#bc i know what it feels like to have done smth wrong and be upset abt the way you’re treated afterwards

[twilightakiishi]

ughhhh being the bad cop sucks

[angelanderson]

I really want an Ellabs x reader fic of fem reader really needing comfort bc she's sad/overwhelmed but she tries to hide it from ellabs but obv they notice smth is off, so they tell her they noticed smth is wrong and she kinda breaks down at that, then they comfort her thru it, listening to her problems or insecurities n'stuff <33 Sorry if it's confusing and/or too long, u dont gotta do it but i'd appreciate it tons <33 (Im totally not self projecting)

ur projecting = supported. 🫢 100% sfw/comfort fic but still no men or minors. type of relationship between them is up to u! this ended up a semi- full length fic oops ? enjoy!

sometimes it just feels too hard. being the newest member in jackson means you feel like you have to prove your worth 24/7. and it’s exhausting, really. abby is just so strong, ellie has the best patrol work, and you? you feel… weak. you (falsely) feel like nothing you’ve done has proven you’re worth the space in jackson.

so when monday rolls around, you tell ellie and abby you have plans with someone else so you can just go home and hide. they don’t question that, why would they? tuesday you tell them you wanna go to bed early. okay, fine. but then it’s wednesday, and they’re starting to get that something is going on with you.

the worry starts to kick in wednesday night after maria tells the two women you asked to go home early, citing that you’re not feeling well. abby all but drags ellie to your tiny place immediately after hearing maria’s words. you always tell each other everything. so why didn’t you now?!

it’s easy to know abby and ellie are knocking at your door simply because of the sheer force of it. five minutes you try to pretend you’re not home. you don’t want them to see you in this state; you’ve been ugly crying for two hours now. however, they don’t give up. it’s not like you could expect anything else from them.

“baby, we know you’re home. let us in, yeah? we’re worried about you,” abby shouts out after another two minutes of knocking.

you respond back with a sickly voice from the sofa, “no, go away. ‘m busy.”

you can just feel the attitude enter ellie’s body now. you know how stubborn she can be. “no, we know you’re lying. i will find a way in if you don’t let us in within the next thirty seconds.”

you know she isn’t joking as you move to open the door. the sight of you upon opening the door is not a pretty one— your face is red, covered in tears. ellie takes a deep breath before she pushes in. she won’t let you shut them out anymore. abby shuts the door before them before heading you back onto the sofa with them. each other is on either side of you within the matter of seconds.

as per usual, abby is the first one to break the silence. “oh, honey, what’s going on? we could’ve helped you sooner if we knew.” the way she sounds sad just makes you feel worse.

insecurities once again bubbling over, you do the only thing you can think of: you try to shove abby away. being significantly stronger than you means it didn’t feel like a single thing. however, abby won’t put up with you lashing out right now. she knows you can be their sweet girl even in the toughest of moments.

ellie watches like a hawk as abby grabs both of your wrists to stop you from trying to push her away again. “just because you’re upset doesn’t mean you can act out. are you going to be the big girl i know you are now? or do i need to keep you here?”

the concerned sternness of her voice makes you whimper in reply. fresh tears leak down your face as you try to find the words to explain. “i- i just don’t think i deserve to be here! everyone, especially you two, carry your weight around here! and what do i do? i’m just a stupid girl working in the bar!”

and, well, neither of them could say they were expecting that response. sure, you were newer to Jackson, but so was everyone at one point. you were also one of the most popular Jackson residents— everyone loves the energy you bring to the bar after a long day of work. so it just makes sense that both women are beyond shocked to realize that this is why you’re so down. how could you not know how loved you are here?

as yet another round of tears starts to fall, you feel abby’s big arms quickly pull you into her chest. your body starts to shake with each inhale as you start to sob into abby’s chest. while ellie rushes to rub your back, abby starts to tilt your head up so you can see her.

“angel, angel, no. let’s take some deep breathes and then we’ll all have a talk, okay?”, abby coos as she wipes away the falling tears.

ellie puts your right hand over abby’s heart when your breathing doesn’t start to slow any. she speaks in the softest voice she can muster up,“deep breaths with me and abby, baby. feel abby’s heart beat. we’re all going to just relax together before anything else.”

two minutes between your favorite people is all it takes to reduce you to just sniffles. you slouch back into your seat once you’ve finally caught your breath. you look up at abby and ellie with wet eyes before letting out a long sigh. no one is sure who should speak first.

ellie decides she’ll be the one to start, “it’s not true, you know? everyone here loves you. helping run the bar is important. you create a space where we can all relax for once. emphasis on the relax part.”

abby grunts in agreement with ellie. “you know ellie’s right, don’t you baby,” abby questions before looking over to ellie, “our favorite girl’s always making everyone feel happy, isn’t she?”

“for real though, you really do play a big part here. you know ellie and i started arguing less when you came around? pretty big deal there, you know. even joel commented on it,” the dirty blonde continues on the conversation.

and that makes you giggle for the first time all day. “even joel? really?” while you knew they had a previous history of more frequent fights, you didn’t know even joel was over it back then too.

“yeah, it’s really true,” abby starts before taking a breath to think about her next words. she exhales, “strength isn’t everything, you know? you add just as much as we do here. creating a space where people can relax while we live on this hell on earth is just as important as what we do. we all do the best here because we are better with each other. our system can’t function without others.”

you’re sure you’d be crying tears of happiness right now if you weren’t so exhausted from all your previous crying. your previous anxieties start to slip away as you start to truly internalize both of their words from today. you are important. you matter here. just like everyone else.

no one is given a chance to speak before you’re pulling ellie and yourself on top of abby. “i love you, i love you, i love you both,” you whisper out. “you’re right. i promise i’ll come talk to you next time i’m feeling down, okay? know you’ll make me say that part next!”

“okay smarty pants, you better. also, we always are, darling. love you the most,” teases ellie before she presses a kiss to the back of your head.

“hey! what if i love you both the most? then what?” you’re sure you can feel ellie roll her eyes as abby whines out playfully.

“okay, okay. how about we all love each other the most? can we just agree so i can drink some water now? my head is killing me.” a major post-crying headache has just started to come on for you.

ellie rolls her eyes playful at both of you. “i’ll get us all some water”, she commands as she walks to your kitchen, “and get comfy with abby. we’ll watch a movie, and yes, you can choose today.”

yay! end note to say ur important and i’m glad ur here + love that we all each add our own special things to this earth 🫂

[luffyvace]

Perona x male reader

This might be more accurate to pre time skip perona bc I’m watching impel down arc, hope you all don’t mind 💗

I just really like her and wanted to write for her since she’s underrated <3 (plus from the poll)

Idk how you and perona met or when but y’all together soo !! 🤷‍♀️

if your dumb/dense- (lol) like zoro or luffy she’s gonna go insane

she loves you..! but your just…..a bit slow..

no matter how through her instructions are you always somehow end up doing the opposite

she has to do a lot of things herself which triggers her because she considers herself a princess

she gets mad at you, but not mad like how should would to bearsy, more so a ‘you can’t do anything with out me 🤦‍♀️‘ typa mad

in fact she usually ends up helping YOU out

”I’m only doing this because I love you, you know??”

she says that while pouting all the time

but if you return the favor by helping her carry something heavy, giving her a kiss on the cheek, or just sincerely thanking her?

shes a blushing mess in denial 💝

if your smart !!

