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Mav is gone. I have a thousand things I want to say but I don't have the bandwidth to write a proper post right now.
Send me asks so I can tell Mav's stories. I want to talk about him and remember all the funny and good stuff.
#about mav#tw pet death#he was the coolest dog in the world#i am so lucky that i got to plan his last days#he was truly happy right up until the end#i got to plan his last adventures and walks and meals and kisses and i got to tell him everything i wanted to tell him#and im so lucky for thay#but i dont feel very lucky#i just feel so cheated#i shouldve gotten ten more years#he only turned five last week#it isnt fair it isnt fair it isnt fucking fair#so send me asks so i can tell you the good stuff#you can ask anything and if its too personal i just wont answer#pinning thins so you dont have to scroll through a thousand asks to figure out whats happening
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Thinking about the fact that Mabel and Dipper didn't know they had two great uncles.
Yeah they are 12 and at 12 I had a shotty understanding of my family tree- But really? Nobody brought up their great uncle? Stanley? Especially since they'll be staying with his twin brother, Stanford?
Shermie never went to Stan's fake funeral, which to me means the twos relationship was strained on some level. If Shermie is older that means his view of Stan was poisoned in some way, that even as kids they weren't close. If the Shermie is younger then he never even got to meet Stan and all he knew about him was how he failed his family. Hell, people probably barely mentioned Stanley TO Shermie.
The fact that Stan had become a black stain upon the Pines family name makes me so vividly upset. Stanley faked his death and the family just- seemingly decided to strike him from the record. To pretend he didn't existed to spare themselves the sadness and shame.
Stanford and Shermie Pines. The only children worth mentioning of Filbrick and Caryn Pines.
It was never Stanford that was lost to the world. It was Stanley, ever since he had to leave New Jersy- it was always him that had to be struck from the record. Change his name, change his state, change his affiliations, destroy the remains of ghost that was Stanley Pines. Kill him so the family doesn't bring him up, doesn't ask questions, stops asking "Stanford" about his twin.
I just keep thinking about the fact that since the day he made one single mistake all the way up until Ford walks out of that machine- Stanley Pines was killed and did not exist. And Stan himself had no one to blame, he had to play the part in his own demise- He is the only one who ever knew Stanley was alive and has been for decades.
He lives in the multitudes of every personality he's ever taken, all in the hope that he himself can stop being Stanley Pines.
#gravity falls#grunkle stan#stanley pines#STANLEYYYYYY#STANLEY THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU STANLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sharky rants#Just. Imagine the fucking shame you have to live with#the shame that you can never be yourself. That anything you were is unwanted and forgotten#The shame of just BEING- Of taking space of- of /breathing-/#Imagine the world; your friend; your family; your colleagues being so ashamed of having known you#that you feel more comfortable with a persona to present.#You feel more comfortable stealing the identity of someone you care for deeply if only to help#If only to feel capable for once. To feel like you belong- Like youre doing something good for once#Imagine the shame that brings you to be comfortable not being yourself for 40 years.#ALL CASE YOU BROKE ONE FUCKING PROJECT??????? COME ON#I mean- the deeprooted shame was started from earlier. He was 'the stupid twin“; 'the troublemaker”; “the cheat and thief”#This was a long time coming#But those werent MISTAKES- The one time he genuinely made a Mistake he lost everything#Like he really mattered so little to the people around him#and he cant really blame them.#My cousin is a genius. Hes smart and academically achieved since I was a baby.#The only thing I had that he didnt was my ability to draw. to be creative. The guy for the longest time had a better social life then me too#I used to get brought to tears seeing his accomplishments- seeing people praise him. The shame lived in me any time I had to see him#The shame that I was the black sheep of the family next to the golden standard for a son- for a student- for a friend.#when I was none of those things#And Im lucky he was my cousin- cause if he was my brother that would have haunted me EVERY DAY rather then once or twice a year#Im better with it now; Im more content with who I am- But trauma dump aside-#I very very very much understand Stans shame in being the stupid one. The unachieved one in a family full of achieved people#the shame thats angry at him for being better. at the family for treating him special. and most of all at yourself that you cant be better#its a visceral feeling that I sadly understand
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A Wild Battinson (Social Media AU)
Part 43 (Masterlist)
(Part 44)
Me, to myself: I just think the series was better when I posted several times a week because the pacing felt more natural, and it translates better when people binge it.
