#i wanna commit a deletion

[cursed-spectre]

To whoever it was who decided that the S24+ does not give you notifications while the phone is off or in standby mode, I just wanna talk. I Just Wanna Talk. I JUST WANNA TALK!

Seriously, I'll bump my hand into my phone and suddenly be blasted with all the tumblr notifications I was supposed to get from the last hour and a half. WHO'S IDEA WAS THIS?

[andr0nap-wf]

does a backflip and breaks every bone in my body

[harpercireth]

Please lord take away Chappell Roan's pain and give it to Melanie Martinez instead

[futuretherapoo]

I don't like it when I tell people I read and they goes "OMG LIKE (random bookstagram book)???" And I'm like "uhh no, more like... shakespeare and Poe ?" And they're like "um who's that" or "ew who still reads that shit"

[wereh0gz]

Wish I could look through cohost without making an account first

[acerathia]

commitment issues as in i delete posts whenever

[coridallasmultipass]

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[fujunfuren]

ooohh 5 more to my next follower milestonee!

[justcreatingthings]

I can’t make new post on the app rn?? WHAT IN THE WORLD??? It’s not letting me on my phone, but I can do it on my computer?! Is this cause I use an iPhone 7 and can’t update to the newest version of Tumblr?!?!

I HAD TO EDIT AN OLD DRAFT JUST TO POST THIS CAUSE I CAN’T GET ON MY COMPUTER RN!!!!

[acornered]

Just had to block a longtime mutual because they kept reblogging shit about not voting and the dems losing the election and how it would serve them right etc, and I'm having fucking panic attacks because how do you not understand that Trump winning isn't the own you think it is?? If you put this inflammatory shit on my dash before the election and we get four more years of trump I'm not your fucking friend anymore!!! I can't do it!!!

[woovalin]

i’m in such disbelief right now and beyond disgusted.

i really hope y’all are choosing your morals over kpop; because we do not know these men at all. i will never side with or defend a predator and a criminal, even with little to no proof. even if there is the smallest chance he may be innocent, i will always believe the victim first.

some of you, as fans of the boys for years and him in general, i know you must be feeling disappointed and betrayed. you’re not dumb for previously supporting him, as we couldn’t have possibly known. but now is the time for a reality check and it’s time to wake up and take a step back. this just goes to show that we know absolutely nothing about them.

for sm to just outright put out a statement on their own before any rumors even surfaced and immediately kick him out? this has to be insanely serious and i’m terrified of what he could’ve done. the crazy thing is with everything currently happening in korea with the telegram situation, and korean women constantly being in danger in general because of the men there, i’m not at all surprised that celebrities are being exposed. sm has protected criminals before, and held onto lucas when his scandal came out as well as other artists who have been exposed for similar crimes. i can’t even imagine the severity of the current situation. we’ve seen what happened with the burning sun, and these men are not immune to being misogynistic, vile human beings.

members have already unfollowed him and deleted posts with him in them; his best friend of 17yrs has unfollowed him. the company taking the initiative and him getting kicked out of the group in less than a second before anything even came out, no denying the claims or even trying to defend him. that should be enough to tell you and understand how serious this actually is. i am beyond disgusted with him and this whole situation.

i sincerely hope the victim is doing okay and praying for them to heal and get the justice they deserve. and remember that your love for these celebrities should always be conditional, because we do not know them. it’s their job to put on a show and show you their public persona, but behind closed doors? we don’t know what they’re actually like. we put them on a pedestal and yet we don’t know what they’re really capable of. they are still men after all. i hope the police are taking this seriously. there needs to be consequences and these women need to be protected.

let this be a lesson to all of us. they don’t know us, and we don’t know them, not really, not at all.

