#i hope that everything gets better for you anon

[palmerzy]

Okey so... Hear me out. Sub! Spence but it starts with him being a total sub then reader finally lets him fuck her and its just too good that Spencer gets cocky about it like sort of showing off how good he can make her feel. If you add a bit of body worship i wouldn't be mad about it *wink wink* :D

i feel like i might’ve strayed a little from what you wanted, but it still has the same essence (i hope)!! thank you for requesting, anon, enjoy 🍒

NSFW! - explicit sexual themes.

he’s at a random bar, for a work night, pouting to himself in the corner as he watches you, a stranger in an outfit all too appealing to him. he’s lucky you meet his gaze, and you’re just about intoxicated enough to not really care who you’re going home with, as long as it’s someone.

you can obviously see spencer staring at you, his puppy dog eyes silently conveying things so sinful you’re sure he doesn’t realise how blatant his gaze is. spencer reid, innocent boy genius, looking at you like he wants you undressed right there and then so he can sit by your feet at your beck and call. it’s humorous, really, and you figure - why not entertain it?

an hour or so passes, and you’d finally go up to him, plonking yourself so close your thighs are touching. at this proximity, the desperation in his eyes is evident, startled at your presence. he’s not one for hookups, and he’s definitely not one for talking to girls in bars. yet, when morgan gives him a thumbs up from across the room, he finds himself not wanting to disappoint.

it’s probably within half an hour that you’re stumbling back into your apartment, spencer’s needy touch wandering your face, your hips, your ass, your tits, he really doesn’t care, not as you’re pulling him by his tie towards your bedroom.

spencer’s not sure how in the hell he ended up here, but he knows better than to complain. he’s managed to find his way into a pretty girl’s apartment, into her bed, he can’t fuck this up. he has to prove himself. he has to.

in your mind, he’s just an innocent, needy little thing, and you’ll probably have to finish yourself off, but either way, you’re having him. he’s cute with his big brown eyes and messy hair, so he’s definitely good enough to warm your bed for the night.

every movement he makes confirms your thoughts, the way he fumbles with the hem of your dress as he helps you get it off, nimble fingers working at the buttons of his own shirt. “you’re so pretty,” “wanna make you feel good, wanna have you,” “so gorgeous- god, so everything,” he mumbles over and over, until you’re both thudding onto your bed, naked and ready.

spencer is definitely more talkative than anyone you’ve meaninglessly hooked up with before, but you decide to let him continue before ruling that as a con. perhaps you’re just not used to it, but you know you’re definitely not used to the way his head dips down, lips attaching to your breast in a desperate fashion, kneading the other with his hand.

oh, so this boy knows foreplay. he knows his way around, even though he’s looking at you like you’re the first woman he’s ever seen. he’s whispering sweet nothings to you against your chest, slowly pressing kisses along your sternum, until eventually he reaches your hipbones. you’re spiralling slightly in your drunken mind, convincing yourself that there’s no way a random guy from the bar is about to eat you out. no way. plus, even if he does, there’s no chance it’ll be good.

but it’s good, and you’re so very wrong. he’s starting off slow, licking a stripe up your slit, analysing your face for your reaction. “can you just- can you sit up a little? i wanna watch you,” he’d pull back and mumble, his lips in a soft pout.

before you know it, he’s burying his face in your pussy, pointed nose nudging against your clit with every movement of his tongue at your entrance. this boy is good, and this boy is deceiving. you can’t help the shocked moans slipping from your lips, a hand reaching down to tug at his messy locks, sitting up on one elbow so he can see you as he’d requested.

he looks almost offended that you’re shocked, pulling back with furrowed brows at the hint of surprise in your moan. “what? are you okay?” “did you not- am i not supposed to do this? i really want to do this,” “you’re so pretty, tastes so sweet, let me do it,” he mutters against your skin, pressing soft kisses to your thighs. he’s nibbling lightly at the flesh there, whispering something about how soft you are, how grateful he is to be here, before he’s diving back in again when you shut him up by pushing his face forward.

you can almost feel him grinning against you, like he knows you thought less of him, and here he is, proving you wrong. you thought he’d be another sloppy, nerdy, desperate guy, meanwhile he’s moving his tongue against you in ways other guys couldn’t even dream of.

spencer’s hands are gripping your thighs, his fingertips digging into your skin, yet somehow his touch is so tender. his tongue is eventually paired with his fingers, two gently curling within your warmth as he suckles your bud into his mouth, humming around it like a man starved.

it’s not your fault that your hips start rutting against his face, desperate for him to make you come, because you’re starting to believe he can. he’s grinning even brighter now, ever so proud of himself as he pulls away just before you tip over the edge, licking the corners of his mouth and shaking his head.