She finally has someone that gets her and is on her side!!

she makes you spend lots of time with her

picking out what outfit she should wear

watching the sunset

she does all sorts of romantic stuff with you <3

(zoro gets lost and crashes your dates 🙂)

if your on the slow side you, zoro and mihawk drive perona up a wall fr

shes the only female and her boyfriend isn’t even on her side?!🧍‍♀️

I mean you are, but it’s just not the same if you don’t get her

and if your intelligent you help her keep zoro under raps

and she makes you help defend her in arguments

LOL

perona likes to pick your outfits

dw she has a great taste in fashion, she’s very stylish

she puts you in black and your favorite color

so that you two are kinda matching

ngl she’s pretty sentimental

one moment she loves the crap out of you and the next she’s attacking you with hollows

ok I know that seems more moody or bipolar or smth but it’s just because she’s sensitive!

it’s more so that what you say affects her deeply because she loves you

so if you choose the wrong dress and you say it’s cuter than the one she was hoping you’d choose, she’s gonna think you think she’s ugly

(don’t ask me how that translates she’s overthinking it)

Your less prone to this if your average smarts or above

but again if your on the slow side, your love is gonna seem like push and pull

She makes you help her with everything, whatever she needs

and she’s kinda clingy, she always has to have you around

at least in the same room, if your not she looks for you

its not because she’s insecure or anything she just likes being in your presence

If she wants to reorganize a room? She’s instructing you and your doing the actual work

she wants the dishes done? Why didn’t you wash them??

(you make a point that she’s the one who used a crap ton trying to cook and she ends up helping you)

she’s fair for the most part though she may be a bit bossy..

perona’s love languages are quality time and physical touch

(lol physical touch is irony but anyway)

yeah I’ve pretty much been mentioning quality time throughout this whole thing

she basically just loves to be around you, doing anything with you whatever!

she doesn’t like to be bored though so you guys are gonna have to figure out fun things to do

playing hide and seek is always fun with her!

she’s really good at it but sometimes you feel like her devil fruit is cheating 😒

you’ve found her a couple times though!

she was proud of you but also kinda upset at the same time 😂

If she hears you getting close to her hiding spot she immediately moves

So it’s very rare you do win

and as a seeker she uses her hollows (sometimes zoro too, he does it begrudgingly though) to find you

she also goes through walls so yeah that helps, when she hears you she can get to you faster

If your a straw hat Kuma mighta sent you there for stealth training 😂😂

I feel if your highly intelligent you could outsmart her though, especially if you learn her way of thinking

with physical affection perona loves to cuddle, hug and give cheek kisses

NOT around zoro and mihawk though

she gets so embarrassed about it

pda does not amuse her so don’t try it

she doesn’t really like using her hollows on you but she just might

she loves to show you off despite that!

oddly enough

she constantly brags about your feats and accomplishments

she may as well be more proud than you!

Even if you haven’t done much she still prasies you

The ghost princess absolutely cherishes you!

anyway yeah she gives you a forehead kiss before you go to sleep

and she expects one back!

but wait til right before she falls asleep!

it’s more romantic that way 😍

(yes she wants it that specific way or she’s going to be pouty with you the next day)

if you don’t do it right she will ignore you

But she gives in first bc 1) she loves you too much 2) she gets bored 3) she likes your attention

she also does this thing where she holds onto your arm and floats

She secretly wants you to kabedon her

shell never tell you that..

(look it up if you don’t know what it is :P)

She reminds you of a cat when cuddling

she practically curls up into a ball on your lap

she gives you cheek kisses whenever you do her a favor or if she’s just feeling particularly happy

(for more dense m/n that’ll be if you did something smart or didn’t tick her off on accident today)

perona will also simp if you have abs/muscles

will avoid you for a bit if you catch her though

I mean she can go through walls so if your changing and she’s comes in..

OF COURSE SHE DOESN’T STAY FOR THE FULL THING SHE’S NOT A PERVERT IT’S JUST-

even if you don’t mind she doesn’t want you to catch her admiring you

she spies on you working out still, since that’s less suspicious

if you don’t have abs that’s all right

she romanticizes you anyways so no matter what you look like or what you do she absolutely adores you!

Your love life with perona is never dull!

she genuinely loves you ♡

These were a really good length! 💪 I’m getting back in my groove! 😼

I was originally not gonna do these but I’m glad I did they didn’t take very long and were fun to write! :) hope you enjoyed lovelies 💖

[little-miss-dilf-lover]

Heyyyy im obssessed with ur writing. Could u maybe do tangerine/ reader who is just a female version of tan and she sometime works with the twins and lemon loves her and a when working together a mission goes wrong and reader is upset or smth and tan kind just comforts her even tho hes usually not like that and it surprises both of them and lemon is just smirking cuz he knowss. Hope it makes sense

thank you sm!! I feel like ive definitely done something similar before, I just don’t know what it’s called, where it is or when I did it😭 so im gonna give you my hcs if that’s okay. thanks for requesting, hope you like it💌

when the twins need an extra pair of eyes or hands, you'd be their first choice. as always, you'd be really good friends with lem - you'd joke a lot, have similar interests, basically besties. but with tan, it wouldn't strictly be friends or colleagues, the will they won't they kinda thing

you'd be similar in many aspects, like work. both efficient and good at what you do. and like tan, you don't take losing/ messing up too well

so so so, when that happens on this mission, you feel beaten up over it. just all sad, angry, disappointed, embarrassed. maybe you walk off to clear your head or bc you don't want them to see you like this

maybe lem is temporarily elsewhere, so only tan sees you walk off. he'd be hung up over it for a minute, deciding if he should follow after you or not. I feel like he'd mumble fuck to himself before caving in and following after you

feel like you might be sitting on a bench or a short wall (idk what they're called) he'd slowly walk over, and silently take a seat beside you, maybe pulling out a pack of cigs and offering you one. you'd shake your head, not in the mood to speak

i feel like he's awkward with emotions and comforting people, so he'd sigh and look around. eventually, he'd be like, "it weren't your fault," maybe you say that "it was" and place your face in your palms

he starts by patting your upper back, the kind where you don't know what to do - that uncomfortable one. maybe he hears a quiet sniffle from you, which upsets him more than he would have EVER thought (it would make him feel weirdly protective)

he'd say again how it wasn't your fault and would start to stroke over your back. palm rubbing circles, trying to comfort you. his demeanour would soften immediately and he'd turn to sit facing you head on - hand still on your back. maybe he'd gently pull your hands from your face and turn you around, making you look at him. he gets uneasy with verbal communication so he'd just slowly bring you in for a hug

maybe tan sees lem appear from behind you in the near distance, a quizzical look on his face, wondering what had gotten into his brother. ALSO a sly little smirk bc he knew it!! 

