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I played Genocide Jack's UTDP Events. Here are the highlights.
Hope's Peak really looked at the most famous serial killer in Japan and accepted her in as a student. Normal people pay bucketloads just to get in the reserve course but Syo gets a free acceptance cause she's good at killing.
Genocide Jack sees Kiyo and immediately profiles him as ugly.
Amazing.
Yasuhiro fails the one job he was given.
Ahhhhhh she's so cute in this scene!
You have nothing to fear Chihiro, Genocide Jack gave you a nickname, she already loves you so she won't ever hurt you.
The most serious character vs the most silliest character.
Genocide Jack teaches Sonia the Fujoshi life.
I mean yeah she says this. Byakuya very likely told her to not kill but that's not the true reason why she stopped killing. She stopped killing as she wanted to stay in Hope's Peak with all her new friends.
Trigger Happy Havoc doesn't offer one definitive answer as to why Genocide Jack stopped killing, but she's smart. She knows being in Hope's Peak and killing would get her in trouble.
I like the bit of introspection about how a killer like her got a normal life at Hope's Peak.
Cause according to society and morality, she should not have a happy life nor deserve one for all the victims she's killed. But she got one anyway with no strings attached. Jack doesn't feel guilt being here but she knows it's not something she deserves.
HOLY SHIT. Chiaki can dish out burns when you don't expect it.
Based UDG reference.
She knows who she is.
#Kirby Plays DRV3#Genocide Jack#genocider syo#Korekiyo Shinguji#Byakuya Togami#Yasuhiro Hagakure#Chihiro Fujisaki#Izuru Kamukura#Sonia Nevermind#Gundham Tanaka#Usami#chiaki nanami#Mukuro Ikusaba#Maki Harukawa#danganronpa#ndrv3#utdp#ultimate talent development plan
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LATE NIGHTS ⋆。°✩
5. Storm ✧˚ ༘ ⋆。˚
featuring : jj maybank x kook!reader
summary : After last night’s tension with JJ and Rafe, you just wanted to disappear, but Rafe demanded you to come to a party, which you couldn't afford to refuse even though that's all your heart wanted as you knew how bad it would be for you...
words count : 2.5k
warnings : drug and alcohol usage, angst, violence, addiction, cheating, etc.
a/n : This is the 5th part of the serie !! Enjoy <3
That morning, you felt sick to your stomach. Sarah had gone to take a shower, but you sat on your bed, staring at Rafe’s text. The sight of it alone was enough to make you nauseous. It made you feel miserable, but you couldn’t afford to refuse his invitation. So, with a shaky hand, you texted him back a simple “ok.”
You were stressed. For once, Rafe would actually be with you at the party. He wouldn’t be off in some room with another girl. No, this time, he’d be right next to you, watching your every move. The thought of it was unbearable. And as if things couldn’t get any worse, JJ was going to be there too.
You stayed on your bed, lost in thought, until Sarah emerged from the bathroom.
“Hey, Y/N, you okay?” she asked. Her hair was damp, her usual outfit thrown together with practiced ease. Her lips curved into a faint smile, but her eyes gave her away it was like she was in a rush.
Before you could answer, a loud honking interrupted you. Frowning, you walked to the window and peeked out. John B’s van was parked outside, and his friends were piled in, waiting.
You shot Sarah a confused look, but she quickly held up a hand to cut you off. “I’ll explain later, but I have to go now. Please grab my stuff and bring it tonight, okay? Love you!”
Before you could even process what was happening, she was gone.
“Uh… okay,” you muttered to yourself. Your head spun. What was going on?
The day was suffocating, the hours crawling by with cruel deliberation. You couldn’t bring yourself to move, not even to grab a drink or smoke by the window. Your body felt heavy, weighed down by dread, your mind spinning in loops you couldn’t break. All you could do was lay in bed, staring blankly at the screen, movies flickering without meaning.
By the time 5 p.m. rolled around, the walls felt like they were closing in. You had no choice—you had to get up, had to move.
Dragging yourself to the mirror, you barely recognized your own reflection. Your skin was dull, your eyes sunken with exhaustion. You couldn’t care enough to pick a real outfit, so you grabbed the first thing your hand landed on: denim shorts and a white bikini top. You smeared on some makeup, shaky hands smudging the eyeliner, but you didn’t bother fixing it.
The phone buzzed violently on your nightstand, dragging you out of your spiral. You stared at the screen for a moment, your heart sinking when you saw his name. You didn’t want to answer—but you knew he wouldn’t stop. With a deep breath, you pressed the green button.
“Rafe,” you said, your voice flat.
“Where the fuck are you?” His voice was already sharp, cutting through you like glass.
“At home,” you replied, trying to keep your tone even.
“You were supposed to be here already.”
“You were supposed to pick me up,” you said, the exhaustion creeping into your words.
There was a pause on the line, followed by the sound of him sniffing. It made your stomach churn.
“Do you think I have time to play chauffeur, Y/N?” His voice was low now, edged with something darker. “Jesus Christ, you can’t do anything for yourself, can you?”
