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qpjianghu · 8 months ago

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(...but what if I was?)

Li Lianhua / Li Xiangyi | Mysterious Lotus Casebook (2023)

#mysterious lotus casebook #li lianhua #li xiangyi #lhl #my mlc gifs #thanks to the folks who helped weigh in on that last gif!#specifically thank you to:#the-surreptitious-albatross #lianxiaojie #and an apology...#to our dear a-fei #for including him in this gifset #I still believe that the feihua relationship is one of the most devastating tragedies of this show #because of the way that di feisheng grows subtly but significantly over the course of the show #and he comes SO CLOSE to loving and accepting llh/lxy for who he is and who he always was #and maybe he in fact DOES get to this point internally #but his last words to llh are inviting him to fight him like times of old #showing (in llh's eyes at least) a regression to their previous selves #a “self” that maybe llh feels he never actually was #which is why I specifically wanted a feihua scene in that last gif to juxtapose with the more obvious shan gudao scene #the subtext of that feihua scene is very sexy of them (I am looking disrespectfully)#but the text of the scene is brutal and tragic:#as di feisheng violently lashes out at li lianua for his perceived weaknesses #and while llh's initial reaction was at most faintly irritated up until that point #you can see that spark of genuine hurt and sadness in his gaze as dfs holds him at arms length #anyway this has been “things about mlc that make me want to tear my hair out at 3AM”#thank you for coming to my ted talk

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itsnobodysproblem · 3 days ago

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Most Sherlock Holmes adaptations I've seen tend to place their Final Problem towards the mid point of the series (or even a bit earlier) - it's also in my opinion the best way of going about it, so you have time enough for the characters to adjust after the reunion but they know each other well enough for the events of Fina to be devastating.

Sherlock & Co is done with 20 of the adventures. How many are there? Fifty-something? Almost sixty? Let's say we'll be entering mid-point territory after the 25th story.

So let's pretend for a moment that we have 5 more stories until The Final Problem. Ok.

Estimating an adventure at 3 episodes each, that would mean little over 3 months - maybe 3 and a half? Starting, of course, from the end of Sign of Four, which will be somewhere in December.

So let's say 3, maybe 4 months into 2025. That would be, what? Late march, early april?

Early april?

John having to tell the listeners that Sherlock is dead, in early april?

Quick calendar searck reveals what I was praying it would - the 1st of april will be on a Tuesday next year.

So what I'm saying

What I'm saying is Sherlock &Co has the opportunity to do the funniest fucking thing

#fyi I don't mean John pranks us about Sherlock dying #i mean it's just the first Tuesday after sherlock “dies” so that's just when he happens to tell the listeners #maybe he's not even aware of the date #and is surprised to see the reactions are less “oh my god oh no” and more “haha good one” or “funny but actually don't joke about that”#ahhh and then he'd have to double down either on the 2nd or next Tuesday and explain again that his best friend is actually dead #oh that would hurt but it would also be absolutely hilarious #for us who know Sherlock's not actually dead #anywayy #for the record i don't actually think they'll do fina as early as april #(but wouldn't it be funny)#They might do it at the actual midpoint #after the 29th story so let's say june/ july #Hoping they don't place it too late cuz then we won't have enough time to see how it affects all of them #Even if it's around the 3/4 point i think I'd be a bit bummed #Also midpoint is a good place to take a break #Of course fear nr 1 is leaving it for the very end and making empt the last episode #and the reason why the podcast ends is “look what happened if it wasn't for the podcast maybe Moriarty wouldn't have noticed Sherlock”#Like a “it's becoming too dangerous” thing #but that's the evil timeline (not us!!!)#Honestly if it were me I'd make fina the midpoint.... then hiatus...... return...... second half......#and then get another big dangerous villain for the last few eps #Maybe one of them (sherlock) almost gets killed (again) and that's why john decides that #it's been swell but we're ending the podcast cause apparently we're putting (too big of) a target on our backs #Almost lost sherlock again the risks outweigh the benefits etc etc #Of course they'll keep solving crimes together just stop broadcasting them to the world #And that's how I'd do it! :D #God i can't be trusted with tags #If you read this far I love you #sherlock & co #theories

