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You Knew the Demon Head?
For this AU, I suppose we’d have to pretend that Ra’s al Ghul isn’t hundreds of years old, but rather thousands. So pretend for that this specific post he is.
Billy got a call from Nightwing. The man said he’d meant to call for Batman but had instead fumbled and called him instead for help. Cap still came to see if they needed anything. See, it turned out that Nightwing, Red Hood, Red Robin, and Robin were all patrolling when one of them found Lazarus Pit. So, now all four of them, now with the added Captain Marvel, were all standing around the Pit watching the green liquid.
Marvel: “Geez it’s been a long while since I’ve seen a Lazarus pit.”
Red Robin: “You know what these are?”
Marvel: “Yeah, I had a friend who used them to stay young.”
Robin!Damian: “The only people who use them for that purpose of the League of Assassins.”
Marvel: “Oh? You know about the League of Assassins, Robin five?”
Robin!Damian: “Robin five…?” *looks him up and down before shaking his head* “I was apart of them.”
Marvel: “Wait, really?”
Robin!Damian: “Yes?”
Marvel: “Wow… Y’know, I haven’t heard that name in so long, and think I get to meet a real life member again. You’re sort of young, but I do remember Ra’s mentioning taking in orphans.”
Robin!Damian: “You say that like you knew my grandfather.”
Marvel: “Ra’s is your grandpa?” *looks him up and down* “I don’t really see the resemblance.”
Robin!Damian: “I’ve been told I look more like my father.”
*silence*
Nightwing: “Uh, Cheese? How do you know about the League of Assassins? Let alone Ra’s al Ghul. I would’ve thought something like this was a little too… gritty for you.”
Marvel: “What’s that mean?”
Red Hood: “He means you’re like a ball of sunshine, and that people like you don’t really associate with stuff like assassins. You normally fight mad scientists or witches or whatever.”
Marvel: “Uh… Red Hood? Your name is Red Hood right?”
Red Hood: *nods head*
Marvel: “I fight against monsters, mind control, and Nazis on an almost daily basis. This isn’t really above me.” *looks back to Nightwing* “Anyways, you asked how I knew him, right?”
Nightwing: *nods head*
Marvel: “Well, you see, a long time ago we used to be best buds!” *all smiley*
*another silence*
Nightwing: “What…?”
Red Robin: “You were best buds with the head of a- sorry, the organization of assassins.”
Marvel: “Yeah! Me and Ra’s go away back. Like thousands upon thousands of years back. I was actually apart of the original LoA if you think about it.
Robin!Damian: “So you and grandfather were comrades?”
Marvel: “Guess so. But we stopped talking ever since I died.”
Red Hood: “Huh…?”
Marvel: “I die, I revive as a new person, and then I remember who I was before, if that makes sense. That’s happened multiple times.” *trying to be as vague about the Champion of Magic stuff as possible*
Red Robin: “So you reincarnate?”
Marvel: “Something like that. It’s not really reincarnation because it’s not my soul that gets reincarnated, it’s mostly just my memories. I become a completely different person.” *looks to Damian* “That’s probably why when your grandpa and I met again, he was a little upset that I wasn’t the me he knew before.”
Robin!Damian: “You’ve both met again?”
Marvel: “We’ve met multiple times over the years. He’s still a little salty whenever he sees me, but I think it’s gone down a little bit.”
*silence*
Nightwing: “I’m still confused though! How do you just become besties with the Demon’s Head?”
Marvel: “Well, he wasn’t always the Demon’s Head, Robin one. He used to be a healer.”
Robin!Damian: “Grandfather was a healer?”
Marvel: “Yeah, he understood germ theory before literally anyone else. You know that right? He was a brilliant man, really. Anyways, when I was just a normal kid before I got my memories, we became friends. Then, when I got my powers and memories back, me and the tribe helped him take over the city.”
Red Hood: “What city?”
Marvel: “You know, the city. The one that Ra’s and his tribe took over after a king sentenced him to killing his own wife, even though the prince of that city actually killed wife.” *said all of that in one breath*
Robin!Damian: “I have a grandmother?”
Marvel: “Yup! I have no idea who your parent is though because when she died, I don’t recall them having any children.”
Red Robin: “I love how you’re dropping all of this lore like it’s nothing.”
Marvel: “Fun fact, after taking over the city, that’s when he started calling himself the Demon’s Head I think.”
Marvel continued to drop multiple lore bombs about Ra’s after that. Meanwhile, Ra’s is minding his own business somewhere else.
Ra’s al Ghul: *pauses whatever he was doing* “Something just happened���”
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HYBRID ENHYPEN reaction to you touching their ears/tails . . . !
enhypen 0T7 — GENRE : imagines headcanon fluff hybrid au — PAIRING : gn.reader — WARNING : none — REQUESTED : nope.
HEESEUNG (deer hybrid) :
You and Heeseung are sitting on the couch together, a quiet evening unfolding between the two of you. He’s been relaxing, his usual calm presence filling the room, but there’s something about the soft glow of the lamp and the comfort of his company that makes you want to tease him a little. His deer-like ears are so noticeable, perched on top of his head, the soft fur a striking contrast to his usual calm demeanor.
You can’t help yourself. Reaching out, your fingers brush against the edges of his ears, and instantly, you feel a shiver run through him. His eyes widen slightly, surprised by the contact. He looks at you, the faintest hint of a blush coloring his cheeks.
“You know those are sensitive, right?” His voice is softer than usual, and his breath catches in his throat as you gently run your fingers along the delicate outer edge. Heeseung tries to remain composed, but you can see his body stiffen, and he shifts just a little in his seat, not quite pulling away, but not quite leaning into the touch either.
You smile, amused by the way he’s trying to stay calm despite the subtle signs of discomfort. “I didn’t realize you were so sensitive,” you tease, keeping your fingers there for a moment longer.
He lets out a soft exhale, his head tilting slightly to the side as if he’s trying to gauge whether or not he should stop you. But then his eyes soften, and he lets you continue, the tension in his shoulders easing ever so slightly. “I guess I can’t hide everything from you, can I?”
He reaches up, his hand gently brushing yours away, but not in a way that suggests he’s upset. Instead, he guides your hand to rest softly on his ear. “Just… be careful,” he murmurs with a small smile, his gaze meeting yours with a mix of shyness and affection. “It’s not easy for me to keep my composure when you do that.”
You can feel the heat of his blush, but the way his hand lingers over yours tells you he’s not upset—just a little flustered. There’s a sweetness to it, a vulnerability he doesn’t often show. Despite his usual calm, you realize how much he enjoys your touch, even if it catches him off guard.
JAY (hawk hybrid) :
The evening is calm, the two of you sitting on the balcony, watching the stars flicker in the sky. Jay’s usually laid-back demeanor is as steady as ever, but you notice the tail feathers twitch slightly, almost as if they have a life of their own. Curious, you can’t resist the temptation to reach over and gently run your fingers along one of the soft, sleek feathers.
The instant your touch makes contact, Jay’s body freezes for a moment. His eyes widen, and you can feel the subtle shift in the air, as though he’s trying to control the immediate reaction. His feathers bristle for just a second before he quickly relaxes, though his posture remains tense. He turns to face you, the smallest hint of surprise in his expression.
“Careful,” Jay warns, though his voice is laced with a mix of surprise and intrigue. “Those are a little more sensitive than they look.” He shifts, his feathers fluttering slightly, and you can see him trying to keep his usual cool composure.
Noticing his reaction, you smile and tease him gently, “Oh, really? They look so soft.” Your fingers trace along the edge of one feather, feeling the smooth texture beneath your fingertips.
Jay lets out a breath, his eyes narrowing slightly, but there’s no hiding the way his feathers shift in response. His hand gently covers yours, stopping you from moving further along the feathers. “You’re distracting me,” he says, though there’s a playful undertone, his lips curving into a small smirk. “But I guess I don’t mind… as long as you’re being careful.”
You look up at him, the warmth in his gaze telling you he’s more at ease than he lets on. The tension in his body starts to melt away as he allows you to gently touch the feathers again.
There’s a certain vulnerability in the way he lets you touch such a sensitive part of him, a part of him he usually keeps hidden. And as his feathers ruffle slightly, you realize that it’s a trust he’s extending to you, no matter how flustered it makes him feel.
JAKE (wolf hybrid) :
You and Jake are hanging out in the living room, the soft hum of conversation filling the air. He’s lounging back on the couch, his head resting on the armrest, his wolf-like ears perked up slightly. You can’t help but glance at the soft fur that covers the tips of his ears, and before you know it, your hand moves toward him.
You reach out, lightly brushing your fingers against the edge of one of his ears. The moment your touch connects, Jake stiffens, his amber eyes flicking toward your hand, his body instinctively reacting to the sensation. His ears twitch, and a low growl rumbles in his chest, but it’s more playful than threatening.
“Hey, don’t tease me like that,” he says, his voice low but with a teasing edge. His gaze softens, and the intensity in his eyes is replaced with a mix of surprise and something a little more affectionate. He’s trying to act cool, but his flushed cheeks betray him.
You smile, unable to resist the temptation to brush against the fur again. This time, you gently scratch behind his ear, and Jake’s whole body shudders. He lets out a soft whine, looking up at you with a mix of affection and exasperation.
“Seriously,” he mutters, though there’s no real anger in his tone. His tail flicks behind him, swishing lazily, and you can see the way his body relaxes under your touch. “You know how much I hate being all soft and… vulnerable.”
You laugh, noticing how he leans slightly into your touch, despite his words. “You’re just too cute, Jake,” you tease.
