#i just.. feel bad. its hard to explain

[the-kipsabian]

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[thedisablednaturalist]

idk whats wrong with me.

I'm trying to exercise, eat healthier, get enough sleep. Just like the doctors say.

But I'm still, STILL, so..so tired. So unbelievably exhausted. I'm starting to think I might have ME or something. Fibro is supposed to be able to be managed with diet and exercise, according to my doctors *rolls eyes*.

I want to work hard like I used to. I want to have bright ideas and feel passion. I do, sometimes, but it's so hard to break through the fog and pain and exhaustion, and it doesn't last. I feel like I'm constantly trying to hide how stupid I am, I'm afraid my coworkers will find out how hard I'm really struggling. All the stuff they praise me for seem like they were all achievements from Before the illness, I don't feel like that person anymore.

But what am I supposed to do? I have to work, I have to make enough to stay out of my parents house. I can't go back there. So I'll keep fighting, hiding, crying, and doing my best to improve my health, even if that's only out of desperation.

[puppyeared]

i feel like. theres designing a character with certain themes and motifs in mind, and then theres making a gijinka for the water bottle on my nightstand

[motherforthefamicom]

redrew an oc thing from last year :3

[lightbulb-warning]

i used to freehand comics all the time as a child and since the part i liked was the drawing part i would just draw panel after panel because i didn't want to stop drawing to think about icky icky words, plus the story TOTALLY still made perfect sense! to me! and noone else, but 'whoooo caaaaares omgggg its not like comics and sequantial art are a communicative meeediummmm lmaoooooo'. i spent my entire childhood telling myself stuff like "oh pfft I know this story by heart- ill SIMPLY remember the dialogue and write it later" ...and. I can't help but admire baby maiora's (call that a minora ba tm tsk) fucking audacity? hubris? confident wrongness? kid couldn't even remember to finish the comics in the first place? INCREDIBLE levels of unearned self assurance, wish that were me, genuinely- what an icon!!! anyway i think i have forever cursed myself

[seventeendeer]

hey so last day of pride month coming up

shot in the dark - are there any intersex people out there who can help me with resources? I'm looking for more info on how the international activist intersex community feels about people like me, who are not officially diagnosed with an intersex condition, yet display mixed characteristics that significantly affect our lives anyway

I'm in the kind of situation where some doctors are like "this is a perfectly normal genetic variation and nothing to worry about" while other doctors are trying to pressure me into cosmetic surgery so I can look "normal." it seems a lot of people assume I'm a trans woman or male crossdresser (flattering in a vacuum, but in today's society also tragically unsafe). really want to find some kind of community with other people in my situation and the intersex community seems the closest fit, but I feel like I need a better understanding before I can measure if it's a place I'd be welcome or if I'd be intruding.

help a chronically self-isolating queer explore her options?

[ultra-raging-ghost]

Richas is trying to help bad convey his feelings and bads like post-reset social ineptness is showing because hes like "yeah i wanted to have a full day with her because she asked because she was upset" which is so fucking real. actually might need to make a whole separate post about how bad thinks because i understand it really hard

[madame-mongoose]

I wish mental health services were more easily accessible and certain mental illnesses weren't still demonized in the field

[cemetery14]

i go through hyper fixation loops where i get really into somthing again than after months of focusing on nothing but that i just pop into an entirely new hyperfiction and the loops continues

ive sorta done that with knb i had one of my biggest ones yet with knb so it might be a bit before i get back into it like i was (or not it could literally be tomorrow its so easy to pull my back into somthing 💀)

so im hoping that if i leave knb alone for a bit when i come back to it ill be and fixated as i was at the beginning of the year, and maybe be able to actually do alot of the shit ive talked about and that i still wanna do

[hecksupremechips]

Just the way Shin Tsukimi’s “mask off” moment is him becoming increasingly frustrated to the point of having a nervous breakdown where all he can do is laugh maniacally because he’s so done with everyone acting so incompetent and not seeing things “as they are” (aka how he sees them) is just. Mwah chefs kiss hes just like me fr 😰

[bunnihearted]

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[citrlet]

i'm sorry i'm being annoying about my trip but look at the view from my room in d.c.

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

[ch0cocrave]

oi i have seen adults obsess over things like poppy playtime, amanda the adventurer, and i've seen a lot of adults in object show communities SO I PROMISE UR FINE!!! DKFJGKSDFHG

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BUT IT'S WEIRD.

[novampiresremain]

hello long vent / kinda updates ( in tags for both ) & also i love you all sm

[dennisboobs]

do you guys ever sit and remember that dennis takes a mental health day is an episode that exists