#i really needed this good gender feel

[quasieli]

[Image description: Four images of myself (they/he), two photos shown from the knees up and the other two photos shown from the chest up. I am a young, chubby, white enby with buzzed dark brown hair. I am wearing a short black dress with large red roses patterned across it, and in two photos, I am also wearing a burgundy suit jacket. In the first photo, I am posing by pulling the skirt out, as if about to curtsy. In the second and forth photo, I am in three quarters profile, and sat down with my hand propped up under my chin. In the second photo, I am wearing the jacket, but in the forth photo I am not. In the third photo, I am bent forward and smiling. End description.]

Sorry not sorry for selfie spam the last couple days but I've Achieved Peak Gender

[iknowicanbutwhy]

Puyo/Madou, meet ISAT. ISAT, meet Puyo/Madou. I'm sure you have everything in common and this is not at all a completely random crossover of my two current interests

[puppppppppy]

Its really freeing when “gender is just a construct” really sinks in and you dont see yourself identifying with any pre-existing gender that the answer is “wait I can just make my own gender lol.” So. Hello everyone. Im pupgender now

[squorttle-pox]

idk if it means anything really, but i think it's interesting how after all their time together as a couple in a christianity-adjacent world, lucifer and lilith only had one (1) child, and it was only 200 years ago at that

[thoughtscout]

lol, I knew that would touch a nerve.

I don't 'reject' people in prostitution or trans-identifying people. that couldn't be further from the truth, and just goes to prove that the average Tumblr user doesn't have a clue what radical feminists actually believe.

I experience personal discomfort around certain sex topics, partly because of my sexual trauma, but I constantly self reflect to make sure I'm not projecting that discomfort onto a judgement of anyone else's character. I don't morally judge anyone's sexual acts unless they're violent, harmful or exploitative. I study human sexuality from a place of personal interest and political investment. some of my views on sexuality are:

I have deep, radical compassion for people in prostitution - regardless of how they personally feel about their circumstances. I regularly watch documentaries about women in the sex trade, prostitution and pornography. I regularly read literature and articles about them - I read blogs and stories told by people who have exited prostitution, as well as those who are still in it. they make me uncomfortable to hear about, because they are often stories of trauma, suffering and objectification. but they also open my mind & heart to these experiences, which helps form my perspective, and ultimately fuels my sex trade abolitionist stance.

I'm very interested in what it means to be 'sexually liberated' from shame & stigma, but I have enough critical thinking to recognize that this is not synonymous with embracing sex as a purely positive thing in today's society. rape still exists, FGM still exists, pedophilia still exists, sexual exploitation still exists - and they're not going away any time soon. I believe things like casual sex and kink are complex subjects that are not being approached honestly, because people seem laser-focused on destigmatizing them, when that's only part of the discussion (the relevance of culture, consent and trauma being the rest). I think most people who believe themselves to be sex-positive or 'liberated' are actually just acting from a place of internalized stigma and shame, and are acting out in over-compensative rebellion to spite what they perceive as the status-quo.

I don't believe pornography is something that can be 'enjoyed' in ethical earnesty, because it is a viscious form of limbic capitalism that relies on the exploitation of human sexuality, and involves untold numbers of traumatized, trafficked and abused women & children in order to function. I don't believe money and sex should have anything to do with each other, I think it violates consent. I don't believe sex should be "performed", I think it should be experienced. I don't believe pornography is necessary for sexual enjoyment, I think that's a lie propped up by the industry that profits off of it - one of the richest industries in the world.

I support anyone's right to create and share forms of erotic creativity, such as artwork, literature, media and music, and I enjoy some of these things for myself as well. I do think that these things should be shared in appropriate spaces, however, as media and the internet are oversaturated with them, making non-consensual exposure a frequent occurrence (especially for children). while it's possible for it to be completely healthy, I don't think our society nurtures that, and I think the relationship one has to sexual content can have profound psychological effects that are often unrecognized.

trans-identifying people make me frustrated more than anything, because we're often so close to agreeing on how to understand gender and handle dysphoria, and yet so, so far. in fact, my views towards gender have not changed too drastically since I identified as trans - radical feminism just made me feel more confident in them.

I recognize biological sex as immutable, and I recognize gender as a construct based on what we conceive of as stereotypically 'masculine' and 'feminine'. hence, I would rather see a world where bio sex is relevant only wherever it is relevant, and people are free to dress and present however they choose, without it having any reflective power on their 'identity'. I don't believe this can be fully realized without the deconstruction of the patriarchy, and so sex-based oppression and gender abolition are my primary focus.

trans-id-females make me see my past self, so I feel empathetic towards them. I extend the same compassion to gender dysphoric males. trans-identifying people don't make me uncomfortable just for existing. but when they're being openly misogynistic, fetishistic, predatory, violent towards women or endangering towards gender non-conforming children, as they often are, their behaviour makes me angry.

