#i'm going to be 30 this year.
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and i know i could and possibly might just start posting about fics and what not that i'm writing her and set up a kofi and take suggestions and what not but. it's a lot of work.
#i'm just trying to find things i can do to help me out y'know?#motivation wise sometimes having prompts or suggestions is helpful#but building a platform annoys me and scares me#and i don't think one should have to do that to write fic and what not.#or make playlists or anything.#bc monetizing and making creative outlets like that a job or a popularity contest kills the joy for doing them.#but i also have nothing else i can offer that would be in any way marketable or monetary in terms of making something into a side hustle.#i need a raise. i need to stay longer at work. i need all kinds of things#bc it's just. crushing me atm.#and i feel like shit being crushed.#by the economy and the world at large.#i just want to thrive. and be able to get myself little treats when i think i deserve them.#and it's just. impossible at the moment.#i'm going to be 30 this year.#and i've got to keep reminding myself that i'm doing okay.#we have a house.#we are making payments on it and everything is fine#but i feel. so stretched out.#mentally and physically.#and i feel like a burden. even though i know i'm not.#like. i'm making the car payments. which we need. and i'm paying the insurance and the internet bills and my part of the mortgage#but like.#i still feel like i'm not contributing where i need to.#and it's just.#damn y'know?#idk how to fix that.#and it's not just me wanting more money to buy books it's me feeling like shit bc i can't put as much towards groceries.#or put my part towards the phone bill or electric and gas.#anyway i'm feeling like slimy howl i'm gonna go write something.
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Miyazaki's Retirement Declarations (chronologically)
Translated from last week's NHK documentary on the production of The Boy and The Heron (more under cut). I saw people posting a screencap of this and I just couldn't contain myself. THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON WAY LONGER THAN I IMAGINED LMFAO
This is from the NHK programme "Professional - Their Working Philosophy" (プロフェッショナル 仕事の流儀) a few days ago (16/12/2023). The episode investigates the production process of The Boy and the Huron, and how the late Takahata Isao influenced the movie.
(It was confirmed within the documentary that Mahito = Miyazaki, Great Uncle = Takahata Isao, The Heron = Suzuki Toshio, Kiriko = Yasuda Michiyo)
The documentary is currently available on the NHK Streaming Service (Location Limited). If you have your own ways of watching and you know Japanese, I would definitely recommend the episode as it gives a lot of much-needed context to The Boy and The Heron. Personally, I haven't found a way to watch it yet, so all I know about the documentary are hearsay I saw on Japanese twitter.
Original screencap:
Also, at the very end of the episode, Miyazaki was shown working on a Naucicaa piece without any explanation, which led to many people speculating whether he could be working on a sequel for Naucicaa of the Valley of the Wind.
What do yall think? Do you think he's going to finally retire or release yet another animated film in a few years? I would love to see Naucicaa 2 but I also feel like he really needs to... yknow, chillax a bit and stuff. He deserves a long ass vacation.
#hayao miyazaki: im gonna retire fr bye*hands in resignation letter for literally the 10th time*#also miyazaki: *shows up at studio ghibli two days later with starbucks* yo guess what a vision was revealed to me last night#everyone else in ghibli: please let us go I'm begging you PLEASE *have not seen the outside world in 30 years*#tweet translations#studio ghibli#hayao miyazaki#the boy and the heron#naucicaa of the valley of the wind#castle in the sky#porco rosso#princess mononoke#spirited away#ponyo#the wind rises#howls moving castle
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everything i wish i had said
#umineko#umineko spoilers#sayo yasuda#tohya hachijo#(tearing my own still beating heart out of my chest)#hey dead girl who i've never actually met. i'm going to spend the next 30 some odd years of my life imagining a happy ending for us#if you wouldn't mind#WHO WOULD WIN: sayo's impossible optimistic pipe dream that there somehow exists an ideal of battler who is still able to save her#VERSUS tohya's impossible optimistic pipe dream that there somehow exists an ideal of sayo who is still able to be saved#Trick question! they are both very sad <3
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yknow what. I wanna say: CSA and COCSA survivors are all incredible, but I also wanna give a shout out to ppl who were exposed to sexual stuff or had any kind of sexual experience as a kid that they either aren't comfortable labelling as or don't consider abuse, but they know it still fucking sucked and shouldnt have happened. Even if that changes later in life and you identify as a victim/surivor, it can be messy to have to imagine those labels applying to the ppl in ur life and that can take time.
The most important thing is to prioritize your recovery + health, and to support other victims + survivors.
