#long ask

[skunkes]

idk how to put this but your "so be it, life is still beautiful" helps to keep me going sometimes. ive always admired how youve always carried this underlying hope deep down despite your circumstances, it means a lot trans person to trans person. i feel i take for granted how far in my transition i am when some people have yet to get the opportunity to start. you are one of the many trans people i keep in rotation in the back of my mind to keep going, that i'm not alone in all of it. i'm going through an especially rough time right now, so thank you for your continued hope and existence. i hope this isn't too much for me to say to you. be well.

igts so crazy how this wisdom was found on 4chan of all places

anyways yes everything is so continuously bleak in unchanging ways ive catalogued many times over a decade on here no i dont think ill ever get what i want but I love people and humans and being alive regardless...so be it....so be it.

[cokoweee]

Okay last one I think…lovely stuff as always, I’m just juggling another brainrot right now, but I was itching to make some remarks. First off I’m glad midwesternvibes mentioned the text thing in the most recent update, because I was tickled to see that too! Probably the first time he had color since before their “spat” in the kitchen. As much as I know it’s still a roadblock in his recovery, I’m glad to see the voices coming back for Donnie. I kinda get this feeling they are hanging out with him until they know he’s going to be “okay”. And I have this little idea to myself, that when Donnie is able to start healing and processing his trauma, he stops hiding from them and is no longer afraid to see them. Of course that would be when they would start to slip away. (And that would be so rough for Donnie) Grief is kinda like that too. Sometimes you can be okay for a long time and you’ll have bouts where you still miss that person(s) even when you know you have accepted and moved on.

So I’m curious what is the situation that Donnie is on a watch. Is it just Draxum’s concern? Is it in case Donnie gets catatonic again? Is it in case he gets violent again? Is it to save his liver (those supersoldier genes only thing keeping it from failing)?

Also Draxum fixing Donnie’s sweater like a dad (only for Donnie to have his femme fatale shoulder thing as soon as the door is closed)

I’m a little surprised that this is the first time Kendra has seen Draxum do his mystic vine magic…or… he just hasn’t had too…or…all the mystic stuff happening lately has made Kendra more aware to it…or… but whatever the reason…appropriate reaction, lol

So something I have noticed that has me enticed is Donnie has been wearing his hand prosthesis more often.

Before the trauma induced episode, the only time we ever saw Donnie wearing it was when he was out or in “mission mode”. It makes sense, he needs to be able to save his ninpo for more than just temporary fingers. So why now… I was gonna suggest he is on edge, but I also remembered, as I was writing this, that you mentioned him having a slight disconnect to his ninpo…so yeah fingies is not a luxury he can afford right now. In any case…. Hmm…Donnnie….you know…if you didn’t shut your second dad outside…he mighta told ya that Kendra went out…ya know…? Also not sure if it’s just clueing us into Kendra still being sick or that trope of “if you sneeze three times it means someone is talking behind your back.” ? (I quote this one when I sneeze a lot, I’ll go “okay who’s trash talking me?!”)

Anyway please take care! Also p.s. if you do start to play Minecraft I hope you have fun. (I tried to play it but my laptop is too old and it crashes, so I can’t give much advice on it) also p.p.s I found a WIP of a thing I started writing for this AU in July, and I kinda…forgot I had it. It’s gonna be so out of place if I ever finish it, so just heads up for whatever was the hot topic then… <_<

GAHH I ANSWERED THIS BUT THE APP CRASHED AUGHHH. Let’s see if I remember what I said

I think I showed it a few times that despite Donnie constantly wanting said voices to stop, whenever they actually do, he feels uneasy. It’s quiet and he feels alone. I don’t write every single voice he hears all the time but just ones that feel right to show. There’s a lot he hears. The good the bad and the horrible.

Dancin a bit in that prosthetic part it’s a bit of a ref to sumthin y’all like to tickle a good bit sometimes lol

DRAXUM! A man not meant to be a father but ended up being a guardian. He hasn’t used his mystics cause there’s no need! Also Draxums reasoning for putting pickle boy on watch isn’t just his!

Casey is one that enforced it so harshly. That episode at the farmhouse was technically the first time she’s EVER seen Doobie in that state. Literally witnessed him break down, almost wipe out a farm and try to tear apart his own body. Both want no risk of not being able to get to Dibble so keeping him out of the lab that he can lockdown is a must for them

OOF THIS IS LONG HOPEFULLY I MADE SENSE. Cause I forgot a bit of what I said before

[calp0sa]

You are one of my biggest inspirations recently. Your art is absolutely beautiful, the designs, the colors, the just.. general style. It conveys such great emotion and general love for the craft. Again, it’s awfully inspiring. Your positivity, your concepts, your general way with words is really interesting to hear. And you were one of the first I’ve seen to truly put more philosophical meaning to art which I find absolutely fascinating. You did actually inspire me to keep pushing with art and to view it from a bit more of a different perspective than before. Honestly, I aspire to be more like you in that matter. And, of course, I can’t say this enough but (on a slightly sillier (wording wise) note) I really do want to eat your art, I bet it tastes like every single color in the rainbow and every emotion known to mankind possible.

oh holy lake pontchartrain you are extremely friendly. and just as capable. i might have mentioned at some point that all the beauty you see in this world stands as a reflection of what is found in your very self. had the timid silkworm not seen the grace of moth, it would have no fortitude to metamorphose. Sorry i was thinking about caterpillars because they are very cute but anyway this is very kind of you and i smiled like this -> :]

[mothiepixie]

Hello! I have a question. Does Motti sometimes don't like her body or has troubles with her self-esteem?

Motti does have some self esteem issues but not in the way you think or regarding her weight. Motti was raised to love her body at any stage of her life by her mom. She comes from a family of bigger and voluptuous people so it's just the norm for her.

However, Motti does become aware of her body when people have objectified her. Being perceived in such a manner is uncomfortable for anyone and sometimes she just wishes she can exist without someone pointing out her body.

While she has (and still occasionally) faced discrimination for being a thicker person. she doesn't end up hating herself for it. Instead, Motti thinks people having an issue with her own body is super weird and that's a reflection on them rather than herself.

If anything she can be more self conscious about her neurological disorders (adhd) and trauma (ptsd). She's afflicted and sometimes embarrassed by it because she can be incredibly forgetful, overwhelmed, and/or take longer to process things. Other times she can't regulate her emotions, or suffers from Alexithymia (challenges to recognize, expressing one's emotion).

