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It's really hard to describe my stomach issues, because I barely ever know how to describe my own personal issues on a good day. But let me see: it usually ends up manifesting as constipation. I get constipated, and then it ends up really hurting when I do end up going bathroom. Sometimes a lot comes out, sometimes very little comes out. It doesn't feel like there's any regularity to it in that respect. Sometimes I'll feel this random feeling, almost as if i'm sore or mildly nauseous or empty stomached or something. That feeling always goes away, but I've experienced it a few times in the last little while.
But that's my best attempt at analyzing all this. Nothing about it seems life threatening or fatal. Mostly it just feels like annoying, painful and chronic stomach aches and constipation. So... I really don't know what's causing it. But I'm going to continue complaining about dealing with it, because it feels miserable to deal with.
#i have no clue what's causing all this#all i know is that i really don't like it#health#stomach#stomach problems#stomach issues#constipation#self analysis#autism#asd#my thoughts#random thoughts#neurodivergent#vents#venting#vent post#health issues#health problems#chronic constipation
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can we talk about how the weirdest part of staticmoth isn't even the fact that they're toxic to each other?
it's how they both react to each other's toxicity with nonchalance.
like. first, during val's tantrum, val throws a glass at vox, or well, in his vicinity.
then vox just... steps away like it's nobody's business, barely bothered by it.
and later, when it's vox's turn to be angry, he roughly pulls val down, shakes him, and shouts at his face.
then val just... shrugs it off.
usually when you think of a toxic relationship, you'd probably think of person A being toxic to person B then person B biting back just as toxic until it's a back and forth of toxicity, a full-blown fight.
but that. that's not staticmoth. staticmoth is fucking weird in that when one is acting toxic towards the other, the other acts nonchalant and doesn't retaliate. then they switch roles on who the toxic one is and who the nonchalant one is.
I am not at all denying the toxicity in their relationship, but they certainly are a really fucking weird brand of toxic that is just. so hard to describe.
#osrs.txt#what the fuck is wrong with them (millions of things)#staticmoth#voxval#I didn't want to put too many examples in here but there's also val throwing and breaking vox's phone#where vox just looks annoyed but otherwise does not retaliate or bite back#then there's vox trying to get val's attention cause he wasn't listening to him#and he does the first instance of pulling him down roughly and shouting at his face#to which val just stares into blank space LMAO and also does not retaliate to this#not really sure how to classify their respective manipulations in this since... it's manipulation and not outright aggression#lmk what to tag here cause I have no fucking clue#tw domestic violence#???#hazbin vox#hazbin hotel vox#vox#vox hazbin#vox hazbin hotel#hazbin valentino#hazbin hotel valentino#valentino#valentino hazbin#valentino hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel#couldn't find all the gifs I wanted so I made them myself LMAO
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A lil guy !
#honkai star rail#dan heng#genuinely have a million things i wanna draw and then zero energy#so dan heng in a hoodie#now i gotta go get dinner sooooo maybe that will give energy and then i can draw more of what i actually wanna draw#but i kinda spent like ... hours ? talking to my mom earlier today#since shes been in the hospital for many many days#so i was catching her up on whats been goin on and showed her silly lil videos#and telling her how hyped i was for summer hrid and she (very patient with my fe talk)#was like you always tell me about banners being bad so it must have made you REALLY happy to say the whole banner is good#and im like yeah and i had multiple people on multiple sites like hey salmon/moeblob did ya see the banner#and she was like thats so cool that people acknowledge who you like and im like yeah it is p cool#and then i told her how mad i was at the absolutely criminal act of limiting how you can watch clue (1985 hit movie)#like i told her yeah sure i own it twice on dvd and once on itunes and that the only way to watch those#are either desktop or ps2 and how i dont have access to my itunes email#and i dont have it on my laptop so i sadly would have to rebuy the movie on itunes under a new acct#then i said how i loved that it was free to watch with ads on yt and id watched it twice that way#but then recently wanted to watch it on there but laptop and hoo boy you have to buy or rent it now#so i v angrily was like fine whatever ill do the thing and leave my room and go watch it on my moms tv#while she isnt around and use her amazon prime where it should be included except ! IT WASNT!#YOU HAVE TO HAVE PRIME TO BUY OR RENT IT NOW TOO!#HOW ARE THEY DOING THIS AND WHY ! who in the world is watching this movie so much that isnt me that they have to charge for it now#on all platforms unless you straight up pirate it#and hey why would i of all people be needing to pirate a movie i own physically two times and digitally once#this is literally a personalized attack to me#and my mom was like i understand how you feel cause yeah thats really weird to do to a 1985 movie#and im like yes exactly i have morals and principles that make me opposed to this and its v maddening#and she said she understood and its ok next time we are having power issues and i have to shut down#that if i really wanna watch it i can rent it on her amazon account and i looked at her and shes like oh you feel v strongly about this#and i do! I HAVE HAD IT GIFTED TO ME TWICE ! I BOUGHT IT ONCE! WHY DO I HAVE TO RENT IT FOR MORE MONEY!