His eyes soften, and he reaches up to gently grab your hand, guiding it to the back of his head where his fur is thicker, more comfortable. “Fine, if you’re going to do it, just don’t make fun of me,” he says, a little sheepish but still enjoying the attention.
As you continue to run your fingers through the fur on the back of his neck, Jake sighs contentedly, his body completely at ease now. The playful teasing is gone, replaced by a comfortable warmth, his tail wagging slightly in approval.
SUNGHOON (snow leopard hybrid) :
You’re sitting on the couch together, the soft hum of a movie playing in the background. Sunghoon’s always been cool and composed, but tonight there’s something different in the air. His snowy fur is practically glowing in the soft light, and you can’t help but notice how soft it looks, especially around his ears. Without thinking, you reach out to lightly brush your fingers over his ear, the fur soft and fluffy beneath your touch.
The moment your hand makes contact, Sunghoon freezes, his body going rigid for a brief second. His sharp eyes flick toward you, but there’s no irritation—just a flicker of surprise. His snow leopard ears twitch under your touch, a slight shiver running through his body.
“Careful,” he warns in a quiet voice, though his tone isn’t as stern as you’d expect. He shifts slightly, looking at you with a mix of curiosity and a subtle hint of something softer. It’s almost like he’s trying to hide how much he enjoys the attention.
You smile teasingly, brushing your fingers along his ear again, this time more gently. Sunghoon’s eyes close for a second, and a barely audible purr slips from him—something deep and unexpected. His breath hitches, and you can feel the muscles in his shoulders relax. His tail flicks lazily behind him, betraying the calm composure he’s trying to maintain.
“You don’t have to be shy about it,” you tease softly, gently running your fingers through the fur around his ears and down his neck.
Sunghoon opens his eyes and glances at you, a faint blush creeping onto his cheeks. His usual composed demeanor is slipping just a little. “I’m not shy,” he mutters, though there’s a playful edge to his voice. He leans into your touch just a little, his tail swishing slowly behind him as his body melts into the contact. “I just didn’t expect you to do that.”
His purrs grow a little louder, and he finally relaxes into your touch, no longer hiding how much he enjoys it. “You’re gonna spoil me if you keep this up,” he says, his voice soft and almost affectionate.
SUNOO (fox hybrid) :
You and Sunoo are sitting together in the cozy corner of the room, the warm glow of the evening lights casting a soft ambiance. His fox ears twitch occasionally, and you can’t help but be curious about how soft they must feel. Without thinking too much about it, you reach out to gently touch the tip of one of his ears.
The moment your fingers make contact, Sunoo lets out a surprised, almost startled gasp. His bright eyes lock onto yours, and his ears flatten for a moment in reflex. A soft blush creeps onto his cheeks, and his body goes rigid, but his eyes soften, revealing how much he enjoys the contact despite the initial surprise.
“W-What are you doing?” he stammers, but there’s no real resistance in his voice, just a playful edge. You can feel the soft warmth of his fur beneath your fingers, and his tail flicks gently behind him, betraying his discomfort mixed with intrigue.
You continue to gently rub the tip of his ear, and Sunoo’s breath hitches, the tension melting away slowly. His ears perk up again, and his tail gives a little excited swish, clearly enjoying the sensation. He bites his lip, trying to suppress a grin but failing. “That’s… actually really nice,” he admits, voice softer now, the initial shyness slipping away.
“You’re so cute,” you tease, continuing to stroke his ear gently.
Sunoo grins widely, his blush deepening. “Don’t tease me too much,” he says, though there’s no real complaint in his voice. He leans into your touch a little, his tail now wagging more freely, and a light purr escapes his lips. “Just… keep going,” he mumbles, too embarrassed to admit how much he’s enjoying it.
JUNGWON (panther hybrid) :
You’re sitting with Jungwon in a quiet corner of the room, the air thick with the comfort of silence. His panther ears are perked up, and his tail sways lazily behind him. Something about his calm presence has you wanting to reach out and touch the sleek fur around his ears. You tentatively extend your hand, brushing against one of his ears.
Jungwon freezes for a moment, his eyes narrowing slightly as if to assess the situation. His panther-like instincts kick in, and for a second, he seems on alert. But then, as your fingers gently trace the edge of his ear, you feel him relax, his muscles softening beneath your touch. His ears twitch in pleasure, and he lets out a quiet, content sigh, a small smile playing at the corner of his lips.
“You’re bold, aren’t you?” he says, voice low, but there’s no hint of anger or irritation—just a teasing tone. His tail flicks once, lazily, before curling around his legs. His body is relaxed, but there’s an undeniable energy in the way his eyes glint, as if he’s not quite used to the attention but is enjoying it all the same.
You continue to stroke his ear, feeling the soft fur beneath your fingers. Jungwon’s eyes close, a deep rumble of contentment vibrating in his chest. “You know, I could get used to this,” he murmurs, his voice dropping a little lower, almost a purr.
He leans into your touch, his panther-like nature coming through as he tilts his head slightly to give you better access. His gaze softens as his tail flicks idly, and you can tell he’s enjoying the intimacy of the moment.
“Don’t think this means you’re getting off easy,” Jungwon says, but his grin gives away that he’s not at all upset—just playful. He lingers there, his body soft against yours as if inviting more attention.
NIKI (tiger hybrid) :
You and Niki are sitting together on a quiet afternoon, the light from the window casting soft shadows around the room. His tiger ears flicker occasionally, and his tail curls around him lazily. You find yourself captivated by how soft his fur looks, so without thinking, you gently reach out and touch the tip of one of his ears.
Niki instantly freezes, his amber eyes locking onto yours with a mix of surprise and curiosity. For a moment, his body tenses, but it’s not from discomfort—more like a sudden awareness of the situation. His tail twitches, and you can feel a faint growl rumbling in his chest, though it’s not threatening. It’s almost as if he’s testing how much he’ll allow himself to enjoy it.
“Touching my ears, huh?” Niki says, his voice low, with just a hint of teasing. His tone is playful, but there’s a glimmer of something more—something softer, like he’s unsure whether he should allow this closeness.
But when you continue stroking his ear gently, his body relaxes almost immediately. His eyes soften, and he lets out a content sigh, his tail flicking happily. “That’s… nice,” he admits quietly, clearly enjoying the attention despite his usual tough exterior.
As you run your fingers along the edge of his ear, Niki leans into the touch, his head tilting slightly. His usual playful smirk is replaced with a subtle, almost shy smile. “You know, I’m not some cute kitten,” he says, but the softness in his voice contradicts the words. His tail flicks behind him, and the playful growl from earlier has disappeared, replaced by a more content purr.
You can feel Niki’s muscles relax under your touch as he practically melts into the affection, but there’s a part of him that still tries to maintain his cool. “You better not start getting any ideas,” he teases, though there’s no real bite to his words. He closes his eyes and leans further into your hand, his body language inviting you to continue.
Word count : 2412 | serapharua, 2024.
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the proposition of a lifetime - b.b.
✯ pairing:
best friend!bucky x fem!reader
✯ summary:
you're not very experienced with sex, your skill are minimal at best and you know your boyfriend wants to do more. so what's a girl to do? go to her best friend for training, of course.
✯ warnings:
mature themes, mentions of sexual tension, detailed descriptions of a blow job in a car, etc.
✯ a/n:
nothing!! please don't engage if you have a hard time with any of these topics <3 this was origianlly posted on my old blog @/illicitfixations, @/lovelornanonymity and i have rewritten + reshared it here :) this was written way back in early 2023 i believe!
Bucky heard the faintest of knocks against his mahogany office door and as he glanced at the clock, he realized his sweet girl was just on time. Every Thursday at precisely three pm, you came to see him and the two of you had dinner together. It was a constant in the busy and the unknown and there was no better person to help you with your problem than your best friend, right?
“Hey, pretty girl. How was your day?”
He stood from the black leather beneath him and rolled the chair away from the desk with the backs of his knees. He was dressed in black slacks and a white button down shirt. His day had been long, you could tell by the pale blue tie that was once around his neck laying draped across the back of his chair. He smiled at you and brought his arms open, gesturing for you to place yourself in between them – a proper greeting.
"It was okay. Listen – I was kinda hoping you could help me with something.” you replied as Bucky ran his hands up and down your back.
The hair on the back of his neck stood up, his mind immediately wondered if you were in trouble, his senses always heightened at the thought of danger, especially when it came to you. He pursed his lips for a moment before he traced your features with his eyes – you seemed upset, sad even; or was it embarrassment that coated your cheeks with heat? He couldn’t put his finger on it.
"Tell me how your day was – for real.” He replied, keeping his tone neutral. "Then, I'll offer up my services, sweetheart.”
You chuckled and rolled your eyes as he gave you that classic James Barnes smile – it was kind and coated with sexual appeal and it fit in with the creases of his eyes like a puzzle piece.
“Okay – fine. My day was fine, Buck, nothing special about it. I’m just feeling insecure, I guess.”
You averted his eyes, knowing he was going to give you some lecture about how perfect you are or try to kill whoever had made you feel that way.
“What’s making you feel insecure, doll? Or, is it someone in particular? You know whoever it is, I'll kill them – just say the word.”
His expression was stone cold, the same one you had seen him wear only in the face of the world’s most dangerous mobsters and criminals – just before he killed them.
“You can’t kill my boyfriend, Buck.”
Your tone was flat.
“Brad? Or whatever his name is? Of course, I can.”
He snorted out, laughing as if he actually took your little comment seriously.