Also Me, holding two jobs and a bat: If you try to post once a day again, I will disconnect your head from your shoulders—
@bruciemilf guess who’s back
Anyways, folks! :D So I'm thinking of a new upload schedule where I spend a bit preparing the next ten or so parts then post it all in two weeks? I think that would be fun (and much better for my creative process.)
I’ll be posting the next part very soon :) But it's going to be drastically different from what I've done before. Let’s see if anyone can guess why.
Yada yada don’t die LOVE Y’ALL
#also since I posted so much more I felt less guilty putting filler stuff in because you'd get more tomorrow#but NOW that feels like cheating because you waited a whole week (or three months whoopsie) even though when I look back at the older parts#-the filler bits were always the best#also the lore is just exhausting sometimes#I'm not writing the MCU here I need to calm down#I'm literally rereading my own series five times trying to think of more cute filler because that's CLEARLY what I'm missing#and pictures of him#I'm running out of pictures of Robert Pattinson it's finally happening#pray for me#a wild battinson#battinson#bruce wayne#batman#the batman 2022#batman 2022#the batman#dc universe#dc#battinson needs a hug#gotham#soft bruce wayne#gotham city#only in gotham#gothamite#social media au#social media
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never forgiving bones for fucking up this scene
#hey sskk nation how are we feeling :(#literally just finished watching the new ep and i genuinely sobbed#i was so mad they didn't make him smile or have atsushi take one last look back at him bones hates to see mlm winning#also second img is me being delusional and just stopping the show when they used koko zessou for the first time and killed fukuchi#yk before he used the space time sword and literally fucking cheated#akutagawa is alive. sskk reunion totally doesn't leave gaping holes in my heart. everything is fine.#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#akutagawa ryuunosuke#ryuunosuke akutagawa#atsushi nakajima#shin sokouku#sskk#bsd#lotus draws
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hi! hope you’re having a good day/night. wondering if you had any tip for achieving phosphorescence/fluorescence with colored pencils? i’ve been getting back into drawing after a long art block and wanted to draw some glow in the dark toys but i’ve been struggling to give a good actual green glow on a dark background. thought i’d ask since you’re incredible with colored pencil!
oh prismacolor neon colored pencils are perfect for this, they only have 3 colors (orange, yellow, and pink) but i think this is the closest thing to what ur describing that ive used in my own art
some of these are more subdued than others, i blend the neon color and a regular color (the neon pencils also have harder lead so are good for blending with) it creates this really nice underglow that i cant achieve with the regular colors. the more subtle ones have less of the neon color blended in and the brighter ones have more. the neon colors are really bright and vibrant it surprised me the first time i used one. my scanner does not pick up neon colors tho (idk if all scanners are like that) so I have to photograph the art instead whenever i use neon colors
im sure other brands have neon colors u can do this with (and other mediums too) this is just what i do
#the neon green in the second to last one is just a regular light blue color mixed with neon yellow#they dont actually have a neon green color#prismacolor electric blue is the closest color they have to a neon blue but its not really neon#mixing neon colors with regular colors is awesome i def reccomend trying it#you can use it in art you wouldnt expect to have neon colors you just blend a little in to give it a slight glow#it doesnt read to your eyes like neon it just has an effect where it looks a bit unreal and dreamy almost#it feels a bit like cheating lmao it can enhance a drawing so much so easily its kinda magic#ive tried it with paint before but it was kinda cheap so wasnt the best result but still cool#ill likely buy some better quality neon paint to try this in paintings more#art help
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kill your darling, it's just that easy!
