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gffa · 1 day ago

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Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Do you take rec requests? If so, can I ask for your recs for Obi Wan centric fics where Obi Wan is just absolutely adored by everyone around him? Like people love him, think he's great, beautiful, talented, etc. you could also include fics where Anakin isn't one of his adoring fans but he comes around eventually. If you've ever read the Shoulder The Sky series by @kcrabb88 ? Where Anakin is kind of weird about Obi Wan in the beginning but he'd die for him at the end? Yeah like that.

Preferably no Obitine please, and also no order 66, if you would. They can be fix its or maybe they just don't get to order 66 in canon. Long and short is fine. I just want to read fic to justify my absolute rabidity over Obi Wan Kenobi.

Yknow if you're going to answer the ask? Might as well include every fic that you know that portrays Obi Wan very well. Whether everyone thinks so or not, I just want an excuse to fangirl over Obi Wan. Whether it's cute adorable initiate obi wan; smart skilled Padawan Kenobi, best master in the galaxy Kenobi, best general in the gar Kenobi, unfuckwithable Kenobi that everyone knows not to piss off, the Jedi's best member, whatever. Just fics of obi wan being great, whether people acknowledge it and love him, or acknowledge it and go still like prey animals when he looks at them

Hi! Oh, this is going to be a bit of a difficult set, mostly because avoiding Order 66 is a tough one, and I'm not sure how you are with various Obi-Wan pairings (which tend to have some good Obi-Wan fic), but I can at least start you out with a few recs sets I've done that have a lot of Obi-Wan fic and hopefully the Order 66 fic will be pretty avoidable.

My Star Wars fic recs tag (pretty much anything that mentions Obi-Wan in the subject will treat him well)

Obi-Wan Kenobi epic fic

Post-OBW's first two episodes-centric set

It's hard because some of my favorites:

Reprise by Elfpen (absolutely epic time travel fic that does the really good, hard work of showing us the timeline shifting and why it has to be done in baby steps)

Fire and Ice by Yesac (set in an AU where Order 66 happened, but Anakin won the fight and took both Obi-Wan and Padme hostage, and it's about the incredibly long road to recovery from there, which does have some love = attachment minor, minor notes, but has an Obi-Wan characterization that was fundamental to how I see the character)

Aren't necessarily about Order 66, but it does happen in both those fics, as something that's either being avoided or fixing the aftermath of them, and I'm not sure where you stand on such things, since you don't want Order 66. Same for

The Desert Storm by Blue_Sunshine (time travel AU where Order 66 happened in Ben's timeline, but not in the one the fic is set during)

Knightrise by deviantaccumulation (this one includes Order 66 happening on-screen, but it's an AU where more Jedi survive and they go into hiding together to rebuild)

where it's time travel to fix things, is that still over your line? Is it about the other characters that love Obi-Wan or the narrative of the story that loves Obi-Wan, because that would change a lot of the recs I make! Not that he's unloved in them, but Cataclasm by dendral is one of my favorites, but it has Obi-Wan off on his own a lot of the time, so the narrative loves him, but the people around him aren't in the room with him, etc. I also have a Jedi culture set of recs, which you can scroll through to find Obi-Wan mentioned in the summary, it's probably going to be about how much everyone loves him. But some good places to start for you would be:

ruth baulding's Lineage series and then her Legacy series. The first series is an epic length run of adventures when Obi-Wan was a padawan with Qui-Gon, and then the second series is his time teaching Anakin, with more adventures

Remedial Jedi Theology by MarbleGlove, a fantastic look at Jedi theology, philosophy, and interaction, with Obi-Wan in a prominent role.

Supreme Chancellor Obi-Wan Kenobi stonefreeak, which is crack treated seriously, very Jedi-positive, and while it's an ensemble piece overall, Obi-Wan is very much at the heart of the story and the focus will always come back to him. Just so much fun and very soft on the heart, this is a universe where everything goes right.

Tano and Kenobi by FireflyFish, which is a time travel fic where Ahsoka goes back into the past and becomes Padawan Obi-Wan's Master instead of Qui-Gon. The fic is kind of harsh on Qui-Gon, but if you love the disaster lineage or if you just want more Obi-Wan & Ahsoka, this fic will scratch the itch so good.