ALWAYS choose morals over these strangers you idolize. and as women, we should be standing with the victims.

maybe not all men, but enough of them. and maybe not all men, but somehow always a man. and going forward, i will continue to support nct as a whole with the remaining members. however, keeping the situation in mind, i will be supporting from afar for a little while. if the situation escalates and other members are investigated and new information comes to light about the rest of them either knowing or possibly being involved, it would be best to step away for good. i will do my best to stay updated. but i do hope the rest of the members are doing okay, and hopefully no other members were involved; but this, just shows that they can always surprise us. you never think it’ll be your fave, until it is.

let’s hope this causes a domino effect and more of these people are exposed and charged for the crimes they’re committing.

sending love to anyone who has ever experienced sexual violence or has been targeted and been in a similar situation. it is not your fault and it never was!

love you all and my dms are always open if you need to vent. <3

❗️EDIT: also i wanna add that we need to not praise the rest of the members or any other celebrity for simply unfollowing him on social media. that is the least of anyone’s worries.

we don’t know if they were aware, we don’t know if they knew and were protecting him or turning a blind eye. it could be them trying to save themselves and clear their guilty conscience. maybe they didn’t know and are just as shocked as we are, we don’t know that either.

we blindly trust these people and believe they have good intentions but look at where that can lead to. fans being upset is valid, yes; but remember people with money and power will do whatever it takes to sweep things under the rug and make it go away in order to save face and keep their image and reputation.

follow-up post here.

[yumenosakiacademy]

Park. A bit out of order bc I can't remember things in order but I tried 2 write down anything of importance.

There was a group of what I'm assuming were stoners (at times, I smelled weed, n it was likely from them) in 2 cars near the park n eventually thye were chasing each other 2 the playground in front of the court I'm walking n the girl was like "hey there's some1 playing basketball :o" (me. Walking, not playing ball) n her n 2-3 guys (all of them I'm assuming early college age?? Not old but didn't seem high school age?) tried calling out 2 me n when I didn't respond, they came on2 the court n started getting close 2 mr n following me n kept calling me shawty n telling me 2 speak cuz I wasn't talking n I on instinct from my having-nails days, flexed my hand at my side in2 a grip motion n they were like whoaa she's gonna get us! n they kept following me around the court n telling me 2 speak n 1 of em eventually said, when they went off 2 the side of the court, tht they were here on the court 2 go pee (in the grass behind the court), but they were scared tht "this bitch is gonna get me" n 1 of the guys at 1 point was like "obviously she's an non playable chara an npc". then they started following me around n shining their phone flashlights on me n telling me 2 say smth n acting like they were there 4 an interview or smth? 1 of em said they were gonna beat or fight me or smth. They also kept trying 2 block me off by walking in front of me n stuff n eventually ut got 2 the point where they were starting 2 get rly close 2 me n stuff. They asked if there was smth where I couldn't speak. I was also called a nightwalker. The whole "getting in front of me thing eventually got 2 the point where they were surrounding me on 1 wide n I legitimately had 2 stop/rly slow down 2 try n find a way around the guy. The girl, at 1 point, got 2 close 2 my side n my foot hit hrrs n I wasn't gonna say anything 2 keep up my whole not-talking shtick but I quietly said "sorry" n the girl was like "?? she Apologized/said sry" n 1 of the guys was like "no way; she broke character [for this (?)]" but I didn't sat anything after tht n continued on. Eventually 1 of the guys told the others tht this was Bullying n they all kinda apologized but w 1 of the guys saying tht my ball playing still sucks tho n my shoots r bad, despite the fact I never played basketball?? Idk. Likely jus smth dumb he was saying whilst high. Also at 1 point 1 of thr guys said I was jus gettin my steps in n after the phone light thingy 1 of them said tht I was calling the police (I was on my phone the whole time but only idly scrolling down stuff lol tho I almost pulled up my phone dialer jic as a backup) n the girl was like Oh Shit Rly but none of them stopped regardless :I

[dice-wizard]

Okay writers listen up

I'm gonna tell you about how I wrangled my shitbird brain into being a terrifying word-churning engine and have written over 170K words in under a year.

