#i dont think ill make it to thursday
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OKAY SO IM NOT A SPOILER FREE BLOG
I respect everyone’s choice to wait for thursday and y’alll have my admiration for your sheer STRENGTH! (how do you do it!?)
if you don’t want spoilers for polin, bridgerton S3, etc., that is totally OKAY ☺️ so please scroll on by. i don’t want to ruin anything for you friend 🥰
BUT-
if you are okay with spoilers, like yours truly-who likes to absorbs everything at once and then shamelessly binge watches again and again, come on in! 😉
so today netflix released the orchestral list for S3 part 1.
out of all the songs, many seem to find “give me everything” by pitbull totally bizarre and I will say too, its definitely out there for a choice. (jealous on the other hand is gold and so colin-coded, but that’s another post). could “gme” be a dancing scene, a montage, a running-to sequence…?? who the heck knows! the only thing on the TUDUM website that inidcates anything about ut is that it will be in ep4…
so i looked for the song version and its a pleasant surpise tbh, the melody and everything really does fit bridgerton 🤣
so for the SPOILER, final warning, i think i found out what the melody will be a background to… i “stumbled” upon a leaked audio for what seems to be the carriage scene (c:apaperpop on TT) OH MY PEARLS and you can hear the beginning strings of the melody behind their words. FOR THE CARRIAGE SCENE
IM ded
no, im still alive but im barely breathing
it’s a choice…
but WHAT A CHOICE and it makes sense?? wot? i think…
the build up the song has, plus the emotions in the scene… i need CPR
anyways, thats all… it might not be much but i’m pretty proud i managed to find this out while on my lunch break from work, if i do say so myself… and i do, so toodaloo 😘
#someone help#i dont think ill make it to thursday#the bridgerton prod team are geniuses and i am always pleasantly surprised by their choice#so much love poured into this show and it shows#spoilers#bridgerton#bridgerton season 3#polin#colin x penelope#penelope featherington#colin bridgerton#still pitbull for a regency drama is BOLD and im actually here for it#color me impressed#that they made it fit so well
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Yay I finally managed to make my 2023 art summary! First half of the year was a little disappointing looking back (in terms of both amount and quality). I think I managed to make more personal work this year, thankfully, which is what I wanted last year
#i think i had more examples to use this year compared which is good#esp the latter half of the year#in terms of improvement? i am starting to draw backgrounds..#i dont even think i have a 2022 art summary good lord (i think its bc i did mainly comms and barely any personal art...)#i also started making my own merch which is a step forward! ive been meaning to make them since 2021#itll arrive either tomorrow or thursday. ill share them when i get them#this year has also been less consistent in terms of art style. i wont say if thats good or bad#i had a bit of an art crisis in the middle of the year and then i had reached enlightenment in november#which is that i will stop gaf abt the amt of other people liking my art#i want to be those niche artists who stick to their own lane and post their 50 million merchs of their fav ship. that will be me!!!!!!#im having a junmui plush manu'd in jan so im excited#i also plan on making photo holders and standees and etc etc later on#art summary#munch art
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Doing everything I physically can to not buy cities skylines until my next paycheck I will persevere
#puffer talks#im going thrifting with friends Thursday#ill make my commission before then but if i dont i want to save my money so im not thinking about it#i was watching the stream archive of jerma playing it and i just was goinf crazy#management games <3
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my piece for @transfemanthony 's thursday zine :) sorry abt the weird cropping, i did try to fix that but editing photos on a laptop is harder than it seems lmao
#if i did this nowafter listening to thursday much more than i did back then i definitely would have chosen to do tomorrow ill be you notthis#but this is what i have and unfortunately i dont think i have the time to make anything else rn#not my best by far but also not my worst.#anyways srry for the whole ramble#ez.txt#my art
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i hate myself so fucking much
#i ate ice cream and i should have just eaten something healthier#i fucking hate myself#i just want to not be fat shamed ffs#and the only way to get that to stop is to lose weight#maybe if i just purge ill hate myself less?#but i need my dad to leave so i can#and i need to exercise today cuz dinner is really high calorie tonight#and i fucking ate like 200 calories worth of ice cream#my limit for today is 700...but i really need to be in the negatives more often#tomorrow i think im just going to liquid fast#ykw fuck it tomorrow is gonna be just a fast#and with minimal water#cuz i dont need water weight to make me wanna kms#im going to weigh myself thursday morning and if ive gained any weight since my last wrigh in im going to try not to eat much on thursday#thanksgiving is the worst holiday#i hate what its about and i hate all the food and the drama#but a lot of thanksgiving foods are autism safe foods#but yk ed fear foods#there are no foods that are autism sage and ed safe : /#i wanna fucking kms#ughhhh#why does everything have to be so hard...and why do i have to hate myself when everybody else already hates me#idfk#im going to try and sleep until my next class and then go on a walk
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whoever decided that a mental illness should have negative effects needs to DIE.