#COCSA ment#CSA ment#This is like. V personal and venting (maybe over sharing)#It's. I'm going to be honest recent discussion really brought this back into my brain aaughhh. Not in a bad way necessarily#Just. I know I've had experiences that I think others might label this way and I struggle to really understand that#Beyond the gut feeling of ''it doesnt count'' there's the understand that I might be denying it bc of shame or even just. The fact I have#An internal definition of it that excludes myself. And that I don't want to imagine the other ppl as 'abusive' and I don't think they had#The intent to hurt me. And the fact in one situation I know none of us understood boundaries or consent bc we didn't#Actually talk with adults about what like. Sex and sexuality meant so all out fucking context was porn. And just idk#I have specific experiences but those Memorable Incidents were just part of a larger pattern of me learning Abt sex young#And then failing to get proper sex ed for years. And the internet. And the Fucking Internet#(fanfic is like. Anti sex ed. 70% just the fucking worst shit to internalize 30% ''hey this is actually Okay'')#Sex Ed... Like in school... Needs a fucking HEAVY overhaul but it's still better than nothing usually
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THIS IS HOW I FIND OUT KAITO AND SHINICHI ARE COUSINS??
#gosho you're evil 😭#if I had a dollar for every time a ship of a fandom i was in got revealed as cousins I'd have two dollars#which isn’t much but it's crazy that it happened twice#also not 20 but 30 years after the release btw. THIRTY. you cannot make this shit up#this ship is older than ME#and the most popular ship of dcmk too#I can only pray for the shippers I'm so sorry#that being said say fuck you to gosho by keep shipping them!#I've read and seen some absolute masterpieces of fics and arts. go wild. create more.#kaishin
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DANTDM COMMUNITY HOW ARE WE FEELING 💥💥💥💥💥
#dantdm#dr trayaurus#dan & tray#Grim the skeleton dog#OH MY GODDDDDD#IM STILL VIBRATING#OH YAH I HAVENT DRAWN TRAY SINCE I FULLY CREATURIFIED VILLAGERS 😼#IM GOING TO DRAW HIM AT SOME POINT#BRACE YOURSELVES FOR FUZZY TRAYAURUS#THEY SENT HIS ASS TO THE BACKROOMS 💔💔💔#I'm so normal#Minecraft#Minecraft villager#Minecraft villagers#Mcyt#og mcyt#Old mcyt#Oh goodness me#I GET TO SEE MY BOY AGAIN (30 something year old mad scientist)#Not my usual style but el oh el#Clemont_ine
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"90% of fanfic is terrible and written by angsty teenagers."
Ma'am I'm begging you to log off Wattpad and join the rest of us adults on AO3 in the big girl fandoms
#ao3#I'm really tired of ppl complaining about bad fanfic everywhere#like I get that there's a lot of bad fanfic but not THAT MUCH?!?#what fandoms are you ppl reading??#ones where only 15 year olds are in?#join an older fandom with the 30+ year olds#get off Wattpad#that's like the tiktok of fandom#go to YouTube like a normal adult
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Okay but I'm going a bit insane about the growing disconnect of "maybe we're meant to harness it"/"maybe we're meant to fight it". They both thought they were on the same page when they said it, when actually they were on polar opposite ends of the same spectrum. Imogen meant "I never plan to give in to this power even if part of me wants to, I will continue fighting it, but it’s a comfort knowing there’s someone who understands the temptation and who I know won't judge and will still love me and understand if I ultimately fail and give in". Meanwhile to Laudna it meant "I've been in this struggle for longer than I can remember and I don’t know if I can do it much longer. I don’t know if I want to. I don’t know if I even should, or if giving in would be better for all of us because I'm a lost cause. You understand this about me and won't judge as I inevitably am doomed by the narrative, and you won't demand of me that I fight an inherent part of myself, even if it’s destroying me". And Imogen is finally catching on to this disconnect, is realizing that to Laudna their connection isn’t just understanding but an excuse, not too different from Lilliana. And, desperate of losing Laudna to power just like she did her mother, she says, 'if you let me go, I'm gone', meanwhile Laudna is going 'all I can do for you is die and let you go to lift you up' and both of them are going 'why are you so upset about this. i love you'.