I wanna be clear that before unlocking this Secret Technique I was a victim of my unmedicated ADHD, able to start but never finish, able to ideate but not commit and I truly and firmly believed that I'd never write a novel and such a thing was simply outside of my reach.

Now I write (and read!!) every day. Every. Single. Day. Like some kind of scriptorial One Punch Man.

Step the First

Remove friction between yourself and writing.

I personally figured out how to comfortably write on my phone which meant I didn't have to struggle with the insurmountable task of opening my laptop.

I don't care if this means you write in a Discord server you set up for yourself, but fucking do it. Literally whatever makes you write!

(if you do write somewhere that isn't a word processor PLEASE back your work up regularly!)

Step the Second

Make that shit a habit. Write every day.

For me, I allow myself the grace that ANY progress on writing counts. One sentence? Legal. Five thousand furious hyperfixated words? Also legal.

Every day, make progress. Any progress.

I deleted Twitter from my phone and did my best to replace doomscrolling with writing. If I caught myself idly scrolling I'd close whatever I was looking at and open my draft and write one (1) sentence until I made THAT a habit, too.

Step Two-point-Five

DO NOT REWRITE. If you are creating a first draft, don't back up or restart. Continous forward motion. Second drafts and editors exist. Firsts are for ripping the fucking thing out of your brain.

If you're working on revisions after an editor or beta readers or whoever has given you feedback, then you can rewrite that's OK (and it counts as your writing for the day!)

Step the Third

Now that you've found a comfortable way to write and are doing it every day, don't stop. Keep doing it. Remember, just one sentence is all you need. You can always do more, but if one lousy sentence is all you can manage then you're still successfully writing.

Remember: this is what worked for me. Try things until you find what works for you.

You can do it. I believe in you.

[quixlebug]

trying out a new username, dw about it

[sosasturns]

matt sturniolo WE’RE SO DONE

…IN WHICH READER IS FED UP W/ TOXIC!MATT, BLURB ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ just makin @throatgoat4u’s dreams come true (prompt)

your mother always told you don’t trust these men. that they’d smile in your face, make you feel like the only girl in the world, and still be entertaining somebody else behind your back. she told you to keep your heart guarded, to never be too available, to let a man prove himself before you gave too much.

and you should’ve listened.

now look at you. sitting on the edge of your bed, staring at your phone, at the text messages that keep rolling in. matt’s name lights up your screen like a ghost you can’t shake, the vibrations a constant reminder of everything you’re trying to walk away from.

Where U at? Delivered.

you don’t answer.

Why r U not picking up??? Delivered.

you let the text sit. just like you let everything else sit—the late replies, the half-assed explanations, the way he always left you guessing. left you feeling like you were standing on shaky ground, waiting for him to decide what the fuck this was between you two.

We need to talk Delivered.

you laugh under your breath. talk about what? about how he swore up and down that you were the only one he wanted, but couldn’t say what that meant? about how he had one foot in and one foot out, like he was scared to commit but even more scared to lose you?

you used to fall for this. the endless cycle. the fights, the distance, the making up. the way he’d pull you back in every single time, sweet talking his way back into your good graces, back into your bed, back into your life.

but not this time.

this time, you’re done.

you slide to his contact, hover over the block button. you hesitate for only a second—muscle memory, old habits—but then you do it.

you block him.

Unblock this caller.

a weight lifts from your chest. for the first time in a long time, you breathe. no more waiting for him to act right. no more settling for half of what you deserve.

matt realizes a little too late.

when the calls stop going through, when the messages don’t deliver, when he shows up at your place only to find the locks changed and your car gone. that’s when he starts spiraling, when he starts panicking. because this ain’t how it usually goes.

usually, after a fight, you come back. after a few days, after he texts the right things, after he shows up just enough to make you think maybe this time will be different. usually, you cave.

but you ain’t caving this time.

he calls from his friend’s phone. you hang up. he dms you. you delete it. he texts from a random number.