“Are you seriously doing this right now? You’re the one who forgot—”
“Don’t fucking start with me,” he snapped, his voice rising. “You love this, don’t you? Acting like a victim all the time. Like I’m the bad guy. Guess what, love? You are the problem. You’re pathetic.”
You blinked, your breath hitching.
“What the hell is wrong with you?” you whispered, anger and hurt mixing into something volatile.
“What’s wrong with me? What’s wrong with you?” he snarled. “Do you think anyone else would put up with your shit? Your little tantrums, your moods? Nobody cares about you, Y/N. Not Sarah, not those Pogues, and sure as hell not me if you keep acting like this.”
“Then leave!” you shouted, your voice breaking. “If I’m so goddamn unbearable, leave!”
There was another sniff on the other end of the line, followed by a humorless laugh.
“Oh, I will, love. But not before you drag your sorry ass here. And don’t you dare try anything tonight, or we’re done. You hear me? Done.”
“I—” you started, but the line went dead.
You stared at your phone, your chest heaving, the words you couldn’t say burning in your throat.
It coursed through you, a fiery rush that burned away everything else. Grabbing your bottle of pills, a few joints, and your car keys, you stormed out.
By the time you got to the party, the music was thumping, and the house was packed. You didn’t care. You didn’t want to see Rafe, didn’t want to see anyone. Slipping through the chaos, you headed upstairs.
It was Lucy’s house. You knew it well, knew the quiet spots but most of all knew how to disappear. The upstairs bathroom was perfect. Locking the door behind you, you dumped the pills onto the counter, crushed them into neat lines, and inhaled. The burn hit hard, sharp and immediate, but the numbness came quicker. Your heart raced, your mind blurred.
The bathroom door burst open so hard it slammed against the wall, making you flinch.
“Hey.”
The voice was familiar, but you were too dazed to place it. Blinking, you turned—and the sight of JJ standing in the doorway hit you like a bucket of ice water.
“JJ,” you breathed, your voice shaky.
“What the fuck are you doing?” His eyes were sharp
You wiped at your nose, trying to compose yourself. “Nothing.”
“Nothing?” He stepped inside, closing the door behind him. “Yeah, sure. Nothing looks a lot like snorting shit alone in a bathroom at a party.”
You crossed your arms, meeting his glare with defiance. “What are you even doing here, JJ?”
“Looking for beer, not a breakdown,” he shot back. “But I guess you’d call this fate, huh?”
You scoffed, leaning against the sink. “Oh, spare me the lecture.”
“I’m not lecturing you,” he said, his voice dropping slightly. “I’m just wondering how someone who acts so untouchable is actually this fucking reckless.”
You stiffened, the words cutting deeper than you wanted to admit. “What do you care?”
“I don’t,” he snapped, but his eyes betrayed him. “I mean—fuck, Y/N. Do you have any idea what you’re doing to yourself? Or is this just another game to you?”
“Don’t act like you know me,” you said, stepping closer. “You don’t. You never did.”
“Oh, I know you,” he said, his voice low, almost a growl. “I know you push people away before they can hurt you. I know you can’t stand being vulnerable for even a second because you think it makes you weak. But you know what’s really weak, Y/N? This. Hiding in a bathroom, getting high like that’s gonna fix anything.”
His words hung in the air, heavy and stinging. But instead of retreating, you closed the gap between you, your faces now inches apart.
“Am I weak, JJ?” you whispered, your voice soft but laced with challenge. “Or are you just scared of me?”
His breath hitched, his eyes flicking to your lips for the briefest moment.
“Scared of you?” he said, his voice quieter now, tinged with something you couldn’t quite place. “You wish.”
Your lips curved into a faint smirk, but before either of you could say anything else, the moment shattered.
“Little bitch, you are, Y/N.”
Rafe’s voice cut through the air like a whip, and JJ stepped back, his expression hardening as Rafe stormed in.
“What, Rafe? I’m the bitch here?” you said, your voice sharp, not even turning to look at him as you wiped at your nose again.
He didn’t answer, and didn't waste time. He grabbed your arm and spun you around, slamming you back against the wall. His hand gripped your waist hard enough to bruise, his face inches from yours.
“Look at me,” he growled, his voice low and dangerous. “What the fuck were you doing with that Pogue?”
“Do you need to know every move I make?” you snapped, meeting his glare head-on.
“Yes,” he spat, his grip tightening. “Because you’re mine. Do you hear me? You’re fucking mine.”
“I’m not yours, Rafe!” you screamed, shoving at his chest. “I’m not your property, and you don’t get to control me!”
His eyes darkened, his face twisting in fury. “You’re gonna regret saying that.”
“Fuck you,” you shot back, your voice trembling with rage. “This is the end, Rafe. Never talk to me again. Go back to your little flings and hope they’re stupid enough to put up with your bullshit.”
“You don’t get to leave me,” he snarled, but you were already shoving past him, slamming the door behind you as you disappeared into the chaos of the party.
a/n : I know it's been a while since I haven't posted but I'm trying my best I promise, love you !!
