#Feeling the same feels awful
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How’s life? No pressure question ofc, but if you want to share please feel free to do so with this ask :3
Eh, it doesn't feel all that great right now. I'm tired and hungry a lot, but I just have to get a routine together. My sleep has been wonky, I've been waking up too early, but I feel fine then but it also feels like I can't rest completely- I have dreamless nights mostly. And I also just get annoyed a lot, but it feels better being around people I like.
#my father is upset today too cause I couldn't hang out with him#I talked to a social worker at school a few days ago just for check in and in my opinion I still feel bad even talking to her#it's been a rough week and I'm not sure what to do except deal with it and move on#I like to draw still#I dont want to get tired of it#I mean at least I'm doing productive things like laundry and showering#I'm gonna have spaghetti today that's a good thing#I'll have clean sheets for my bed that's good too#I got presents a day earlier and that's good#I like listing the positives#It kinda gives me ideas for writing#I really wanna eat all these positive things i mean the feeling it gives me in itself#I really love the good things I don't ever want to lose them#I'm actually gonna try to make a doll bunny today#I got dug up old fabrics in my room so I can experiment with something new#I'd list more good things but I'd sound kinda weird doing that in the tags#I should probably journal again but my mind blanks when I try but I'll figure it out#I mean poetry and fanfiction is always an outlet#I gotta practice that more often#There still a ways to go in life so obviously it'll change eventually it always does#And it's only one of many weeks so I can't be too doubtful#It can't always be the worst#Feeling the same feels awful#No matter the emotion it kinda turns numb if you feel it long enough#Days are always changing though since everybody is doing different things everyday all the time#Like most say 'it gets better' eventually#I guess I can wait for a good day#I have no choice sooo I'll let whatever happen#Well technically I can make it happen#I'll feel better when I made myself dinner and cleaned my bed and put away my laundry and put on fuzzy socks and go to sleep
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MALALA
#every time I remember we’re the same age I feel awed but also inspired I think she is so Neat Cool Beautiful Inspirational ANYWAY#Malala
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Thinking about his brain
#fop nature au#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#dale dimmadome#art#digital art#fanart#doodle#He spends like all of his time irrationally terrified of going back to poverty#this was inspired by a panel change I had to make to the next comic im working on teehee teehee#originally I was going to have a funny gag of him describing how awful he felt#but I decided to change it because like. He would never admit that he felt bad#feeling bad is a sign of weakness. a sign of failure. a sign that he needs to try harder#like its not just Devs problems he's ignoring. he treats his own body pretty awfully too#not to write that entire thing off as a trauma response tho hes still objectively awful for not listening to his sons wishes#and he wouldn't have done the same if his own leg got as severely injured.#Having a leg amputated is scary he would have tried to salvage it#then again that is still arguably his fucked up version of love#I have thoughts ok!!!#he is so traumatized
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the untamed (2019) // sophocles, jean anouilh, trans. lewis galantiére: antigone
#jwy’s eyes filled to the brim with tears as the whole of the gentry demand his brother’s end and swear on his demise RUINS me#i mean. his brother in law is dead his sister widowed and her barely one month old son without a father#but that doesn’t matter. not to jwy#still he doesn’t want his brother dead#still he doesn’t say a word as the others degrade and defile that brother#still he doesn’t lead his men to draw swords or ready bows on that brother#still he wants to shield that brother to defend his honor and at a moment he feels the other is worth none#and what’s funny is that his brother is those things - rebel and traitor - those and other more awful names#jwy to some degree agrees. maybe more so#really no one has been as or more wronged by his brother than he has#first with the murders of his family and the fall of his home to being abandoned for the same wens to blame for it#so yes he is a rebel and a traitor and more but still he is his brother#being betrayed by your brother doesn’t mean he’s not your brother. maybe he’s more your brother for it#jiang cheng#wei wuxian#yunmeng bros#the untamed#mdzs#<3
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He was just being a silly little guy!
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#jin guangyao#wen ruohan#nie mingjue#lan xichen#JGY's character is the zigging and zagging guy of all time#We love a little meow meow that can bite and scratch and kill you.#We also love a little meow meow that can mewl pathetically!#'He's evil now and torturing his former friend?" ZAG TIME: He's a spy and feels soooo awful about it!!#ZIG TIME: He (probably) didn't need to go that deep into the role and kill as many people as he did.#Something I really love about the sworn brother trio is how they reflect how our feelings distort our perception of others.#Lan Xichen represents how when we love/care about someone -anything they do can be endearing. They aren't manipulative: they are clever.#Its less about rose tinted glasses and more about reframing every look you get of them. The constant justifications you make for them.#They just need a space to be loved! “They care for me so I will stand by them no matter what to show them I'm there for them!”#While NMJ represents how when you dislike someone - Everything they do is an affront or proof of their foul character.#Everything is a sign. Everything is 'proof' they are just as awful as you want them to be. Every 'good trait' is twisted.#The problem is that most people are just human. They are flawed and they are capable of good and bad things.#Meng Yao's motivations are very complex. Yet he's extremely human all the same. He isn't the saint nor the monster of the story.
