#minor vent

[suzukiblu]

You know I have come to the realization that this is a thing on which I would like to be clear, as a reasonably prolific writer of fanfic with a range of readers who all have very different levels of familiarity with the various canons I have dabbled in: I love a lot of things about [ insert canon here ] and I definitely DO have certain personal pet peeves in regards to "yeah this person definitely didn't read/watch/even-briefly-skim anything outside of fandom" interpretations that I find particularly slanderous or are just Not My Vibe or things like that which I personally just can't get into or enjoy. Like, things that are just not to my taste, you know?

But also, fuck it, canon is a suggestion and fandom's only actual "rules" are "try not to be an entitled prick or actively hateful", as far as I'm concerned. No, no one has to do the homework just to write/draw/meta/post about something they're getting something out of. I personally am too dang old to do any more of the homework than I want to and I am sure as heck not gonna hold anyone else to that standard either.

Imo there is just no reason whatsoever to ever be upset about MORE people getting involved in the fun thing and enjoying themselves with it, especially when we can all zero-effort back-button out of anything we don’t like. I don't care if they're wrong about [ insert character here ]!! I mean, I do, I very much do, it makes my 'tisms personally insane, but unless someone's wrong in like a hateful/sexist/racist/bigoted way, that's their business, not anybody else's! Let 'em cook, people! We don't get better content in our fandoms by getting publicly judgy about and way too publicly INVESTED in how other people in it have fun. Actually, all we get that way is LESS content. Like so, so much less.

Look, it's a process, I'm personally still working on it myself. There's def stuff that bothers or pet-peeves me, and stuff I just gotta skate past without engaging. I just think keeping a little more perspective helps, in these situations.

Also, not telling people things like "hey if you don't read literal DECADES' worth of MULTIPLE monthly-release comics and all the relevant crossovers and events/watch every single episode and movie released since the seventies/listen to all the bonus episodes of this already-over-one-hundred-hours podcast, you don't belong here" helps. Also that. Definitely that.

[dr-spectre]

Being autistic sucks because you could become obsessed with something out of your control but it makes your brain happy. And if you try and talk about your obsession in a general fandom sphere you get made fun of because it seems childish by other most likely autistic people as well. And so your passion is put into question and you start thinking "am I a man child? Why am I so obsessed with something so childish? I'm so stupid. This is stupid. I'm a baby. Why can't I just be obsessed with something adult and that has actual themes? Why do I get so laser focuses on people's word choices over CALLIE FUCKING CUTTLEFISH!!!!?!??!!?! SHES SO SILLY! NO ONE TAKES HER SERIOUSLY...."

(speaking from personal experience. As in I got made fun of in a tumblr comment section on a post that I replied to.)

[darkxsoulzyx]

do you guys ever get too scared to post ocs because you’re worried that their design or story isn’t cool enough

And then someone posts their OC/sona that looks super similar to your OC, even though you’ve technically made yours first

And now you’re scared of posting them because you’re afraid someone is gonna try and compare the two, because someone will always do that if they look similar enough

Do you guys ever feel that way or am I just really really stupid

[bamsara]

Im not sure why you hate your art style so much...

You're one of my favourite artists. Your Lamb and Narinder are my favourites. I love how you draw them, it's so expressive and nice and pretty and beautiful— just so awesome. Your art really brings them to life. Your Zim and Dib are also my favourites!! I love your art style. It's simple and yet so perfect.

I dislike it because it feels so simple

There's not really anything super notable about it and I often look at other artists styles as 'man I wish I could draw like that' while the artwork doodles I do make are no where near matching what I have in my head. It's too soft and not anatomically correct and inconsistent to the point where people have commented that they see a difference in my art style since talking about wanting to change it, but I haven't changed anything in any way that I draw.

It's good for quick, scribbled comics for storyboarding because of how simple it is. Less detail = faster drawing and I can make the story board quick enough before it leaves my brain.

But for the past few years I've been doing more and more of those than anything else because it's kinda all I'm good at, just making storyboard and shitposts. It's seriously discouraged me from making full illustrations seriously because it just feels flat, the poses are not dynamic, the faces look like anime twinks or your generic Disney cartoon. Personally I think my style looks like the art kid that never got out of their 'how to draw anime' phase

None of my stuff has clean lines, faces are always look chibified or like I'm trying to mimic a Shonen, and backgrounds are completely out of the question; best I can do is scribbles. I just wish my art hit harder, with sharpness and less big eyes and an edgier, more stylistic kind of look

Don't take this the wrong way, I'm happy my art is enjoyed! I'm just not the one enjoying it right now

[callofthecorvus]

Sometimes it's hard to realize that you are truly loved when in a self deprecating spiral

[icantthink-ofagoodname]

I was talking to my grandparents and told them about how I had a strange interaction with a weird kinda creepy guy, and the story starts with him just looking at me when he thought I didn't notice, and my fucking grandpa goes: "Oh you know she was probably like" and nodded his head while saying "mhm, mhm"