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Taglist : @immyowndefender @imsiriuslyreal @yvesoull1 @yesshewrites1
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which of the Ms, in order, would you feel the safest being around
1- Remus. The guy is a total coward, with just knowing that you don’t have to get near him on a full moon, there's no danger. Also, he’s the typical “nice guy” who, because he plays the victim, won’t do anything inappropriate unless you make the mistake of getting romantically involved with him, and that’s something that would never happen.
2- Sirius. He’s impulsive, unpredictable, and has some very sadistic sides, but at least he doesn’t go around blackmailing girls to go out with him. I feel safer with a guy who could clearly burn down a club for fun than with one who is capable of blackmailing me into accepting a date. Also, Sirius is the type who, if you see him starting to spiral, you just leave him alone to deal with it, you know? He’s someone you can see coming from a mile away. And I have several dysfunctional friends who cause chaos all the time, so it's all good.
3- James. I’m sorry, but I see him as the typical guy who drools over you all night, and if you get too drunk, he doesn’t care if you’re wasted, he still tries to kiss you. Zero trust with that guy. Definitely a potential aggressor. I’m not staying with him without my friends, NOT A CHANCE.
4- Peter. I’d say James is the worst, but Peter is a traitor, he could be your best friend and then throw you off a bridge, you know? But honestly, I’d trust Peter about as much as I’d trust James. I put him fourth because he seems like a psychopath, just saying.
#marauders#the marauders#marauders era#the marauders era#moony wormtail padfoot and prongs#marauders headcanons#the marauders headcanons#marauders imagines#the marauders imagines#james potter#sirius black#remus lupin#peter pettigrew
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Hi here^^ (because I am still polite). Remember me? Ff7simp The girl you pretended to be friends with, whom you trashtalked to like 4 people and you made your toxic friend/secret lover/venusoneechan cyberbully me just because you could not admit you lost interest to a fandom? XD As I will leave social networks to focus on real things, I allow myself to comment you one last time. ^^ it is funny how in 2021, I actually loved your art (fanfics, fanarts) and how much I tried to convince you your arts were great and you shall never give up on trying (oh. You will say you did the same to me and you DID I will not deny that. But you decided to get a bad memory and minimise I did too because you wanted to portray me as a toxic mf to your friends lol). Anyway now that I rewatch it, I realize how lame it was. Not the art itself indeed. You have talent. Really. I think you do have. But it is lame because how awful of a person you actually are. I cared for you first and I think you cared for me too and that is why I cannot believe a person who view another as a friend would do things like that. You never apologized and you always denied what you did to me. Yes. If you think I blamed you for not reading my stories well surprise. It was not for that. It was just because in our last hours of friendship you talked about yourself yourself yourself. You pretended there were a glitch who left messages in "Seen" in order to lie about why you did not talk to me when I needed your help. And when I asked your help you were like "oh I draw. Good night". Okay what a good friend you were. And thats not only that. Talking trash about me to people I did not know about our dramas to make yourself look like a stupid victim was sad indeed. Allowing your stupid friend Venusoneechan who I think is a giant troll to attack me and call me a piece of shit was sad indeed. If there is a piece of shit here it is you two. Saying I was the one who cyberbullied you in public and accusing me of things I did not do (telling me I deprived you of sleep and saying I acted like your so called abusive boyfriend lol…wow. i never did that). Anyway I am not sure you were really abused indeed with how much a jerk and how much you play victim here. However you know. I do not get angry at you. I feel pity for you. Apparently venusoneechan is your sole friend. It is sad you have nothing in real life. It is sad you will never finish your stories indeed or other arts. I finished mine. I chose to delete all coz I want to move on with real life. Something I feel you will never get coz you will probably never be happy and coz there is no real friend online. I am sorry. Not about what I did (even if i regret things I could tell you and I wish things would have got better between us) but I am sorry for you. Really. Anyway. Try getting happiness and stop cyberbullying others. Do not answer to me. I will not read. Goodbye.
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Insufferable Protagonists Winners Round 1
Propaganda why Evan Hansen is insufferable:
"just. oh my god. i cant put it into words. hes horrible im sure the rest of the world can find better ways to explain it than me"
"he lies to a grieving family about having been their dead son’s best friend. he does a bunch of patently awful things to either keep up this lie or benefit from it. he is portrayed as the good guy oh poor little guy he just has anxiety THE ENTIRE TIME"
"Lying creep"
"Lies about having been friends with a suicide victim so he can get in the pants of said victim's sister. The narrative excuses it and gives Evan no consequences for his actions because he's uwu anxious sadboi. What more is there to say? Other than the fact Ben Platt looked far too old to play a teenage boy so the film version is downright disturbing."
"Oh my god he’s such a douche. He’s presented as a good guy while manipulating and lying to the family of a guy who just committed suicide. He decides to do this because he wants to fuck this dead kid’s sister. Ridiculous. I hate him"
Propaganda why Jimmy is insufferable:
"The most chillingly real depiction of one of those men that think the world owes them everything. He's a rapist, a misogynist, abelist, self-centered, abusive, terrible friend and person that gets everyone killed because he was big mad about being laid off. It shocks me that there are apparently people out there that play the game and like him. He's so evil, but never in a way that makes him cartoonish, and that makes him all the more terrible. The game lays it out itself: he won't take responsibility for anything. He is never the villain in his own eyes. Scumbag."