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[241215] Show! Music Core :: Strategy :: Momo
#twice#twicenetwork#dailytwice#fortwice#ultkpop#kpopstages#kpopccc#ggnet#femaleidolsedit#momo#hirai momo#flashing tw#igm.gif#mine:twice#p: music core#usersemily#tuserflora#useranusia#userzaynab#usergyunie#vacantlook#usertheos#fordaniseyes#she looks sooooo good i was itching to gif this since i saw the stage#but then i started giffing and realized her hair is the same colour as her skin and the video is so whitewashed i cried#i tried my best to colour this i know it's awful i'm sorry pls feel free to ignore the post 😭😭
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never change, man !
#phantom of the paradise#potp#swan potp#nightmaretheater#65 layers and about 24 hours . Eeeyyuppp#Look into my beautiful mind boy#Its a bit unusual to what i usually draw#but i had to push a specific look for this piece#hopefully you all are picking up on the corperate look . the advertisment look#Sneeze. Anyways my point is industry destroys creative people. This includes swan#I feel like phrases like these ; how he was put on a pedistal…. it lead him to be Like That#as awful as he is he desperately needed help#it might seem like vanity on the surface#but i think its… more than that#long story short: we need to destroy the beauty industry. the skincare industry. the anti-aging industry#It ruined his psyche forever and he cant let go of the ideal version of himself he will never truly be again#i dont think he can at this point. hes in too deep and hes suffering for it no matter how much he feels hes fixed his problems#he cant accept a version of himself that isnt that perfect young man. because he never confronted his problems. he just ran away#anyways . Hi swath *punches him**kicks him*#i dont care if nobody gets me lalalalla my truths and headcanons are awesome forever and i live in my own reality lallaallal#sorry i think im gonna be posting about swan alot for a few months hes making me sick#i wass gonna post this earlier but my internet was real bad#*lays down in my pile of pillows* eat up boys. haha#sidenote: drawing white blond people is horrifiying. Boy your skin and hair are the same color. Introduce some contrast to yourself. Please#adding on: its inportant to note this focuses on him looking st himself in the mirror alot on purpouse#to remind himself what he ‘’’’really’’’’ looks like#the 4 middle pannels all represent that too . u have to be in my brain ri get this#sorry for unleashijg another swan essay in my tags. will happen again lol
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Nahhh not wally boy putting on the moves!! 🙈💖🙈
Taglist♡: @me-myself-and-my-fos @tiny-cloud-of-flowers @sunstar-of-the-north @dearly-beeloved @adoredbyalatus @changeling-selfship @crushes-georg
@cherry-bomb-ships @rosieaurora @rejaytionships @tropgothships @little-miss-selfships @starlos-soulmate
@limey-self-inserts @candyheartedchy @space-sweetheart @halsinkisser @clancykisser @squips-ship @berryshipbasket @soulnottainted @homevideorentals @shakessoulmate @severants
#artfarts#self insert#self ship#self insert x canon#oc x canon#wallace and gromit#w&g#aardman#sighs as i add an official f/o tag for the first time...#🧀 will you brie mine? 🧀#I WAS LITERALLY THINKING AW HE'S NOT AN F/O DESPITE HAVING AN S/I AND ART CAUSE THERE'S NO TAG#AND THEN IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT OF THE PERFECT ONE#anyways sketching this really made me feel better after a hard day 😭#i got another hard day tomorrow im sure. so cheers#at least ill be getting monday off!!#and ill get to spend it w me partner 🥺#we cant just keep watching the same wallace and gromit shorts BUT WE MAY HAVE TO#WHEN THE DAMN HYPERFIXATION HITS!!!!!!!
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07/01/2024
a month left and i'm not panicking (i am)...! sorry to juxtapose beautiful flowers with a cursed picture of memorizing crim at like 3 am lmao. hope everyone's having a lovely summer and good luck to those who are also studying over the summer ! summer study squad🌞📚, let's go!!! may we be blessed with good grades, passing scores, and a stress-free autumn🙏
#i also got a haircut so my hair is no longer this long :-(#the only thing that makes me feel better is thinking about how much i got done in a month and now i have the SAME amount of time left#peep my new lamy safari!!#i am going to post about it - i just haven't had the time to take a pic of it in action#it was sooo scratchy and awful at first but i got a replacement nib and switched inks so it flows a lot better now <3 still kinda uncomfy#study#tea-tuesday#mine#studyblr#studyspo#study inspiration#studying#study motivation#b*r pr*p
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"Because you weakened me"


I tend to over analyse too much but aren't those two scenes a parallel ?