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aroaceleovaldez · 9 months ago

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i hope this doesn't sound like a silly or weird thing to send you, but i'm autistic and have long thought of nico and a handful of other riordanverse characters as autistic and i love your posts about why nico in particular seems intentionally autistic-coded. but i've been thinking, if rick did intend for any of his characters to be autistic, why wouldn't he say so outside of the text at least? i can't think of a good reason why not, when he goes out of his way to be explicit about so many other characters' various marginalized identities and has confirmed things like reyna being asexual outside of the original text. so it gives me this nagging sort of doubt that maybe rick just made nico come off as so extremely autistic coded by accident, somehow. if it wasn't an accident i do kind of wish he'd say so because there's next to zero explicitly stated autistic representation in, like, any media so it'd be nice to have here even if not strictly necessary. either way though, like i said, i love your posts and i agree with you 100% about autistic nico! some others i like to think are autistic are annabeth and leo.

(Most of this is gonna be kind of a tangential ramble to your point and i apologize in advance just bear with me)

This actually touches upon something I've been meaning to do a write-up on recently, which is: depending on the coding, that is our explicit statement. In most coding, actually, that's kind of the point. (Also something something Death of the Author.)

You may have noticed a recent trend across media of characters saying things directly rather than expressing them in a natural way, and often this includes incredibly stilted dialogue of characters explaining things in very politically correct, wikipedia-esque descriptions and terminology that make absolutely no sense for the characters' personalities or mannerisms. This is born out of the idea that if something is not stated in explicit terms, no amount of evidence below an outright direct exact statement will ever count - if two characters of the same gender have an explicit kiss and wedding on-screen, it doesn't matter because they never said the word "gay," etc etc.

In PJO, prior to more recent books, we get plenty of examples of characters explaining parts of their identities without direct statements. Percy never needs to say in outright terms that he has PTSD from Gabe - and it doesn't make sense that he would! He's 12! He's never been diagnosed for that. He probably doesn't even know what PTSD is really. But we, the audience, know without a doubt he has PTSD, because it is clearly expressed to us. That is coding. Tyson is coded as having down syndrome. Nico is coded as being autistic. It doesn't make sense for Nico to turn to the camera and explain that he's autistic and what that means, because he definitely never got diagnosed for it and probably doesn't know what that means cause the diagnosis literally did not exist when he was growing up - and heck, autism terminology was still kind of getting sorted out back in 2007 when TTC was published, so it's unlikely we could have feasibly gotten any exact terminology wink-wink-nudge-nudges short of something like how Percy outright mentions other students called Tyson the r-slur in Sea of Monsters. And in fact we see that same exact style of coding with Nico later on in the series. Nico never turns to the camera and says word-for-word "I am gay, I am mlm, here's me wearing my exact pride flags" (until TOA/TSATS, which... did the exact thing i mentioned about characters speaking like theyre trying to get a good grade in therapy, or giving a powerpoint presentation). But it is never unclear that HoO is telling us outright that Nico is gay. It's not just hinted at. It's there, in your face. But entirely because no one ever outright says "gay" specifically it's technically still only coding. We know he's gay, we know the characters have trauma/ptsd, etc etc. We don't need it spelled out - that's just kind of condescending. It's like if you said describing a character with "eyes like moss" means they were "green-eye coded."

