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me looking at the discourse~~ in the 4mins tag right now:
#4 minutes the series#4 minutes#like y'all know you don't have to TAG salty opinions right#like shit can y'all tag it as anti xxx or xxx critique so myself and others can block#you're bringing down the house party#the cookout is for good vibrations#chaos pikachu speaks#i don't be tagging my opinions about monster next door offgun's 16 shows or kidnap i just keep it in the group chat#rip we've lost ourselves as a fandom#sidenote hate the idea that an individual not liking a thing equals bad writing
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#and before anyone who hates my shit says “yeah because you ARE a loser way to have self awareness for once”#i promise you this would be me with or without the LO fandom LMAO#anxiety is a hell of a thing#and as much as i internally guilt myself into thinking it would be better if i just shut up and hid away forever#i also know that's the trauma speaking because the adults around me always told me to shut up#and even as an adult i still encounter people who talk over me and make me feel like i'm not allowed to be outspoken#but the pen is mightier than the sword and all those years i've spent being spoken over i've been honing my penmanship#i have fun talking about the things i talk about and i don't have any less right than anyone else to do it#i am cringe and i am free#self post#vent post#altho on another note i do wanna make time this week to go find new series to read#too many of my favorites have turned to shit and it's taken its toll#i KNOW there are better comics out there that are genuinely well made#i already have a few that i'm reading that i love but i need to balance out the good with the bad more lol#i just need to take the time to go find good stuff instead of pouring so much of my attention into the bullshit that doesn't deserve my tim#i think both things can be true#i can have a lot of fun dissecting and writing about series i don't like#while also nourishing myself with good works that restore my faith in this medium#“perfectly balanced as all things should be”
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happy to have an offgun sunday show back on the docket but i can already tell this series is going to put a bee in my bonnet every week about late stage capitalism foisting its cancer upon all workplace cultures and turning things like internships from learning and exploratory opportunities to build skills and discover interests in a field, to an expectation of free/low paid but inexplicably pre-skilled labour. do you think ye olde blacksmith's apprentice showed up to the first day of the apprenticeship and the blacksmith is like "what do you mean you don't know how to shoe a horse?? that's so basic" no. the expectation of apprenticeship is that a newborn emptyheaded youngin with a vague notion that metal is cool shows up, and is taught how to blacksmith. the expectation is not that the young savant of metalwork turns up with a list of horses already shoed, including One Very Special One in the Royal Stable, and god would you please please please allow me to debase myself for you, o blacksmith? my resumé is just like the journeyman's!! this workplace culture is a modern invention!! they used to teach you things at work!!
[breathing audibly] i just think entry level should mean entry level, and that as much effort goes into gathering experience that makes people competitively hire-able, ability, opportunity, and luck also play a role. it is lucky to know your passion early enough to be able to groom yourself to competitiveness in a sharky field of work, but a person should be able to turn up for entry level positions/interning with an unabashed "i know nothing" as long as it's followed with an "and i'm ready to learn" and it is in neoliberalism's favour to allow work environments to cut their costs by eschewing the responsibility to teach. to train the trainee.
#the trainee#the trainee the series#...so this makes it seem like i didn't like the ep when i super did#i just hate hustle and grind and neoliberalism and i want to hold ryan in my palm like an eggcup#i can hear myself taking it too seriously lmaoooo uh oh gmmtv you hit my hot button. i'm not criticising the writing though!!#they're faithfully rendering an environment i would love to love but am forced to loathe lmaoo#i just want a world where you show up on your first day and your equivalent p'jane says#'hey so the way it works here is i give you a brief in the morning so it'd be good to have a notepad and pen ready.'#'also the hard deadline for this is 6pm which means you need to be done filming 2/3 so it can go for editing by 5pm.'#okay i'm going to stow this now bc i have 0% faith that gmmtv will make any meaningful sustained criticism of capital culture#being as they barely follow through on their richboy/poorboy tensions ever other than for antagonistic chemistry fodder#BUT. despite what all that^ sounds like i enjoyed the ep lmaoooo. looking forward to it genuinely i swear#liomsa
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If you need me, I'll be in this exact moment for the next six days.