"Tbh he's not just insufferable. He's disgusting. I can't even list all the horrible things he did because they would need multiple trigger warnings. He thinks that he's so high and mighty to the point where he betrays his own captain so that he can take his place, and then blames his actions and the ship crashing on said captain, who was actually trying to save them. So all of the crew died in one way or another (because of Jimmy's actions) thinking that their captain betrayed them when really if was him. And a quick Google search can tell you all the really nasty shit that he did. So not only is he insufferable, he's also just a horrible human being."
"Listen, I'm not even in the fandom and I know what his ass did. Screw this guy"
"Bro never takes responsibility for anything he did. Assuming he even acknowledges it *vaguely motions at what he did to Anya*"
"SA, causing a ship to crash, murder and elongating his friend's suffering in a cryopod for 20 years"
"He's literally the worst. He's a rapist, he framed his friend for attempted murder-suicide after getting him mutilated, and he either directly or indirectly killed everyone else. He's such an unreliable narrator that it's difficult to tell how the others of the Tulpar crew actually are because he sees everyone as beneath him."
"rape, murder, just generally being an asshole"
"LITERALLY A RAPIST"
#evan hansen#dear evan hansen#jimmy mouthwashing#mouthwashing#insufferable protagonist poll#insufferable protagonist tournament#tournament poll
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ughhhh being the bad cop sucks
#tw vent#i have a friend who is playing the victim#and i care too much about them to let them keep living like that#but i HATE being harsh on people#bc i know what it feels like to have done smth wrong and be upset abt the way you’re treated afterwards#but like…..#sometimes u RLY need a reality check!!!#and apparently i’m the only bitch who was gonna do it 😞#i wanna throw my phone in the ocean#i don’t wanna see their response 😭😭#wish me luck yall#venus talks
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I think a big misunderstanding is the power people give Curly to actually change things about the way the pony express operates or could’ve done things on the Tulpar.
We are talking about a company that docks pay for bad synergy despite mandated psych evals that should tell which staff members would work well together, only allots for 5 hours of sleep despite having literally no other tasks to truly do and locks all resources behind the access of one person. The last one is likely to manage resources and make it easier to justify collective punishment and blaming one person for it; someone needs something in “excess” or the captain gives in? It’s all on them your pay is docked. Instant resentment.
It’s insidious how the company works, it’s by design to distract you from coming after them, to force tensions to line their own pockets. With all the restrictions and forced interactions, altercations are bound to happen. 5 hours of sleep a day, limited sources of entertainment, no real tasks… the monotony alone would cause bad cabin fever, mix that with just only one absolute mediator and you get the exact environment that allows shit like in the game to happen.
The idea he could just complain and try to throw his weight around to get them to dig into their pocket for the crews comfort is laughable and misses the predatory and dehumanizing aspect of capitalism the Pony Express represents. Curly was and is still just another asset to them. Being a top show pony doesn’t mean he’s anywhere close to the actual top. He is the top of the working ladder, not whoever’s in corporate, he wouldn’t even be on the bottom step unlike what Jimmy perceives. The resounding recommendations he would get are almost mocking as they throw him out like nothing just like the rest. Being a shitty fucking company, how much do you bet they’d mean anything anyways, especially since he wanted to leave the field all together.
He made a fuss and they didn’t listen, he says he should’ve done more but you can tell he knows it wouldn’t have changed anything. Jobs like this are willing to make a sacrifice if it means even a penny more. Curly makes a bigger fuss they likely would’ve just found an “unrelated” reason to fire him, hired a more pliable guy or, terrifyingly, promoted Jimmy. The company was failing, going to shut down whether anything happened on the ship or not. But knowing that they were shutting down and that everyone, including him, would be out of a job with this being their last paycheck, he had to factor in not destroying the last bit of their financial stabilities combined with every other issue on the vessel and his own. He gets another cryopod or locks and then he has to break to them that they are not only fired but there will be substantial cuts to their paychecks due to the “upgrades” (things that already should’ve been in place on their part) on top of anything else that could be docked along the way.
You can blame him for saying it so early into the trip but then again, if he mentioned it later who’s to say it wouldn’t have been worse? On the capitalism side alone how would people in a galaxy away from home, out of a job and already stir crazy react? Don’t get me started on how Jimmy would have reacted if he realized he only had two days left to fix what would be a very hard to miss “problem” in his head…
I can’t even consider explaining this as devils advocate because it’s just facts of the world we and they live in and factors that heavily affected the situation. People are just so quick to make claims on the ease of the choices when P.E literally makes it hard to choose to do anything but suck it up.