Unexpected Awakening (The Rewrite) Rhiw, another time travel fic where Order 66 did happen, but the fic is about Legends!Obi-Wan taking a different path from what happened in the first Jedi Apprentice book, instead of becoming Qui-Gon's Padawan the way he did in canon, he and Bruck go to Bandomeer and then get wrapped up in an epic story about Obi-Wan slowly changing the galaxy's course.

walk by faith/tell no one what you've seen by Killbothtwins, which is time travel with Obi-Wan after the end of the galactic civil war (the one against the Empire) going back to his 12 year old self and diverting the timeline, with a really great voice for Obi-Wan's character in this fic.

The Uses of a Sandwich by Laura Kaye (laurakaye) is a fun young Padawan Obi-Wan fic where he meets Qui-Gon's first apprentice and has a great sense of comedy.

Uncle Ben and Little Luke by phoenixyfriend which is de-aged!Luke and suddenly alive again!Obi-Wan and is just so much fun for a dynamic that doesn't get enough fic. (NEVER ENOUGH.)

Well Met by avocadomoon is one if you don't mind Obi-Wan/Padme fic, where they develop a friendship and later in life just slowly fall into a relationship, where it's about discussions and politics and philosophy and worldbuilding, it's such a subtle dynamic between them in a way that felt so natural to me. I also enjoyed the author's other fic Anamorphosis just as much, too.

#lumi.txt #star wars #obi wan kenobi #fic recs #star wars fic recs

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da-man-si · 3 days ago

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I agree with the people saying that both leads are horrible communicators and thus have their spoiled and cold relationship but, based on the first episode only, I put about 90% of the blame for that on Sa-eon. I obviously don't know the entire history between these two but what's clear so far is that— Sa-eon was supposed to marry Hee-joo's sister and maybe he liked her (or maybe not), Hee-joo used to admire Sa-eon (the intensity of the admiration being unknown for now), their families are in a typical political relationship where they scratch each-other's back, Sa-eon has developed some possessive feelings towards Hee-joo during their three year marriage which he is highly confused about and would rather punch his hand on the wall than admitting it and start treating her right. On the other hand, the three year marriage has Hee-joo feeling suffocated, depressed and unloved. I wouldn't have blamed Sa-eon for majority of it, if it had not been for that wedding scene and the term in the contract— "she must not show her face in the public". No matter how much Hee-joo admired him, all that is enough for her to not even want to look at him. Yes, she is at fault for not expressing her feelings but it's not like he would get it even if she does *cue that scene at the party when she signed to him and boy didn't get anything except that maybe she cursed at him*. Hee-joo's situation reminds me a lyric from So Long, London— "just how low did you think I'd go before I self-implode, before I have to go be free?"

To communicate is to sit on a seesaw and balance the weight so that both parties can have fun on it by having both the edges go up and down repeatedly. However, Sa-eon is sitting on one edge with his full weight and the seesaw isn't moving at all. It's only the first episode so my view will probably change with the revelation of more details.

Also, I do not mean I hate Sa-eon in anyway by saying that he is to be blamed for their bad relationship (this is not MDL so I don't need to clarify but just in case). In fact, his character is what I was hoping it to be lol. I'm loving both the main characters and am seated for them (especially Sa-eon) to catch up with their feelings and fall in a love spiral so much that they'd want to puke. I want the down-badism to be expressed and shoved down my throat.

#when the phone rings #kdrama #yoo yeon seok #chae soo bin #korean drama

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chimneyz · 2 days ago

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cannot stop thinking about how tommy abruptly left because he was terrified of being hurt again. how he was so in love with buck and how hard he fell, and probably wasn't even expecting to fall that hard that quickly. how he can't even understand how someone could care, admire, and love him. how he has probably been so deeply in love before only for his heart to be ripped in two. how much it devastated him that he doesn't think he can handle heartbreak again. how he left something so good and so promising because of his past and how much it probably hurt in the process. how is still thinks about buck and wants to reach out but decides not to. how self sabotaging he really is with out him even realizing. how much he put into his relationship with buck, how obvious it was on how much he cared for buck. how he was afraid of showing himself, all of himself to buck and if buck saw he thought buck would just leave. heo he thinks he is unlovable and doesn't know what it's like to be loved. how even when he walked away from buck he probably didn't realize that buck deeply cared for tommy and walking away actually hurt buck, and most likely the same kind of hurt tommy had years and years ago when someone walked away from him. i cannot stop thinking about what goes on in tommy's head.