Nico being autistic-coded isn't hidden. It's not a secret. It's very overt. If you know what autism looks like, well, yeah, there he is. Even if you only know very vague 2007 media presentation of autism, Nico in TTC is easily recognizable enough as autistic because that's the point. Tyson is easily recognizable as being coded as having down syndrome and it's very clearly very intentional! It's just never spoon-fed in exact terms to the reader because it's not necessary! You've already been told the information necessary to tell you what is up with this character, so just plainly going "oh they're [x] in exact terms" is very much telling-not-showing and feels redundant. And while there are places for that kind of thing, most of the time it's very unnecessary. Sometimes coding is subtle, sometimes it's obvious, and yeah there are times where writers code characters unintentionally, but the textual evidence is there, and that's the whole point.

And that's what Death of the Author is about - it doesn't matter what the author intended at the end of the day, because if it's in the text it's in the text. You can look at author intent to try and figure out what that text means, but the text is the text. A Separate Peace is a very classic example - author John Knowles denies there being homosexual subtext, and meanwhile one of the protagonists living in 1942 puts on a pink shirt while saying he doesn't mind of people think of him as gay. What the author says after the fact doesn't matter - if it's there, it's there. So Rick saying anything outside of the books is completely irrelevant. And Rick talks about this a lot - he actively tells people that his statements outside of the books are just his own thoughts, but what's in the books is what's in the books, and if the text supports it then that's all the evidence you need.

Nico specifically is a case where yeah, he's clearly autistic-coded. It's very obvious and very obviously intentional when he's younger, and as the books progress it remains a background trait of his but is still notable (except for when it gets forgotten in TOA/TSATS like everything else, including the adhd/dyslexia, but i digress). It's a clear pattern within the first few books that Rick is intentionally including. It doesn't make sense, especially for the year the book was published, for the reader to be directly told in explicit terminology that Nico is autistic, because the reader is already being told that Nico is autistic.

And yeah, Rick doesn't mention Nico being autistic-coded outside of the text, but he also doesn't mention Tyson being coded as having down syndrome. He also said one time that Percy doesn't have PTSD at all, which is very incorrect starting from book 1. Again, Death of the Author. Whatever Rick says outside of the books does not matter, because he already said it in the books. And there's plenty of other stuff in the books that Rick doesn't touch upon, particularly relating to character identity - did you know Leo is Native? Sammy mentions that the Valdez family is Native in Son of Neptune but we don't get any specifics and then it's like never brought up again anywhere. That happens all the time in the series - and outside of the series - Rick can't possibly address every single point to confirm/deny everything from the books. That's what analysis is for! And that's why my blog exists 👍

#pjo #riordanverse #nico di angelo #autistic nico #analysis #ask #Anonymous #long post //#tone indicator just to be sure cause i know i used a lot of italics: this is all non-agressive/not mad i prommy #im just very passionate about this topic (coding & fandom concepts surrounding ''canon'' + death of the author)#also controversial opinion cause i know some people have talked about wanting the use of the r-slur in SoM censored #but i think it should stay because. well. yeah no that was still very commonly used in 2006 #trust me i heard it a lot. i was there. in fact it was commonly used after that point. for awhile.#it wasnt until like a bit into the 2010s iirc that campaigns started to go ''hey maybe. dont use that word.''#like that was RECENT #and yeah! these books are not old! TLT is only just coming up on 20 years. thats not super old for a book!#and yeah! that term was considered a-okay terminology to be used in a middle grade book in 2006! which is startling to think now!#but that's also why it's important to not erase that #because otherwise you forget that up until very recently that word was considered Perfectly Acceptable #and in SoM it's even specifically acknowledged to be used in a hurtful way! Percy is actively condemning it!#like. dont put it in the show or whatever. obviously. replace it with a different indication/coding to explain Tyson's struggles #not that i think Disney would put the r-slur in their show. but like. dont erase it from the book??? from 2006??????#i am frightened to see how the show will handle tyson though. its not gonna go well i can feel it in my bones #anyways man i should post that excerpt from A Separate Peace though #just cause that scene has lived in my brain rent-free for years

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downsteepy · 1 year ago

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it's you!

