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hope-for-the-planet Ā· 9 hours ago
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Trans person in the US. Bust some of the doomerism for me? Tell me it's going to be okay?
Hi Anon
Usually, I have boundaries for myself about keeping this blog focused on environment-related issues, because there are limits to what I can speak knowledgeably about. But now doesnā€™t feel like the time for that.
Anon, I will tell you that I live in the US, I am queer, my spouse is trans, and we have two young children. I am sitting right there with you in the fear and grief and every day when I ask myself ā€œis there still hopeā€ I find reasons to say ā€œyesā€.
They wantā€”all of us, not just queer folksā€”to feel overwhelmed and hopeless, because despair is a tool that keeps people from realizing their power and taking action.
They want us to feel so afraid that we lose our faith in other people and withdraw from our communities, because we are easier to conquer alone.
Do not give them what they want.
Hope is most necessary in the bad times. The ability to imagine a future that is better than things are now is exactly what gives us the power to begin making things better. Our community has been through terrible things before, and they did not lose hope or give upā€”otherwise we would not be where we are today.
When you start to feel like all the light is being blotted out, turn off the news, put away your phone, and go get in touch with something you love. Go outside and look at the sky, talk to a friend, listen to music, do some small thing to make something better even if itā€™s just cleaning your kitchen or picking up some litter around the block or returning an extra stranded cart in the grocery store parking lot. Remind your brain that you have agency to make positive change in the world through your actions.
I know it is really hard to pull out of the darkness sometimes. I know there will be days that hope seems like a foolish, naive thing, that despair and distrust seem like the only rational options. But hope is what keeps us alive. Hope is what allows us to save each other.
I wish I could give you a specific article or other source to reassure you that everything is going to be ok, but things are still too in flux day by day. I can tell you that people are already fighting back, in big and little ways, all over this country and the world. These orders and bills are being pushed by a loud but small minorityā€”this is not how the majority of the country feels about trans rights.
Make a plan for staying safe. Reach out to your community. Find music, activities, podcasts, movies, whatever helps you feel uplifted and take mental breaks from dwelling on the news. If you can, find ways to get involved in making things better in whatever big or small way feels doable for you--it may help push back on the doomerism more than you think. And my inbox is open if you need to talk.
I wish I could invite you over for dinner. I wish I could look into your eyes and tell you that things may get hard for the next few years but that does not mean that your life can't still be full of joy and beauty and fulfillment in spite of that.
Iā€™m right there with you. Letā€™s make it through this together <3
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lyvhie Ā· 2 days ago
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okay hi haechan anon again!! im back with another request! so I'm missing my taeyong a lot (hashtag military wife..) and I was listening to 2 baddies as any baddie would and. the line "now you wanna ride these wheels" had my legs FOLDED šŸ„“ those wheels aren't the only thing I wanna ride.
and that brings me to my request. riding tyongie pretty pretty please???
ā”€ā”€ .āœ¦ everybody makes mistakes
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ex-bf!lee taeyong x fem!reader
š“‚ƒ ą£ŖĖ– summary: You were going through a busy time in your life, and going to a party was supposed to help you relax a little and... Well, your ex certainly turned out to be a good distraction. š“‚ƒ ą£ŖĖ– cw: smut, riding, car sex, unprotected sex, creampie because why not šŸ˜ž, pet names. š“‚ƒ ą£ŖĖ– a/n: HIIII, ANOOOON!!! GLAD YOU'RE STILL HERE šŸ˜ššŸ˜š i get you... i feel like we are 12949 years without tyong, we need him back ASAP, i can't have a happy life if taeyong isn't here PLEASE. ANYWAYS, I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS ONE!
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This was definitely not part of the plan. It was supposed to be a fun night at your friend's partyā€”a chance to unwind and forget about the chaos that had taken over your life lately. Honestly, you hadnā€™t even planned on coming, but your friends had insisted, saying some fresh air would do you good. You finally caved, figuring what was the harm?
Wrong decision.
If you had known your ex-boyfriend would be there, youā€™d have stayed home.
You thought you were over him, it had been months since the breakup, after all. There was no reason to panic, you told yourself. Besides, he hadnā€™t even seemed to notice you were there. You could enjoy the night without a care. Or so you thought.
Your eyes kept drifting to him, as if drawn by some invisible force. Watching how he moved through the crowd, laughing, leaning in to whisper things in peopleā€™s ears, flashing that smile that used to make your heart race. The same smile he was now directing at others.
You took a deep breath, forcing yourself to tear your gaze away from him. Focus on your drink. Your friends. Literally anything else, you told yourself, desperate to ignore the annoying tightness in your chest every time you caught sight of him leaning in close to someone else. But it was no use.
You didnā€™t even need to look. You could feel it. His eyes were on you, burning with that same intensity youā€™d once found irresistible. Against your better judgment, you glanced over and instantly regretted it.
There he was, lips curling into a smirk, that infuriating, knowing expression that only made your stomach twist further. And then, as if the universe itself was playing a cruel joke, he started walking toward you.
Your heart skipped, and you quickly looked away, pretending to be engrossed in whatever your friends were laughing about. You even forced out a chuckle, hoping it sounded convincing.
Taeyong, of course, wasnā€™t fooled. He thought it was cute, how bad you were at subtlety, how transparent you always were when you tried to act cool, just as he remembered. If anything, it made him want to reach you faster.
From the moment he approached you and murmured a soft ā€œhey,ā€ everything became a haze, your senses drowning in the intensity of his presence. You remembered the way he leaned in, his lips so close to your ear that his warm breath sent shivers down your spine. His voice was low and familiar, dripping with charm as he told you how much he missed you, how surprised he was to see you there when he knew this wasnā€™t your usual scene.
His hand had found its way to your waist, his touch firm but not forceful, as if asking for permission rather than demanding it. You hadnā€™t stopped him. The heat of his body pressed against yours was both comforting and electric, stirring something in you that you thought had long been buried.
Every subtle gestureā€”a thumb tracing lazy circles on your hip, the way his fingers lingered just a moment too long as he tucked a stray strand of hair behind your ear, the way his gaze never wavered from yoursā€”pulled you deeper into the gravity of his orbit. You knew you should step back, but instead, you let yourself lean into the closeness, into him, even though you both knew exactly where this would lead.
And all of it led to a kiss, slow, as if to test the waters, then deepening with the kind of urgency that only old lovers can share. That kiss led to lovely whispers and stolen touches, and before you knew it, you were in the parking lot, your heart pounding as he opened the door to the backseat of his car.
The air between you was thick with tension, your breaths mingling as he pulled you close, his hands finding your waist like they never forgot the shape of you. It was reckless and impulsive, the kind of decision that you knew youā€™d question laterā€”but right now, with his lips on yours and the heat of his body pressed against you, it felt like the only decision to make.
His hands gripped the soft flesh of your thighs, his fingers pressing firmly into your skin as he held you down against him. His mouth was relentless, his tongue exploring yours with a fervor that made your breath hitch. Your hips began to move instinctively, a slow grind against him that drew a deep groan from his lips. The confined space of the car only heightened the heat between you, every movement feeling more intense, more urgent in the close quarters.
You felt his hands slip to the hem of your shirt, ready to pull it over your head, but you stopped him just in time, pulling away from the kiss, both of you panting softly.
"This is a bad idea," you whispered, though your body leaned into his, contradicting your words.
"Maybe," he murmured, his lips brushing against your neck, leaving a trail of soft kisses that made your resolve waver. You tilted your head slightly, giving him more access.
"We really shouldn't be doing this," you tried to reason, though your hands remained on him, your touch lingering.
ā€œYou can blame the alcohol if it helps," he suggested, his lips tracing a path up to your jaw before capturing your mouth again. You didn't resist, kissing him back.
"I didn't drink that much," you argued softly.
"Then blame me," his hand drifting lower, inching toward the space between your legs, sending a wave of anticipation through you. "You're always good at that."