#this is also like a sort of point that while I wanted Curly to do more for Anya I realized he would have to jeaporsiE the crews safety in#some way like if they needed the cryopods one person would be left without one and like it would be curly he’d offer but don’t think any of#them would be happy or feel okay with letting him die over a rapist? he kills Jimmy and now he has to stand trial and be arrested for murder#because it’s not self defense or manslaughter like they could obviously lie but he wouldn’t let them do that in case of a sort of black box#or guilt on their mind specifically with Daisuke who would likely be kept out of the loop not to mention it’s a dead body with a limited#likely recycled air supply so again he’s getting tried for murder and they are down a cryopod#not to mentions again the fact that you need a copilot like I know like aviation law and shit is crazy and like not common knowledge#but you bed a second set of eyes or someone to trade off with so you don’t loose ur concentration or doze and crash#like they don’t just sit their and do nothing like Jimmy probably did some of the time cause Curly likely didn’t want to make him#cause like pissed off and spiteful Jimmy manning the controls even if just helping is not something he wants to deal with and risk their#lives but i digress I genuinely think the biggest flaw of Curly’s in the situation is being a man who could not handle or understand the#emotional gravity of what Anya experienced especially at the hands of someone who he was also#emotonal/mentally mistreated by and wanted to so badly to believe was his friend and improving#like he did not offer her enough or the proper emotional/physical security he could’ve as a captain nor friend but in that it goes right#back to the systems at play that make it so he isn’t meant or supposed to understand so it can’t be perpetuated and blah blah blah how many#times do I have to explain systematic oppression to certain groups in this fandom and it isn’t cut n dry of good guys bad guys and victims#as outliers of the tow categories l#mouthwashing#captain curly#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#the pony express#The Tulpar
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I knoww I love btikm so much😭❤️ listened to dream state, looping it rn (love it, love overdosing on byler best friend angst) also the WHOLE song is them, entire thing, in general, it’s after Will’s left for Lenora and Mike’s remembering their friendship and then what it was like when Will was missing and presumed dead (and now how life’ll feel incomplete without Will) !! (I’m so excited about them being sad–) (not *sad* sad,,) (added to my byler playlist) (also helpp Mike thinking he’s the only queer kid😭 not like other guys™)
I think Robin n Vickie also played those like. trumpets. at his match !! and Steve is awesome, and SO would love to get one of his (honorary) kids into sport. didn’t Lucas go on a whole hunt with Jason for Eddie tho? I didn’t like the Eddie betrayal… oh yeah I get it, having multiple interests is important (me with my hyperfixation in the corner👀) but Lucas was always in his own skin. like in s1 when he went off to find Will on his own and didn’t let other people take him from his goal. and with the water bottle when he dribbled back into it cos he’s so unself-conscious😭 (don’t need ya validation🥴🤟)
they did kill the other poc as Vecna’s victim (in the scenes I’ve seen, he and Lucas don’t seem that close tho?) (also that scene made me kinda like Jason cos he was holding his friend’s dead body and looking so miserable and gutted and I was like… bro acc cares bout his friends… aww friendship😭) but I suppose basketball’s associated with Black people? like, 70.4% of the players are Black. (0.2% are Asian😭) maybe it’s a cultural thing? wait I googled it, medium says that lower-class African-American people used to play basketball a lot on the streets, and then basketball companies opened opportunities up to Black people way before other sports. then genetically, Black people are faster and more energetic (so their genes suit the sport) (which suggests Lucas learned from his parents?) data says that most Black kids are encouraged by their parents (who were encouraged by their parents) and also in the media, where they see athletes that (finally) look like them playing basketball. in conclusion I love basketball as a way for Lucas to connect to his culture.
lmaoo I’m always nervous bout whether or not kids younger than me actually like me😭 also I want them to look up to me. (in physics today I was doing my practical in a yr 8 class and was so scared bc I wanted them to think I was smart and a good role model😭) (I’m literally a foot taller than them, why am I scared.)
no but it is kudos to stranger things for demonstrating the fact that parental abuse exists for these reasons:
ok but post-lil Henry killing his parents, I don’t like *Vecna.* I don’t like how this monster is killing children he doesn’t even know :( the ones who need love and care :(( so I specifically think *Henry* could’ve been redeemed. but Vecna is no way. that’s why I say Henry when I talk bout him??
art be dragging your exams for too long✋
(thanks for the tag !!)
hiii rue :)
I hope you’ve had a lovely week so far 🥰
i’ve had a weird week (specifically a very weird day) so, I thought maybe i’d spread some kindness 💖
I never expected so many honest conversations on this little app, I always hoped i’d make fandom friends somehow, but I didn’t think i’d get one like you ✨
You inspired me to indulge in my creative freedom and write fanfics again. I had the time but no ideas, before you. It might’ve taken nine months but I wrote again, and I missed it. I don’t want to wait another nine months to write anything else. And I won’t have to because you continue to inspire me :)
Also you’re genuinely so lovely, you have faith in people and the world, and whether you value your stubbornness or not, I truly do. In a world that feels unstable right now, you have a moral voice guiding you that I wish others had.
Plus you’re open and you listen and you’re willing to consider your view and consider if you’re right, which is the most important part to being stubborn really. In my opinion.
And you know, you’re insanely creative, it’s so cool how ur brain works and I cannot say that enough.