#the tommy kinard brain worms are living inside my skull and will not leave #bucktommy #tommy kinard #evan buckley #911 #911 abc #eds screams

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mcflymemes · 10 hours ago

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PROMPTS FROM THE LOVE HYPOTHESIS * assorted dialogue from the book by ali hazelwood, some lines reworked to suit a roleplay format, adjust as necessary

carry yourself with the confidence of a mediocre white man.

i wish you could see yourself the way i see you.

i do reserve the right to comment on your abysmal taste in men.

maybe i am unloveable.

i'll annoy you all the time.

not having a life comes in handy sometimes.

there will only be one bed.

it doesn't matter what it says.

how many times have you done this?

i'd rather buy you anything else.

what you have now, it will have to be enough.

maybe you just pull out the best in me.

i am very happy to pay for however much sushi you want to eat.

to be fair, i don't like people in general.

you probably don't like ice cream anyway.

you just had to go and make me fall for you. you absolute ass.

my favorite color is green, after all.

you don't seem to remember that we first met years ago.

i'm going to kill you if you say another word about the woman i love.

you can fall in love. someone will catch you.

did you just kiss me?

i'll come find you, and i'll take care of you.

expiration dates are for the weak.

i like no one, absolutely no one, but i liked you from the start.

is there anything i can do for you?

is there something you need? name it?

if i have it, it's yours.

what does it really say?

this might be inappropriate but... you are extraordinary.

you've clearly never seen a rom-com or read a romance novel in your life.

i know it's scary, being vulnerable, but you can allow yourself to care.

what do i always tell you?

[name], are you okay?

you mean you've done this before?

i asked if i could kiss you, and you said yes.

i'm pretty sure i heard you say yes.

i'm so glad i finally scrounged up the courage to ask you out.

he was a prick.

how did you convince him?

we could never do that.

people who date, they... talk. a lot. more than just greetings in the hallway.

a good kiss will do that. it makes a girl forget herself for a while.

my heart may be broken, but my brain is doing just fine.

sounds like fun, no?

i am going to take care of this.

i've never been surer of anything.

that is going to have to be enough.

i think that somewhere along the way i forgot that i was something.

this is my life now.

maybe one day you'll even let me tell you.

don't tell them anything until we get you a lawyer.

what kind of question was that?

yes, i'm an insensitive ass.

it's hard to stick around without a good reason to do so.

i have a question. a specific research question.

i don't trust anyone else to do it.

we should go get our flu shots.

it will be fine, [name]. and it not, at least it will be over.

a heart will break even more easily than the weakest of hydrogen bonds.

i have access to your google calendar.

if you don't want to hang out with me, you can just be honest.

pay attention, sweetheart.

why do you keep saying that?

#rp meme #rp prompt #rp memes #roleplay memes #rp starters #mcflymemes #roleplay prompt #ask meme #ask memes #roleplay meme #roleplay inbox prompts #rp inbox meme #inbox prompt #inbox meme #sentence starter prompt #sentence starter #sentence starters

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callilouv · 2 years ago

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eugjghg........

#ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ idle chit chat #i love(?) belial sm #his whole character is so complex and i just!! wow.....#he blurs the lines of love and hate for me so so much #like.. i hate him so much that i kinda love him but at the same time its just not that simple?#hes just so fascinating to me hngjfng #no matter what i try to type out i cant seem to find the words to describe how i feel abt him😭#i want to love him and i CAN but hes just so........ unloveable......#the things id do to make him feel reciprocated love/devotion but at the same time hes just too deep into it that he'd self sabotage #and its not that simple either. there r so so so so many unsaid feelings and emotions when it comes to him #he is the literal emobdmiment of chaos #HE is a MESS #his mind is a mess. the way he thinks is a mess. his whole situation is a mess. quite literally everything about him is chaotic!!#craving chaos so much that chaos itself becomes a part of your very soul....#'Look into the abyss of his heart and what does one find? A feeling of insecure narcissism or is it altruistic benevolence?' THIS11)(!@*#you literally dont know what ur getting into when it comes to him . hes a surprise #hes just so untrustworthy and unpredictable that it messes with my mind #but its ok.... i still love him in a very complicate and complex way #sory i read a bunch of rlly good fics abt him and just wanted to ramble hngnfnjg #its 1am sobs and my mind is filled with him #i want to say SO SO SO SO SOOOO many more things but . but im at a loss for words tbh #i hate and love him so much at the same time

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stiffyck · 7 months ago

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Okay what if the winners got to meet previous versions of themselves through the life games.

Like grian meets no one. He didn't have any previous "versions".

Scott meets 3rd life Scott.

Pearl meets 3rd life and last life pearl.

Martyn meets 3rd life, last life and double life Martyn.

Scar meets 3rd life, last life, double life and lim life him-

This whole thing was an idea that I got just because I was thinking about ll and sl scar because they were both so lonely like wtf and I just though about a scene that would be so. Grips chair.

Ll: "We won?"

Sl: "Yeah"

Ll: "Did we have allies? Friends?"

Ll scar probably thinks sl scar won only because he had allies to support him. He knows what its like being lonely and he hopes no one has to go through that loneliness. And he wants to be optimistic for once that sl scar, future him, gets allies, gets friends.

He tries to hope and then he sees the look on sl scars face. Or maybe sl scar tries to lie- maybe he tries to say they had allies.

Ll scar sees right through him. He's him after all. Maybe he's always gonna he lonely anyway

#im being insane give me a momebt #also i forgot pearl wasnt jn 3rd life but its okay. she was in 3rd life to me <3 #ALSO? THE POTENTIAL OF 3RDLIFE SCAR? AND DOUBLE LIKE AND LIM LIFE SCAR?#3rd life scar is optimistic. he thinks its okay! grian is his ally in the fjture too right? he wins with grian?#no other scar wants to look him in the eye becayse they all remember the allyship they had with grian thay crumbled in ll #and that got completely destroyed in double life.#double life scar doesnt want to tell 3rd life scar and tell him grian doesnt care. he cant do that to himself.#tell his younger and more optimistic self that grian doesnt want them as his soulmates... that he would rather sneak off with skmeone else..#and lim life scar. he was excited for the future because he did have friends! he had allies jn lim life- but seeing sl scar?#seeing how they just go back to being alone again?#its soul crushing.#(inserting my aroace angst here: is he really that unlovable? is his lack of romantic love so unappealing?#does no one want him? does no one but himself love him?#does he himself even love him? can he? seeing how miserable they all are it feels hard and lonely #lim life scar probably wants to comfort them all- but isnt it sad that the only person to comfort him would be himself?#) okay im done being insane goodbye-#stiff talk #gtws

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pleasedontcareaboutme · 2 months ago

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It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him #I always knew he was a parental figure for me #but now I connected the dots #How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life #that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so #and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life #ofc ud become attached #i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him #he occupies most of my thoughts honestly #But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life #i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an #bloom and be free #and that's what ill try to do #but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness #its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired #somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea #how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi #g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if #lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways #sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay #yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le #go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk #how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate #my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t #me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol #so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest #y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t #ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti #ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd

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zeb-z · 1 year ago

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missa, after his self resentment and lamenting about how he doesn’t feel worthy or like he should be accepted, after telling himself and the capybaras that he doesn’t have a home, not really - after all is said and done, he returns to phil & missa, leaving his mini mi in the house on the wall. as if he’d consider anywhere other than the house he shared with phil safe enough. seeking out safety and home brought him right back where he started.

something about how despite his internal conflicts and issues about what he thinks he deserves, he’ll still come back. and for all he worries that he is not enough to be loved in return, his name is still on the warp stone.