tan would brush him away just so he could hold you a little longer 

[jubiilee13]

hi babes I saw you begging for requests for mike schmidt so I decided to send my own request to you… as cliche as it is, could you write an angsty misunderstanding fic where basically mike is over-working himself to death and barely making time for you and you think you did something wrong but it turns out mike was just tired af. It can be smut or fluff since I don’t know what you really like to write. Sorry if this request is bad I’m not good at asking for things😭😭

-anon

anon ily ty for the request 😻😻

this may be a lil bad bc I’m sick rn but I hope u still enjoy 🫶

warnings: tiny mention of blood, angst, angy mike, sad reader, alludes to a little smut at the end but yeah

lets just say for this abby is at a um... sleepover or smth idk i forgot to include her

didnt check this for grammatical errors so my bad if it sucks lmao

—

you and mike didn’t fight often

i mean you never really had reason to

but lately mike had been weird, he had been… distant.

mike often had his rough days, as did you, but this time was different.

every morning when he returned home instead of his usual warm embraces, you’d been receiving the cold shoulder, at most a few sentences spoken between the two of you before he dragged himself off to bed.

you were worried to say the least, you knew you had done nothing wrong, yet something in your gut made you wonder if you did.

so you decided today was the day you were going to talk to him about it.

boy was that a bad idea...

the moment mike stepped out of his bedroom he spotted you, anxiously fidgeting as your eyes met his own

"we need to talk mike" you mumble, clearly not looking forward to having this conversation.

mike rolls his eyes, "what y/n" he replies, attitude evident in his tone, yet the attitude is weak, and you note his face is just a bit paler than usual, the bags under his eyes more evident, something was off.

"whats been going on with us mike?" you ask, voice trembling "did... did i do something? you- you've been so distant..."

"its nothing y/n, stop worrying" he says with a scoff, and you bite your lip.

"mike you dont have to lie to me" you say softly, extending your hand out to him to soothe him.

Then something inside him snaps, that movement- that feeling. he couldnt take it.

"God damn it y/n i said nothing is wrong! you never listen! just leave me alone! you clearly only make things worse!" he cries out, and your body freezes.

"o-oh" is all you can say, retracting your trembling hand, clearly in shock

"o-okay um... um i-i'll leave you be..." you mumble under your breath, trying to hide your emotions until you were out of his sight.

you scurry away, biting your lip so hard it draws blood, and the moment you enter your bedroom the tears escape.

you shut the door behind you, leaning against it and sliding to your knees, hand reaching to cover your mouth to hide the sobs.

what had you done?

did you upset him?

is he gonna leave?

so many questions flooded your mind all at once

it was so overwhelming, all you wanted was him... but right now that was the one thing you couldnt have.

so you sat there, leaning against the door of your room for god knows how long.

eventually when no more tears could fall, you lead yourself to your bed, a bed that had been untouched for a few months now due to you always sleeping with mike, and after a few more shaky breaths, you slipped into a uneasy slumber.

As you slept, mike took himself for a drive, his hands gripping the steering wheel so hard his knuckles faded to white.

he was angry

he was tired

he just wanted to be home

it slowly started to dawn on him that upon his arrival home earlier, his anger had been misdirected.

he wasnt mad at you

he loved you

god- you just wanted to help

why couldnt he see that?

he lets out a shaky sigh, punching his steering wheel as he lets out a few grunts of anger (much to the dismay of the car infront of him)

he decides to leave you be for the time being, and he leads him self on down the winding road, until he comes across an empty parking lot.

he lets himself settle there for a while, staring into the dark abyss in front of him.

eventually he decides to call you, and when you dont pick up... he calls again.

and again.

and... again....

and 12 more times.

he was worried to say the least, what if you left him? what. if you didnt love him anymore?

after the final call he places his phone in his pocket, running a hand through his hair as he starts up the car again and heads home.

in the meantime you were at home, tossing and turning, unable to find a true sense of saftey in your own sheets and god was it horrible.

you didnt notice the buzzing of your phone, nor the vibration any time left another voicemaiil.

so you lay on your back, your teary eyes staring up at the ceiling.

thats when you heard the front door open, the jingling of mikes house keys alongside his work ones

maybe he didnt leave

did he come back for you?

maybe he-

your thoughts are interrupted however by a gentle, almost silent knock at your door. you want to open it, you really do, but you're scared.

for once you put aside your fear and you sit up, quietly tiptoeing over to the door and cracking it open just enough to meet mikes eyes.

both of your teary eyes meet one another, and something snaps within both of you

your grip on the handle goes slack as mike gently pushes further on the door, and the moment it opens enough for him to enter, youre surrounded by him

he kisses you gently, his hands wrapping around you, and you two hold the kiss until you eventually pull away to gasp for air

"im so sorry- i never meant to snap at you baby- i-i- im just so exhausted- work is so hard- i-i never meant to take it out on you- i love you so muc y/n- i"

you cut him off by kissing him again, this kiss growing more heated, your body pressing against his

"its ok" you whisper when you pull away, your foreheads resting against one another

"we'll be ok" you whisper

those 3 words are repeated for the rest of the night, along with other words of praise and affirmation.

the two of you love each other, and tonight it shows.

just as youre about to fall into a warm, peaceful sleep, mike presses a kiss against your damp forehead.

"i love you"

that was all you needed to hear in order to slip into slumber in his embrace.

--

yayayayya mike

i hope that was good

ok ily

bye pookster

[taegularities]

RIDDD 🎀🖇🩵

are you truly feeling better? ;-; a migraine is the last thing i'd wish upon anyone among list of terrible headaches, bcs i used to have cluster headaches— so i can only guess what's a whole migraine must be like ; please take care of yourself, and rest well :(

i don't know if it would be insensitive to drop the following long message here rn, but you obv have the liberty to ignore it till you feel better or as you wish. this is your domain, after all. love you.