"Shut up," you retorted, nipping at his lower lip, earning a hiss and a soft chuckle from him. ā€œTell me to stop," he said, brushing a strand of hair from your face, his lips hovering just above yours. "And I will, pretty.ā€
Yes, you just needed to say the word and get out of his car. Of course, that would be the right thing to do, but... you were already this far.
You would blame him.
"Fuck, I'm gonna regret this," you muttered before crashing your lips against his again, kissing him more fervently than before, grinding against him harder, his bulge applying just the right amount of pressure against your core.
Your hands fumbled with the button of his pants, a mix of nerves and anticipation guiding your movements. He was quick to undo yours in return, his desperation evident as he helped you, pulling his pants down just enough while you slipped out of yours along with your panties, leaving no barriers between you.
His hands gripped your hips, guiding you over him, one of your hands rested on his shoulder for balance while the other slid down, wrapping around his hard cock. It throbbed under your touch, and he let out a soft moan at the slightest contact. You stroked him slowly, savoring the way he responded, before lowering yourself just enough to let the tip brush along your slick slit.
He groaned, his fingers tightening on your hips, urging you to stop teasing. "Don't play with me," he murmured, his voice thick with desire. You smiled faintly, enjoying the rare moment of control you had over him, but your own need was overwhelming.
With a soft exhale, you slowly sank down onto him, both of you gasping as he stretched you, filling you completely. Fuck, how he missed thisā€”the feeling of your warm heat enveloping him, just as tight as he remembered. He buried his face in your neck, inhaling your intoxicating scent, his breath hot against your skin.
ā€œYou feel so good," he murmured, his voice muffled against your skin, sending a shiver down your spine. You missed this feeling too, the delicious stretch of him inside you, your walls fluttering around him, as if your body was echoing the same sentiment. He bit your neck to muffle a moan, the sound vibrating through you.
And for a few seconds, you both stayed like that, motionless, just reveling in the feeling of him taking up all the space in your pussy. Then, slowly, you began to move, rolling your hips over him before lifting yourself just enough and sinking back down, drawing moans from both of you. His hands slid down to cup your ass, fingers digging in as he followed your movements, his head falling back against the seat with a deep groan.
Your movements were slow at first, teasing, but you quickly found your rhythm, pressing down on him, the sensation sending waves of heat through your body. The heat between you was unbearable, the cramped space of the car amplifying every soundā€”the wet glide of your bodies, the breathless moans, the creak of the leather seat beneath you.
His hands moved back to your waist and his grip on you tightened, fingers pressing into your flesh as he urged you to move faster. You picked up speed, setting a pace that felt good for you, making him gasp with each roll of your hips.
"That's it, baby," he groaned, lifting his head to watch where your bodies met, eyes dark with hunger. "Just like that... take me deeper."
You bit your lip, trying to stifle a whimper as you obeyed, bouncing harder, grinding down to feel every inch of him. The pleasure was dizzying, overwhelming, stealing what little self-control you had left. His hands left your hips, moving up your body, dragging your shirt up to expose more of your skin.
ā€œFuck, look at you," he murmured, leaning in to capture one of your nipples in his mouth, his tongue flicking over the sensitive bud. The sensation sent a shockwave through your body, making you clench around him.
A deep, guttural moan tore from his throat as he thrust up into you slightly, meeting your movements. "Shitā€”keep that up, and I won't last," he warned, voice strained. But you didn't stop. You couldn't. You were too close, too lost in the way he filled you perfectly, the way his body fit against yours like he was made for you.
Your fingers tangled in his hair, pulling him closer to kiss you, the heat between you both intensifying. Just as he had said, he wouldnā€™t last much longer. It wasn't just because it felt incredible, but because it was you.
ā€œDonā€™t stop,ā€ he murmured, almost a plea, his thighs tensing beneath you. His chest rose and fell in uneven breaths, every little sound he made pushing you closer to the edge too, but you werenā€™t there yet.
You didnā€™t need to say anything; your body said enough. The way you moved, the way you squeezed him with every roll of your hipsā€”it was too much. His grip on you tightened as he groaned deep, his body shuddering beneath you as he came, his release spilling inside you as you kept moving, letting him ride it out.
But he didnā€™t stop thereā€”you still needed to finish too, and now it was his turn to take care of you. His arms wrapped tightly around your waist, pulling you flush against him as he buried his face in your neck. Even with his body still trembling from his own release, he started moving again, thrusting up into you with deep, desperate strokes.
A shaky whine escaped his lips as the overstimulation hit him, but he didnā€™t let up, his grip on you firm, determined. ā€œGotta make you feel good too,ā€ he murmured against your skin, his voice strained, breathless.
Each thrust sent waves of pleasure crashing through you, your walls fluttering around him, dragging him deeper despite the sensitivity. His name spilled from your lips, hands fisting in his hair as he held you close, chasing your release like it was the only thing that mattered.
His breath was hot against your neck, his movements growing sloppier, more desperate, but he didnā€™t stopā€”not until he had you right where he wanted. His fingers slid down between your bodies, finding your most sensitive spot, rubbing slow, deliberate circles that made your thighs tremble around him.
"Come on, baby," he coaxed, voice hoarse, lips brushing your ear. Your grip on him tightened as pleasure coiled low in your stomach, the pressure building with every stroke, every thrust. His name tumbled from your lips, breathless and needy, and he groaned at how good you sounded.
And then, with one more deep, well-angled thrust, pleasure crashed over you. Your body tensed before melting into his, a broken moan leaving your lips as your release washed through you. He groaned at the feeling of you tightening around him, his arms holding you steady as you rode out your high.
Even as your body sagged against his, he pressed a lingering kiss to your shoulder, his breaths ragged, shaky. ā€œThatā€™s my girl,ā€ he whispered, tracing slow circles on your back as he helped you come down.
It wasnā€™t the smartest decision, you knew that. But, in that moment, you felt... satisfied.
You pulled away slightly to meet his eyes. Your friends had been right, maybe you did need to let go of the weight on your shoulders and relax a little.
"Wanna come home?"
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azsazz Ā· 7 hours ago
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Drown in Me
Garrick (Fourth Wing) x Virgin!Reader
Summary:Ā Anon Req: well I absolutely love Garrick. I just know he is such a softie with his partner. Just imagine that you too hate each other but something change during a mission or something and in a two simple word,, you fucked ". And you're virgin and he is so gentle and after he is so sweet.. Ohh I love this man
Warnings:Ā Angst, smut, oral (f receiving), fingering, consensual sex.
Word Count: 4417
Notes: DOES NOT CONTAIN SPOILERS FOR ONYX STORM.
I hope whoever requested this actually ages ago is still around. Sorry it took me so long. I'm obsessed with the beginning, it was so much fun to write šŸ’™
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Chradh lands in the middle of the flight field with a roar that shakes the walls of Basgiath.
Itā€™s directed at you, you know it is.
Thereā€™s no ducking away from the golden, narrowed gaze of the brown scorpiontail, nor his equally pissed rider. You swear Chradh is glaring at you, and he huffs a breath that reeks of sulfur.
Uisge, your green daggertail growls low in his throat. He stands tall behind you and equal parts of you want to preen and run, because standing between two dragons is never a good idea.
The Section Leader is not pleased, Uisge notes, and yeah, you already knew that.
Tell me something I donā€™t know, you retort, but lift your chin as you watch Chradhā€™s rider dismount with a grace you can only wish to emulate someday.
Your breath sticks in your throat at the sight of Garrick, despite the anger written clear on his face. He runs a hand through his now dry, wind-blown black hair, and youā€™d laugh at the way it sticks straight up if yours wasnā€™t still plastered to your skull after the unexpected dip you took during flight lessons today.
The Section Leader is not a strong swimmer. You wince. Yeah, that was found out during flight lessons today, too.
Youā€™re frozen beneath that harsh look Garrick pins you with as soon as his boots hit the ground, his hazel eyes glowing with fire. Heā€™s more than angry, heā€™s fucking fuming, and your boots squelch as you shift your weight to your other foot. You wince as the water from the soles of your boots floods your feet again. You hope you donā€™t look like a drowned rat.
