#i swear i know them better than oda

[beanghostprincess]

He's sending kisses to both Usopp and Nami!! 🧡💛💙

[dentalhoney]

Saw a TikTok post that was basically a rant about how the BSD fandom is about not viewing all parts of a character. But, within that post were the statements about Oda that included:

"We only see Oda from Dazai's POV so of course he seems a lot better than he probably was. Like he was in the PM, so he had to do something to get in."

"Like what was Oda even like BEFORE Dazai?"

... Chief. Homie. Fella. My dears.

Dark Era is NOT told from Dazai's point of view. It is told by Oda. It is literally his POV in the novel and HIS narration in the anime. What the actual fuck are you talking about that we only get Oda from Dazai's POV???

As for "What was Oda even like before Dazai" ... we LITERALLY ALSO KNOW THIS. Why are you wording this as if FUCKING DAZAI was the reason that Oda became a better person??? Why are you talking as if DARK ERA DAZAI was a good person? ( He isn't even a good person now, chief. )

Oda was lowest of the bracket in the Mafia *for a reason.*

Oda's choice to put away the lifestyle he had before this came BEFORE he knew Dazai.

God, I'm gonna go drink my sorrows.

[kacievvbbbb]

I’m not someone that particularly cares about a ship being canon or not, in fact I would rather the media I consume have no romance at all (giving my blog confusing yes I know)

But there is something about the canon ties between Shanks and Mihawk that drives me feral with need to see what their whole deal is.

Because like there are so many little inconsequential details that when taking separately seem pathetic and weak. But then put together it feels like it paints the picture of a larger undeniable connection and understanding between two wildly different men.

The fact that their main color is both red (Mihawk’s is a more wine dark red than Shanks’ bright red and a little more “subtle” given that Shanks is literally called red hair) but even then their main symbols, their identifying features, are red! Mihawk’s eyes and Shanks hair (yes while I love the gold and think that’s better I cannot ignore the fact that Oda consistently colors in Mihawk’s eyes red even though the gold is infinitely more popular)

They have the same birthday, are practically the same height, both with the promises to our two main protagonists to meet them at the top with a parting “gift”, both serve as a mentor to the protagonist (mihawk literally thought zoro how to kill him 😭), both with the bird(ish) iconography.

The fact that Mihawk, Mihawk! A man whose introduction was that he didn’t care much about anything and caused destruction on a whim, cares enough about what Shanks thinks to mentally apologize before trying to kill luffy (what the fuck).

The fact that whitebeard felt the need to reference his duel with Mihawk in his conversation with Shanks, despite not really being very relevant to the conversation and the fact that this is the first we’ve seen shanks in years and it is brought up in the same context as his relationship with Buggy (an already established relationship) reveals his relationship to Roger seems to point to the fact that this duel between Mihawk and Shanks is an important relationship to shanks. It couldn’t just be to show strength because he was about to clash with whitebeard the strongest man. It’s also hard to notice that those two relationships didn’t end particularly well for shanks.

Also the fact that it was Mihawk out of every character , Mihawk that brought luffy’s bounty to Shanks. Something he obviously knew would mean a lot to him. I used to think the scene was just there to show us how big a deal Shanks actually is like look at that fun childish alcoholic gang inspired our main hero? He’s actually a super big deal and he used to spar with the strongest character by far we had seen at that point (it wasn’t even close) and they fought on equal footing. It added a new layer of mystery to Shanks.

But it’s also the fact that even now with Mihawk’s bounty Shanks was mentioned and he’s the only one who this was mentioned for. Crocodile is just for his df and intelligence and they don’t mention that he literally tried and almost succeeded in subjugating a country and he was beat by luffy “or smoker given how many marines actually know the truth” even buggy who was literally Shanks’ sworn brother under the pirate king doesn’t get a mention like that. But Shanks and this duel is so integral to Mihawk’s character that it’s mentioned along with the only other long lasting fact we know about him and that is that he is the World’s Strongest Swordsman. Isn’t that fucking insane.

And like I feel insane scrapping all these details together as proof of something because they are all (besides the duel) the barest bones of a connection but god it is actually driving me insane.

And I’m not saying Mishanks is going to become canon or that it should or that I even particularly want it too. What I do want is to see how deeply these two are connected. What are these red strings of fate tying them to each other. Why can’t apparently ten years of little contact sever it? I swear to god if it’s actually nothing much I will lose my fucking mind. If nothing ever comes of all of this I will actually go insane. How can some people look at this and not see foreshadowing!?!?!!

[cocktailjjrs]

So......

Since I've been suffering with these angsty thoughts... i though i would invite you all suffer with me...

It's about Chuuya...

I was doing some research for my fic (mainly going through bsd novels, blogs, tags and all) and came across this one Insta post in passing (sorry, i don't remember the name).

It was about BSD's cycles.

First, cycle of abuse, going from Mori-Dazai-Aku-Kyouka

and Second of rescue, going from Natsume-Oda-Dazai-Atsushi-Kyouka.

And then they highlighted a third category, the one's who are not saved - including Chuuya, Aku and Q.

At that point i didn't think much about it, just another post while scrolling Insta.

But now it's keeps bothering me, a constant reminder, whenever i read something BSD.

And It's so heart wrenching.

It also hit me, Q and Aku can still be saved.

Q, while we don't exactly know where they are right now, there is a chance of them getting their own arc, backstory and then being saved.

Aku, while still in Mafia, his partnership with Atsushi is his saving grace already. He is making an effort to not kill, just for their deal/bet. By the end of it all, he will be in a better place than he is now.

But Chuuya. (Spoiler's for light novel's if you haven't read them)

I remember very clearly, when in Stormbringer (don't ask me why i remember this byheart), when Murase dies Chuuya says, "Hey Detective, Weren’t you gonna arrest me?! Weren’t you gonna bring me into the world of light"

Don't get me wrong, I still believe Chuuya belongs to Port Mafia, the darkness suits him better than light.

But that does not mean he never wanted to get out of that darkness. This one instance in SB was proof enough. Makes me wonder, if things had gone even slightly differently, would he be in a better place than he is now? Is there still a chance?

What's even more tragic is that after the whole SB thing, no one seemed stick around enough to help him fight his own demons.

And he definitely has MASSIVE DEMONS.

His whole life seems to be one catastrophe after another! Don't believe me?

His first group, whom he called friends, betrayed him. Classic stabbed by poisonous knife in the back.

Hardly a year later, his second friends group, Flags, was killed by an emotionally unstable man-child seeking validation, insisting on calling him brother.

He went through a horrid ordeal, having to learn he was a lab experiment, seeing your clone vaporise to nothing but bones in your own arms, having to fight those same bones. And as if this was not enough, then fighting the monstrosity of a singularity and in process loosing the only chance to determine your humanity. (Actually whole of SB is dreadful, i don't think it'll ever get worse than that - i really hope it doesn't)

Then, given by the timeline, another year later, his third group of friends was killed by Shibusawa.

And again a year later - his partner, who brought him in all this madness, just fucking leaves without a word. This is the least tragic thing that has happened to the boy, i swear.

And I'm sure it didn't end there.

There must have been so many things going on behind the scenes in those missing years, hell even after the series began, Chuuya has been out of scene because something or the other was going on.

Now you have Fyodor fucking shit up for no apparent reason. With this shitshow, many mafia men, some of whom Chuuya might have developed a relation, are definitely dead. Not to mention the mental gymnastics going to trying to at least be on the same fucking chapter as the two geniuses.

AND ALL OF THIS IS JUST IN THE CURRENT TIMELINE. Don't get me started on BEAST VERSE!!! (That's a can of worms I'm really not ready to open at this point)

The thing with Mentally strong individuals is, they have abnormally high emotional intelligence, they are unnaturally resilient, they can compartmentalize their grief, they empathise with great deal of people, think rationally at any given point and think of ways to make things better.

What many people fail to understand is that no one is born Mentally strong, it's the circumstances that make them as such.

It can happen even through small things.

No one being there for you to express your deepest fears. No one just listening to you, even if they have a solution to your problem. Or having seen other's nightmares come to reality and feeling your own are much smaller, or having made to fell that way.

It creates the mentality of never sharing your fears, your insecurities, your discomfort - because at the back of the mind you keep telling yourself - oh, this person has gone through so much more than i have, my fear is nothing compared to it. I can handle it on my own, they have their own problems to handle. Everyone is busy, i don't think they have time to listen to the same problem I've been facing for years now. I've manages so far, i think I can manager just fine.

You start to undervalue your own feelings and start to fell like you'll burden them. Start to feel like you NEED to handle it on your own.

Now, i don't want to go into a spiral of mental health, but when you look at Chuuya, you can't help but marvel at that kids Mental resolution.

His first action after being stabbed in back was to make a deal with a demon to make sure he doesn't harm them, because they are just kids.

His first reaction to being provoked into revenge was to say Fuck off to his manipulator, not falling for the temptation and doing what he felt right.

He even forgave the killer of his friends (And also the one who tried to kill him) for gods sake! Understanding what he was going through.

He even walked away after knowing his parents are alive (oh the irony) not wanting to put a target on them. (I'm actually on fence with this, the chances of it being a manipulation tactic from Mori is just as high as it being the truth)

He had tremendous mental fortitude.

But you still see the cracks in his emotional state,

He was desperate to know if he was human or not, inclining towards the later.

He didn't know, that your friends can do some nice things without expecting anything in return. They can go above and beyond your regular stuff just because they are your friends, there doesn't need to be of anything at stake in friendship.

Hell, there was a point he believed having a Heart was too sophisticated for him, that he can't be that human!

I can go hours and hours about this.

What i can say for sure is, he has demons in all sizes, shapes and forms, something that he has stuffed in his closet only to deal with them himself, not letting them see the light of the day.

i just don't see anyone actually being there for him long enough for him to trust them fully with his demons.

No, not even Dazai. Dazai himself was a walking cry for help, like hell Chuuya is adding to that pile. He may have found a constant in Dazai in three years, seeing as all other's met their end in one. I believe in those three years, somewhere Soukoku began to feel like his safe place, somewhere he didn't had to think about his demons only by the virtue of dealing with one made of flesh and bones. But then even Dazai left.

I don't think even Kouyou was there for most part. And considering her obsession with a flowers of dark with Kyouka, i think it pulled Chuuya more in her own tragedy. Afterall, she also was never saved.

Mori is there, but Mori is a Demon in his own rights. What we've seen is their interactions have been those of a boss and his close confidents, nothing personal or emotional. Which also makes sense when you think of Mori's theory of running an organization. Chuuya, all things considered, the most powerful member of PM and he is treated as such.

The other significant members of PM, the guerrilla squad, black lizards or Kajji - all of them may know him better than most, but he is still their executive. If a 15 and younger kid took the title of being a protector of his rag-tag group seriously, being a responsible and dependable executive comes with higher stakes. He will carry out his role as one, even if it's the last thing he does.

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That was me rambling.

My point is, i wanna give Chuuya a big hug, tell him it's okay to fell tried sometimes. To let himself be vulnerable. That his fears are not invalid. That he is not invalid. That he isn't the problem, never was.

That he will still be valued and wanted, even if he one day looses his ability or he is no longer the strongest.

Can someone please save his boy?

[diagonal-queen]

Hi hi uhm, I've been thinking a few days about something... Maybe you can make it into headcanons or a one-shoot? Only if you're comfortable with the idea of course.

Chuuya taking care of his s/o who's struggling to eat properly, eat certain things and cares a lot about the way they look and the way people will talk about them. You can choose more characters if you want (Dazai, Fyodor, etc) or you can just write for Chuu.