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Spamton please go to sleep, you look really tired
#No clue why you thought telling /HIM/ of all people what to do would work#even if he /knows/ its something he should#he wont.#:-3#[you've got mail!]#spamton#spamton g spamton#deltarune#deltarune spamton#deltarune chapter 2#this one was slow today cause im siiiccckkkkk and i wish i coulda done more on the animation front but im happy w it.#it gets what i want across#he can be creepy. as a treat.#he is so exhausted but theres a good handful of reasons i have for why he wont unless he HAS to.#..unless hes /forced/ to. which is inevitable.#wuagh
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like every other human being with eyes who's watched cats 98, I always noticed this little split second shot of misto & tugger.
I've seen people theorizing what was going on there, but I never bothered myself because to me it really just looked like the actors not realizing how close they were getting to each other & breaking character momentarily when they did. And the footage was kept in either as a mistake or because someone thought the moment had ~character~.
But I was watching the Cats 98 documentary earlier and I noticed this quick shot which makes that moment actually look like a deliberately directed thing.
Which makes me wonder was the point of it was, it's such a quick and vague little interaction.
#cats the musical#tuggoffelees#if it was just supposed to be tugger being a nuisance and getting in the way on purpose#you'd think he'd come off as more playful#but he looks so serious and misto looks so taken aback#its such a strange little moment i genuinely have no clue what their intent was#cause you know.......................................... looks gay as hell and all.#cats fan on main
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“i feel like i’m faking my disorder until i remember i’m experiencing symptoms alone in my room where there’s no one to be faking for” …you mean you guys don’t have an imaginary audience that lives in your head and likes to make judgmental commentary??
#im faking for the audience <3#this is only kind of a joke#not really a joke at all#no clue which mental illness the audience belongs to#ro speaks#mental illness#anxiety#avpd#cptsd#what else do i have?#depression#doubt it’s the depression causing this tho#im just gonna tag the rest of the pds as well bc yall are cool#stpd#szpd#ppd#bpd#npd#aspd#hpd#dpd#ocpd
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Just got out of a meeting and couldn't help but think about how we're totally squandering the opportunity to use icebreakers in fanfic.
Since he's the first person I thought about- Can you imagine Bruce Wayne using them as an opportunity to find out what you're doing and what you like. Like sure he can probably stalk you or hack into your phone if your socials are private. But what if you don't post? What if you're a homebody? (He can't exactly sneak in if you never leave!) And what if you don't chat about your personal life with your coworkers, so he has no clue!? Besides what better way to subtly interrogate you than with work etiquette? And better yet, it's coming straight from you. So you're telling the whole room him about yourself.
I can also just imagine him using his Brucie Wayne persona to shamelessly flirt with you during those parts. Watch him blame it on being tipsy (But don't tell anyone *wink* probably lies to you and says he had too cause of a client he was seeing earlier! You know just in case if him being drunk at work makes you feel a type of way) and he's just so sorry about that you know? How bout he treats you to dinner? As an apology of course?