#tlt#my art#i reblogged these outfits the other day that were giving me big ianthe & naberius vibes so i wanted to draw something with them#got really funky w/ this one! i just wanted to play around i havent had the chance to draw in a while#so i just kinda let myself do whatever w/ the colors and art style and everything#idk how i feel about it but it was fun#anyway ive seen some posts suggesting that ianthe somehow cheated the system by sacrificing naberius and like...#no she absolutely did not? she paid that price exactly by the book (making her one of the few to actually do so)#and now she suffers forever for it :)#oh the line on top is a quote from the book and the caption is a lyric from 'kill your darling' by cloudy june#(which aside from that one line is not at all a ianthe&naberius song lmao)
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CHALLENGERS SPOILERS. but god also like, patrick agreeing to throw the match when art asks like it's nothing, and then later when tashi asks behind art's back he thinks it's so fucked up of her even though he agrees to do it, but then he doesn't do it. he chooses to goad art into playing real fucking tennis again instead. something tashi couldn't do. jdgfslgkddlaksjh
#and just the way that art loving her twists all these things to be so sinister#patrick can use the cheating to get him fired up but if tashi did it it would only humiliate him#in the same way that if tashi asks patrick to throw the game patrick feels it's fucked up to do it#it's humiliating (for art) when tashi does it because she doesn't love art the way art wishes she did#but patrick does!!!!!!!!!!#hnnnnnnnnnngggg i need to eat this movie#challengers
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a little thought to ruin your day: After Piper broke up with Jason, he had to deal with his heartache all by himself, isolated in a mortal boarding school with nobody to comfort him. No family. No friends.
#I hope your day is ruined#bc mine is#This man gives me a heartache it's not even funny anymore. Like it's just one after the other for him tumbling down.#I can imagine Jason looking out the windowsill all sad :( omgg#He loved piper so much :(#He basically died for her even after they became exes#I just wanna wrap him in a fluffy blanket#It's kinda hard for me to not resent Piper for this sorry.#I mean#I'm glad she didnt cheat on him or smth and just broke up w him to not play w his feelings#But yeah. Still pretty upset. They'd been dating for a year at that point. So Jason must've had it pretty bad.#pjo#jason grace#pjo hoo#pjo fandom#percy jackson#pjo series#pjo hoo toa#pjo toa#toa#piper mclean#hazel levesque#leo valdez#annabeth chase#frank zhang
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kim line boys with luv for @aprylynn (cr. 0613data)
#userbangtan#usersky#annietrack#heyryen#useremmeline#usermaggie#userkelli#trackofthesoul#dailybts#mine!#btsedit#kim seokjin#kim namjoon#kim taehyung#tuserandi#usersolis#merry early christmas apryl my darling <333333333 love you so much hope you enjoy the season with your family!#lemme also be sappy for a second and just make sure to highlight how positive your prescence is#and how lovely it was to share time with you back in may i really hold it closely to my heart <3#annie i already had this one planned so it feels kinda like cheating to put it in your xmas game but don’t worry i have more 😇#let’s get this love fest started alright#I have must post gif disease this week
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everyone loves talking about the batshit worldbuilding in WoT but I feel like everybody tends to overlook the Vaguely Evil Elves From Another Dimension that have their own officially licensed chutes and ladders-esque board game that you Cannot Ever Win
#unless you're a 9 year old boy who's surrogate father just broke their entire reality#society when olver won snakes and foxes without cheating#the day I get my hands on a real life snakes and foxes game is the day that I can die happy#but idk I feel like everybody tends to overlook the aelfinn and the eelfinn in favor of like. the ogier and radioactive two rivers#and the many. many. m a n y. other insane worldbuilding Choices robert jordan made#which are all valid I mean WoT is fucking insane#but I think we should have more aelfinn and eelfinn appreciation on this webbed site#like they're so interesting!!!!!! there's so much to unpack!!!!!!!!!#vin speaks#wheel of time#wot book spoilers#wheel of time spoilers#wot spoilers#mat cauthon#the shadow rising#towers of midnight
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maybe if you didn’t have that damn bloodless debuff
#i literally hate removing it it feels so. evil. rude. Cheating the storyline.#mostly i just feel disrespectful. because we shared a moment and that’s the reminder and WHAT! i REMOVE it! sick .