Motti has faced upsetting people dear to her because she has not responded or acted according to social norms.

She has gotten in trouble at her jobs because she has shut down from too many tasks placed on her or yelled at because she hyper-fixates one task overall. However, because of her ability to hyperfixate, she can be often abused by management and given extra work to the point of exhaustion.

Motti can suffer from rejection sensitive dysphoria. (Particularly when someone she cares for acts differently, and she immediately presumes it because of her and shuts down/act indifferent i.e when Dust yelled and Motti assumed he found her too much.)

People often equate her excitable and playful manner as stupidity. It's extremely frustrating for her but has a hard time finding balance of being herself and appearing unphased.

Motti has a lot of confidence in a lot of different areas, but it did take her time and self love to be as confident as she is.

[iliothermia]

Hi, I had some process questions I wanted to ask if it gives you some joy in writing up answers.

Your art has a lot of detail in it, and they are often larger pieces with multiple characters and half or full backgrounds. How long does it take on average to do an art piece, start to finish?

There are textures I enjoy incorporating into my art, but are extremely arduous to put in. There are other textures that aren’t my favorite to use a lot, but are fun to make. Do you have a favorite texture(s) to make? Are they one and the same?

What are a few of your favorite embellishments you’ve made? E.g. the repeating prints, objects, things you use to fill out the scene that you post on their own every now and then?

💜💛 wishing you well as always

to be honest most of the texture in my work is all just my brush I use while hand-drawing in every line. All lines are the same brush, just different size

I do save a lot of the plants that symbolize certain memories, cultural imagery, pompoms / embroidery / lace I draw though by habit, knowing I'll someday want them again.

My favorite little things I've drawn and posted alone though are -my little besamim full of stars -a hinged deck of cards based off a gift my grandfather gave me not long before he passed away, it had the art of many artists in it and really impacted me. -a comb used for preparing the dead (jewish), with the heads of a stork and a heron on them. The lore i've read for those birds is a constant reminder and really important for me as someone who grew up feeling misunderstood.

Thank you for asking and I hope you're alright, my friend 💗

[hime-bee]

Hello hello so I just wanted to say I love love love ur ocs all of them equally (my fav is lucas) BUT I JUST FOUND OUT AB THEM?!?!?!like I was emtyping my following list n found u n started wondering y I even follow n then proceeded to read every content u have on my bbg lucks but know I'm finished n it feels like I've lost my purpose🏌‍♀️ SO ALL THIS PARAGRAPH IS MOSTLY ME PRAISING U 4 BEING A GENIUS FISHDIBDUEE ILY 😍⁉️

Anyway would u pls pls pls pls plspls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls bestow me w the knowledge w how ur ocs will react to a partner who loves to do their hair 🏌‍♀️ and if u can also how will they react to a partner who loves their hair getting done by them?👨‍🦱

Yea that's all ab it n ILY pls don't evaporate n become one w the clouds n then become rain/snow (TAKE CARE OF USELF MUAH)

I love you too, anon, I want you to know that (don't worry, Lucas is my favorite too HAHA) Also, I'm glad you were able to realize why you were following me and didn't just unfollow, thank you,,, 🥺🥺 AND THANK YOU FOR THE COMPLIMENTS AAAAA

YES, OFC!! CALL ME XIA'NEFASUS CUZ I'M GONNA BESTOW THAT KNOWLEDGE UPON YOU RN, MY FRIEND-

How they react to a partner doing THEIR hair:

Lucas: A little mischievous about it! Wonders if they think he's getting too old to do his own hair. Regardless, he'd let them do it and thank them afterwards by making sweets ^^

Njero: His hair is messy and unruly, not even hours of brushing can help it stay in one place. Honestly, he'd just wish them luck if they wanted to do his hair 😩

Leumin: ECSTATIC- he loves having his partner's hands in his hair, scratching and rubbing his scalp, playing with the colored strands. He'll more than likely ask his partner to do his hair for him when he's in a particularly needy mood (which is about 80% of the time for this loser)

Flores: My God, good luck. Flo's hair is Rapunzel levels of long, and just as thick. Luckily, his hair doesn't tangle easily, but it does take... Hours... To brush it all. It gets even heavier when he has to wash it. He usually does it alone, though his children do offer to help! If his partner wanted to help as well, he'd be more than delighted ^^

Mikka: His hair is also pretty long, and it does get easily tangled, so he'd need help getting it untangled! He's grateful for any help that keeps him from just cutting his hair out of frustration. Funnily enough, it's very silky.

Vivian: Another long-haired man in need of some assistance! His hair isn't nearly as long as Flo's, but it's long enough to cause problems if it isn't taken care of properly. Like Leu, he'll be ecstatic and purring if his partner wanted to do his hair for him! He'll have to lower himself down into a pool of his own tail so they can reach his head, though.

Lucas: He has absolutely no knowledge of haircare that doesn't apply to his own, so he'd have to study up a bit on his partner's hair type and other haircare tips so he can do a good job for them. Lucas doesn't half-ass anything, babey!

How they react to doing their PARTNER'S hair:

Njero: Like Luc, Njero isn't about half-assing anything. He's going to do his research before offering to help his partner with their hair. Funnily enough, he would really enjoy it. The meticulousness of it and being able to use his hands for something not related to magic (sure, he could just use magic and do their hair quickly, but he'd rather sit with his partner through the whole process)

Leumin: A haircare extraordinaire! You need conditioner, coloring, high quality shampoo? Leu's got you covered. His hair is very thick and messy, but he has a lot of brushes and combs to help out with that, which he wouldn't mind lending to his partner! I think he really would enjoy brushing or combing out his partner's hair 😌

Flores: Like Leu, he's a haircare extraordinaire, since he's so used to doing his own and taking care of it. He also has a lot of haircare products (in the human world, and the fairy world). He could also just use magic to do his partner's hair, and he would if that's what they prefer! He'd like to wash their hair and massage their scalp for them, though 💚

Mikka: He doesn't really keep that many haircare products, just the necessities to maintain his hair. But if his partner expressed the desire to have him do their hair, he'd go out and buy whatever they needed immediately. Even if their hair is long or a hassle to deal with, Mikka won't mind! He's got tentacles, he can multitask 😌

Vivian: He'd fall deeper in love with them, honestly. "You want... Me to do your hair..? Of course, dearest!!" Vivi sees it as some sort of bonding ritual, and an act of trust. If they trust him enough to be vulnerable around him, then he'll return the favor by doing his best to take care of their beautiful hair! If they wanted, he'd even give them little braids, like the ones he has ^^

WHEW, THAT'S ALL OF EM. Again, thank you so much for this ask, anon (and for the lovely compliments) 😭 I'm trying not to evaporate ✌ I'll keep trying, bless you

[sweetwolfcupcake]

Imagine being kidnapped by Tom Ludlow.