“Doll, what’s going on? What did he do?”
You threw your head back and your hands flew at your face, wiping down it roughly.
“He hasn’t done anything, Buck. It’s me – the problem is me.”
“Come on, doll – talk to me.”
Bucky urged.
"It's sorta... embarrassing."
You replied, shyly, rubbing at your hands until they were white.
"It’s just me – just Bucky, baby. You can talk to me.”
He responded, grabbing your hands in his.
“I mean, I've already talked to some of my friends about it, but they can't help me the way I want."
"Okay.” He said, wondering what kind of help she could need, ignoring his more perverted thoughts and his brain switching into protective mode, again wondering if she was in some sort of trouble.
"Thank you, Bucky.” You beamed, bouncing again.
This time, it was all he could do not to stare openly at the motion of your unrestrained boobs; gawking at your nipples that you hadn’t bothered to cover up underneath your shirt.
“It's my boyfriend, Brad. He's... he wants... well, what every guy wants. I'm not sure I'm ready, but I don't want him to dump me."
Bucky forced words out of his dry mouth, doing his best to ignore his growing arousal. "If you're not ready for something, don't do it."
"Yeah, I know. But I think I might be ready for, um, other things."
He only nodded in response in an attempt to hide as he was about to choke on his words. The girl he had been in love with for so long was actually talking about sex with him?
"If your girlfriend wasn't ready for, you know... sex... what would have been enough for you not to look elsewhere?"
You almost whispered the word "sex," and your face took on a pink cast at the same time. Your apparent embarrassment, as well as a wave of protective feelings, aided Bucky in repressing what he knew to be inappropriate lust for his friend. He pondered how to answer her question.
"If he's pressuring you, he's not worth keeping, sweetheart.” He said, giving in to his protective impulses.
"You sound like my mom.” You pouted, arms crossed under your breasts. "What do you think as a guy?"
‘I dont blame him – i’ve wanted to fuck you for so long, doll.’ He thought, but he pushed it aside, attempting to craft an honest, but also responsible answer.
"As much as I could get, I guess.” He said, wishing he had come up with something else. "But I would be pushing you – or, whoever I was with."
He quickly caught himself at the end of his sentence in an attempt to smooth things over enough where you wouldn’t notice what he had just said.
"Did you ever get a blowie from a girl?"
It took Bucky a moment to understand what you meant, as he had never heard anyone refer to a blowjob like that before. Several more seconds passed before he could formulate a response.
"There was a girl I dated who... we explored each other in, um, several ways."
He all but stuttered as he tried to speak, but he could feel his semi-erect penis as he tried to formulate a coherent thought.
"But she went down on you, right?"
You questioned.
"Yes, she did. But she wanted to, um, explore. I would never have pressured her to do it." As the words left his mouth, he cringed at the truth they hid. He had not directly coerced the girl in question, but he knew she had felt pressure anyway.
"And it was enough?"
You asked him point blank.
"It was more than enough.” He grinned. "But if she had not wanted to..."
He trailed off.
"I don't know how to, um, give a blowie.” You spoke, suddenly shy and your eyes locked on the floor. "I want to... I mean, I want to make him happy and all, but... what if I'm not good at it?"
You looked at him doe-eyed and full of anxiety and he almost busted right there – just looking at you.
"I'm not sure we should be having this conversation.” Bucky replied, immediately regretting the words as they hit your skin and hurt filled your irises.
"But I need your help. All my friends, at least the ones who've done it, say guys will like it no matter what. Some of them gave me pointers, and I've watched videos on the internet too, but... I think I need to practice first."
Your fingers stroked his forearm. Shining eyes met his, and he saw a plea in them. But his mind could not accept what his body, especially his cock, already had.
"I've heard some girls use cucumbers.” Bucky said.
"I've done that.” You said, "But cucumbers can't tell me whether I'm doing a good job or teach me to do it better. I need a man for that. A man who I know is a good teacher. I need you."
Bucky’s eyes almost popped out of his head at your response. He never in a million years thought that he’d see this day or that it would play out like this – you practically begging him to teach you how to suck a dick – his dick.
"Y/N, I can't... we can't..."
His objection was half-assed.
"Please, Buck. I need your help."
You begged again.
"Okay. But no one can know." His erection throbbed in his jeans at his words, and his heart hammered. Deep down in his mind, his conscience attempted to object, but he ignored it.
"It'll be our secret, Bucky," You squealed, before hugging him, your firm breasts pressing against his lower torso, your lower abdomen against his rigid cock. He hugged you back, stroking your soft hair, not thinking about any possible consequences.
"We can go to my house.” He suggested, breaking the hug. "Maybe use pillows from the couch for you to kneel on.”
"Can we do it in your car? Brad has one, and that's probably where I'd do it with him."
Bucky hesitated, watching you chew your bottom lip as you waited for his answer. What you proposed made sense, but he suspected it would be easier for you to learn, as well as more pleasurable for him, if they were both comfortable. However, now that he was committed, he did not want to mess up the chance to be the first guy his sweet girl went down on.
"Sure.” He said. "It'll be a bit more awkward, but it will prepare you for later."
"Thanks," You beamed, giving him a kiss on the cheek before running around to the passenger side of the car. He watched your ass and wondered if Brad knew how lucky he was. Bucky didn’t have to wonder – he knew.
Your cheeks were pink again as you sat on the bench seat and stared straight ahead, hands in your lap. For a moment, his guilt returned. Had you not pushed out your chest at that exact same time, Bucky might have backed out. But the sight of those firm, round tits encased by only your thin t-shirt proved to be too much. He buried his doubts and slid into the car.
"If we're parking, we need some music.” He told you, turning the key to accessory so the radio would come on. "Is classic rock okay?"
"I guess," you shrugged, still looking out the windshield rather than at him. That allowed him to watch your boobs bounce with the shrug.
He turned up the radio, took your hand as gently as he could, and moved it to the bulge in his dress pants. Your fingers lay there for a second or two before you moved them away.
"I'm not... um... can we make out first?"
You questioned awkwardly.
"If you aren't sure about this..."
He started, but you interrupted reassuring him.
"I'm sure, Buck," you said, interrupting and turning your eyes to him. "I just think I need to, uh... work up to it, you know?"
"Sure, doll," Bucky replied, running a finger down her cheek.
He leaned close to you, smelling the scent of vanilla as he did, pausing for a moment to breathe you in. You moved your head back and blinked. He sat back up and patted the seat beside him. You chewed her bottom lip, then scooted next to him. He stroked your soft cheek again. You sighed and did the same to him. Your eyes never left each other's as he lowered his lips to yours. Any trepidation you might have been experiencing seemed to vanish the moment your lips met. You grasped the back of his head and pulled his mouth tighter to yours. His tongue pushed between your lips, only to meet yours. He grabbed your waist, pulling you around to face him. Your free hand traced up his forearm and his free hand clutched one of your boobs. He marveled at the combination of softness and firmness. You moaned into his mouth when he found your nipple and lightly rolled it between his thumb and forefinger. He switched to your other boob and did the same thing. You moaned louder, which encouraged Bucky. Breaking their kiss, he grabbed the bottom of your shirt and started to lift it. He pulled the t-shirt over your head and up-stretched arms, mesmerized by your tits. They projected from your slender chest almost torpedo style, the tips capped with small, pink areolas and slightly darker nipples. Each more than a handful, he nonetheless did his best to grasp all of them as he dropped his mouth to one. Your fingers laced through his hair. You started to pull his face away, but reversed your effort as soon as he sucked your firm nipple between his lips and tongued it.
"Oh God, that feels good.” You groaned, pushing your chest out toward him.
While he feasted on your magnificent breasts, he pulled your hand from his arm and into his lap. You hesitated, then your fingers closed around the length of his erection where it strained against the fabric of his pants.
"Your... thingy is very hard.” You whispered, your fingers tracing its outline.
"If you're going to suck it, you can say 'dick' or 'cock'," He told you, sitting up to look you in the eye.
"Your cock is very hard," you said, blushing. Still, your words were louder and more confident, and Bucky decided it was time to move their lesson forward.
"Take it out," He instructed, leaning his shoulders back against the seat.
Thin, soft fingers fumbled at the top button of his fly. Once you had it loose, you tugged, probably thinking that there would be a zipper. In what was probably less time than it seemed, you had his pants undone. He wiggled them down to mid-thigh, exposing his black boxer-briefs. Your fingers touched his dick through the soft cotton, and it jerked. You pulled your hand away a couple of inches and gasped, eyes darting up to his. He nodded to encourage you. After a deep breath, you ran your fingers up his length. This time, you did not stop when it moved at your touch.
"I've only felt Brad’s through his jeans. It's softer than I thought it'd be. But hard too. Really hard."
You commented.
"Do you want to see it?" Bucky asked, and you nodded, eager eyes not leaving his crotch.
He considered telling you to pull his briefs down, but he didn't want to wait. He freed his erection, which sprung straight up. You drew in a sharp breath, then touched his shaft with trembling fingers. His cock jerked to the side, but you never lost contact.
"Wrap your hand around it," He instructed, and you obliged. He groaned, fighting to keep his hips from thrusting up.
"It's bigger than I expected... and warm," you said, eyes meeting his, a grin on your face. "I didn't think... I mean, it makes sense but... this is... incredible." You gripped his dick tighter, squeezing it.
"Stroke up and down, doll.”
You nodded then looked back down at his lap. Your fingers loosened and slid up and down the shaft a few times before wandering to the head.