#my art #resident evil #leon scott kennedy #i keep seeing pics of 2leon next to 4leon and it kills me .#his eyes being so dull in 4r in comparison to how they are in 2r....#hes so much more tired looking ....... ouh #i could genuinely write so much abt how his change in physical appearance hurts me . i think about it so much it hurts me #its just like..... if you start from 2r and then work your way up he just genuinely gets so much more tired looking .........#and while he hasnt ever been like BEEFY beefy seeing how lean he is in smth like vendetta is like. it just hurts idk #but then you get to around death island and he's very.. playfully silly. i dont know how to describe the difference between him being silly #in vendetta vs in di but like. hes just SILLY in di. do you understand what i mean ..#his eyes are brighter. he's put muscle back on. he's silly. he seems happier.#especially in comparison to vendetta.. vendetta leon is genuinely so sad to me if i think abt him for too long i start crying LMFAO #anyway i've written enough . i need to stop. thank you for looking at this and for potentially reading all of this

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yuripira4e · 7 months ago

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I want to preface this post by saying that I love the cat king as a character, especially one that has such a major impact on Edwin and his relationship with his queerness and learning to be okay with it; HOWEVER, I also believe that everyone that genuinely believes he should be a love interest for Edwin should read this. (Also if you just like the cat king as a character and want to understand his character better and why his and Edwin’s relationship is not something that would be healthy or “real” for either)

#dead boy detectives #edwin payne #the cat king #i do not ship them but I don’t want to hate on those who do (mostly) I just want to kind of inform people of the creators meaning for their #Relationship because I keep seeing people saying they hope they get together in s2 and it’s really confusing to me #Their relationship stems from the cat kings own narcissism and predatory behavior and Edwin’s need for someone to push him into under #Standing that his queerness doesn’t have to be torture and can be something giddy #even if he doesn’t return those feelings #The cat king does like Edwin but he doesn’t know anything about him. He likes the game and then he likes the kindness he’s shown despite #Knowing the cruelty he’s presented to Edwin #Queerness and preformance always go hand in hand #He’s a older secretly insecure character #Edwin is the younger #genuinely kind character that shows him that projecting his hurt will never get him what he wants #It’s about the isolation of queerness and the walls put up and the coping mechanism used to protect yourself even at the risk of hurting #Those just like you. That kiss from edwin was to say “I’m sorry your loneliness had caused you to be cruel. It’s the easiest way to feel.#And while I cannot and will not give you what you want or need #you deserve to feel happy and not like you have to gain the attention of uninterested people #I can’t even explain all my thoughts about their dynamic it’s just so much it’s just about the predadation from older queers because of #The trauma they’ve endured and the cycle of hurt and the way we can break the cycle with kindness while also protecting our youths by #Healing those traumas #Something the cat king learns and accepts #Off topic but I don’t like people defending their age gap because #Yes; Edwin is 86 #but he died with a teenage boy brain and then spent 70 of those years in hell where he certainly was not getting his brain developed while #The cat king has possibly hundreds of years of sentience and experience. The power imbalance is not if y’all. And that part of their dynami #Is actually very clear I think but some people didn’t catch it?? Or didn’t care??? Idk man

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ingo-ingoing-ingone · 1 year ago

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So for spooky season (my favorite season) I wanna write more Ghostmmet oneshots, or at least one or two other ones! I have several ideas lol

But I also wanna write a noncanon crossover with ABYS, where instead of being found in time in ABYS, Emmet dies and becomes a ghost and things get real crazy around the station for a while.

Would people be interested in that, or do y'all think it would be too much? I have. Several ideas, and I think it would be so fun to focus on the spooky horror aspect. Something something a violent end leads to a violent awakening, classic haunting shit, stuff like that. More info in the tags of this post :)

I'd say it would still come to the same conclusion as like. He Trusts You.

But I don't know! Tell me what you think, preferably in comments of this post instead of in separate asks :) Thank you guys preemptively for feedback!