That’s… all I guess :) SORRY im not as good at popping up in ur inbox with cute little messages like you do with meeeee <3
i adore talking to u
LOVE U RUE 🥰
hi glue!!!
thank youu🥰 I've had a pretty average week to be honest, how was yours, good weird or bad weird?
I never expected to make online friends in general (I mean, stranger danger, safety first etc. etc.) but then I met you and slowly I was like... hold on... you're not a stranger anymore so WE'RE FRIENDS AND I LOVE YOU AND I'M SO HAPPY YOU DECIDED TO TRUST ME TOO
your fanfics are ALL YOU, amazing like YOU. always do the things you love❤️ and I'm honoured you take inspiration from me😭🫶
I'm not that lovely😭 it's because we're texting, right, usually I never think before I speak but with you I dooo. meet me when I'm stubborn about the wrong thing:
(flips sides like a massive hypocrite, "who me? no, I don't think so... really, I would never say that, I've always been so morally correct-")
don't worry glue, our world is stable because you are the glue to my stick and we STICK :p
(^my creativity at it's finest🫡)
WDYM you're not good at popping up with cute messages?! this is so sweet, it can't get sweeter, thank you so muchh!! you're always spreading kindness💖 by existing and sharing your beliefs and being willing to change and listening and always trying to be the best person you can be, because you are the best person, and you inspire me to be more generous and think outside of the box and rant for as long as I like about whatever passions I have- in conclusion you are everything and more, WDYM you're not good at cute messages, your favourite emoji is: 🥰
AND I USED TO DISLIKE THAT EMOJI.
but now I love it because of you. thanks for that✋
I LOVE YOU AND YOUR BRAIN🥰 (look at how I now excessively use that emoji. I'm changed😭)
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Lrb dear god, this reminded me of that time when Alfred-chan got sooooo mad at my post explaining why fans should respect bisexual headcanons for Maria and Malenia instead of pretending like they're canonically lesbians and that they get oppressed and erased by mxf ships with them. They kept vagueing that post for like a MONTH in their blog including in tags under reblogs of Maria fanart, passively-aggressively changed their url to character+sexuality to "spite" me and then even made a sockpuppet account to start shit with me in the comments.
They deactivated when me and Val completely obliterated their "you cultivate lesbiphobic following by telling people why they should respect all sexuality headcanons instead of acting cultish or assuming their experiences and stereotypes equal canon confirmation" garbage with actual facts and logic tho but I screenshotted everything fjthfgfj (I learned to document everything the hard way after they've changed the she/they pronouns to they/they pronouns ONLY to accuse me of misgendering, so thank you for making me wiser I guess 😎). Even more vile, as they, a white person, larped as an Arab in that sockpuppet to hold even MORE "privilege" against me in discussion gjtjfh Because for them race, gender or sexuality are just badges of honor and dishonor, they don't see these as traits of actual human beings. And Dr Eugene X, who worked with them and weaponized her race to accuse everyone who disagreed with her of racism, didn't bat an eye at such a terrible act too?? As usual, rules are not for their friends, lol
It is not even the worst thing Alfred did, and yet all of this just, just, JUST because I wrote a point on why bisexual headcanon people did nothing wrong and there is no ground to claim something is canon when it isn't. 🤦♂️ Like, they were soooo convinced that I hated lesbian headcanons and that I'd feel angry if they called Lady Maria a lesbian, when what I was angry at is this exact toxic behavior in the fandom. No matter how much you like a headcanon, don't be a bitch about it. Maria doesn't """belong""" to any gender or sexuality, she belongs to anyone who likes her and is invested in her complexity as a character!!!
