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jess mariano rant
FIRST AND FOREMOST can we talk about how no one remembers that jess's mom literally sent him to an uncle he'd never met because she "couldn't handle him" and how he was just expected to say it was it is and move the fuck on like he didn't just leave his home, friends, and everything he ever knew and im speaking from experience because I've moved like 6 times and hated my parents each time for it because it's the worst experience and ESPECIALLY when everyone in the town already hates you because you look a certain way and he was fucking 17 like guys any teenager with family issues would act like that tf?? and he didn't even do anything THAT bad because i know for sure if rory and Lane had stolen money from taylor for shits and giggles lorelai would've defended her and SPEAK OF THE FUCKING DEVIL lorelai hated jess so much for absolutely no reason other than the fact that (AGAIN A TEENAGER WITH TRAUMA) said something mean to the queen of stars hollow and obviously we all know that she hated him because she WAS him but even that i dont agree with 100% because jess had it so so SO incredibly worse, like no father, mother who married so many guys and divorced and lost all of their money and house which probably made them homeless A LOT of times like lorelai obviously had family issues but jess had it worse so she can't really act like she gets him because she doesn't.
and everyone likes to bring up the fact that he got mad when she wouldn't have sex with him and he literally didn't???? what show are you watching tf and his character development UGH ITS SO GOOD the high school drop out whom known has ever believed in is probably the most successful person in his whole family and that's why ladies and gentlemen (i still have so much more to say but i cant write it because my brain is faster than I type) jess mariano is the best character and best everything in the show
#jess mariano#rory gilmore#gilmore girls#lorelai gilmore#liz danes#luke danes#literati#truncheon books#I love jess mariano#i wish men like him existed#anyway#idk what else to tag#bye bye#I dont think anyone is gonna read this#but#whatever#yolo
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Is that character gay? *points at Mine*
Allegedly.
#snap chats#depends on what day you check the wiki. schrodinger's homosexual#i couldnt FATHOM showing mine to my mom i know she'd be so annoying 😭😭😭#actually i cant even imagine what'd happen. 'is he gay' 'yeah' 'oh-' LIKE WHAT. WHAT NOW MOTHER WHAT HAVE YOU SAY TO THAT#like i think my mom asks that so much as a cope for my existence when i dont even like men mom As Per Usual mother you got it wrong#she's so weird because her. 'best work friend(? boss?)' is gay so she doesnt care about gay people she just doesnt like. me LMAO#but my moms selective hating aside i do wish i could show her characters i like#not because i want to bond with her but because it always seems funny when everyone else does it with their parents#but id just be too embarrassed ... or i can just imagine her saying like. every other chara is scary lookin. or ugly. liek my grandma did 💀#my sisters keep telling me to show her daigo since they think he looks like our dad and im always tempted to#god wait that just reminds me how when i did a daigo cosplay last year my dad saw me and he was like 'you're like a mini me :)'#like .... cmon dawg youre not helping LCKAEJLKCJAE love him. hope to see him again soon <- literally just saw him#wait while im rambling my dad came over and our 'uncle' (no actual relation just dad's friend) gave us. 12 fucking bottles of wine#when no one in this house drinks enough to warrant TWELVE BOTTLES ?? so funny. at least my sis and her husband drink#and i have one (1) friend who drinks LOL so thats cute. do i have any other unnecessary lore bits to drop before i disappear for a week#our ac broke and its been hot as balls. yeah thats it thats the end of it see you guys next week
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Cool and based gfalls fan voice "I should write an essay about npd ford"
#godsrambles#seen a handful of people say this before but never seen the actual post get written#cant say im not dissuaded by picturing hypothetical shitty reactions to it. but still#there is so much that could be said#like for one thing. npd making him that much more vulnerable to being manipulated by bill. which is very much not fords fault#men will be so traumatized that they develop a disorder about it and folks will say 'lol you deserve to be mistreated. ur personality sucks'#anyway. im not gonna write that essay right now. but i wish that essay existed somewhere
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I wanna join in on the Rudy writing fun but my brain will not do romance right now. I've become so burnt out and my personal hatred is too strong. I look at people and think "Yeah. You'd just screw me over. Love isn't real. Nobody could care about me like that. Don't even try." And I hate it I wanna believe again and it's effecting my writing at this point. Why must people screw me over so much to the point I'm just totally broken mentally. Fuck humans honestly especially men.