Thank you, take your time and take care! ☺️💕

i hope you're going okay my love. i understand this struggle. it's an absolute nightmare and unfortunately at the time this was a big issue for me i didn't really have anybody around. i don't want that for you! if you ever wanna talk about it you can come to me :) i dunno how much help i can be but i'm always here to listen!

Helping to take care of a reader who struggles to eat

♡ pairing: Chuuya Nakahara, Dazai Osamu, Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Oda Sakunosuke, Atsushi Nakajima, x gn!Reader

♡ synopsis: These boys help you when you feel self-conscious and find it difficult to eat.

♡ cw: Reader is self-conscious and has trouble eating, mentions of murder (c'mon...this is BSD), swearing, slight implication of NSFW stuff (Dazai strikes again)

note: I put a couple of my comfort characters in here- hopefully their hcs will comfort you too :) I also put your suggested characters in in case you wanted to see 'em. Apologies for errors, hope you enjoy x

Chuuya:

Chuuya has probably had to deal with something similar in Dazai at a time. He understands how you feel and he's totally down to help you

First of all he lets you know that if you crave anything at all, no matter what it is, he'll get some for you. Literally, it could be just crackers or something insanely expensive like caviar he will buy it for you and eat some with you. Anything is better than nothing!

Second he tells you (probably a little aggressively) that the only opinion that matters when it comes to your appearance is YOURS. Fuck all those other people, it's literally none of their business and he's passionate about that. He would probably kill anyone who dares to talk shit about you (let alone to your face? oh man)

He hugs you and lets you know that everything is gonna be alright, and that he'll always be there to support you with things like this no matter what

When he eats, he encourages you to eat alongside him (so it's not as bad y'know, because you're doing it with Chuuya ^-^)

He is very defensive of you in public, like if you don't feel like eating at an event or something he won't force you and if anyone asks or comments on it he snaps at them a little bit lowkey

Chuuya is so encouraging and is always very proud of you whenever you make any progress, like whether you eat a certain amount or if you tell him that you felt attractive that day

Dazai:

Dazai definitely takes it quite seriously. He's mostly worried for your health at first, so his first priority is to get you some food. He does try to get you to eat, but if he fails he knows he can't really force you to eat, so he lets up a little

He's just really worried. Generally because he doesn't want you to get sick but also because of your mental health. Dazai feels as if he has a duty to be there to help you so he does his best

He thanks you for trusting him enough to tell him something like this, and promises to help you in any way you want him to

He will try to make you feel better by complimenting you and just generally lightening the mood

Dazai lets you know that there's no pressure to do so but asks if maybe you could try eating a certain amount a day (like a limit of two meals minimum maybe?) if you're able to? And he's willing to do it with you too if that would make you feel more comfortable

Calls Kunikida and asks him to help him cook you something because he can't cook (lol) and maybe a meal you like would help you? (Kunikida of course agrees to help- for your sake not Dazai's)

Dazai also thinks it's important that he uh...~demonstrates~ the extent of his attraction to you. Y'know, to really help you get the message. He really, really just wants to make sure you understand how much he appreciates and loves you.

Fyodor:

He will also kill people who talk smack about you, but he's like waaaaay scarier about it. Like Chuuya was kind of just exaggerating- he really will do it

Meanwhile, he'd sit you in his lap and comfort you and let you vent and cry to him about your issues as long as you need

He's just a little bit manipulative. Fyodor's method of comforting you about your outward perception is to tell you that his opinion is the only one that matters, and his opinion is that you're very attractive! You don't need to do anything to make him think so

He is probably the most...forceful? when it comes to trying to encourage you to eat. Fyodor would try to convince you to eat by telling you he'll reward you once you do. Maybe he buys you something or takes some time off to spend with you? If you still don't want to, he just doesn't give up. He'll find a way somehow

Fyodor perhaps also enlists the help of SIGMA ONLY because he knows that he's like...very comforting and empathetic and might be able to reassure you about your appearance and relationship with food

He will name all of your features that you consider to be flaws and give you reasons as to why he loves them all very much

Other than Sigma he doesn't bring up the issue with anyone else because he believes it's not his place (he's right tho). If anyone asks he just tells them 'It's a private matter' and nothing more 😌

Oda:

Oda is curious to know what's caused your refusal to eat and self-consciousness. He's curious, but he doesn't ask you any questions.

He simply cooks you an easily digestible meal and sits you down on the couch, gently telling you that he's willing to feed you as much or as little as you want to take

You ask him why he's done this for you, and his reply is a mere 'I care about you.' You can't really say no to that, so you do take a bite or two. Oda doesn't force you to eat anything else, whenever you're done he knows you're done

This goes on for some time- if your issue fluctuates from time to time he's always ready to cook you something and feed you. Though at times where you don't wanna eat he doesn't ever force you to do it.

More importantly he's willing to spend as much time as it takes to reassure you that he thinks you're beautiful and attractive just as you are, regardless of appearance. Though he isn't a man of like, too many words, he shows his love for you very clearly.

If you ever feel like you're a burden to Oda because of this stuff he does he immediately lets you know that that couldn't be any LESS true. He doesn't see it that way at all- he just loves you and wants to help you of his own volition

Is very comforting and whenever you bring it up with him you know that you've made the right decision to trust him with your issue

Atsushi:

Atsushi cares so much about you. He's heartbroken to know that you don't see yourself the same way he does.

Atsushi is a big eater and he's not extremely insecure when it comes to his physical appearance specifically, so he's a little confused about why you feel the way you do. Nonetheless he does his very best to sympathise with you and comfort you

He always offers to share his food with you from then on, even if it's just a little he's very happy when you accept it. He only gives you food he thinks you'll enjoy though because he's a sweetie

He's always been a big praise man but he just doubles it now that he knows you're self conscious. He just wants you to know how much you mean to him and how lovely you are in his eyes.

Asks Yosano for help T-T he just wants to make sure you're healthy. You might get a check in from her from time to time. She is a very helpful person to talk to about this though, good call Atsushi

Atsushi tells you that if anyone bothers you that he'll be there to take care of them for you. He'd usually be able to talk it out but he's not afraid to get just a teensy tiny bit violent if the other person doesn't back down.

To be honest he might just start eating bigger portions himself to make you feel more comfortable with the amount of food you eat to make it seem like less than it is (hE'S TRYING HIS BEST)

ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ me omw to cuddle @sunasjellyfruit and everybody else who reads this

[danwhobrowses]

One Piece Chapter 1103 - Initial Thoughts

Break? What Break?

The internet works in mysterious ways, and as it turns out there is another One Piece chapter left in the year

Maybe Oda was leading us astray after being a sobbing mess from last chapter, but let's see it

Spoilers for the Chapter, Support the Official Release

In conjunction with Monsters it seems, color spread of the crew, Momo and Yamato, appreciate Franky having the dragon hair too

We flash back to after Bonney saw the memory paw, met by Vegapunk outside the room

Reverting to her actual age, Bonney hugs Vegapunk and apologizes

Turns out that Kuma even gave Bonney a gift, a sapphire necklace shaped like the sun

A protective charm apparently, not sure if that's metaphorical or actual

Bonney also asks about Luffy, as they think about the serendipity of them appearing at the same time

Knowing that Vegapunk didn't have a choice it further explains why Bonney targeted Saturn immediately

We are finally back in the present now, with Saturn reiterating that Kuma is dead

Luffy is hungry, but the aura of Saturn has kept everyone pinned still, including Atlas, Franky and Sanji

Sentomaru has been captured too

Misinformation spreads about the Emperor's barricade and capture of Vegapunk, which leads to public concern

Dragon ponders on Kuma's departure and where he would go, Iva thinks if it were them it'd be Marejois (which technically he did but it felt more in the way) but also knows Kuma better than that

Maybe Vegapunk did build the switch but it needs to be added in? And he was programmed to seek it when all commands are gone?

What if the protective charm is that switch?

Speaking of though, she tries to hit Saturn with a Nika-esque punch

It doesn't do much, and Bonney's power continues to drain

Seems that Bonney's powers are not fully tied to it though

However as Saturn laments, Luffy is dining!

The navy go down to try and immobilize him, but it's clear it wasn't Kizaru

Did Caribou come in clutch again with the food? I swear

Bonney can't even manipulate her own age around Saturn, as he reveals that he gave Bonney her powers

Bonney didn't even eat a fruit, she was experimented on to have the Devil Fruit

Which makes the whole production and trade of SMILE even more unnecessary

They believe it to be an unnecessary fruit too, since while it can transform however they want determined on the future, the power decrease when their knowledge of the future is too far from reality

Kuma is charging in though as Saturn continues his villain monologue, and Bonney realises a world where Kuma is dead and unable to show him Nika weakened her tether to that potential future

See? You did fucking remember him at God Valley you cretinous fuck

Oh My God and he even experimented on Ginny, the Sapphire Scales were a result of those experimentations

Kuma lands on Egghead, as Bonney continues to be shaken and Vegapunk violently accuses of Saturn being the root of all Kuma's hardship

And his justification 'why should I understand the feelings of an insect?'

Kuma is here and he is charging through the island, alerting navy soldiers and Saturn

Kuma continues to be razed and swarmed with bullets and cannonfire, continuing his run, as Bonney unable to speak mulls over how Kuma is still mindlessly charging into his death

Bonney wonders if it'd have been easier if she had died, which means we need to make sure she knows she wants to live

Just as the navy go to shoot Bonney, they're blown away by explosions

So Saturn throws Bonney down and readies to impale her

But Kuma blocks it with his back

This is not an Ace moment though, Because Kuma gets up, his hand gripping that damned talon out of his back and his other clenched in a fist

Saturn finally has fear in his eyes, for this is a man who will not stand down any longer, there is nothing left to control, Bartholomew Kuma is raging and you will feel his rage

The punch needs to hit, even if it doesn't do much we need to give Kuma a lifetime of catharsis by smacking the taste out of Jay Garcia Saturn.

We've just got one of the Gorosei here and yet we've made him into some of the most reviled creatures in this story, which is saying a lot given what we've had before.

I mean, Luffy getting back up for Gear Fifth does still make sense, knowing that Kuma and Bonney need to see Nika in order to believe, and there's still the matter of the Self-Destruct switch, but we can let Kuma have a little bit.

I dunno if this chapter was planned for this year, but it was still a good one to end the year on, roll into 2024 for Luffy to flourish in his Yonko title, let Zoro dispatch Lucci swiftly too and maybe give Kizaru something to redeem himself with.

But for a lifetime of things Bartholomew Kuma has not deserved to have done to him, he deserves to punch Saturn in the face

[writingwhimsey]

All's Fair In Love & War- Motonari

Chapter 3

“He wants you to what?” Jiro asked, his tone exasperated.

After calming myself, I had called on Jiro and Sato as they were my most trusted vassals. I couldn’t share this information with every one, but I could share it with them.

“And he’s threatening our ports if we don’t cooperate.” Sato said, seeming much calmer than Jiro.

I nodded. “Yes.” I said. 

“I told you that you shouldn’t have made that deal with him when he first arrived.” Jiro said. “I knew he was bad news…”

I glared at Jiro. “I’m not an idiot. But you know as well as I do that if I hadn’t made that deal we never would have been able to secure the ports on our own. It’s hard enough getting most men to fall in line, let alone the superstitious lot that sailors are.”

“She has a point.” Sato agreed. “We did try forming our own navy and it hasn’t quite worked. Too many men believe that a woman captain would be bad luck.”