More like a tiny, water-logged sheep, Uisge adds unhelpfully. Your shoulders fall in defeat. But a tiny sheep with sharp teeth. Head up, little one.
And well, a sheep with sharp teeth is better than a sheep with no teeth at all, so you raise your chin and patiently await your punishment.
Chradh pounds his strong wings, lifting from the ground, his annoyance with you and Uisge clearly over with. Youā€™re sure the two male dragons are speaking through their mind connection, but youā€™re thankful that Garrickā€™s dragon is leaving the scene, even if everything that happens here will be seen through your section leaderā€™s eyes.
Itā€™s better not to have the audience for the reaming out you know youā€™re going to receive.
Much to your chagrin, Uisge follows.
Wait. Where are you going? We should be bearing punishment together! You canā€™t leave the sheep to face the wolf, you argue, because Garrick most definitely looks like a wolf right now.
I eat sheep and wolves for breakfast, Uisge replies. Is he insinuating that heā€™d like to eat you? Youā€™re sure you wouldnā€™t taste good. And neither of them is secretly trying to fuck the other.
You gape, swinging your gaze to your dragon, but Uisgeā€™s back is to you as he flies toward the vale, his daggertail sweeping in the wind.
Garrick approaches, the hilts of twin swords glow in the sun as it beams across the flight field. He could kill you in more ways than one with those weapons, and others, too, according to the neatly aligned patches that trail down the right arm of his flight jacket. Your jacket is bare, with the exception of the lousy wing and year patches you carefully sewed on. Youā€™ve been awaiting receiving your signet patch, and maybe after what happened in training today, Garrick will get on that for you.
A distant roar has you realizing that you shouldnā€™t be lingering in the flight field lest the next wing prepare for training, so you spin on your heel and start for the courtyard.
Garrick catches up to you quickly, his strides longer than yours. His fingers are tucked into fists at his sides and thereā€™s a low warning growl in his throat that tells you heā€™s not pleased with the way you walked away from him.
ā€œWhat the fuck was that back there?ā€ He questions, and you can hear him struggling to keep the anger from eking into his voice. Too late for that, you can hear his frustration clear as day.
Your boots squeak with each step you take and your damp leathers are beginning to chafe against your skin. Being in the blistering sun isnā€™t helping in the slightest, and you really wish your room was closer to the flight field right now.
And yeah, perhaps slipping off of Uisgeā€™s back during flight maneuvers wasnā€™t your smartest decision, but you needed a bigger body of water than the bathtub to work on channeling your signet, and this was the only way you were going to get that done.
You didnā€™t expect Garrick to dive after you.
ļæ½ļæ½I already told you; I slipped.ā€
ā€œAnd I already told you,ā€ Garrick scowls, and it twists the pink scar on his jaw in a way that makes you want to trace it. ā€œI donā€™t believe you.ā€
You set your jaw as you make your way up the stone stairs, trying not to cringe when every step fills your boots with water. You release your tense shoulders and attempt to drain the liquid from your clothing with a flick of your hand, but all you can manage to do is propel the water from your leathers into your boots.
Itā€™s infuriating.
ā€œYou havenā€™t fallen off Uisge once during flight training, and all of a sudden, a few weeks after your water wielding signet appears, you go tumbling off into a lake?ā€ He asks it like you think heā€™s stupid. You think heā€™s far from stupid.
I donā€™t, Uisge says, and you force your walls up with all of your might.
Heā€™s been watching you?
You mutter, ā€œI didnā€™t think youā€™d follow me.ā€
ā€œIt looked like you really fell off! You were under the water for longer than you shouldā€™ve!ā€ Garrick says, and you frown. You couldnā€™t have been under the surface of the water for more than a few seconds. ā€œWhat the hell was I supposed to do? Let you drown?ā€
He was much closer to drowning than you were, little one, Uisgeā€™s voice creeps through your mind and you have to force the smile threatening to split your lips away.
ā€œUisge knows what Iā€™m capable of,ā€ you argue, but it falls flat at the outright disbelief on Garrickā€™s face.
ā€œHe knows what youā€™re capable of?ā€ He scoffs, then tacks on a dry, mocking laugh. ā€œYou can barely even power an ink pen, for Amariā€™s sake.ā€
Thatā€™s because youā€™ve been focusing all of your energy on training your signet. Much more important that being able to power a stupid ink pen, in your opinion.
You stay silent so long that youā€™re on your floor before you know it. With an angered flick of your wrist, your locks click and your door opens an inch. You want to growl in frustration, that door shouldā€™ve swung open and stuck in the wall with the anger you attempted to force into it.
Youā€™ll get there, little one, Uisgeā€™s voice trickles through your walls. There really is no getting rid of him.
Leave me alone, Uisge.
I do not take orders from you, he retorts, but you feel him draw away nonetheless.
ā€œLook,ā€ Garrick sighs, shutting the door behind you with lesser magic. Itā€™s an easy move that you have yet to master. ā€œI canā€™t lose one of my riders to their own stupidity. I wonā€™t let you.ā€
As his words settle in, youā€™re all too aware that heā€™s standing in the middle of your room, only a few feet from you, and the door is closed.
ā€œI wasnā€™t going to die, Garrick. I knew what I was doing,ā€ you answer, shrugging out of your flight jacket. Although it is no longer water-laden, the temperature in the room has risen, and you need out. You hang it on the back of your chair, missing the way that Garrickā€™s hazel eyes drink in the sight of the rest of your flight uniform. Today, you chose something thin and lightweight so you arenā€™t weighed down by the water you knew you were going to practice in. ā€œI promise. You donā€™t have to worry about me.ā€
ā€œI do, though,ā€ Garrick swallows, and you watch the way his throat bobs. Fuck, he canā€™t believe heā€™s doing this, but here the fuck he is, about to confess whatā€™s been haunting him for weeks. You.
ā€œWhy?ā€ You surprise him by saying. You cross your arms over your chest, not realizing that the move pushes your breasts higher. In your haze of annoyance, you fail to catch the way his eyes dip down for a peek. ā€œI donā€™t see you jumping off dragons after any of the other riders!ā€
ā€œThatā€™s because I donā€™t have to worry about them,ā€ he argues, taking a step closer. Youā€™re a defiant little thing, so you move closer, too, which leaves your crossed forearms brushing his chest.
ā€œYou donā€™t have to worry about me!ā€
ā€œI do!ā€ He all but roars. You rock back on your heels in surprise but catch yourself.
Garrick runs a nervous hand through his hair. Heā€™s no longer meeting your gaze, instead staring out the window over your shoulder. Somethingā€™s wrong. Something he clearly doesnā€™t want to tell you.
ā€œWhy?ā€ You whisper.
ā€œWhat?ā€ He croaks; throat raw.
You glare up at him. You wish he would look at you. ā€œWhy do you have to worry about me?ā€
ā€œIā€”ā€ he trails off, helplessly, and you can see the way heā€™s talking himself out of admitting whatā€™s on his mind. Maybe heā€™s even talking to Chradh.
ā€œYou what, Garrick?ā€ You prod, an icy bite to your tone. ā€œYou think Iā€™m weak?ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ he answers vehemently. His gaze zeroes in on yours and he looks at you like he canā€™t believe you even said that.
ā€œThen what is it?ā€ You demand. ā€œIf itā€™s not because Iā€™m the weakest link, then why are you worried about me?ā€
ā€œBecause,ā€ Garrick roars, crowing in on you. You fall back but he keeps pushing forward, until your spine slams into the wall and thereā€™s nowhere else for you to go.
Your arms fall as you brace yourself against the wall. Garrickā€™s chest heaves, and you swear you can feel the rapid beat of his heart from how close you stand. His front is plastered to yours, and thereā€™s a flutter in your stomach that swirls at the fire in his eyes.