“mm, no, wanna feel you come around me. wanna show you how good i can be. how good i can make you feel,” he’d smirk, coming back up to your level. that awkward, desperate boy from the bar must’ve been a completely different person, because the man before you is suddenly fuelled by confidence, turning into a cocky bastard the minute he’s inside of you, having you moaning his name (which, he definitely had to tell you again).

either way, you’re certain he’s coming back to your apartment in the near future. there’s not a chance you’re letting another person find this hidden gem, shimmering away in the corner of a dive bar.

[devotion-disorder]

happy new year devo, wishing you the best and for another wonderful year. any resolutions you'd be willing to share? i do hope to see more of your art because you never miss 🫶 anyway, much love!!

Happy new year to you too anon!!!!!!!!! i haven't thought all too hard about new years resolutions so i had to give it a proper thunk but anyways here is a list that is sorta arranged from most to least urgent:

Fix my sleeping schedule - i sleep at 5-6am so ig im practically strangling all my neurons to death or something please send help

Read more books - tbh for a myriad of reasons im just ashamed that this is even on here

Get better at art - specifically anatomy, fluidity/readability in figures, values and colors......on a brighter note i want to (try to) do more "finished" illustrations or just at least properly rendered stuff. i also might want to do more fanart :think:

maybe get a new hobby

maybe get good at japanese (grammar) - i think i have everything except grammar down to at least N3 level, which evens out so i have the linguistic capacity of like, a grade schooler

be less of an edgelord and just be sincere for once - idk im honestly thinking about opening a twitter account or an alt where maybe i'll be less obsessed with being ~ironic~ but idk if anyone cares to see what i have to say LOL

thank you for the very sweet ask anon, im glad you like my stuff TqT wishing u all the best this year as well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!!!!!!1 <333

[luminique]

hii hii lumii !! I ADORE your interpretation of lighter so far— I love him smm

anyways, I hope my req is okay but I was wondering if you could do a comfort fic ? maybe reader has been a lil distant lately and just in some feels and he gives them a lil talk after being blown off here and there to find out they were having issues w their mental health and not feeling good enough and maybe he’s caught off guard because reader is usually so out going and always has a smile on their face and to see them feel so small makes him wanna take care of them so much and gives them so much reassurance and gentle kisses and cuddles 👉👈

I hope it’s okay !! I’ve been in the feels lately

hi anonn !! im gonna answer this one first because i've been in the feels too and i think we all deserve some reassurance, especially after all of the sad lighter story.

i don't take lighter for the kind to be too intrusive. that's not to say that he doesn't notice the way you're staring off into the distance, as if always having something on your mind. or the way you left earlier than usual for the SoC's nightly hangouts around the fire. or the way you had just been distancing yourself from him.

maybe you just needed a day, or two, and so he waited. he waited, and waited, but it just seemed like it was getting worse. he was beginning to get anxious, coming up with possibilities and worse case scenarios. even his favorite grape-flavored lollipop couldn't reduce the anxiety that was building up inside of him as he followed after you one night.

he shook off his nerves, spending quite a bit of time at the front door of your lodging while in blazewood. mentally practicing what to say so that he wouldn't make things even worse than they already were. one step, two deep breaths, three knocks on your door. he cleared his voice, usually confident and smooth but now carried a hint of worry in it.

"hey, uh... everything alright?"

you could hear the ruffling of his jacket, the soft metal clinks of his gloves. he didn't dare open the door until you allowed him to, so he waited, just like he always had. "lighter? yeah, everything's fine," was that a slight crack in your voice? no, no, he had to have imagined that. he knew it was wrong but he had waited long enough. he turned the knob, opening the door just a little bit but still not walking in.

