#i dont think ill make it to thursday

[drjemmanugent]

OKAY SO IM NOT A SPOILER FREE BLOG

I respect everyone’s choice to wait for thursday and y’alll have my admiration for your sheer STRENGTH! (how do you do it!?)

if you don’t want spoilers for polin, bridgerton S3, etc., that is totally OKAY ☺️ so please scroll on by. i don’t want to ruin anything for you friend 🥰

BUT-

if you are okay with spoilers, like yours truly-who likes to absorbs everything at once and then shamelessly binge watches again and again, come on in! 😉

so today netflix released the orchestral list for S3 part 1.

out of all the songs, many seem to find “give me everything” by pitbull totally bizarre and I will say too, its definitely out there for a choice. (jealous on the other hand is gold and so colin-coded, but that’s another post). could “gme” be a dancing scene, a montage, a running-to sequence…?? who the heck knows! the only thing on the TUDUM website that inidcates anything about ut is that it will be in ep4…

so i looked for the song version and its a pleasant surpise tbh, the melody and everything really does fit bridgerton 🤣

so for the SPOILER, final warning, i think i found out what the melody will be a background to… i “stumbled” upon a leaked audio for what seems to be the carriage scene (c:apaperpop on TT) OH MY PEARLS and you can hear the beginning strings of the melody behind their words. FOR THE CARRIAGE SCENE

IM ded

no, im still alive but im barely breathing

it’s a choice…

but WHAT A CHOICE and it makes sense?? wot? i think…

the build up the song has, plus the emotions in the scene… i need CPR

anyways, thats all… it might not be much but i’m pretty proud i managed to find this out while on my lunch break from work, if i do say so myself… and i do, so toodaloo 😘

[munchboxart]

Yay I finally managed to make my 2023 art summary! First half of the year was a little disappointing looking back (in terms of both amount and quality). I think I managed to make more personal work this year, thankfully, which is what I wanted last year

[deathbypufferfish]

Doing everything I physically can to not buy cities skylines until my next paycheck I will persevere

[rememberthelaughtermp3]

my piece for @transfemanthony 's thursday zine :) sorry abt the weird cropping, i did try to fix that but editing photos on a laptop is harder than it seems lmao

[autism-corner]

whoever decided that a mental illness should have negative effects needs to DIE.

[sk3l3t0n1n]

i hate myself so fucking much

[amicus-siderum]

Will I see the end of this exam season, or will it see the end of me?

That is the question.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[yume-fanfare]

stupid guy who sees cool art project and immediately goes "whoa that's so cool i should join" but has a ton of deadlines already

[phagodyke]

why are glasses so expensiveeeee

[good-enemy]

Can I ask what you think about the Travis relationship? Do you think it’s real or PR? Do you think it will end any time soon? I just hate it so much

Honestly I have no idea, tbh i hadn't really thought about it being PR 🤔 I do think it's real but I wouldn't be like really shocked if it turned out to be PR lol

Idk how soon it will end or if it will end honestly, I feel like they might get married what with how much she talked abt it on ttpd and how much she obviously wants to get married but who knows, maybe she will just never stop working and never have time for marriage :(

[lampregistration3000]

how do i explain to a woman whos daughter that is my age who is currently actively dying that i Do Not want to help her clean up her mess because she can't plan worth a damn and makes it everyone else's problem.

[m00ngbin]

I have to draw something it's been two days and I said I'd draw every day but I just don't want to but I'm kind of running on a deadline that expires Wednesday but I drew something two days ago and I'm going to hate drawing for like two more days but I don't have time for that so urgh my day was awful actually thanks for asking, how was YOUR day?

[tchaikovskym]

I've had lazy autumn just to jump in ITS THE SECOND WEEK OF THE YEAR YOU HAVE TO DO 186469 THINGS FOR WORK AND 789 THINGS FOR SCHOOL AND 4 THINGS FOR ENSURING A NICE WEEKEND TRIP AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[ccrv-7]

its 2 am im getting up at 6 tomorrow and am gonna have to stay in town for a looong long time cause we have a concert at 6pm. fuck. shit. fuck

[aropride]

i dont want to do "schoolwork" i want to traumadump. When i was in high school my (ocd-fueled, completely uncontrollable) skin picking was at its worst and there were times i could barely hold a pencil to write bc of how much of my fingers were just open wounds (i have a theory this is part of why i hold pencils "wrong" still- the other part is my parents were too focused on my brothers' fine motor skill development and forgot about me- but i digress) and my parents banned me from using band aids bc i was using too many and they thought it would make me stop using them (it did not) (i remember one time i hung out w friends after school and they walked with me to the grocery store so i could secretly buy bandaids, ���� would bring them to me too like multiple times, it was a whole thing) so every morning i'd use masking tape and pieces of paper towel or tissue to cover my fingers so i didn't get blood everywhere and i'd steal bandaids from my parents and cut them in half so they'd last longer and use those. anyway during midterms week in late january of my sophomore year i was in an abusive relationship and she had a habit of weaponizing her mental illness to manipulate me while also ignoring my mental illness . and i specifically remember. during my health class midterm i had trouble writing or holding a pencil bc of how bad my skin picking was at the time, like i probably had to turn that paper in with blood on it, it was so painful, there were tears in my eyes, etc. i think i actually got knocked points on one of the later written questions bc i didn't answer all the parts of the question. and the day after my health midterm- late january 2019, my midterm for that class was on a tuesday, i could pin it down to a day if i wanted- i was with my girlfriend-at-the-time in the lobby of my school, and she was talking abt how she couldn't do something because she had a cold, and i mentioned how i couldn't do it bc of my skin picking, and i so vividly remember her saying "well, i can't help having a cold, you can help picking your skin". and i think that was the moment where it really clicked subconsciously like "oh i have GOT to get OUT of this." as you can see this is living rent free in my head 6 years later. it's 10am on a thursday in 2024 and i'm thinking about it.