"I love how soft the skin is even though it's so hard inside," you said before moving your thumb up the glans to the slit. "Is this cum?"
"Pre-cum." He said, resisting the urge to grab a fistful of hair and move your lips down to his crotch. "It leaks out when a man's hard."
"I didn't know that. So, when I suck your thing... your cock, it'll do that?"
You questioned.
"Yes."
He replied.
"Oh. Should I taste it now?"
"If you want."
You wiped up a glob of his fluid with your thumb and brought it to your mouth. Your tongue pushed out to taste it. A strange look crossed your face, and your gaze rose to his.
"It's... weird," you said. "Sweet and salty. And something like... soap? That's not it but...something..."
Shrugging, you sucked your thumb into your mouth, then pulled it out with a 'pop'. His cock twitched.
"Does cum taste the same?”
You questioned; intrigued with the idea of his manhood and just how it all worked.
"Stronger, but similar."
He responded, grinning ear-to-ear at your innocence and the part he was about to have in stripping it from you. He wondered how long it would be before you needed to ‘practice’ having sex before doing it with Brad – there’s nothing Bucky wanted more than to be your first everything.
"I think I like it," you grinned. "But it's different than I expected. My friends who've tasted it said it's bitter or sour. But it's not."
You commented.
"I think it's time for the next step."
He said with a sly smile.
"What should I do?"
You questioned, awaiting his instruction.
"Kiss the tip."
You nodded, licked your lips, and leaned down into his lap. Your lips brushed the glans of his cock once, tentatively. The second time was surer. The third, you wrapped your lips around the very tip and sucked. His dick twitched in response, and you did it again. Bucky wanted to tell you to take more, but he saw that your position might be too awkward.
"Scoot back a little and lie on your tummy on the seat, doll.” He told you, and you complied, knees bent so your calves and feet stuck in the air.
The change in position left your face hovering over his groin, and he nudged you downward. You took the hint, and seconds later, you slurped the entire glans of his penis in your mouth. He groaned, doing his best not to push harder on your head. He needed to let you do this in your own time.
"Move your tongue while you suck," He told you, and you wiggled it. "Yes... like that. Now take a little bit more down... watch the teeth.”
You pulled up, alarmed eyes locking on his.
"Sorry..."
You trailed off.
"It's okay. It happens, especially for girls new to sucking cock. Try this, suck on your finger. Yes, like that. Now, scrape your teeth along it. It's a thousand times worse than that."
You looked at him with wide eyes as you followed his instructions, apologizing again.
"Sorry."
"It's okay. But you have to make sure your lips protect a guy from your teeth. Here."
Bucky took your finger, sucked it into his mouth, his lips moving up and down it. You shuddered, and what sounded like a disappointed noise escaped your parted lips when he removed his mouth from your finger.
"Now, you try," He said, holding out his index finger. You wrapped your lips around it and slid them to the base then back up.
"Good, now add suction."
You did as instructed, hollowing out your cheeks. He’d always liked a woman sucking on his fingers, and you were certainly no exception.
"Very good, sweetheart.” He told you a few seconds later. "Now add some tongue movement. Oh yeah, just like that."
You attacked his finger, sucking hard, lips sliding up and down its length, tongue wiggling. ‘If you could do that to a cock, you’d have boys eating out of her hand’, Bucky thought to himself.
"Okay, now do the same to my cock," He said.
You pulled your lips from his finger, grinned, and dropped your face to his lap, giving the tip of his cock a wet kiss. Bucky groaned, bucked his hips, and applied what he hoped was gentle pressure to your head. You didn’t resist, sliding your lips - no teeth this time - down a couple of inches of his cock. He groaned again. Slowly at first, you bobbed your head up and down, concentrating your efforts on the first third or so of his shaft. A few times, you took at least half of his almost seven-inch length, but much more than that caused you to gag and back off.
"That feels fantastic.” He told you, and you turned your eyes up to meet his. You held each other's gaze for several seconds, but your suction on his cock never lessened and your tongue never stilled.
"Try going faster," He suggested, and you nodded.
Facing down again, you picked up speed. As you did so, the slurping sounds around his shaft grew louder. He ran his fingers through your soft hair, resisting grabbing a fistful and forcing you to go even faster. As it was, the tempo caused his novice cocksucker to take more in on each downstroke, and the times that you gagged increased in frequency as well. It was all as hot as hell, and sooner than Bucky would have liked, he realized he had reached the edge of no return.
"That's so good, doll, I'm really close. Concentrate near the head. Yeah, that's... wait... a little deeper... yes... perfect. Suck hard. God yes. Harder."
You sucked on the first couple of inches of his dick. You’d pulled up too far at first and slurped on the overly sensitive glans. But now your lips tightened just below, and your tongue massaged it gently. He shifted in his seat, groaned, grasped your head, and exploded. The first spurt of cum into your mouth must have taken you by surprise, because you sputtered around his shaft and attempted to raise your head.
Bucky held it in place, however, his hips bucked with each shot and given that you did not struggle more and were not gagging, he figured you had adjusted and were swallowing it all. As it turned out, he was quite wrong. After the last little bit of cum dribbled out of his cock, he dropped his hands from your head. You bolted upright, lips clamped shut, panic in your wide eyes. Rivulets of mascara formed under your moist eyelids. Lower, cum seeped out both corners of your mouth, adding to the flow already running down your chin.
"Swallow it, sweet girl.” He instructed after a couple of seconds. You whimpered, shaking your head.
"It's the easiest way, baby," he shrugged. "Otherwise, it'll just make a big mess. Well, a bigger mess."
You whimpered again, closing your eyes, and swallowing. It took two tries to get it all down, and you shuddered afterward. A drop fell from your chin to one sweet, young tit and started to slide along its curve.
"Show me your mouth," He said, adding, "wider," when you opened it maybe an inch. You did as he asked, and he saw a little white residue in a mostly empty mouth.
"Good girl," He said, patting your head. She gave him a weak smile and wiped her eyes. Another drop of cum joined the first on her breast.
"Here, I'll help," He told her, using his finger to push some of the cum on her chin up to her lips. The girl hesitated, so he thrust his messy finger into her mouth. She closed her eyes and sucked his digit. He fed her the rest in the same way, finishing up with the two drops that had made it to her chest. After a few moments you looked at him, settled back into the passenger seat and gave him a smile, lowering your hand to his thigh.
“Thank you, Buck – I owe you one.”
He smiled in return.
“So what’s your plan, doll? Are you going to use all these new skills on that pathetic excuse for a boyfriend?”
He asked with a teasing scoff at the sound or more so the idea of Brad and you being intimate – it made him shudder. You rolled your eyes before placing his cheeks in your hands and brushing your nose against his.
“Silly boy – I broke up with him two weeks ago.”
You whispered before Bucky let out a giggle and eradicated the space in between the two of you, colliding into your lips with his.
#bucky barnes#bucky barnes x reader#bucky x reader#bucky x you#bucky fanfic#the winter soldier#james buchanan barnes
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Princess and the Farm-Boy (Special Chapter 😏
DISCLAMER: ALL CHARACTERS ARE AGED UP
Author's note: Y'all it was been one hell of a year. I mean I have never been so overworked and with other stuff in my life it has been impossible to write anything, but I had this one in the works for awhile and I thought you guys deserved a treat. So here is my first *Ahem* "Spicy fic". I really hope y'all enjoy it :).
Clark Kent !Smallville! x Black reader
Warnings: Smut, Oral (f! receiving), Unprotected P in V sex (Please be careful irl)
Read on Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/61783975
There you are stuck in the rain, the mud creeping up your loafers and on your nice white stockings. Once again your plans to escape Smallville have proven futile. Your eyes start to tear up in frustration, which makes no sense. After all you're not a child, so why should you start crying like one.
Your thoughts are interrupted by the sound of a familiar and annoying truck pulling up.
“Hey, are you ok?” Clark asks, he sounds genuine.
“Yeah, I'm uh just fine.” You answer, he looks at you quizzically. He knows how much you hate mud and all things dirty.
“Doesn't look like it.” “Well what would you know anyway?!” You spat, your pride may be bruised but it's not broken.
He grumbles in frustration, he knows you're not going anywhere without a fight. So he goes for the next best thing, you see him get out the truck his tall frame makes his way to you and then he grins a little devilish grin.
“C'mon I know you don't wanna be here out in this rain, your hair’s too important.”
“I don't see how that's any of you- Oh my God what are you doing!!!” You squeal as you are suddenly hoisted in the air and on his shoulder.
“Well princess, I'm taking you home.” He smiles.
You don't know how to feel about his nickname for you.
Usually you hate it but right now it makes your cheeks heat up in a way you have never felt before.
He drives you both in silence, he realizes that he kinda kidnapped you, and you are feeling an acute sense of butterflies. Something you could never feel for Clark Kent.
You shake the thought right out of your head, he looks over to you sort of reading your mind,
“Hey so uh- what is the deal you, I mean ever since we met you act like you hate me.”
You turn your head towards him, looking at his defined jaw, it's making you melt right in your chair.
“I don't hate you Clark,” you sigh “I just needed something to be upset at. It just felt weird to be taken from my penthouse in metropolis and come to Smallville, y’know.”
He does understand where you're coming from.
“Look, I might not be super rich and super smart like you, But I know what it feels like to be taken from my home.” He comforts you, hesitantly placing a warm hand on yours.
Before your able to pry further, you make it home. “I guess this is your stop,” He chuckles.
“You know the staff aren’t home, It’s pouring out there,” You sheepishly continue “I-I wouldn’t want you to get hurt.” You can’t even believe the words that are coming out of your mouth, yet they feel so natural.