#vee's not important life updates#vee's random thoughts go brr#and i know good men exist so don't come at me with that. I'm just frustrated and broken.#I like to believe theres still love in the world and maybe I'll find it but as time goes on I'm just getting bitter#watched a relationship between two people fall to pieces- watched someone I believed whole heartedly was good turn sour#thought he was a good man- wished he was my dad instead only for him to prove he really was never that different#he's just like all the other shitty men in my life that i grew up around and I just didn't know it#I thought i found a safe space but instead he screwed over his own family and me. why? why would you fucking do that?#is it so damn hard to be good to people? to be gentle and not change?
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help I’ve started listening to my chemical romance 😭
#just pav things#when someone’s music taste is a natural extension of my own I will assimilate their favourite artist into my being <3#and honestly this was doomed to happen too.#like. the first album I ever remember listening and doing a silly dance to was Bon Jovi’s Cross Road in KINDERGARTEN#and then I grew up with shoji meguro’s work on persona 4 golden (2012)#I’m literally the girl who thinks electric guitar is the bestest instrument ever#Soo yeah 😅 Turns out Pav was the true emo the whole time 😂#this is what happens when you grow up with literally subgenre of rock at your disposal :>#Anyways this has spurred some heated debate in my mind#Namely. Would Inigo actually listen to this in character?#ITS A COMPLICATED TOPIC THAT’S REALLY TESTING MY KNOWLEDGE OF HIS CHARACTERISATION#Just like how Dolphin asks those difficult questions about Archie where it requires really late-stage psychological thoroughness#and intimate understanding of said deepest parts of the psyche#Because here’s the deal right? We all know Inigo is wearing a false edgier persona to prevent any closeness with other people#Key word: false.#But that’s not the whole picture either is it? He has a harness up to his neck because he wallows in his guilt about Archie#It’s a torture device for him. He’s wearing uncomfortable clothing on purpose.#It almost feels like he would listen to mcr to induce the comfortable inertia of emptiness that sustains his depressed existence#It keeps him thinking about negative topics. Keeps him lost in his nightmarish slumber that is a life devoid of true connection to others#So it would help MAINTAIN his emo mask through willing engagement. Thus preventing Inigo from breaking due to sheer psychological duress~#And c’mon who would listen to ‘you know what they do to men like us in prison’ and NOT think of Archie and Inigo#Or specifically. How Inigo PERCIEVES Archie#They’re both deeply entrenched in sin :3 And Inigo thinks he doesn’t suffer enough for what he did— ‘or just not enough pain in my heart fo#your dying wish’ (dying this case being. metaphorical. y’know)#And then that line of ‘I’ll kiss your lips again’#Like kissing goodbye to a sweet death~#So like. Inigo is trying to reinforce the idea that he’s a murderer in his mind 😭#And that’s my thesis on WHY Inigo would listen to mcr and his response if appropriate 😤 He’s trying to brainwash himself ✨✨✨
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once again thinking about the redfields and their bond with leon - how in a day ( and then a few months ) he's become such an integral part of claire's life that despite being mostly far they created a strange family of misfits with sherry, and claire brought them in what is left of her own because they're all orphans with no one to rely on except for her. and you know for a while sherry and leon were both relying on her because she organically takes on the role of leader - and continues to do so even after she introduces them to chris ( she's just more level headed ironically )
and you know i reject the idea that she introduced chris and leon to each other in 2010 simply because code veronica exists to tell us otherwise lol, but like. she's the one who mostly reaches out until there's a shift in dynamics because claire can empathize but can't really relate to what it's like battling alcoholism - she's got demons of her own but she never drowns them, at least not for a long while until she's up on that tower that the only thing to do is jump.