Hmm, I'm guessing that you are referring to a yandere Tom? Or is it Canon Tom?

Canon Tom doesn't seem to be the type, but maybe to protect the reader from any other criminal or group she got involved with? Maybe a witness, maybe a target. The department isn't doing a great job. He knows it's corrupt, so he might take things into his hands. He would be sweet and respectful, I think. There will, of course, be boundaries for the reader until he solves the issue, but I don't see Canon Tom having any malicious intent, his ways are very grey and often wrong but his intentions aren't. but I think it would take a lot to get to that state for Canon Tom. Maybe a threat to his and the reader's lives.

Now, I'm not sure if I can do justice to this but here is my take on Yandere Tom.

He is a cop already, he knows the ways of criminals, from the bottom to the top. He is experienced, he has tasted the dirt and even gotten his hands dirty. I think Yandere Tom kidnapping the reader would take some time. Perhaps that would be him snapping, or last resort?

Either way, it's not a favourable situation for the reader because Tom knows how to cover up his tracks. maybe he is the one even leading the investigation of a 'missing' reader, who most probably will end up 'dead' to the world. So if the reader wants to escape, she needs to be smart about it. he knows everything related and relevant to her and his plans better than anyone else. So if anything even goes haywire, he is prepared, which is scary in this situation.

Tom is not dumb, he is brains and brawl so she should take a slow game. I think Yandere Tom would be overprotective and very possessive? he is not delusional, he knows that what he is doing is wrong, but I think he is the type to acknowledge that he is selfish wrong and messed up, but it's still better than letting the reader slips away.

Maybe this is what made him take the extreme step of kidnapping her but yes, he knows his charms, and he isn't reserved about using his charms and trying to win the reader but when the situation calls for it, he can be frightening as well. I think his anger would be the stuff of nightmares, but I do not think he would ever lay a finger on her. But he is not afraid to use force-- tying the reader for 'her own good',, locking her in a room and maybe even drugging her if things go to extremes. So, an upfront war with someone who can easily cover his tracks and has planned through it is not going to work, the reader should get to know his mind first.

I do not know if the analysis is accurate, I haven't watched the movie and most of my analysis is based on the brilliant fic written by @johnwickb1tsch and @treedaddymcpuffpuff 'Excessive Force'. Amazing fic, has me hooked. I think they can answer this better. What do you think @treedaddymcpuffpuff and @johnwickb1tsch?

[sukirichi]

Okay so I’ve always wondered, let’s say in another universe (but still in the DTD setting but this time he IS infact a prince so all the secrets that were unfold in the later chapters never happened), where Rintaro was actually able to marry Iris and Yuzuru ended up being one of his brother’s wife instead (most likely Kiyoomi’s 🤭), do you think he would probably still be attracted to her after getting to know her as his brother’s wife???

I feel like he would have regardless, but maybe he wouldn’t act upon his feelings since he “loves” Iris so much, or maybe he still… would??? 👀 I mean his actions were pretty unpredictable when he was a prince since he always needed to have it all. But I know for sure that Yuzuru would definitely be loyal to Kiyoomi if she was in love with him first. She would never cheat but I can’t say the same for Rintaro lmao.

Basically I just wanted to know if he would have been attracted to her regardless, or not.

oooOHHHH I love this question! to answer your question I think the answer would be yes! he’d still be attracted to us! I think it starts off slow – that he doesn’t realize what he’s lost until we’re at one of the family dinners and iris is being moody and distant… he tries talking to her, tries lightening up her mood with wine but at that point iris is just her plain, bland, irritable self. and then there’s us, sitting on kiyoomi’s lap, throwing our head back in laughter at whatever he’s saying and his hands are on our waist and god rintaro is seeing red because he used to be in kiyoomi’s position once. he used to be one that made us laugh. and he knows his brother – kiyoomi isn’t that funny. so he just stares and sulks and wonders if he’d done the right thing after all. he’s married his ‘first love’, he’s gotten what he wanted. he should be happy, right? so then why doesn’t he feel celebrating?

if on the same dtd universe though and you mean that rintaro meets us after he’s married iris, and therefore we never went down the route of him wooing us and such, then yeah I still think he’d be attracted to us. and again, he wouldn’t notice it at first. several of his brothers have partners already. it isn’t anything new. but he just can’t help but think you’re so pretty, and his quiet, reserved brother being with someone so bright and bubbly just seems kind of… odd. it makes him curious, so he “observes.” meaning he watches us a LOT. and during gatherings, he learns that you’re so easy to talk to, that you’re so kind and your heart is too big and pure for such a terrible place such as the palace. he thinks maybe kiyoomi made the wrong decision of bringing you into the family, but then he wouldn’t have met you.

one thing leads to another and you’re right, he does have this mindset of “I’m the crown prince, the only true heir, I need to have it all!” would he cheat? hhhhMMMMMMMMM AGAHSJKA emotionally cheat, yes. he’d slowly stop paying attention to iris – which wouldn’t make a difference, since the two barely talk and they seem to be hating each other’s guts through this marriage upon realizing they have no similarities at all, and rin thinks iris is too greedy and bratty – and focus more on you instead. across the dining table, he’ll watch the way your lips move when you speak, wondering what it’d feel like on his.

he’ll “coincidentally” visit the library during your reading hours and pretend he totally did not know you were there. he also totally didn’t read all the books you like just so he’d have something to talk you about. and then he’d innocently ask to walk with you in the gardens simply because he wants to spend more time with you. he knows its wrong, and his feelings are pointless. you’re so in love with kiyoomi that you’d never look at him that way

I hope this answered your question though!! I had fun answering this GAHSJKAA because yes!! he totally would’ve fallen for us regardless 💖