#he’s got issues out the ass of his self worth and it’s like. yeah shit man you haven’t been reliable but you’re not unloveable #he wants to be better and he tries and he cares the issue is he holds the rest of his family on such a pedestal #this shame and guilt bubbles up and is only made worse when he isn’t rejected or hated like he’s expecting. he’s taken back with open arms #so he follows phil for guidance as to what’s acceptable. without phil there how can he know if it’s ok for him to stay in their home?#as if he didn’t also build their home yknow #but even when all is said and done he returns. even if it makes him feel guilty even if he thinks he doesn’t deserve it #because as much as he doesn’t want to be a bother he wants to be better most of all. wants to be present #I just don’t think he ever expects to be wanted to keep around. like he wants to prove himself and he’s expecting his loved ones to reject #any sort of redemption. meanwhile they don’t see the need for a redemption in the first place #shaking missa you wet cat of a man you dense self sabatoging silly silly man #stop your hero worship. own up and show up. and let your family love you because my god you are so loved #sorry tags got away from me it’s like 5 am and I’m like ahfhhrhfhshfhhs #mcyt #qsmp #q!missa #missasinfonia #z speaks

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marsbotz · 5 months ago

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my godddd sorry to sound literally fucking insane but thinking abt littollll gru and the minions makes me want to cryyyyy. HIS FAMILYYYYYYY

#mmeeee when im a lonely autistic kid w nobody who loves me and suddenly i have ne billion little thangs who wld die for me and think im epic #to literally just hang out and do fun things with foreverrrrrrrr #minions 1 and 2 credits KILLLLL ME bc 90% of it is just gru doing regular kid stuff. but w the minionsssss WAHHHHHH #like ohhhh my god. his classmates hate him his mum hates him the WORLDDD hates him. but the minions loveeee him. FUCK IT ALL #unrelated rlly i just didnt want to make another post cus i think ive said it before too #i rlly love the idea that he only goes by gru bc its all the minions can say. they cant say felonious LOLLL #cus idk. if i was named FELONIOUS i wld want to make it part of my villain brand #btw theres a lotttt to be said abt. how villains in dmu represent the freaks and the weirdos of society. the rejected and the unloved #why i have mixed feelings on avl gru. if only they were geniuses like me... sigh #also unrelated rlly but i love the theory that lucy might be related to herb and scarlet.#i dont think theres rlly anything behind it but it wld be fun for her motivation to join the avl #anywayyyyy ahhhhhh gru.... aaaahhhh gruuuuu #gonna rewatch rog 2morrow. and thennnnn omg... DM4 #welll ig i cld watch 4 tmroww.. but i have work and ill be tiredddd so ill go saturday. else its a rush w the buses etc #MMMMM. actually. hm.#yeah wahtever. saturdau is fine. i can waitttt.#and plus ill b able to get boba again afterrrr. my funny treat

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wowokmanchill · 21 days ago

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Park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me

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bright-and-burning · 8 days ago

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pms brain right before midnight when i got work tomorrow: what if we thought abt the time when u were 12 and ur dad got distracted w work and completely missed your band concert only to show up after it was all done. we should ruminate on this for hours

#like what am i supposed to do with this. it’s been ELEVEN YEARS.#yeah it’s a visceral memory it made me feel deeply deeply unloved and humiliated and it STILL DOES #and like i understand . what happened . and he did his absolute best to make it up to me and it never happened again #so like. what am i supposed to do. i’m not gonna fucking text him like hey remember when u completely shattered pre-teen me lol #WHICH IS WHAT PMS BRAIN WANTS. like all that’s gonna do is HURT HIM.#and it’s not gonna fix anything for me. like why would i do that.#anyways. one of those memories u can point to and go yeah lmfao that’s certainly a Key One.#love my dad more than just abt anyone in the world. which is why i am NOT going to ruin his sunday night #by reminding him of this. even tho i think it’s going to haunt me forever.#anybody got any quick tips for getting over this w/o hurting my dad lmfao. like do i have to rip this one open btwn us #or will it eventually stop randomly cropping up. please tell me it eventually stops randomly cropping up #if ur ever like wow eve is really weird abt like. people she loves/respecfs/looks up to + their attention. well boys.#have i got a root fucking cause for you!#can i just . turn into a fucking clam already. can the hospital network call me fucking back.

