#all the flashbacks and nightmares

[angria]

Her has been hovering close for days as I head to my home-state tomorrow as well as the massive amount of attachment shit with T lately.

I'm so sick of these weird/bad dreams about her or hellhole, or some attachment shit connected to T. Feeling little, alone, afraid. The void pulsating and bleeding into all aspects of life. I try to challenge the thoughts and urges, but I’m so utterly exhausted.

Picture of her below....

Been looking through my her tag and phone album. I just don’t understand how people missed it? The fear, the pain, the sorrow in her eyes? Shying away from everyone, everything? But no, she was a good girl. Perfect, silent, invisible. Nothing.

I think this was from 5th grade. During the worst years. Just feel numb looking at her....

[cringefail-clown]

turnabout kids and their sprites! ive had an ask laying around in my inbox about them for far too long lmfao, so ive finally decided to draw em out

jane: mime porcelain doll + poppop

dirk: seagull + hal

roxy: wizard figurine + frigglish

jake: gcat + his dreamself

[mickeym4ndy]

I always think a lot of Mickey’s trauma that he buried pretty deep will hit him really really hard post canon.

He’s been in survival mode his whole life so he suppressed a lot of what happened to him just to get through life. He didn’t have the option of dealing with it.

Post canon, things will likely finally slow down for him - less money worries because they have their business, no threat of Terry coming after him, not doing many illegal things so less constant fear of getting caught for something and going back to jail.

So he’ll finally be able to relax a bit and, in his mind, start living and enjoying things in life.

But I think once life slows down, all the trauma from his childhood all the way to adulthood will hit him like a truck. Even things he hasn’t thought about in years will really start affecting him.

And I think he’d get frustrated with himself because he wouldn’t be able to understand why he’s doing so much worse when things are finally good.

But that’s actually why he’s doing so much worse. Because he doesn’t need to constantly prepared for something going wrong, so there’s space for other things in his mind, so everything he’s buried would come right to the surface.

I feel like he’d go through a pretty hard time before he can start to get better because he’ll have to face things he’s suppressed head on, because he won’t be able to bury them any more.

[winchester101]

How many times do you think Sanji’s looked at Luffy post wci and instead of seeing regular perfectly fine Luffy he sees a bloodied beaten Luffy

[alexandriaellisart]

So now i have migraines apparently 😭

[neoyorzapoteca]

playlist or no playlist I am losing my fucking mind, by the time I get my shit together and start feeling a tiny bit alright the sun starts going down and I am plunged into despair (and this is despite living in MEXICO)

[send-me-a-puffalope]

For the FNAF 2 movie, I wish they’d shift the main character to be Vanessa and have Mike be the side character cause it feels like we should be following Vanessa now because she’s so pivotal to the William story as opposed to Mike. Because by the end of the FNAF 1 movie, Mike and Abby both seem in a position where they’re kind of satisfied with where they are and have had their character arc, relationship repaired and situation stable and all that (especially in the movie novel since mike had a construction job by the scene in Vanessa’s hospital room). Their only loose end is Garrett, who Mike kind of accepts that he needs to let go and focus on Abby (and who is kind of avenged by his killer dying) and Jane. Who isn’t exactly the most important character.

Meanwhile, it feels like Vanessa has more backstory and character and motivation to explore than ever before. Especially because Mike doesn’t have the same motivations as in the games because he’s not related to William in any way so he has no reason to keep chasing him down but Vanessa does.

Like it feels that with Mike protag, the FNAF 2 movie is only gonna have him be there to follow Vanessa’s plot.

[deus-ex-mona]

2/2 for mv bamboozlement on the past 2 fridays btw. i’m looking forward to next week’s mv of subverted expectations

[twelve-nights]

man. sometimes i wish our amnesic barriers would just amnesic barrier. i like i can "give" our protectors my memories but i still partially remember them, but i don't feel them as strongly anymore. but they're still there and it bothers me

[violettierre]

Society has fallen down ever since Shio stopped making an appearance in chapters.

[r0semultiverse]

Some memes in light of The Amazing Digital Circus pilot dropping! 💜

🎪 If you use/reupload these anywhere please credit me! 🎪

[angria]

Some Gibson wisdom. The Call, Option 1 always slams into me. When I first heard them perform this poem during one of their virtual shows, I broke down into convulsing sobs.

Two weeks until I visit my home-state. Going back to that environment--the subtle, silent triggers, the nightmares, the flashbacks. The overwhelming, trapping sense of fear that robs my chest of its breath. Flinching at the slightest sound. Always anticipating he will come around the corner, finding me. All these years later.

I try to remind myself...I survived him. I survived that hell. I'm still here. And my voice is alive now.

[plusultraetc]

impulse posting a snippet from the next fic in the star wars au bc I'm so so thankful to have been able to write anything at all today (this fic already has a title, but it's alternate name is 'Yamada Hizashi's Terrible Horrible No Good Very Bad Star Wars AU')

[keepthetension]

still stuck on mhok's trauma, unsurprisingly. i keep thinking about the opening scenes of this show, showing us day losing his sight, and mhok losing rung. i really thought that the show would spend equal time and care on both

my first post about this show was pointing out that the first shot of day is a close up of his eyes, and the first time we see mhok, he's holding something in his mouth. and i thought it was so interesting that we see mhok gagged, because society generally doesn't care what people who've been incarcerated have to say. or poor people. and by and large, it doesn't care about the voices of traumatized people, either

and i was so curious to see what the show was going to do with that. i can't believe the show itself was never really interested in what mhok has to say

and i'm stuck on mhok's time in hawaii. the show highlighted over and over again how poor he is, and we know that he didn't like studying. what are his english skills like? we saw singha there, and i think one other thai person. was that the extent of his social circle? he seemed pretty happy to leave hawaii behind, so did he make no new friends? did he spend his days off just sitting in his room by himself, the way day did when he went to songkla with mhok?

i assume he and porjai were still in touch, but he moved abroad at a time when his ptsd was getting worse, and in the wake of a terrible breakup, and he just walked all of that off? alone???

feeling overly protective and over-responsible is absolutely an understandable trauma response for mhok, but you know what else is? losing a relationship, and feeling like you HAVE to go back and fix it, and that if you can just get a do-over, you'll be able to do everything perfectly this time, and you'll get everything right, and everything will be okay! this makes more sense to me in the final episode than the idea of mhok and day having a happily ever after does

[velvetjune]

i played the remastered alan wake a while back and am replaying the original on steam, and, honestly, they’re so similar, I couldn’t tell which is which if you held up comparisons. ive come across reviews about the game looking outdated and bad (mostly compared to other releases in that time), but the original looks great and I like the hazy dark lighting for both this and awan

[nekoprankster218]