#im. i cant do school work rn.#which is AWESOME if theres two seperate big projects that i need to pass due within like. three weeks. =w=b /s#yes unforts for me the same illness that makes me unable to work rn also makes me too anxious to function if i dont do shit on time.#a deadline in three weeks is unfortunately counted as “something you need to do NOW or else your life is fucked and you will fail and DIE”.#so.#sillyposting#its.#i know i need rest because clearly.#but. ive gotta finish it. i have to.#i feel like i cant allow myself to rest which will throw me in a cycle of unrest. instead of just resting and being alright in a few days.#really doesnt help that i have big stuff to do on thursday friday saterday AND sunday.#aint no rest for the wicked.....#god.#and i cant even play my viddy game bc i cant beat the boss im at rn its so bad.....#ive just been reading BL and i will go back to that once im done with tumblr again.#god..#why must we suffer.#stuff should be easy always i think#i will. ask for help. tomorrow.
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Will I see the end of this exam season, or will it see the end of me?
That is the question.
#first exam on friday#currently (12am thursday) making flashcards for it#and listening to old hip hop in another language#i have not revised for any of my 9 exams because i am delusional and think that if i will it hard enough ill get decent grades#counting my battles fr. already decided that this subject is the one i can afford to flop#i dont like it here#exams are gross#a levels
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#stumbling through one moment to the next like ive just been hit in the face#which is to say disoriented. punch drunk. adrift in a sea of mental vertigo#to steal a phrase: emotional motion sickness#i dunno. its just a very specific feeling when ive burned thru all my steam and am moving purely on compulsive action#like someones dragging me forward by the hair. i start to peel apart. im moving but without thinking actions into being#ill be in the middle of an action and my brain catches up. oh? where am i? what am i doing? ok i guess im on autopilot#thats fine i guess. and i start slipping out of my body. which isnt so bad until im trying to draw and then i cant bc my attention keeps#sliding away. i cant draw when im not sitting in my body.#im in the 3 day lul between taking measurements. this is my break. i say as i stay here from 7.30 to 5.30 bc of the other things i have to#do. and i haven't got the data ready for a meeting tomorrow so fuck the rest of my day i guess#ugh. i at least accomplished some things yesterday. but im in a standoff between saying fuck it and paying for an apartment vs waiting to b#contacted by student housing when there's currently a waitlist. i just wanna kno i have a place to go#also ive fucked myself over on another thing i havent done and dont kno how to start. uuuuuugh.#when i take my headphones off my brain has a lag that sounds like static and whispers#y am i doing this to myself? given the choice to make it better or worse i choose worse at each turn#so here we r. worse and worse and worse. have i fucked it all up? maybe so. well see#i have to go in tomorrow too. and i have a meeting Thursday. and thrn were back to 11hr days until Tuesday#then if i have to attend a birthday party my head might fucking explode#unrelated
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Pros of today: I got my new phone and its all set up and at the very least this one's battery life is real lmfao
Cons: I have Mental Illness and I am currently having yet another spiral moment ahaha. Nothing new tbh I've been crying a ton every day for the last fucking week. We're doing so fucking well gamers we are living the high life.