I don't 'reject' anyone from anything. I don't want to see anyone rejected from society - I don't want to see anyone rejected from humanity. but I am entitled to my opinions, and I am entitled to expressing them publicly since they do not incite violence towards any group of people. to liken me to a conservative for this simple fact is laughable. my political views have absolutely nothing in common with conservativism. feminism has absolutely nothing in common with conservativism. it never has.

[moongothic]

Absolute hate how all Oda has to do is make one (1) fictional man with pretty hair to give me raging gender envy

Like this was so unnecessary and cruel, towards me specifically

[strawberryseeded]

i wish we had gotten more of kugisaki nobara. i just watched dis vid and all my contained RAGE abt dis topic suddenly HIT ME LIKE A TRAIN GOD IM UPSET

ive talked like 32893882 times already (and its still NOT ENOUGH) abt how upset i was abt nobara's death cos she was such a good character, with so much potential!! i really REALLY liked her. she was funny, strong, confident and kind!!!! i loved her char design!! her cursed technique and weapon were cool as hell!!!!!!

and her (recently SOMEWHAT(?) confirmed(?)) death sucked so fucking much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

she was just. fucking fridged. as much as it pains me to admit it. from a narrative standpoint, she died so yuuji would get upset and further develop his character & then move the plot along. even mahito admits that he wants her to die to make yuuji suffer. like yeah he also recognizes her a strong opponent (ofc. cos she is) but at the end of the day he wanted to kill her just to wreck yuuji. and he succeded.

nobara has no say on the way she dies. she's just.. slapped, kinda. its so sudden. its so... weird. not that she's accepting of it (we already know that she knows she can die at any moment and she's ready for it (cos she's a freak like the rest of the sorcerers lol)), but its weird bc its like its not a personal moment for her. yeah we get a flashback & her speech about how, even tho she always was a person who refused to let other people affect the way she is and decides to live, there still are people who, by being accepting of her, managed to gain a place in her heart... and she's happy for that. its rly beautiful.

but its the impact her death has on yuuji what the story really cares about here.

and like. thats fine! im not even saying killing nobara is a bad choice or that its bad if her death also developed yuuji's character. but the way it was done, its like her death only had that purpose. its a way too transparent device, that's what i dislike abt it. i dont mind being upset bc a character i love dies? i like feeling strong emotions when i engage emotionally with art/stories.

but i think she was killed off too soon. we didn't get to properly say goodbye to her. both her character arc and her death were rushed.

she could have been developed so much more! it feels like she was taken away way too soon in the story. i wanted her to fight sukuna along the others. i wanted her to use her cool technique to help yuuji nail sukuna's soul. i wanted to see just how much stronger she could get. i wanted her to finally meet saori. I WANTED HER TO HAVE A COOL EYE PATCH!!!!!!!!!!!

why is she barely mentioned after she dies??? she was one of the 3 main, dude, are u kidding me? yuuji's the only one who mentions her but he's almost afraid of talking about her. its like the whole world forgot about her!!!!! and what about maki?????? werent they girlfriends?

what is nobara's LEGACY? why did gege not make her death matter in the narrative? even if she (for whatever reason) came back(??) at the end, id still be rly mad & sad abt it cos i wanted to see her DO STUFF!! i wanted to see her kick some ass!!!! i wanted to see her grow!!!!! to open up with others!!!!! I WANTED TO SEE MORE OF HER. IM SO UPSET I WANT OUT

[em-b-sides]

I think about that tiktok trend where you like paint your partners eye color on your nails or make a bracelet or something with the color a lot actually

[whos-hotter-jjba]

[unproduciblesmackdown]

omgg lol [guy who won't stop going "more like scapeGOATED" voice] now hold! on!! lmao [same guy just saw encanto voice] Hold on!!!

[artbyzephra]

Been wanting to practice Anatomy a bit more in depth - it's something that I know, but then get lazy on and a refresher can help immensely. Recently bought a book by Rockhe Kim, that's just fantastic to go through, and spending time in this sketchbook to go through everything they're talking about.

Trying also to practice brush pen while studying, so the sections I "know" now also become "how can I get better line quality", where having that sort of distraction can help push through the study itself. Because it's honestly very hard to break past that barrier somedays and work to just be humble bringing in new information. Hell, I even dropped out of art college 10+ years ago for that very reason - something seemed simple to me so I didn't put the work in, and then it became overwhelming way too fast.