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kim-dokja-hate-blog · 2 years ago

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as time goes on, i understand more and more abt that time kim dokja randomly told all his friends that he wanted to live in a big house with them once the apocalypse was over. i think that was the first time he actually included himself in the dreams of their future, too convinced he’d die before getting there. he. yeah.

#this is why i can’t actually hate him yknow #bc although it’d be easier to read the novel if i did and i believe he put so many ppl through unimaginable pain he’s just. so human.#there’s something in him that longs for a world where he can just be with the people he loves #but he longs more for the people he loves to be happy #and he thinks he can’t be a part of that picture no matter what anyone says #and. idk.#i believed something like that for a while #that i wasn’t unloveable but a pain to love #that i wasn’t hated but i wasn’t liked #that i did good but only through the pain of myself #and in some sort of horrible way i can see parts of myself i don’t ever want to see in kim dokja #and. i want a house to live in with all my friends #and i want to be part of their future #i can’t even imagine myself there most of the time but by god do i want it #but. the parts of me that have to change in order to achieve that feel unchangeable #even when i know they aren’t true #orv #omniscient reader #kdj #kim dokja #orv novel #orv spoilers

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theheadlessgroom · 2 months ago

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@beatingheart-bride

"Oh, Philippe, you didn't have to do that!" Susannah smiled shyly, pale cheeks flushing an equally-pale pink as she took the plate from him, opting to carry it home herself. Flustered though she was that he went to such efforts for her, she was also incredibly grateful for it, and it took all of her willpower not to just dig in right then and there, instead bringing it home to enjoy.

In fact, the plate (which seemed filled to a brim when she uncovered it, a veritable feast still plenty warm from the oven) he'd given her seemed a bit paltry compared to what she'd made for him that morning, having gotten up early to make them specially for him.

"I...I made you blueberry muffins!" she proclaimed shyly as she presented the small plate of them to him with a little smile, grateful that he'd also have something to eat while she ravenously dug into the beautiful, bountiful meal he had provided her with (at any rate, it would make her feel a little less awkward, anyhow).

And dig in she did; almost as soon as she sat down, she had a fork and knife in hand and was trying her hardest not to look or sound like a hungry animal as she began to devour the flavorful chicken, potatoes, veggies, and roll (her compliments to the de Clair family chef!). She gave a hum of approval at the taste, and as she did, she hoped Philippe would enjoy the muffins too-it was a recipe her mother and father collaborated on before she was born, one she hadn't made in a long time, but was happy to bring out for him.

#((it's a very worthy gamble to take; if it means getting to be with the man she loves!))#((i defidently think that knowing philippe reciprocates will be a huge help in giving her that confidence boost))#((because it's true; by then she'll know in her heart that he feels just the same and that she won't be rejected!))#((and for someone who has felt the sting of rejection for so much of her life; who has felt unwanted and unloved))#((*knowing* that the man she's smitten with feels the same; that he wants her; that he loves her))#((that's going to be nothing short of monumental to her! she'll never know the pain of rejection again if philippe can help it!))#((again; it might be frightening to take that plunge at all; but knowing how he feels will be a big emotional cushion))#((for her to land on when it all comes out-and as we said; her just kissing him might be the way she goes about it!))#outofhatboxes #beatingheart-bride #V:Genderbent

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candyriku · 7 months ago

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finally getting a chance to work on chapter 15 today :-)

