#i want to rip off all my skin
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qhazomb · 8 months ago
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so in addition to the massive ringworm rashes on my lower legs, now some completely different mystery rashes are showing up here and there on me, too.
too bad i can't see a dermatologist without completely losing my health insurance 🙃🙃🙃
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heartsgettingwiser62 · 10 months ago
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So when are we as a fandom going to stop pretending that jonathan byers isn't one of the best written and most interesting characters in st
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lazycranberrydoodles · 1 year ago
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COME ON GUYS DON'T LET DIANXIA DOWN
#images i drew on my phone approximately 90 seconds before class started#tma vs tgcf is pitting two bad bitches against each other but#from the other guys propaganda he is apparently a beloved side character#which i totally understand.#BUT HUA CHENG IS THE DEUTERANTAGONIST WHO LOVED XIE LIAN SO MUCH IT UNDOOMED HIM FROM THE NARRATIVE#HE DIDNT CLAW HIS WAY OUT OF TONGLU TO BE BEATEN LIKE THIS#also tma has gay people that dont undoom each other from the narrative. L + ratio (/j/j/j/j we all love tragedies here)#hua cheng will never rest in peace and he doesn't want to because he has a smokin boyfriend#they are both angry goths but has gerry died THREE TIMES????? no. just once. lame.#gerry got his skin bound into a necromancy book that was eventually burned but hua cheng ripped out his eye to craft a sickass scimitar !!!#hua cheng haunts the narrative before he dies in a hundred tiny ways and then HEAVILY after he dies a second time#he's an awesome city owner and has violent beef with HEAVEN. and he carves statues and paints and builds temples#and is also a self conscious loser <3#his gay awakening was intensely traumatic and religious for everybody involved. and he's had the same life mission since he was 10#he is actively fighting ghost discrimination and getting dangerous magical items off of the normal human market#also he is always bedecked in elaborate silver and chains and eyeliner and ALWAYS in blood red clothes#HE CAN MAKE IT RAIN BLOOD!!???!?!? ALSO#he stick and poked his god's name on himself but his handwriting is so bad it's unrecognizable and the signs he puts up have evil auras#this has ceased to be propaganda. now im just gushing. only tgcf fans will see this anyway. whatever youre getting blorbo rant#tgcf#art#poll#hua cheng#lmao#my art#tian guan ci fu#hualian#xie lian#hob#heaven official's blessing
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prettyboykatsuki · 17 days ago
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Fang you are literally ruining my life. Being a friendly "older sister" figure in ness's life who inadvertently gets put into the position of "mother" for the two of them...
You're so sweet to Ness, so comfortably teasing and supportive... Something about Ness brings out the older sister in u and so u dote on him and take care of him and kaiser sees it all. Sees how it makes Ness improve, sees how it centers Ness in a way that kaiser can't, sees how it changes him in some imperceptible way that kaiser doesn't understand (that he tells himself he doesn't want to understand).
And because there is no Ness without kaiser, you take him on as well. You have bratty younger siblings too so u treat him as u would them. And it frustrates him more than a little. You don't take the bait. You just give him that knowing look like youve done all of this before, heard all of this before. And you tell him it's okay if he's feeling snappy. Does he want a drink? A snack? A nap?
You're more than happy to take care of him too if he'll let you.
And god help him, he wants to.
And god help him, he does.
It's minor at first. A warm smile and praise so buttery warm that he kind of wants to rip his own skin off, kind of wants to crawl into yours. A soft, almost absentminded pat on the head where he has to fight the urge to bite your hand (and he sees in your eyes that you know this and he sees in your eyes that the forgiveness is already there). A scarf, clumsy and handmade, that he rubs his face into until the smell of you fades.
And, as everything does, his feelings for you start twisting. His perception of you starts to shift just as his behavior does. He's not soft, not docile, but it's enough for you to notice. Enough for you to smile and praise and embrace him with your arms wide open.
He asks Ness point blank what he thinks of you. Blushing and nervous, Ness says that you're a friend. A really good friend. Kind of like a big sister, maybe?
And kaiser corrects him.
No, not like a big sister. More like a mom.
Kaiser hears the way ness' breath catches. Of course he does. There's excitement there. Embarrassment and shame too. That's fine, Kaiser can work with that.
Because Ness is sweet and docile. Ness and his big baby eyes and soft voice brings out the most nurturing warmth from you.
Which is why kaiser knows that this time, when he sends Ness to you with his quietly spoken platitudes and hopeful glances, you'll finally take the bait.
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hold on . hold on Hold on hold on Hold on . hold on
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dykedvonte · 27 days ago
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Do you think if Curly could still speak clearly, would he try to communicate with the crew/Anya/Jimmy? I know it's unlikely he would say something, realistically, he is in too much pain to talk and in no state to think clearly, but still
// Also, happy Halloween if you celebrate
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I actually have a bit of experience with burn pain! I was accidently boiled (scalded) as a child and remember some of the experience.