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It was fucking rape. That's my fucking point of view.
What do you mean he liked it? What do you mean it was cheating? What do you mean I like her?
It was rape, there is no other interpretation other than rape.
Robby lived with two addicts and yet he was abandoned in a bar with free access to alcohol, and that's where it started.
He got drunk for the first time, he drank for the first time and he has no resistance to alcohol because he stays away as best he can for the simple fact that his parents were addicts who never cared about him. So he wanted to forget what was happening, to repress all of this and he turned to alcohol because where else would he go when everyone didn't give a damn about him, or his situation with Tory or his emotions? Where else was he supposed to go when his example of dealing with emotions is aggression and addiction? So he drank. He drank to a level where he couldn't formulate a response, a sentence, when Kwon came to talk to him and provoke him, and we know that if he was sober he would have done something. It was obvious on his own face listening to Kwon that he was spaced out, drunk, and then Zara approached him. And took him to her room, from where he came out the next morning. No memory of the night before, a headache, and still looking out of it, as we can see when she kissed him and he didn't even react to it. The level of alcohol this requires is the level of alcohol that prevents someone from giving consent.
— I barely remember last night
— Good thing I do
Can we see the exact connotation that something happened? That she actually took advantage of the boy who couldn't speak to give consent, who couldn't think to say no, who was too drunk for this to be acceptable? The fact that she shows no remorse whatsoever for this happening and yet kisses him again.
Besides the fact that the writers themselves are treating it like it's some kind of cheating with Tory, the characters themselves acting like he's not a vulnerable person being raped by someone who knows better?
I hate her and I hate the writers for making this like it's nothing. I don't want to be that girl, but being that girl, if the roles were reversed, would this be in the show? Would this be treated that way? Or would they actually treat it like the SA situation that it is?
From the beginning, you can see her interest in Robby - starting with that scene in the captains' photo shoot where she talks to Tory. She knows he's in a relationship. All those teasing scenes with Tory. Her taking advantage of Robby. Then the fight scene.
— You chose her over me?
Like, girl, what the fuck did you expect? He doesn't know you, he doesn't like you, you raped him and you're going after his girlfriend - the person he loves? How high is your ego to even consider that he would choose you? Axel's obsession with Sam I can understand more, although I still have my doubts. She was the first person to understand and see his situation with his sensei, she was friendly and he developed a protectiveness towards her. Although his attitude towards Miguel was wrong, he didn't rape Sam or act like a bitch towards her.
Iron Dragons and their obsession with the Miyagi-Do captains.
Zara Malik and the fact that she raped Robby Keene.