"you don't have to tell me everything. just... know that i'll be here, waiting for you." he wasn't the best at comforting, nor was he good at even navigating these sorts of things but at the very least, he wanted you to have the knowledge that you had him. it didn't take long for you to finally get up, opening the door that separated the both of you. you looked so... different. the light absent from your eyes, the edges of your lips normally turned upwards but now they weren't. if he couldn't say what you wanted to hear, maybe you'd understand through his actions.

his arms wrapped around you. squeezing you just a little tighter than usual as he somehow made the both of you waddle backwards into your room. he had kept his gloves in his pants, not wanting to hurt you even more with them. his embrace was a familiar warmth, like the fire during particularly cold nights in the outer ring. you could hear his heart racing, was it from nervousness? anxiety? fear? even he didn't know.

he took this as an opportunity to place soft kisses on the top of your head but then stopped all of a sudden. he turned around to the door and realized that it was still wide open. he kicked it close with his foot, feeling embarrassed at the fact that he had to stop because of something so minor. he wanted you to feel safe, to have privacy, to be able to breathe without others barging in. technically, he had invaded this space of yours but you were slowly melting into him, as if you had been waiting for this too.

every passing second hugging you, kissing you, it made his own worries disappear. he hoped the same for you as you slowly spoke to him about your own problems. as he listened, he'd pause every once in while to give you a deadpan stare. not because he was making fun of you or anything, but it genuinely baffled him how you could say such things about yourself. you felt so insecure about yourself and your image, about being with him, being with the SoC. he had to physically stop himself from just blurting "i love you" every time you said something so degrading.

instead, he chose to wait and listen. his calloused hands gently caressing yours, his lips pressing kisses on the side of your head as you nuzzled into him. he loves you for who you are, the person in front of him, not the image that you had made yourself out to be in your mind. but he waits for you to let it all out before he says anything else. he will wait, he will listen, he will always be there for you.

[catastrxblues]

EVERMORE by taylor swift (feat. bon iver) — “and i was catching my breath, floors of a cabin creaking under my step. and i couldn’t be sure, i had a feeling so peculiar, this pain wouldn’t be forevermore.”

my #swiftiegiftexchange2024 for @lovesickallovermybed!!!! 🫶🏽🫶🏽

[teddybeartoji]

i am now officially in 2025 so happpppy happy happy new year my lovelies<333333333333 thank you for spending your time with me here thank you for letting me do whatever it is that i'm doing thank you for reading my silly little writings it all means the fucking world to me!!!!!!!!!!! i hope this new year will be gentle with all of us i hope it will be good and fun and exciting!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope we will all find jobs and our dream homes and i hope our health will get better aaand i hope we can all do the things we love and enjoy and that we get to hang out here aaaand that we will keep cheering each other on!!!!!!!!!!!!!I LOVE YOUUUU!!!!!!!!!!

[fisheito]

You know who you remind me of? Helga Pataki.

Please tell me you (or somebody else) gets the reference 😂

anon u turned my world to static with that namedrop

on the list of things i did NOT expect to happen ,because hUH??: someone dragging [hey arnold] into my tiny nuca inbox

[deoidesign]

I was scrolling and saw your art and it made me really happy because I realized you made time and time again!!!

It’s literally one of my favorite things I’ve ever read, so cool!!!

This is so sweet, thank you for sharing!

It's sort of "illusion breaking" so to speak, to think of my art being both out there in a way that someone could happen upon it, and then further that someone may happen upon it twice, and finally that on doing so they find it recognizable...

I always think of myself and my work as something that sort of sits behind the curtain. The idea that it might take up space in this way is unreal!

This is the kind of thing that means more than you could imagine.

So thank you!

[mint-yooxgi]

Can I ask for a comfort Drabble from Jongho of Ateez or Yeonjun of TXT? I’ve been having a rough couple of months

A frown rests on Yeonjun's features as he enters your apartment to see all the lights off. The final rays of the setting sun offer him minimal visibility as he weaves his way through the mess at your front door.