"RUINED" : RAMBLE.

i had to drop the headcanons that's been eating up my mind bc the other day while i was taking my mock tests, my mind kept drifting off to the couple. lol. so here's a list of headcanons i had as a reader, from all the different bits of the story and the things you told us. hehe. these are mostly 'soft moments' as asked by you in that ask ( i wish i could drop the reference links, but i'm on my phone so it's hard to operate dually. however, i shall say which parts inspired what brainrot : they're from your works )

RUINED : BRAINROTS.

inspo : a!oc is the type of person who knows what she wants, her saying : two years of marriage and i still put up with the way you put the toilet paper the wrong way around. lol. her being very organized too bc she doesn't want work to pile up and focuses on her tasks in office. both of thm loving to sing

if she loves her things organized, i can see— during the beginning of their dating life, tae'd come over on a random weekend, only to find a!oc cleaning up, in her most natural state, and the mundane aspect of it would melt him. why? bcos he's the been there, done that sort of person, but not when it comes to these things. the domesticity, i mean. hehe.

also, the fact that she trusted him enough to show that side of her? :') the only reason she wouldn't stress about her look is bc she's adorably engrossed in her work and NEEDS IT DONE AND HE SAW HER IN OTHER STATES TOO 🫠

HELLO, RID. CAN YOU SEE HIM ENTERING HOME TO HER ONE DAY AND A!OC MOUTHING THE LYRICS OF A LOVE SONG TO TAE WHILE DOING MUNDANE THINGS WHILE THE MUSIC PLAYS IN THE BG?

AFTER THAT THEY COMPOSED THEIR OWN SONG OR SMTH IDK U TELL, RID!

inspo : a!oc being adorable-oc in general. her eyes having the purity even in the lewdest moments, her general love and admiration for him, original ruin you devil tango on the phone drabble 😮‍💨 a!oc loving to draw, tae in general loosing his composure around her lol

this one is loosely based on what my friend did once. so we were in a fb video call and she just randomly made a quick sketch of me on doodle. it was beautiful. 😔

since we are talking soft moments mostly, i can literally see him trying to sexually rizz her up on some video call— imagine him going like 'are you touching yourself?' or smth bc her hands are busy 🤣 but homegirl, who misses him sm and can be an adorable vixen, leads him on— only to send a quicksketch of him so beautifully done ( with artist-oc : a!oc touch 🥹 )....and can you imagine his reaction? always 'interpreting him anew' x 'you are an artist to me, okay?'

SORRY! I DON'T REMEMBER THE LINES VERBATIM!

inspo : basically, tae's protectiveness towards her, a!oc not liking to depend on people, her caring about his demons and wanting to fight his battles and these intially clashing, smex that melts you. tae : i cried, she crode. we s-crewed. ( no, rid. you never wrote that but its just a lil meme ref 😭 ) old tae and his demons.

this one is also from initial years. i think if she were to ever get injured in any way or had a scar—however minor, he'd still spend hours on those spot/s, kissing & hating himself for not being there when it happened. also, i think if she didn't tell him about such a thing/things bc it's not an issue to her, because he had sm going on according to her and didn't wanna pile on— he'd be upset. can see her making jokes about it since it's nothing to her, and him glaring at her with swimming red eyes ( just like the wedding drabble where he threatened her to never leave him ), and making similar threats to his favorite girl ( mid-lovemaking ) ☹️

you often write that before meeting her, tae's biggest flex in bed was composure. so i can literally see him shortcircuting (even during the roughest rounds), hearing her say the most loving things and her unadultered affection. the holds only bared by his urge to take care of her first like you always say.

also, i think when he first introduced her to his world of ruined tango, he was more concerned about her, than a!oc herself. can see him internally worrying, but she is the type to want it harder and more, anyway, to his constant surprise 😂 no, but seriously. suppose it's waxplay, and he knows what he's doing bc he's a pro, but it's still his a!oc 😭 no matter how much lust and control is swarming around them, his need to smear his affection on/inside her is REAL! ever love someone so much that even being balls deep in them isn't enough bc you wanna consume them whole??? and merge with their soul and being??? that's them, and it was novel for him. right?

and you said he kinda likes giving away control more now? why can i see a!oc, simply like a mini-him in some ways, just loving on every nook and crany of his being, when she first took over charge? 🥹 she must have had sm love to give him 🥹 i mean, in the past giving away control would be all about pleasure, but i think when he gave her that role for the first time, he wasn't expecting getting LOVED ON. CAN U HEAR HER WHISPERING PROMISES AND COMPLIMENTS IN THE PUREST WAYS? ( yk how she said, "well, it's true. i want it' about his 🐓 in such a harmless way? 🫠 ) whole lotsa crying, right? ....right?......RIGHT? 😭 bc it's never enough. not until they breathe. the other. in. AAAAA-

inspo : random ig reel, lol. this girl asked her bf, if her soul were to get switched with her bestfriend's, who would he pick. homeboy replied : i will take you to an exorcist 😂

imagine somebody asking her that question, but the other way around and in tae's presence— can see him tensing up bc hello, ry!jk wassup 🤩🚨 but a!oc will also pull up a "will take him to an exorcist" answer and set his demons free 🕊🕊🕊

inspo : papa!tae and mama-a!oc.

sometimes, i assume their first born is a son, then i settle for a daughter. or maybe an older brother to a lil sister. anyway, daughter is a mini a!oc. teenie tinie version of her 🤏🏻🥹 and he looks like such a girl dad at times, too.

to me—the babygirl has a!oc's eyes, his nose, and a pair of both of their lips combined, but also her father's fullness. why her mama's eyes?

BC DOUBLE HER, DOUBLE THE PEACE IN TAE'S LIFE.

imagine her wrapping that tiny chubby soft hand around his wedding ring instead of the pinky/thumb/index 🫠 he'd definitely be like : both of you women are gonna be the end of me :))))))))))))))))))))

little monet family. 🎐

it's so late at night. i resign 😮‍💨 please, recitfy me as you wish. also i forgot a lot of them, so pardon me 🫂 i couldn't articulate properly. had so much to write and tell but 🕸🕸🕸 love you, rid. thank you.