[skunkes]

sorry if u arent looking for advice/commentary, but imo working towards change IS worth it. Even if its slow, even if its not for something glamorous, the work and openness to change is the important part. Moving out of your parents house is legitimately SO freeing, even if things suck you arent being controlled by someone else. Look at apartments, look at places to find roommates (less than ideal i know this very well) if living alone is out of your price point, contact temp agencies for work if you can. If you can use the microsoft office suite, especially excel, you have a leg up on a lot of people. And if you cant, theres tons of resources online to learn! There’s even free or low cost certification programs that look good on resumes. There’s no wrong way to live, unless its causing u pain. I hope u can find independence and transition soon 🫂

i always appreciate input (even if i dont answer asks i always read them ^_^). I currently have some friends willing to help me start finding my way out and I think that may be part of it all right now. Like its very close to maybe being real, and not as bad as I originally feared if my friend helps me to the degree she's offering, and I keep getting really scared and second guessing everything ever. Its so scary.

And thats where the "what if this is as good as it gets" part comes in. Im just having trouble getting and keeping the ball rolling I guess. I keep either turning back before I start or stopping it midway. I'm so nervous.

[cokoweee]

OH wow! Two updates in 24 hours! Okay I really wanted to dig into this, because there were so many things on just the writing and dialogue and I LOVE it!

These two panels were fun, because there is something soft in Kendra’s face. Nostalgia, affection…also the wet beads of water coming off her hair, since she climbed out of the bath….but I’ll continue this rant later…

This is interesting….We have seen Donnie borderline catatonic so this could be Draxum’s latent parental instincts not wanting to push Donnie just yet. (Or worried that Kendra might be a trigger?)

Though funny that this was what pushed Casey to reach out….I included a snippet from Replica…but…lol both you and Kat having Casey very particular about her male family members helping her out, is understandable

Heh…that’s rich, considering you are gonna have your own lizard children Kendra…not that you know that, I guess… Still this feels like a “tempting fate” line/foreshadowing. Mostly, because Casey insisted that the father is human. (I think?) But likely a jab at how Kendra calls her “Beast” all the time.

Ohhh…what is this trinket?! <_<

This is the face of someone who is either gonna pretend to be a toy or a child if Kendra gets pulled over XD

Okay this brings me back to my thoughts after the first image…Kendra likely had been thinking about stuff since her initial talk while fixing Yuichi’s arm the first time. However the “event” and Raph’s chat with her possibly had her start really mulling over it. We know Kendra has been struggling with her identity in the way of not belonging. She accepted she was an outcast…and possibly still considers herself an outcast. However with everything she has been doing: the training, modifying the jetpack, upgrading Yuichi’s arm…it certainly is setting this precedence. If Kendra doesn’t fit in this group’s mold by default, she is gonna make some changes so she does.

The past Kendra would never adjust to accommodate others. She is unapologetically herself. So why is she going through the trouble to make little changes…why does she want to properly ask Donnie if she can stay with him? Because when you love someone, you accommodate them. And not in the way, that you should change yourself for someone. However if there are traits that are holding you back, and it benefits you both in the long run, sometimes little changes are necessary. Kendra is changing, because she wants this. She may not know how her dynamic will change, but she wants it to get better.

And…I forget how I planned to wrap this up, but…. It is an organic way to bring happily ever after that much closer, and in a way that doesn’t compromise Kendra’s identity. Again, your writing and dialogue are amazing, and the way you pair it with your drawings makes some great storytelling.

Oof writing is such a struggle but considering I do hours of acting out dialogue both irl and in my head certainly do help. NOW TO ANSWER SOME OF THESE LIL SNIPPETS U SEPERATED but under a cut cause this is a bit long lol

Draxum is a weird dude to write for me but for me he’s another that lost almost his whole fam. He doesn’t wanna risk losing the last one that’s there even if they aren’t how they once were.

CASEY NOT WANTING DRAXUM ALL UP IN HER 🍰 IS A REAL! ITS LIKE UR GRANDPA/DAD/UNCLE SAYING THEYLL DO IT FOR YOU

That lil TrInkEt will be helpful later :D (I think. Please I haven’t fully thought this plan through)

You point out that she never would accommodate for someone else and yuh you’re right. Bitch would make others accommodate to her. This tho

“Because when you love someone, you accommodate them”

Idk how to word this, it’s pretty difficult to conjure up in my head words for this. For her it’s. She can’t see those feelings. Define them. It’s a case of extra caring without knowing why and it’s irritating. Like a fly u can’t kill. Or a butterfly. Pretty and you don’t want it to leave but also don’t want that big bitch flying all up in your face

[calp0sa]

HI HI HELLO I LOVE OYUR ART SM,,,, GENUINELY WHENEER I SEE IT ON TIKTOK OR TUMBLR IM SO FLABBERGASTED., /POS. ITS SO COOL AND IT REMINDS ME OF YEAR FOUR IN THE CLASSROOM ND IN MY HEAD ITS SOOOO FUCKINGN HHHHHDHH LIKE THOSE YELLOW LIGHTS THAT R UNCOMFY IN RHE GOOD WAY.. OR LIGHTS YOU FIND IN A TUNNEL ON THE ROAD ^\^_^^^^_^^^^ IM GENUINELY AAAHDHFJGHH I LOVE YOUR ART DUDE AND I LOOK UP TO IT SM ABD I LOVE ALL THE LITTLE DETAISL YOU PUT IN WACH THING AND I LOVE HOW THEY ALL STILL HAVE DETAIL ABD EACJ THING YOU MAKE IS SO HHHHHHHFGJGH I CANT EVEN DEACRIBE IT BUT I CAN????? IDK IM LITERAlllYY SAUSUHJJHHKHKHHHHHHHHĦ ABD LIKE YEAH YOUR ART REMINDS ME OF BEING FIVE YEARS OLD PLAGING WITH TOYS ABD PLASTIC CONTAINERS STAINED FROM SAUCES.. /POS

YOUR ART IS SUCH A HUGE INSPARATION TO ME DUDE!!!!! KEEP DRAWING AND YOURE SO EPICAAUCE :3

thank you, that’s very sweet but… i don’t have tiktok, and if you see someone reuploading my art on tiktok i would like you to ask them to take it down. once again you’re very kind but be weary of art thieves and impersonators!!