He does his usual goofy shrug and mumbles an “Okay”.
You say your name into the intercom and your let in to your expansive house, It’s a far difference from his warm and inviting home. You both walk across polished wooden floors with high ceilings, old paintings and weapons from a time before. He felt it was all a bit macabre.
You take his hand leading him to your room. It’s hilarious when you get to your room. It's pink and filled to the brim with hello kitty and poster’s of Beyonce on your wall, it’s much more girly than the cold academic you are.
“Don’t gawk, I’m still a girl y’know.” You tell him, your words bringing him out of his trance. You take your sweater off infront of him as you're preparing to take a nice warm shower. He peaks over and sees you in your rain soaked white button down. He begins to blush as he sees your bra pink and full of ruffles just like your room. He almost gets an anime nosebleed from seeing you.
“Here I’m gonna take a shower,” You throw him the remote. “Pick anything you want, I pretty much have all the good movies.” You wink uncharacteristically and slink into the bathroom.
He turns on the tv and flips through the channels until he finds something. He hears a knock on the door, and while no one is on the other side he finds a fresh T-shirt and some comfy pants in his size in a warmed box.
“Hey um, I thought you said no one was here.” He asked you through the wall.
“Oh there isn’t, I had my robot send it over.” He rolls his eyes. Of course you have a robot, He thinks to himself.
He slips into the warm clothes, He doesn’t know however that you're peeping through the crack in your bathroom door, You notice his strong arms and wide back, He has such a soft chest. He’s jacked but not ripped and you don’t mind it one bit.
You walk out into your bed room still in your robe, He’s sitting in your bed comfortably hand on his stomach. You look out the window seeing the worsening storm.
“Hey do you wanna just stay the night?” You ask him. And while he could go through the storm no problem he needs to keep up the facade of being powerless so he just nods. You hand him your phone and tell him to call his parents.
You sit at your vanity and start to moisturize your brown skin. He looks over to your glowing beautiful skin. He's so hungry it’s almost like he’s eating you with his eyes,he almost trips over his words when telling his parents he wouldn’t be home for dinner.
There you are in your silk pajamas and a cute boy in your room, You have no idea what in the world to do. So you just get under the covers next to him. You hesitantly put your hand on his chest, and before you can pull away he takes your hand in his. The warmth he gives you makes you melt.
“You know farmville, Sometimes I think I like you.” The confession falls out of your mouth like your Niagra falls. You sit up wide eyed staring into his sky blue eyes.
He just gives you a toothy grin like no other and plants a soft kiss to your lips, after a second he pulls away. “ I was wondering when you were gonna come to your senses.”
You roll your eyes and kiss him, this time it gets deeper. You rake your hands through his messy brown hair as he places you on top of him. You straddle his lap and his strong arms cradle your back. He melts into your mouth like vanilla ice cream on a hot summer’s day, And he smells like fresh cut wood and apple pie. He tastes like a dream you’ve been desperately reaching out for but you could never hold.
He pulls away to catch his breath, with blown out pupils like he’s in love, (Well he is now lol).
“Gosh, you’re just perfect.” He breathes into your neck slowly kissing down your collarbone to your plump and supple chest.
You take a deep breath everytime he kisses your radiant brown skin. “Clark,” You break him out of his trance. “Yes, Princess?” The nickname sounds fresh and new but familiar and quiet all at the same time.
“Are you sure you wanna do this?” You ask him timidly. “Girl, I don’t think your brother himself could keep me away from you.” He chuckles into you as he slips off the strap of your top. Exposing your glowing bare breasts.
His mouth salivates at the sight of them, And in one swift motion he pulls you further into him.
He places his warm mouth on one of your soft peaks while caressing the other.
“Oh Clark,” You say his name with a sharp gasp “That feels s-so good.” You enjoy his movements as he kisses lower and lower till he reaches your soft entrance.
His eyes roam the sight, his pupils blown and his breath hazy. Your scent light and sweet envelops his nose.
He starts licking your clit with long swipes of his tongue, you sharply moan. Tangling your fingers in his soft brown hair.
He’s eating you out like he is a man on death row, and you're his final meal. And then when you didn’t think it could get any better he places his thick fingers in your sloppy wet pussy.
“Oh-Oh my god Clark,” you moan out. You're loving every single bit of attention he gives you. And he’s doing so much it’s like he can hold his breath forever he hasn’t even come up for air.
You're so focused on the pleasure he gives you, you don’t even realize how your belly feels warmer. How your toes start to curl, how your body starts to writhe and squirm. But he knows, he knows that even between the broken sentences and near pornographic moans your body is close to climax.
“C’mon princess, think you can give me me a-” and before the man can continue there you are creaming this poor farmboy’s fingers. Your back arches as you cry out in pleasure.
“GOD, FUCK.” Your words spurn him on as he didn’t realize himself that he was grinding into your bed. His dick so hard and with precum leaking at the tip. He’s afraid to hurt you with his size. He won’t even bring up the subject of his sore cock to you opting to handle his business in the bathroom.
“Oh my god Clark that was amazing.”, “Oh well I thought-” you interrupt his words with a deep and passionate kiss as your hands glide down to his member. You can almost feel the heat coming off of it.
“ I think I know how to help you with that.” You giggle. You can see his cheeks heating up as he blushed furiously.
You pull his pants down to reveal a huge throbbing cock. “How the hell am I supposed to fit this in my-”
He hears you mumble under your breath, “Y’know you don’t have to do this.” “Clark, Baby if I didn’t want to do this you would know. Now open my side drawer, there’s a bottle of lube in there.”
So he grabs the lubricant for you, for some reason he is surprised at your usage of the bottle mostly because it’s halfway gone.
“Oh relax, it's for my dildo’s, ya goof.” You giggle at him once more. He doesn’t think he’ll ever get tired of that noise.
You apply the cold lube to his red throbbing cock, which sends shivers down his spine. His chest heaves in pleasure as you stroke his thick member.
“Baby do you want me to ride it, or do you wanna be on top?” The two options scream out to him, “Can you ride me p-please?” he asks, almost nervous like he didn’t just eat your pussy like it was a birthday cake.
You straddle his lap, grinding on him teasing his very soul. You finally give him some relief when you place his tip at your entrance. He’s so big you have to catch your breath every inch on the way down.
“I’m sorry princess, I know it’s a lot,” “Oh no it’sss.” You hiss in the middle of your sentence. “I can take it.”
You finally bottom out and it feels like the air has been removed from your lungs. You reassure him that you're fine but he insists you take a breather before you start.
You slowly pump yourself up and down on his length relishing in the feeling, His hands gripping the sheets trying so hard not to hurt you. The pleasure is almost to good as his beautiful pink lips part in an attempt to breath out a silent prayer of release.
“Princess, I’m so sorry I can’t-” He grabs on to your hips, speeding up the pace on both of your pleasures.
“W-wait Clark, Oh ff-uck!” You whine as you take your arms and wrap them around his back, glistening with sweat.
It seems like his strokes would never stop but as his pleasure builds with yours.
“I’m gonna, s-hit.” He hisses as spurts of his cum flow inside of you as you follow releasing on to him.
You both look at each other with boundless stars in each other's eyes. “That. was… Amazing, I never would have thought goody two shoes Clark Kent could do all of that.” You breathily laugh.
“Right back atcha, now I think I need a shower. Care to uh join me?” he asks shyly.
You smirk because the fun has only just begun.
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U got any curtis gang new yrs hcs??