HI LOVE 🥺 i was feeling better last night and most of today haha but now the headache's coming back :')))) just why :'') it's a pretty horrible pain, but welp. and no worries babe, this isn't insensitive at all??? in fact, this is so fkn sweet?? 😭

yes, she def seems like someone who has her act together. as an office assistant, she's used to working neatly and diligently, so she'd be scolding tae for little things for sure hahaha :') ahhh the domesticity would shoot an arrow into his heart. he's never experienced such a love, you know? so to know somebody's here and his home… must affect him for sure :( they're both kind of an anchor to the other, and prove each other time and time again that they're able to show their true side. NAWH THEIR OWN LOVE SONG THO YES PLS.

the purity even in the filhiest moments is so fucking real. i don't remember if i actually mentioned that, but yes??? she's an angel, so there's some innocence in her eyes no matter what. NOT YOU USING MY QUOTES AGAINST ME IN A SKETCH SITUATION 😭 omg the confession.. you are an artist to me :') she would she would she would!!!

oh, he'd lose his shit if he saw an injury on her :( i remember my ex once crying and rushing to the hospital when i fell in the shower, and i had a lil scar on my chin (still do), and i think tae would feel similar? shedding tears and inspecting her wound and just everything :( he loves his baby and wants not a single scratch on her

omg ofc, he'd never be able to keep his chill with her hahaha no touch is ever enough. needs her melted with him <3

"i think when he gave her that role for the first time, he wasn't expecting getting LOVED ON" BABE YESS!!! 😭 maybe that's why he's so comfortable with her, too, even if he gives away control. he knows she knows what she's doing. also omg the exorcism one 😂 they're both witty so 100%.

hahaha honestly, i can't remember what i said about their firstborn or if i said anything at all, but yeah honestly both is possible!!! a boy whom he loves teaching life, or a girl who he adores with all his heart.. would definitely destroy him, along with oc hahaha that's a bit too much for his lil (big) heart :') little monet family 🥺

i hope you slept well!!! thank you so much for typing this all out??? i can't believe somebody's ready to do this for me or is invested enough in one of my stories to come up with such wholesome and long ass headcanons??? i love you fr 😭 i'm always here if you remember the others. thank you <3

[onlyjaeyun]

I think my head is going to explode.

He asked if she was ok.

Lowkey that is huge.

(AND SHE FREAKING KNOWS ITS HUGE. SHE TOTALLY KNOWS.)

And it’s bothering him that she’s not ok. He hasn’t lost interest he’s freaking worried. That’s why he hasn’t been back. But she doesn’t know that. Omg.

What is he going to dooooooo? (Because this Hoon is delicious. He is a man of ACTION always. Nothing simmers in him too long before it comes out one way or another. That’s why he touched her in the first place. That’s why he beat up Jaemin. That’s why he said something to Fuma. His feelings really do drive him and honestly I love it.) Is he just gonna show up? Kidnap her and force her to go get her nails done? My money is on randomly showing up…Like Riki’s at his house for some whatever thing so Hoon just goes down and starts banging on her door and she answers wearing his shirt (because the forgetting him is NOT going well)…

I don’t want to pin all my hopes and dreams on this but like… I’m really rooting for him to do something healing here. I mean maybe he’s not there yet but MAYBE HE IS or maybe he is so high key desperate for her body (at least that’s the excuse he’ll tell himself) that he’s willing to take care of her a little to get what he’s craving.

GAH! I don’t know. I have no idea where you’re going next but MAN am I desperate to get there. Like there is no denying he’s bothered by her pain. It’s there. He’s angry about it—but it’s full there on his angsty little tumblr. Her pain truly upsets him—but forreal that is nothing new (just ask Jaemin).

I know you’re cooking up some way to bring them back together. (And I’m obviously dying to know what it is) I figured (because I feel like you’ve hinted at it?)—though I could be totally wrong—but I figured that they would start to fall for each other again even before they realized that their initial fallout was due to a misunderstanding and maybe I’m delulu but I’m wondering if this particular moment is going to be the start of that like…manifesting? Because I mean I know the hate is there, but there’s also something else—something deeper and it’s so clear and I just love how hard both of them are trying to pretend that something doesn’t exist.

But you can only fight being someone’s soulmate or whatever for so long ya know…

see what i mean? how is this not the most beautiful commentsry on a piece of work youve ever seen?? I LOVE WRITERS SO SO SO MUCH 🥺 thank you for this baby, i really hope you know how much i appreciate your asks, they really make my day :(

i love how you commented I KNEW IT on the last chap bc i knew you'd say smth and i got so gigglybfkenfoemfl ngl i wasn't gonna make him beat them up just warn and scare them a little but this ask and your thoughts inspired me to do more bc it fits his character so well so thank you so much angel 🥺💗

i don't wanna spoil too much but your thoughts and assumptions about his feelings for her changing is definitely quite close to what i have in mind and i love how similar our brains work 🤭🤭 can't wait for your resction when you read the next chapter bc our baby's been a little unsure about herself and well, hoon's the one who might give her a hand or two to desl with those bad thoughts..all im gonna mentionnis a mirror!🤕

[trickstarbrave]

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I can’t relax my mind is racing trying to find ways to blame me for what happened. I’m going over their food and their eating schedule and how much I slept wondering if I could have done smth better to help them. I know the answer is no, consciously, but my brain isn’t settling down it’s just doing it like they’re intrusive thoughts. Or saying shit like “what if she wasn’t dead when you put thing 2 away? What if you made her freeze to death in her last moments?” Even though both me roommate and I made sure she wasn’t breathing multiple times over and over. She was gone.

I even feel like I abandoned thing 1 even though going to the vet is the best for her right now bc “look at you you surrendered her just because you didn’t want to see her die. You just want someone else to watch her die because you’re a coward who can’t even comfort a dying kitten right” what are these thoughts!!!! They aren’t right and make no sense!!!!!!!! It’s normal to know you’re not strong enough to take care of a dying or sick animal because you’re upset and scared and don’t want to do something wrong!!! I recognized I can’t give her the care she needs whether she dies or not. And even if I made her sit at home and tried to care for her I don’t think I could do a good job with how I am right now. All I would do is potentially risk her getting sicker and suffering until she died wondering if she might have live w the vet.

And now my mind is racing “what if they don’t actually properly take care of surrendered animals there? What if they’ll see she’s so young and think she’s just better off being put down immediately?” Why the fuck would they do that when it costs money even just to put her down? They would save money saying no and vet officers aren’t full of monsters who would take glee in putting animals down, they’d only put her down if they knew she wouldn’t make it.

I would say I have ocd but I don’t have the compulsions. But I don’t want these thoughts or really agree with them. I don’t know what that is. Is it anxiety??? It feels like more than typical anxiety

[epickiya722]

Tbh i just can't relate to ppl constantly saying that "if X character lives/dies then it's bad writting/loses the moment" when the decision for the story they are complaining abt fits pretty well with it's themes, or y'know, has a chance to be inserted well even if it comes off as a surprise or smth.

And that is especially when it comes to shonen, bc ppl only want subversions and different things to happen if they can brag or attack someone in the process to feel superior, apparently, but not when the story wants to follow it's own terms.

I don't get it either. Honestly, whenever a character dies or lives, my brain doesn't automatically go "Oh, bad writing" or even "That's good writing".

It happens, it happens.

That's just something that I decide on at the end of the story when everything is said and done and there's all the details that could be considered if something is "bad writing".

Which I honestly rarely do. Thinking about it... yeah, don't do it. I just shrug it off.

The only character I can think of that has died in a finished story that I was upset about was Neji. And that's because he's a fave. (He just is, I can't even tell you why, I just like him.)

If you asked if "was this character dying bad writing", I will definitely tell you "I do not know".

And I so agree with you on that second bit.

