#i'm technically an introject

[amber-mango-offshoot]

got tagged by @stefisdoingthings (thank you, this was very sweet to include me :) i'm still working on building up an identity and it's nice to get a lot of random little questions so i can think about what they mean to me. i might answer some with stuff i'm looking forward to since i havent done a lot of these things, unless i just can't access those memories right now). Dont feel pressure to read all this, i'm gonna be musing a lot.

last song: Slow Dancing in the Dark by Joji

favorite color: i think the more understated browns/grays that rocks come in.

book i'd like to read: i dont think ive ever read a book in my life, so i dont even know if i like reading. but of the books we have i think i'm most interested in Sea of Tranquility by Emily St. John Mandel. Seems serene and kinda rough

movie i'd like to see: i havent seen a movie either. i think maybe? Blue (2002). Someone made a comment that it gives Mirage x V2 vibes (from Ultrakill). Maybe i'll even watch it tonight

show i'd like to see: i actually dont have an answer to this. not yet anyway. I did choose Milly as my designated trigun kin though :) even though i am lower energy than her

sweet/savory/spicy: uhhhh i have eaten. fewer than five times. mostly dinner so, savory i guess?

relationship status: single (for. semi-obvious reasons)

last thing i searched: Blue 2002 lol

current obsession: do i count? i dont think im obsessed with anything i just kinda spend my time hanging out and trying to figure out what i like. i do like this thing though:

looking forward to: making more art (i might do some painting or linocuts!), maybe going to a forest someday, seeing shorebirds in person

uhhh i dont think i can tag anyone that the other guys havent tagged. if youre one of my five followers you can go ahead and do this for yourself :)

[normalmcguy]

I AM PLURAL I AM FRIENDLY I AM APPROACHABLE YOU CAN DM ME THAT'S WHAT THIS POST IS ABOUT. I AM BEFRIENDABLE, TRY IT

HELLO HELLO my name is Normal Guy because i don't care to publicly go by my source name and i kind of just didn't care to find a real name to replace that original placeholder, you can also call me Norm or Marty being that they're both short for Normal Guy.* pronouns wise, you can call me he or like if you really want it or they or actually pretty much whatever, mostly just that he/him stuff

i'm one of like 5 current hosts in my system and i'm like woah i just checked it turns out on this day i've turned 100 days old in this system that's actually crazy to me. i mean woah. anyways i'm a factive of an old old friend's fictive** which means i have a connection to a source we know like nothing about except what we learned through osmosis back when we were friends and so basically i picked up a lot of what is probably just some sect of fanon

i'm a HUGE bike guy like that's my main hobby i have to bike like every single time i front type thing, that's gonna be like. my 'get to know me' fact for this intro post. i have an E-bike that i love more than anything in this world it has a name you can dm me and ask. i say this both to create mystery and allure about myself and to provide an adequate conversation starter. because i'm so nice and all that.

i do my best not to get into discourse of most types, but real quick i wanna make it clear that i believe in and support endogenic systems and don't care to debate on that. in case that's something that would prevent you from reaching out or whatever, feel like i oughta make that one clear

*i'm sorry that bit's a lie, Marty is not actually short for normal guy. if you didnt know.

**i have the source in the tags i'm not putting that shit out in the open because it's like a whooole complex thing for me (i mean i have a good few friends outside of the system and literally not a single one knows my source. i have genuinely only ever shared my source with people within this system so you're gonna have to work (open the tags and read like 2 more lines of yapping) to see that one) also i'm not that connected to begin with just basic pseudomemories

[carnage-cathedral]

Something that I think many of you don't understand is that Sebastian is simply another part in the system. He's not special or unique. He is just an alter. The only reason he is considered so important to outside people is because he's who they knew first. He is not the "original" or "core." He is an alter just like me or anyone else.

[lakeofbl00d]

Major Chord. All strings create one instrument together.

Art my subsystem and I made. It’s a vent piece, and it does have meaning. However that’s personal to us, so I’m not explaining. I figured we may as well post it though instead of just letting it sit in our files. -Clef

[kafus]

i am so tired i can't draw so here's a picture of me drawing while tired and the anatomy looks borked because i'm so tired i can't draw (i'm also so tired that this repetitive caption is probably funnier to me now than it will be after i sleep) edit: changed the anatomy slightly shhh

[canis-constellate]

WHAT IS HAPPENINGGG!!! WHY AM I STILL THE SOLE FRONTER

dad (voluntarily (usually) frontstuck four) pick me up i'm scared

[yellow-sky-selfships]

My own art of us!