Jiro sighed. “I know…but there had to be another way.”

“Look what’s done is done. We can’t change the past.” I said. “All we can do now is focus on the now and formulate a plan to get out from under Motonari’s thumb.”

Jiro nodded. “Right.” He agreed. 

“What about just killing him?” Sato asked. “And taking over his navy for yourself?”

I shook my head. “No. His men may fear him, but they know he knows what he’s doing when it comes to the sea. Even if I did kill him, it’s not like they’d readily follow me.”

“You’ve faced tougher odds before.” Sato pointed out.

I shook my head. “No. Motonari is too calculating. Knowing him he’s got a plan in place anyways.”

“He is the God of Deceit for a reason.” Jiro agreed.

“For now, I have no choice but to go along with his plan.” I said. “Sato, I want you to go to our ports and figure out his influence there, do some research and observation on his men.”

Sato nodded. “I can do that.” 

“And what are we doing?” Jiro asked.

I sighed. “What we have to do for the time being.” I replied. “And hopefully, while I am spying for him, I can work on figuring out what exactly his plan is.”

“Then once we know, we can stop it.” Jiro finished for me.

“Exactly.” I replied.

“Before we start this though.” Jiro spoke up. “Have you thought about asking the Oda for help?”

“We’re still new to the alliance.” I said. “They could easily see it as me trying to trap them…also knowing that slippery bastard, he probably has a plan to make it look like I am trying to trap the Oda should I tell them anything.”

“That is a good point.” Jiro replied.

“We’ll figure this out, my lord.” Sato assured me. “I swear we will.”

A couple of days later…

I stood outside of my castle in an area I had set up for outdoor training. I was in a custom-made linen top with no sleeves and black pants as I worked on my training. I had just finished up practicing my archery when I picked up my sword and decided to have a go at one of my dummy targets.

“Heh, workin’ on yer form there, I see.”

I didn’t even turn my head, only moved my eyes slightly to the side before slicing at the dummy. “What do you want?” I asked, though I obviously knew.

Motonari smirked as I turned around to face him, still holding my sword in my hand. “You know exactly what I’m here for, m’lady.”

I glared at him. “If you’re really wanting this to work then you’d better start referring to me by my proper title.’

“Heh, still tryin’ to act like a figurão, pequena princesa?” He taunted cocking a white brow at me.

I glared harder. I walked closer to him and leaned in, knowing how much he hated the idea of touching another person. Sure he liked to crowd me, but that was always on his terms. I had to do what I could to throw him off.

Motonari glared at me as he moved back. “Watch yerself, girlie.” He said, his hand reaching for his pistol.

I grinned at him. “Listen here you son of a bitch, you may have one over on me right now, but I WILL get out from under your thumb. And when I do, this pequena princesa is going to be your end.” Then to emphasize my point, without even looking, I took a throwing dagger from my boot and threw it at a target to my side, hitting it dead center.

Motonari grinned, unphased by my display…or maybe a part of him enjoyed it. “Hehe, you just try, m’lady…”

“Lord Ava.” I corrected.

He grinned. “Lady Lord.” He replied. “Ya should be gettin’ summoned back to Azuchi in a couple o’ weeks. When ya get there, I’ll give ya instructions on how ta reach me with any intel ya bring fer me.”

“How…”

Motonari grinned. “Merchant’s secrets.” He said before turning and walking away.

“I will kill him.” I muttered as I reached 

Motonari…

After leaving Ava, Motonari returned to his ship that was waiting in one of her port towns. His oldest and most loyal vassal greeted him as soon as he reached the ship. “Welcome back, my lord.”

“Ya heard anything from that bastard yet?” Motonari asked, his tone grouchy.

“Yes, my lord. He says he is ready for the next part of the plan.” Hiroyoshi answered.

“Good. I don’t like bein’ the only one workin’.” Motonari said. “Got that lady lord right where I want ‘er.”

“Lord Ava is going along?” Hiroyoshi asked.

“Only ‘cuz she’s a soft touch fer her people.” Motonari replied. “Make sure we keep on her ports and make sure the men are extra aware. She don’t like havin’ ta do what I say. She’s gonna try ta get out of it.”

“You know this for certain, my lord?”

“Yeah, she told me. ‘Course, even if she hadn’t it wouldn’t be that hard to figure it out.” Motonari said. “Luoca thinks she’s gonna be the end o’ me in fact.”

Hiroyoshi eyed his lord for a moment. “I’ll make sure to tell the men, my lord.”

Motonari caught the look in the old man’s eye. “What?” He asked, his tone clipped.

“Nothing, my lord.” Hiroyoshi answered.

Motonari glared at the old man for a moment. “Yeah, better be nothin’.” He replied. He was then heading below deck to his cabin. He’d always liked meeting with Ava. Most women were easy to intimidate whenever he needed to, but not Ava. She fought him tooth and nail and he found it fun. He’d actually been considering bringing her in on his deal with Kicho…at least until she’d gone and signed on with Nobunaga and his grand unification by conquest plan.

“Woulda thought someone like her wouldn’t’ve wanted to go along with Nobunaga.” He muttered to himself as he sat in his chair. “She don’t like me tellin’ her what ta do. Why the hell would she think Nobunaga’d be any better?” The longer he sat, stewing in his thoughts, the more aggravated that he got.

“Merda…why am I lettin’ this shit bother me?” He muttered to himself. “Damn that woman.”

Motonari soon left his cabin and then headed back up on deck, barking out orders to his crew. He let his anger and frustration out on them in his grueling orders. He knew he’d need to be in Azuchi soon and he had a few other stops to make along the way. He’d figure everything out along the way…and figure out how to keep Ava from driving him crazy with her nonsense.

A couple of weeks later…

I had just finished a council meeting when a messenger arrived from Azuchi. “Lord Ava, Lord Nobunaga requests your aid.” The messenger said.

“What is it?” I asked.

“We’ve received word of an attack that’s coming in four days time.”

[bsd-fan]

Dazai, chuuya, humanity and the mafia part 1: Dazai Osamu

Okay first a warning, this is gonna be LONG.

Now, let´s begin by saying that analysing Dazai? Is a fucking pain in the ass. I give my everything in this analysis and even then I can´t be sure if I´m right or not because the truth is whether you love or hate Dazai, he is by far the most complex character from the series. He is layers upon layers upon layers of narrative but the real reason why he is so damn difficult to analyse is because he is an unreliable narrator.

(You can skip this part and start reading from “I want to say”)

Dazai is there from the very beggining of the story, he appears in most of the light novels and is a prevalent presence in the manga and even then we know next to nothing about him. Once I saw someone asking why are we so obsessed with his backstory when technically speaking we have more information about his past that the one we have about other characters, including Akutagawa, Tanizaki, kouyou and even Atsushi. And while technically right, there is a reason for it. Thing is that the things we know about Dazai are simply not enough to make sense of his character. We can take the same five flashbacks of Atsushi in the orphanate and that´s enought to understand most of his personality, his insecurities, the way he acts and the same applies for the other characters. Maybe we don´t know a lot but it´s enough to get the bigger picture. This doesn´t happen with Dazai. The things we know about him aren´t enough to make us understand him. Worse than that, some of the few things we do know is that he lies /constantly/, that he is hella good at saying half truths and that he almost always is hiding information. This only makes analysing him even more complicated because I can´t be 100% sure of ANYTHING. It´s not even that he is always lying, because I know he isn´t. The real problem is that when he does, he is so good at it that we don´t know when he is lying vs when he is saying the truth. Harukawa-sensei expresses a lot with her art, specially the eyes (We all know about that thing of darkness/light in the eyes and how that speaks of the mental situation of the characters) BUT this doesn´t necessarily applies to Dazai. 

There are panels like this in which we /Swear/ that he is being honest only to realize that he wasn´t. So, to summarize we can´t believe in his words, we can´t believe in his face or expressions and we almost never can get to his thoughts. So I decided to analyse him using everything I could, the few instances we are in his mind in the novels, the moments we /know/ are true that were confirmed by asagiri: When he speaks about oda or when he is with another superhuman (Fyodor, shibusawa and tentatively speaking verlaine), when he convinces Kyoka to keep living. And at last we are gonna use the perceptions of certain characters that canonically speaking have the best read of him (Oda and chuuya, for example). And certain scenes that seem like true based on context.

I want to say that I usually disagree with Dazai analysis because I think it´s a mistake to analyze him from a moral ground. BSD is all about morally grey characters and even then, a huge part of the fandom insist in classifying them as “good” or “bad” and Dazai is particularly affected by this perspective. People will fight all the time. People will say that Dazai has changed to be a better person, that he is better morally speaking, that he is trying to be “good” but then we got scenes like this:

Scenes in which he seem to go back to his mafia days. Scenes in which he is manipulator and cruel, scenes in which he is shown hurting people and then the other half of the fandom appears to say that he hasn´t changed, the he still is horrible and bad. And the thing is? I think both of this parts are wrong. 

Dazai as a character doesn´t revolve around moral. Dazai´s path is not one of him regretting his bad actions and wanting to be good, that´s not it. Oda who is the one who knew him best said:

“you might not see a great difference between right and wrong, but...saving others is something just a bit more wonderful”-Dark era

Dazai is not like chuuya who has a moral code and decide to go over it when necessary. Dazai simply doesn´t have a moral compass. Words like “good” and “bad” doesn´t mean anything to him. Dazai is elementarily speaking a character oriented towards results. Either the action has the predicted result or not. This is the real reason we see this ambivalence in him. This is why we constantly see him doing “bad things” that lead to “Good results”. When he does something bad is not because he is going back to his habits, is because is the best way to get what he wants. Dazai has /never/ read like a bad person that suddenly turned good. That has never been his objective and even less the main point of his characterization. That´s why I will never agree to talk about him like “ADA Dazai” vs “Mafia Dazai” in terms of morality, this is also incredibly reductionist with his character and all the shades of grey that has been there since the beggining. Dazai didn´t develop a moral compass for being in the agency. He went to the place that saves lives, so that´s what he does. In order to work for the ADA he needs to follow certain codes, so he adapt himself to them as better as possible but that´s it. As matter of fact, there are a lot of instances in which Dazai conveniently looks for loopholes in the law to get the wanted outcome. This is not a secret and was there even when he made his entrance exam. 

In the first novel, sasaki is about to win and there´s no legal way the agency can stop her. So what Did Dazai did? He manipulated a 14yo who was full of hatred and resentment to kill her. Is that a good action? Of course not, Did he save a lot of lives by doing that? Yes, he did, so in the great scheme of things there was a good result that justified the bad action. Another good example is akutagawa, he still is emotionally abusive towards him, he keeps manipulating him and hurting him but thanks to that the shin soukoku duo was possible, thanks to that they save the city from moby dick and later from fyodor. Or even that scene in which he got ango in the car knowing they were gonna crash and that Ango was going to get hurt and counting with that to manipulate him into giving him the information necessary to save kyoka. All of them are bad actions that got translated into good results. I´m not saying this to justify him, I think this depends on each perspective. Maybe for some people the end really justifies the means, for some it doesn´t (That´s a big part of why we have Dazai apologists vs Dazai antis) and that´s valid. But the thing is I don´t think Dazai cares if he is justified or not, he only cares about the final result. And the undeniably truth is that his methods get results. 

“A murderer who doesn´t soil their own hands...