#Ya have no clue how much I absolutely love the Brucie Wayne persona#Every day I thank Gotham Knights for giving us that club scene 🤌#The icebreaker question for our meeting was if you had to keep only three apps on your phone which would they be#Tiktok Tumblr & YouTube ✌️#What's your three lmao#this bitch is yapping#inspo#tagging yandere Bruce cause ig you can read it that way but tbh it's in his personality to be a busybody#like he must know everything and will def use all his resources and personas#and like makes sense you know how many partners he's had that have only been with him to expose him or turned out to be villains 😅#yandere bruce wayne#take a shot every time I say like 😗#bruce wayne x reader
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A Defense of Benny Gecko
Benny is more of a capable leader and person than people give him credit for.
Seeing as no one challenged his position as head Chairmen for 7 years and even then he only loses the position if he’s caught, killed or forced to leave. Yes, it’s also likely House wouldn’t have allowed him to be killed but he sure as hell would of found a way to remove him if he was causing too much unrest within The Tops power structure. Even Swank and Tommy don’t outright dislike him and more so are concerned with his recent secretive and shady behavior, emphasis on recent.
Taking all we know into consideration, Benny likely knew the future direction that he wanted to take Vegas but was so caught up in the plans to acquire Vegas that he didn’t think of how to make his dream a reality. Something he admits to in canon. I see this being used as the main argument that Benny doesn’t know what he’s doing at all but I see it more in the same vein as you can’t really plan something from nothing. The transformation of Vegas is a sensitive thing that he can’t really work on until he has it. The only reason he ran to the Fort prematurely is the Courier who was causing so much of a stir he would’ve likely been found out much faster, making all that planning for nothing if he didn’t take that chance.
Benny is careful (well a lot more careful than he is regularly depicted in fanon), the Courier being able to trace him was dumb luck on their part and his hair being noticed at the Fort is a realistically small oversight that even Caesar is disappointed in because he admits Benny got farther than he should’ve been allowed by his legionaries. The fact he can plan an ambush on the Courier or tries to quickly and concisely clean up lose ends that don’t lead back to him shows he’s not just acting on impulses or in the moment decisions. Or rather he’s quite good at thinking them out, whether they work depends on how you play really. This is all to say it’s 100% believable that Benny could lead an independent Vegas (house was basically setting him up to do that). If he had known explicitly that House was setting him up to replace him, he likely would’ve bought more time by getting in closer, learning more of the system to then flip House’s edge to his favor. Again something he was doing already but likely without the knowledge of House’s feelings on him personally.
No matter what, Vegas’ future was tied to Benny; House’s plans for him, having to get the chip and if he had somehow succeeded. It’s also interesting that of all the people vying for control of the dam/Vegas, Benny’s plans are the only ones actually oriented towards a new future, not a recreation of something long past.
#something something despite going against you Benny has the most in common with an independent player#he’s just like an asshole and also knows when he’s no longer in the driver seat so he leaves it to you#cause despite all his lame traits Benny got supper far in his plan and likely could’ve done it if the courier never got involved#if he didn’t have the need to run to the fort he would’ve waited to learn what the chip did and then made a more direct plan but when a big#clue to what he’s been up to cough the courier cough came he had to throw caution to the wind#this is sorta related to why house chose Benny and his plans for Benny cause likely the rest of house plans were gonna be#about getting Benny to adopt his ideals and views on Vegas before testing whether Benny could run it like him#and would’ve likely been proud of all the planning Benny did for Yes Man if it wasn’t for it being against him#all I can imagine is like Benny being more disappointed than anything with how house decided to run things and he holds nothing personal#towards house this is a necessity as house will never give up control kinda like bingo but I feel like Benny at least respected Bingo#something something bingo could’ve been a father figure making killing him more of a reason Benny would go against house cause he murders#a potential parental figure thinking it’s what he has to do for the betterment of his tribe only to feel like he led them to stagnation and#a longing for days gone by cause the guy who filled ur head with glittery promises ain’t sparkling no more#and makes the resistance to a parental house make more sense#fallout#fallout new vegas#benny gecko#benny fnv
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I feel alive, when I'm beside
La Seine,
La Seine,
La Seine
#meurgreg#limbus company#meursault lcb#gregor lcb#lcb#my art#this is once again. wifeposting.#if this looks familiar to any of you guys at all#That's cause the background/scene is heavily inspired by one of the scenes from a monster in paris#Mainly cause I used to love that movie + buge#I have no clue at all if anyone can tell what this was intended to be but it was a fun little piece to work on!#feeding meurgreg nation seeds out of my palm like they are baby birds. right now#Posted for 13/5#Or 5/13!#Since it's meurgreg day ♡♡♡♡#I love them
