for percy #and while hes so happy she longer has to #theres still that empty and painful feeling #and it just gets worse when he sees estelle living the life he always dreamed of #pjo #percy jackson #sally jackson #estelle blofis #estelle and percy #jackson-blofis family #they have so much angst potential i love it #pjo angst #percy jackson angst #reef says #reef angst #percy and sally

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