[elementcattos]

is the image blurry

if so, guess who it is

dont have a cow man

[t34-mt]

sorry if you already answered this, but how do the specific colors for each species work when in different regions? are there any specific colors that are more common in one place than the other???

old art and outdated ethnicities, very skinny maanuls/kyhuines up ahead

yes, each region has a group/ethnicity that sports colors that are exclusive to them, even feather type for the mane of maanul divers from one region to another. For kyhuines every group has the same feather types, BUT it is possible to have an individual with curly feather genes like a frillback pigeon. that said gene is a mutation so it's not common but it can be passed down

now im sincerely sorry I don't have a really clean good chart yet, ill use these shitty drawings I once made to explain the color to a friend. while they suck and are not good references to look at when it comes to anatomy you still understand color variation with them at least. I'll start with maanuls!

Western maanuls

while on the maanul drawings they don't have size dif, if this was done seriously the females would be bigger than males across every group. Western maanuls are ""the basic ones"" if you had to put it bluntly. id imagine that ancient maanuls before they diversified in colors probably looked a bit like a tone-down modern Western maanul.

the examples ill use for each groups are the most basic individuals you could ever think of. Because with dye and modification, an individual from one group could end up widely different from the base look. For example, Morang is a western maanul but she doesn't look like the example shown here, she cut down feathers for a straight-end look and she bleached herself to be a unified white. another we

Eastern maanuls

now with these guys, i do have a good render of them which you can see here, like western maanuls they got a mane with flexible feathers. the best irl example i can give for you to visualize that type of feathers would be to look at a Japanese roosters's tails. males have a greenish turquoise end some of their feathers. Which is a color exclusive to them. If i ever post an image of yarey'lu ( a male eastern maanul) and you see his yellow feather tips be aware that its not natural, and these are done with dyes. so would be the yellow marks around the eyes, these are also done by paint. another character that is an eastern maanul is ak'laam who doesn't look like the examples because she's melanistic.

Eastern males are the most colorful of all, they've also got iridescent feathers but so do eastern females which is also unique to them. The sea they live next to is a bright blue and within that sea, they have many coral barriers and "exotic" wildlife, even the flora around their region is bright and varied so, i had to make them fancy to go with their place.

Southern maanuls

now they've got their perks too, maanuls and kyhuines after being an ugly hatchlings they become what they call a fledging, which is a state where they're fully covered in a yellowish coat of feathers with brown stripes. Now every maanul and every kyhuine shed that coat at some point, so they lose the stripes except southern maanuls. Southern maanuls even as full adults still have some reminiscences of their stripes from when they were a fledgling.

The mane of easterns are quite particular too, they've got a mix of the two variants. a top layer with hard shafts that move for emoting or just to dance, and a bottom layer of soft shaft feathers. my only southern maanul character is nau'stikah

North-east maanuls

northeast are not that far in the north honestly on the map that population just sits on top of keezeh behind mountain ranges where the nice weather shifts into more temperate ones, like a normal winter you'd find in central Europe (i wish snow was still a thing here), their feather mane is usually quite short compared to other maanul groups and it is fully composed of hard shaft feathers that moves unintentionally with emotions or can be controlled at will.

They are quite dark due to the place they live at, which are cliffs that have been tinted black because of ancient volcanic activities. There arent many north east maanuls, they're the rarest of the 5 maanul groups. A character that is a north east maanul to mention would be qua'tuli

Central north maanuls

and for last with maanuls, central north maanuls which are "real northern" maanuls because they truly inhabit the real north compared to north east. Like north east their mane is fully made out of hard shaft feathers that can move, but unlike them their mane isn't short. you may have noticed but they're more covered too! ears are covered, most of the hand except palms, and the same for feet, except feet can actually be fully covered in feathers in some cold periods of the year.

Compared to other maanuls, central north go out in the land much more often to find food because during cold seasons they cannot always easily rely on the ocean. Their life is harsher than other groups so it sometimes reflects in folklore, like, for example, the way northern maanuls draw haanu (maanul's all mighty mother deity, a sort of Venus of willendorf equivalent) is lets say much scarier than the way other part of the world do it. i dont have any central north characters!

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i should also mention that all maanuls have yellow eyes by default, mixing groups can create mutations tho, like orange, red or even brown (monmartre for example, western+central north it has red eyes cause mutation, and while it just looks like a western with neglected feathers it starts to look closer to a central north when it ages in late GA), other mutations can affect eye color too, ak'laam has black/brown eyes because of melanism, and an albino maanul would have red eyes.

kyhuines, commonly have yellow eyes too tho it is plausible but rare to have red, grey and brown eyes without being mixed. These traits can become hereditary too, same goes for maanuls with mutated eye colors they can also be passed down (example with monmartre's litter, but also that was done so its litter would stand out and be recognisable)

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Now with kyhuines, there are only 4 groups/ethnicity compared to the 5 of maanuls, and theirs are quite close to one another so claims like "south, west, east, north" is a bit of a stretch but they still use it anyways for communication.

Southern kyhuines

the most common kyhuine are southern! now with kyhuines the color dimorphism is much more present compared to maanuls. Even talons in females if often darker, southern females can have dark brown talons to just the light pinkish that males have. gular skin is usually less bright too. Like eastern maanuls, i have a proper render of that group that you can see here. notable characters that are southern kyhuines would be satmuh, kapone, oto, and bantam. These 4 are all siblings so they can also be shortened to "southern litter" in literature

Western kyhuines

body wise, identical to southern. The difference is that they're much lighter. between males and females colorwise it's not that different most of the time. But they still got their quirk, their gular skin is a blue color. first contact maanuls mistaken western and southern to just be the same group variants but not, they are distinct ethnicity despite looking similar. i don't have any character that belongs to this group!