Getting someone to kill another human being for you: What Dazai did was no different from what Miss sasaki did. There is no way to prove their intention to kill under current laws and regulations, and they would go unpunished”- Kunikida, 1 light novel: Osamu Dazai´s entrance exam.

So I ask you how are you deciding his morality? based on his motivations? on his actions? Or in the final outcome of those actions? This is why is useless to try to put him into a good or bad category. He is far more complex than that. A lot of his actions may be seen as bad but he has saved tons of people thanks to that an what? Are you going to tell me those lives are not valid? That´s bullshit. And just like I just mentioned the moments of manipulation and cruelty now that he is in the ADA, I can mention moments of genuiness and caring while he was in the mafia. Dazai is still Dazai morally speaking. 

Now I want to clarify that yes, maybe Dazai hasn´t changed all that much in terms of morality but that doesn´t mean he hasn´t changed at all. Actually he has one of the best character developments in the story. It doesn´t matter if it´s not in morality because just as I said before that has never been the main point of his character. So, if not morality what is it? I already said it. 

His real core is his inability to recognize himself as a human being and his need to look for his humanity despite that.

But that leads to other questions, the most important one being why does he feel inhuman? With chuuya we have a clear answer, with dazai we don´t, but I think its the same problem of Yozo from no longer human. 

Okay so, for everyone who haven´t read the book. It´s about Yozo,  a depressed man who feel alienated from the rest of the people, who desperately tries to hide the emptiness inside him, he doesn´t perceive himself as a human being and more like a clown desperate to keep appearences who tries to keep the other people from realizing how inhuman he really is. I think the reason the book is consider a classic is because maybe yozo is a horrible person, but you never, not even once doubt about how human he is, he is full of flaws but he is undeniably human, even when he can´t see it. And I think this is exactly bsd Dazai problem. 

From what we know, Dazai is not like chuuya, he  really is a human being, he was born like one, he was raised like one but he can´t connect with his humanity. In my opinion Dazai´s problem with his humanity comes from a distorted perspective of himself. So the next question is why he got this distorted perspective? Well there are two important factors: The alienation and isolation the character experiments through the story, and this is perpetuated by extrinsect and intrinsect factors. 

First, as you probably have already noticed Dazai is one of the most deshumanized characters in the story. People talk about him as “The demon prodigy”, “A heresy”. Ango has called him “an alien”, and people around him conceives him as some kind of god. This omnipotent figure who always knows everything and has a plan for every contingency. For God´s sake his ability literally is “No longer human” and Fukuzawa´s ability “All men are equal” doesn´t work on him. There´s no need for a genius to understand all the simbolism behind that. That´s the alienation I´m talking about. Then we got other factors, his monstruous intelligence, personality (he is naturally highly maquiavelistic, utilitarian, controlling, has a deep distrust for the world and his self destructive tendencies), maladaptive coping mechanisms plus a bad enviroment (the mafia) translates into two big problems: disconnection with himself (He can´t understand his own motives and emotions so this worsens the distorted perception he already has of himself) and problems stablishing bonds with other people (that aggravate the isolation). 

(we´ll continue in part two because this is already too long)

[beanghostprincess]

Bughawk is soooo underrated and it makes me so sad. Please tell me you see how grand this vision is

I am personally more of a Shuggy/Crocobug shipper but that's mainly because Mihawk isn't doing it for me much?? I love him and his gold autistic eyes staring into my soul and his classy attitude and vampiric looking aesthetic, but I wish he had more screentime to figure out his personality better and enjoy him more. But I do like him! I swear! And tbh one of my favorite ships is Cross Guild, like, the three of them together, even if I have a bit of a preference inside of the trio. I do love them and tbh I think Mihawk and Buggy's relationship would be really funny to explore. Especially within the fanon portrayals of the characters because god forbid Oda gives the cool edgy swordsman more than three minutes of screentime and more than five words per episode.

Okay, so doing a mix between fanon and canon and "whatever the fuck I want to see these characters as because I am the princess of this blog and I can do whatever I want": I think their relationship is fucking hilarious.

Unlike with Crocodile, Buggy doesn't really know what to do with Mihawk. Crocodile at least is easy to read and he's usually the one to make the first move, but what the fuck is Buggy supposed to do with the swordsman sitting in front of him, legs crossed and staring into his soul like he's about to bite his neck and suck him dry. Scary. And also very hot. But mostly scary. But turns out Mihawk is like, way more peaceful than what he thought. He likes reading. And classical music. And swords in a very weird obsessive way that the clown should not speak about. And not much, honestly. Cooking, too, apparently. Buggy keeps learning new things about him every day and the guy opens up little by little, because even if he's quiet, the very few words he says speak a lot for himself. He's also a fucking sadist and loves teasing Buggy all the time to the point of making him cry of frustration, but, well, when he's good he's really nice to be around <3

They both have history with Shanks. You know the movie "The other woman"? The one about this girl who discovers her boyfriend is married and then becomes besties with the wife and start hating him together? That's the energy I'm getting from this triangle. Stop making Mihawk cry over Shanks not loving him and a past love!! Make him go "Oh. Yes. Red Hair and I had something. Pretty sure he still felt something for you, clown, so I am not happy about that" / "What?! Why would you be angry at me for Shanks' shitty feelings that have absolutely nothing to do with me, by the way, our thing ended years ago when his stupid-" / "No, no. I am referring to him. Moron. I like you" / "You do???'' / "Sometimes. Sort of. Maybe. Your existence confuses me". And then they start dating because nobody can tell me Cross Guild isn't just a poly relationship doing business together.

I think Mihawk likes Buggy because it gives excitement to his boring life and also he's fun to bully. Besides, he's more than what he looks like and he actually has a dream and pirate spirit, so maybe he's not as useless as he used to think. He's still annoying, yes, but oddly comforting. Mihawk can't quite figure out what he wants with this clown, so he just sticks around with him. Buggy is like a chihuahua. A very loud chihuahua. Mihawk is definitely a black cat. They don't match. At all. Not in the slightest. And yet, Mihawk likes his company. And Buggy actually loves seeing all the soft and interesting sides of Mihawk and realize that he's not as scary as he looks like. I mean, he could slice him in half if he wanted to and he's still scary and hot but, y'know, he has a very domestic side that Buggy likes.

Thinking about them being established is pretty sweet because I think Mihawk would like reading out loud to him and Buggy would make the funniest comments about the story. And they would cuddle. And it would be so uncharacteristically soft of them and it's something they only do in private. Crocodile stares at them from the corner of the room and,,, He likes having them there. He's not alone and it's kind of sweet.

Also overprotective Mihawk with Buggy my beloved. In the sense of: He cooks for him because his eating habits suck. He makes him go on walks and do a bit of exercise. He makes him read, too. Listen to music that it's not only commercial pop or circus music or musical/Broadway tunes. He takes care of the clown when he's not bullying him. I think Mihawk treats Buggy like Sharpay Evans treats her dog.

And following the Shanks thing to end this post: Bughawk is really cool because I think it would break Shanks' heart and I love angst.

[hellcatinnc]

Bungo Stray Dogs Season 3 Anime Review

Includes Spoilers

Now this was a season that covered alot and I loved every minute of it. so far each season I swear gets better and I'm so in love with the plot, characters, everything. I've come along ways from when I first started but think my top 5 stand strong now Chuuya, Akutagawa, Atsushi, Dazai, & Kunikida. Don't get me wrong when Sakunosuke Oda was alive he was my number 4 over Dazai but since he isn't anymore thats my new order based on season 3.

I honestly wasn't expecting to like the show down between the two factions with Yukichi Fukuzawa versus Ōgai Mori. I haven't once ever cared for Mori and even in this season I still don't. Its not like he wouldn't be a good character however he is so stuck on his daughter with her powers saving his filthy ass. I just read over this character and seems like its not his daughter yet sometimes he calls her his wife... I'm gonna leave it at that cause that just got weirder for me. Like grow some balls dude. Then there is Fukuzawa he oh my god he is a bad ass. His personality to me is like Kunkida you don't see his gentle side right off the bat and he grows on you in time but once he does you can enjoy the character how should have be. When he got killed I was gonna lose my shit so I was happy his death didn't stick.

Up until this season I always felt for Higuchi being in love with Akutagawa but by this season you realize she has a very unhealthy obsession over him not quiet the same. Bot sure where there future can go from here and I really do feel like she is in love with him but sadly I feel like he doesn't think he is worthy of love which is why he shows none to no one more than his sister really. What I don't get is how she couldn't look at gin beside her brother and tell they were siblings I could. Her jealousy streak kicked in and that was the end of that, even to the point she was willing to push Atsushi into dating her to keep her sweet Akutagawa to herself. I feel what you saw in the first season of how she would die for him and how he thanked her I think if he thought more highly of himself he might actually could be accepting of something with her. She is the only one who cares not on what he has done but would be willing to stand by and die by his side.

Now lets take a stroll back to Chuuya and his past as a 15 year old and up. Damn he was hot even as a kid FFS. Anyways so many people ship him with Dazai but by this season if there was a ounce of me that thought it should happened it died here. Now let me explain so you see how they meet and they hate each other from the start. Chuuya is in a mission to take down port mafia for destroying the city he calls home. He works along other kids to do this, however Dazai brings him into Mori and this is where Chuuya's life gets changed. However he still hates them he is willing to work with them to get to a bigger picture in what he sees as a way to still take them down.

Then you have Dazai who goes out of his way to let Chuuya's friends know he is with the mafia now even though he hasn't actually signed on. Dazai is a master manipulator and when Chuuya had his friends try to kill him because they thought he was a traitor Dazai stepped in telling him only if he joins the port mafia will he protect the kids and wipe the rest out so he agrees. Like seriously how can someone ship that bullshit Chuuya is such a better man. Only reason Dazai stays on my list is because he still is a likable character but he has fucked over alot of people. I mean he wonders why Chuuya hates him yes he trusts him with his life but still hates him because after dragging his life into the mafia Dazai just leaves one day without even a word. I will say though I love his attitude from the start its super hot in my book.

So I'm not a fan of these two together and the fact they ended up at one point because of her powers naked together I just was a bit irritated. She is like a hateful tsundere chick yet always blames him for everything. He is so much better with Kyouka and more chemistry too. Plus even though I know some ship these two its one sided on Lucy. I saw this because time and time again he has showed he would die to protect Kyouka even sleeps in her closet to be by her side. We all know Lucy is selfish she has no issue sacrificing him if need be but Kyoka won't she has time and time again put her life on hold for him as well I think thats why I think they are a healthier ship.

Kyouka and Atsushi are just too cute together and don't get me wrong the closet scene is from the movie I had forgot to mention it but after showing proof him and Lucy should never be together I felt it was necessary to show this when talking about these two ships together. There is nothing else that works for me and I will ship them too the end. Plus I think they need each other like nothing else.

Watching Atsushi struggle with the only man he knew as a father die was heartfelt. I understood why he hated him and why it hurt to even think about however Dazai was right in one thing he said to him that he wouldn't be the man he turned out to be if he hadn't been raised the way he was. Then when he started crying after that made me tear up I love Atsushi his heart is so good he is the cinnamon roll of this show.

Then when they showed Kyouka as a child after watching her parents killed right in front of her broke my heart. Like seconds before it all happened her father was talking about how happy he was to spend more time with his wife and daughter then all this goes down and her life is forever changed.

Watching Kunkida break after watching the child that Fyodor had kill herself in front of him. No matter what this man loves kids and I think would make an absolute great father. Like seriously to me he reminds me alot of Sakunosuke for that with his orphan kids. These men would make the best fathers of all the men on this show. It so hurts to watch him hurt though so I felt for him in this scene.