unfortunately they wont leave my mind, so yes i do
•look im basing this off of me cause its sm fun to do, but when its nearing 12am, pony likes to put on a song that he RLLY liked that year, like its carrying him into the new year, its comforting!!! usually near that time u wont find him in the living room, but alone either outside or in his room
•soda gets suupperrr sentimental, hes the friend going around telling u how much u meant to him that year, he has NOOOO shame about it, hes a lover what can he say
•dallas doesnt attend their new years party, believe it or not hes not the HUGEST fan of parties he never stays for the full amount of one, if he does go to the house, he stays for 30 minutes before running away and the gang doesnt see him till the 3rd of january, nobody knows what he does or goes, but he always comes back so its whatever
•johnny and pony have a thing where they either fistbump at midnight or blow those party horns at each others face!! they would always bet on who would get a midnight kiss bonus money if they guessed who it would b w
•YES, steve and soda have been each others midnight kiss btw, u could take this as romantic or not bc it was never on the lips, only like forehead or something “as a joke”🙄
•i dont think steve is that much of a party animal, at least for a new years party, he has a habit of going outside, watching illegal fireworks that really should classify as bombs while thinking about his life and throwing party snaps on the ground, then going back inside to live it up so he doesnt get too sad blah blah blah repeat. he gives the rest of the party snaps to pony and johnny
•the curtis gang will leave up christmas decorations for MONTHS, they dont rlly buy new decorations. two bit however loves to take the mistletoe down to put it in a new place and annoy surprise everyone by screaming whos under it
•the gang wuestion dally on the times square ball drop a lot, hes went ONCE and will always rant about how stupid and annoying it is, he says its like top 3 worst new years ever bc of how cramped it was but the gang will notttt believe him, they think hes just being grumpy
•u can expect to hear allllll of darrys new years resolutions bc hes making some for himself AND the gang, u leave trash on the floor and he passive aggressively suggest a new years resolution for u to throw it out😭ill tell u what tho he follows through on his resolutions for the most part u gotta commend him
•when i think of johnny and new years i think of tyler the creator being upset that he was making a stupid ass sandwich into the new year
•alternatively when i think of two bit and new years i think of camilla cabeo??? i think it was???? and her tweets for new hears where shes like “i havent showered since last year” and she was doing it consecutively each new years
•mrs curtis made this tradition to take a new years picture each new years and the gang WILL keep that alive!!! they choose one person from the gang to keep the photo forevveerrr and everrrrr
•the gang also makes a time capsule!! this was something they didnwhen they were wayyy younger but some of the gang still make it, althought there is this one time capsule literally EVERYONE forgot where it was buried so its just somewhere chillin in the backyard</33
•do u guys think they would drive over to the curtis parents’ graves and hang w em for a bit, pouring alcohol and soda to commemorate em,,,i think so,,,,theyd do the same for dally and johnny
#ponyboy curtis#sodapop curtis#darry curtis#darrel curtis#dallas winston#johnny cade#two bit mathews#steve randle
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Hi! Hope you don’t mind me using this post as a way to reflect on this discourse. I’m very intrigued by it, but don’t have anyone in my friend circle to bounce ideas off of about this. So here I am with a mini essay, allowing the fictional spirit of Midoriya to take over me. Apologies in advance for this. I don’t think this discourse is a double standard and here’s why:
I think people are upset about the decision going against Midoriya’s established goal, which was becoming a Hero. As the narrator he constantly says, “This is the story of how I became the greatest Hero.” Since being a Hero is a literal career path, lots of people, myself included, assumed he was gonna stick to the career until the very end. Guessing the mentality is, if he’s not gonna be a Hero in the end like he desperately wanted to be at the start of his journey then what was the point of everything he went through? I think there’s also a one off line Midoriya says in the first episode, where he says something along the lines of U.A. now allowing quirkless people to try out for the Hero course. He says this to Bakugou when the teacher reveals to the class that Midoriya wanted to try out for U.A. If that’s the case then Midoriya should be capable of continuing on his dream of being a Hero, right? There was a chance for Mr. Horikoshi to take that one off line and do something with it, but I wouldn’t be surprised if nobody really remembers Midoriya saying that.
In regard to All Might and Mirio, my guess is that people are less inclined to be upset with them because they’re not the main character. We don’t spend as much time watching them struggle to achieve their goals like we do for Midoriya.
All Might, although we’ve gotten to know him from the beginning, had already been nearing his retirement as a Hero. He revealed his wound to Midoriya on the rooftop saying how it had caused his time to use OFA to decrease to 3hrs (if I’m remembering correctly). Then later on after the fight in the USJ, his time had been cut down again to an hour. Until finally his fight against AFO where he couldn’t use his quirk anymore. All this to say, his quirk had been weakening throughout that whole time, so we as the viewer were already expecting him to eventually retire and leave the Hero scene altogether.
Mirio, I don’t know too much about admittedly. I’m currently anime only, having been rewatching it for the past three months and still haven’t finished watching Season 6. So feel free to take this next reflective point with a grain of salt. That being said, I think with him it’s just that we don’t spend enough time with him to care too much about whether or not he continues to be a Hero. Although I guess it could also be tied to Midoriya and his question of whether or not you can be a Hero without a quirk? Because unlike Midoriya, Mirio was born with his quirk. It would make a lot of sense for Mirio to believe that he can’t be a Hero anymore without it. He’s not used to being quirkless so he doesn’t know what to do with himself in a Hero’s setting. (As in to mean, he obviously knows the essentials and has a lot of experience in battling as he was a part of the Big 3, he just thinks it’d be way too dangerous for him because he had grown so dependent on his quirk that maybe he’d forget he doesn’t have it anymore mid battle or something. An incident like that could lead to a lot of potentially horrific situations.) Meanwhile Midoriya was born quirkless yet still managed to get into the Hero course thanks to All Might. Even before meeting All Might and getting accepted into U.A., Midoriya had been acting like a Hero despite not having a quirk, like when he ran in to the river to make sure Bakugou, who had fallen into it, was okay, and when he went to save Bakugou from the sludge Villain. He was reprimanded for doing that last one, but All Might himself said that he was more of a Hero in that instance than anyone else there. It’s the reason why All Might wanted Midoriya to become his successor instead of Mirio. (That actually might be a whole other reason why people are upset with the ending, but I don’t want to make this post too long.)
As for the costs that you mention, I was thinking since Bakugou had been putting so much effort into creating the mech suit for Midoriya, potentially he could’ve helped him financially until Midoriya could afford it on his own. After all Bakugou really wanted to become a Hero with him, from the manga screenshots I’ve seen in my feed. If he was so dedicated as to spend a lot of money and time creating a Hero suit for his friend, then assuming he would be willing to help him out financially wouldn’t be too big of a stretch I think.
I don’t know anything about My Vigilante Academia, so I don’t have any opinions on that and its correlations to My Hero. Sorry about that.
I type all of this, but honestly my feelings on the ending are neutral. A little leaning towards not understanding why Midoriya wouldn’t accept Bakugou’s offer to become a Hero again (I’m just used to seeing him be very eager to accept those kinds of offers), but if the man would prefer to be a teacher then I say why not, let the man do as he sees fit. Mr. Horikoshi knows his OCs better than I will after all, so if he decides that he wants Midoriya to be a teacher instead of a Hero, then I respect that choice. Even if I personally didn’t agree with the decision, there’s always fanon to turn to, right? No harm in imagining the what ifs!
Can somebody please explain to me why people dog pilled on Deku for giving up on being a hero after loosing OFA even though it was explicitly established within the series that you can't be a hero without one (or high amounts of money that Deku doesn't have) (yes I know Vig exists but it's not the main series' fault if a spin-off breaks the rules that main series set up causing plot holes. If anything that's the spin-offs fault) when Mirio and All Might did the EXACT SAME THING when they lost their quirks and no one shat on them for that???
Like??? Mirio and All Might also stopped being heroes when they lost their quirks, yet NOBODY got mad at them for that, but when Deku does the same thing for the same reason, people shit on him for it???
This is literally such a blatant double standard lmao.
#sorry again for the long post#hopefully this at the very least gives a new perspective?#not original and still have yet to finish the show#sorry to Mirio about us not caring too much about his decisions that point might be very wrong LOL#mha#izuku midoriya#mirio togata#yagi toshinori#feel free to correct me if any information is wrong#also sorry if this reads off like I’m trying to argue I promise I’m chilling
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why didnt we get to see viktor in the no hextech universe??? or like, at least hear about him in passing,,,, it just feels really weird that ekko and heimerdinger ask for powders help before even Considering viktors help,, like it makes sense for ekko of course, but viktor was heimerdingers Assistant And one of the people who cracked hextech the first time so i feel like its just logical,,,? they couldnt even think up an excuse for why they cant go to him? it just makes me sad,, both because im curious n wanna know what hes up to but also
viktor was right......................
#just hurts extra hard...#hes always overlooked and forgotten#n its like... i wouldnt mind it as much if it had been Intentionally done#cus it fits with viktors themes n arc n whatever#but point that shit out at least!#like ekko asking' werent there 2 guys who made hextech? we may not have jayce but what about the other one?'#n then at least make up a reason for why he cant help n tell me what hes up 2222222222222#i need to knowwww#it makes me madddd#also there was no sevika in no hextech au either which also upsets me#SHOW ME MY GIRL#arcane critical#i guess?#arcane#rambles#viktor arcane#arcane spoilers
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#i never really thought about a person being a finite thing. you can see the effects of a person after they die. in the unfinished projects.#in the rooms of clutter. in abandoned closets. in pictures and in mermered phrases. and you can see time#chipping away at those things. eroding away the evidance that a person existed. clothes move into other people's closets. projects are boxed#away. and a person becomes confined to photos and memories. and thats existentially terrifying but its not a bad thing. time erodes away all#things. that's how life works. matter and energy transforms.#we arent made to last forever. i dunno. i guess im still just rattled from being home even tho ive been back a week and a half.#and my brain tends to fixate on the wrong things. nearly 27 years of knowing someone eclipsed by a visual sequence lasting less than a day.#bc i just cant get over how scary it would be to die like that. to start losing control of your body. to not be able to feed yourself or get#to the bathroom. to have your mind be overcome by the toxins building up in your mangled and broken body.#and it could have been worse. it could have been a lot worse. but its still not fair. theres no good way to die. i dunno. i guess i just#miss my mom in some abstract way but i find it more viscerally upsetting to think about the people that have to deal with her absence.#it makes me sad that my dad is alone now. i dunno. grief doesnt feel like i thought it would. most of the time i dont even know what im#crying about. its undirected. it doesnt feel like: i miss you. it feels like: youre gone. how can you be gone? why does everything feel the#same? and its not that it doesnt make sense. its that nothings changed. the terror of that.#and im walking around in an acumulation of my dead mother's clothes. and no one knows. theyll never know.#and there's nothing to be done about it. so it goes.#i guess im just sad. and its hard to breathe at the thought of returning to school at the end of August.#unrelated
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lmaoooo maffhew wanting the knot immediately and having to wait for sasha to catch up with that is so deeply funny like. this omega is not subtle and you’re not a stupid alpha babe! can only imagine what benny has to say to maffhew about it once he catches on and stops banging his head against a wall
idiots to lovers is always great but especially when its two people who would be hitched with 10 kids by now if they stopped being dumb for a single second like its that easy and yet...
to me they very much fall around the same time (infatuation at first scent if you will) just that sasha takes some time to get there not because he's dumb (okay he's a little dumb) but in the sense that its like "this person is very interested in me, i can see and recognise that but theres so much cognitive dissonance in my brain right now between knowing that intrinsically and finding that hard to believe so i unintentionally play dumb because obviously i'm reading too much into things it cant be me they're interested in haha that'd crazy but they're being awfully touchy and flirty with me wow"
but also it takes two to tango and we have to acknowledge that and this is when i would love to bring up the ways in which this man decides is the best way to go about that because he is a catholic school girlie... there's so much hilarity to be had here especially because his flirting is very uh how you say... a little ass backwards if you will especially considering dynamics
"I make it a point to keep the door closed when we're alone in a room together! That's basically a clear invitation that I'm down to fuck!!! Im basically asking to be ragdolled on his knot!!!"
and Benny just pinches the bridge of his nose like "I don't know how to explain to you in a way you'll understand that not everyone went to Catholic school."
