#i feel like i should tw this even if its in tags

[roxyco-deliverygirl]

Hi delivery girlie mild crisis

[ghastlyaffairs]

for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of

also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut

the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)

[brambeag]

birth of baby durge

[lover-of-mine]

Fought 'til you tethered me, swept under surfaces, never enough of it...

[transmasccofee]

the time loop chapter is so fucked up i think about it every day and reading the manga its worse because there’s certain dialogue that was cut out of the anime (presumably to make it acceptable for kids)

Like ok. im gonna give a play by play from Saiki’s POV. so you can For a second imagine how much stress Saiki had to be under.

Imagine walking home from school and out of nowhere you get trapped in a time loop, already bad, but you can get out of it easy- except uh oh! now you are in ANOTHER time loop. ok, fine, get out of that. It goes on so long that you eventually stop being able to process anything around you but whatever, its fine. EXCEPT UH OH! A THIRD TIME LOOP! This time you are trapped in a loop of watching your best friend run into traffic to protect a small child, and the only one able to save them from dying brutally is you. You save the day, great, Unfortunately this is a time loop and now you’re trapped in this hell, watching your best friend dive in front of a moving truck. You need to have an empty mind to leave this, but thats hard because you also have to keep them from getting flattened. You’re getting more and more exhausted, but thats fine. You watch them get brutally killed in various ways thousands of times, over and over and over and over again, but thats fine. it’s still looping. you keep failing to save them. it’s still looping.

Rather than emptying your mind, Eventually you just disassociate, its gone on so long that your body is moving on its own. You are so tired, and you’ve seen your best friends organs on the road now probably a couple hundred times at this point (seriously Wtf Asou) and so it’s all just blended into the background.

You disassociate so hard your mind is empty. Your body moves on its own to save them. The Time Loop is finally over. You went through this 16,785 times.

[that-jack-kline-bestie]

so fucking upset. i looked up what's considered concerning weight loss and got a statistic. i looked up the same question but specified teens and i got a bunch of articles about how to lose weight. what the fuck

[an-theduckin]

Wait shit people might actually care about me

[piplupod]

and i often get upset with myself for complaining and venting as much as i do, or also for being as anxious as i am, but given the circumstances that I live in, I do think realistically I am being ... incredibly "well-behaved", all things considered. i could be acting so much worse.

but i do still wish i weren't so ... [gestures vaguely at this whole mess] because it's off-putting for people! and understandably so! but i wish i could make friends!

[dizzybevvie]

"not pro-ana just using the tags" "pro-ana only for myself" Ok but you see how you're still hurting people right. you see how you're perpetuating this mindset for other people by posting about it right.

[thatnerdyqueer]

do yall ever get soooo sick of people pretending that life is so sanitised all the time?

Like how scandalised some people act the moment a story mentions something slightly unhealthy? Or you insult someone, or not even insult - just use a word (bitch, cunt, queer, fag, etc) that they're not accustomed to and it's like an immediate social boycott. Or even - the other day my parents were disgusted by how cutting my brother's violin teacher can be like oh that's abuse that's so rude blah blah blah. That's his job. He's supposed to criticise. And my dad, my dad who was the one who taught me to be like this, was so at sea when he walked in on one of my mental breakdowns like 'oh this negative self talk is becoming internalised' when all i said was 'i can't play this piece. At least not at the concert tomorrow.' and sure i was in tears and stuff but y'know sometimes that's art??? That's just what music does to you??? and it's ok, It's worth it!!!

and then, and then it's the same people that get so up in arms if you call them out for using a slur that doesn't apply to them that they can't reclaim or like unhealthy ways of thinking or just general 'abuse' (it's not really abuse it's just not particularly nice). And suddenly oh but that's just the way that we act! That's the way we're supposed to behave!

Like ugh I just hate the hypocrisy of it all. Sometimes I hang out with my friends, or just, like, other artists, after spending ages with regular people and I get shocked. But it's so refreshing because

oh it's bad to normalise unhealthy or harmful ways of life until it's their unhealthy and harmful way of life

idk is that just me?

[deus-and-the-machina]

ngl the worst thing about the xenoblade fandom (which I think is the root cause of a lot of other issues) is that it’s mostly on twitter. I have to subject myself to twitter for any real consistent fan talk or content. legit there's always some new stupid topic of argument ive noticed in the past few weeks on there and its all very silly and frustrating and what im saying is everyone should move to Tumblr. please. for me. 

[xxlethal-lunaxx]

If anyone relates to this even just a little bit, then I'm so sorry.

[miwtual]

goddamn i am. exhausted <3

[ominousposting]

i dont know what to do right now

[pepprs]

i guess im starting a tradition of double ventposting lol but the last thing i’llsay (maybe) is like… all of that has a caveat which is that my emotional object permanence has been absolutely OBLITERATED by 3 yrs of covid hell and it is really doing a number on me. clearly

[mango-nectars]

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