#laudna#imogen temult#critical role#cr3#laudna truly is a FASCINATING character#she's happy and living every moment bc she's already accepted she's a lost cause#she's been neither fighting it nor embracing it for 30 years and now she has an excuse to embrace it#bc embracing it means protecting imogen. even if it also means giving in to temptation and letting imogen ultimately lose her#which is okay to laudna bc LOST CAUSE. She’s happy and living every moment with imogen now but can’t imagine a future for them together#she thinks imogen will go in to greatness after laudna has given up everything to help get her there#bc if laudna doesn’t give up everything and tries to fight imogen will help her#and imogen helping her will mean laudna holding imogen back#she doesnt see that in destroying herself shes destroying part of imogen bc she sees no value in her own life bc of living on borrowed time#I'm going insane about them!!#southern gothic#imodna#nella talks cr
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30Jun24
Cos the footy match wasn't on view, One festival set made the news: A telly on trolley (Rocks carried by Oli) — Hail the new God of Glasto: our Lou!
#larry#louis#louis tomlinson#glastonbury 2024#i'm obsessed with this story#glasto wasn't showing the footy#and england was playing slovakia in the euro today#so louis popped out to argos#and got a big flat screen tv and a generator#filled some buckets with rocks#(which oli and lewis carried because louis would never)#and braced the tv stand in the buckets then sat them in a trolley#a crowd quickly gathered round#and louis became the hero after jude bellingham scored a 95th minute bicycle kick goal#then harry kane scored and england won the game and is headed to quarterfinals#all the media outlets have picked up the story#and it's so perfect#louis in his element being a man of the people#getting truly organic attention with no stunts#take a lesson lthq#also glastonbury needs to invite him to the lineup next year#i wrote so many drafts today#please enjoy some discarded lines:#with some buckets of stone / a jorts god took the throne#some go-ers wear wellies / and some bring their tellies#limerick-lt#june 30#2024
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:D I love Nicky so much
I'll be making these into (handmade) stickers and will be giving them out for FREE at both the upcoming Elfia event and at Heroes Dutch Comic Con (summer edition)
I actually don't think anyone from the Netherlands follows me on here but uuuhh if you do plan on going to one/both events, keep an eye out for someone in a badly made Taylor cosplay and you will be granted with one of these bad bois >:)
#the last (and first time) I did this it took me like 3 HOURS to make only 30 ish stickers lol#and it was at like 1 am at the night before the event#but this time I'm more prepared#and I just tested out a new way to make them which is SO MUCH MORE EFFICIENT#and IT. WORKS. TOO.#I'll also be remaking a few from last year#also; yes I did look into just ordering them online but I'm not going to spend 100+ euros on stickers that I'm going to give away for free#and investing into a printer and sticker paper and laminate stuff is a bit too expensive right now as well#so I'd rather make these by hand with all my blood sweat and tears and spend that money on the artist alley instead :D#dndads#here we go with all versions of spelling Nicky's name again#dndads nicky#nicky close#nicky foster#nicholas close#nicholas foster#nicky close foster#nick#trans nicky#trans#my favorite trans guy#dungeons and daddies#my art#elfia#HDCC#teen nicky#demon nicky#so mannyy tagss
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It's Violette's birthday today so I decided to finally give her a kiss 💋 😘
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P/s: Thanks for the birthday gift everyone 🥰💓💓 I love them so so much. Vi is spending her time with Seb right now so she'll get back to you soon 😉 Love ya all 😘😘😘
#been drawing Vi for almost 4 months but they've never kissed hahahahaaa#I love slow burn romance#it“ll be very VERY SLOW omg#also this year is my last twenty -th birthday 😭😭😭#I still cant accept that I'll turn 30 next year I'm mentally 18 😭😭#time flies so fast#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy mc#sebastian sallow#violette laurant#hogwarts legacy oc#sebastian sallow x mc#watercolor#now Im going to sleep
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I say this in the kindest way possible, but I think this style of prose is more appropriate for a personal account rather than an update account. I have no idea who's being talked about half the time. 🥲
[ Tumblr meme via @mikaikaika ]
#QSMP#Philza#Edited#Phil#Let me know if this needs an additional tag#I don't think this necessitates a discourse or neg tag or whatever because I'm being silly but I'm happy to add one if folks need it#I won't post this one on Twitter I don't think because I genuinely don't want to hurt anyone's feelings#but. I feel very strongly about this. It's not helpful#I say this as a fan and as a professional writer (who also worked in the Marketing and Communications field for far too long)#The prose is nice! It's very whimsical and they're having fun! But I don't think it's appropriate for an updates account#I recently turned off notifications for QsmpEN and I'm considering muting them because half the updates just aren't helpful to me#I want to be able to speed read through the update thread I don't want to spend an additional 30 seconds trying to decipher who's who#I don't like posting complaints so I tried to make it a funny complaint#because I do think feedback is good! And I know I'm not the only one who feels this way#but at the same time: these update writers ARE volunteers#(As a side note -- I personally think anyone running a large social media account should be paid)#(I did that for a few years and it was hell. I can't imagine doing that and NOT getting paid for it)#But anyways#They're all volunteers so I don't actually wanna go all pitchforks and torches on them (which I wouldn't do anyways even if they WERE paid)#I'm just venting my frustrations in what is (hopefully) a funny way#but you're welcome to disagree! That's ok too#Portfolio
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What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)
#witch hat tag#orufrey#er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this.#wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on#i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head#that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it...#some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself...#maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts.#orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway#i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles#btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20#well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10#and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most#(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era#that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little.#certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye#idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'.#i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle#just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit#let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')
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Was forced to watch a truly incredible (derogatory) thing recently.