Pisaeng isn't even saying anything here; he is just indignantly buttoning the pajamas on Kawi, yet Kawi finds his behavior oddly cute.
Kawi was studying Pisaeng's face and because he is drunk, he had a raw reaction to Pisaeng's face and realized it was annoyingly adorable. He has admitted several times that he believes Pisaeng to be very attractive, but now he notices all the softness in Pisaeng as well. Now, he realizes Pisaeng isn't just attractive, but attractive to him.
So he decided to touch Pisaeng's face. Play with Pisaeng's hair. Ask Pisaeng why a rich kind guy like him who could have anyone would like a poor mean loser like him (<- Kawi was asking the important questions).
And when Pisaeng, the guy Kawi has been endlessly staring at without interruption for the past few minutes and the guy who he has always thought to be unreasonably attractive but now is realizing is also annoyingly cute to him, when that guy tells Kawi he thinks that Kawi is cute, it had to be a sobering moment.
This rich, kind, and attractive guy thinks he is cute.
Kawi is really a walking epitome of a One Direction song. The guy does not realize how beautiful he is. He only sees himself as a poor mean loser, so having this handsome guy, who he considers the perfect man, tell him he thinks Kawi is cute so confidently without any hesitation, it . . .
I wanted Pisaeng to offer more than a simple "you're cute which is enough" reason for liking Kawi, but now that I've been living in this scene for 24 hours, it is more. This cute guy thinks that Kawi is cute, and that's all Kawi really needs. He needs to know that Pisaeng sees them as the same. If a cute kind guy sees mean Kawi as cute, then Kawi could be a kind guy too. He could also be just as good as Pisaeng because Pisaeng already thinks he is.
And that's enough.
Others obviously see Kawi better than he views himself, but having Pisaeng openly tell Kawi was exactly what Kawi needed.
Kawi needed to hear he is enough for the guy who has everything, so he could be everything that guy thinks he already is.
Kawi IS cute.
The cutest guy told him that.
And the cutest guy hasn't ever lied to him.
#be my favorite#be my favorite the series#this show and its honesty#pisaeng x kawi#I'm unwell about this#I'm obsessed about this an unhealthy amount#why did I just write this much about that one second giggle?!#I hate myself but I love this show more
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The backlash against Frozen, which, from my observation, has cooled down (that isn't a joke, I swear-) quite a bit over the past few years, was less based on the quality of the movie itself and more on the fact that its massive success and reach really overshadowed a lot of other movies that came out prior to it and after it and was getting credited for stuff that had already been done before plenty of times, and in many cases, in those exact movies. This is why, to this day, many fans STILL refuse to give Tangled its props without trying to put Frozen down in some way. In their eyes, Tangled should have gotten the glory and accolades Frozen received, but did not, and that made them quite jealous. Overall, Frozen is far from a bad movie. It's a great movie with a great message, characters, music and does actually deserve the success and recognition it got, and some fans need to stop being so salty about it and uplift their fav movies without putting Frozen down so they get the proper appreciation they deserve as well. Although, yes, the credit this movie got for allegedly introducing themes, archetypes and tropes that had already been seen before in Disney, including movies set in a fairytale world with heroines as the protags, was undoubtedly the most annoying part about its success and is part of the reason why many tried to drag this movie and its main leads.
#disney#frozen#txt#ngl i was part of the hate train for a long time too#not as much as others tho but still i was one of these people who thought frozen was overrated af#but now i realized i was kinda full of it for that opinion#when i saw it the first time the major gripe i had with how many songs it had#but now i'm actually fine with that#idk my stance on this movie had always been a weird one#i have always contradicted myself when it came to this movie#until recently when i've finally begun to embrace it#i have always liked it and not liked it? idk. it's been weird#i do want to see thiw franchise get expanded but i'd prefer a tv series#and i think frozen ii needs a retcon ngl that movie was a whole shitshow writing wise#and the message was not as impactful i'm sorry but it's in line with the typical “the power is actually in me” bullshit#it's some selfish nonsense and is against the main theme of almost every disney movie#which is about how your dreams will come true if you have faith AND do for others. something even better will happen or you will want#something else entirely#it's about selflessness love and sacrifice whether it's romantic platonic familiar or even related to the community as a whole#but anyways that's an entirely different point#so yeah frozen isn't a terrible movie you guys. i think the anger is misplaced
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blacked out and wrote 500 words of a fic that i'm not even sure i'll be able to tackle bc i read too much on ao3 even though i'm still in s2 and now i'm ill and unwell and Eliot Spencer is rotting my brain from the inside out and the playlist blew up to almost a thousand songs. i'm blaming this specifically on Joan Armatrading and Johnny Flynn
#tv: leverage#leverage#local gay watches Leverage (or their first American series in f*cking years and gets a shiny new OT3 to show for it).txt#local gay writes fanfic.txt#Uncanny Valley and and Down to Zero........................... i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you f*ck you for doing this to me#if i think too hard about the working title i'll throw myself off a bridge. not good
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I would say you’re more of a Mr peanut butter type yeah
doggy doggy what now?