Okay, let's say I have a theory about something and it turns out it was right, it's canon, it happens. I'd be excited and more so shocked with myself because "Oh my gosh, I figured that out". (This is especially since when I do have a theory or some other thought I just be rambling and having fun. I don't expect for anything I post to come true.)

But not to the point where I feel some need to rub it in people's faces like "ha ha, you're wrong, you're stupid, I told you so" like I actually had some control of the story, like in the actual creator.

That is a pet peeve of mine when it comes to fandoms. People who want to flip the script on other fans, be wrong because you know some of these people be lying about what happens and even go as far as to pulling out info from more other source material that other fans have no access to and/or material the author has no part in and be mad because the story isn't going their way.

It's not your damn story! What, does the author personally owe you anything?

Don't like it? Write some fanfiction! Stop insisting canon has to be your way and your way only!

[golbrocklovely]

Ngl if what you think it’s true about Sam mindset about marriage, then i got to say it’s almost sounds like Sam actually don’t want to settle down or that he is scared to do that. Because:… before 40 no ? Seriously? Alright. I get that by now he might not want to and i obviously understand that Kat as well doesn’t want to. I mean she is 23 i think. So she is really young still and marriage is a serious thing. But I doubt that Kat would like to wait to 40 to finally get married. I feel like closer to being 30 she will want it more … i just think that she would like to have a dream weeding every young person have. So i feel like Kat probably would like to get married when she turns 30 or smth closer to it

+ ngl. She has been giving “hints” that she wpuld like to be engaged already. I mean that caption under that one photo. Her video “what will happen in 2023” and her video cover. She might say she don’t want to settle NOW, but it’s clear that she would like to make some steps for that. And i just know that it either gonna end up later in a big fight with possibility of Sam making compromise and doing it for her or in the worst scenario Kat gonna end things with him because she would be done waiting for Sam to make more serious steps … especially if she’s gonna be 30 or 30+ by time

i mean, there's nothing wrong with waiting to settle down, especially when sam had made his entire life about working. so even if he did want to get married, he would have to change a lot around just to have time to do any of that. and i don't see him doing that as of rn.

i don't know for certain why sam jokes about waiting a long time to settle down. it could be the reason i gave, of not wanting to end his youth so soon, or it could just be that to him there's no point in settling down earlier than that. maybe he wants to wait bc he doesn't want to have kids super young. maybe he feels like marriage is a huge step that in general he just isn't ready for. and that in itself is enough of a reason to not get married.

there is no perfect or set time you have to get married in. my parents dated for 10 years and then got married, but waited another 10 to have kids. in the end, it's whatever works well for each couple.

and as for kat wanting to settle down, idk. i think she's a bit too young and naive to do that rn. 23 is super young to get married, at least personally to me. i didn't even start feeling like an adult until 25ish, so i can't imagine someone really wanting to settle down that early in life (even tho technically that's what my mom did). but i can understand why she could possibly want that next step.

but realistically, if kat really wants to get married, that's a conversation her and sam have to have on their own terms. they can't get married strictly bc fans want them to or society thinks it's weird they have dated so long but aren't engaged. i don't exactly see sam wandering off to be with someone else, so it's clear to me they are both committed to one another and that is a good indicator that they could work in a marriage. but there are a lot of moving parts that they would have to really talk about.

in the end i hope things just work out for them regardless. even if it's something that could upset fans; if it's healthier for sam and kat, they should do that.

[waitimcomingtoo]

Okay high-school drama incoming:

For context my entire life I was in a all girls school, until beginning of my sophomore yr we moved countries and I got into a mixed school. Before this new school I literally never talked to any guy or had any sort of interaction with them 💀. ANYWAYS I come into class and the first few weeks I notice this guy acts really weird around me and I figured out he has a crush on me because he makes it really fucking obv ( I don't feel the same way), it's been a year and half anf I'm a junior now nd I'm pretty sure he still likes me, like fully zones out looking at me and blushing when he talks to me nd just being really weird nd awkward. He also has attempted to flirt with me (? I think)

mind u, we live in a very conservative country and I'm a hijabi Muslim...

yesterday his best friends called me a bitch out of completely nowhere, and I fought with them and he just stood there laughing like a fucking idiot while his entire friend group disrespected me . Like just laughing nd smiling but not joining them, and not defending or anything he just stood there?!?!?!?. And today his same friend group said smth stupid to me and I told them to fuck off and he has the AUDACITY to say "don't get upset I wouldn't want u to feel that way at all. It's very imp that u don't get upset" nd the day prior he was asking me if I got better from my flu and acting all worried nd shit. gurl. The fucking mixed signals. I'd never have anything with him but he acts like he's pretty much in love with me and all protective and even jealous (hes made that clear whenever he hears me talking abt a guy or smth like that) nd shit but doesn't stop his friends ....

I swear to u I'm not leading him on. Its clear that nothing will happen between us ever but its so annoying

-🦒

Bruh I’m so sorry about that. That’s super fucked up. Unfortunately this behavior from men is pretty common. He thinks he has a claim on you and probably reads into everything you’ve ever done and twisted it to his friends to make it seem like you like him back. His friends probably think you led him in bc of his lies so they attacked you. You did the right thing telling him to fuck off. Since he stood by and let his friends disrespect you, I think you have the right to be mean back. Next time he gets jealous or tries to talk to him, say “you know I’m not your girlfriend right?” Or something like that to really make it clear that he has no chance. And I would say something like “did you really think I’d like you back after you just stood by and let your friend’s disrespect me?” to show him what he did was super wrong. I’m really sorry about this. Fuck that guy 💜💜

[midnighteloquence]

long overdrawn sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

this is something that is extremely overdue and i hate to talk about it because this is a person that i really like (or used to i guess) but recently hes pissing me off so i got to thinking about stuff hes done and have decided to make a list! please use this to make judgements on him, thats what im gonna do since i still want to like him, ykwim?

im just gonna dive right into it ig… sigh

this is smth that made me feel soooo worthless and unworthy of love as it happened multiple times when i used to have a crush on him, but theres numerous times where he has gone from sweet and nice and smiley to literally so mean and avoidant. like one week he’ll be like “omg hii :)) wanna play roblox today?” and others it’ll seem like he genuinely hates me. and that really hurt me as it felt like i did something wrong and i didnt know what?? and whenever i asked what i did and asked if we’re still friends hed be like “wdym nothing happened”. if youre going to avoid me and be really fucking rude to me of course im gonna think something happened????? anyways i went on a tangent soz

terrible at communication. when you have to TELL him his flaws then he just deflects and sends memes and whatever. and then has the audacity to say IM bad at communication. at least id actually listen when being told what ive done wrong.