#shout out AS ALWAYS to people leaving comments!!!! you are keeping me motivated you are keeping the dream alive #for some behind the scenes: in the last few weeks i've been barely sleeping and it makes it very hard to write or even be in a good mood #i usually need 11+ hours to function and so like. 2-3 hours a night is putting me in a bad place both mentally and physically #and yes i realize 11 or more hours is like a silly amount of sleep but idk. it's just how i am. i go to bed early AND sleep in ahaha.#i've been falling behind in all my classes due to the sleep thing so writing for fun has totally been off the table lol #ANYWAYS #typing typing typing (this chapter will be a lighthearted one)#we all need some fluff and levity i think (and i need to give time for Riku to care for Sora even more and be like. wow. i love you)#I was struggling earlier bc i wanted to write both about how Sora has been hiding darkness from loved ones and needs to let them in #but also with the idea of sora feeling that he needs friends to have strength or value. and i kind of realized i needed to pick one #like maybe a better writer than me could have both of those things be addressed at once but for me i was like... I want Riku to comfort him #which goes against him learning that he's fine on his own. we can address that in a different fic. rn he is just sad and needs to know #that he can share that with the people around him. and that he's still loveable despite it all #also shout out to my gf for teaching me “love isn't something you deserve that's not what love is” like. i did not know that b4 her #so I asked her lots of questions for chapter 14 actually cause I was like. i want Riku to support Sora in the way you'd support me #cuz IDK SHIT ABOUT THAT i have always felt unworthy of love and like i had to beg people to stay with me until i got into this relationship #so i was like. judy. what is your wisdom. how do you care for me when i feel like my pain makes me unloveable. what would you say #So yeah shout out to her! I am off on a tangent now hehe sorry. thanks for reading if you read this at all!! have a good day :)#jtsys fic #updates

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bookshelfdreams · 1 year ago

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friendly reminder that

"I love everything about you."

#GOD #this obliterated me. hit me like a distracted driver in a semitrailer hits the end of a traffic jam #its perfect <3 #as beautiful as a well-executed 'i love you' can be it's also a bit generic #can be said to anyone; you can love people for any reason and without really knowing them #(in fact not really knowing them can b prerequisite to the sentiment lol)#you can love the idea or the concept of someone #& i'm not saying it's always or even usually like that; just pointing out that someone who is used to putting on a performance for others #wouldn't be likely to interpret it as anything than a general statement of affection that comes with some conditions. would he.#& anyway ed seems to have a casual relationship w the word love. 'i love you' doesn't have to b a big deal #this though. this is 'i KNOW you. your best your worst and everything inbetween #and i love all of it'#which is just so.#okay first of all the perfect way for stede to express that sentiment; of course he would say that #of course he who constantly tries to create for others the sort of environment he never had #constantly tries to supply the things no one ever gave him #(because he never wants anyone to feel like he did; lonely misunderstood unloved)#of course he would fucking say that #but also just. hhhhrrrrrrrrrgghgggggghhhhhhhhh. you know.#our flag means death #ofmd trailer

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wizardnuke · 2 years ago

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YALL EVER THINK ABOUT BEAU.I SURE DO.

#I'M GONNA THROW UP #idk if any of tmn can get the award of 'most emotionally repressed'#but beauregard 'refused to give her backstory until they were half a day from her dad's place and she was in tears' lionett #is really close to the top #all the time I think about how mundane her story is in comparison to the rest of them and how hurt she is #and how ride and die and loyal and loving she is in her awkward and unused to giving/receiving affection way #she wasn't loved as a child. she couldn't get any positive attention from her parents so she started acting out. she was sent away.#end of story. no archmages or demigods or archfey or demons or hags technically in that she never knew if that was a true story #from her pov she was just. unloved and never enough and the cobalt soul gave her fighting skills and independence and she ran with it #and tmn love her dearly. they make sure that she knows. do u ever think abt that.#also she's SO smart I think about it All The Time she's so so smart but she wasn't smart in the way her dad wanted her to be #she rarely ever brings up that she is just. CRAZY intelligent she gives caleb a run for his money- tho they have different skillsets in #that area too. I think abt her lucien rant all the fucking time. marisha's brilliant it's insane that she pulled all that together #and it's insane that she could translate that over to beau like that. like yeah beau's really Like That. she figured it all out. she's so #ever think about how molly's death absolutely changed her as a person. she knew him for like three months max and she got so so attached #understandably so. she loved him so much. they fought all the fucking time. he gave as good as he got.. for the first time someone was #listening to her even as they didn't agree. newsflash miss regard there r people who can and will take you seriously.

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