ā€œBecause I canā€™t get you out of my fucking head,ā€ he admits, tone taking on a soft edge that converges right between your thighs. Your gaze flickers from one hazel eye to the other, confused at his sudden revelation. ā€œDoesnā€™t matter where you are, what time of the day it is, youā€™re always on my mind.ā€ He lifts a hand and gently brushes a strand of wet hair back that clings stubbornly to your cheek. The heat of his skin is searing, just like his words. ā€œItā€™s like youā€™re a second Chradh,ā€ he laughs drily, ā€œThough youā€™re much prettier than him.ā€
Youā€™re pretty sure that this isnā€™t real life. That your section leader didnā€™t just admit the very same thing youā€™ve been feeling for him since the first moment you laid eyes on him. It must be real, because youā€™re here, pinned to the wall by his big, strong body, and heā€™s looking at you like you might just reject him.
And you donā€™t know what the fuck to do. Sure, youā€™ve kissed people before, but youā€™ve never done anything more. You know for a fact that Garrick is well-practiced, with those broad shoulders and handsome face, his deep, dark hair and bright eyes that could surely turn anyone into a puddle.
The words stick in your throat. You donā€™t know what to say, where to start, and the longer youā€™re silent in front of him, the more apprehension creeps into his eyes. He shifts uneasily, and you wrack your mind for a response.
Ugh, just kiss him already, Uisgeā€™s voice pops into your head.
Not now, Uisge, you bite, and then you heed your nosey dragonā€™s advice, and kiss Garrick.
You can tell heā€™s caught off guard by the way his body stills against yours. Still, you push onward, making it known that youā€™ve wanted him just as long as heā€™s wanted you by dragging your palms up his chest, reveling in every ripple of muscle you can feel through his flight jacket.
By the time your hands lock at the nape of his neck, Garrickā€™s hands are on your hips and his mouth moves against yours.
He lifts you into his arms, pinning you against the wall. Your legs wrap around his waist and he rolls his hips into yours as his tongue traces the seams of your lips. You gasp and Garrick slides his tongue into your mouth like heā€™s done it a million times. He brushes against yours tentatively, and when you donā€™t shy away from him, he advances.
One of his large hands slides up your waist, finding its way beneath the thin fabric of your shirt, exploring the smooth skin of your sides.
ā€œYou have no idea how long Iā€™ve been wanting to kiss you,ā€ Garrick mutters against the nape of your neck before sucking a harsh mark there. Your head thumps against the wall and your back arches into his body at the feeling of being claimed. It feels like threshing all over again, but this is better. Sorry Uisge.
Other than a rumble of protest down the bond, your stubborn daggertail doesnā€™t interrupt.
ā€œHow long?ā€ you gasp when his lips find the spot that makes you melt into him. Your fingers scrabble against his flight jacket, nails scratching the thick fabric. Garrick growls in frustration, pulling back just far enough to drop his swords, unzip himself, and tear the fabric form his back. His black shirt follows, exposing those beautiful broad shoulders of his. You canā€™t help but trail your fingers across his pectorals and down his chest, admiring every inch of his body. Zihnal must be with you right now, because youā€™ve never felt luckier than you do right now.
ā€œSince the day you chose Uisge,ā€ he pants, helping you discard your own shirt. Your bra quickly follows, and Garrickā€™s hazel eyes latch onto your body like youā€™re the best thing heā€™s ever seen. Your nipples pucker under his heady gaze and he loses his train of thought in favor of bending down to suck a pert bud into his mouth, reveling in the way that you gasp and wriggle as he circles his tongue around the hard nub.
Threshing. Heļæ½ļæ½ļæ½s liked you since threshing, when you chose Uisge. You think itā€™s an odd way to phrase what happened that day, but in Garrickā€™s eyes, thatā€™s exactly what it was. You, stubborn thing that you are, staring down the green daggertail with that look in your eye, the same one you always give him. The same one that makes his cock ache.
ā€œGarrick,ā€ you gasp, arching into him. Heā€™s not close enough, not with your trousers still acting as a barrier from where he ruts his thick cock into you. Your fingers claw at the waistband of his pants. ā€œOff.ā€
Garrick peels you from the wall, trailing his mouth back up to meet yours in a kiss that steals your breath. Heā€™s very good at this, gentle, too, as he lies you on your bed and he works your pants loose from your hips.
ā€œFuck me,ā€ he breathes when youā€™re fully exposed. A flush of red crawls up your body from your toes to your cheeks under that scrutinizing gaze of his. ā€œLook at you.ā€
The sudden urge to cover yourself flares to life. Youā€™re nervous, even more so when he drops his trousers and his cock bobs, heavy and swollen. Your mouth waters at the sight of him, all rippling muscle and perfect cock, his eyes only for you.
ā€œGarrick,ā€ you whisper, unable to keep the fear from your tone. While his cock is pretty, it looks like itā€™s big enough to rip you in half. You scramble away from him as he places a knee on the bed, feeling guilty at the confusion on his face. ā€œIā€™ve neverā€¦ā€ you trail off, cheeks burning red.
His uncertainty melts into understanding. ā€œThatā€™s okay, we donā€™t have to if you donā€™tā€”ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ you protest, almost too quickly. Your voice has taken on a desperate volume, and you lower it before continuing. ā€œI want to have sex with you, I really do,ā€ you swallow, eyes dipping to his cock. Itā€™s glistening at the tip. ā€œI just wanted you to know, in caseā€¦ā€ you trail off. In case he doesnā€™t fuck virgins.
The furrow between his brows creeps back. ā€œI want you,ā€ he presses, holding your eyes so that you know exactly how much this moment means to him. ā€œIf you want me, I want you. Iā€™ve wanted you for so long.ā€
You nod, almost dazed. Even though heā€™s told you this already, the words send a current of excitement zipping down your body where it converges between your thighs.
You want him too.
ā€œCome here, then, Garrick.ā€
He doesnā€™t have to be told twice.
Garrick kneels at the foot of the bed. He hooks his fingers around your ankles and carefully drags you closer to him, hazel eyes heady with lust. The effortless way that he tugs you to him has your pussy fluttering with need, a movement that he tracks.
When you near him, he slips from the bed, sliding to his knees. Carefully, Garrick tucks your legs over each of his shoulders, and you can feel each exhale he makes brushing your core. You bite your lip so you donā€™t release an impatient whine, but for Amariā€™s sake, youā€™ve never needed something so badly in your life.
ā€œIs this okay?ā€ he asks, tracing soothing circles into the meat of your thighs with his thumbs. He peppers kisses across the sensitive skin, grinning wildly when your hips buck beneath his mouth.
ā€œYes,ā€ you moan, circling your hips as if to chase his lips. You want him on you now, licking you and teasing you and making you come on his tongue. ā€œPlease, Garrick, Iā€”oh!ā€
You moan loud and wanton as the tip of his tongue flicks across your clit in an explorative swipe. Garrick locks that sound away in the back of his mind and dips down for another taste, scooping your slick up with his tongue. Heā€™s going to enjoy the fuck out of drawing all these noises from you.
Youā€™re fucking wet. The wettest pussy heā€™s ever had. You writhe against his tongue, panting and moaning at the different ways he uses his tongue. True to your stubborn nature, it isnā€™t long before your fingers are locked into his hair, guiding him while you chase your pleasure.
ā€œThatā€™s it, baby,ā€ he says as he switches from tongue fucking you to sucking harshly at your clit. He nips at the joint of your hip when you keen in frustration. You even go so far as to lift your head from the mattress to glare down at him. His eyes fucking glow in response and he holds your needy gaze. ā€œTake what you need.ā€
Thereā€™s a smart retort on the tip of your tongue but it melts into a moan of pleasure when his lips wrap around your clit and he sucks. Garrick adds his tongue into the mix, flicking it across your clit like heā€™s flipping through a never-ending deck of cards. When he adds a finger, your pleasure grows. When he adds a second, your orgasm crashes down around you in pure bliss. He doesnā€™t stop his attention on your clit until youā€™re a whining mess and trying to shove him off for a moment of reprieve.