Salt desert kyhuines (or salt rock)

calling them north is a stretch, while on old kyhuine maps, they are situated up to other groups, on a world map they're just in the center of the mega continent like other kyhuines its just that they live in the salt desert. the talons of a female salt kyhuine can almost be black, to just greyish tones like the example, same goes for gular skin it can go from this tone to a full black one. Then the males sport these blue cool tones and also have iridescent feathers, irredescent feathers in kyhuines is only found in male salt desert individuals.

now the "wings) these drawings suck because while you get the base idea for colors its not good when it comes to accurate anatomy, the feather of salt male kyhuines are long, very long, almost like a Microraptor (on the drawing the leg feathers are not right, not large/wide enough). While they cant glide because they're too heavy and not made for that either way. it does help readjust a fall or jump, you'd usually see males flap their "arm wing" a little when jumping to something high. notable characters of that group are Ame, kaasim, and the egg twin sisters

Eastern kyhuines

So for eastern kyhuines, i do have a clean render of them but its also outdated when it comes to spine posture. While ill still link it because you get a better look at their face beware that the kyhuine don't stand like that anymore (as you can literally see here). You can go view it here.

They're the only kyhuine that can have green-ish tones (for males), their face is also different its more curved, their face have a more "chubby" look. by the way, a healthy kyhuine from any region will have fat cheeks, best example to look at ig, are these shibas with fat cheeks. Their "wings" and overall look is a usually smoother than other kyhuines, they also have shorter "ears"

My favorite kyhuines honestly, i love their face a lot it's shameful that i didn't make any eastern oc atm.

all done, if you've reached down there then thank you for reading/looking! means a lot to me

[lucithornz]

hi! alpha oscar anon here. the mental au is kind of. messy, as things stored only in one’s brain tend to be. i am going to throw some basics at you because you mentioned it offhandedly and my little lizard brain latched on and will not let go so please feel free to ignore me. (edit following me sending my warning ask: just know (a) I’m sorry and (b) you did ask for this)

lestappen are both omegas (in opposite directions—max snaps and snarls in public and is calmer and laidback in private, charles is the picture of propriety on the outside and then as soon as the door is closed he’s possessive, hungry, bossy), very much in love and the paddock’s worst-kept secret—I didn’t really flesh that part out so it could either be like, they’re officially mated and their teams and the FIA know and they just haven’t explicitly told the world, or if they haven’t mated yet, or if they mated somewhat secretly and only the people at their respective teams who need to know are aware (this does open up the hilarious option of them weaponizing omega stereotyping to pass off the fact that they’re clinically insane about each other as like “oh we’re just really great gal pals :] just 2 omegas hanging out, totally normal and platonic :] as best omega friends we do this all the time of course :]”

oscar is an alpha who is not very concerned with acting like an alpha and honestly even a little self-conscious about it in that awkward oscar way. alphas in f1 aren’t always assholes, of course, but they do tend to be big, brash personalities, taking up lots of space without thinking about it, speaking their minds in ways that might be overly rude or somewhat inappropriate, doing things like not wearing scent blockers at the appropriate/necessary times or encroaching (not in a creepy way, just oblivious) on betas and omegas personal space. 

and oscar isn’t like that, at least he’s always thought he wasn’t and sworn to himself he wouldn’t be, so he’s just… careful. And subsequently quite shy, stumbling over his words and apologizing nervously. 

but Oscar’s not anxious, per se, he’s not afraid of speaking up when he needs to for his audience. it’s just that he’s soft, and the gorgeous, funny, talented omegas he’s been looking up to as career role models for a secretive few years now are the opposite of an audience that requires him to put any amount of strength into his words.

honestly, he’s a big nerd, latches on to information and never lets it go, but he’s also kind of…dumb. it’s entirely possible one or both parts of lestappen might realize there was some semblance of a puppy crush going on before oscar ever notices, because he’s just so oblivious to what vibes he puts out. when he walks in on them making out in the cooldown room and stammers, trips, and splutters his way through a frantic apology and departure, he just thinks he’s being polite, but his gaze locked on them and his face went bright pink, he forgot probably almost every word he knew and his scent bloomed under the scent blockers that he is farrrrr more responsible and careful about wearing than most other alpha drivers are, and maybe they didn’t notice but that doesn’t mean it didn’t happen.

oscar is never anything less than completely sweet with max and charles—he’s not going around, like, being a dick to the other omegas in the paddock or anything, but his voice gets a little softer, his cheeks a little pinker, his eyes a little brighter, and his scent a little happier when it’s lestappen instead of anyone else. he can’t help it; his big, expressive eyes had gotten him the “heart-eyes piastri” label for how he looked at his teammate when they were just starting to become friends, not even close to how he feels about lestappen, and even if oscar doesn’t put the  pieces of his crush together, he still knows he lights up when he sees one or both of them approaching him before the parade or in parc ferme after the race.

lestappen honestly start out somewhat neutral? they both were aware of his junior career, praised his driving and congratulated him for earning his place in f1, but really, he’s just another mid to upper field alpha to beat, and they don’t pay him much mind at first. shockingly, i think max is the first one to change. he’s probably dismissive of alpha drivers by nature, much preferring to talk with charles or his other friends, and really, until suzuka, oscar had hardly been anywhere near him after the races anyways. so he notices him at suzuka, first. doesn’t think much of it; is glad he’s wearing his blockers in the cooldown room, but really max is far more distracted moping about Charles’s p4 being one spot away from sharing the podium with him. Oscar’s clearly ecstatic to be there, but it is his first career podium…and Max’s ego doesn’t mind the bits of hero worship he can see from the shy baby alpha either.

and then, that shy baby alpha beats him. doesn’t have to capitalize off of Max’s terrible qualifying and an even worse pit strategy; oscar gets lucky with the sprint qualifying, but it doesn’t matter because they both got passed anyways. max watches as the guy who he’s only seen be soft and reserved before, who’s spent almost all of the season sub-P8, puts his fucking elbows out and races max. 

it’s not the most impressive thing ever, obviously. max isn’t a swooning storybook omega. oscar only had to keep max behind him for half the sprint, with a safety car to boot; but oscar still won. and the next day he recovers from sixth to finish on max’s heels, and, well, come on. there’s a reason he’s in love with charles, the person he’s been racing against for most of his life; max can’t help having his interest piqued by the strange rookie that went from 11th in the Austria sprint straight up to 2nd in Belgium and a miraculous win in the Qatar sprint. max loves a challenge, and while oscar clearly isn’t an actual challenge yet (considering he then takes tenth in the both the next two sprint races), Qatar was the turning point of notice.