The pain was not so debilitating or mind numbing at first. It's like the initial contact is numb and then it's like horrible mainly because of the exposure it causes to nerves and such. I do remember that while it was hard to think, I could focus, mainly on wanting the pain to stop, who was around me and where my parents were. I clearly recall fighting in the ambulance because I was in pain and didn't want people to touch me. I was pretty freaked out and in a similar postion to Curly (i was doped the hell up and theres like a picture of me wrapped liked a mummy smiling super hard). Curly is clearly cognoscente enough to track people with his eyes, stifle himself after Jimmy starts abusing him and to start panicking when Jimmy brings out the knife at the table.
I think the issue is he likely can't talk. His jaw is likely broken or somewhat damaged and he has no lips which means it's gonna be inherently harder to form words and sentences. That all said, we know his vocal cords are relatively intack as he can scream and laugh and audibly cry. You can still make sound without intact vocal cords but they would sound inherently different than what Curly is doing in game.
If he could talk I think he would still be in so much shock and grief he'd just blame himself or be desperate for comfort. He blames himself and would be apologizing for letting the ship crash. I think through the way he talks about it would tip the others off that it wasn't him. He's likely repetitive and repeating things in a similar vein before he ran in to the cockpit: "I should've-"s and "If I only-"s but mainly also not wanting Jimmy around him or actively being quiet around him. I don't think his sentences are super coherent and he knows that but he's understandable. I think he'd try hard to answer questions but depending on whose asking him and how, it's all a matter if he can handle the stress.
I don't think his psyche is broken but the dude is probably having like PTSD flashes, dissociating harder than before the crash and so hopped up on pain killers his mood is shifting drastically.
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valiant-portabella-pirkko · 3 months ago
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Alright know what here's a little Guild Wars 2 reblog game for everybody; what mounts (if any) do your characters have in their canon, do they have names? Personalities? How'd they meet??
Spill it all below, tell me about all your creatures!!
#my posts#gw2#guild wars 2#thinking about this a lot lately since mine def do!#I'll start: Pirkko has branded mounts and while I haven't named most of them. they were all branded over by Aurene#because they'd been corrupted by Kralkatorrik and they wanted to see if Aurene's magic could purify them in some way#it usually didn't work but Pirkko keeps the ones they saved#Larimar is her skyscale. his egg was tainted by the Brand before he hatched so Aurene was barely able to save him#he's a chivalrous knight type and is known to be just as noble as the Commander who raised him. brave. bold. kind of a dork.#while the Commander is fighting he circles up above and swoops down to rescue injured soldiers from the front line#Saoirse meanwhile gets the SoTo skyscale egg and that hatches into Nightshade. he's fierce and protective too#but in a much more 'loyal guard dog' sort of way as opposed to trying to help everyone else as well. he's an axejaw!#in Regrowth Ceara gets Foxglove because the Commander and Gorrik could NOT manage this little troublemaker#she's too smart for her own good and is CONSTANTLY causing problems. so basically just like Ceara HDKDHDH#Foxglove's a lunarmane! and she's very fluffy and cute and will give you the big shiny eyes to mooch all your food. evil#Ruju meanwhile has a full cast of different mounts who all were troublemakers in different ways when he found them#his griffon Windshear's a northern featherwing that was notorious for carrying off travelers in Lornar's Pass. turned out she was just bore#she's very playful and mischievous and still grabs him on a regular basis. he absolutely hates this#his fulgurite ridgeback jackal Thunderclap was a rogue jackal that the djinn had him help recapture and tame#he's imbued with Ruju's air element magic and is known to make the air spark and smell of ozone when he's annoyed#then there's Blitz his lepidote brute skyscale! he likes bloodstone magic and kept nipping everyone until it was finally provided#the rest I don't have in-game yet but I DO have concepts for the skimmer/warclaw/raptor. the 1st 2 I know what skins I want too#the skimmer will be a frosty-dyed lithosol named Frostbite. it's an ice elemental that terrorized Frostgorge Sound#the warclaw is a spinetail nian with jungle colors since it's supposed to be a smokescale-type saurian critter#and the raptor is SUPPOSED to be the jungle raptor that plointt grew to huge size and promptly tried to eat him#BUT there isn't a skin that feels close enough yet so rip. Fang is a handful tho and keeps trying to chew on Inquest HDJDGDH#ANYWAY. that's all of mine. throws this into the wind
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marxandangels · 4 months ago
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I hate being jealous of the good things my friends have in their lives it makes me feel so gross but I’m so jealous I’m so jealous I’m so jealous
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clfixationstation · 9 months ago
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my problem is that my brain interprets this as "pretty girl"
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ft: small edit so others can see my vision
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dogsplayingpoker · 3 months ago
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someohow even after all this time it feels like people are still managing to come out of the woodwork day and night to reveal that they don't give half a shit about human life, justice, mercy, dignity, equality....kidnlt old men i follow on fucking youtube will unmask themselves as violent racists who want palestinian children dead. my family is either to cowardly and self-absorbed to be informed about anything or they're slobbering for an easy answer so they can go back to tuning things out and pretending everything is or ever was fine. even my mom wants to desperately cling to kamala being Somehow Different. even supposedly/historically left media is just trying to fucking manifest it. we promise she's different guys we promise based on nothing because we want her to be different and in that we're revealing that our best case scenario is for a liberal one step left of center will say genocide is bad and then go back to imperial business as usual and we can all go back to playing american econimic socialist because i guess all of our morals and everything we stood for was just play pretend the entire fucking time.