ā€œYou did so good for me,ā€ he murmurs across your skin, lips brushing your navel, your breasts as he climbs onto the bed. Your hands relax, melting down his shoulders, tracing the rebellion relic. ā€œDo you need to stop, or can I put my cock in you?ā€ He asks gently, with a firm kiss to your lips.
ā€œCock,ā€ you echo, still lost in the throes of your orgasm. Youā€™ll be damned if you miss that chance to have him wholly. ā€œNeed your cock.ā€
ā€œThatā€™s my girl,ā€ Garrick whispers, and you preen.
He guides you into a better position, a pillow beneath your hips. His hand is warm on your calf as he directs you to hook your legs around his taut waist. You peer down at his cock, red and leaking and youā€™re more than ready for him. Youā€™re a mess for him.
Your breath catches in your chest as he guides his tip in. His words are soothing, gentle as he runs his cock through your slick for easier entry. ā€œThatā€™s it, just like that. It might hurt at first, but I promise Iā€™ll take care of you.ā€ He says, and how the fuck can you not melt for him with those pretty words?
Each inch he presses into you punches the air from your lungs. Your body tightens as you stretch around his girth. His cock is hot, branding your insides.
Garrick senses your discomfort and pauses. The halt makes you whine. ā€œHow are you doing?ā€
ā€œNeed you closer,ā€ you admit, screwing your eyes shut. You lift your hands and Garrick carefully lowers himself, trying not to lose his head and fuck all the way into you until his hips meet yours. Heā€™s so gentle, so caring, and your heart swells because of it.
He presses his forehead to yours, thumbing a soft pattern against your cheek. ā€œRelax,ā€ he coaxes softly. Your eyes pop open, meeting those lovely hazel ones. ā€œI can stop anytime you want.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t want you to stop,ā€ you answer, slowly unlocking your limbs. You didnā€™t realize that you were digging your nails into the meat of his shoulders, and you carefully retract your claws. ā€œI want you to keep going.ā€
It takes agonizing minutes until his pelvis rests against yours. Garrickā€™s reassuring praises helped keep you calm, even made you wetter for him with that wicked tongue of his. He distracted you with kisses and promises, lingering touches and admissions.
Gods, you feel so full. You didnā€™t think that youā€™d be able to take him all the way yet here you are with his cock fully sheathed inside of you. It feels right. He feels like home.
On your own time, you give a tentative roll of your hips. Garrick bites his lip to contain the moan that creeps up his throat, but you do nothing to hide yours. Yes, you get why sex is amazing, and youā€™re about to find out what sex with Garrick is like.
ā€œIf you keep squeezing my cock like that, Iā€™m going to meet Malek sooner than intended,ā€ Garrick pants, but fuck if he doesnā€™t love the way youā€™re squirming on his cock, drunk off of the sheer size of him.
ā€œMove,ā€ you gasp, fingers tightening on the back of his biceps. ā€œI need you to move, Garrick.ā€
He heeds your direction like the good rider he is.
He starts out slow, letting you get used to his size. He kisses the furrow between your brow, rocking in and out until it disappears and youā€™re whimpering for him to move faster. Youā€™re soaking his cock, which makes it all too easy to maneuver quicker, shifting his hips until youā€™re crying out and your nails are locked into his skin of his back again, raking down his spine.
He doesnā€™t even care if you leave red traces down his back. Heā€™d rather be reminded of this moment than the scar thatā€™s forever marred into his skin.
ā€œYes,ā€ you hiss, arching into him. Garrick sucks a mark into the plush skin of your breast before sucking your nipple into his mouth. ā€œYes yes yes!ā€ Heā€™s ravaging you in every way, feels like heā€™s using his air wielding to steal the air from your lungs. You know that your lack of breath is simply just from being in his presence, his dashing good looks have always managed to take your breath away.
Garrick is attentive, tracing every part of your body he can reach. He draws a map in his mind, committing exactly what places and noises correspond. He would stay buried in you for fucking days if he could, but the harder you let him fuck into you has his gut coiling, that familiar heat buzzing down his spine.
He slides a hand between your bodies and finds your clit like heā€™s been fucking you for way longer than one night. You tug his head down in a desperate kiss, whimpering in pleasure into his mouth as his finger draws tight circles around your sensitive nub, chasing you toward that edge that still feels foreign yet so familiar at the same time.
ā€œCome for me,ā€ Garrick whispers, and you have no choice but to listen to your section leader.
You topple over the edge of oblivion. Itā€™s similar to the feeling you experienced earlier, when you let yourself slip from Uisgeā€™s back. A freefall, yet itā€™s so much more than that. Itā€™s strong arms crashing down with you, a cock between your legs thatā€™s hitting all the right spots. Itā€™s soft words of encouragement from a man youā€™d never thought youā€™d get to see this much of. Hazel eyes that youā€™re falling into.
Garrick comes shortly after you, when heā€™s sure that youā€™ve experienced the best first orgasm of your life with him. There will be no one who will treat you like this, heā€™s vowed to ruin sex with any other man for you. But heā€™s ready to stick around if you are, as long as you donā€™t go jumping from your dragon with a death wish without letting him know first.
ā€œThat wasā€¦ā€ you trail off in bliss. Thereā€™s a satisfied smile on your face, one that makes Garrick preen. Your eyes are shut and the lazy way you stroke his hair makes him fall harder, melt further into your body. ā€œThank you.ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ he counters gently, brushing your hair from your face. Itā€™s damp for an entirely different reason than the lake now, stuck to your skin with sweat. ā€œThank you,ā€ he says, and leans down for one more intoxicating kiss.
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moonpjs Ā· 12 hours ago
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pairing. nerd!haechan x fem!reader | cw. smut, oral (f receiving), multiple orgasms
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a/n: thank you to the lovely anon who requested this, i hope you like it <3 the request can be found here!
Pussy drunk Haechan just canā€™t get enough of how you taste ever since the first time he was between your thighs. Always bringing up how you taste better and better each time, never wanting to get bored of it.
After inviting him around to your dorm, initially to help you study for an exam, things took a turn in a way that both of you had hoped for. You remembered more about what makes Haechan tick than anything about the topic you were about to be tested on.
And since then heā€™s been so entranced by your pussy. He feels like he could be there 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. He can forget about everything and focus all his attention on you and what felt like a blessing between your legs.
Once again, you and Haechan found yourselves in your dorm after your shared class. You both lay on your bed with his arms wrapped around your thighs, pulling you closer nearly every second as he practically made out with your pussy.
You squirmed beneath him, sweet moans slipping through your parted lips, feeling his warm tongue circle over your clit. Occasionally sucking on the bundle of nerves.
His glasses slipped down the bridge of his nose every few minutes, having to push them back up every time. Only keeping them on so he could see the pleasure on your face perfectly, taking pride in how heā€™s making you feel.
ā€œFuck, you taste so good babyā€ he whined into your pussy.
You had already cum once, but you know Haechanā€™s not quite finished at that point. Never hesitating to get at least one more orgasm out of you, only stopping if you tell him to.
A hand found its way to tug on his hair, pushing him onto you, eliciting lengthy whines out of him every time your grip tightened.
The feeling shot straight down to his cock, causing his hips to grind against the bed, trying to find some sort of friction through his shorts. His moans vibrated against your heat, creating a new sensation for you.
You loved the sounds he made, making your core dripping every time you hear them.
The grip on your thighs became stronger as you noticed him rubbing himself onto the sheets.
The view of Haechan at that moment turned you on even more, loving how desperate he was getting, making your back arch and brows knit together.
Haechan continued to lap at your cunt like he was a starved man. Like it was a necessity to live. Never giving either of you a break. Especially when youā€™d cum for the second time, eyes screwing shut.
Your moans grew more beautiful and lewd at the same time. Your clit felt so sensitive as he licked you clean, not wasting anything.
Youā€™d think he was tired by now, having been at it for about 30 minutes. His forehead showed a sheen behind his locks. But other than that, there was no indication that he was going to stop any time soon.
You let out a shaky breath, feeling the loss of contact from his tongue.