i'm not really surprised that as they grew up there's seems to be a rift in their little family that goes even beyond the chip thing. chris ( and becca ) found leon drunk off his ass, he probably had to call in claire for the infamous off screen intervention and even then she hesitates because if piers kept away from her intel about chris alcoholism induced shenanigans in fear of her reaction, imagine what she could have done about her best friend too.
and she's so guilty about it too, dismissing signs, perhaps sometimes even indulging on it herself and not seeing how bad that was. taking at face value every missed call and unanswered text as a "oh well i guess we hate each other now" when it was never about that. there's a certain softness she reserves to him - like a thing barely held together that needs to be handled gently, which makes it so obvious she wants his best but also doesn't have the best approach ( at least that she thinks of )
idk without being weird about it, i just think that they complement each other in a way that is rarely seen in found families 🤧
#𝙏𝙃𝙄𝙉𝙂𝙎 𝙇𝙊𝙎𝙏 𝙄𝙉 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝙁𝙄𝙍𝙀 ⎯ dev#i love their dynamic i wish i could study them like bugs#canonically they're the only men still alive claire can always count on#they're the bane of her existence and people she cares for the most#there's so many things about leon's situation government wise that chris probably knows better than claire#because if claire knew she'd set fire to the whole establishment just to free him from a burden that kept her & sherry safe all these years#at the same time there's just an unexplainable understanding between her and leon coming from all the weird shit they went through#silent conversations and inside jokes ( thank you DI for the crumbs of their usual dynamic despite everything )#i love them so much idk i could ramble about it for hours
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I could've been insane in an interesting way at least but noo, I just think about a stupid guy so much that I lose my mind, how fucking stupid is that
#I didn't mean that. he's not stupid. some of the ones before him though.. yeah#but like why. whyyyy#'how have you been?' 'oh not great I'm mentally ill in a way that makes me get so obsessed with men that everything else stops existing so#I'm actually not even a person right now I'm just a thing that's in love with John Larroquette :) '#also I absolutely know why that started and that makes it so much worse!! haha my parents ignored me and were mean to me so I had to#fixate on fictional characters to get through my childhood haha that's fun I'm so normal :)#at least now I'm not hiding under my blanket crying and praying that [random guy I was obsessed with as a child] will come save me so#that's something I guess#(no actually it's just as bad. and I'm a whole fucking adult. why.)#also I'm now remembering random shit like that time I followed around a man in his 30s at a wedding when I was 10 because he was pretty and#my mother didn't want to deal with me. so. time to keep staring at this man I guess! his name was Peter lol why do I remember that#or the less funny things#seriously wish I was exaggerating when I say I get obsessed. oh it's not an exaggeration. I mean that literally.#personal
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i should probably add that lance is very conscious of his reputation and image, so much so that if he feels his actions will negatively affect said reputation he will wait until he's under the protective cowl of the g-men before carrying it out.
#i do NOT like how the anime portrays him with reference to the g-men#as in: TELLING THE ENTIRE WORLD THAT HE'S IN IT.#it's top secret what the gmen do most of the time.#yes ppl can know they exist. kinda like how we know the FBI & MI5/6 exists ukno?#but unless you know lance well. unless you've CAUGHT HIM IN ACTION through its means#you will not know that's what he does.#other members are okay 2 tell. if they so wished#but lance's operations rely on him being undercover#about.#ooc. » electric type enthusiast.