#sci speaks#i love mr peanutbutter.#i think i love especially that eventually people stopped liking him.#cute quirky doggy winds up being a JERK actually just like the rest of us.#i love him and i love that.#really need to rewatch bojack actually because i don't remember it very well but god do i remember Loving it.#i think it's probably the best adult animated series i've ever seen. just. like. i don't know. it's the kind of writing that i really love.#where all the characters are bad actually. and you think they might be outwardly put together but they're not.#bojack is a GREAT SHOW. depressing but great.#i can't even like recommend it to anybody i'm like. yeah. it'll depress you. sorry. but that's why i like it.#i like those kind of ugly sincere emotions that make me feel less alone for being an asshole sometimes.#not in a “haha this character i like is an asshole so i can be an asshole too” kind of a way but in a .#i shouldn't despise myself because this is just part of what it is to be human i guess. you'll mess up and make selfish choices.#we all have that same software and i don't know. makes me feel less alone. i love to see that nobody else has it put together either.#it's not just me floating in the world with no direction.#it do be why i hate people who point at a character and say “BAD ROLEMODEL!! why aren't they PERFECT??”#get out shut up i hate you.#try living LIFE for five days maybe.
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if anyone has any problem making sense of the way i interpret Kaiba just remember this: Tea Gardner looks at him one day and has the dawning realization "hes like a lesbian of some kind" this should make all the pieces fall into place
#not art#tea gardner#anzu mazaki#seto kaiba#yugioh#ygo#i mean it. kisara existing or not. i mean ittttt#i look at him. i look at myself. i look at his barely contained animosity towards all men- immediate competition- rivals#and then his much more calm reception of women. and i go ''hes literally me''#this is why im forever kaiba-mai valentine kaiba-ishizu friendship truther. tea doesnt make the cut but like.#if i write the series again id have to make him choose her for anything that isnt dueling. that spot is determinedly atem#but hes gotta sit next to someone from yugi gang for a flight? gardner. hes gotta share a cab? gardner. hes gotta save a yugi friend?#gardner.#not that they speak. not that hed want to spend time with her he doesnt have to. but to me hes like those dogs that hate men always#mai valentine would genuinely have his respect -she seems to have given battles of her own and came out a bit similar to him#hed actively enjoy her humor especially if joey is the butt of it. she would actively make an effort to get close too. birds of a feather#ishizu though. ohhh hed be so annoyed anytime shes like ''fate and gods and magic'' the way i am when straight girls bring up.#astrology. and tarot and whatnot. half disproving and trying to convince them. half listening to see where they take it#but 100% not taking it seriously for himself#but shes an accomplished woman who can be a deadly business woman and hed like that part of her.#again he can see himself reflected in powerful women and the sexist writing aside he just wouldnt be threatened by them#COUGH gozaburo COUGH.#sigh i just gotta make everything about that asshole dont i.#<- actual seto kaiba thought whenever he has an emotional awakening to his trauma once again being tied to gozaburo#DAMN im a good kinnie. yeeeesh
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Me 6 hours ago: haha wouldn’t it be funny if I wrote fic for a music video of all things?
Me 3 hours ago: well fuck
Me now: anyway the series is called Placeholder, coming to a fic-hosting platform near you!