Your eyes slowly opened. He raised his head from where he nestled in between your legs, looking up at you. Your hand dropped from his hair to cup his right cheek.
Even after having cum twice and your pussy feeling overstimulated, the way Haechan looked gave you butterflies. He made you shudder and bite your lip. Suddenly not wanting this to be over.
His eyes gazed at you with desire while his lips were plump and covered in your slick. He looked so good, you just wanted to devour him right then and there.
He panted, licking your juices off his lips. He planted wet kisses along the soft skin of your left thigh and then the other before looking up at you again.
ā€œCan you give me one more, baby please?ā€
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labyrinthofsphinx Ā· 1 day ago
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Heyo a bit sad rn so I came to your blog to try and cheer myself up. I have two questions. Say the bois get separated for a while, Vox overworks or Alastor gets caught up in some sort of shenanigans. Maybe it reaches a point where the other party starts feeling neglected. If it ever reaches a boiling point before they could solve it, how would they deal?
And my other question is what do the bois do to cheer each other up if the other is sad? If that's been answered before because i have a feeling it has, then :what do they do to cheer each other up when they physically can't be in the same location?
Aw, Iā€™m so sorry Anon. I hope this can cheer you up a little:
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So, in general, these guys don't do too well separated for too long. The neglect feeling was more of a thing earlier on, when Vox would get too wrapped up in work. The man doesn't even sleep sometimes, and his schedule is murder. But basically Vox will drop everything to be there for Al, and Alastor quickly figures this out.
Now that said...the opposite isn't necessarily true. But Vox is very good at burying those feelings of neglect deep, mostly with the thought that he shouldn't be feeling this way because it's not like Alastor owes him attention or anything, and so on. He, um, tries to relax himself in different ways until Al gets back, like going to the beach, a ride on his yacht, or throwing himself into work. He distracts himself, essentially, because he knows Al doesn't mean to make him feel neglected...it's just that, in Alastor's mind, he doesn't need to be there for Vox like that.
Now, when they have to be away from each other? Vox calls Alastor from work, every single day, at a scheduled time. They both pretend like its just Alastor telling Vox to get to sleep, but, really, it's just to hear each other's voices. Barring that, Al secretly watches Vox's films to hear his voice and he'll put them on in the background of his day. Vox also has a habit of leaving notes for Alastor everywhere in Al's house before he leaves for a long trip (something he gained from Aunt Edith) and by the time Al finds them all, Vox is back.
Vox, for his part, will set up a state of the art radio receiver anywhere he goes so that he always catches Alastor's show. As said, Alastor doesn't really know when/if Vox ever needs assurance, so its mostly up to Vox to calm himself down.
Thanks for the ask, and I hope you start to feel better soon. <33
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lorynna Ā· 1 day ago
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The thing that bothers me about the radical feminist community on Tumblr is how unforgiving and harsh some radfems are, when they disagree with your views. I've seen it a couple of times now. We will talk about sisterhood, supporting each other and the love we share for other women but sometimes we cannot criticize each other respectfully.
Especially for the women only slowly getting into radical feminism, because it is new to them, they can be quick to get sassy reblogs due to posting their yet unripe thought processes or making mistakes and that's genuinly sad to see.
On the other hand when it comes to other disagreements: I understand your frustrations and I understand that we won't always agree with each other on everything but that doesn't mean that we have to be unkind to each other.
Sadly, I often feel like me saying things like "I don't think that men are inherently evil", "men have the potential to improve" or "i had a great father figure in my life and I am happy in my current het partnership" puts a great target on my back and I've had many harassive anons sent to me by other supposed radfems.
In all honesty I don't feel free to sometimes say what I think because I just have the feeling that there will be harsh backlash for stating things like the sentences put in quotation above - even when I never challenged radfems that think differently or have had a different life experience compared to mine. Even when all I do is state my own life's reality detached from everything else.
And by sharing mine - I never mean to undermine or disregard the experiences of other women. I respect you. I see you. I see why you hate men and I would never argue with you about why you shouldn't. Again, I empathize with you and I acknowledge that we have different lived realities.
I don't think I have to defend myself regarding this stance but without going into too much detail I was really lucky to have a really amazing father growing up. Generally, I have had great male role models in my life and I love them very much. Just as much as I love my boyfriend who treats me very well. I have seen two sides of the same coin. And if me therefore saying that I don't think that "all men are inherently evil" makes you want to refute my experience angrily - that's your choice.
I am in my early 20s, I have not been part of radical feminist for very long and I am not as smart or as eloquent as many other radfems on this platform - without question. I am here for the discourse, for learning from others and to listen to their experiences. I hope to make Tumblr a little bit of a better place.
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gingerteafairy Ā· 1 day ago
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OMG could do more about Dave x Todd x Black!Reader. The first one is so good, seriously, I don't want to sound dirty but something like them taking her in the doggy position, I don't want to explain that but I hope you understand šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
Oh, i get it, anon. I'm thinking about it everyday...
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tags n warnings: smut/mdni, threesome, raw doggy, blowjob, language, praise kink, breeding if you squint, cum eating. word count: +300. masterlist
Your relationship with Dave and Todd went beyond the term "best friends" or "lovers". Soulmates would perhaps be better, even if it was still weak. It was like being always in tune with everything, in sync.
You were on all fours, your favorite position for this, back arched like a cat. Your ass up, reddened from Toddā€™s slaps, your face contorted in pleasure with your lips on Daveā€™s warm cock, succumbing to his soft taste.
Todd kept the slow rhythm in your needy pussy, while Dave kept your mouth stuffed, muffling the lewd moans that came out of your throat every time Todd touched that spot. It was a pleasure trip.
Both kneeling on the bed. Todd watched how your cunt swallowed his entire cock, the dark colors of your folds attracted him so much. You might be insecure about it, but it was what he loved the most.
He always loved how your colors blended together, constantly wondering about it every time he jerked seed inside your womb.
ā€œUhmmā€¦ā€ you nodded, unable to speak, closing your eyes tightly as you felt Daveā€™s tip on your uvula.
ā€œYou look so beautiful with my cock in your mouth,ā€ Dave whimpered at the contact, the wet noise of saliva, gagging and your entry. You didnā€™t blush easily, melanin protected, but at those times, you always looked as red as he did. It drove him crazy.
To that melody, they increased the rhythm, while you moaned louder, choking on Daveā€™s cock, having his pale hand holding your chin to see the tears.
ā€œSorry, fuckā€¦hnngā€ Dave muttered, grunting as he felt your throat tightening with discomfort, mixed with Toddā€™s massage inside you. ā€œShit, Iā€™m gonna cum if you look at me like thatā€¦ā€
ā€œShit, youā€™re soā€¦ā€ Todd groaned, pulling your hair as he set a rhythm. His veiny hands went to your waist to hold your body that went back and forth with his thrusts. ā€œIā€™m going to fill this pussy. You're so greedy, bet youā€™ll want Dave later like you always doā€¦ hmmm ā€”fuuuckā€”take it allā€¦ā€
Dave held your head with both hands, his hips moving frantically until they began to slow down, spurting cum on your tongue and cheeks. Not more than a second, you felt your own wave of orgasm as Toddā€™s white strands filled you completely. In sync, once again.
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jellyfishstarzz Ā· 3 days ago
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Then don't go to therapy. Also, I feel so sorry for everyone in your life. I hope they drop you, move on, and heal.
first anon hate ā¤ļø
Anyway this is actually perfect because I planned to talk about this topic but didn't get to it yet.
As a person with a demonized disorder but especially as a person with NPD or ASPD it will never be enough for society. You can go to therapy, you can work on yourself, you can work on healing from the trauma you that has caused you to be this way in the first place, you can realize all the unhealthy things you do that are influenced by your disorder and work on changing your behavior, in the end a big majority of society will still call you a monster. They will still equate you to a murder or abuser. They will still see you as inhumane. And all of this for a mental disorder, a disability, you have. You didn't choose to have this disorder. The reason it was formed was to protect you from whatever traumatic thing/things you were going thru in your childhood. In a better world you didn't have to go thru that but we're here now and even though a big majority of society will always see you as monster, it's important to me that you know you're not a monster, at least not in the way society thinks (shout out to all pwASPD/NPD who are nonhuman). There will always be people who are proud of you for working on your disorder, for going against the way your brain is wired. I see your struggles. You are the person who has to live with the disorder, you are the person it affects most. Yes, it will also affect others and disrespecting others is a part of both npd and aspd but that doesn't mean you don't struggle aswell.