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there is unimaginable fury and sadness in me whenever i am forced to think about how badly khalid (jaheira's husband) got treated being killed off in bg2
#there are many things i want to do when it comes to bg2#rewrite the entire xan mod and make him romancable by men#write character interactions with the npcs and expand stuff further#make caelar a companion in bg2#but making khalid live and removing jaheira's romance i wish for so much i want to make it so bad#every day i wish that one mod that did exist got support for the enhanced edition every single day#and like i cannot be the only one i truly fully cannot be#bg2
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I literally had a dream about reading the worst fan fiction like fucking ever kiryu was just randomly a yandere and nishiki was trying his best to survive also kiryu turned into a dragon (deez nuts) halfway and let nishiki kill him for being a bad boy but he was so upset about having to kill his bro that he just lay in the corpse for a bit and thats when i decided to stop reading and i literally opened tumblr in my dream to complain about how bad it was like the writing went back and forth from being terrible to incredible and i found myself enjoying some parts and despising others. I skipped the first few chapters so i had to tab back out and read the summary like why are they in a beach resort and the summary didnt just tell me nothing but it was also double spaced between each line and very fucking irritating and while reading it i kept thinking this is extremely ooc and boring like they would not fucking say that
#Listen to my problems#i cant stress enough that i dont even ship them why did i read a sex fic about kiryu and nishikiyamer#like i believe they are the bestest of friends forever and ever and like as hotblooded young men growing up together they must have tried a#few sex moves on each other at least once but i dont think they see each other as romantic prospects. like unlike majima and saejima#(seajima) who are literally together all the time and will never travel anywhere without the other unless its to prison. kiryu and nishiki#have this understanding that eventually theyll have to part ways and find their own path. while they would always remain in each others#hearts and thoughts they knew that they couldnt be holding hands forever and besides they have to focus on getting kazama to the top not#each other !! so nishiki was very happy that kiryu was getting his own family soon even if it meant that kiryu was getting ‘ahead’ of him#and kiryu who can accept consequences for himself but no one else was just like um ... well nishiki please give me the gun and take yumi#your sister needs you or whatever <3 i am definitely expendble and prison life is for me yayy yayyyy i love going to jail so nobody can talk#to me ever again. i keep asking myself how difficult it would have been for kiryu to just pop in by the hospital every now and then to check#in on nishikis sister. its not like he cant take care of her. its not like he doesnt know how to earn money. he just straight up thinks that#nishiki is better than him so he should be the one to get locked up ... because nishiki can take care of yumi and i straigh up forgot his si#sisters name and reina and kazama without him. and nishikis like damn i wish kiryu was here so bad (looks at his wwkd bracelet) hm think ill#go insane. i literally forgot what my original point was but that fic was so bad guys im so glad it doesnt exist#in it kiryu was trying his best to keep nishiki in one place and he kept being very. well kiryu was just kiryu but he kept apologising#saying things like you cant leave yet ... and looking at him with his big sad eyes and nishiki would always be like f-fine ... (he doesnt#like it here) also nishiki was one hell of a princess type and had a nurse costume on at some point which means the yakuza server nishiki#propoganda is working on me. very weird. love the part when kiryu was randomly a big dragon because he utterly filled the hallways of their#little beach shack and his scales were nice and soft and he was lovely. little guy
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YESSSS SPY FAMILY IS SO FUN I CANT HELP BUT SMILE AND FEEL SO HAPPY ITS SO CUTEE
ITS SO FUCKING CUTE I SWEAAAR like it took me two watches to enjoy the show bc the first time i watched it i didn't like it, then i watched it with my siblings the second time and when the second season dropped i was like ANYA MY BABY LOID THE HUSBAND 😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖 it's so damn cute it makes me smile and be hopeful that there are happy families out there .... Also the mega slowburn we have with loud and yor.... Toptier
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toby is both a blessing and a curse
#i love him SO MUCH#but he is so emotionally mentally and physically fragile that i am ALWAYS in a state of worrying about him#or recovering from worrying about him#like i love my little boy but he is killing me with this stress#even if i don't kill myself after he dies the stress of it all might kill me regardless#ive always been confused about WHAT makes him nervous because some days he's great and others he's skittish#and im hoping that when i move out (ie no men in the house) he will really settle down and realize that his ENTIRE space is safe#instead of only certain places (my half of the house where dogs and men don't go)#also it will be very expensive but i think id like to try having feliway constantly#he's on anti anxiety medicated food right now and he is WORLDS better than he used to be but he could use a higher dose i think#so maybe feliway will close the distance for him?#if anyone has any good experiences with offbrand feliway i would love to hear about them because i know they exist#but im not sure how effective they are#and feliway is....painfully expensive#i will get it no matter what but a less expensive but still effective alternative would be helpful#anyway. to love is to be changed etc etc#and i am being changed by all of my body systems shutting down :)#and i would do it over and over again but i wish my little buddy could feel calm all of the time :( i of all people know what it's like#to be constantly stressed and nervous and have very few areas of respite#:((( my buddy
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:( bro Hikaru I love him I do he’s so goofy and hot but that’s the problem I can’t stand a fine ass man or pretty people in general like yes we are jealous you are pretty stop and save some fine for the rest of us. Bless Raul, Jimmy and Weesa’s parents for making it clap cause them babies grew up to be fine ass men I hate pretty men, I love looking at them but I wish I was pretty. I wanna be gorgeously sexy and pretty and be a pretty man sometimes too ugh HIKARU YOU MAKE ME SAD NOW Y U DO DIS?