#submas #submas angst #submas conjoined au #i wanna write ghosts sooooooo bad guys you have no idea #also yes emmet is still emmet #just. coming back into the world after experiencing the hell emmet did before he died is hard!#that's what i mean by 'violent'#not like 'hurts people' but like #'very powerful negative experience'#also maybe i just wanna make some lightbulbs explode ya know?#and yeah like. he's half a guy he's gonna look pretty scary #ALSO I FORGOT TO SAY IT WOULD BE SOMEWHAT VISCERAL BC LIKE. HE IS HALF A GUY HIS EVERYTHING IS OUT. THAT IS ALL #do i give away all my ideas before people can read them? maybe so #but idk i like input and warning people more than i like being secretive i guess!#i hope you still like what i make lmao #also this and the other ghostmmet fic are gonna have some similar positive interactions bc they make me go feral thank you goodnight

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yardsards · 9 months ago

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living in america is literally just like. yeah i could probably benefit from inpatient mental health services but honestly the resulting medical bills would just make me want to kill myself even more

#eliot posts #i'm not in active danger of hurting myself don't worry #just experiencing some Ideations #but i have a long mental list of reasons not to act on those ideations so i'm safe don't worry #ironically one of those reasons is ''i couldn't afford the medical bills for a failed attempt''#suicide mention #suicide tw #tw suicide #american healthcare my beloathed #dogshit private insurance my beloathed #also ironically one of the (multiple) contributing factors towards this fresh wave of ideations is a medical bill i got yesterday #it's nothing too ruinous but it is A LOT like would utterly wipe out my savings level #my parents said they can help me with it (as much as i hate accepting things from them)#and as soon as i mentioned it my very sweet cousin just. sent me the money it would take to cover it #with a ''yeah i trust you'll pay me back once you get a good job like looking at your major you'll be making a lot eventually''#and i've already requested an itemized bill as well as the paperwork for the hospital's financial assistance program #(tho idk how much assistance i'll actually be eligible for bc i'm still legally a dependent)#so hopefully i'll be able to get that bill cut way down #it's just eugh it's so stressful and i had a full on panic attack on the phone with my insurance company yesterday #and my brain's fav response to crushing stress is just ''well we wouldn't have to handle any of this if we Just Fucking Died! :)''

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smeraldo-heart · 3 months ago

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More Jedi Textposts

Except I go straight for angst this time and don’t even pretend to have some levity

Part two on its way….

#cal kestis #jedi fallen order #jedi survivor #jaro tapal #greez dritus #cere junda #the 13th battalion #saw gerrera #the iron battalion #trilla suduri #Darth Vader #if you ever get me started on the tragedy that is Cere and Cal’s miscommunication you will never get me to stop #it’s so SAD. when Cal sees her again she dies not that long after #don’t get me started on how Cal must have felt abandoned either.. just dont #HAIR SYMBOLISM!!! IT KILLS ME!!!#Cal chopped his beautiful locks off and with it the last remains of his innocence #and then he grows his hair longer again in the third game DO YOU GET ME??? HAIR LENGTH SYNONYMOUS WITH HEALING?!!#Cal getting through every traumatic day of his life with nothing but his sheer will and grit #the fourth one is entirely Cal. I don’t know where the quote is from but it’s HIM #the fifth one is NOT bashing Cere or Greez btw! just thinking about how Cal reacts to being hurt #maybe he is angry and upset for a bit but quite quickly he forgives them. it’s both a strength and something very upsetting #saw gerrera though. he knew this kid wanted to prove himself and he used that to his advantage #notice how he sent Cal on these dangerous missions and didn’t contact him ONCE. his entire crew died and nothing #this is not a Bode friendly place btw.#Cal has been afraid for his life since he was 12. do you think about that 🥰#even before then he was in a war #Trilla and Cal similarities and sibling dynamics kill me

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arolesbianism · 3 months ago