One: I don't like people romantically

Two: I'm not a fucking girl

Three: the guy was, as I fucking told them before I started the story, weird and creepy

And it's like every time I see them, I mention a guy's name in basically any context and they're immediately like "boyfriend?????" Not to mention the time I was at the store with my grandma and the cashier was around my age, we got back to her place and then started asking about the guy (she asked if i thought he was Jewish, which is weird bc why tf would that matter in the first place?) I told her i didn't really pay attention to him and she just says "oh i was just checking him out for you"

And they wonder why I don't visit that much

[mosslingg]

called my uncle who's an IT guy

i asked about the laptop he's fixing for me.

here's how it went:

Uncle: uh yeah. it's not really uh. working.

Me: what do you mean

U: i mean that it worked fine after i booted it up for the first time but 2 hours later it uhhhh. died.

M: so. what you're telling me. is that it pulled a plug on itself for a second time.

U: yeah. essentially.

how am i supposed to draw toxic man yaoi without a puter in any shape or form. am i asking for much. am i really.

anyway this is a cry for help. if you have 10 bucks to spare PLEASE go to my kofi, i can't get the money for the laptop in an amount of time that would allow me to buy it on my own and ANY amount helps. im stuck at my grandma's for the time being with essentially only my phone, sketchbook and my brother coming over occasionally, which gives me temporary laptop access. this sucks.

[mamaspidershit]

one thing that you’ll never know unless you start writing fanfic is that one day you’ll lean back and then realize that your childhood wasn’t actually as good as you thought it was

[kitotherianposting]

dude i corrected a YouTube shorts therian out of impulse, i'm gen anxious now i feel like im gonna get flamed

[mysteriousdragon2]

Howdy everyone. Sorry for not posting much other than my recent OVA Hol Horse art.

If you’re all curious still, my situation hasn’t really changed in terms of what I spoke of in the vent post, but that’s not important right now.

What is important, is the fact that I’ll be drawing traditionally/on paper for now. My art device isn’t working so well at the moment. So to those I own art to, don’t worry. I’ll work on it, but in a different form of media.

The device keeps on crashing and preventing me from deleting anything, so that’s frustrating. I hope I can get back to drawing digitally someday. Thank you for reading.

[dr-spectre]

I FUCKING FOUND THE IMAGE I WAS LOOKING FOR!!!!!!!!!!!

YARRRR!!!!!!!!! MUAHAHAHA!!!!

(I genuinely despise what social media has done to my brain. I hate how my brain will suddenly remember an image from months back and i get anxious and chest pains and frustration and i spend either 5 minutes or an HOUR to find this image or video. My concentration gets fucked, my joy? GONE! MY SANITY?! DEAD!!!!!!!! WHY AM I LIKE THIS?!? I JUST WANNA CHILL AND NOT WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING!!)

[nightfallsystem]

I hate the new polyamourous flag it feels like forgetting our history and a kick in the face.

I get the original one is eyestrain and that's why people make eyestrain accessible flags! But fucking ditching the original flag in favour of this shitty redesign is shit and feels like forgetting history for me. We don't need a new flag, the original one is fine, the creator is good and the symbolism is good. The new flag is shit imo.

Fuck the new flag

[devileaterjaek]

To those annoyed at me spamming my discord, I hear you, and I'm sorry.

I have ambitions to be a content creator one day, and this is how I'm building my audience.

I view this Tumblr as me planting seeds in a garden that will hopefully one day bear fruit.

I realize maybe Tumblr isn't the best avenue for that, but it's worked out better than Twitter so far, and is infinitely less toxic.

It's taking time, and I'm held back by my depression and ADHD, but I'm taking steps towards building a better life for myself. I have very little in the way of friends or a support structure. It may be bothersome to you, but I urge you to understand, this is all I have.

I'm sorry if it annoys you. But please be kind to me. I'm very sensitive, and I wound easily.

[mifflebat]

my toxic trait is being okay with the worst kinds of Everything if the perpetrator offered Nice Words and Being Kind along with it.

[cyanide-latte]

Two weeks straight of neighbors setting off fireworks from 6pm to past 10pm now. Actually fuck off, people, how the hell do you still have THIS many fucking fireworks.

[ghxst-system]

imagine having OCD ruin ur life. not me /sar

but on a real note:

my OCD affects everything i do. i cannot go a day without doing certain things and if i dont do them? i become erratic and feel deeply unsafe.

it gets to a point where it affects my paranoia so much and can start me going into psychosis

a lot (if not all) of the things i "have" to do for my OCD (the compulsions to the obsessions) are seriously damaging to my mental health and in the past my physical health as well

currently my symptoms have greatly flared to a point where i could easily end up endangering myself. my support system right now is not enough to prevent that as well