And who knows, sometimes you'll surprise yourself with new information if you go and try practicing fundamentals again that you haven't thought of in awhile.

Not sponsored or anything - I just think this book is really damn neat. Anyone looking to do more anatomy practice - I'd highly recommend it. It goes over potential mistakes artists can make too, but in a way that is very respectful when it comes to examples. A lot of times art books or teachers can be demeaning without even meaning it.

The book does share a lot of differences between Male/Female forms, but personally I'm a defender of that while also understanding all the flaws that comes with it. Often times practicing male vs female bodies is how you first encounter body differences visually to practice different forms. I choose to take it as a starting place, that you then can use to see how a body can differ and make it your own where the lesson isn't just contained in the book but then grows over time.

I am not either body type represented in this book, but that doesn't diminish the knowledge presented. And honestly, how am I going to draw some of my favorite male characters if I don't practice a more feminine form? Or some of my favorite women who have a more masculine frame? If nothing else, they seem to be more respectful when showing the differences, and go super in depth not just for how they may look at a front view, but how it translates across all sorts of movements and perspectives.

[mauv-the-bluest-cat-ever]

i have my benefits of not being out as trans (which is. only one really but it is not being harassed because i dont attract attention) but it fucks with my sense of self

[kitkatcadillac]

i have this situation where i love talking about the queer experience particularly in the gender way, as nebulously as possible, when it comes to some sort of broader view or Other People's Experiences making Sense to me

but when i try to kind of face my own gender and thoughts i get like. scared and embarrassed to just Say It, i always have. the they/them out for may/hem jokes are one thing, but talking about my own raw and varied experience of not fitting into the binary, no matter how much i completely respect, support, and cheer on others experiences with it, its so... embarrassing. i cant face my own body a lot of the time. i hardly want anything to do with any gender most of the time, but the rest of the world operates with it really quite forthwith, and like. you can only ignore it so hard, where you fit in, or where you DON'T. where you never hardly ever see anyone else feel quite the way you do, so you feel like you're fake and invalid or doing transgender wrong 😭 (everyone else is fine and right and in charge of their life courageously though)

constantly in a push and pull of relaxing and letting myself find and affirm my identity as i best can with where im at physically, mentally, but also feeling very isolated and even shut down or shunned. the world feels like a box that gets smaller while i feel like the box shouldnt even exist at all sometimes, like it isnt that hard to just keep open and treat it like its just as plain a fact as the grass is green the sky is blue instead of something to pick apart or criticize...

im queer but im queer wrong sometimes, socially. and since im queer wrong sometimes socially, my lived-experience being queer isnt really valid due to being contrarian and so i shouldnt have much to say or have any valid reflections of the experiences around me!!! <-(feelings not reality, but important feelings to be worked through and understood and soothed, which can be difficult when relating or socializing comes with a difficulty increaser!!!!)

[vigorouslycoy]

i love saying young man and young lady and ma'am when i'm scolding people. it's like bruh but way cuntier

[countingprimes]

sometimes i see queer people make low hanging anti straight jokes, and they'll often pre-defend themselves by saying straight people don't need defending as if the queer community isn't populated by tons of straight people, straight trans people, straight ace people, straight poly people. queerness doesnt exclude exclusively opposite sex attracted people and it bothers me to see these jokes and their subsequent defenses because normative society certainly rejects these folks because of their queerness and now you are inside the queer community rejecting them for who they desire. i think about straight trans folks the most who are out here under fire from normative society who turn to the queer community for support only to be inundated with sentiments like straight people are actually the real lesser than folks, and it's easy enough to say straightness is valorized in normative society so shitting on straight people is punching up, but i can't help but be keenly aware that the queer straight people tend to be queer in the ways which are often excluded from queer community. so actually yeah i do think straight people need our protection, not heteronormative culture, but individual people? yeah. the "coming out as straight" jokes are all haha good times fuck the straights until you think about the fact that straight trans people when they come out are functionally doing that. after all how many straight trans people used to think they were cis gay people. and we, inside the queer community, turn their experiences into a mean spirited punch line designed to reject them from queer community.

like sorry i just don't think we are gonna find queer liberation by trying to figure out which group we are allowed to make fun of for having the wrong sexuality.

[eldritchbean-shapeshifter]

Ugggggghhh dysphoria is the worst

I was supposed to shower last night but the thought of having to perceive my body felt so INCREDIBLY NAUSEATING.

So I ended up procrastinating and was up past 3 am

I ended up grabbing a thing of baby wipes and used them to clean myself off and it was better but it still felt viscerally uncomfortable and disgusting

I'm glad I have A body (even if it doesnt always fit right), but sometimes I'd rather swim in a pit of Lava than pay attention to it