#cookie writes#I HATE MYSELF#AND MY FRIENDS#other cookie & shu & bard#look what you’ve done#I’m writing a SERIES NOW#and I still have that damn wuju bakery fic!!!#what is it about this man that makes me want to write the most unreasonable things
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#1364
tonight, in a dream, i was writing a huge essay about how the witcher 3 feels in general and how lousy hl feels put to contrast. should i write it some day
#днявочка#eng tag#in short hl is an eye candy but not much else while w3 is masterfully done in almost every department#i say almost because it isnt an rpg game nor it is 15/10 game of all time. it has that potential however and it is already a solid game#i also curse that asshat who sprinkled skellige waters with ??? i hate you bro hear me i hate you have a nice day#i also realise that this comparison has a bias. hl is made by newbies and is done cheaply. w3 had experienced team behind it#still. im not giving hl a breather for a very simply reason: wb isnt a teeny tiny indie company. yet they had no money to spare ->#-> likewise my patience for cashgrabs presented as art thins out very quickly and believe me i hate plethora of things in hl *ardently*#i just dont post about them often because i just know myself i will write a lot just like i do with my hogwarts inquires series#anyway do lmk
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good god how does anyone write long format stories. how does no one get tired of the story theyre writing. i mean i dont get tired when reading it but its because im seeing it for the first time. laboring over a story is just such a lengthy process and you have to do it again and again and again--
#this sounds like i hate writing; i don't.#i just get wide eyed and in awe when someone has a really long series because i cant focus myself long enough to write#like at length.#i need new ideas and stories or i will simply rot and cry
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they/themavos real
#the dragon prince#lgbt#aaravos#i know tumblr hates chat ai but personally i enjoy it it amuses me#im also going into computer science so like#u can view me as The Enemy if you want ig#but#idk personally i feel yeah#publishing ai writing for a profit anywhere is totally wrong#and underpaying/overworking workers#but being a little silly and goofy with the chat bots#without feeding it anyone else’s writing#that’s coolio#yk basically there are lines that shouldn’t be crossed#it’s like any sort of technological advancement. it can be used for good but also to cause harm in the wrong hands. arcane tv series moment#but you can’t deny the advance it doesn’t rlly care if you do or not lmao#unsolicited rant yk but here u go#self spaghettification#😘#original post#tag rant#it’s a tool. like anything else#it’s good not to become too reliant on it though#its a tool with a lot of possibility :)#i do have some of that guilt going into cs like am i selling my soul to the devil?…. i mean maybe#but also automating things is nice. making advancements is nice#so yk. ultimately i think it’s best to be a well rounded person with both scientific and humanitarian intent in mind#and im open about basically every facet of myself good or bad lol
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“i want to spend the rest of my life with you, scar,” grian said slowly, constructing the sentence carefully, trying to perfectly articulate exactly what he was trying to say. “but, i can’t give you what you’d want.”
“how do you know what i want?” scar asked, it sounded more like a desperate plea, for something, for grian. he took a step forward, closing the distance between them a little bit more. “i want you, i don’t care what that entails. i just,” he paused for a second, shrugging helplessly. “i can’t lose you.”
#idk what this is???#but it would not leave my brain!! 😁#i have no idea what the plot would be around this??? but that’s for me in the morning to figure out 😘#future me is going to hate present (then past) me so much but it’s fine because i don’t care <3<3#perhaps like…. watcher grian trying to save scar from his world of hurt#life series grian feeling so bloodthirsty but knowing that that’s not how scar goes about it#just throwing out some ideas for myself <3#see! i’m not totally awful 😌#hmmmm… weird conceptual thing that i’m sure i’ll remember in the morning!!! what could go wrong if i don’t write it out 😁😁#anyway into the drafts this post goes for now#it’ll see y’all in the morning#EHAT WAS TWO AM ME ON? THISNIS KINDA GOOD#i could make this qpr scarian 👀 like aroace grian sure that he can’t give scar what he wants meanwhile aroace scar is willing to love#grian in any way to still have him <3#scarian#desert duo#hermitshipping#snippet
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VILE SERIES : "BRIGHT"
#writers on tumblr#spilled ink#poetry#typography#artists on tumblr#poem#writing#prose#writeblr#visual writing#poets on tumblr#experimental writing#lettering#spilled words#poets of tumblr#literature#original writing#dark academia#Hate#Bright#disgusting#tired#useless#i hate my body#I hate myself#worthless#whor3#Coward#continental breakfast#vile series
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I know that the 'even the gods bleed' is intended as neuvi romantic (according to the tags) but Im honestly so in love with furina shes the cutest and Id let her play with my hair all day. Really excited to read more of your fics and get more moments with her (ill feed my delusions and see her as romantic). Your writing is great, it keeps me engaged and makes me want to keep reading.
