#identity issues cw

[from-thoseghosts]

Alter humans fellas, have you ever had negative comments about your therio/kintype? For example, about cruel behaviors that the animal or creature can have, preconceived ideas about it..

Because personally, having a xenomorph kin, I have already been criticized for being a "killing machine". Like.. I know that xenomorphs are not shown and known to be super affectionate creatures but when people tell me things like that it's just harsh.. I have my own particular vision of my kin and I know that almost no one has the same vision, which means that I rarely express myself on this kin.

[bitemarx]

smoke lingers

[thatonegaybrit]

; having bad memory is absolutely terrifying when you realize you genuinely CAN'T remember something. it's gone, maybe it never happened, you've forgotten something and it's soso scary.

[heavens-roses]

A little rant about the term AF/MAB being used in place of perisex AF/MAB and ignoring intersex people's complex identities because they are intersex.

Cw: intersexism and mention of sexual anatomy (genitals)

People need to stop using afab/amab when talking about trans issues or cultural identities!! You erase intersex people with it, you think amab = perisex males and afab = perisex females. You all seem to forget even when your intersex afab/amab should be avoided!! You can use it on YOURSELF, but to say oh transfems are 'amab' who are traditioning to a more feminine identity, just erasing so many intersex people. I was IAFAB (intersex assumed female at birth), yet I was raised in a mostly masculine way / I was raised closer to a boy than a girl. Does that mean I suddenly can't claim to be transfem or claim my cultural identities related to being transfem because historically, people assumed it was always perisex AMAB raised male who later transitioned? No, im still going to claim them because its between me, my culture, and the fact its MY identity, which is going to be complex. Being intersex is complex and affects my gender in almost every way. So simply watering down being trans to your biological sex is again really fuckin weird.

Instead of using AMAB/AFAB, please just find alternatives like non perisex [term here] instead of just assigned blank at birth. I see even other intersex people do this and while it's 'historically accurate,' it again erases our people and our struggles with gender. Just like TME/A was created with perisex people in mind so was the whole Internet suddenly deciding A[term]AB = perisex. You can look at afab tags and tell its about PERISEX females and almost always completely ignores the fact intersex people can be afab and not have a uterus or ovaries or some afab intersex people have penises, testicles, or a mix of both. (I use AFAB because it's just a more popular tag and we were assumed female at birth.)

[edwardallenpoe]

Um. Prepare yourself for the s&co episode. The representation (if you can even call it that) of DID is BAD. Once I realized that the person had DID I was pretty pissed to say the least. I emailed them like 4 paragraphs on how shitty that was. I feel like a Karen but it was honestly deserved. But if you’re upset by portrayals of people with DID I’d skip this one.

i opened my inbox this right after listening to it. Thank you for the heads up tho, but it is far too late.

I honestly feel a little sick. Not gonna lie.

"we now understand more about the human condition" I lost braincells, John. I think we actually DEVOLVED. We LOST knowledge of human existence with this one, chat. And then. Also. John defending Tory's. Ya this was a really fucking bad episode. Wow. It was so avoidable. That entire thing was so avoidable.

You are definitely not a Karen for emailing them, I'm low-key tempted to email them myself but I won't. I need to process that dumpster fire for a little longer. Wow.

It's like. I specifically remember Sherlock listing off DID on his disorder list in the first fucking episode. He has DID. Did Joel and co literally look up the index for the DMS-5 then put them in their notes app or something?????? Like were they just like "yeah anything and everything but PTSD for the plot mate" just for Sheelock to have smt to say?????? It's seems so impossible to me that they have such amazing rep for both PTSD and autism and such but DID was butchered that badly. Woooow. I can't even.

I love this show but that was. So bad. I rlly hope Joel says smt soon about this because woooow . That's all I can rlly say. Just wow.

[voidcat]

Ok so here’s my short list of pros of alpha and omega narumi thoughts (with a beta reader)

Alpha!narumi: he’s worse than his usual self. Soooo attached to you. You give him a little bit of a identity crisis when he realizes/learns you’re a beta (which- I’m thinking someone making an offhand comment abt reader and another comment abt a well desired and respect alpha falling for a beta) on pros list because I love to see him suffer and this goes so well hand in hand with reader having this alienation feeling due to being a beta (also bonus points “thank fuck I’m a beta so I don’t have deal w those needy or persistent alphas like omegas do-“ narumi: hiiiii)

Omega!narumi: u can get him pregnant (also so needy and pouty and desperate and cute. There’s smt so overpowering about seeing a typically strong/leader figure becoming putty in your hands )

[dxntbreathein]

I LIVE IN THE SPACE BETWEEN THE STARS AND THE SKY

[pendulumstarway]

A very disheveled and unamused Jack carrying a damaged Bruno.