Ok am I the only one that hates Fyodor like sure he is hot in a psychotic kind of way. I feel like he would be the yandere of this show thats for sure but I don't know he is just heartless I can't like him in any way. Shoot I like Mori more than this son of a bitch. I can see going fourth I'm going to hate seeing him on the show over and over again.

Ok Ranpo taking on Chuuya was pretty hot not gonna lie. Like his attitude his confidence I think the first time I found this man sexy as fuck. I think Chuuya is better but still you go Ranpo bout time you step that sex appeal up.

That moment when Kyouka tries to kill Akutagawa was very memorable but even more so that when she didn't succeed and for the first time he tells her he sees she has changed and found happiness and that he is happy for her. He proved even to her he isn't all bad he does have a heart no matter how much he tries to hide it.

These two fight and tell each other off but in the end they fight well together. I also believe they understand each other way more than they even realize. You even see when he lends him his powers so he can beat the bad guy in the end of this season. He asks why he fights and I guess he liked and respected his answer so instead of them both dying they both fought to survive as they always did. Its funny to see how Atsushi is coddled by Dazai making him better but yet he Dazai was also the man to break both Chuuya and Akutagawa.

[henrioo]

Thanks without you I would been super cousfed tbh. 🥗💚

Question of the day: Do think Nami needs a power up? Because some say that she needs because she almost died when fignting Ulti. Tho at the send manged to take her down.

Dude this is crazy because I talked about that other days with some people

I actually don't think that Nami, Usopp or Chopper need like a REAL power up

I think ofc that like, Haki with Nami would be fucking awesome and Usopp using his own Haki with full control would be amazing too

But some people are expecting that they be at the same level that Sanji or Zoro, and they will never

The thing is, you guys don't see because the anime does this really shitty, but the others mugiwaras in the crew are actually really strong

If you gonna compare them with other crews and pirates they are really strong

And Oda knows that and makes them have a lot of good scenes in the manga, like good scenes such as Zoro and Sanji

But when it is in the anime Toei only likes, put the badass scenes like normal scenes

Ulti is fucking badass, she fight against Luffy and hold up pretty well, besides that she is in a Yonko crew and is a high level subordinate, as the same level of Black Maria, Drake, and the others

Hee bounty is even bigger than Nami

And guess what, Nami got her fucked up! Ofc she needs time to do that, and also Nami doesn't have Haki or physical straight, but when she got Zeus that is something she dominates, in the case the climate, she wins the battle because she knows she can

Usopp in dressrosa was put in 5 stars of the bounty that Doflamingo put, even bigger than Zoro, not only that, because of his Haki he was able to defeat Sugar that was their most difficult opponent at that moment

If he wasn't capable of doing that, they would never win because some of the mugiwaras were already got by her power and unable to help in the fight, he was essential to the win in the city

And I genuinely could list a lot of fuckin amazing things they did, amazing thing same level as Zoro, Sanji and Luffy

But the anime doesn't show that, I think in part it is totally Toei guilt, but I think it is also because the format

In the manga you are basically reading a book, so you can pause, you can admire the page, freaking out

Especially because we only have one chapter per week, so everything is all amazing and we are starving for each panel as we need more to survive

And we don't have any filler, we don't have to wait for 20 chapters to see 2 minutes of a fight, we genuinely got that faster

So in the anime besides having a lot of filler, mostly of Nami and Usopp running and crying in fear, you guys have to wait a lot, then when Nami defeats Ulti looks like the script helped her

Ofc I think sometimes Oda forget he made other chars, but we can manage them pretty well in comparison to others mídias

So yeah, the anime is kinda bad at this, because in the manga we have a lot of focus on how amazing some of their actions were, in the anime it is always like "oh Nami defeats Ulti now looks Zoro muscles!"

In the manga there is less than that, it's not perfect but I can't avoid saying

One piece manga >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>One piece anime

Get better Toei, get better

ALSO A SUPER SPOILER FOR WANO IDK IF YOU ALREADY SEE BUT I JUST WANT TO PROVE HOW MUCH POWER THE MANGA HAVE DIFFERENT FROM THE ANIME

(it's in Portuguese sorry ahhahahahhq)

LOOKS HOW BADASS THIS IS, NAMI IS THINKING SHE WILL LOSE BUT THEN ZEUS GOT ALL

BRO I CAN'T EXPLAIN BUT I SWEAR THE MANGA HAVE MORE POWER OKAY???

[alcoholandcakes]

HELLO! can i ask for when the reader accidentally hurts chuuya, dazai, akutagawa and ranpo please tysm!

Omg sure dear^^ I would love to write that for you, your wish is my command

I didn’t know how you meant “accidentally hurt them” so yeah- but words can really hurt and words can cut deeper than a knife sometimes, I hope this is what you were thinking of ^^

Warning: it’s a bit angsty- and a lot of swearing -w-“

A S/o who hurt them by accident

Dazai Osamu

- You knew Dazai since his days in the mafia, you guys escaped together after Oda’s death

- he became a better man since then

- Dazai had been kinda distant and lying a lot about his whereabouts

- Being more irresponsible lately and you’ve been patient with him but a lot is a lot

___________________________________

The door opened and you boyfriend swing in quietly thinking you would be asleep already. As he noticed you on the couch, you caught a glimpse of surprise on his expression.

“Where have you been?” You asked calmly drinking your tea

“ I was at work-“ he replied right away while pulling down his coat.

“ oh really-? That’s weird because kunikida called me again asking why are you not at work..”

Dazai’s stonic expression didn’t change, you were sure that he’s trying to come up with a excuse.

“I won’t ask again ‘samu, where were you?” You asked once again putting down your tea and looking at him seriously

“I had some business to deal with” he answered

You just looked at him- “ you know.. you should have gone to work, they needed you”

“ they can deal with it without me” he said with disinterest in his tone and you noticed it right away.

“ Atsushi could’ve been killed- you know he needs you” you said standing up and walking towards him, he was a bit taken aback not knowing what you’re talking about “ did you forgot Dazai? You had a mission with him”

“ there’s Yosano- “ he started saying it a bit irritated not even letting him finish your sentence you raised your voice at him.

“ and what if there’s Yosano? He could’ve been killed and it’s your fault for not being here for him! You have again neglected your duties Dazai!” You said, it wasn’t a shout but you didn’t say it in a normal tone neither.

“ he’s still alive, so I don’t know what’s the issue” he said, still irritation lingering in his tone. The man was now standing in front of you looking down at you with a still stonic impression.

“ YOU CANNOT BE SO IRRESPONSIBLE AND FULL OF YOURSELF, MAYBE IF YOU YOU WOULD BE MORE RESPONSIBLE MAYBE THEN ODA WOULD BE STILL ALIVE” You gasped and your hand flew to your mouth as the words left your mouth. He looked at you in disbelief and a bit sadness you saw on his face at the mention of his dead friends name.

“ Maybe you’re right..” he said- he know that if he had arrived a bit sooner then his dear friend would be still here.

“ I didn’t mean it like that” you said trying to go closer to him but he pulled away. “.. then how did you mean it?”

Before you could say another word all you saw was him putting on his coat back on, and heading toward the front door.

“ Osamu- I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it” just as you finished the sentence his hand was already on the door knob his head turned to you.

“You crossed the line with that one, y/n.” And with that he left. He left the apartment, and got lost in the darkness of the night.

You really didn’t mean to hurt him, it was in the heat of the moment when that slipped your mouth. You kept calling him but it was to no vain, he didn’t pick up. No amount of apologizing could fix what you said and you were aware of that.

Chuuya Nakahara

- you loved Chuuya dearly, but sometimes he was just too much with his anger

- he came home angry one time, you understood that you didn’t do anything but taking out his anger on you was unacceptable

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“ could you stop nagging me, y/n?” He said angrily, he was more irritated than the usually and it caught your attention.

“ I’m not nagging you. I just want to know what happened” you said pulling you hands off of his shoulders.

“ I ALREADY TOLD YOU NOTHING FUCKING HAPPENED” He yelled at you, getting up from his chair, it quickly drifted from him.

“ THEN WHY ARE YOU BEING A FUCKING BITCH ABOUT IT NAKAHARA?” You yelled back, you were quit short tempered yourself and you won’t take shit from the gringer.

“IM NOT A BITCH I JUST ASKED YOU TO STOP FUCKING NAGGING ME” he yelled back , his face was starting to redden from the anger.

“ WELL, MAYBE IF YOU WASNT ACTING LIKE A BITCH PEOPLE WOULD STOP LEAVING YOU” you didn’t even realize at first what just left your mouth but he was taken aback. Yet his anger didn’t vanish no, it was quiet the opposite- you just made the fire burn more.

“ THEN WHY DONT YOU LEAVE ME ALREADY IF YOU THINK IM ACTING LIKE A BITCH” he shouted being more upset than ever. He couldn’t believe that you thought such things.

“ YOU KNOW WHAT- YOURE RIGHT I WILL” as you spit that out, you stormed off slamming the door behind you.

He was surprised that you actually left, he stared at the wall in front of him in disbelief. It took him a couple of seconds before going after you. He saw as you were sitting on the couch, looking at your phone- your face still beet red from the argument that happened minutes ago, but now you were sorry. Sorry for throwing that fact to his head, you knew that it wasn’t his fault.

You ram to him as you saw him exit his study, giving him a big bear hug. Apologizing furiously, he was upset to say the least. “I’m really sorry” this rolled of your tongue continuously.

“I didn’t mean to say that” you mumbled “ I’m really sorry, I didn’t mean to upset you ”

“It’s okay” he just sighed, hugging you back. “ I know, darling I know”

“Let me pour you a glass of wine” you just said looking at him- you knew that he liked to have a wine when something upset him.

He forgave you as soon as you hugged him, he loved you more than his life and losing you would destroy him entirely.

Akutagawa Ryunnosuke

- well your boyfriend had quite the anger issues but you always stepped aside when he was in a bad mood

- you never got offended nor upset when he yelled at you

- but everyone has bad days and even you on your bad days couldnt stay calm

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Only you and akutagawa were at home, gin was still at work. Everyone at work was getting on your nerves today and coming home to an also irritated boyfriend is not a nice thing now, is it?

A good old tea always calmed you down, but things weren’t going as smoothly as you expected. You tried unwrapping the packaging but you just couldn’t and it also made a lot of noise.

“Could you stop that?” Akutagawa said with a firm tone, his non-existent eyebrow already twitching in irritation.

“Stop what? The noises I’m clearly not making? Grow up” you don’t know why you said the last two words, but you already said them and you can’t take it back.

“ watch your mouth” he barked at you as he quickly stood up looking at you.

“ I’m sorry but I’m not able to do that” you said it with an attitude- looking back at him with sharp eyes.

“ who the fuck do you think you’re talking to?” He asked- he was getting real mad.

“ I’m talking to you-“ you barked back at him, not realizing you’re crushing the box of tea in your hands. He just looked at you weirdly as your attention drifted back to the tea, trying to rescue it from the plastic wrapper. It still made a lot of noise and now louder ones than before.

“ just stop already” he said furiously.

“ HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO STOP IT, HUH ? TELL ME YOU FUCKING GENIUS” you lost your temper, you raised your voice at him. He was getting on your nerves.

“ WATCH YOUR FUCKING MOUTH BITCH- WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOURE TALKING TO” he yelled back, coming closer to you.