#fe rambles#im having the equivalent of buyers remorse for moving#i dont want to leave I dont i dont i dont#but. i kinda did all of this to myself so like. cant go back now#also like literally i get on plane on thursday theres literally no going back#n e ways i just. im so anxious about everything everything makes me wildly unwell and i think ill go crazy#cant wait for my forst therapist appointment where they say immediately that i need to be highly medicated#cant wait to see if it works or if i become some kind of monster haunting my stupid body#im so fucking scared yall lmfaooooo#im tired. like thats it thats what i feel thats all i can articulate
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why are glasses so expensiveeeee
#glad they do the 2 for 1 thing here bc I'll need a lab pair I can put in a safety goggle frame & and a general use pair#got my eyes tested and yeah my astigmatism is a lot worse LOL well it has been forever since i last had em checked#and i was wondering why looking at screens is so difficult and why my vision is sooo bad cycling at night i get crazy glare#well. one week til i can pick them up and then hopefully no more headaches and i wont get into any car accidents lmao#i mean my vision isnt THAT dire I can see fine without glasses just uncomfortable innit. esp if i have to focus#picked up my mail too so thats done... dont rly wanna leave the house again until climbing tn so im just gonna chill#also bought myself mouthwashing as a treat... it is my week off after all :3 i think im gonna watch a movie first tho so i can sort out#admin stuff and update my planner......and maybe journal a bit i have some shit I wanna work out#mildly annoying i wont be able to pin my roommate down to talk over the next few days bc im going out tn and tmr night#and we were gonna hang during the day bc she has time off work too but shes said she'll be too tired so she'll just be in her cave#and then idk if she did make plans for the weekend in the end but tbh if I cant talk to her abt shit beforehand I'll cancel for this time#I'm tired of every group social thing w her being tainted by this I just wanna have fun & not feel shit for being alienated for once#it was my friends birthday this week and id like to do smth nice w them but if we both go together ik she'll just upset me#unintentionally bc i havent been able to talk to her abt it yet. but still.#maybe ill just make separate plans w our friend then i dont wanna be an asshole to them bc i have a problem with someone else entirely#anyway. its not that deep just need to clear things up. fucking hell can my stomach stop COMPLAINING its not lunch yet!!!!#its okay. grrrrrrr. maybe if i have a snack itll calm down. i rly need another drs appt to bring up my physical issues but whatever#dealing w the depression is the priority hopefully my digestive system and menstrual cycle wont kill me in the meantime#okay thats my oversharing done for this thursday morning love u guys bye#.diaries
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Can I ask what you think about the Travis relationship? Do you think it’s real or PR? Do you think it will end any time soon? I just hate it so much
Honestly I have no idea, tbh i hadn't really thought about it being PR 🤔 I do think it's real but I wouldn't be like really shocked if it turned out to be PR lol
Idk how soon it will end or if it will end honestly, I feel like they might get married what with how much she talked abt it on ttpd and how much she obviously wants to get married but who knows, maybe she will just never stop working and never have time for marriage :(
#as soon as eras ends she'll start directing films and recording ts12 at the same time and then do another massive toyr#and then write a book and then write 15 more albums and tour again and then direct some more movies and then and then and then#the woman never STOPS#i hope she does give herself a break soon tho#she seemed like she was getting sick on thursday :(#also honestly idk abt travis#idk enough about him to like or dislike him#to me he's the epitomy of Just Some Guy yknow#if they do get married ill be happier for her than i am for them if that makes sense#cause clearly thats what she wants#but tbh if she does marry travis i do think it will be bc she wants to get married rather than she wants to marry travis#thats the vibe its giving#i always feel bad speculating on this stuff but i mean i dont mean any of this to be cruel or nasty its all just in good fun#tldr: 🤷♀️#magicasklin#taylor swift
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I have to draw something it's been two days and I said I'd draw every day but I just don't want to but I'm kind of running on a deadline that expires Wednesday but I drew something two days ago and I'm going to hate drawing for like two more days but I don't have time for that so urgh my day was awful actually thanks for asking, how was YOUR day?