I wanted to test out halftones and I really like how it came out! I'll deffo be doing more in the future.

[theswedishcatlord101]

”CHANGE”

(Warnings for Blood, implied SH, and non sexualised nudity)

(Inspired by my body issues and not fitting into the stereotype of a Swedish girl I used to have when I was younger(I don’t have them anymore))

[thecorporatetower]

We could literally tell anti-endos our system was originally formed/diagnosed/originally found out as/whatever by trauma and they’ll still say they’re the “real systems”. Fucking friendly fire! Just say you jump to fake claim others when their experience isn’t the exact same as yours. Just say you wanna control how other people are supposed to think and feel when it comes to systems (referencing the common mindset that being a system is supposed to be “miserable” and being a system is “not fun”)

Also please don’t put ableists on your dni and then turn around and say endos aren’t real.

Not up for debate or to argue on this, we’re saying our piece, and this is final.

-Natasha/Angel

[cat-collections-agency]

Cw: vent, fakeclaiming mentions, idek

Tldr: identity issues so bad the brain keeps summoning more fictional characters to deal with the issues. ur memories are fucked, and avoiding ppl who don't like you/the stuff u like.

I hate being fictive heavy. Like it's kinda funny on some level, Nightmare sans having beef with a hedgehog who throws temper tantrums when he can't play a silly game about wolves just because they're dating the same person. And that's funny.

But the amount of identity issues, fakclaiming, pair that with being fictionkin, being an IRL, general identity issues is awful. It's hard to tell whose who, and it's really fucking annoying to tell if someones having an intense kinshift, if it's an IRL moment, or if there's just another fictive who decided: lmfao I wanna turn. The brain said: identity issues? Lmfao here have this guy as their own person.

Like we for the longest time we're an IRL of sonic, then sonic had the audacity to show up TWICE!? And then wanting to yap about ur source/the Fandom only to be shut down by ppl who don't wanna listen.

And not to mention when someone you like/care about doesn't like you/what you stem from, so ur just kinda just have to hide.

Joker really enjoyed Fronting, ofc he did entertainment was HIS thing outside of being a criminal clown whose so deeply in love with a man whose parental issues are so strong he dresses as a bat and beats up criminals and adopts random ass kids as his sidekick. But joker doesn't front anymore because he learned 1 of the ppl we typically hang out with irl actually hates his the joker so he avoids Fronting when they're around. Then there's when ink wanted to yap about aus only to get shut down because they didn't want to hear anything about aus, and not to mention how they invalidated Sonic's identity, God I know for a fact ink wanted to out us as plural. But we didn't do it.

But the worst part about being fictive heavy is source memories.

Memories can range from: I know you, I remember you, but I don't have memories of you.

To: oh yeah I remember you. Lmao I miss you man please come back. *insert intense mourning*

Or if ur unlucky: I hate your guts, stay tf away from me. Or: please come bsck I know your gone in my timeline but I miss you, I know your not them but please. I want you to be okay.

Holy fucking I'm rambling. Anyways, I'm gonna cry because I'm still cold. Kjh ghkk

[confused-stars]

teenage Wriothesley's absolutely single-minded, self destructive quest to kill his parents, no thoughts spared even for a second for what might come for him after

him kneeling in a puddle of his and their blood and feeling faint and wondering whether he'll wake up again, thinking that he's fulfilled his purpose and it doesn't really matter either way

slowly realizing through his hospital stay that he'll have to figure out how to live a life now

arriving at the Fortress and deciding that this place now will have to be who he is

[spirallingmoths]

Something I've noticed is how some CDD systems (and general trauma survivors) sometimes treat "extreme" trauma like a fictional concept when trying to valid themselves. I understand where "you don't need to go through RAMCOA abuse/a war/a dictatorship/etc to be a system and have cptsd" comes from and I fully agree with it. Some shitty ableist singlets can be very annoying with how they only accept trauma when it's "extreme" trauma. But I think the way some people talk about it sometimes just makes it sound off. I don't know it's just the way some people phrase it like "Not everyone traumatised is living in a war zone 🙄" makes me really uncomfortable. Like it's not the faults of people who have gone through "extreme" trauma that some people are ableist and uneducated