But saying that Sasha does side-eye the door knob heavily when Maffhew goes over to close it the first time and he starts sweating like he just got dragged into a game of 7 Minutes in Heaven he did not sign up for and he's 13 again and oh god he got paired with a really cute girl, and he hasn't even had his first real kiss yet and-
And then absolutely nothing happens because Maffhew is just waiting with a polite expectant smile (because his work here is done, he did the heavy lifting know it's Sasha's turn) and this is when Sasha's dynamic classes training kicks in and he basically scolds himself for even assuming in the first place because this is clearly a show of trust (correct) not an invitation for extra circular activities (incorrect buzzer noise) and it basically becomes "This Omega really trusts me, I'm honoured especially as Pack Leader that I'm able to be so accepted into such a private space with the inherent knowledge that I will not encroach their boundaries whatsoever because consent is verbal, this is not in any way an invitation to take advantage of them this is deep platonic trust I will guard with my life :]"
and if you listen closely you can hear the lovely sounds of Maffhew bashing his head into a wall about how much of a gentleman Sasha is but also COME ONNNNNN... you know... once Maffhew realises what's happening which (looks at my watch) is not due for another few months really
Battle of wills: unstoppable force (maffhews catholic school understanding of dynamic interactions) vs immovable object (overseas alpha cotillion classes)
And if you think it's an Oh! An overseas dynamic thing! It's not. The Euros are watching the horrible car crash in front of them and doing absolutely nothing about it because it's none of their business, but they will stare at it... maybe judge it a bit but definitely are observing from the tall grass.
and I'm also not saying that luosty lundy forsy and bobby have a current running bet of how long it'll take for maffhew to break sasha in but i'm also not not saying that... luosty goaded lundy in the midst of a gossip session ("It has to be 3 months, right?) forsy happened to be around so lundy turned to him for advice ("7 months.") and maybeeee bobby overheard from all the way over from his stall and puts in his two cents for what it's worth ("6. Captain nice but not that nice. Very impatient." "So 3!" "No. Impatience makes him double the time, and wait longer. 6 months.") (lundy finally settles on a good 5 months because he's indecisive)
And Sasha does eventually pick up everything maffhew is throwing down... eventually... and when he does it becomes more so I want to court this omega the way they deserve I will take this slow and romance them sweetly :) *smash cut to maffhew caterwauling like a cat in heat*
but also once again its not like maffhew is helping sasha in any way this is idiot4idiot and benny would like to enjoy the car crash with the euros but unfortunately that's his soulmate, thats his bestie, his littermate from birth who has been weaned on the same teat as they climbed over each other to get to it, the first girl you kissed in your childhood bedroom because somehow you started play fighting on the bed because she was like i could totally pin you down easy and then she does and you always noticed how beautiful she was but shes even more gorgeous when she's pinning your wrists to your hannnah montana duvet you promised yourself youd changed out before she came over but you forget and well she teased you about it and you cant help but giggle about how perfect this all is and it seems that the natural conclusion to this is to taste the strawberry lipgloss of her lips because whats a kiss between besties huh its tacky and sticky and it tastes like summer and just other apt metaphors to put here about the inherent -isms of their relationship that i nearly cant put to words properly other than girls having fun (they are fucking)
and well anyways benny is watching and he has a lot of things to say about how its been proceeding so far
"You should really use your words."
"I am!"
"Right because smelling like a fucking perfume shop in the middle of October is using your words."
"This usually works with most Alphas okay!"
"Sasha isn't most Alphas."
"Tell me about it." Matthew grouses before he peeks over to Sam, looking up from beneath his eyelashes—the exact way he knows both endears him to Sam but also absolutely miffs him all the same, "Worked on you, didn't it?"
"Oh, is that what we're doing right now? We're calling getting a lapful of a preening O in preheat in the middle of a roadie a normal way to go about these things."
"It worked didn't it?" Matthew reiterates.
"It would work better if you use—"
"Okay! Alright!! I get it!!!" He does not.
like benny here is unfortunately an active listening participant in the going ons of the fuckery if not because hes involved by proxy because of maffhew because who else will hold his hair back as he calls him a dumb bitch you know
#ask#i dont think we nearly take enough advantage of maffhew going to a catholic prepatory school#my friend who went to catholic schooling his whole life until highschool (where we met) dropped the bombshell of the door thing on me#to which i went you have to be fucking with me that cant be real and then i was like well i guess its good we're both boys then-#and then he goes oh my mom knows im queer the rule applies to boys too#and i just nervously looked over to the door knob like well uh maybe we should open the door? i dont want your mom to be mad-#and he was like oh shes convinced we've been fucking since we met so this is allowed youre the only boy she lets do this (the door thing)#a couple of years later when he moved out i found out friends weren't allowed over if he was alone in the house but i was the only exceptio#and i felt like the equivalent of a roving tomcat who keeps wandering into the gardens and got the neighbours cat daisy pregnant#i dont think i could ever look that woman in the eye after all that#this is all to say catholic schooling does things to you man#anyways i do have to reiterate every kitty is fucking each other on a normal basis and in an abo au it gets even worse#making our whorehouse a whorehome#ive always said this but flirting with a virgo is like flirting with a brickwall#actually thatd be an insult to the brickwall because at least the brickwall would give you something to work with#the humble virgo looks you in the eyes before they crush your ego with a single word and youre like thank you mistress may i have another#i feel for maffhew i really do#theres just so many funny ways this just goes terribly wrong because both maffhew and sasha are inherently messy people#matthew and sasha on a team outing sat next to each other in a booth and matthew gets a little tipsy and starts rubbing his cheek#on sashas shoulder and sasha is just looking over to benny like please. help. and benny just snorts and blatantly ignores#him as he continues to sip on his beer and sasha just turns to ekky and silently pleads with his eyes. PLEASE. HELP.#ekky huffs and looks away very much not thrilled about being involved in any form whatsoever and hes not gonna change his mind about this#*5 minutes later* and ekky finds himself switching spots with sasha with a cuddly maffhew on his arm and he's a little disgruntled about it#but its very hard to stay upset when maffhew keeps mumbling about how nice he smells and keeps trying to scent him#all over like he has any right to lay a claim when hes been in the pack for such a short time#and yeah okay maybe he preens a little bit at the compliment like just a little#and maybe he does like being treated like a glorified scratching post but matthew doesnt need to know that (matthew knows that)#well anyways
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Hear me out (or don't... it's fine I'm just venting and mean) yeah um I don't believe Chakotay was saved in Prod*gy s2.
#the 'time travel' makes no sense when you think on it. What happened to Prime Chakotay? He got killed they showed that.#At the end s1 Janeway finds an 'alternate chakotay in an alternate timeline' and that's the one they go and get#we saw the original get merc'd in the message. That ACTUALLY happened. Lmao.....#They didn't prevent THAT death because they didn't go to THAT Solum with the Infinity and stop it from happening#instead it was 'ALTERNATE#' implying other.#OG Chakotay wasn't taken over by the alternative one either nothing suggests that was the direction for him in s2#they didn't do anything like 'well you see chakotay because at the end of s2 when we converged timestreams you have merged with your other'#if they did want to recover the original from s1 then keep that clear instead of being convoluted dont use an alternate timeline wtf#instead the plot was focused on gywns stupid fucking paradox plot and her being fixed#chakotay was the one in a paradox too did that not matter nah dw about it he had to die for this outcome or someshit lmao why#In the extended message given to admiral janeway it shows him clearly getting left behind and surrounded. Sadly no one intervened.#I dont understand why they couldnt have just made s2 about his rescue alone IF they took their time it wouldnt be so difficult#to follow#above that the one they rescued was ruined by the 10 year gap so he wasn't 'saved' at all. God i hate s2 when you break it apart#I dunno the more i look at s2 Janeway and Chakotay the more upsetting it is. Janeway would NOT have settled for an imposter.#everyone going goo-goo gaa gaa over s2 but it's sloppy af imo and undermines a huge portion voyagers struggles#id really like them to flatly lay out their ideas because literally nothing ive heard explains the story or choices of s2 with conviction#instead it's oh clap for wesley or the new vulcan and other references yay#describe to me your timetravel clearly and i'll happily take a seat on it (there is still other crap stuff mind you)#this is the most repressed shit i my head i swear#im angry because s1 is so clearly mapped out to a brilliant degree and for whatever reason it's not in s2#i can see through it#insultingly people are eating it up and claiming it's better than ever nah dawg embarrassing#there are nice ideas inside s2 but they arent adequately rewarded#it doesnt compare to the timetravel in other trek because they kept it clear#i mean it could have been an interesting parallel to endgame but in the end janeway didnt even rescue him lmao they dropped her#why bother building up this mission only for her to give up and go 'i'll hand it over because im told to'. Janeway had fuck all this season#let alone settle for not fixing her own timeline and her own friends deadly circumstance dw just grab another one from the shelf i guess#the emotional fallout was absolutely missed because they didnt elaborate on anything. Plenty of show but no substance from the characters
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this isn’t a new hot take of mine but it still blows my MIND that I’m in the minority in the kyman fandom when it comes to thinking of Kyle as a dom/top and Cartman as a sub/bottom. From what I’ve heard from veteran kymans the fandom barely had ANY sub Cartman truthers in its earlier years, and dom Cartman is still extremely popular to this day. There's so much art/fics where Kyle is like... a pain slut (????) or gagging for Cartman’s giant dick (?????????) but any time I see that stuff I get a visceral, skin-crawling HELL FUCKING NO 😬😬😬 reaction and have to back out immediately.