charles is simultaneously easier and harder. charles loves to be loved, of course, and oscar has probably been at least a little in love with charles since he was seventeen and dreaming of replicating the Sauber driver’s unmatched f2 season. max notices oscar first, yeah, but charles notices the puppy crush first, notices how oscar is just a little more prone to stammering around him and max than fellow omega drivers like george or esteban, how he listens raptly to max going on and on about the race, or to max and charles debating the merits of a U brake or a V brake on one of the corners—on one such occasion, when oscar is sitting nearby listening intently with a faint blush staining his cheeks, max brings him into their conversation, carefully coaxes out some opinions from him about the race and the track., and charles can practically see oscar with floppy puppy ears pitching forwards to talk better with max,  a cute little tail thumping in excitement. and he knows. he’s not going to say anything—it’s not the first time someone has had a crush on him or max, not even the first time another driver is the culprit (he scowls darkly, thinking of daniel’s hands on max’s tiny waist, but it automatically softens when oscar catches a glimpse and shoots him a wide-eyed, concerned expression, and charles dismisses the thoughts). frankly, of all the alphas it could’ve been, he doesn’t mind oscar being the one with the hero-worship crush. oscar doesn’t push, consciously or subconsciously; alphas like lewis are definitely respectful, but they have a certain amount of presence that they simply do not bother to reign in on a daily basis, buzzing dully on the outsides of the omega drivers’ brains. oscar .. doesn’t really have that? of course, he has a presence, he is not some kind of robot. charles hasn’t felt oscar’s ‘alpha-ness’ before but knows it has to be buried somewhere in there. he’s seen it almost come out from across paddock, seen the rookie snatching the wrist of an f2 reporter who’d been unlucky enough to be passing through oscar’s field of vision when he copped a lighting-quick feel off of omega fred vesti, the aussie’s face going stormy as he gripped it hard enough charles bet people closer than he was could’ve heard bones crack, and arthur had offhandedly described oscar being similarly protective when the prema gang went out drinking or clubbing, laughing and telling charles he’s like 80% sure oscar actually made some rando beta who wouldn’t take robert’s no for an answer piss his pants once. it’s sweet, or at the very least intriguing, how much effort the baby alpha seems to put into controlling his instincts and his presence. charles has never felt him slip, max hasn’t, and lando confirms he hasn’t either. it’s sweet how much he seems to try and keep it in.

(it’s sweet, yeah, but charles certainly isn’t, not deep down at his core. and deep down at his core, charles starts wondering how easily he and max could get that control to slip. starts wondering if all it would take is the slip of a scent blocker right before his heat, starts wondering how quickly oscar would beg for him).

probably the first time oscar realizes he might be in trouble (re: halfway in love) is falling asleep on one half of the only actually comfortable couch in that circuit’s grid room (it’s not a pack room, they don’t really do that, but it’s a place they can go where no other staff, reporters, or even team admins can go; a safe retreat) and waking up to muffled voices and the comfort of two truly delightful scents filling the room. oscar only wakes up in two ways; one, he bolts awake like something’s chasing him, or two, he muddles through the entire process, taking a solid two minutes from when he opened his eyes to actually feel conscious. this is the second, and so he isn’t really thinking about his own scent or who else might be in the room as he’s yawning, clumsily scrubbing sleep out of his eyes, pressing his legs absentmindedly against the steady warmth on the—red alert, red alert! that is not a ��steady warmth,” that is the steady warmth of max verstappen sitting on the other half of the only comfy couch, tangled up with a very amused charles and giving him a equally amused look. “you were making these little rumbles as you woke up,” he tells oscar, who is going brighter and brighter pink, “it sounded kind of like my cats do.” honestly, oscar doesn’t have any clue if he says something comprehensible in response. he blanks out. bluescreens. crashes. somehow gets his legs underneath him, scrambling like a baby deer, blurting out some semblance of an apology, and hauls ass from the grid room back to his own drivers room with his cheeks still about the same shade as alpine’s special livery. and for the first time he has to think about why he woudl instinctively reach for max and charles in a state he’s always been rather private about, why he acts the way he does around them. (why he gets jealous when they’re both on the podium with another driver and he’s not up there; he’s always chalked it up to wanting to be in their place but why, then, does it only happen when the podium is made up of max, charles, and any other driver? why doesn’t it happen when it’s just max or just charles on the podium?) and it’s not… not an italicized “oh” moment, per se. but it’s not really just an italicized “oh” moment either. no, oscar’s moment of realization goes a little bit more like: “oh, SHIT.”

Anon you've read my mind on so much of how Oscar would handle himself. And Charles would 100% be the instigator in the menace type way what is very in character.

Now. Can alpha Oscar handle two omegas at once? Uncertain. However I'd like to find out.

this does open up the hilarious option of them weaponizing omega stereotyping to pass off the fact that they’re clinically insane about each other as like “oh we’re just really great gal pals :] just 2 omegas hanging out, totally normal and platonic :] as best omega friends we do this all the time of course :]

HELP this is so funny.

Massive massive fan of "Oh shit" moments instead of the classic, it is true and it probably means trouble XD

Ty ty anon this is good food to ponder.

[sukirichi]

hiiii i have been absolutely loving DTD and i get so excited for all your updates 😭🫶🏼 just to clarify, was it chapter 11 when rin realized he was in love with the princess? was there an exact moment he realized?

also i must be toxic bc why do I love them together 😭 seeing how he described their first kiss literally changed me like wow he fr loved her all along …. i was wondering if their first time sleeping together was the same type of heart racing and life changing moment for rin in the way their first kiss was?

hiii aw thank you anon, i’m so happy to hear that! hmm i’d say he started getting around to the thought that he was in love around ch11, but he only ever realized it completely on ch13! i think the exact moment he knew he was in love was during the whole preparation of the beach house because . . . when they were there, focused only on building a life for themselves, he felt like a normal husband and wife yknow? they were affectionate with one another, weren’t arguing, and they were both involved in doing something that was for their future. that’s when rin had the realization that, “oh. this is the life i want, and its a life i want to spend with you.”