#i need to figure out Sho#i've never drawn him before#im a little intimidated by his hair#mainly cause i hate drawing hairlines#but thats all the more reason to try#but every time i open the canvas i have for the sho drawing ive been thinking of for a week i just cant#i cant even start. i just sit there staring at the canvas for 5 minutes and then close out of it#WAIT TODAYS THURSDAY#I HAVE A WEEK#phew i thought it was friday#i still dont have as much time as i would like#master procrastinator right here#im drowning in ideas i just cant make any of them#god this isnt just drawing ideas i have writing ideas too#but i havent tried to write in a while and i know that if it turns out poorly ill be so embarrassed that ill disappear forever and never#come back from it. so.#maybe ill try again sometime but idk#none of my ideas are very fleshed out so that would take a while#maybe thats something i could do while im bored out of my mind in some of my classes
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I've had lazy autumn just to jump in ITS THE SECOND WEEK OF THE YEAR YOU HAVE TO DO 186469 THINGS FOR WORK AND 789 THINGS FOR SCHOOL AND 4 THINGS FOR ENSURING A NICE WEEKEND TRIP AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
#how is your 2024 im suddently overwhelmed with tasks which makes me feel kind of powerful ngl#im like. barely managing everything. but im managing!#i have an exam on wednesday. i havent covered all the exam questions yet but its like. ethics. meh.#but i have to do my best. and its a bit much.#considering i will work until wee hours of the night tomorrow#okay technically im working until 9pm but i feel like ill be done at like 20pm. or maybe 20:30#and i have so many events tomorrow.#there are new girls to help but they are. new girls. they have to be supervised and trained#and i start at 8 am tomorrow ;(#and the day after that#and on friday too#but on thursday i have to be at uni at 9am#to learn the last of methods i dont know abt yet#i dont think i can hold in any more information in my head but man i hope i will#also my cat has been acting weird. she gets into sleeping position and hisses. my hypothesis is that its bc of the spicy calamari that were#left in the open on the table for a long time and my mom saw how she ate a rather large bit#so i just hope shes suffering from spicy tummy and nothig more#moreover i just recruited two of my coworkers to do research with me#which lead to a problem: how am i supposed to draw blood three times in a span of 4 hours#obviously cathether would be the best option#however my supervisor told me that in previous experiments it kind of got crumpled after use#and it was more painful to insert a new cathether than to just puncture veins multiple times#but i think thats messed up. so i want to do a pvc#my solution was like aha maybe a butterfly needle - it wont crumple!#but then the guy was like girl it will only stay in if the participant is not moving.#and i was like yeah no prob but like nope actually. the participants have to eat and stand and i have to let them go to the bathroom#so im trying to find a middle ground here and maybe inserting a regular cannula but getting the blood with a regular syringe would do it#bc like syringe is slower than vacutainer and maybe it wont crumple the cathether#but like no one does it with a syringe#although i did find some articles abt using that method when patients have problems
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its 2 am im getting up at 6 tomorrow and am gonna have to stay in town for a looong long time cause we have a concert at 6pm. fuck. shit. fuck
#not that they actually do anything but. i am going to chug energy drinks tomorrow#cause i doubt ill even make it through the soundchecks otherwise#tangentially i dont think ive had any kind of energy deink since i started these meds? so thatll be interesting#thetalogs#well at least thursdays are typically good days. i mean we do have an art history exam but i was gonna skip it anyways if im being honest#so i just get to have theatre and choir and then soundcheck and then a concert. yay?
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Funny little fluff thing where Reader and mattheo are play fighting, like reader grabbed a clump of mattheo’s hair while Mattheo had grabbed reader’s shirt. 😭it’s a funny sight as a student, perhaps a friend of either mattheo’s or reader sees them and walks out slowly backwards cause reader and Mattheo are in a weird position while play fighting. Reader is flustered as they know what the student was thinking and tries to explain their self while Mattheo attacked them with a—
🎊TICKLE ATTACKK🎊
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im so sorry if i dont post often anymore!! im currently sick rn and ill try my best to upload 1 more fanfic today! :(
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Playful Duel
Pairings : Mattheo Riddle x GN! Reader
Summary : In the Slytherin common room, you find yourself in a playful scuffle with Mattheo Riddle, a notorious troublemaker. As things escalate, a friend interrupts, misinterpreting the situation, leaving you flustered. But when Mattheo unleashes a tickle attack, laughter ensues, revealing the true bond between you both.
A/n : Enjoy (・∀・)
Warnings) : Nothing!