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My favorite thing about the tma / tmagp fandom is how people can't not make the horrors attractive
#I haven't started protocol yet but a post about needles popped up on my dash and I've been scrolling through art of them since#yes needles is what caused this post#i have no clue who they are but all of the art slays#tma#tmagp#the magnus archives#the magnus protocol#dahlia's rambling
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gave my pookie bear avery an update 😁
#thank u nene for reminding me i havent been giving avery enough attention#enzo is good an all but he doesnt need ALL of my attention#🙄🙄#I felt like I was going crazy but the gauntness?? of her cheekbones would NOT go away I have no clue what it causing it#simblr#the sims 4#sims 4 screenshots#ts4#sims 4 cas#ts4 cas#sims 4 edit#sims 4 simblr#mysims
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// I've been caught up with so much I didn't even notice till now and I get 200 isn't actually a lot but the idea that that many people have taken an interest in my silly idiots is so mind baffling--
But genuinely I appreciate everyone and I'm overall just so- grateful both to you all and the Splatoon community as a whole!
#also just- i have no clue as to why so many like my idiots lol#probs cause they spend all their time in my head i dont see whats cool about them i guess??#ask the agents#agent 4#splatoon#splatoon 2#splatoon 3#art#200
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soooo here's a ffxiv update: I finally finished the requirements to be a second storm lieutenant and got the coat! It was.. really annoying grabbing all the hunting logs. Not a fan gotta say.
But to get that new rank in the grand company I had to do... the dreaded aurum vale. And the party I ended up getting were soooo sweet omg. I ended up DC'ing halfway through the dungeon and they waited for me to come back and were so cool.
They thought I was a sprout though... and admittedly I didn't have the heart to correct them. It'd been a long day and it was late and I was tired. But one of 'em recognized Trigun and Vash Stampede! They thought it was super cool and I thought THEY were super cool :]
Also after I finished the seasonal event I ran into Mario. Pretty neat if I do say so.
#bro after aurum vale ended we stayed for a bit in the dungeon and all just chatted#it was really cool to see#man i forgot what a neat experience it is being a sprout#feels pretty good to go back through ffxiv with it#anyways i like my new coat :)#i saw there was another coat that i could get but i have to be the final level in the grand company#but ive no clue how to get it#on main i never bothered getting past this rank cause i just wanted it to get an apartment#can't even buy an apartment for vash :(#the gil cap won't let me#anyways the grand company said there wasnt another rank for me to promote too after this one#so im gonna stare longingly at that last coat#and probably end up googling how to get it tbh#FFXIV#FF14#Final Fantasy XIV#Final Fantasy 14#Vash Stampede#Trigun#Vash's Eorzean Adventure
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2010 Australian Grand Prix - Jenson Button(ft. Robert Kubica & Felipe Massa)
#this was genuinely a race of attrition in the back. 10/24 cars dnfed and i think all but 2 were technical problems#this was a really exciting race tbh i really had no clue what the podium would be#its weird cause i knew seb mark and nando didnt win it but i was so confused how they were gonna lose it? and then it was like OH JENSE OFC#jense was incredible in this race ah what a comeback#everyone thought he made a huge mistake switching to slicks so early on and then it turned out he was the strat goat#and it makes it better cause it wasnt even a call from the team! it was literally his call!!#as we all know hes a god in the wet and it was so admirable and brave of him to make such a bold call for himself and have it work out#the way he has such dominance and performance in wet races(ex canada 2011) is forever so impressive and cool to me#also!!! this race really proves to me why rly i like 2010. really close racing BUT ALSO:#its so sick that both nando and jense won their first/second race with their new team against their teammates who have been there longer#like to have both of them win with the same prestige is so satisying and emotional for me#and god i got flashbacks to aus 2009 seeing him standing on the car. its cool he won melbourne back to back#but also. this post race honestly sucked. bad tv direction bad lighting(not in their control tbf) i felt like they showed nothing well ah :#tho my fav gif is where felipe is standing on his tippy toes and jense bends down sjakjf#jenson button#robert kubica#felipe massa#f1#formula 1#2010 australian gp#we do a little bit of f1
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why is everyone having an absolutely miserable time right now the sun's not even setting before 7pm
#cause me fucking too bro#ive been on the verge of tears for like a week its like when you know youre gonna throw up and you just want to get it over with#and if im not working all im doing is zoning out or napping#im sure its burnout but also i have no fucking clue what to do when im not working dawg thats when the hat man gets you#i need someone to put me in a straightjacket or maybe. a Hug.