#cobra kai s6#cobra kai s6 spoilers#cobra kai#robby keene#zara malik#axel kovacevic#samantha larusso#tory nichols#miguel diaz#he was raped that was rape and the writers don't give a damn because they are using it as a cheating plot#iron dragons#miyagi do#He grew up with addicts and the first time he drinks alcohol this happens and if it's not the biggest trauma I don't know what is#rape/noncon#she's not a badass for acting like that and she's not a badass for going after him or Tory she's not a badass she's a fucking rapist#i have many feelings#I really have a lot of feelings about the fact that Robby himself sees this more as cheating than rape#and I need a fanfic of him being comforted because no this was not cheating and no it was not your fault#where Johnny actually acts like a father or Daniel focuses on something other than a dead old man and his legacy#he didn't like it he's a fucking minor who was left vulnerable and she took advantage of that out of any obsession with him and Tory#Johnny and Shannon were not good parents even though they could have tried at some point#even if Johnny is still trying what the fuck??? do something besides ignore his existence#or just keep talking about karate or the new child you're going to have with the mother of the boy he thinks replaced him#Robby I love you and you deserve so much more#kwon jae sung
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i dont think ive ever seen a fandom clutch so hard to their preconceived conceptions of characters before the games even out that they can write 461 pieces of fanfiction and shove em on ao3
#fray.txt#not to mention all the people writing their rooks and their relationships with these characters on tumblr and all the other stuff#even art often seems like its assuming things not yet confirmed#and theres just SO MUCH#i really have never seen anything like this before EXCEPT with dragon age#cuz i remember dai being quite similar as well#what im saying is some of yall about to be REAL disappointed when the characters uve squeezed down into tropes and assumed traits#based on first impressions are gonna not be the whole of the character and u realise the whole of them isnt quite what u expected or wanted#and it upsets you. and feels like uve been lied to and cheated out of something. cuz u set urself up for it
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Thinking about how if we accept Paul’s narrative of the night as truth (barring the holding hands of course) Bob fully thought Cherry was putting the moves on a 14-year-old
Are you sure he wasn’t a jealous man buddy 🤨
#I think there’s a few interpretations you could have of how much of what he says in JFT is true#especially since he’s established to be an unreliable narrator by the hand-holding lie#but like it occurred to me tonight. what if he wasn’t lying about Bob not being a jealous man? that means there was a different motive than#just her being with Ponyboy and him thinking some greaser’s trying to get with his girlfriend#what if it was like. okay now I’m venturing into the realm of headcanons. but his parents having an unhappy marriage and cheating a lot#to get back at each other when they fought#and when he was young he got the idea that if he could just go after all the people they cheat with they would be happy together#and now he’s older and has realized there’s no merit to that but it’s still ingrained in his mentality when he sees cherry#so when he sees cherry with Ponyboy he assumes it’s to get back at him and he ‘goes crazy’#this does still have him thinking Cherry’s trying to put the moves on a child so idk how I feel about this exactly but it could be refined#anyway I think it would be fun to explore variations of what he could’ve meant#og#the outsiders#the outsiders musical#paul holden#cherry valance#bob sheldon
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😇💘 (mdni🔞)
#part 3🫶#and now my degenerate phase is over😌#I hope I can post this here…🙏 otherwise I’ll crop & just link to twitter…#I’ll go back to cute drawings now sorry if you didn’t want to see these😇#my fic isn’t even explicit…so it feels kind of like cheating to do this already#I felt weird drawing them kissing even😳#anyways I’m just going to post & go to sleep🙏 hope you like this it’s a bit different bahahahaahahahahahahahahah#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow fanart#sebastian sallow x mc
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okay i typed this in a reply but i need to say this more detailed here too, the way totk dealt with horses (and stables) is bad and worse than botw imo (yes i can rant about that too, these weird choices are in every little spot in totk, its almost impressive)
in a game that lets you build cars and stupid flying maschines, towers that shoot you into the stratosphere AND teleporting points all over the place, the chance is already low that you use a horse- though i would be one of them bc i love horses and hate building and didnt find it fun at all-
(also i almost never used any parts i had with me bc you cant put them back and your dumb vehicles despawn as soon as you dont look at them- also a negative thing about that system that reinforces the feeling of actually using it being more punishing than rewarding with the added bonus of the good ol saving your health potions forever problem)
-and something i DID like was that you can have more horses and the ... one.. new color (the lil spots but only AFTER you do that one quest in the spy post)
the stable points seemed like a neat idea, but like so many things, are utterly cheatable, imo the system should have only given you a point when you visit a new stable, so you actually have to go around and visit them all