Shoes are scattered about, as if hurriedly tugged off, a few bags littering the entranceway. The apartment is eerily quiet, too, as if there hasn't been sign or sound of movement for at least twelve hours or more. An impossible feat, for you had texted him that you had arrived home a little over four hours ago.

"Honey?" Yeonjun calls out into the void of your apartment, worry marring his brow. "Are you in here?"

Again, no sound seems to greet him for a moment, and he flicks on the hallway lights. Carefully, he creeps towards your room, calling out your name softly.

The softest sound of ruffling sheets, followed by a muffled groan greets his ears.

Immediately, Yeonjun is shoving the door to your room open, letting the light from the hallway illuminate your figure buried beneath your blankets. The covers are pulled over your head, back facing him as you lay in the dark, and if that wasn't his first clue something was off, the way you don't even flinch when he rushes over to sit on the edge of your bed is.

"Honey, what's wrong?" His voice is soft, his hand gently peeling the covers back to reveal your head.

The sight that greets him causes his breath to hitch.

Your eyes are red and puffy, tear tracks cutting lines down your cheeks.

You turn away from him, voice muffled by the pillow. "Go away."

Yeonjun gently brushes a hand over your cheek, leaning over you slightly. "I'm not going anywhere until you tell me what's wrong."

You shake your head, still refusing to turn his way.

"Whatever it is, know that I'm here for you," he cups your cheek, settling himself behind you on the bed. He pulls you into his arms, just laying with you and holding you close. "I will always be here for you."

A sniffle echoes around the room, and you furiously begin o wipe at your eyes. You can feel his arms tighten around you from behind, and he presses his face into the crook of your neck.

Yeonjun's heart aches for you. He's not sure what's going on, but he wants to be here for you. In any and every way he can. There is nothing you could do to send him away, not like this. He cares about you, and like hell is he going to leave you when you need him most.

Twenty minutes are spent in silence, the only sounds filling the room being your muffled sobs, along with some minor sniffles. You chest stutters, but finally you're starting to calm down.

"I'm sorry," you speak, keeping your voice low, barely above a whisper. "I don't know what came over me."

You feel him shake his head. "Never apologize for feeling; you don't have to apologize to me. I'm here, and I'm not going anywhere."

You swallow thickly, arm raising to rest over his own around your waist.

"We all have off days, but that doesn't mean you're worth any less." He continues softly. "I love you, and I care about you. I will never leave you to suffer these thoughts alone."

Slowly, you turn yourself in his arms, burying your face into his chest. Your arms wrap around him, pulling him closer to you as you inhale a stuttering breath. Slowly, you begin to nod.

"Let it all out, Honey," he coos softly, his one hand tenderly stroking alone your spine. "I'm right here, and I promise to never let you go."

[niki-phoria]

Hi, i was wondering how you've been!! I also wanted to ask how you deal with stress?? I've been so stressed lately it's so bad and was wondering if you had any tips.

hi !! i'm doing good :)) uni has been pretty good so far and i think i'm settling in pretty well

usually when i get stressed i like to go for walks, preferably at places where there are a lot of plants/greenery bc they make me happy. if it's cold/walking isn't an option, i like to sketch stuff or read. i find that journaling also helps me express my feelings if i don't want to/can't talk about them

i like to be alone when i'm stressed but if you prefer being around people, talking to friends/family can also help !! i hope you're doing well <33

[lambilegs]

i feel really unsafe lately and it’s silly but it helps so much thinking about someone like lee being there to protect me and keep me safe… i think she’d be really cautious and protective but in quiet ways like holding onto you while walking, holding your waist giving you back hugs, nagging just a tiny amount like “be careful…” and sometimes scolding you because she can’t help herself. if anything bad happens she’s getting in front of you and shielding you from anything, keeping you safe and comforting you and holding you all day after…. protective in small ways like even the way she cuddles… sighs dreamily

oh I'm so sorry you've been feeling unsafe lately :( my ask box and messages are always open, I understand it must be really hard to be in that position. and omg no, it's not silly at all!! I've definitely had experiences when I went through something painful, like with my family, and it helped me to think of being protected, defended and/or comforted by certain characters. so, I one thousand percent understand, that's a totally valid experience and it definitely is comforting too <3