You're the person who craves control because deep down you're scared if you don't have control the horrible things that have happened to you will repeat itself (even if you aren't really able to feel that emotion). You're the person who craves to be loved and admired because you haven't gotten enough love, attention and/or care in your childhood. You're the person who can't or has big problems building and maintaining genuine relationships. You're the person who crashes when you feel like someone is critiquing you. You're the person who has homicidal thoughts because your brain doesn't know how else to handle emotions like anger/rage, rejection and/or hate. You're the person who is dehumanized and demonized for thoughts and feelings you have a very hard time controlling because they come from a literal disorder that is most likely caused by trauma. (transID dni. I'm talking about the theroies that people can be born with ASPD and that NPD can be formed thru being overly praised and such during childhood)
Again, I see your struggles. No matter how often society tells you that you're a horrible person, I don't think so. I think you're someone who has a disorder, a disability, that fundamentally changes the way you think and feel. Having a disorder is going to impact your life and that of others. That's common sense. I will never judge a person for having homicidal ideations, for feeling the need to control others, for having delusions of grandeur or literally any other aspd/npd trait/symptom. Recovery is worth it even if motivation is hard to find and even though it's really hard to work thru everything. You're used to this way of living but I want you to know there's a life for you that's better and more vibrant.
I love all of you narcissists and antisocials. I hope you have/get a great therapist who can help you. I hope everyone in your life knows how important you are and appreciates you. I hope you find a person or people you can maintain a genuine, stable and healthy relationship with. I hope you heal from what you've gone thru and I hope you learn to handle your disorder so life gets easier for you.
Anon, fuck you for eating up the demonizing bullshit. I will continue going to therapy. Yes, I have aspd traits, and npd, I can't feel empathy or remorse, I have homicidal ideations and I don't really care about others. That doesn't make me a abuser. I'm in recovery, I will act insensitive towards others and it'll be hard for me to control certain urges, yet I am trying to go against that. The people in my life accept me for who I am. I have a fiancƩ who I love and who loves me. Why come that mental health matters for others who have mental illnesses/disorders caused by trauma but mine doesn't, just because my brain decided it needs aspd traits, npd (and bpd) to keep me alive thru all the childhood trauma?
I hope one day you, anon, will be smart enough to realize that I, and everyone else with ASPD, NPD or any other demonized disorder, are human. We deserve respect, recognition and love.
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luminique Ā· 2 months ago
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hii hii lumii !! I ADORE your interpretation of lighter so farā€” I love him smm
anyways, I hope my req is okay but I was wondering if you could do a comfort fic ? maybe reader has been a lil distant lately and just in some feels and he gives them a lil talk after being blown off here and there to find out they were having issues w their mental health and not feeling good enough and maybe heā€™s caught off guard because reader is usually so out going and always has a smile on their face and to see them feel so small makes him wanna take care of them so much and gives them so much reassurance and gentle kisses and cuddles šŸ‘‰šŸ‘ˆ
I hope itā€™s okay !! Iā€™ve been in the feels lately
hi anonn !! im gonna answer this one first because i've been in the feels too and i think we all deserve some reassurance, especially after all of the sad lighter story.
i don't take lighter for the kind to be too intrusive. that's not to say that he doesn't notice the way you're staring off into the distance, as if always having something on your mind. or the way you left earlier than usual for the SoC's nightly hangouts around the fire. or the way you had just been distancing yourself from him.
maybe you just needed a day, or two, and so he waited. he waited, and waited, but it just seemed like it was getting worse. he was beginning to get anxious, coming up with possibilities and worse case scenarios. even his favorite grape-flavored lollipop couldn't reduce the anxiety that was building up inside of him as he followed after you one night.
he shook off his nerves, spending quite a bit of time at the front door of your lodging while in blazewood. mentally practicing what to say so that he wouldn't make things even worse than they already were. one step, two deep breaths, three knocks on your door. he cleared his voice, usually confident and smooth but now carried a hint of worry in it.
"hey, uh... everything alright?"
you could hear the ruffling of his jacket, the soft metal clinks of his gloves. he didn't dare open the door until you allowed him to, so he waited, just like he always had. "lighter? yeah, everything's fine," was that a slight crack in your voice? no, no, he had to have imagined that. he knew it was wrong but he had waited long enough. he turned the knob, opening the door just a little bit but still not walking in.
"you don't have to tell me everything. just... know that i'll be here, waiting for you." he wasn't the best at comforting, nor was he good at even navigating these sorts of things but at the very least, he wanted you to have the knowledge that you had him. it didn't take long for you to finally get up, opening the door that separated the both of you. you looked so... different. the light absent from your eyes, the edges of your lips normally turned upwards but now they weren't. if he couldn't say what you wanted to hear, maybe you'd understand through his actions.
his arms wrapped around you. squeezing you just a little tighter than usual as he somehow made the both of you waddle backwards into your room. he had kept his gloves in his pants, not wanting to hurt you even more with them. his embrace was a familiar warmth, like the fire during particularly cold nights in the outer ring. you could hear his heart racing, was it from nervousness? anxiety? fear? even he didn't know.
he took this as an opportunity to place soft kisses on the top of your head but then stopped all of a sudden. he turned around to the door and realized that it was still wide open. he kicked it close with his foot, feeling embarrassed at the fact that he had to stop because of something so minor. he wanted you to feel safe, to have privacy, to be able to breathe without others barging in. technically, he had invaded this space of yours but you were slowly melting into him, as if you had been waiting for this too.
every passing second hugging you, kissing you, it made his own worries disappear. he hoped the same for you as you slowly spoke to him about your own problems. as he listened, he'd pause every once in while to give you a deadpan stare. not because he was making fun of you or anything, but it genuinely baffled him how you could say such things about yourself. you felt so insecure about yourself and your image, about being with him, being with the SoC. he had to physically stop himself from just blurting "i love you" every time you said something so degrading.
instead, he chose to wait and listen. his calloused hands gently caressing yours, his lips pressing kisses on the side of your head as you nuzzled into him. he loves you for who you are, the person in front of him, not the image that you had made yourself out to be in your mind. but he waits for you to let it all out before he says anything else. he will wait, he will listen, he will always be there for you.
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catastrxblues Ā· 10 months ago
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EVERMORE by taylor swift (feat. bon iver) ā€” ā€œand i was catching my breath, floors of a cabin creaking under my step. and i couldnā€™t be sure, i had a feeling so peculiar, this pain wouldnā€™t be forevermore.ā€
my #swiftiegiftexchange2024 for @lovesickallovermybed!!!! šŸ«¶šŸ½šŸ«¶šŸ½
#HIII HII HII how are you <3333 SO sorry for being slightly to the party but HII#i saw that you are currently recovering from surgery and iā€˜m wishing you all the best and =a faster recovery šŸ’—šŸ’— i hope youā€™re okay and#are feeling and getting much better every day šŸ’—šŸ’—šŸ’—#iā€™m your anon swiftie and it was really nice to get to know you!! šŸ«¶šŸ½ youā€™re super super talented and your gifs are so so STUNNING#it was such an honor to be your anon for this event and i had such a fun time making this !#i was SO excited when i saw that some of your favorite ts songs are evermore and idsb. really really sorry i didnā€™t have the time to make#something for both because my laptop went dead for sometime and i ended up only having the time to make this šŸ˜­#evermore the song is something i hold and cherish deeply in my heart too and it was something that has seen some of the worst of my days#and so i decided to do this song for your gift instead!#i canā€™t really gif much and couldnā€™t even try#because my laptop in which i had installed ps in went rip so i decided to make you this#(slightly messy sorryy) scrapbook of my view of the song! i tried to incorporate some of the descriptive lyrics and the objects mentioned i#the song and i hope you like it šŸ˜!#and because i think evermore is also something that IS meant to be incredibly personal to the people that listen to it#i decided to include some photos (+added highlights on every lyric that has ever touched me which is almost everything as you can see šŸ˜­)#of some of my journal pages on which i rewrote the entire lyrics (except bon iverā€™s addition šŸ˜…) in ā€˜21 when the song meant to me the most!#i hope you're having a great dayy love šŸ«¶šŸ½šŸ«¶šŸ½#SwiftieGiftExchange2024#taylor swift#tswiftedit#evermore#*my edits#nadine.mp3
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teddybeartoji Ā· 1 month ago
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i am now officially in 2025 so happpppy happy happy new year my lovelies<333333333333 thank you for spending your time with me here thank you for letting me do whatever it is that i'm doing thank you for reading my silly little writings it all means the fucking world to me!!!!!!!!!!! i hope this new year will be gentle with all of us i hope it will be good and fun and exciting!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope we will all find jobs and our dream homes and i hope our health will get better aaand i hope we can all do the things we love and enjoy and that we get to hang out here aaaand that we will keep cheering each other on!!!!!!!!!!!!!I LOVE YOUUUU!!!!!!!!!!