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first art post of the new year!!! granted, i don't share my art here that much anyway, but– shhh.
hehehehhhooo,, here's something i've been working on for 'bout a month,, albeit not consecutively– took a few,, very very long breaks in between working on this,, but i managed to finish it in the end! am i satisfied with it? .......ehhhh? not completely, but if this took any longer, it might not have seen the light of day, so like. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.
anyway,, made a little poster for my favorite fic, tommyinnit's services for villains, vigilantes, and various other vagabonds, by @scorpionoesit!!! it's really really good,,, and i've always wanted to make more art for it,, so i decided– poster! at least,, that's what it's mean to resemble,,, dkdmkdmdkd.
i will freely admit,, i'm... not the biggest fan of the fan-made logo i tried to design for it,, feels a bit boring, and could definitely have used a bit more pizazz, something to make feel more like the fic itself(what does that mean? you figure that out),,,, but– again, steam was running low,, dkdnksjs. graphic design is my passion. i do also have other complaints, but i'm afraid i already punched my one-use self-critique card,, oh well,,, dkdnkxjdkd.
regardless,, even with the flaws only i can really see,, this still turned out pretty okay!! hope you enjoy it, mx. scorpio and mx. alibi!!! and i hope everyone else has a wonderful new year!!!!
#my art#dream smp#services for vagabonds#tommyinnit fanart#tommyinnit#i don't wanna try tagging the rest of them so i'm just not gonna <3#anyway wrow i wonder who the skull guy and mysterious shadowy figure are....... could be anyone.#i was gonna try and fit in some sort of hero so i could check all the dots of everyone tommy's help#specifically either dr**m (derogatory) or phil#(was mostly leaning towards phil)#but 1) couldn't figure out a way to make it look good with the current set up#my first thought was to try moving the current characters around a bit; but then it would feel too crowded#my second thought was to have them appear from the smoke; somehow? a smoky figure?#but that only really looked good in sketch form and i didn't have the patience to figure that out properly#and 2) no clue what their designs look like. don't even know what their powers are; yet!#was also wanting to fit fundy in but it didn't work for the first reason#fun rapid fire character design facts: niki has a littol sharp tooth 'cause of the joker stuff!#i originally gave tubbo green eyes;; but i decided blue-green looked cooler#tech– [cough] i mean;; *orion's* cloak has a faint lil orion pattern on can barely see it but it's there i assure you !!!#(i tried my best for his design but i am. not the greatest at outfits;; especially hero/villain ones)#tommy has long hair bc it's *MY* art and *I* say he gets long hair. this definitely isn't canon to vagabonds i just like to do this#<- also why michael and tommy have freckles#tommy has a bit of green in his design(through the patch) due to a theory of mine :D#might have over-rendered the hair a bit but. fuck you i like it#anyway i think that's all i have to say about it? if you've actually read all these tags;;; have a cookie -> 🍪#pretend it's a peanut butter cookie#actually. no pretend it's both. you get two cookies. as a treat.#anyway have a good rest-of-your-day !!!!!!
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