made a joke abt my depression (a couple times)

compared my mental state to his own because i “go out and draw”. EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT. all depressed people act differently. its like saying all depressed people are suicidal, no they arent. its like saying cutting is the only form of self harm, it isnt. there isnt one type of depression

when i told him about having been looked at in a swimming pool stall he jokingly said it was my fault for five minutes, before saying he was joking

the biggest manchild ive met. i thought it was C but then i found him. he will whine if you dont pay attention to everything he posts. and then points out people (🫵) that dont view everything he does

SO EGOTISTICAL. like please you arent all that

said “get better. because at least im trying” (not verbatim) which when you realise the context its so stupid. me saying characters are hot on my status isnt something i need to recover from. its fiction, it wont affect you, move on

at some point when he was going through another “im gonna avoid you and when im not avoiding you im gonna be mean to you” phase he has told me to stop being so ungrateful about my body (btw this was said when i was at an all time low and was extremely insecure about my body)

at some point i had asked to vent to him and said two things, and then a couple hours later he mocked me asking to vent to him (i had said “Can I vent to you?” and he said that exact same thing, just to say some stupid joke thing)

idk why but will always … me when i say smth about a character being hot?? like genuinely if youre tired of it then block me im not gonna change for you especially that (me liking fictional characters) bcs thats stupid

ANYTIME okay this is just a thing that peeves me but anytime i say something more than two words in a message he says “holy yap” STFU

dont act like you want me IF YOU DONT FUCKING WANT ME. DONT SAY ALL THAT SHIT, CALL ME PERFECT, SAY I CAN KISS YOU, ETC. IF YOU DONT WANT ME

this one time i was irritated (not at him specifically except i sorta was) and he was like “i will block you” as a threat (in a gc i think) and i said smth like “yeah sure if you dont wanna talk to me anymore block me its fine” and he was immediately so upset about it saying like “oh so you dont care?” like yeah i do im just saying if you dont wanna talk to me then dont ☠️

psychoanalysed my emotions and sent a video to me about crushes and how crushes are stupid and its just a brief infatuation, not love. and when i responded by saying “oh youre right it mustve been infatuation that i had because i really wanted to be in a relationship” he was immediately like “oh oh it makes me upset that you just used me as an outlet” no i didnt?? i didnt force anything upon you, never forced you to like me back, didnt even tell you i liked you till a couple months after i started liking you. i didnt use you as an outlet, i had just grown infatuated to you

called me deprived because i like fictional characters, and yet this entire list proves why i like characters more than actual men

every time i like a character he says im glazing when IM NOT. i am looking into a person’s character and i will go out of my way to learn more about said character so i dont mischaracterise them. i can point out characters flaws. like byakuya, (was gonna point out a flaw but id be here for ages analysing byakuya instead of talking about the actual subject). if i was glazing them, i would say that they are without fault, and defend them for every action, which i dont do

soz im really defensive about that

idk anymore

i ran out but theres definitely a bunch more. a lot of these are things i shoved under the rug because i do truly want to like him and every time hed be nice to me again i felt like he was a good person at heart, and that i could trust him with my life. but recently i am sure as hell disliking him. i really dont want to dislike him but the way my brain works is i’ll know when i dislike someone when they either reference my hyperfixations or “copy me/my mannerisms” and my brain immediately reacts negatively. if someone i love does it im very happy and when someone i dislike does it im peeved.

i think that youd like to know more stuff hes done other than be a baby, since ive kept a lot of this to myself and made sure i forgot it

[soleilocverse]

Chapter 24 Commentary

Yes, Ness really could die and if it’s simple for him to prevent it, why wouldn’t he?

I want him to understand the things wrong with this sentence/his thought process :) he will get there eventually

“And this soothes your anxiety momentarily until it comes back and you do something else about it?” He shifts as he nods, drawing his legs up.

He is soooooooo uncomfortable with the way she seems to know exactly what's been going on in his mind. I think he also just anticipates that she's about to drop something on him (such as a New Term)

“Oh. That sounds…bad,” he says. Terrible, actually. Already his chest is tighter again. He wants to bargain with her. That if he tries harder with the coping methods he already has, maybe he doesn’t have to do the ERP. But maybe he deserves to feel uncomfortable and upset.

YAYYYYY, i've been looking forward to this part for so long :) like. OBVIOUSLY, this is not the point of ERP. like. it /is/ uncomfortable but it's not meant as a "punishment." but soleil, who hasn't really been chastised by the others so we haven't seen it come up yet, takes chastisements/corrections Super Personally. like i have done something wrong = i am bad = i deserve to feel bad, i need to pay/repay in some sort of painful or uncomfortable way.

and i think there's an element of "If i feel bad or uncomfortable it is /Because/ i did something wrong and i deserve it." so when he's told he's going to have to deal with this uncomfortable thing, it's that there must be a reason and if he'd been better the first time (a well-worn reason in his mind) he wouldn't have to go through this now.

There is no thought in his mind that if something is bad or uncomfortable it might be that way for a neutral reason (v fitting example, that he is sick because people get sick - no he's sick because he wasn't vigilant enough and therefore he deserves to feel all the physical and mental uncomfortability of being sick)

OR that penny isn't intending this as a punishment/as a correction. it will be very fun for them to talk this out later but soleil thinks the power dynamic is different than what it actually is. Penny is aiming to be encouraging and IS genuinely Asking when she asks what he thinks and is ofc Genuinely meaning it when she says she thinks it could be helpful. what soleil hears is "i have decided we are going to do this next. you have no choice but to agree."

If soleil had protested more they would have gone through why and she could've explained more about ERP and IF they got to "this feels like a punishment" that would've been a whole other conversation. she would Not force him to go through with it (tho she would be genuine in encouraging him) and i'm excited for her to say that to him :) fun convo

Cyrill brings food when he and Athena come back and it smells wonderful. He takes a bite and is hungry for the first time in days.

I didn't want to pick what he was eating bc i just wanted this chapter OUT but also i don't think it really matters :D the point isn't What he's eating so much as the fact that he's /hungry/ bc he's feeling better mentally and therefore physically and actually has an appetite.

Also gentle reminder of some food/eating habits that are ready to come back all too quickly

He misses the glance Athena exchanges with Cyrill over his head and the helpless shrug he gives back.