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Despite how much I suffered making my last isat au Aris sprite redraw, I decided to do it again and once again went through hell doing it. There’s like a billion mistakes in this (such as her having the wrong arm rip) but at the end of the day I’m still happy with how it turned out :]

#keese draws #oc #oc art #eternal gales #isat #in stars and time #sorry for main tagging feel free to excecute me if you want or whatever #grips sink cringe is dead cringe is dead cringe is dead #anyways this is a very fuzzy and vague au as I don’t rly feel comfortable going off too hard with this one #this is pretty much entirely because I know I’d have to fuck around with the worldbuilding a decent amount and I don’t rly wanna do that #Isat’s worldbuilding is one of my favorite parts of isat so I don’t wanna fuck it up yknow?#I might do some other sprite redraws once I stop thinking too hard abt aris and tali #for context tali is the king aka complicated design that makes me wanna cry especially since I made it worse by changing her imagery #instead of having tears as a thing she has like. fracturing if that makes sense?#it’s supposed to be a nod to her ‘cracked’ eye in canon #she also has threads coming from her limbs instead of long hair for similar reasons #also she doesn’t have straight hair so yknow #but yeah for additional context aris and tali are half sisters and they make me go insane #in this au the idea would be that when their grandparents divorced when the two were little tali and their grandma left the island #aris wouldn’t leave until five or so years later when she was around 12 #at which point the island disappeared and all that #the two have mostly completely forgotten about eachother but there still is familiarity between them #tali isn’t any less of a piece of shit than the king in this au tho #aris for a brief moment almost remembers who tali is during act 3 but she dies before she can fully grasp it #which almost hurts more to her despite not even knowing what she was trying to recall #during act 5 her inner sadness fight is against the hazy image of a very young tali 👍#just tiny 5 year old tali using the voices of the others to scream at aris that she’s been nothing but a burden to them all #and that she’s done nothing but hurt them in her selfish attempts to fix a problem that she refuses to admit she caused #and that time and time again she’s lied that she’s doing her best to protect them and that she’s failed all of them #it’s a mix of current guilt and her hazy but longstanding guilt towards tali

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choices-binglebonkus · 2 months ago

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Okay so I may be in the minority here…but I’m not a fan of characters dying and being definitively dead…then being resurrected. Death is a permanent and very final conclusion to a character and their arc, and having them brought back to life takes away from that impact.

ESPECIALLY when other dead characters don’t get resurrected.

#I love Eleanor’s romance in THoBM #but her resurrection was not it and I always choose to let her move on #because THAT is a good conclusion of her arc #and I don’t like criticizing fanworks #like I really really really REALLY do not like criticizing them #and I am so so so sorry if this hurts any feelings #but I did not like the MC/Noah resurrection arc in It Lives Within #as I said death is a very final end to a character and any arcs they have #and to this day the choice in chapter 15 of ILITW to determine who took Jane’s place was the hardest choice I ever had to make #I remember when that chapter first released that it took me probably fifteen minutes to decide #and it remains one of the most agonizing #heartbreaking #and impactful choices in the game #but having MC/Noah resurrected…just kind of undoes all of that #it feels especially wrong if the other members of the crew died #like why does this one person get to come back to life but others who were unfairly killed don’t? also applies to the waverleys btw #ILW and the ILW team did a great job #but the resurrection storyline lost me big time #Eleanor waverley #the haunting of Braidwood manor #choices stories you play #playchoices #choices stories we play #pixelberry #pixelberry studios #playchoices fandom #choices stories you play fandom #choices stories we play fandom

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mysteriousangstninja · 10 months ago

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So what I'm getting here is that What If season 2 Arc is just Steggy living up to the quote "I'd choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I'd find you and I'd choose you" .

Steve stays small? Peggy's shifted through time? In the 1600s? In a world where she's dead? In a world where she can't remember him? Steve's shifted through time? A world where Steve's dead? When he has to use power beyond anyone's imagination to move time and reality itself to find her?

Yeah. Any lifetime, any world, any reality, those two man.