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fisheito Ā· 2 months ago
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You know who you remind me of? Helga Pataki.
Please tell me you (or somebody else) gets the reference šŸ˜‚
anon u turned my world to static with that namedrop
on the list of things i did NOT expect to happen ,because hUH??: someone dragging [hey arnold] into my tiny nuca inbox
#feesh answer#yes. yes i get the reference. . .#BRUH YOU JUST SHUT MY BRAIN DOWN FOR A SOLID MINUTE. I HAD TO SYSTEM REBOOT.#DON'T YOU CASUALLY UNLOCK A DEEPSEATED MEMORY LIKE THAT. put my waves out of wack. WOO!!! WILD!!!!#tho helga to be fair was what the millenialish kids would cal..l. a 'bad bitch'?#she put up with a lot#and despite all the suckage around her.. she still manages to be her clever ambitious passionate self#go helga go!!!! get what you want girl!!! i hope life treats you better!! you deserve several breaks!#when i first watched hey arnold#i didn't really care about it. it was decent background noise after school or whatevs.#helga was weird and creepy at best#when i got older... i somehow stumbled back into the show#and became obsessed with it. watched everything all over again. watched the movie i never saw#NOW....WITH THE WISDOM OF AGE..... i understood. i was UNDERSTANDING. really appreciated the show more#and its characters of course.... finally understood how messed up the pataki family was fo realsies#anyway. after that initial BLASTED BURST of unlocked memory vault . with the nostalgia. and the facts of me watching it twice#i return to reality: this ask. which is currently comparing me to helga#and i laugh maniacally because i don't know how else to react#my second urge was to punt anon out the window so they can land in a conveniently placed bouncy castle and atone for their crime#their crime of. making me embarrass myself with .myself#but i DON'T punt anon because. well. *gestures to the ask*#falls back dramatically into my armchair#what am i supposed to do........ i can't really escape the allegations can i...#sighs dejectedly . surrounded by my own posts
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deoidesign Ā· 8 months ago
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I was scrolling and saw your art and it made me really happy because I realized you made time and time again!!!
Itā€™s literally one of my favorite things Iā€™ve ever read, so cool!!!
This is so sweet, thank you for sharing!
It's sort of "illusion breaking" so to speak, to think of my art being both out there in a way that someone could happen upon it, and then further that someone may happen upon it twice, and finally that on doing so they find it recognizable...
I always think of myself and my work as something that sort of sits behind the curtain. The idea that it might take up space in this way is unreal!
This is the kind of thing that means more than you could imagine.
So thank you!
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mint-yooxgi Ā· 1 year ago
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Can I ask for a comfort Drabble from Jongho of Ateez or Yeonjun of TXT? Iā€™ve been having a rough couple of months
A frown rests on Yeonjun's features as he enters your apartment to see all the lights off. The final rays of the setting sun offer him minimal visibility as he weaves his way through the mess at your front door.
Shoes are scattered about, as if hurriedly tugged off, a few bags littering the entranceway. The apartment is eerily quiet, too, as if there hasn't been sign or sound of movement for at least twelve hours or more. An impossible feat, for you had texted him that you had arrived home a little over four hours ago.
"Honey?" Yeonjun calls out into the void of your apartment, worry marring his brow. "Are you in here?"
Again, no sound seems to greet him for a moment, and he flicks on the hallway lights. Carefully, he creeps towards your room, calling out your name softly.
The softest sound of ruffling sheets, followed by a muffled groan greets his ears.
Immediately, Yeonjun is shoving the door to your room open, letting the light from the hallway illuminate your figure buried beneath your blankets. The covers are pulled over your head, back facing him as you lay in the dark, and if that wasn't his first clue something was off, the way you don't even flinch when he rushes over to sit on the edge of your bed is.
"Honey, what's wrong?" His voice is soft, his hand gently peeling the covers back to reveal your head.
The sight that greets him causes his breath to hitch.
Your eyes are red and puffy, tear tracks cutting lines down your cheeks.
You turn away from him, voice muffled by the pillow. "Go away."
Yeonjun gently brushes a hand over your cheek, leaning over you slightly. "I'm not going anywhere until you tell me what's wrong."
You shake your head, still refusing to turn his way.
"Whatever it is, know that I'm here for you," he cups your cheek, settling himself behind you on the bed. He pulls you into his arms, just laying with you and holding you close. "I will always be here for you."
A sniffle echoes around the room, and you furiously begin o wipe at your eyes. You can feel his arms tighten around you from behind, and he presses his face into the crook of your neck.
Yeonjun's heart aches for you. He's not sure what's going on, but he wants to be here for you. In any and every way he can. There is nothing you could do to send him away, not like this. He cares about you, and like hell is he going to leave you when you need him most.
Twenty minutes are spent in silence, the only sounds filling the room being your muffled sobs, along with some minor sniffles. You chest stutters, but finally you're starting to calm down.
"I'm sorry," you speak, keeping your voice low, barely above a whisper. "I don't know what came over me."
You feel him shake his head. "Never apologize for feeling; you don't have to apologize to me. I'm here, and I'm not going anywhere."
You swallow thickly, arm raising to rest over his own around your waist.
"We all have off days, but that doesn't mean you're worth any less." He continues softly. "I love you, and I care about you. I will never leave you to suffer these thoughts alone."
Slowly, you turn yourself in his arms, burying your face into his chest. Your arms wrap around him, pulling him closer to you as you inhale a stuttering breath. Slowly, you begin to nod.
"Let it all out, Honey," he coos softly, his one hand tenderly stroking alone your spine. "I'm right here, and I promise to never let you go."
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lambjock Ā· 2 days ago
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Hey! Idk what exactly you're going through - but you're doing great. My love is with you šŸ«‚ be kind to yourself, take it easy when you can.
this is very sweet, thank you! iā€™ve been going through probably one of the worst, most triggering periods of my life ( with back to back horrible luck too! ) so knowing that someone out there cares is heartwarming at least. sadly there isnā€™t a lot of time to take it easy but i will keep this message in mind. my love is with you too!
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niki-phoria Ā· 4 months ago
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Hi, i was wondering how you've been!! I also wanted to ask how you deal with stress?? I've been so stressed lately it's so bad and was wondering if you had any tips.
hi !! i'm doing good :)) uni has been pretty good so far and i think i'm settling in pretty well
usually when i get stressed i like to go for walks, preferably at places where there are a lot of plants/greenery bc they make me happy. if it's cold/walking isn't an option, i like to sketch stuff or read. i find that journaling also helps me express my feelings if i don't want to/can't talk about them
i like to be alone when i'm stressed but if you prefer being around people, talking to friends/family can also help !! i hope you're doing well <33
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