#i hate having borderline personality disorder

[sweetgirl-069]

hiii, sorry i haven’t been super active lately luvs !! unfortunately i have bpd and am going through an amazing episode of depression and mania rn 😍😍 sorry if your dms aren’t answered/are answered slowly, i’m really struggling rn :(( hope you’re all doing well!!!

hugs and kisses !! <333

[unlovablereject]

Bpd sucks... I'm sitting here, it's such a heavy rain inside my chest... I'm so angry. Words floating through my head, words I don't mean and regret even thinking.

I'm tired of the big feelings and the the lack of emotional regulation.

I'm just tired...

Really, really... tired...

[bloomdoom1]

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[rosesandthorns44]

That chronic illness feeling where you don't want to die soon, but the idea of spending another 60 or so years in this body makes you want to scream.

[twmydiary]

god i feel so fucking stupid why cant i just shut the fuck up

[purplebunny222]

haha what do u mean that’s not normal

[yikes-ajax-thats-sad]

Dropping this stupid thing I made here like bread crumbs for all you nasty birds <3

[a-healthy-dose-of-apathy]

bpd is so fucking stupid like why does my brain wanna throw a tantrum bc someone in my house drank all my coke without asking

[cut-n-snared]

me attempting to be a better friend so that all my friends wont leave me but this is the response i get ;-;

[daddysroyalwhore]

Just wanna die in a hole alone so I can stop ruining or breaking or hurting everything around me. Is that so much to ask for, universe?

[moonsunbam]

me waiting for my depression and borderline episode to be over so i can start being fun and myself again:

im sorry to everyone that i loved, every friend, family and oomf who has to deal with my sick self, i know that its hard to love or like me when im being insufferable, i promise I will get better soon! i hate myself too when im like this

[raspbrrypup]

thinking about an old fp makes me feel so empty inside

[bloomdoom1]

I wonder what I look like in your eyes

[its-simply-just-krys]

how is it fair that he did this to me and he gets to walk away unscathed, but leaving me with lifelong trauma and the most painful fucking disorder that affects every single fucking aspect of my goddamn life.

how is it fair that he can start over and get into a relationship while i can barely even keep one.

how is it fair that he can keep on living his normal everyday life while leaving me with all of this emotional hell-ish turmoil and self hatred and it’s up to ME to try to get better and heal myself.

how is any of this FUCKING FAIR

[twmydiary]

screaming, crying, and ripping my fucking hair out!!! I hate fucking cismen!!! I hate my bpds stupid evil obsession with them!!!

GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE

[tonya-the-chicken]

It's funny to me when people try to explain why LoV is beloved and Endeavor hated with "they are more sympathetic", "people find them relatable" or "they have actual issue while Endeavor just has his ambitions"

I mean??? I find Endeavor extremely sympathetic and relatable. You just never had to experience problems he had so you assume they don't fucking exist. Bro, you ever had a mental breakdown because you didn't end up the best? Like, do you genuinely think this is not something that can be overwhelmingly distressing to a person? Do you genuinely believe he wouldn't settle for second place if he could? Do you think he can just stop and suddenly be happy? You have no idea how much work therapy actually is, he is not doing it just for funsies

I mean, idk how to explain you this but maybe it is a bit annoying how you sympathize with people only when you find their trauma and problems relatable