A mutual once told me something like “I can’t write Cartman as a dom, I think I’d break out in hives or something” and that’s p much exactly how I feel lmao 😆
y'all do you ig, but it's not my cup of tea at all.
#it's just. completely baffling to me#I've been seeing so much of it lately that it's making me second-guess my own thoughts on kyman#like how could I possibly be interpreting these characters so differently from other people I don't get it 🫠#and yeah i know not all tops are doms and not all bottoms are subs but that's how the majority of ppl depict it#but it's not even that they HAVE to have a dom/sub dynamic at all for it to seem ic to me#they can have an equal partnership without that D/s power exchange#blargh i'm just venting at this point#tbf ppl can do what they want in fandom and I don't have to engage with it but i'm so starving for kyman content the brainrot is too much#i used to not mind seeing sadist/dom/top cartman when I first dipped my toe into kyman#like it wasn't my fav but i wouldn't viscerally hate it#but now that i've gotten to know the characters so much more and even written my own fic i just. can't tolerate it anymore#maybe i need to take a break from kyman for a bit cuz this is making me irrationally annoyed and upset 🫠 blarrghhh#my post
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#holidays have not been what i hoped for so far 😔😔#well the first week was good but then i got sick 😭#and it's been so awful#having a cough is literally the worst i couldn't sleep it was so bad#and i couldn't even enjoy doing anything really because you can't properly focus on the thing bc ur coughing non stop#i hate it sm#and today it was gone all day only that now it is back altough not as bad as before but still#it always gets worse in the evening#like help i just want this to end#what made it even worse i had real plans to study and now i barely got anything done 😭😭#and now i'm scared for exams bc i couldn't follow the plan altough i still have more than 2 and 3 weeks left#in my mind i already think i'm gonna do badly bc i need to study more i'm afraid#and i'm also upset at myself even though it's not my fault i got sick but i keep thinking i still could have done more ughh#to make it even worse i coudn't play tennis for a whole week and i was so looking forward to playing everyday (and improving) 😢😢#i couldn't do any sports or see anyone i miss it sm#i hope at least in the new year i can do stuff again 🥺#it was just the worst cold/flu and idk why whenever i get it it's that extreme 😵💫#or idk is it normal that you can't sleep bc of it ... i just don't wanna get sick again ever lmao it's the worst#i guess christmas was still nice it wasn't that bad then and it was a lovely day with my family :)#and our tree was really pretty this year and i'm really happy with my gifts and also those i gifted 🥰#the week before was good i did play lots of tennis and i went on a christmas market with uni friend and to vienna for a trip with my mom ^^#but maybe it was too much sometimes i wonder if i do something wrong or if it is just bad luck like i did train a lot#and i played a tennis match for my club and won against a higher ranked opponent so yay 😁#and i played really well i feel like i once again really improved my level :)) but i did play kinda sick already so maybe that was rly bad😅#maybe i should stop doing that 😅 but i didn't know it's gonna get this bad i just had the worst headache and sore throat#well ig i should have known but i also always feel like i have to play and i love matches and like my team needs me?#who else would have won that? i'm one of the best at my team and the others who are rly good weren't there that day so i felt responsible 😅#honestly my mom possibly she is also quite good but it would have been close and i wasn't sure so i played 😅#but i have done this too often by now... playing sick i really can't help myself 🤦♀️
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i thought i had left school behind me a while ago but i guess my brain hasnt got the memo yet because it went "nuh-uh-uh. its time to dream about FIRST DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL ALL THE TIME☺️☺️ !!!"
i have not seen a school stablishment in over a year AND I DO NOT EVEN LIKE SCHOOL IM NOT IN IT ANYMORE I GRADUATED JUST MONTHS AGO WHY AM I STILL DREAMING OF ENTERING HIGH SCHOOL😭😭 GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!!!! /lh
#not art#I TALK!!!#just weeks ago i was staring at back at school posters like. damn poor fellas good thing im not there anymore#BUT NAH MY BRAIN SAID. WE JOINING TOO. LETS DREAM ABOUT ENTERING SCHOOL AGAIN#them commercials must be getting to me i swear😭 i look at em and im. NO!!!!!!#partially upset because these dreams havin me second guess if i miss school or not SOMETHING ID RATHER NOT BE IN MY MIND BEFORE COLLEGE#getting too concerned abojt what could have been of my high school years after the fact is going to be tbe end of me#THESE DREAMS DO NOT HELP!!! GET OUT!!!#maybe i have not left school behind me
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How’s life? No pressure question ofc, but if you want to share please feel free to do so with this ask :3
Eh, it doesn't feel all that great right now. I'm tired and hungry a lot, but I just have to get a routine together. My sleep has been wonky, I've been waking up too early, but I feel fine then but it also feels like I can't rest completely- I have dreamless nights mostly. And I also just get annoyed a lot, but it feels better being around people I like.
#my father is upset today too cause I couldn't hang out with him#I talked to a social worker at school a few days ago just for check in and in my opinion I still feel bad even talking to her#it's been a rough week and I'm not sure what to do except deal with it and move on#I like to draw still#I dont want to get tired of it#I mean at least I'm doing productive things like laundry and showering#I'm gonna have spaghetti today that's a good thing#I'll have clean sheets for my bed that's good too#I got presents a day earlier and that's good#I like listing the positives#It kinda gives me ideas for writing#I really wanna eat all these positive things i mean the feeling it gives me in itself#I really love the good things I don't ever want to lose them#I'm actually gonna try to make a doll bunny today#I got dug up old fabrics in my room so I can experiment with something new#I'd list more good things but I'd sound kinda weird doing that in the tags#I should probably journal again but my mind blanks when I try but I'll figure it out#I mean poetry and fanfiction is always an outlet#I gotta practice that more often#There still a ways to go in life so obviously it'll change eventually it always does#And it's only one of many weeks so I can't be too doubtful#It can't always be the worst#Feeling the same feels awful#No matter the emotion it kinda turns numb if you feel it long enough#Days are always changing though since everybody is doing different things everyday all the time#Like most say 'it gets better' eventually#I guess I can wait for a good day#I have no choice sooo I'll let whatever happen#Well technically I can make it happen#I'll feel better when I made myself dinner and cleaned my bed and put away my laundry and put on fuzzy socks and go to sleep
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#personal#ebongawk personal#rant#literally just need to write this down or I’m gonna explode#but my brother got like actually upset with me earlier tonight over something that happened when I was 19#so 11 years ago#bc he gave me his ‘85 beater of a car#(my name was on the title!)#and a lady hit me and it got totaled out#so I gave him half the money thinking well that’s fair bc it’s my car but he did give it to me#and he’s just been harboring all of this anger about it all these years#because I guess that was in fact *his* car#it’s so fucking stupid#and he kept talking about his *generosity*#I couldn’t pinpoint exactly why that bothered me so much until I was driving home#and I realized that#no matter what I said or how I tried to defend myself#he kept implying that my generosity was less significant than his because it wasn’t monetary#despite the fact that I clean his fucking house#and have put so much goddamn money into making it feel like a home#never mind the state of this place when I moved in before I painted and deep cleaned#oh and don’t even fucking mention the *months* of my time I have spent watching his dog *for free* while he was globetrotting#but no#a car that totaled out 11 years ago because of an accident that *wasn’t my fault* makes him the epitome of generosity#gods I’m so mad#I spent my entire goddamn afternoon cleaning my sister’s disaster of an apartment so she hopefully gets some of her deposit back#and then I get reprimanded for something that happened when I was fucking 19#Jesus I’m so tired#this is all such petty bullshit too like we are over 30#fuck
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Feeling deeply tired of my family hours.
#it’s ok#I’m so tired#why don’t you have to watch what you say#no we don’t have to be told to watch what we say#because we have a fucking filter#and we notice people are getting upset before they yell or cry#or at least I fucking do#there’s so much I don’t do and say to not upset you#and I can never tell you because guess what you’ll get upset#everything I do is for this fucking family the only reason don’t kill myself is for your feelings#and you think you’re catering to me#I can’t tell you how I really feel because every time I do you make me feel worse#I never minded no one noticing how hard I try#that was always the point quiet little things to help things go smoother#a mediator a listener#that’s me that’s Klaryssa she just does that she likes it#and I do#I love helps I really do#but I also do it because sometimes it feels like no one else will#mom cleans what no one notices#I say let’s look at this from eachothers point of view#I go hey is that really the best way to say that#I’ve been cleaning up emotional messes for yeaaasrs#and you you go why is it on me to consider your feelings#because that’s what people do#I’m asking you to change your phrasing because it hurts#and you don’t understand why you don’t understand why#you just want to know why#I’ve been trying to explain for years#why is it my fault you still don’t understand
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