(also .. add new stables, like mini ones or sth that dont offer beds- you dont need that anyway- so you have more places in which you can get them ... why did they remove some of them anyway, shouldn there be MORE now that the land is supposedly healing/being repaired? especially the one next to the big canyon, its so empty there it would have the perfect place for sth like a new settlement or a big boss arena but no its more empty than it was before, why?? and then putting yet another repeating annoying quest there in that weirld empty place?? i just dont get it)
letting you farm points by sleeping at a stable or bringing in a horse gives you LESS incentive to actually go around the world bc you can just farm it there
(and if that was done so youd 'discover' the malanya talks to you in your sleep 'secret' ... that is literally told to you, and if its bc you dont want to force players to go around and find every stable to get all those rewards ... why do you have 140 or whatver caves then with the majority of them being the literal same thing over and over ... to make people actually use the sleeping thing there? .. why, who uses that anyway, and farming points by sleeping there .. what the hell does that add? AND THEN the stupid sleep over tickets, probably the most nothign reward ever, dont count?? i dont think i ever used one- it just all doesnt make any sense, everything plays against each other)
the upgrading system for your horse is .. once again, a neat idea horribly executed, you have to go find malanya to upgrade them, and similarly stupidly like the fairies, they only tell you what food you need for what upgrade when you are there .. or when you are sleeping in the special tm bed at a stable, randomly, one food, bc the quantity changes too
which is just so ??????????? let me go and do a quest that rewards you with a lil booklet in which you can look up what an upgrade costs, or let the stables have that, either as a list or in the menu when selecting a horse or something?? (also why the hell is malanya in a different spot anyway, like, it feels like a modder just plopped them over there, their og spot is just empty now - except for yet again a stupid filler quest for .. another big horse and a yaaaaaaaaays crystal shrine quest- ... the spot is even still called spring of the horse god .... its so stupid, just like the fairy shuffling around, like you really couldnt think of a better way to reuse that concept other than to ... move it to a different spot in the same map and map level???? and not change anything in their og spot except idk, put a hole in the map ... for one of them like .. its like they moved them around last minute just to have the semblance of things being 'changed' with no regard what makes a change actually feel like one and what just feels like, pick up thing, click on random spot on map, drop thing- its like that for the fairies and shrines too, its so dumb and .. feels disrepectful to botw and how much thought seemed to have went into these spots that were clearly built about those things)
and like it couldnt get WORSE, they cut off the paths that horses follow automatically with one of those miasma buttholes (sorry its just a hole cut into the map, it doesnt even look like miasma burst through, it just .. cut out) a monster camp (that RESPAWNS, i thought those camps you clear with a quest would stay clear, but that would make sense, so of course it respawns and you can do the frame rate killer quest over and over yippieee) or otherwise like, with a big rock or a broken bridge-
and there is NO WAY to create a new path or fix or move anything in a game ABOUT BUILDING supposedly, like you needed more reasons to never use a horse????? i liked jsut hopping on and letting them follow a path and chill looking at the landscape, you cant do this here, and you cant even excuse it with 'its bc of the theme' as in, stuff is destroyed bc calamity 1.5 or whatever bc nothing in the game makes it feel like theres anything actually at stake, but the real crime is to make it not be fixable. WHY??? link moves entire buildings with ease but cant move one freaking rock that fell into a river?????? you swing around logs like a club but cant fix a bridge so your horse can get over it??????????????????????????????
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#ganondoodles rants#totk critical#i know i know its long#and you may wonder how i can find things to rant about yet#and i swaer im not trying to find thigns to hate#but igven how much it reuses from botw#imporvement or at least meaningful change should be the minimum and they just ......dont .... again#like WHY this is so dumb.................#the more i try to get my feelings into coherent thoughts about this game the more i realize just how rushed it feels#even the detail or side mechanics either dont make sense#or have some sort of way to cheat around way too obviously to be something overlooked#or are poorly integrated#or cheapen antoehr function#like these problems are everywhere#and the longer you look at it the cheaper it looks#even if you love the game and dont mind it or whatever there is NO WAY to justify that price tag#and so wish they were honest about what happend#it cant just all be covid can it? theres so much wrong in every part except for sound and music#and so desperately want to know WHY#........ i just wanted more horse colors- more horse slots- and a lil pasture somewhere where i can see them all frolicking around#i feel like thats not too much to ask
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