#i legitimately hate living like this

[too-much-alphabet-soup]

I got a hit of this the other day at work.

I was sitting in my cube in reception and I could see outside this sliver through the glass door. The shades were mostly drawn due to the sun existing and my windows facing it at this time of the day. In that window of outside was a perfectly blue sky and the bright green of a tree's leaves. The world seemed flat from that viewpoint, no shadows just this blue and green.

I had such a longing, a desire, a need to be outside to be at a park, to recline in meadows, to run through fields, to touch mountains, to swim in creeks. I wanted to be anywhere other than the grey and white cube I work in.

I didn't want to stare at screens and as much as I love spreadsheets I couldn't stand them. I was beset with such profound grief and longing I developed a whole ass migraine, I wept while my fingers longed to touch fabric or yarn or paper. I longed to create, to be free to be anywhere else.

My heart was heavy, it was a physical sensation that filled my body, I did not want to be there.

I went home early and took the next day off.

I made this

I couldn't not.

are u ever sick w longing. and i don't just mean romantic longing. i mean longing for a place you barely get to see, longing for friends you no longer have, longing for feelings you might have left behind in your childhood, longing for creativity, longing for a rich and more expansive life, longing for less inhibition. longing for more passion. longing for ur life to be so incandescent w something it thaws all the frost in ur bones. are u ever so consumed w it it rends ur heart in two. do u understand me

[sga-owns-my-soul]

if you're going to be mad about dogs chewing things or cats scratching things don't get a fucking animal. ever.

sincerely, a pissed off pet store employee who is sick of explaining that cats scratch things and dogs chew things because it's a natural fucking behaviour

[hussyknee]

In one of the 647968 posts going "What You Like Says Nothing About You" (broadly agree) the first comment in the reply section was, "well I'm never going to apologize for being a Swiftie and a Reylo and Destiel shipper and Snape fan and loving ACOTAR and LOTR and Hamilton and B99" and I'm like, actually being this much of a pathological white liberal makes you the exception to this rule 😭😭

[lesbiansanemi]

Was doing so good holding it together today but now that I’m laying down and trying to sleep I’m tearing up and I can feel that I’m about to burst into tears any second now

[army-of-bee-assassins]

every time i have to move and i start looking at apartments it's exciting imagining living in these cool places. and then every time once i actually pick a place and apply and sign a lease and pay all these scammy fees i feel like such a sucker being taken advantage of with nothing i can do about it. it's just. a bad feeling.

[grimalkinmessor]

"Our goal is to turn Hawaii into the first Smart State—" FUCK OFF I HATE YOU. You still haven't got all the fucking bodies out of the water. There are over 1,200 children either dead or missing. A marine ship just caught people in full FEMA gear trying to abscond with and/or dump piles of corpses in the ocean and no news station will cover it. Donations to the natives are being blocked by both our government and the Hawaiian governor's office. THAT IS NOT YOUR FUCKING LAND TO REBUILD.

There ain't no fucking way that that shit was accidental, not when that land was the same land that the natives have been refusing to sell off to the government. Not when, instead of focusing on diaster relief efforts, the governor immediately focused on rebuilding things that were not even there originally. NOT WHEN THEY DAMN WELL LIED ABOUT HOW MANY PEOPLE WERE MISSING.

I'm so fucking pissed off. What the fuck. What is even the point of this. It's so fucking blatant, it's like they're not even trying to hide it.

Remember kids, if you ever think "the government wouldn't do that" oh yes they would.

Fuck...

[demigodofhoolemere]

Me through most of Boom: Wow, this is a really solid dramatic episode.

Me when Moffat needlessly sprinkles in anti-faith sentiments without specifying that it’s blind faith in bad things that the Doctor doesn’t like, which makes it come off like the Doctor is just against religion generally:

[alchemiclee]

every time someone dislikes a character I consider autistic because they seem highly autistic coded, especially if it's "for no reason/just a feeling" I get so incredibly sad and offended because I just know it's because they have autistic traits. I know these people would do the same to me and other irl autistic people. and that's always such a shitty reason to dislike/hate someone.