#new anime plot: miagwyn bitches#if you’re new here I’ve been jealous of the pretty men with their skinny waist and long hair and pretty face for a while now#I wish I was like them and hot like them and flat chested#instead I have to wear oversized baggy shirts which I love they are comfy#but sometimes I wish I could hide my breasts from the ojos of others#and SOMETIMES IM JUST A GIRL AND WANNA DRESS CUTE BUT THEN I REMBMER THE HORRORS EXIST#I hope he flirts with himself in the mirror#cause if I woke up one day as hikaru I’d flirt all day with my mirror#he’s such a dreamy man#I WANT HIM#BUT I WANT TO BE HIM#THE GENDER ENVY IS BECOMING GENDER ANNOYANCE#snow man#hikaru#iwamoto hikaru#snow man hikaru
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whenever i'm with large groups of people i have at least one moment of Oh God. People Think I'm Either A Man Or A Woman. it's like getting shocked every time lmao party meme but it's they don't know i'm nonbinary
#he looked scared! like i might think badly of him or treat him differently!#i have many gay friends!#i did? kind of come out? to my coworker?#but i mean she already knew i'm gay lmao it's so obvious when you assume i'm a man that i'm not straight 😭😭#i did have to make a split second decision to say either bi or gay and i said gay 😭 i do use both interchangeably personally#bc i use gay as like an umbrella term for not straight#but i know people tend to think of only homosexual and heterosexual lol bisexual people don't exist <3#but really i didn't feel like doing a lesson on what bisexuality is if it was needed so 😭😭#my coworker was cool with it i was like i mean you probably know already but i'm gay lol and she said yeah i knew but it's your business#but um she was kinda outing our ex coworker? and i know she told me bc i'm obviously gay myself but.......#it's not cool to tell me when he only mentioned his bf to her and she said he looked scared that she might judge him.... like it's not cool#to tell period but especially since it was clearly said bc he trust *her* with the info#if they're openly out and the person already knows well ofc whatever you can talk about it but it wasn't like that so#but the thing IS....... that i only really realised she was outing him afterwards? my bad truly. i was uncomfortable in the moment#but for some reason it didn't click why til later#bc like at first i thought it was bc she said something like 😭😭 girl. how should he know you'd be cool with it. we live in This Society.#so i was uncomfy like uhhh. and i said well i mean you probably know already but i'm gay too and even if there's a p high chance that peopl#will be okay with it in this day & age (i didn't say but. bit different for trans ppl. i'm not out as trans) we can never know#so it makes sense to be scared to say it!#and she was like yes! but i am okay with it and he looked so scared! i truly know so many and i love them even more than others!#😭😭😭😭😭 she means well but seriously HOW SHOULD HE KNOW ALL THAT 😭😭😭😭 it doesn't work like that girl.....#i mean ? *i* never told her i'm gay 😭😭 and i've known her for 2 years and a half almost. this guy worked with us for like a few months#anyway i wish i was quicker to realise bc i would've told her out on it like...... really not your thing to tell other people 😵💫😵💫#still. i am glad i said it. even when it's obvious and wouldn't need telling#it's NOT easy to like. know that everyone knows. not for me at least. especially with the added layer of being trans (AND nonbinary)#bc i don't think ppl i haven't told know that. i think cis ppl are quite bad at like.. knowing transmasc ppl exist lol#so i go by he/him only in italian (no other options lol) and i'm. not really completely masc and don't “pass” super well but when#i present myself as nico and talk abt myself w masculine words ppl just either ignore that and go she! :) or think alright. (cis) gay man#and at work it's the latter after i've worked there for over 2 years. like i'm not out as trans so ppl draw those conclusions#i don't think it'd shock ppl if i said i'm trans but simply put cis ppl at least cis italian ppl dont know shit abt trans men and transmasc