I TOTALLY AGREE W ALL THIS. since I saw the movie in july and got really fixated on her character, I always thought she's the protective type. like, I think she's generally a person who struggles to express her affection, and being subtly protective is one of her most natural ways of showing it. like, she's an agent, she has a strong sense of protecting and justice in general. but, adding the element of you being her partner? oh, that just makes those protective instincts skyrocket. like, every idea and scenario you listed is totally accurate. when you're cold, she'll always offer her jacket. she does that thing when she makes sure that you don't walk on the side of the sidewalk closer to the road. she'll put her hand on the small of your back when in public, or if you guys are sitting on a bench together, she'll extend her arm so it's stretched behind your head. if you fall asleep on her lap and the sun is out, she shields your face from the glare, mouth twitching at how your eyes fidget when she removes her hand from its place of hovering above you. if anyone fucks with you OHHHH she is a woman possessed. she's fiercely protective over her loved ones, and you're no exception. if someone is rude to you in front of you? she's immediately intervening. if someone is your enemy? oh yeah they're def now her enemy too. if someone ever gets in your space. won't even hesitate before pushing them out of the way and going in front of you. and yes exactly, she'd be so comforting after too, assuring you everything is okay and refusing to leave your side so long as she's able to. and the nagging, yes -- she's one hundred percent the type to tell people to call/page (text if in modern!au) when they reach home. def the type to also pick you up if you need a ride home.

and you are sooo right about the cuddling thing too omg. I def see her as being a big or little spoon depending on her mood, but when she is the big spoon, she'd def be the kind to be on her back when you're draped on top of her, her arm wound around you :'') she'd hold onto you tight and you guys fall asleep, and if you wake up for any reason, all she needs is a nudge (or four) and she's right there with you, ready to help

[gxlden-angels]

Hello! I apologize if this is a nosy question, but what is the silly feelings wheel app you were talking about in a previous post? My therapist and I have been working on identifying feelings but I still very much rely on a list of feeling words to have any idea what I’m feeling, so it could be a helpful resource. No worries if you don’t want to share, just thought I would ask :)

It's called How We Feel! I'm not sure if it's available on all devices yet, but it's on ios and the google play store for sure.

I've been using it for about a year. It's more of a chart than a wheel but people usually recognize the wheel better so that's what I call it. When you first start it has a 10-part tutorial about emotional acceptance and regulation, then it has suggestions for each category of emotion. You can access both at any time tho after those first 10 days.

It has a share option so you can have friends, which has been great for me cause it prompts me to check on friends and them to do the same for me. It allows you to just respond with a little emoji in like a "I'm here for you" little notification to your friend, or you can reach out to your friend on your own. Its really helped me cause I'm bad at reaching out when I need support so to me and I'm bad about taking on other's problems even when I can't handle it so being able to send a little emoji instead to make sure my friends know I'm there if they need me and them doing the same has been great

[inkykeiji]

nanami is the kind of guy who pays his taxes in a timely manner and nags you about taking out the garbage fr fr.

no genuinely he’s such a fantastic guy and an even better partner. he would treat you so well and he would be such an incredible Daddy

[wiltking]

to the anon who just asked me not to post your ask (re: gender, questioning) rest assured im not planning to publish anything currently sitting in my inbox 👍

[not-poignant]

hi pia👋

i was looking into your patreon and noticed that the monetary listings were by “chapter.” would this, for instance, in the $5 tier mean that in order to access one unreleased UtB chapter, you would pay $5, $10 for two, $20 for four, etc.? i’ve only ever patronized (?) creators who have a monthly subscription system, so i’d love some clarification if you have the time🤌 (a cursory google search was not helpful unfortunately :/)

thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!1!1!1!!!!1!!!xoxoxo

PS, i read on the latest UtB chapter that your week has been awful, so i hope it gets better🫡

Hi anon!

So you don't need Google, the info was there on my Patreon: if you go to the Patreon and go to the About section, this is explained in the very first paragraph (so it's easy for you to find in the future) but I'll also copy and paste it here:

Instead of charging for every chapter I release, I only ever charge twice per month!