“ HOW ARE YOU CALLING A BITCH?” you shouted at him “ THE ONLY BITCH HERE IS YOU”

“ DO NOT TALK TO ME LIKE THAT” he yelled back now his hands firmly on the counter while looking at you with rage in his eyes.

“ no wonder Dazai-San left you- you act like a narcissist bitch all the time” those words left your mouth and the next thing you know rashomon was right at your neck ready to take your life.

“I dare you to fucking say it again” he said in firm tone” I fucking dare you”

Before anything else could have happened gin was already between the two of you. You guys didn’t even notice when she arrived but you were glad that she was there to stop akutagawa.

“ what is going on?-“ Was all she said before pulling her brother away from you.

“Nothing” you muttered out- gin just looked at you with a worried expeession “-are you sure? This doesn’t look like a nothing to me”

Akutagawa didn’t even say a single word since his sister appeared . He needed to clear his head- the things you told him echoed through his head more loudly than anything ever could. Without saying anything he just left.

After that you explained everything to the black haired girl when you were left with her all alone. That it wasn’t his fault and you provoked him, you both were on the edge. You didn’t blame him for almost taking your life in the heat of the moment- you never blamed him. You only blame yourself.

Now you were patiently waiting for him to come home so you can make things right. Like always.

Ranpo Edogawa

- well, I feel like you cannot really hurt Ranpo verbally but when it’s from a close loved one it will hurt him a bit

- especially if it’s from you

- he loves to be praised and failing someone may hurt him.. a lot.

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It has been a busy day there at the agency, like always kunikida mostly and you did all the work. Why you may ask, well because Dazai was absent again and your boyfriend was lazy as always.

You did all Ranpo’s work all the time and it was exhausting to say the least, plus your boyfriend is really needy which doesn’t help.

He is always by your side talking your ear off when all you want is to work in peace: but you wouldn’t tell him that.

After hours of working- everyone left to get some lunch finally. Except you. You stayed with your boyfriend alone.

“You know, edo’ - you could really help out with the files. It wouldn’t kill you” you mumbled while taking another bite from your food.

“ nah- I don’t wanna, it’s boring” he yawned as he stretched out his arms and legs. You got this response every time you told him to do some work. Every. Single. Time.

“ listen you could really help- you work for the armed detective agency also not only us” I replied, continuing my eating peacefully, well at least trying to.

“ I told you I don’t wanna- what part of that you don’t understand?” He gained some sass in just a couple of seconds. Your sweet boyfriend who never talked to you like that before was gaining attitude and you didn’t like that. Not one bit.

“Woah- why the attitude? Did you wake up on the wrong side of the bed this morning or what-?” You put your hands up in defense, he just looked at you with his beautiful emerald green eyes but his expression was neutral.

He didn’t reply, he continued sucking on his lollipop like you didnt even say anything. Not having a single care in the world.

“If you keep this work up you’ll disappoint everyone around you, edogawa” you mumbled taking another bite from your food.

“What?” He just started at you in shock that you would say anything like that. The words hurt him but you were too occupied with your lunch.

“You heard me right” you continued as you swallowing the last bite “ I’m sure the president is very disappointed in you- you literally don’t do any work”

He was just looking at you, now even his lollipop wasn’t in his mouth. He didn’t say anything, silence filled the room. Before you could start another sentence your colleagues came back.

After that the whole day Ranpo was silent, even when someone asked him a question he didn’t respond- he started doing paperwork to distract himself from intrusive thoughts.

‘Did you really think that?’ And ‘ is he really disappointed?’ Were going through his mind at a rapid pace. You did it, you won that so called argument. You achieved to have him working and not lazing around.

But dear, tell me, at what cost?

A/n: heyooo- so another “work” is finished and I’m glad- I needed to come up with one for Ranpo and that was the one what took my some time. Also- I wasn’t in the best mood so I decided to make it angsty especially for Ranpo, Dazai and aku so yeah, this is all I wanted to say

I hope you guys are happy, safe and hydrated- I wish you a good day/night

01.09.2022- Cali

[head-empty-just-sigma]

i hate time travel.

that’s it. that’s the post.

i’m kidding

i need to rant about why i hate Fukuchi’s sword in bsd so i turned it into an analysis of why it freaking sucks

yes this is an actual analysis post of everything it’s capable of doing/we’ve seen it do in the manga so far. it’s just filled with my own rage at time travel being used in a manga i desperately want to keep liking but it’s testing me a bit here

🔺spoiler warning for the main manga and probably some other scenes i forgot i mentioned i’m just angry ranting here🔻

also general warning for some censored swearing (i’m very angry) also also i did minimal editing so expect a few typos. there’s also no tldr you either suffer through this with me or you don’t

the basics

Amenogozen a 1,500 year old katana that’s imbued with an ability. it was made by a gifted swordsmith for Shinto rituals, but some time later it fell into the hands of Fukuchi who used it in combat because of his own ability’s effect on the sword. it’s made out of basic metal, but imbued with the ability to cut through time and space. under normal circumstances, it can ‘cut’ 12 centimeters of space around itself, and .12 seconds of time into the future or the past. in Fukuchi’s hands using his ability Mirror Lion (enhance any weapon he’s holding in his hands by a hundredfold) this turns into 12 meters and 12 seconds, which is why he uses it as a weapon and major get out of dodge card.

what the actual hell is this. like, seriously. even the likes of Verlaine and Rimbaud were better than this as ability users with “transcendent abilities”. H.G. Wells was better than this and she only appears in a chaotic light novel but at least her time traveling ability makes sense & is used in a non-story-breaking way.

so Fukuchi literally is his own deus ex machina. he can give himself warnings from the “future” of any danger his “current/past” self about to be in, and send his sword up to 12 seconds in the past in order to avoid it. this is how he defeated literally everybody in the story so far. he gets defeated but oH nO My SwOrD cUt ThE pAsT fRoM tHe FuTuRe

can you tell how much i hate this? cuz it’s a lot

Fukuchi relies so heavily on his sword that in every battle we’ve seen with him, he’s lost at first. Aku and Atsushi? they teamed up finally in the end to be the shin soukoku Dazai wanted them to be and defeated Fukuchi. but NO his silly little sword cut into the past and cut Atsushi’s arm off, making it so that he didn’t kill Fukuchi and reversed his future-self’s death. do you see how this doesn’t make a lot of sense story-wise?

theoretically, nobody can defeat Fukuchi because he can just cut the past out of existence and reverse his defeat.

here’s another example for all of you Tachihara fans who are in pain (me too *sobs*). he has the ability to manipulate metal, meaning the ordinary metal-made sword is vulnerable to his ability. Tachihara even uses his gift at first to stop Fukuchi from cutting into the past and stabbing Tachihara, meaning his gift defeats the time and space cutting sword by not allowing it to cut time and space. it’s Fukuchi’s natural enemy, and Fukuchi even recognizes that during the fight. Tachihara quite literally understands the one way to defeat Fukuchi: take the sword away from him. however, Tachihara is still freaking defeated by Fukuchi simply because he can deus ex machina himself messages from the future to his past self in order to warn himself of any danger to come and basically predict the future and act on it on the same level as Dazai or Fyodor. it’s almost as if he has Oda’s ability Flawless, but instead of predicting the future in a fluid way that’s satisfying to the story, he just rewrites the past in order to erase his defeat so that he can continue being an antagonist with literally zero understandable motivations. seriously, am i missing something or is Fukuchi just an antagonist for the sake of being an antagonist? at least with Fyodor we know why he’s evil, and his parts of the story are always extremely satisfying to read. with Fukuchi it’s always just “omg yes an epic battle! character development moments! epic conclusions-! oh, wait, he just rewrote everything with his sword and now it’s 100% less satisfying. oh look another major character de-*gunshots*”

*ahem* anyway

a good portion of the fandom towards Fukuchi

i really don’t like time travel. more accurately, i don’t like time travel when it’s used like this. it is actively ruining the story for me. every fight where the sword is used we as the reader get so excited to see how the character outsmarts Fukuchi, who is a master swordsman and master of martial arts, and we’ve gotten 2 amazing fight scenes that show us ways to outsmart Fukuchi as well as give us character development that’s incredibly important to the story and the characters themselves. Aku keeping his promises and trusting Atsushi in battle, while also understanding that Dazai didn’t abandon him? epic, awesome character development. Atsushi finally trusting Aku in a fight and being able to work together like their predecessors (soukoku) to outsmart their enemy? fantastic, wonderful character development. f*cking thrown in the trash by Fukuchi’s sword of ‘i cannot be defeated because blah blah cut into the past/future to stop my defeat’. we better get another Aku & Atsushi scene soon or else all of that character development will actually be a complete and utter waste of panels and brain space.

Tachihara’s character development is amazing. he’s manipulated against his will and unbeknownst to himself by the page from the Book, but because he’s a mafioso he’s able to realize he’s being tricked. he even understands the importance of his connections in the Mafia despite being a Hunting Dog! he feels remorse for hurting his friends and betraying them! that. is. amazing. character development. his fight with Fukuchi proves that he knows where his loyalties are, which is with the Port Mafia because Fukuchi is the enemy behind it all. Tachihara even recognized that there was a bigger evil at play, but the page and his ties to the Hunting Dogs blinded him to the truth. he rejects being a Hunting Dog in order to realize his identity as a mafioso, and knows that it’s Fukuchi’s fault for being the villain that he wasn’t able to stay a Hunting Dog with that small group of close friends. he’s even able to defeat Fukuchi at first by taking his sword away, and he’s powerful enough that Fukuchi sees Tachihara as his natural enemy because of his ability. Tachihara has the possibility to single handedly defeat Fukuchi! but his FREAKING SWORD OF F*CK YOU erases ALL OF IT

*sigh*

**i can recognize him as an antagonist who wants to get rid of politicians who mindlessly create war just because they can and whatever heavenly comparison to angels that Fukuchi makes but honestly it just sounds like a different version of attack on titan’s final season plot or whatever (i’ve only seen season 1 & seen some memes and heard my friends complain so i’m just guessing).