Also, people who go through those do exist? Like idk most people I see talk about it like it's some far-off vague fictional out-there concept and not like, a thing that real people experience and go through? Like RAMCOA abuse is real and valid (I'm not a survivor myself so I won't talk about it a lot but I felt the need to bring it up because the way some people talk about it is just weird), people who have lived through wars exist? and their trauma is valid, people who have been trafficked exist and their trauma is valid, people who have been tortured exist and their trauma is valid, people who have survived genocides exist and their trauma is valid, and people who have been in cults exist and their trauma is valid. In general, people with "extreme" trauma exist and their trauma is real

Survivors of "extreme" abuse/trauma shouldn't be made to feel like their trauma is too taboo to mention. Or feel like they can't talk about it out of fear of "invalidating other systems". All trauma is valid (including "non extreme" trauma). I think validating traumatic things that aren't usually viewed as trauma by the average person is good but please try not to bring down anyone else in the process

[badgerthethirteenth]

A little bit of a vent piece, less for a specific burst of emotion but more of a kind of passive state that's ramping up a little more as of late. Having a lot of thoughts about my identity and my place in the world, trying to figure out who/what I am.

While the peak of this feeling has passed since I take forever to make art, I don't doubt this will pick up again. After a while though this became more of an artistic experiment and a way to test out my art setup on my laptop. I think it looks alright?

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

every now and then i think about my one interpretation of emma as a deeply closeted trans man radfem with a ton of internalized transphobia and antimasculism, who takes her issues with her identity out on the people around her instead of unpacking them and accepting herself. and i think, i need to draw a comic about this

[theallegedbird]

okokokok ethics town finale!! it was fine i’m so fine coolcool (lying through my teeth screaming shouting shaking violently)

spoilers under cut

OK FIRST OFF, RHY AND LIZ’S PERFORMANCE,, THE EMOTION THEY PUT INTO THE CHARACTERS MAKES IT SO MUCH MORE REAL

god normally i’m not big on fourth wall breaking because in most cases for me it just isn’t done well,, BUT HELL, IT WAS DONE SO WELL JUST,, OUGH

this is assuming ian is right but i think he is

ok so the broadcasts were for him to project out his self hatred?? kinda?? because he was so genuinely upset at everything in them as well as all the other stuff he talked about this ep

him trying get help and just being told to lose weight,, fuck it’s painfully realistic he’s so special to me

AND “if i’m not this, i’m nothing. and i tried to be nothing, trust me i tried, i tried so hard, but i was too scared.” SOBS. SCREAMS. EXPLODES.

the way he kept switching to his january voice whenever he got really distressed or it was the real him coming through,, grabbing him like a squeaky toy,, i care him so much

i know i know he’s a murderer but i just wanna give him a hug,, god, my man is NOT well in any form

he’s evil BUT he’s evil because he KNOWS he can’t be anything else,, “i’m not a person, i’m a construct. i prove a point, the same point, over and over” GAJAJHSHS

i’m so normal about characters with no control over their own lives and the concept of free will vs manipulation/fate in fiction (lying)

AND ARTEMIS,, hugging her tightly

god she has suffered so so much and she still isn’t at a point of accepting she isn’t real, well she is but she’s also not, she’s rightfully angry and hurting and grieving and hell i want to wrap her in a blanket and keep her safe

they have both lost everything and will CONTINUE to because their whole existence is just a sick lesson on morality and they will continue to suffer over and over and over, it cost ian his daughter, and it will continue to cost the both of them

“i don’t like this story. i don’t like it don’t like it, please make it stop. i don’t- i want a different one. please.” IT WOULD OF BEEN BETTER TO HIT ME WITH A BAT. WHAT THE FUCK. HSKSJSJ

i just have one of my favourite parts screen recorded so i can fire it at myself like a tranquilliser dart,, just, man

want to make an animatic of that part so bad

onto actual theories on what the fuck is going on though, based on how some of the speakers in the transcript are called students maybe the town is the result of these people debating and testing ethical conundrums, even if they don’t know they’ve created it, if it’s subconscious or something

alternatively louis is the big evil bad who is doing this to torture us /j

but genuinely well done to all of the people who work on this podcast you all have created something TRULY amazing and the love and passion for it SHOWS

ethics town has DESTROYED me and i mean that in the best way possible

every episode has left me more distraught than the last i love everything about it

the writing the characters the sound design the voice acting everything

i CANNOT wait until s2