There we go. Twice a month! :D You don't even need to be charged twice if you don't want to, as you can limit how much you get charged to the base Tier price (scroll down to read more about that) which I also explain on the About page! :D

If you scroll down that gets explained in more detail, so I'll copy/paste this here, but this information is always on the Patreon for anyone to check. I highly recommend checking the About sections going forwards! It can be easy to miss vital stuff without it.

How often am I charged? - Twice a month, max. You are charged per chapter, to a maximum of two chapters a month, even though I release more. This means if you pledge $1.00, with no cap, and I post four chapters, then you’ll pay $2.00. If you pledge $5.00, with a limit cap of $5.00, you’ll only ever be charged $5.00 for that month no matter what. If you want all the rewards but have a limited budget, cap your pledge and join a higher tier! You can also change your pledge amount – higher or lower – as your life dictates. This is meant to work for you, so do whatever feels comfortable. I'm happy to have you here for as long as you're happy to be here, I hope I can make your stay far warmer and cozier than what I put most of my characters through!

I don't release any early access Underline the Black there. I recommend either looking at my release schedule at the beginning of the month (or on Patreon and Ream because the schedule is public) which shows exactly what chapters are early release because it will have the tier next to it.

Right now the stories that have early access chapters on Patreon and Ream are The Nascent Diplomat, Underline the Blue, Underline the Red, Underline the Gold (all in the Augus + Gwyn tier) and Constellations (this one requires the Gary + Efnisien tier - which gives you access to everything in the Augus + Gwyn tier as well). It works out to about 2-4 early access chapters per month.

If you don't want to be charged twice a month or find it too confusing, I also have a Ream account which has all the same content, and that's only ever charged once a month for peace of mind. You can subscribe here for free and still see all the free updates in your email inbox, and upgrade in the future if you ever want to see early access chapters and/or support the free writing that's already out there. :)

I am very upfront with my charging information and also what is and isn't early access, but folks have to check out those About sections as well, not just for me, but for any Patreon. Vital information is often there, and it can be a good habit to get into before subscribing to someone. :D

[sunny-kaneko]

hi sunny I think you're a wonderful person and you deserve the world I want you give you a long lasted hug

(I'm suicidal pls help me)

You may hug me if that is what you wish. Though I don't believe those words about me... I do think you're wonderful yourself.

If you ever need any help.... ask those around you who care about you.... Even if I can't say it myself.... I'm sure that... everyone would be sad if anything were to happen to you....and you would be sad too...

At the end of the day, your head is only being mean to you, so don't give up...okay?

...Let's see each other more in the future, alright?

[* SUNNY gives you a gentle hug, petting your head in a comforting manner.]

[kindahoping4forever]

I'm going to a 5SOS concert for the first time soon (yay!!!) and I don't really know what to expect... would you have any tips for me??

Like for example, I have an assigned seat, but idk if I should be there beforehand or just on time?

Oh I'm so excited for you, you're going to have the best time!! 🥰

For assigned seating, I would recommend you see what time the doors open and then take into consideration any pre-show activities you want to have time for. Any picture taking, bracelet trading, any concessions or merch purchases (decide what you want beforehand so you don't get caught up in the moment and spend more than you planned!), any bathroom visits (idk how it is where you are but our lines are always crazy so make sure you factor that in!) - plan what you want on your agenda and when you want to be in your seat by (deciding if you want to be sure and catch the opener or if you're ok missing that set if you need the extra time is a good thing to figure out beforehand as well!) and go from there.

Other than that, my biggest recommendation would be - this is gonna sound cheesy but hear me out - to lose yourself in the experience and truly immerse yourself. Feel what you feel! Cry! Sing! Dance! Stand there and stare in disbelief! Pick one or two songs to take pictures and videos of and then put your phone/camera away and just let it all happen to you. It's fun having those to look back on but in my experience, my favorite memories of seeing 5SOS have always been ones where I was just focused on me and them, me and the music, me and being one in a crowd of thousands of people I don't know but am connected to thru these songs. When I'm looking back on a show, the thing I remember most is how it FELT. Be present and feel it all! It's an overwhelming experience but it's a beautiful and joyous one if you remember to stop and take it all in. 💙