I tend/try not to do the "here's a thing that happened in this POV that the chara didn't actually see/notice" bc I feel like it's a habit that I could get into and slip more into like, third person omniscient or smth but there was no point in me switching POVs for just a sentence so close to the end of the chapter

Me? ending a chapter with a character falling asleep? 🙈

[magicofrobin]

dick and jason thoughts rn... (tw: implied/referenced sa)

whether it's because they've known each other the longest and dick was technically jason's big brother first, or because dick is one of a very small number of (actual) adults that jason feels like he can trust, jason is the most open (as open as he can be) with dick. dick is the brother he's closest to, with damian i'd say as a close second and that's only bc he was damian's big brother first.

dick is the first person that jason really talks about talia with. the conversation wasn't planned and jason didn't mean to tell him or anything, i think he was joking about something or trying to and dick was like ??? say again ? and in true jason fashion he tries to brush it off like it's nothing bc that's how HE deals with it. it's not a big deal bc he's a guy and talia is well. talia. & if anyone else had found out they'd probably think it was Awesome that jason had someone as hot as talia interested in him as a teenager. it doesn't matter that she was an adult responsible for him AND she'd had a relationship with his dad. she was still interested in jason and to some people, who aren't thinking abt how fucked it is, that's NICE it's AWESOME it's something to be JEALOUS of. & jason kind of internalized that nd acts like it's nothing, maybe even tries to seem all cocky n proud of it bc it's better than whatever he does feel about it.

and his big brother, who is definitely upset on his behalf, asks if he understands that what she did was wrong. that she shouldn't have done that. that he was still just a kid. and he's using that soft n gentle voice he does when he's talking to a scared civilian that they've just saved like he knows this is very dangerous ground he's treading. like he knows that jason is going to explode or fall apart

he was correct :/ jason ends up yelling at him and telling him to stop making a thing out of it. to stop trying to make him into a victim. to stop treating him like a victim. bc he's not. he's not.

they end up tabling the talk there until jason's ready to talk about it. if he's ever ready.

-- dick's apartment + safe houses are the first ones jason will run to if he needs help. bc he knows that dick will always come when he asks. bc he's scared that the one time he doesn't he'll lose his little brother again.

-- one time dick came home to find two of his brothers there. jason was quite literally passed out on the floor for reasons unknown (patrol related injuries + exhaustion) and tim was asleep on the couch for reasons unknown (he was with jason and had to help drag his heavy ass to the apartment). all his questions are answered once jason is conscious again lmao

-- if he's driving any combination of his siblings somewhere and dick is with them, he will not let dick sit shotgun.

-- sometimes he's jealous of how close damian and dick are but :/ it's not a huge deal

-- i have two contradicting thoughts about dick n jason ft jason's batarang scar.

jason hides it from dick bc he's scared dick will see it and ask about it and agree with bruce for trying to kill him and that would break him.

dick is the person to find jason afterwards. he pulls him from the wreckage & he stops the bleeding long enough to keep his little brother alive. & he hates bruce for what happens but at the same time he's trying to reason it away by saying bruce was aiming for his hand or smth and he missed or he doesn't realise he hurt jason that badly.

-- those two thoughts can coexist but only if jason doesn't know dick saved him & dick doesn't bring it up :(

-- dick & damian are the only people who can tell if jason is hiding injuries

[wooyoungbf]

vent bc im in a mood

i have bones to pick with everyone in my house rn and ive been so pissy and tense and stressed bc of it.

like all of it comes down to the fact that im disrespected constantly by everyone and im so fucking TIRED

im unintentionally masking in a place where i should feel comfortable being myself and doing my weird little autistic things. im constantly judged for it.

im never taken seriously abt my sister stinking up the entire front half of the house bc "oh its her space" when its not anymore and "shes trying" when she isnt and i know damn well those arent the reasons i get brushed off. im not fucking stupid

my mom wont use my name at all and i cant say shit bc shes gna pull the whole sob story abt my birth and how my birth name means sooo much to her and how she just cant let go

my sister gets pissy w everything. she got pissy w me for forgetting to lock the bathroom door when shes the one who didnt fucking knock bc obviously just going "can you hurry up" then opening the door when theres no response is the thing to do. idc that she had to up her stomach but its my fault for keeping her from being in the bathroom longer when she cant fucking knock

i cant ask her anything- or even say anything to her w out her getting defensive. and shes emotionally abusive to my mom and explosive and its so fucking exhausting to even live in the same place as her. she scares all of our pets.

and mom still respects her and favors her more than she does me.

im never told anything bc they just expect me to know. im always brushed off in favor of other ppl and videos. they prioritize fucking tiktoks over letting me talk.

everything is my fault. its my fault they leave garbage all over the fucking counter and its my fault they left pots and pans and tupperware on the counter and in half the sink for weeks so it got cluttered bc i didnt do the dishes one day. i didnt know what to do with that shit. they didnt tell me.

no one listens to me abt the cats despite them being all dog-only people

they get upset w me when i dont understand some things and when i dont do smth bc i dont realize it has to be done

im exhausted. what am i doing wrong. do i apologize for not being what they wanted and expected.

[pigeonxp]

ok tbh im sorry that u read my post and got upset by it but i tagged it as anti tommy and anti bucktommy, and its not my fault that you dont like someone elses take. this is a public platform and im allowed to have my own opinion on my own blog on my own phone.

"people like you turned me off the ship" you mention later that youve blocked people, so in all honesty i think that you should utilize that feature and block people who have takes that upset you. i have mentioned several times in past posts that personally i am going to be an anti tommy anti bucktommy blog and that if you dislike it then feel free to block me bc i absolutely DO NOT want to bother you or clog up your timeline with shit u dont like or agree with.

i really couldnt give less of a shit about who ships who. i simply block tags and people who are saying shit i dont like. i post every other thought i have abt this show here bc i dont have any irls who watch the show. im gonna post how i feel abt stuff on MY BLOG.

to be transparent, i fear that it is a little bit strange that people allow themselves to dislike a ship or a show in its entirety bc of the "fans". if u allow urself to hate smth specifically bc of the fanbase then maybe thats an issue you have with yourself, because i was in some of the worst fanbases previously and i know how bad those ppl can get, and i still found myself enjoying the source material bc i didnt allow randos i dont know to make me hate something i once loved. i understand thats not how it works for everyone, but thats just my two cents on the matter

i really dont care abt this shipping war tbh and all of my posts abt it are strictly for jokes, but even if my posts WERE mainly serious, i already KNOW why ppl stopped shipping buddie as soon as tommy came along. i am completely aware that the sky wont fall and the world wont end, thats why my original post was written in a fully joking manner. i fear that i shouldnt have to explain my jokes on my own blog, but i guess i havent made it clear enough. i dont see the need to "take a chill pill" when i havent done anything wrong and was just making posts for my own enjoyment.

at the end of the day, it is truly NEVER that serious. it is a show abt firefighters. on network tv. if i were you id just block the anti tommy and anti bucktommy tags and move on, because you shouldnt let people upset you on your own phone. i encourage you all to ship what you want to ship, like who you want to like, and block the tags and ppl who upset you, bc its not my place as a random ass blog to be making you upset abt a show on ur tumblr feed. it never has been, and never will be that serious.

all the big bummy fans who r getting mad at buddies are getting exposed for being big buddie shippers before thomas showed up im DYINGGGGG KMFSOOAJRNAK