Those two.

#Steggy #Peggy Carter #Steve Rogers #Captain Carter #Alternate quotes:#I would recognize you in total darkness were you mute and I deaf.#I would recognize you in another lifetime entirely #in different bodies #different times. And I would love you in all of this #until the very last star in the sky burnt out into oblivion #Don't get me started on taking up the other's armor to lead the battle once the other died #because both those assholes did it in one reality or another #and that just HURTS

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godblooded · 27 days ago

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the way i have no one to grieve with and it’s fucking killing me slowly.

#ooc. o kaptain.#[everything is so secretive and so private and I’m not supposed to tell people about xyz but also… doing this alone is agony? looking at #my aunt’s and my grandparents’ old jewelry sent me into a sobbing fit the entire time. I’ve inherited three generations of shit and I’m the #only one left with any memory or firsthand account of who these things belonged to. do you know how lonely it is to carry all the fucking #ghosts of your entire family. your mom your aunt your grandfather your grandmother. and it’s all you. and you have no one to share these #things with… because everyone who knew them is gone. but I’m also not SUPPOSED to share most of this for 10000 legal reasons (don’t worry #it’s not shit I can’t mention or something) and I just… can’t fucking do this alone. I just had a breakdown screaming in my house about #how bad I miss… everyone. but this whole process is just legal bullshit lawyer this protect this so my shithead father can’t get it since #he’s my ‘next of kin’ when in reality the only thing I’d like to leave him in my will is a fucking gps with directions set to a very long #walk off a very short pier. I just… my aunt just fucking died? everyone in my immediate family is gone??? when the fuck do I get to just… be #sad?? to grieve?? to fucking hurt??????]#negativity /

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transmasc-rose · 1 month ago

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You ever think about how Noctis FFXV was doomed from the start.

Like thats the POINT of the game obviously but I still keep going back to it. In most games, even if the protagonist dies at the end, its a defiance of fate. It's "I'll take you with me" or "I won't let you do this"

But in FFXV

Everything that happened with Noctis and Ardyn, both of their deaths, how they suffered, was preordained by the gods.

There are AU-type endings, like the one in Episode Ignis, or the one in the book, where things go better. And the book was the written version of what they were GOING to make the true ending. But they never made that into the game.

Noctis was born to die. He dies.

Ardyn was abandoned to die. He dies.

And that's just. It. Thats the ending. Thats where we land. Ardyn was doomed by god to take the role of sacrifice and antichrist, and Noctis was doomed before he was even born to the role of sacrifice and saviour and there's nothing to be done.

You don't fix it. You don't fight it. You just walk into your fate and die.

And there's just something so much more upsetting about that than in narratives where death is the defiance of fate. Like the story stares at you in the face, and tells you giving up is the right thing to do.

#not doctor who #rose rambles #sorry guys I remembered. my little guys.#have to ramble a bit.#you could very much fight me on whether the ending is akin to giving up #but you can't fight the fact that its a matter of duty and grim acceptance #its not happy. it doesn't even personally feel bittersweet #Ardyn dies and thats the best fate that the gods will let him have #Noctis dies and he would have died no matter what he did or who he fought #(they kill bahamut in the book to fix it but Ardyn still dies and they sort of abandon the chocobros for the love interest so I'm eh on it)#(and also again. Never made it into the game. You can hardly call it the true ending.)#All of the alternate endings Noctis lives but the only one you can play to the end #the only one without that dreamlike veneer #is the one where he dies. alone.#and the game isn't even GOOD it just hurts me forever #Ignis. Gives up his sight for Noctis. And still has to watch him go. Anyways.#ffxv

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nullians · 3 months ago

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It’s actually insane how fandom in general has become so scared of making weird and dark and ugly works. Like I look at myself and see how I have also subconsciously adapted this instinct to self censor and make things “marketable” and it’s making me want to crawl out of my skin. I need to get weirder and worse and more off-putting hello