I just know they would hate us autistic for "no reason" and it would be because people for some reason dislike autistic people based on some obscure random feeling and they can't even tell you why. they often see us as "broken neurotypicals" or we give them that "uncanny valley robot" feeling (especially for high masking autistic people) or whatever it is. they often think we appear "normal" in every way, except something is "off" to them, they they dislike and bully us for it. it's not our fault we were born with these traits/disability so it's not fair to hate us for it!

at least that's how it always seems to go for me and everyone autistic person i've personally know. especially ones better at masking. (I personally was never good at masking and was seen as a "weird freak" who deserves bullying no matter what I did, especially since i was unable to talk 95% of the time as a kid) the mask still never truly hides that "off feeling" people get. i'm sure other autistic people experience this too, but people always dislike me or even hate me and usually can't ever seem to give me a reason. friends will suddenly turn on me and not give me a reason. (especially if we always had text based communication online and then we meet irl the first time. they suddenly turn on or abandon me after that). if I can get a reason out of someone, it's always because *insert random autistic trait here* so I assume it's the same with every case

if this happens irl, it has to be the same for fictional characters, right? it's the only explanation I can think of. I see stuff like this all the time. the autistic coded characters are always getting hate for seemingly no reason like this:

meanwhile, the autistic coded characters always become my favorites because I understand them better and relate

[anti-ao3]

to parents who use their children, especially disabled children AND LITERAL BABIES, for nothing more than online engagement:

you should not be a parent.

[kabutone]

after the years of people jumping on activism like its a trend and then leaving it behind after a few weeks i am so fucking tired. like not to be cynical but like i see SO many people talking about palestine and saving lives but like be so fucking real are you gonna forget all about this in a few months? like how ppl ditched BLM after it gained traction in 2020? like how so fucking MANY OF YOU have stopped wearing a mask despite the pandemic still happening? you could be saving lives right in your own town instead of posting tiktoks that might not even help

i'm not saying you need to dedicate your lives to activism forever and ever but you do need to at least change Something to make yourself and the world better. i will always be listening to black voices, jewish voices, disabled voices, any groups that need to be heard, and trying to change my behavior for the better. like idk after seeing this happen time and time again a LOT of this shit seems so so fake. like there's so many bad things in the world and i know you cannot dedicate your all to every single problem ever forever and i don't want people spreading themselves too thin or burning themselves out but like please don't just stop giving a shit when it's not "popular" or getting you views or pats on the back anymore.

[die-tenebris]

a basic human right to privacy and solitude is just as important as being in community and being able to socialize

[psihawaii]

ive been known as Guy Who Likes That One Band like four separate times here and i dont think ive ever had it come out that theres nothing i hate more than watching recordings of live performances

[vegaseatsass]

After days and days and nights and nights of being unable to sleep, my gripe today is that I cannot STOP sleeping when I have oh so many things to do. Which is patently absurd, because the reason I can now sleep, and want to sleep so much, is that the antibiotics are working and my body is healing. lmao. Kill the hustle cultural worker in your head

[kit-katsuki]

ohhhb venting...

[anaalnathrakhs]

people won't fucking FORGET me i can't handle this anymore there's always a friend who wants to go someplace a friend who needs someone to go to the store with a friend who hasn't seen me in a while who wants to hangout, and i can't let those friendships decay i just can't i can't be this kind of asshole again, but it feels so shit it feels like i can't fucking relax cuz there's always something tomorrow something next week and something to do at school between classes and holy SHIT leave me ALONE please fucking stop talking to me i just want to relax and do things i enjoy.

[vintageseawitch]

the extremist right that wants to implement Project 2025 wants to decide how this society handles sex. it's not abortion or contraception (INCLUDING CONDOMS) they want to ban but porn, too. they will decide what is considered porn & will make not just LGBTQIA+ folks suffer but librarians, too. they want a very misinformed populace so now vulnerable people like children won't be able to tell if something that is happening to them could be abuse or not.

the possibilities are endless when it comes to this. they hate sex & want to punish you for having safe, fun, & casual sex & yet they literally blow up Grindr whenever they all come together because they hate themselves so much & misery loves company. they want to punish anyone who could teach you anything that would indicate they're evil & hypocritical & what they're doing will fuck up all of our lives. it's a chain reaction. DON'T STO TALKING ABOUT PROJECT 2025!!!!