1/ Mel's position
In both frames Mel is positioned to the left of her interlocutors (Ambessa and Jayce). In both pictures, she's the vulnerable one, she's barely listened to and her words have "no weight" (but the contexts are important!)
2/ Context
In the first situation, Mel advocates for the mercy of the young heir of a conquered nation (I guess)
As a result, Ambessa banished Mel because of her softness. Her mother needed her to be far away from her so she could accomplish her bigger missions. She literally said that she couldn't look at her in her eyes because Mel weakens her resolve to do what's necessary for her family (i.e conquering lands through wars but also protecting her family, and more precisely protecting Mel from the Black rose).
In the second situation, she explains to Jayce that her whole life had been a lie and she can't control it because of her family and powers.
Jayce listens and coldly leaves Mel to fulfill his greater mission : saving the world from his "misdeeds". He gives her a dull but meaningful pep talk. And, he, too as a hard time looking at her in the eyes. Jayce knows Mel and he knows that she needs to feel approved and validated, he genuinely loves her and believes in her strenght and intelligence. I think that's why, besides her revelation, he specifically chose those last words to encourage her (i.e "You are not a passenger").
I don't know if I am reaching but it seems like in a teeny tiny moment, they want to hug but both refrain from it. Almost as if they are restraining themselves to have physical contact. Mel has to cross her hands. Their posture is unnatural and awkward, the perfect opposite of how they usually behave around each other.
Jayce usually let himself be soft and vulnerable with Mel, she's his confidant, but this time he couldn't afford to do that for the greater good. There is a deep sorrow in his eyes when he manages to look at her (is he also ashamed because he weaponized hextech when she fought not to ?). He knows he couldn't count on her help and comfort this time. He couldn't cave in and melt into her arms (or lap). He can't be "weak". Maybe, Jayce knew she would weaken his firm resolve.... So that's why, like Ambessa, he has a hard time looking at her.
3/ "There is no force in this world that can control you"
He's also resignated and defeated because he knows that he's definitely a passenger. (And he doesn't want that for her, I suppose...). He's in pain and he knows that he's risking death (or he's already dying because of his hexcorized arm).
Feels like this line is almost a jab to Mage Viktor who, in hindsight, dictated/manipulated his whole life.... He says he's confused about a lot lately, that's the sentence of someone who discovers that his whole life was a "lie". But he also feels responsible for all the bad decisions he made and he's determined to fix it. Little does he know how much Mel and him have in common : kidnapped and tortured in alternative/future worlds, and controlled and coveted by people who needs them for what they could bring to them (Mage Viktor and the Black Rose).
Anyway, Jayce never told Mel what happened to him so the poor woman must feel so unworth and unloved, again. In reality, Jayce was protecting her and the city from an apocalypse and her mom was protecting her from the black rose.
She seems quite done but unfazed after Jayce's speech, seems like a familiar feeling to her. She's used to be cast away at this point, right ? As an empath, I'm pretty sure she's devastated but she can't be "weak" too (that's why she was exiled after all). She also knows that they are going to war, so no time for self pity.
This scene is so frustrating because I can understand why Jayce is so cold and distant, he's pained, he knows he's risking death. But at the same, he feels so OOC (which is not that stupid because it's not everyday that he had to face an apocalypse...)
I don't know, I'm just trying to make sense of this scene. But maybe I'm just reaching and it's not that deep (because season 2 is a parallel fest, so much parallels just for the sake of "parallelling"....)
#mel medarda#jayce talis#arcane#arcane analysis#meljay#melmedardagifs#this is awful#she was always supporting and comforting him#and when she needed the same he completely denied her help and comfort#she was as pained as him#shes been tortured but she still smiled at him when she saw him#let this woman cry and be angry#it doesnt even make sense that she's barely seen crying#why does she have to be the strong one everytime#i dont even know if I'm making sense its too late#anyway i dont like mage viktor#imo this man ruined the anthenticity of Jayce's fascination for magic and his friendship with Viktor#it was a bad idea#anyway mel's love and softness is so strong that she weakens them 🤣#poor them they must feel like puppets
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Day 2
"Has he done this before?"