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man being a trans man you really dont get away from misogyny people who act like we do are lying like holy fuck can people please stop policing what im allowed to wear
#⚠️#personal#still not over being laughed at the other day for wearing red eyeshadow udner my eyes. by a cis man no less like are you fucking kidding me#i should punch him#but thatd cause so much shit and im too tired for that#instead im not allowed to be angry i just have to take it cause if i stand up for myself ill just be dismissed as per usual#cant take womens emotions seriously fuck that guy holy shit#so tired of dealing with cis mens misogyny and toxic masculinity like god just fucking get over it already#sort that shit out cause im tired of it i genuinely dont give a fuck anymore#honestly im fukcing losing it man#i dont care about cis dudes problems anymore#god i dont care about anything anymore#who gives a fuck about this shit like gender? literally made up WHO FUCKING CARES#i wish gender wasnt a thing like so many problems would be solved if it didnt exist#why do i need to slot myself into a label for people to be comfortable with the fact im aliveeeee#ive got better shit to do i dont give a fuck#im so fucking tired of everything
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AURGHH I KEEP FLASHBACKING TO THE AWKWARD SITUATION TODAY
#it feels unreal#gonna cry#I wish guys didn’t exist !!! that way I wouldn’t be so awkward around them !!!!#like it’s so mean to expect me to suddenly be okay with interacting with them when I’ve been shut out from them for most of my development#years#its like so unhealthy 🧍♀️#anyways I already have a tough time talking when I’m in a mildly stressful situation but …#like my words always get stuck in my throat / I just mumble random nonesense / I don’t know how to articulate my thoughts / stammering#I’m a rlly anxious person and it’s rlly debilitating 🧎♀️#who ever thinks stammering is cute can respectfully … idk IM JUST LIKE 😭😭😭 how’s stammering cute I am stressed beyond belief !!!#I hate socialisation#anyways ughhh that was so embarrassing pls like now I think I made him feel bad about himself …#I didn’t mean to I swear I would never 😭 he just misunderstood me is all 😭#Muslim Girls CANT TOUCH ANY GUY INCLUDING HANDSHAKES FISTBUMPS ETC#pls … why are guys trying to fist bump me I am not a bro 😔#I Ran out of the lab basically#my mum when I told her the story she was sympathising w him more than me and said I should get over it !!!!#girl … I cannot stand men … even the normal ones creep me out to some extent#I’ve been shut out from them for centuries everyone wants a token goody two shoes good girl#who doesn’t talk to boys until she’s thrust into said mixed environment and is expected to deal with it how about no …#dora daily#yeah I dislike every male idk they make me feel weird ? it’s hard to explain 😭#it wouldn’t be that deep if everyone didn’t slaughter malala for the handshake UGHHH ID RATHER JUST SHAKE HIS HAND WHY IS THIS AN ISSUE#like on one hand I could’ve said hey I’m not allowed in my religion but doesn’t that just sound like rlly bad ?#the only thing I managed to tell him was after I stared at him like a deer in headlights was “uh …. I … can’t”#and he was like wdym you can’t LIKE LOOKING UPSET 😭#I DONT DO WELL WITH MAKING PPL UPSET IM SOBBING#I hope he didn’t take it personally it’s just 😭😭😭#anyways time to shut up !!!
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