Baby just talk to me Seen

you don’t even flinch.

i’m cool on you. that’s what you send back, before blocking that number too.

Unblock This Caller.

he’s saying all the right things now.

I miss U

I wanna be with U

I ain’t think i was ready cause I was scared

I just want U in my life

i’m done w these other females Delivered

I’m Sorry Message Not Delivered. Try Again

but not once does he say i’m sorry. he never did.

and that’s how you know you made the right decision.

so you put your phone on do not disturb. close your eyes. and for the first time in a long time, you don’t lose sleep over him.

© SOSASTURNS

TAGLIST: @submattenthusiast @sophand4n4 @secretlocket @mrsdillonx @ch6rm @sweetrelieef @gabri3la-sturns @inspiredangel @sturn777 @et6rnalsun @faiyaz555 @whore4mattsturniolo @courta13 @katie-tibo @ifwdominicfike @raesturns @adoremattsturns @conspiracy-ash @cheriiboo @mattsleftball @applecidersturniolo @chrepsi @grace-sturnz @emely9274 @almloe @yourmother29

[mattyriddlesbitch]

I’m unsure if u still do headcanon Sundays but if not, feel free to delete this request. I just saw headcanons for experienced!Mattheo x inexperienced!fem!reader, but I raise you headcanons where the reader is experienced and Mattheo is inexperienced.

I am so sorry this took so long to write. I have had so much shit happening the past month and I kept forgetting about this. I gotchu now tho.

Okay, I wholeheartedly believe that he would act so cocky and like he doesn't need help, but the second he's got you naked, he's so lost. Where does he touch you? Where shouldn't he touch you? How should he touch you?

He's coming in all cocky and kissing you, starting out with a heated make out session. He's made out before, so this wasn't too bad. Pretty easy. He knows how to touch you like this. Grabbing your hair, groping your breasts and thighs and everywhere. But that was always when you were dressed.

Now that you were naked in front of him, lying all pretty on his bed, he's staring, clutching at your panties he just took off like he was frozen. You giggling finally brings him out of his daze and he's blushing so hard.

He's so nervous, you make him lay down and blow him to get him to relax more and just get into it.

This man is so horny and worked up, he nearly came in like a minute and has to push you off because he will NOT cum without fucking you first.

Will not let you get on top either. He's already embarrassed, he wants to leave with some shred of dignity. As soon as he's fully buried in you, he has to stop to collect himself. Once you get adjusted to him, you tell him he can move and he's shaking his head, just like "I'm gonna cum if I do that, hold on."

He finally moves and he's going so slow so he doesn't cum and also because your moans are like heaven and he's trying to commit everything to memory, the feel of you around him, the sounds you make, yeah, that's going in his spank bank.

You know he's barely holding on by a thread, but you know he wants to make you cum. You have to tell him it's okay and reassure him that he can cum. And the second those words leave your mouth, he's cumming. He'll lay beside you afterwards and ask how he did. Asks how he can make you cum.

Actually so desperate to make you cum, even if he can't go again that he'll let you guide him in fingering you, eating you out, or even using a toy, whatever helps you cum. He wants to learn how.

After he gets you to cum, he's cuddling you, asking for reassurance he did good. He's not letting you go either, keeping you in his arms as long as he can.

Taglist:

@jeannie-beannie @yourenogoodforme @mixvchelle @helendeath @evaslytherpuff

@soaked4abby @hpnsfwaddict @mayamonroem @brittney-121 @leovaldezsbitch

@dracoslovergirl @littlemadamred @mattheoriddlesbitch @acornacreacure @opheliamalfoy236

@demieyesore @akira1246 @queenshu @prettypinkprincess15 @starryslytherin0

@jolly4holly @st0n3dbarbi3

Let me know if you wanna be added!

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