#i need to know im not the only one mentally ill about them

[thebe4ulog]

had to cry a little after reading this. also i dont know why i didnt just put keep reading on it in the first place. ive known im not alone for a while but i feel like thats what accepting yourself is all about. i know im trans. its about turning the knowing into feeling.

your story is beautiful and im so grateful to hear it. its thrilling that i get to be a woman!!! and i wont be for a while, but i get to grow up like all the girls around me got to, just a little older physically. i'm lucky to be in quite an accepting environment and i cant help but want to echo the words youve said to people who need them more because theyre very valuable. im sure some places i wont be accepted, but as long as i accept myself, as long as its authentic enough for myself. i need to teach myself that thats when its okay. after today i feel more excited and ready to start than ever. im so grateful for this website, i feel more accepted than ever. im just getting to be that girl i could never quite put my finger on wanting to be, and thanks to the motivation from lovely women like yourself one day ill get to be in real life too. and itll all be okay in the end.

if only i was born that way, but maybe there's a reason why we were born trans too. im not particularly spiritual or religious, but in the back of my mind i like to believe everything happens for a reason. not even believe, just leave it on like a porchlight back there in case it leads anything good to me. look at me getting all poetic but everything is so insignificant that there must be a significance to it. the fact im here right now. one of a kind of the kind one of a kind. i was faced with a challenge so unique to myself and such a specific group of people, whatever i was meant to become. im here right now for a reason. this is one step in my story and what have you i dont actually know where im going with this im waffling erm.

i think bottom line is accepting my transness is accepting its beautiful. its not a mental illness and even if it is, so be it. above all it's me. this is who i am and i need to go live it or i'll die first.

i think im starting to accept that im a girl and. im just heartbroken

i feel robbed, i couldve been so much happier and im grateful that ill get to be, but its all so much more complicated. its not fair

i shouldnt feel as calm as i do. it seems so up here but i feel like its just stress masquerading as quiet. i just dont have the words anymore

they should get to work on that button

[aeinstong]

Oh so when dean says "I need you" to Cas it's seen by yall as "I love you" but when Sam says "Gabriel, I need you" it's not... interesting

[carnivalls]

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See the thing is. I know I'm good at writing. Like I have my weak areas or things I need to improve in, but it's not a skill I otherwise spend a lot of time feeling insecure about because a) if I don't believe in my writing literally who will b) if I want to publish my writing I ought to at least feel a resting level of good about it because editors and agents likely will not be cradling my face like a prize cat and telling me how talented I am while asking for their edits c) I've always had an audience for my writing even at its worst– I started sharing my original works online when I was around 16 & that really helped sell to me the idea of 'there will always be someone out there who likes what you do' d) untalented men never think this hard about the quality of their works and they always end up published anyway and e) I don't have many other thoroughly developed skills so why not have one I feel good about. Having said this. Awkward feeling to realize you're one of the authorial weak links in your postgraduate creative writing degree's social circle

[charliespringverse]

i think it should be possible to scream without making any noise or disturbing anyone or inviting any questions . just sometimes . as a treat .

[dreamlogic]

aye can i get a fuckin uuuhhhh

break. on my burger

[mwagneto]

sorry i can't hang out rn the two men from that 4 year old show kissed and i literally cannot think about anything else. yeah gonna be all month

[yikes-ajax-thats-sad]

People really think trust issues are just "aww they're scared of love" and it's like bitch no. Trust issues as in I'm deeply in love and the issue is I'm waiting for you break my heart after undergoing periodic abuse in relationships. I'm not scared of love I'm scared of what you'll do with it.

[silent-sentinels]

i need everyone to understand that i am trying my best and i hate every second of it.

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

the thing is like. my field is really cool and I do enjoy my job in theory but in reality I just don't think I'm built for this, and I'm frankly a little tired of people going "noooo you're so good at what you do" and in the same breath telling me all the ways I've fucked up by not being as attentive and at 100% energy while I'm here

[ofcowardiceandkings]

the sinus headaches are already not great but Extra Shit has been added to the pile and im just sat on that right now trying to figure out what the fuck to do

[angelstrawbabie420]

crazy how i have no one

[subarashiihibi]

What I rly need to do is write up a thing abt this excerpt I read in one of the novels …. Ah it was so good I was filled with such emptiness and dread and suicidal ideation as soon as I read it … i have a final to take later (and get I am awake at nearly 4am) so after I get home from that maybe I will…

[flovverworks]

after a billion yrs i added a lil line about my gbf verse.....<3 one day i might flesh it out to something in-universe, but since gbf is so "oh ure from another world? ya that happens..." i....am gonna keep w that..........(also cuz i do think discussing the different ways of magic, moon-enemy & this n that is more fun like this

[dandyshucks]

i get slightly annoyed when people make community posts that tell ppl to stop doing xyz and use the phrases "they're a FICTIONAL character, theyre NOT REAL" to justify whatever theyre saying because:

1) everyone knows that already, we're all aware these are blorbos from our media;

2) if someone is genuinely struggling to grasp that because of a delusion or similar, a forceful reality check is only going to cause harm rather than help;

3) it just feels so needlessly patronizing;

4) most of the time whatever I see people complaining about is either smth that I never see anyone doing or if it is smth somebody is doing then the block button is a very quick and effective fix for the issue (or even a quick convo w the person in DMs can resolve issues!)

(granted I keep my following circle very small and probably miss a lot but if i can do that then perhaps... perhaps other people can do it too fhfkdl like just prune back whatever u dont like seeing! unfollow or block as needed!)

[snekdood]

idk who needs to hear this (vaush) but being a skilled debater and being Good With Words does not make you correct.

[strwbrymlkshake]

LOVE ME THE MOST THE MOST YOU POSSIBLY CAN!!!!!! LOVE ME THE MOST I NEED TO BE THE ONLY THING IN YOUR MIND