A young person on twitter, adamant that transandrophobia doesn't exist on the grounds that 'no one is killing/raping/assaulting trans men'.
Several people responded, including some linking articles about murders and assaults on trans men and a couple op-ed style pieces of trans men talking about their own experiences.
Said young person responded with "I'm not reading those its triggering and I'm a minor"
So let me see if I've got this correct, you are knowingly refuse to acknowledge reality because it's upsetting to you and then you're going to turn around and deny that very reality because you refuse to acknowledge it because it's upsetting?
#like I'm sorry but willful ignorance is not a winning argument?#transandrophobia#its things like this that really have me convinced that we're never actually going to fix this shit#i was talking to the woman who runs the lgbt center i was going to#shes been running it in some capacity for about 30 years now#and she was saying that ever since they reopened after covid they have a problem getting people to keep coming#and its mostly because young people will come a few times and then something makes them uncomfortable and they never come back#but the things that make them uncomfortable are things like 'a homeless kid came to get a shower and a meal'#or 'the donated instruments in the music room arent good enough quality and they dont want to use poor people instruments'#those are both real examples btw#i hate to be the one to say it#but you cannot form community if you refuse to be uncomfortable sometimes#op
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Carlos Sainz | F1 London Live in 2017 | x x x x x
#carlos sainz#autumn posts#explored this event last eve and omg so many wonderful moments!!!!#oh to be able to time travel 🚀 surfing the web will have to do!!#also I'll still reblog and post RBR of old and Max related content in 2025 but#wow they have made some immensely frustrating decisions as a company#I do sure despise their upper management!#also tbh I am glad newbies get chances but it seems like 2025 is going to be maybe too many rookies maybe o.o idk I just got here#and I know F1 teams are probably trying some succession planning and lots of new brands hopping on seem geared to younger fans#and I love Gabi and Jack and I'm sure Ollie and Kimi are great! idk them as well yet! and I miss Franco :(((#but idk I'm already missing the older drivers we lost like what do you mean Carlos is fourth oldest he's my age 🥲#idk I like grizzled old men!!!! and drivers who are still in their prime!! 30s isnt old!!! (I know it is in the world of f1 but...)#idk I know big F1 is trying to plant seeds but they're pulling up perfectly gorgeous trees to do so....I just got here too!!!!!!#hmmmm rambling balogna from a new fan#also I dont like watching cars crash so really really hoping the races next year with all these green drivers aren't too bad 🫣#idk I get worried!! and all the engineers and bts folks have to deal with wrecks so#mannifesting safe drives and good starts 🙏✨#and rbr and vcarb are on my shit list for now but the Max blogging will not cease#he and I will both be in our sixties and I'll be here salivating hehe 😵💫✨#gosh dad bod Max 😵💫❤️✨ heaven help me the thirst blogging will be off the charts here#okay enough yapping!!!#wishing everyone a v excellent Friday!! ☀️☁️🌙✨#brb soon to spam F1 Live in London content bc oh gosh what a rich well#also I won't spam too much hehe I'll space it out#also the Little Mix girlies (gn) were OUT at this event so that was fun!!#an insta feed of F1 drivers and a ton of Little Mix bloggers since they performed there! and I like Jade!! I gotta check when her albums out#okay autumn out!!! 🫡❤️✨ bye for now!
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i've had this idea for a monkey themed animatic for years, but ive been too intimidated to try...
as a challenge, I gave myself a month to make one! (to post on the 20th anniversary!) here ya go
#super robot monkey team hyperforce go#super robot monkey team#srmthfg#srmt antauri#srmt nova#srmt otto#srmt sprx#srmt gibson#srmt mandarin#sprx 77#mr hal gibson#its.... janky as hell but ive never tried anything like this#I'm hoping that I can redo it a few years from now when I get the hang of it... but its a start!#I have been working on this for upwards of 30 hrs the past 3 days. I am tired. its good enough lol
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