**yeah i know like a paragraph ago i just said i didn’t understand his motivations but i remembered this when i reread Tachihara’s fight scene & he has a villain monologue moment explaining his motivation so yeah.

also in chapter 102.5:

what. what the f*ck.

so his future self went and searched all the areas of the huge ass airport so that his past & current self didn’t have to? how the hell does that make sense?

let me tell you how i believe time works

the future only exists because of the current, meaning his current self creates the future that his future self exists in. this makes sense since he’s able to alter the current by changing the past. with this scenario, it literally is just pure laziness to me. the future where the Kunikida and Tanizaki potentially saved Aya isn’t even shown because somehow his future, current and past selves are literally 3 different things in this story. his future self went and did this outside of our view, and his current self (in this scene) receives the messages & saves hours of time and can immediately find the ADA members in the airport thanks to his future self. what. the hell. are we not allowed to have anything anymore? is Fukuchi just God in this story now? we couldn’t get an escape scene or a fight scene with vampire Aku versus Kunikida and Tanizaki, or a horde of vampires even?

it would’ve been 100% more epic to have Tanizaki have to use his ability to hide the group and create illusions in order to escape the airport. the suspense would be palpable in that situation. plus we could also have Fukuchi searching for them as well but being confused by the illusions & unable to use his god mode powers to send himself messages as to where they are because he just doesn’t know. that would’ve been way better tbh.

plus this just muddles the basic understanding of time to me. it got a little iffy in the Tachihara fight since Fukuchi stabs into the future in order to defeat Tachihara, but it kind of made sense at least. in chapter 102.5 it really just doesn’t to me, it seems like his future self is able to just do stuff and allow his current self to save time by not existing in that future. i guess if i look at it as he’s technically altering the past but we’re just not seeing it it still makes sense, but this is what i mean when time travel is confusing and should be kept out of media where it’s used to just cut things out of the story or make an excuse for events to be rewritten.

ok i just had to get that out of my system. but seriously, if Fukuchi doesn’t end up dying soon & continues to use his deus ex machina sword to ruin the story i might just stop reading until this arc is over. it’s that bad to me.

mini theory: Dogra Magra needs to come back for a chapter so he can die and this arc can end

Q’s ability should theoretically make it so that he’s unable to warn his past self of danger, since his current self will be hallucinating and handicapped by Q’s mind control. this would leave him vulnerable to attacks and able to be defeated by literally anyone basically. the only issue is Dogra Magra will need to be used similarly to how it’s used in tandem with Steinbeck’s ability so that Fukuchi doesn’t see it coming and is unknowingly put under its control. as far as we know, there’s no counter to Dogra Magra other than Dazai’s ability so Fukuchi will be weak to it. plus if he isn’t able to detect when he falls under the ability’s spell then he won’t be able to warn himself, especially if it’s longer than 12 seconds in the past. and that’s the other thing, if literally any attack happens that’s time-based and happens even 13 seconds in the past, Fukuchi won’t be able to avoid it. this is similar to how Oda’s ability was weak to time-based attacks as well where he picked up the poison-coated ball and then realized the danger only after picking it up because it took 7 or 8 seconds for the danger to arrive, which is longer than Flawless allows him to see into the future.

[dreamkidddream]

Congrats for 800 Dream! 🎊🎉 may I ask 6 for Oda with a fem reader? #Odadeservesomuchlove

Thankssss 💙 I wholeheartedly agree with this hashtag and will rep it even after death put it on my tombstone (and I will be reviving the Kunikida and Oda deserve more love club because they still do 😤😤) and I went back to school this week so this really resonated with me because it’s stressful :,) (can you tell cause look at how long this took to post lmao 🥲)

“College AU” Trope with Oda!

Dream’s 800 Follower Special 📖

It is currently 2:07 in the morning, and you are on the brink of tears.

You didn’t feel them coming on at first, and when you did, you thought it was from you yawning so much and staring at a bright screen for the past- you blinked away the tears again- seven hours and counting. Out of the 15 pages assigned, you made it to page number eight, and then you hit a mental roadblock. Maybe it was because the paper was due in less than 12 hours, or how your stomach rumbled for real food and not the small snacks you ate hours ago, your pounding headache, forcing to type through your cramping hands, running on fumes- a combination of it all and more, honestly. And while the library was gracious and understanding enough to have late hours for the students, they weren’t open 24 hours, and would be closing soon. No library means no computer, as your laptop was currently getting fixed. No computer means no assignment, and no assignment means failing.

You chuckled at your stupidity. If you just managed your time better and had started on this earlier like you planned, then this all could have been avoided. You tried, you really did- but some of these professors all had the same idea to pile everything up last minute before winter break. You’re highly convinced that this is the start of your villain origin story.

You kept laughing and shaking your head, rubbing at the tears now consistently streaming down your face. You’re tired and you just want to cry yourself to sleep to forget about this whole thing and just cut your losses. At least after crying your eyes out, you’ll get the best sleep you’ve been missing out on for weeks. You’ll fail the class and will have to register for it again next semester, but on the brighter side you’ll try to be better prepared. Your graduation will get pushed back and your pride will be hurt and you’ll feel like a failure, but what else can you do-

“Here.”

The gasp and pure shock that shot through your body had your tears on standby. You clutched at your chest and jolted when you met cobalt-blue eyes. When did he- how much did he see?!

You don’t know how long you just stared mortified at the fact that the student worker- who you just recognized to be Oda- your class study buddy that you forgot works in the library part time (how could you considering he practically lives here)- just witnessed your meltdown, but you felt something warm enclose around your balled fist- his own hand. You felt his fingers ever so delicately unwrap your fingers and place something soft into it. A napkin, you realized. And then he slid a small container in front of you, “I warmed this up in the back so you can eat too.”

“No- Oda look, I am so sorry about this.” You pushed the bowl back his way. “I know- I know you guys are about to close and I’m so sorry that I’m the reason you’re still here, and I swear that I’ll be done in-“

“I’m not worried about that.” He pushed the container back your way, and you were starting to smell the aroma it was giving off, your stomach growling in anticipation. Your need to crawl into a hole until your existence is forgotten about just grew even more. And instead of him leaving- he pulled out the chair next to you and took a seat. “Um, you really didn’t have to do this, but…did you need something from me?”

He shook his head.

Then your heart dropped at another realization. “…it’s almost time to close isn’t it?”

He nodded his head, and you swallowed the lump in your throat as you began to close your books-

“But you don’t have to leave.”

You were just about to close out of your work when you froze. “Huh?”

“You don’t have to leave because you need help, and I’m here to help. But only after you take a break and eat something first- you’ve haven’t moved from this spot in hours.”

Was it that long? Must’ve been if you didn’t even notice that he was still here, “Help?”

He nodded his head once more, “You’re overwhelmed right now, and I could read over what you have so far if you want.”

“Really? You would do that?” It was no secret that Oda’s an amazing writer, and from the graded papers and exams given back over the weeks, someone that knows exactly what they’re doing. “But- I don’t want you to get in trouble with your boss.”

“It’s fine. It’s for you, so I don’t mind.”

You could feel your eyes glistening with tears again-

“After you take a break though.” He stated, going to the door and flipping the sign to closed, locking the door. He already cut off majority of the lights except for the one in your little corner. A quick look at your phone showed the time to be close to 3, but he already made his way back to you and rolled your chair out, taking your place in front of the computer.

His face didn’t change, but his tone softened as he faced you and gently placed his hand onto of your head. “You’ve been working hard (Y/N), it’s okay to take a break and it’s okay to ask for help. I told you can always come to me for anything and I mean it.”

And you know he did. Throughout the whole semester, he has been nothing but kind to you. Even outside of class he would go out of his way to check on you, ranging from eating lunch together or just having him walk you to class. He didn’t have to do any of it and he still chose to- you sniffled and wiped away at your tears, nodding your head, weakly smiling.

You guys didn’t leave until the sun was starting to peer through the windows, and you could barely keep your eyes open as you both walked back to the dorms. The anxiety of what your grade will be was still looming over your head, but it was a problem for when you wake up.

Right now, you were focused on how needed this sleep was, and how warm his fingers felt when they brushed against your own. It felt even better when he grabbed your hand and slightly squeezed, not letting go for the rest of the way.

—

Oda was putting away books lost in his own thoughts (of you) when he heard the footsteps approaching. Footsteps that were approaching quickly. Like someone was running-

By the time he turned around, he caught you in his arms as you practically tackled him. Luckily he was quick with his reflexes and encircled his own arms around you to make sure that you stayed on your feet, but it didn’t really help when you kept jumping around anyways.

He ignored the looks and glares that you were getting from other students and just concentrated on you, how your eyes was sparkling with your excited rambling. He may not have understood what exactly you were saying with how fast you were going, but from the papers you were waving around, he got the gist of it. He forgot that final grades were in today.

“Thankyouthankyouthankyou! You are a lifesaver, Oda! Just- thank you so much!”

“I didn’t save your life. I didn’t really do anything-“

“Are you kidding me?! Look at this!” You shoved the papers in his face, and he spotted the bright red circled A at the top. Even if his face wasn’t showing it, he really was proud of you, his eyes softening was any proof. He seemed to be doing that a lot more when he’s around you. “I couldn’t have done it without you, seriously. Just-“

Oda was one to not get caught off guard. If he ever does, it’s rare. He makes sure to not show it as much if he ever is.

So when he felt your lips pressed against his cheek, his breath hitched and he tensed up. But he recovered when he saw your own frozen expression, reading to unravel your arms from around him and apologize- but he just held you there and brought you closer, slowly closing the distance between you both.

He would take you outside eventually- this is a library after all and his shift is almost up- but not until he gets a few more kisses from you. Just a few more, he reminds himself, but he can’t get enough of the taste of your lips- and he can’t get enough of you.

[xenia-cenia]

Dazai x Fem! Reader - Together

Hurt to comfort but I went a little too hard on the ‘hurt’

TWs: Violence, not consensual touch, sexual harassment, spoilers, swearing, panic attack, death mention, heavily implied murder attempt 

Request: No

Word Count: 1,924

Dazai wasn’t possessive, nor he did often get jealous. That was the first thing he established in your relationship - he trusts you completely. And he knew you were attractive - oh how he knew - and that people would flirt with you sometimes. It didn’t bother him that much. 

Often when it happens, he’d just put an arm around your waist and let you handle it. The person flirting would always apologize, wish you a nice day, and head off. Always. 

Dazai made every possible effort to guarantee your comfort in a relationship. Need a day off? He’s got your favorite movie ready and is ordering your favorite food. Need to vent? He’s ready to listen. Need a hug? He’ll traces circles on your back as he whispers comforts into your ear.

So when you had asked him to let you handle people flirting with you, he readily stepped aside. A complacent smile on his face as he listened to you explain the status of your relationship, he would only fall more in love with you each time. 

Earlier that day, you had decided it was the perfect night for a picnic. Lying beneath the stars, occasionally cracking jokes, and reading poetry to each other. A peaceful night. A night Dazai was in desperate need of. 

He was already stressed. Tomorrow would be the anniversary of Oda- no. He can’t let himself remember. He shook his head and looked over at you smoothing the blanket out on the grass.

“Belladonna?” His voice was strained.

“Yes, love?” You looked up at him with a precious smile.

“Stay here. I want to grab something.”

“Oh?” You leaned forward and lightly jabbed his shoulder, “Did the genius Osamu Dazai forget something?”

He laughed suddenly, “You think too highly of me, Belladonna.”

“Hmm,” you shook your head with a soft smile, “I think you are perfect, Osamu.”

“Belladonna!” He dramatically exclaimed, folding his hands over his heart, “You wound me!”

You laughed and kissed his cheek, “Hurry back.”

“If it’s for you, I’ll hurry anywhere.” He stood, blowing a kiss your way, before heading down the street.

The cold air bit at his skin and he leaned against a tree in defeat. Tears began to blur his vision as he ran his hand through his hair. Why? Why was he still stuck in the past? Does the rut have an end? Is there a light at the end of this tunnel?

Is there any sort of happy ending? He knows he doesn't deserve it, and he’d be okay with a neutral ending. Just anything better than now. 

His knees gave out under him, and he collapsed to the ground. The girl back there, the absolute love of his life, was waiting for him. He promised her a million times over that he’d try. For her. For himself. For a happy ending. For a neutral ending at least. For anything better than this.

…does it get better than this?

Dazai sighed heavily. “Stop thinking like that, dumbass.”

He stood up and shook the thoughts away, walking to a nearby flower shop and praying they were still open.

Meanwhile, you sat on the blanket and watched the twinkling stars. A soft hum fell from your lips as you considered them, your arms gripping your knees as you leaned forward.

“Y’know, Miss, I can’t help but notice your eyes.” An unfamiliar voice rang out. You snapped your head in the direction of the voice and saw a tall man smiling widely at you, “It seems like you see my future in those beautiful eyes of yours.”

You laughed, “Oh, thank you. My boyfriend always says the same.”