18+ ask ahead (no explicit scenes)

no i get you bcos i love them too!! oooh about their first intimate time together, okay 👀 i’d say it was unplanned, and none of them really thought about it. rin was traditional when it came to us (the whole courtship thing) and so he expected our first time with him would be during our honeymoon, but a simple makeout on the yuzuru estate’s study gets a little too heated. and with the knowledge that your parents aren’t home, you’re suddenly dragging him up into your room and insisting he take his damn clothes off. boyfriend! suna would be hesitant at first, asking you multiple times if you were sure + he was okay with waiting, and wants to reassure you both can just take your time. you’re impatient, however, so a kiss leads to another until you’re both stumbling in bed, and your first time with him was so good - he’d been so gentle, attentive, maybe even a little nervous because he’s eager to please you. it’s his first time being with someone with so much care and open communication on what the other wants. he never thought sex could feel so intimate and could be enjoyable even when he goes slow, until he meets you.

and by the end of multiple sessions, poor rintaro is so exhausted he passes out in your bed, and you lie to your parents for the first time that rin has already headed home, and is definitely not within your bed

[glitch-after-dark]

Mirnoah anon here.

Its been awhile but I have a small bloop in brain about the two waiting for their little bitty.

They find more and more cybertronians coming to Earth.

Prowl with his conjunx Jazz and their bitty Springer. Along with medic Ratchet who immediately checks Noah over at the discovery of his changing and successful carrying. Ratchet brought along his conjunx Deadlock and Hot rod.

Every bot is surprised Noah didn’t freak out seeing a decepticon with an autobot but he’s just, “cross faction relationships happen here too it should be expected anywhere honestly.”

And yeah they like this guy already and wow they didn’t know Mirage could be that gentle or look at someone the way he did Noah.

Deadlock, Ratchet and Hot rod have a bitty of their own, two actually, one Deadlock carried and one Ratchet carried and another on the way its just Hot rod hasn’t said anything yet.

Noah pieces it together pretty quick and the two are easy friends along with Bee and Jazz.

Horny moment but Noah has a moment where he leaks because Springer and Deadlock, Ratchet and Hot rods sparkling fuss and cry from hunger.

He’s so embarrassed because he did not want to be caught leaking again and he can’t help wanting to fuel the sparklings since carrier instincts get the better of him but Jazz just apologies for Noah’s shirt getting ruined as he takes him to Prowl while Hot rod brings the sparklings to deadlock and ratchet saying it was normal and that he’d get Mirage so the mech can drain him.

Bee of course doesn’t judge at all, again, simply saying one day he won’t worry about leaking.

Bee himself leaked and went to take care of it which Optimus was not happy about because it meant the decepticon who managed to get to Earth and immediately went looking for Bee could find him again.

Optimus is Bee’s carrier and Bee has accepted his carrier will never not be overprotective or let him peacefully spend time with his secret conjunx Starscream. Bee gets why his carrier is so over protective he does, its just, he wants more than a single night alone with Star and he decides to take it while the others are here.

Noah does bee a big favor by reaching out a hand to grip Optimus’s leg and look him optic to optic while telling him he’ll chase Bee completely away one day if he doesn’t tone it down just a little.

And yeah every bot is surprised when Optimus actually listens because he never does when it comes to Bee. Bee is so happy his door wings are fluttering and he’s hugging his carrier before going off to be literally picked up carried in the sky by Starscream who has his attention only on Bee doing elaborate mating dances before disappearing in the clouds.

“Please don’t follow them you will see something you don’t want to.”

And yeah Optimus was busying sulking on his old friends shoulder who just sighed as he and one his own conjunx fed their bitties and Prowl makes the craziest suggestion that makes Hot rod want to throttle himself but he can’t because one he’s sparked and two now his conjunxs and the others know he’s sparked too!

“Damnit Prowl why would you say it?! I didn’t want to tell them yet!”

Yeah Noah is just looking between the group so surprised and decides, “yeah take me home Raj,” his feet are sore his back is in pain, he’s leaked through his shirt, he’s hungry and just wants to be in their nest smelling only Raj and sitting in some peace and quiet.

His wish is Mirage’s command. The autobot immediately scoops him up and leaves, servo resting on his heavy belly as he rubs soothing circles into it while melting Noah to pregnant puddle of goo as he massages his back all the way home.

Maybe that night is filled with a lot of fragging for multiple couples across not only their faction but the decepticon ward as well?

Turns out the moon was affecting every cybertronian with charge and all across the factions many got sparked.

Bee comes back sparked, Noah was already sparked but he would have been with how long they were going at it. Prowl is sparked again much to his dismay, he did not want his pouches getting bigger nor being put on berth rest because Jazz used this to mellow him out- he’s not even really upset he just doesn’t want to get emotional again he can’t handle it—jazz can they’re fine— and Hot rod comes back with limp and an extra bitty in his forge tanks with two conjunxs who won’t let him out of their sights.

They’re pissed his hid his carrying and more so because the trip to Earth was dangerous.

Hot rod wasn’t sure he would keep them because they already have two and his own insecurities were getting the best of him. He was sure they wouldn’t want a sparkling with him, the two bitlets shared no code with Hot rod—the first was when Deadlock and ratchet were courting each other and the next after. Hot rod was dating them when this all happened he just didn’t become conjunx until after because he assumed/feared they’d want only each other and not him. Couldn’t be further from the truth and the night of the charged moon they forced his thoughts out of him and proved him wrong.

Noah and Mirage stayed at their home for awhile interfacing. The necessary metals would transfer from Mirage to Noah and leave the two tired. Mirage spent that time keeping Noah on his spike filled with transfluid while steadily drinking his energon milk rubbing his large belly with a servo.

Noah was always blissed out when this happened so he never said a thing other than the occasional i’n hungry or i love you.

I’m sorry i know this is a lot and went everywhere. There war also ends because no bot wants a war with bitlets present. They have no choice but to negotiate. Also, my bad for leaving just a long thread in your inbox

No need to apologize Anon! This was a long one though and I'm a bit exhausted so sorry I don't have much to add. You dropped a whole plethora of new ships into the Mirnoah Mechpreg Baby story. And mostly my favorite ships too. I'll just add some quick bullets.

Aww for JP raising baby Springer.

The Mirnoah baby is going to have SO MANY age mates

It's sweet that everyone notes how in love Mirage is and how it has changed him

Poor Hot Rod went through a lot didn't he? Glad the three of them are working on it.

Poor Optimus. He's just worried about Bee (who's not jsut seeing but Conjunx-ed to Starscream)

I always love the fluffy babies ever after endings not going to lie

Ooooooh! Interesting note about the moon influencing them (giving me flashbacks to the moon affecting Cybertronians because it was secretly dormant Unicron0