#sorry i was feeling lowkey awful yesterday#and most of this day#so i finished this one a little late#but it turned out better than i expected#asoiaf#fan art#a song of ice and fire#asoiaf fanart#asoiaf art#my art.#eddard stark#ned stark#cersei lannister#nedsei#i don't ship them but i like this scene#it shows ned's kindness#February 2024 Romance Drawing Challenge#i think we all thought about the same scene for this one lol
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just decided to give Shockwave some hideous hidden mouth compartment or whateverrrr

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#transformers#tf#shockwave#tf shockwave#soundwave#tf soundwave#maccadam#transformers headcanons#<- ig? it kinda is#yeah i hc that Shockwave has this weird ahh mouth that he rarely uses unless he needs energon#rare instance of Maddy not posting wavewave for the 1282676383th time!!!! /j#he boutta bite Optimus with those sharp ass teeth#he gonna go nom nom nom on anything he sees#yes even metal. HE WILL TRY TO EAT THE METAL#but then he regrets it immediately bc it tasted AWFUL!!!! (its rusted)#poor Shockwave will never feel his throat the same way ever again after Soundwave shoved his servo down there to get something#very unfortunate 😔
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GRAY AND BLUE ⋆˚
one thing about michael kaiser is that he will let you plop down onto his lap whenever and wherever. he loves the feeling of your body pressed against his and your hands in his hair. simply adores having you close, chest-to-chest.
and if it's been a particularly hard day for you, he'll drag you into his arms and let you just sit on his lap, face pressed against his chest/neck. he won't say anything, won't do anything cheeky or stupid because he just wants you to know that he's there.
he's more than willing to listen, more than willing to cheer you up, but sometimes he knows that a long hug and a comforting presence is enough to turn an awful day into a happy one.
and if you want, he'll turn on the bath for you. he'll sit patiently by the tub, just simply being there with the gentlest touches and softest smiles. sure, there are minimal words, but his gestures speak volumes. they are more than enough to show his love.
when you finally soak in his warmth, he'll poke your nose. he wants to see you smile more than anything, and when you do, just know that he'll feel like the happiest man on earth.
"there's my baby. i've missed that pretty smile."
#ive had an awful day and needed something comforting so to those of you who are feeling the same way– i hope mikka can boost your spirits#blue lock x reader#blue lock imagines#blue lock fluff#michael kaiser x reader#michael kaiser imagines#kaiser x reader#kaiser imagines#michael kaiser fluff#michael kaiser x y/n#michael kaiser x you#bllk x female reader#bllk x y/n#bllk x you#bllk x reader#blue lock x you#blue lock headcanons#kaiser fluff
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i firmly believe that Shoot From the Hip is our version of how shakespeare was experienced
#chicken scratch#shoot from the hip#i'm not saying that as like “oh they're unparalleled geniuses” or something#brilliant people yes#but that's not the point#shakespeare is fun and rowdy and uncouth and silly and engaging and alive#but just reading the plays like so many do doesn't give you that sense of going to the theatre and interacting with hamlet or beatrice#laughing at wordplay and gasping at twists and awwing at the cute bits#we don't get it anymore#but shoot from the hip has the same feeling#it's alive
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i suspect that a chunk of my issues with act 3 in arcane s2 and other trends in popular franchises would be resolved if “misery” and “complexity” and “profundity” weren’t so often conflated by writers and audiences
#arcane critical#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane meta#arcane discourse#the takes on jinx on main are just awful#her death like isha’s was meaningless and predictable#same as Warwick#death in a story should always communicate something other than “you should feel sad right now”
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So, so many queer people, I've noticed, can put themselves in precarious situations wherein they feel accepted by people and the queer person would do anything for those who accept them, even if it is harmful to them, even if it is scary. It feels like you are indebted to those who accept you because you know that isn't the case for every person you meet. To so many queer people, they are afraid to upset others who accept them (or "accept" them) because they are so scared of rejection. This is completely human and completely normal. But that doesn't mean you deserve to be taken advantage of. You deserve to be treated as an equal because you inherently are an equal - to everybody.
Please know that the people who truly, truly respect and care for you will understand when you can't do everything. They will still respect you, because you are a human being. Saying "no" is neutral at worst. You deserve to honour yourself, too.
#queer#lgbt#lgbtq#i felt this (and feel this) so hard as a trans person and i think that can easily become dangerous...#...because saying 'no' is vital i think. it's something i am so bad at in part because of my queerness and not feeling accepted by it...#...and yes we are responsible for this part of ourselves but also... it does make you vulnerable#genuine support is very important but that isn't the same as being indebted to people for being accepting you know?#i just worry for other queer people who also feel this way and i just want us all to feel more confident in our place and what we deserve...#...because we deserve good things! we deserve to let others down without worrying that we are terrible awful people who won't be accepted
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