kinda want to see some positivity on the timeline so 🌸

selfshippers! rb this post with your favorite art of your selfship(s) please!!

whether it was commissioned, gift, your own art, picrew, doodles, OR FAV PART FROM YOUR FIC! anything! i want to see some!! 🧡 show the love!

mine under cut :3 ↓

here's mine :3

by @literally-just-there !! 🧡 its so colorful 🥹

[hazelnut-hearts]

Some userboxes I made - Idk I did the factive one cause technically I'm a factive introject [think I'm using it right?] of Chappell but not quite comfortable using that term cause of controversy [Identity theft and all]

ANYWAYS the userboxes ♡♡♡

[These are f2u no credit/ reblog needed but if you want better ones go here \/]

[plural-culture-is]

Introject culture is technically qualifying as a fictive but your source is one of our collectives oc's headmates so i could also qualify as an octive but as far as i can tell i am basically identical to my first canon and

You know what? I'm not going to think about it.

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[syscultureis]

ok hi um. prev anon here. what do we do if theres an alter in here whos a really bad person and who’s hurting a little and we dont know what to do. we’re like pretty new to being a system and we’re not an adult bodily and we sort of just dont know what to do cause we’re new to this

It's a hard situation because the best way to handle it changes from alter to alter

We had a really bad persecutor who was just horrible and nothing we did fixed it or helped, he just eventually mellowed out on his own

Another who we found (extremely) long walks helped him calm down and start to learn to be better (as well as several other less than ideal coping mechanisms but they don't harm the body and they help him so we let it slide)

I technically still am a persecutor and I'll admit I'm awful to the rest of the system (denial holder 🤙) and we're still figuring out how to help me out and I'm trying pretty hard myself too, so it's give and take here

Another persecutor who all it took was showing her she was hurting us and not helping and she fixed it like that

Another who is just awful to all of us, she's an introject of our own intrusive thoughts. Rn all we can do is try not to let her front (which we do not recommend, it's not healthy, it's not easy, and honestly I think it just pushes her deeper into her shit), but one of our gatekeepers says he's started to get a handle and he's found a few things that help. Idk what it is though

We did also have a persecutor at one point who was determined to hurt a specific little we have, we just had to keep them separated until we helped her calm down and now she's super protective of the little.

At the end of the day it's trial and error and it kinda really sucks, but there's no real fix it to that kind of issue. I recommend trying to talk it out, but it really does just depend on the alter

*our advice is based on personal experience and may not encompass all experiences or work for every situation

[antiendovents]

Just found out about "build a headmate" blogs because of that free blocklist post you made and like.... I can't even begin to fathom the thought behind this.

I'm a new part. I'm technically a fictive? Introject? I don't know what to call myself, but I don't really *agree* with these labels because of my memories.

I'm experiencing what I think is known as time loss. The last important date I remember was 2008. I am 16 years into the future. Technology scares me, I don't understand most medias and jokes anymore, and everything around me feels like it's happening too fast.

And with that out of the way....

YOU'RE TELLING ME PEOPLE *WANT* THIS? THERE'S PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET WHO THINK THAT THIS AMNESIA SHIT IS COOL????

I don't have my friends. I don't have my parents. I don't have my pets. I don't even have my old clothes. I wouldn't wish this experience on ANYBODY. Not even the man who took EVERYTHING from me. And yet there are people who want to "build" people like me. Willingly.

I hate it here.

yeah... It's pathetic. Endos think they want this but they don't

Also I hope you're doing okay anon 🫂 adjusting can be hard and I'm proud of you for trying...

[insomniacsystem]

Caved and decided to post this cause I'm proud of it and damnit tac gear is hard as hell to draw so take art of Azrael and Graves.

Base/reference is by @mellon-soup!

Technically I'm an alter but I'm an introject of an OC so the tag still applies hah -Azrael

[kazanfamily]

Please reblog for sample size! ✨️

[system-of-a-feather]

Do you or did you have maladaptive daydreaming prior to DID? If you still have it, how does it affect your DID today? (Thank you if you answer this!)

Technically after, because I technically have had DID / the early developmental signs of DID since I was a kid (and honestly probably since shortly after being born and coming home since my house was extremely hostile during the time I was an infant), at least enough so that my first memory was experiencing heavy depersonalization and my sisters and family took active humor out of my inability to parse my dreams from my experiences and my memories.

With that said though, I was aware of my maladaptive daydreaming before I was aware of my DID by the nature of DID being a pretty covert disorder to the individual and because I used to write off having DID as something that was IMPOSSIBLE because of how sensationalized and dramatized a lot of the depictions of DID I was seeing around.