Yet, apparently, common Malenia simps / Finlay shippers are no better than common Maria simps / Mariadeline shippers. Just, wild how after shit like this, many people have the guts to claim that it is "sexist redditbros" who are the biggest problem of creators in the fandom. 🤦♂️ They'd actually blush if they encountered what such self-proclaimed "feminists" do to their own (!!!) over headcanons. 🤦♂️🤦♂️🤦♂️
#also fuck anna for thinking shit like this and way worse things alfred did is not as evil and toxic as#as me snapping at her for DEFENDING alfred#wiki: I can excuse stalking harassment cultish shunning bullying fantomette lying slander weaponizing identity but-#-I draw the line at katy getting too emotional when I admit as much uwu#granted she did admit that the reason for this is because alfred didnt concern her personally#she is probably the person I'll forgive last in this situation if ever#as much as I hate alfred they clearly have no empathy and compassion and lie for medical reasons#it isn't my assumptions they often reblogged this shit#I know mental illness is not an excuse for so much harassment for variety of reasons but-#-why would someone want to change if they medically can't feel guilt for their actions?#I feel bad for them and they hopefully will get help#as for Eugene idk... they seem to be a typical brainwashed youth#such people either change with age or get strongly bitten in the ass and get reality check#granted people who still follow her did admit she goes head hunting and then plays victim#as well as they only keep in touch because they worry they'll be dragged down if they are not at her good side#rather than because they like her posts (which are so untrue to BB that she can just make OCs anyways)#choir boy is literally just mindless sheep that didnt even have dignity to make it personal#hence is the name#I am sure he is lovely in his own circle it just doesn't concern me or my friend#but anna?#she knew what she was doing and has no excuse#fandomry rambles#it is also funny how they are four cringe failures and us are four based people#best AND worst groups come in four lol#also I know you all are dying to know how I can still hold grudges year later right?#it is hard to explain#I live normally and recover and not think of it but then scar starts to hurt#like you know how physical scars can react to weather or shit? mental can too
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look at the way i ride ~
#lyss.vent#been feeling very much on the edge lately#of what? i’m not really sure#a classic Meltdown ™ maybe#i have a therapist i talk to weekly now and that’s been a huge help fs#but it’s still like#my boat has a hole#too many to count actually#i’m constantly dumping out the water but it doesn’t matter yk?#i’m still sinking#there are so many things i should be thankful for#friends and family that care about me#i have hobbies that i enjoy#a good consistent job that pays well#i’m working 40 hrs a week and making enough to save monthly#this is what it means to be successful right ?#i should be happy…i have everything i need…#yet i feel rundown and empty#i’ve also realized that there are horrible ugly things that still live deep inside my bones#why do i blame myself for them when i was just there? when i was the victim?#i’m the only one who can save myself from it all so why can’t i?#what’s even worse is that i have to watch from the sidelines while life single-handedly fucks up my loved ones too#i’m so powerless in all aspects of my life#everything’s out of my control#and it hurts so much :(((#tbh old me would’ve given up by now but that dumb bitch isn’t in the driver’s seat anymore#she’s just along for the ride now but she won’t give me the aux#tho new me is stubborn and has something to prove so i’ll keep driving :3 vroom vroommm#i’ll play my own music soon#i love queue ☆〜(ゝ。∂)
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everyone look at these blurry but lovingly taken pics of rashawn scott performing in Drunk Little Shop of Horrors (ft. grant o’brien getting eaten by audrey II in the background)
thats all i wanted to say; have a great day
(full show + some fun BTS on official channel in above link)
#i have been and remain down bad for her. send help#also grant killed it in this show too#watching this convinced me that he needs to be on play it by ear#battling a lot of technical difficulties in this recording but still tons of fun#and also the performers who played the audreys god damn#(i don’t know stuff about the current musical scene so I didn’t recognize anyone else but maybe other people will)#so many moments from this show that will haunt me forever#‘and that guy with three dicks; he was my friend!’#audrey ii ominously/sexily dancing at her soon to be victims#‘FUCK 👏 THE 👏 PLANT’#what do i even tag this as
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I kinda really hate how I've been treated throughout my life
#Entire life of abuse and neglect and mistreatment only to always be told none of it happened. To the point where I really struggle with#thinking that I made it all up or that I'm overreacting or faking or playing the victim constantly#I honestly try my best to move forward and I want to be happy. I see absolutely zero point in wallowing. Others can if they wish‚ but I wan#to enjoy my life at some point. I think I've gotten better the past year- In great part of my dearly beloved- but it's still so#deeply difficult. Interactions so commonly feel like a trap and there is the perpetual sense of being watched and monitored#I often feel like a prey animal that is cornered and my only options are to take it in fear and die or to lash out and hurt the other party#I think I'm not as mean as others in this system though LMFAO. I'm not like Roxas who once compared a friend of ours to our parents during#an argument.#<- Not to say Roxas is a bad person. He's a severely hurt and traumatized kid who kinda only knows how to lash out to protect himself#Sighs. It's complicated. I do not wish to be someone angry like Roxas or Lexi. But they actually talk back and stand up for themselves. And#the system as a whole. Whereas I fawn and take it and then wonder why I always want to kill myself 24/7#I don't really know how to speak up for myself because it really feels like every single time I do (Or just voice an opinion confidently in#a group) it goes horribly wrong and people get upset and angry with me#And then people being angry at me causes major fucking spirals because it reminds me of my mother and then I start feeling like I'm going t#be fucking berated and have a metal crate thrown at me again 😭😭😭 Or get kicked out of the car or given the silent treatment etc etc etc#Which is a me problem I need to get over my fear of people being mad at me because it's an inevitable fact of life but. Hashtag severely#traumatized and still actively being traumatized by multiple parties#And also being in my own head and existing is very fucking harmful! Being in a mind that is so aggressive and destructive... It's difficult#to just 'get over' my issues‚ you know? So whenever they come up I try to just isolate so I don't cause any issues#<- Unless it's my histrionic stuff acting up. Then I'm complaining like hell because it feels actually fucking painful to not be receiving#attention during those breakdowns#Anyways! I kinda fucking suck and hate myself right now and want to kms. But that's how I am 24/7 so whatever#tw suicide#⛪️
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the way everyone has been annoying me lately
#I've been picking up fights with my family since the beginning of the year or maybe even since last November#it's so exhausting#having bpd really means getting irritated and mad whenever your family starts talking#i don't even try to talk to them about my mental state anymore because they don't understand me at all#They think I'm just making it up and playing the victim#So funny when people who are neurodivergent dehumanize others for being neurodivergent. Like pick a side bitch lmao#They really pretend to care about mental health and are like “mEnTaL hEAlTH mAtTeRs” and hate people with personality disorders#DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE#I hate my brain I hate my body I hate my family I hate my friends I hate everyone I hate-#rambles#actually bpd#bpd thoughts
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//I’d like to remind everyone that, while rather quiet and anti-social, Lawrence has still killed people and raped their corpses. Thanks.