“Boyfriend? Where is he right now?” The man sat next to you and grabbed your hand. You looked between the sharp gleam in his eyes and his ever-tightening grip on your hand. “To leave a girl like you all alone, this late at night... he must be stupid.”

You tried to yank your hand away from his grasp, “I can take care of myself, thank you.”

“I bet you can.” He hummed and pulled you into his chest, “Why not come with me? We could have some real fun...”

“Let go of me.” You pushed him and tried to reach for the gun in your pocket.

“Ah, ah.” He grabbed your other hand, “Y’know, he really must be a fool.”

“Let go.” You growled as you glared at him.

“Now, now. Why are you being defensive? I’m just trying to show you a good time!”

“I don’t want it.” 

“You think you don’t want it.”

You scoffed, “You fucking prick. When my boyfriend gets back-”

“I’m not scared of him. You and me, baby. We got something good.”

“Fuck off!” You struggled harder against his grip, “You’re such a creep! Dazai! DAZAI!”

“Shut up, bitch!” He pushed you onto the ground and pinned your hands down. “Why can’t you just make this easy and shut up?”

You attempted to kick him, but his legs kept yours on the ground. The fear made your head spin, tears blurred your vision and dripped down your face. As you looked into his cruel eyes you began to wonder is this it? Was he going to kill you? 

“Dazai...” You whimpered in a last-ditch effort, hoping - no, praying - he would come to your rescue.

“He’s not coming, sweetheart.” The man smiled, enjoying the fear in your eyes, “It’s just you and me.”

They say your life flashes before your eyes when you’re about to die. Well as you were pinned down in a dark park all by yourself, a stranger on top of you with the tip of a knife peeking from the pocket of his coat, you realized that was bullshit.

There was no stirring music, no last burst of adrenaline, no montage of things to fight for. Just you and the man who planned on killing you. 

You screwed your eyes shut and titled your head in the direction Dazai had left. Maybe if you were lucky, the last thing you’d hear would be his footsteps and not the strangers’ heavy breaths. Maybe if you were lucky, you could end the night wrapped in Dazais arms watching shitty movies and telling old jokes.

Maybe in another life, you decided. Maybe after this man takes everything he can, maybe you’ll meet Dazai again. Maybe he’ll remember you. Maybe you’ll get the neutral ending you’ve always wanted. 

A loud shout drew you from your thoughts. You opened your eyes when you felt the pressure from your wrists loosen, with no hesitation you punched the stranger in the nose and pushed him off of you. 

“(Y/N)!” A familiar voice called out.

Your head snapped to the side and your limbs felt weak as you looked into familiar eyes, “Osamu!”

Dazai quickly closed the distance between the two of you, one hand cupping your cheek and the other wiping your tears away, “Are you okay? What happened?”

“He- I-” You tried to speak between sobs.

“You dick!” The man roared, clutching his bloody nose and glaring at Dazai, “Who the fuck are you?!”

Dazai didn’t say anything, only softly pushing you to the side and grabbed the man by his collar and holding him in the air, “My darling girlfriend is quite lovely, isn’t she? Sweet yet fierce. So tell me, what exactly were your plans with her?”

“N-Nothing! She’s just being dramatic,” he laughed nervously, “Really, I was only messing around!”

“Only messing around?” Dazai dropped the man to the ground, “Well, in that case...”

“Th-thank you, man!” He scrambled to his feet and began to run away.

Before he got far, however, Dazai grabbed the back of his clothes and he tripped onto the ground. “Oops! Sorry. I was only messing around.” He smiled and walked to the man, he lifted his leg and kicked harshly into the man’s side, “Ah, how clumsy of me!”

You watched in stunned silence as Dazai kicked the man in the head.

“Is-is he...?” You gulped.

“Dead? No. Just unconscious. We’re going to take him to the police.” He sighed heavily, “Are you alright?”

“I...” You took a deep breath, “Not really.”

Dazai nodded. “When we get home, do you want a nice warm bath?”

“Y-Yes, please.” 

“It’ll be done, Belladonna.” He smiled and hoisted the unconscious man on his shoulder, offering his free hand to you.

After the man was in police custody and you were in your shared home safely, Dazai found himself opening a journal that’s been long untouched. He ran his fingers over the tear-stained paper and read the last entry.

I knew this was coming. 

Everything worth keeping will just leave eventually. One more drink, that’s all I want. Or maybe another try at that day we all met. 

Remember how Ango said we smelled awful? It’s been a while, but I think I know what he means now. Death doesn’t smell great.

Odasaku, I miss you. You and Ango were my reasons to stay. Something worth keeping. And now I’m alone again. Please forgive me. I want to protect someone as you said, but these hands only know how to kill. Show me, Odasaku. Show me how to follow in your footsteps. 

Please.

Dazais breath hitched as he traced his fingers over the words. With shaky hands, he flipped to a new page and grabbed a nearby pen. 

It’s been some time now. I’ve been trying my best. Took in an orphan myself, I like to think him meeting me was your doing. 

Am I doing good, Odasaku? Have I helped people? I can’t tell. Tonight I saw someone I care about in danger and I felt myself go to how I was back then. Blood really is a bitch to get out, huh? 

I wanted to kill that bastard right then and there. But I looked into her eyes and, damn, she had the same look you did. I love her so much. I think you would too. Right now, she’s resting in the bathtub and taking a nice warm bath. 

I miss you. 

Dazai took a shaky breath and carefully shut the journal, tucking it away back in the bottom of his drawer. 

Tomorrow would the anniversary of losing Odasaku. How many years has it been? Dazai couldn’t remember. Maybe he just didn’t want to. 

The door to the bathroom opened, he turned and saw you ringing out your hair.

“Belladonna,” he sighed and went to meet you, “how are you feeling?”

You looked into his eyes and pulled him into a tight hug, “Can we watch a movie?”

Dazai smiled softly, “Any movie you’d like, Belladonna.”

“One with a happy ending?”

He nodded and led you over to the tv in your shared room, him sitting on the chair and you curled on his lap as he flipped through movies.

As the movie played and you wrapped your arms around his neck, he felt at peace. 

After an hour and a half of mediocre writing and cliches, Dazai felt a tear slide down his cheek. You looked up as it hit your head and whispered, “Osamu? What’s wrong?”

“I’m just glad for a happy ending, that’s all.” 

“A happy ending...” you repeated. 

What Dazai didn’t mention is the certain feeling building in his chest. He almost felt as if Odasaku and Ango were cheering him on, pushing him out of Lupin and into a bright, new world.

A world where he could hold you, and you could hold him. 

[sashi-ya]

Hay! Could I request a second part to your Yamato fic? You can make it sfw or nsfw, whatever you prefer. I would like to know what happens afterwards ~ do they develop feelings? Thank you and I hope I'm not too late! 💗 Don't forget to give yourself some me-time🥺

Hi my darling! Of course! I’m so sorry for the delay, but I wanted to write this when I get truly inspired so I can deliver to you the best version of it ♥ It’s not super long, because we don’t really have much info about Yamato yet, but if Oda wants to give us more -I’m sure he will-, I can write more about this lovely couple.

Either way, I hope you enjoy it!! Thank u for all of your support, love u! 💖 ~

Soft! NSFW ~ Yamato x F! Reader ~ Play That Melody For Me ~ PART 2

TW: HE/HIM pronouns used for Yamato (as it should be). Bathing together. Kissing. There is no explicit smut, but still they are naked together ~

WC: 887

This is the second part of the Fic “Play That Melody For Me” ♥

“I have your dad’s diary… that’s why I asked the only person that knows how to play that melody to do it for me… I’m on your side, Princess…“

You blink repeatedly. “My dad’s diary? Princess?” you ask, scared but intrigued at the same time. “I do, I was there when… Oden was… shoot…” Yamato says, while his eyes get watery.

You walk up to the window, angry, with pure hatred in your heart. You turn around, crying. “By your dad! Kaido killed my...” you shout, but you get interrupted by Yamato’s soft lips over yours. “Shh, don’t say it. If someone hears you, you will be in danger!” he says, while your legs turn weaker, and he holds you, so you don’t fall.

“I won’t allow you to fall, princess. You won’t get on your knees, never again” he says, brushing your hair while you cry pressed against his chest. The way Yamato pronounces the word “princess”, the way he holds you. It feels so good, so safe. But he is your enemy. You shouldn’t trust this man, what if he is here to take you to Kaido?...

“I know you are afraid of me, but trust me, I hate Kaido. I want to kill him, and I will” he swears to you and kisses your head. Yamato is way taller than you, his arms protect you, you can rest at least for a second there. And for some reason, you trust. Don’t really know why, but you trust in him.

You spend some more minutes cuddling and decide to take a bath. “Would you take a bath with me, Yamato?” you ask him. “Sure, let’s go” he says and both of you head to the bathing room next to your room.

Steam fills the place, the sound of little fountains and the smell of rose petals floating on the little pool makes everything better. Your naked bodies surrounded by the mist the warm water produces, you hold Yamato's hand, guiding him to the pool.

When both of you sit on the water, Yamato gets closer to you. His nose against yours, foreheads pressing. “Trust me, please. I want to protect you” he says. A single tear falls from the corner of your eye to your cheek. “I need time...” you whisper. “Fine” he says, smiling kindly.

Yamato takes a little white towel and asks you to turn around. He gently rubs your back, up and down, softly, caring. Sometimes placing pecks over your shoulder, sometimes taking the cloth up until the small of your back. Everything happens in silence, enjoying the sound of the water, his breathing and sometimes the cold feeling of the metallic shackles he has on his wrists.

“Let me do it…” you tell him. You can’t help but feel the need to caress his back, your fingers travelling through his spine. “Are you sure, princess? You shouldn’t…” he says, shyly. “I want to” you tell him and grab the cloth from his hands. “Turn around for me” ... And he does so, his long white hair covers his back, so you take it and put it over his shoulder.

Yamato’s back is finally exposed before you. Even the mist is not able to conceal the multiple scars he has on his back. It looks like he’s been tortured, abused. You don’t dare to ask, but you know… you know really well who did that to him. You pass the towel over his back, up and down. Softly, not to clean him, but to put some love into that wounded skin. “I’m sorry” you whisper. He remains silent, he knows you know…

You plant a soft kiss over his shoulder and rest your chin there. Yamato’s big hand reaches for your head, he pats it gently, resting his head over yours. The golden loop around his wrist reflects your face. “Why…?” you ask. “Because he doesn’t want me to defeat him…” he says, smiling. Both of you let a little laugh slip out of your mouths.

“Come here” he says, and turns you around, so you could sit over his lap. You cross your legs around his waist, your breasts pressing. The back of his hand caresses your cheek. “I will help you to get rid of this” you say, by pointing to the shackles. “Just wait for them to arrive… twenty years from that day…” you tell him, hoping that you haven’t revealed so much information. But he knows, he knows well… “I’ve been waiting for them since that day. I know they are coming soon” he whispers and kisses your forehead.

It doesn’t matter how guilty you feel, you can’t escape the magical attraction you have for him. “Let’s fight together, ok?” you tell him. “Of course, princess” he says, and kisses your lips. Is this love? The need of him staying to protect you, to keep coming, to kiss you forever… is this love?

Yamato finally leaves the place, not before making love to you once again. Insatiable needs to express something physically. Does he love you? Or is it just praising you as his princess? But either way, you can’t wait for him to come back tomorrow… maybe kissing him one more time, maybe touching his skin once more, maybe having his eyes staring into your soul again could ease your doubts…

“Come back tomorrow, please” “I will always come back to your side, my Tsukihime…” ♥~