Presently, both my maladaptive daydreaming and my DID are actually considered in "remission".

For maladaptive daydreaming that means that I basically have a lot more control over when and how much I daydream as to make it so that it doesn't interfere with my life and make it so that I don't seek out real relationships. I still have a very detailed, complex and immerse way of interacting with my creative worlds, but that I find to be more of a long lasting trait of having spent a lot of my years being so deep into maladaptive daydreaming that it probably was getting into a territory some people might call psychosis.

For my DID, I'm what I like to call (@hiiragi7 for the term since I like the phrasing of a concept Ive been dancing around for a while) "fully fused multiple"; as in, for the most part day to day I very much operate as a singular whole, but I freely and openly express my parts as versions of myself and when its beneficial to me, I can choose to be one part so much so that I am basically just that part; all without really loosing time, or any dissociation. In this sense, my parts are a form of my self expression and way of interacting with my own identity and not a matter of something I can't control. Its an intentional engagement with my parts.

That said, my maladaptive daydreaming and my DID were surprisingly very disconnected in the experience I had with them, but disconnected in the way parallel lines are disconnected. Save for specific parts that you could argue went so deep into the maladaptive daydreaming that they went dormant, most of my maladaptive daydreaming ran independent but next to DID with limited interaction since most of the daydreaming was lead by Riku (primary host for most of our teen years and early years of adulthood) and sometimes engaged with by introjects related to the daydream, but otherwise just kind of watched and passively observed by other parts.

For us, our maladaptive daydreaming really branched off as a second seperate-but-parallel dissociative coping that kind of only connected to our DID through the Riku (and theoretically we hypothesize itd probably just be whoever was the most frequent fronter, unfortunately we never tested that as Riku stayed the primary host from age 13 to fusion). For us our maladaptive daydreaming actually kind of operated as an alternative way of exploring parts of ourselves, our feelings, our experiences by taking parts of ourselves (memories, personality traits, experiences, world beliefs, etc) and letting those specific parts grow into characters. I find honestly that the way a lot of my characters are parts of myself to be very similar to how my DID parts are parts of myself, but in two VERY different ways and different mechanisms.

Honestly though, both have been a large part of my life and have a lot of interactions between the two so theres probably a lot I could say beyond this if you have any more specific questions.

[the-rorster]

KEANER !!

"It wasn't a party before I arrived, just so we're clear"

You can call me RORY or ROREEN

I'm TRISFLUID and also GENDERFLUID

I use NO PRONOUNS but I'm currently testing out a few neos. Those will be for CLOSE FRIENDS ONLY

I am a Rory Keaner Fantastive - or - Introject

I'd consider myself really really source connected, and I don't take well to "reality checking" or whatever

I post on Tiktok sometimes, and lately I've been helping out to write fanfiction

My Messages/DMs are open if you'd like to chat. I have DPD so I would LOVE to chat. And uh.. MBaV introjects totally hit me up !

PT below the cut

"It wasn't a party before I arrived, just so we're clear"

Image ID: Dancing Gir

Keaner!

You can call me Rory or Roreen

I'm trisfluid which technically makes me genderfluid also

I use no pronouns but I'm currently testing out a few neos. Those will be for close friends only

I am a Rory Keaner Fantastive - or - Introject

I'd consider myself really really source connected, and I don't take well to "reality checking" or whatever

I post on Tiktok sometimes, and lately I've been helping out to write fanfiction

My Messages/DMs are open if you'd like to chat. I have DPD so I would LOVE to chat. And uh.. MBaV introjects totally hit me up !

[evergreensys404]

So I ran across someone who linked to a "basic DNI criteria" rentry, and I'm both confused and concerned about the people who say "basic DNI" now-

**THIS IS NON A SYSCORSE POST, JUST TRYING TO CLEAR THINGS UP AND UNDERSTAND**

firstly the line "believes alters can be a different race/ethnicity" concerns me highly, at that point wtf are anime introjects, animal/nonhuman alters.

Biologically speaking, I'm not American, yet I've lived a majority of my life in America, so I have a few American alters, am I wrong for that? what about the fact that I have Korean heritage, do I have to have only Korean alters for that criteria/standard?

and the "thinks doubles exist" thing, granted I'm still fairly new to the online system stuff, so I'm not 100% sure what that means, but we have more than one variation of the same introject in headspace, and we sometimes jokingly refer to them as a "double" (ex: we have two different Dr.Who alters, we have the 4th doctor and 10th doctor) is that suddenly not an okay thing?

the example also loops back to the "different race" thing, technically The Dr. is not a human alter, human appearance yes, but not human.

can someone please help us understand this??