honestly i try to keep it vague enough that like. yeah there might be something there with basically everyone in the fic rn (and more later on. because why are fontaine characters so attractive...) so like. absolutely can read furina as the intended romance KJSDKFH she is my bias anyway if it isnt obvious i've spent like $200 on her banner i am, in fact, her number one fan.
basically trying not to put too much emphasis on a character so everyone can read it thru the lens of romancing whoever they want without alienating anyone so everyone is free game. furina?? go for it. neuvi?? absolutely. wrio?? hell yeah.
furina is the only right answer, though. indisputable.
#asks#anon#furina enjoyers are very much welcomed here i am one KJSDKFKH#if i wasnt physically restraining myself it would have been a furina romance fic in its entirety but alas........#glad you like my fics this is feeding my ego perfectly. i am going to be so annoying now#mostly this entire series is a big experiment ngl. i HATE writing multiple characters and multi fic series lol#i just want to work on getting better at it bc writing conversation flow still alludes me#fatui fans r getting fed next i just gotta pspspspspspspsps them into this nice cardboard box propped up by a stick first
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karen is MY special white woman. my problematic fave. because i understand why she sucks. i think in order to be allowed to be a karen fan you have to actually understand why she sucks. if you don't understand why she sucks then you're a bad karen fan i think.
#i think one of fhe reasons i dont like many of her fans and what made me feel :| about liking her at first is her many like.#unconditional supporters i think. and i get it. a lot of it comes from how misogynistic ppl are about her. but like. she also sucks mega bad#this is also mostly show fans. not many ppl are talking about her in a comic context. but it's like.#there is a difference from defending her from the very real misogyny against her VS defending her every move#the same way there is a big difference between critiquing her and analyzing her as a character vs straight up misogynist hate#but it's like. oughhhhh not enough of you get her. to be fair despite my jokes i know i cant claim to mega understand her either#but i think i give a lot more thought than some others do about her.#also all her wrongs are honest to god equivalent to many other male characters in this series in terms of ''''Bad Person''''.#but we get more of a focus on it bc she is the love interest.#but like. foggy is also deeply ableist to matt too. and rude as a friend to him for a long time.#and matt sucks so bad himself. and is /deeply/ misogynist for a long time in comics.#they all have their faults and when i think about that im like it really is no sin to like her. bc many other characters in terms of the#things people very validly crit about her. not many others of this cast are better!#and it's fine. bc it's who they are as people in their story. bc this is how real life often is and of course they will not hold the same#beliefs as you the real person who can often know better than them. due to also living in a very different time period from their creations#+ where most of these runs take place.#OKAY IM DONE TLDR I like karen! she sucks! but so does everyone else in this series! so i have let myself learn it is fine#but also. ohhhhh my beef with show karen. very different from my beef with comics karen. i have a lot of very specific beef with show karen#but also. a lot of that comes less from her as a character (MAJORITY OF THE TIME. DEFINITELY TIMES WHERE IT IS OF HER OWN AS A CHARACTER BUT#STILL IMPACTED BY) THE. HM. ATTITUDES OF THAT WRITING ROOM. THE VERY PISS POOR RACIST ATTITUDES OF THAT WRITING ROOM.#so trust me. trust me i doooooo understand the hate. but there is still a hefty majority of misogyny fueled hate about her instead of her#actual character flaws and the beliefs she has and holds and acts on.#but oh a karen lover who hates elektra in show well it makes me wish that blond woman would get laser shot.#but that is besides the point. point is i love comics karen and i think it's interesting to analyze and view her#my romance comic leading lady trapped in a cape comic<\3#static.soundz
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