#i need my meds

[cloudkurokuroz]

[scary-friend]

Vent

My dad is currently withholding my medication until I hang out with him.

The way I want him dead…

I need my antidepressants and anti anxiety pills, if I don’t take them I go insane and feel so fucking sick.

What the fuck is wrong with him! Why can’t he just leave me the fuck alone!

And my mom can’t help me now because she’s out and can’t come home until like 3 pm, it’s currently 9:20 am and I’m only gonna get worse as the day progresses.

I’m so fucking pissed at him, and then he has the fucking audacity to yell at me when I said I didn’t wanna hang out. Like I have to stay home because we just put my dog on new medication and I need to watch him so not nothing bad happens. Like actually fuck you dad. What the fuck is wrong with you!?

Koda is 15, last week when I wasn’t home he had a seizure, thankfully my mom was home, but he couldn’t even move. She had to carry him everywhere. She thought he was gone. I’m not gonna risk not being there for him ever again. Why can’t dad get that through his thick skull.

I already just feel sick and numb. I wish my mom was here, she could fix this. This fucking sucks

[marseythechaotic05]

[mf-starg1rl]

Crying in the bathroom is an even worse habit

[fondcrimes]

its kind of amazing how i can spend the whole day thinking abt drawing something and then i just dont draw it

[alberteatsglass]

I CAST SPELL OF ZOLOFT

[anandasamsara]

Hello, i desperately need to buy my meds, so im opening one half body sketch commission slot

I can't ask my friends for help anymore bc they already helped me more than i probably deserve, so

You can find the payment info on my pinned post, and here's the example of the kids of comms i have

Just, please, I can't take anything more than a half body sketch one right now

I'll reblog it tomorrow with the full payment info, but you can find it on my pinned post as i said up here, and i can only accept Paypal or ko-fi

Thank you

[akmu]

[frankcastlescumslut]

thinking of starting a Matt series and my brain is going to mush………. I can’t keep getting away with this.

[backagain-butforhowlong]

Waking up with “Happiness” from Passion stuck in my head feels like an omen.

[c-o-z-m-o]

Kinds fucked up that they invented thesebsick and twisted mind games

[thewarmisice]

VENT POST

Depression waves rlly suck bc I'll be doing fine and then suddenly life is worthless for no apparent reason. My friends have jobs or are asleep. And I'm not desperate enough to chat with strangers on sites like Omegle. I play single player gamers while YouTube videos are on in the background so I can pretend I'm playing with friends.

Idk why. Maybe it's the depression talking. But it just kinda sucks that like I rlly miss a friend from highschool. We don't talk as much anymore bc he lives further and keeps his discord on DND. but bro like understood my brain like no one else man. Nobody gets you like the depressed artsy kid who was more chronically online than u in school. No friends or family rlly compare y'know? Homie knows what unmedicated severe depression does to the mind. The stress induced hallucinations. The impending doom that it won't get better. And the helplessness of knowing your partner has no idea how to help u. Neither of us truly knowing how to save the other. But knowing we know each other.

I rlly miss him and honestly..... I just need a fkin sleepover rn dawg. I miss my fkin best friend. I miss my fkin bro. And I just need to bake cookies with him while drinking tea and playing fkin videogames. Watching him draw like I used to. I need my homie

....I'm happy for him tho. He has a big boy job and a house at the age of 20. Super stressed tho.

[autistic-autumn]

always remember, if something doesn't go your way an elaborate murder-suicide plot is always a possibility

[eridan-ampora]

i love it when characters are codependent. i love it when losing someone feels like losing a limb. i love it when two people "complete" each other so wholly and terribly that one can barely function without the other. i love it when the fear of losing the only person who understands them is so all-consuming they'll destroy anything to stay together, including themselves.

[babybarbies]

i have night sads

[yafterdark]

what if i killed myself. that'd show 'em.