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angria · 2 days ago
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Yup, fucking canceled once again. Said he may be able to meet Weds for a shortened session. Whatever, not holding my breath.
Just incredibly pissed because he's threatening the hospital over SH. Since when is that an issue for inpatient??? I'm not actively suicidal and the ER would laugh in my face when there is such a bed shortage for people who actually need the hospital. I'm in survival mode at this point and if that means SH, then that's what I'll do. Fuck off.
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aroacesigma · 11 months ago
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Every time I talk to my sister I feel like I'm going fucking insane how is she so utterly convinced she's the victim when she treats people like this
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nightfuryblue19 · 18 days ago
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iM jusr expected to sit here and feel normal about mmusic
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kryscent · 24 days ago
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feel trapped
#I don't like her like that anymore#I can't like her like that#she asked if we could kiss once I said sure and found out I don't have feelings for her in the way she likes me#But she's not letting me end things 😭#Then she gets all sad#Cries#And the guilt I feel is so shit#Another thing is that I can't fucking handle physical touch and she won't understand#It's her main love language and it's not even in the top of mine#There are whole weeks where I cannot be touched without feeling burnt or like I'm going to throw up or like I want to rip the skin off#My flesh my bones#But she can't fucking understand why#I've explained everything to her and she just fucking forgets#Like the shit I go through is nothing#I do still give her hugs and shit but she's all like “are you mad at me” “do you hate me” when j physically can't touch her#I've explained it to her time and time again and she just fucking forgets#And even worse they all expect me to feel OK with touch again by the end of the day#That's not how it works#Like asking me 29 times a day “are u OK with touch can I hug you” and I have to deny them every time because i don't want to vomit on them#And it makes me feel like shit for denying them#They look all upset like I've denied them a basic aspect to friendship I'm sorry it sounds rude#But it's not a necessity#Especially if you can receive that kind of affection from other members of the friend group more regularly than me#There's so much more that makes the bile rise to my throat#But I just#Feel done#I don't want to talk to any of them anymore#Especially her#It suffocates me#And i can't be around people who make me feel trapped
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jaxieshauna · 1 month ago
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the best a boy can ever be is pretty
he launches ships on which he sails to safety
&& what i'm feeling isn't lust it's envy
he has the earth , makes love to her to spite me
i am held captive by the ribbon round my neck
each course i chart determined by a wreck
the power in my hips is useless in the dark
what good are red lips when you're faced with
something sharp ?
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thirstytrashblogger · 10 months ago
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Does anyone else just become a really jealous bitch when your hyper focus fictional lover of the week randomly gets a love interest?
Like Regina George screaming, All I Wanted by Paramore on repeat, ripping off my skin level rage while rapidly going through the five stages of grief. I'll be fine in a day but fuck, it should've been me, damn it!!!!!!!
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pink-lemonadefairy · 2 months ago
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the horrors persisting
#the horrors aka bone deep insecurity and being so tired of everything ever that it makes me sick#do you ever want to rip your skin off because you hate everything about yourself#the way you speak and look and act in public and talk to people and the way your brain works and your habits and just. everything#i can’t explain it i just hate being me so so so much nothing can ever change it#no matter what people tell me or what i tell myself it will never go away i just want to like#restart#or take my brain out and clean it and put it into a new body and start all over again#and uni just 💔💔💔💔 is so hard and being an adult is so hard and im never gonna get a job i think and the earth is ANGRY!! at us for destroyin#it and people are dying and being murdered and men are STILL awful and only getting worse and#women are supposed to be beautiful but why do i even have to be beautiful in the first place why#can’t i just be a person and nobody wants to make real friends and the sense of community is being lost nearly everywhereeee and groceries#are three thousand dollars and everything just sucks it sucks so so bad#and im sick of pretending im just whatever about it or that im okay or whatever like noooo im not happy im miserable ive been that way for#years im angry and upset 24/7 and im not the best person i could be by a long shot and im just not good#and im sorta tired of ppl acting like i am too like no im really not#im about to log off tumblr for good#maybe i just need to go outside#idk#♡ dear diary…
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