#//Hes babygirl…… but that’s not all he is.#//I hate to put it SO BLUNTLY but it seems like I HAVE to sometimes.#//Hes just as much a monster as anyone else from this F’in game.#//Im not gonna sugar coat some of my interactions just cause you don’t like how I play him.#//This is unrelated to the blog. Was spoken to a certain way by a friend and I’m :)#//He kills people. And then mutilates them.#//Hes a self-righteous prick who thinks he can do no wrong simply cause he’s ‘misunderstood’ and a ‘victim’#//So…. He’s going to be a self-righteous prick !!!#//U G H .#ooc#screamo-mun#//okay I have to get back to work now
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most cathartic moment of my life was last night when me and my sister were yapping to each other about our least favourite pieces of media ever and i showed her ONE scene from DOD3 after bitching about it for like a million hours and she was just "okay i see why you think every dod3 fan is a horrible person what the fuck is this"
#gu6chan's musings#the scene was fives death btw#i was talking about how dod3 fans would try and advertise the game to me and that's how my initial skepticism began to take hold#bc i went from 'i hear theres a THIRD game! can't wait to play it' to 'dont bring that pos up to me' after like 4 conversations#and the one that REALLY sealed the deal was having a slight idea about dito and fives relationship and then someone brought that scene up to#show how 'funny' dod3 was which first of all#HOW IS THAT A GOOD POINT YOU WANNA ADVERTISE TO SOMEONE WHO LIKED THE APOCALYPTIC NATURE OF THE FIRST TWO????#Anyways i was like 'wait isn't he an sa victim? why would they place a joke here' and they got quiet real fuckin quick#but yeah as far as THIS goes#i was yapping about how awful i felt for judging ppl by what GAMES they play (DOD3) and how it's not a good metric to judge ppls entire#personality on but somehow ended up working REALLY well given - with NO exaggeration - every dod3 fan i let in ended up being a VERY#specific brand of edgy annoying anime fan who banks off of reminding others of how 'damaged' and 'traumatised' they are every 3 seconds#and also somehow are always SWERFs????#in general awful noisy ppl who always started some shit till i was like 'you know i think im recognizing a pattern im gonna try something'#and it was WRONG but it worked????? when i brought up that our friends ex playing drakengard 3 was literally my first big red flag from her#my sister was like 'I GET IT OMG' bc she was always suprised at how quickly i was like 'this bitch is bad news'#and the answer to how i learned that was a ps3 game from 2013. i still am like 'is it right tho???' but it hasn't failed me so far so?????
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Something something perhaps the reason Curly lacks a truly undamaged ID where his face is visible is to represent how much damage Jimmy had already affected on him throughout their relationship and the way Curly obscured part of who he is and what he stood to unintentionally cater to this toxic influence in his life.
#I think there is something to say that most people draw post crash curly and may not have every drawn him pre crash#and I think it says something that we only really look at the characters substantially in relation to Jimmy and not their own merits#unless we are discussing how J I M M Y mischarcterizes them cause in this#since we don’t assign a face and identify to Curly’s actions outside of Jimmy until the end their is the question of how much we are viewing#them as separate entities rather than intertwined actions cause while the flipping#of who we play at shows them and parallels and in separable in terms of the story going down#they couldn’t be drastically more different in thinking and you only really realize that at the birthday scene where Curly felt the need to#take responsibility for something while Jimmy just felt the need to take#this is also more so me thinking about all the reason people think Curly and Jimmy could be friends but they are missing the point of Jimmy#and his dynamic there is nothing severely weird or sinister about Curly or his intentions it’s that he’s well meaning to a fault#he’s an average dude having a mid life crisis and Jimmy is a guy that takes advantage of good intentions like the idea#that curly has to be like Jimmy in some way personality humor morally is the exact sort of projection Jimmy wants#to happen and does like it’s the sad and real case that sometimes people just have friends like Jimmy that they can’t cut off for one reason#or another like it’s not highly philosophical people are friends with objective assholes but it’s less about them#and more about the person feeling some obligation to stay like I feel like crafting him into#being more morally grey is to just make it easier to be angrier or think someone with more of a backbone#could of done something but it’s not even that he was spineless he was just too distracted and sometimes that feel like cowardice like even#Swansea waited it’s just the sad truth of how people avoid people like Jimmy or setting them off#sometimes it just does more harm than good I just am so bored with all the takes#acting like there was a perfect man on that ship and that any one outside of Anya knew the exact type of guy Jimmy#was from the get go like the point is other men wouldn’t in rape culture but women and their victims already know#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#throwing rocks at Jimmy
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