Word count : 900+
The Slytherin common room is unusually empty for a Thursday afternoon. Most students are outside enjoying the rare spell of good weather or tucked away in the library studying for upcoming exams. You and Mattheo Riddle, however, have decided to spend your free time engaging in your usual antics.
"Give it back, Mattheo!" you shout, making a desperate grab for the book he's holding above his head.
Mattheo laughs, a mischievous glint in his eyes. "Come and get it, if you can!" he taunts, holding the book just out of your reach.
With a determined huff, you lunge at him, but he sidesteps easily. You narrowly avoid crashing into a nearby table, spinning around to face him again. Your eyes narrow, and you see his smirk widen, knowing he's enjoying this far too much.
You take a moment to catch your breath, then launch yourself at him again. This time, you're ready for his dodge. You feint to the right, then dart left, your fingers tangling in his hair as you try to pull him down to your level.
"Ow! That hurt, you little—" he begins, but you're already yanking hard.
"Give. Me. My. Book!" you demand, punctuating each word with a tug on his hair.
Mattheo growls playfully, his free hand grabbing the front of your shirt. "Not a chance!"
The two of you grapple, neither willing to give an inch. You have his hair firmly in your grasp, while he clings to your shirt, the fabric stretching precariously. You twist and turn, struggling against each other in a comical display of youthful exuberance.
Before you can react, Mattheo lunges at you, and you barely dodge out of the way, laughter bubbling up in your throat. The two of you end up in a tangled heap on the floor, each trying to gain the upper hand. You grab a clump of his hair in a desperate attempt to gain control, while he retaliates by grabbing the hem of your shirt, pulling you closer.
It’s a ridiculous sight: you with a fistful of his dark curls, and him with his hand twisted in your shirt, both of you struggling not to burst into laughter. Just then, the door to the common room opens, and one of your friends, Alex, steps in. He froze, eyes wide as he take in the scene.
“Oh, um, sorry,” Alex stammers, his cheeks turning red as he start to back out of the room. “I didn’t mean to interrupt… whatever this is.”
You quickly release Mattheo’s hair, your face heating up. “It’s not what it looks like!” you blurt out, scrambling to your feet. “We were just—”
Before you can finish your explanation, Mattheo, still on the floor, reaches out and grabs your ankle, pulling you back down with a yelp. “We were just having a bit of fun,” he says, a wicked grin spreading across his face. “Right, Y/N?”
You shoot him a glare, but it’s hard to keep a straight face when he’s looking at you like that. “Yeah, just some innocent fun,” you agree, though your tone is dripping with sarcasm.
Alex raises an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced. “Sure,” he said slowly, taking another step back. “I’ll just… leave you to it then.”
As soon as Alex is out of sight, you turn to Mattheo, your cheeks still burning. “Great, now he thinks we’re… you know!”
Mattheo just laughs, pulling you into a ticklish embrace. “Let him think what him wants,” he says, his fingers finding that spot just below your ribs that makes you squirm. “We know the truth.”
You squeal, trying to wriggle out of his grasp, but he’s relentless. “Mattheo, stop!” you gasp, tears of laughter streaming down your face. “I can’t breathe!”
“Not until you admit defeat!” he declares, his own laughter mingling with yours.
“Fine, fine!” you manage to choke out between giggles. “I admit it! You win!”
With a triumphant grin, Mattheo finally releases you, and you collapse onto the floor, panting. “You’re impossible,” you mutter, but there’s no heat in your words.
“And you love it,” he replies cheekily, offering you a hand to help you up.
You take his hand, letting him pull you to your feet. “Yeah, yeah,” you say, brushing yourself off. “Next time, I’ll be the one who wins.”
“We’ll see about that,” he teases, ruffling your hair before grabbing his book and settling back onto the sofa.
You flop down next to him, still catching your breath. “You’re really something, you know that?”
He just smirks, flipping open his book. “I know.”
The two of you sit in companionable silence for a while, the crackling fire the only sound in the room. Despite the chaos of a few moments ago, there’s a sense of peace that settles over you. You glance at Mattheo, who’s completely absorbed in his book once again, and you can’t help but smile.
Maybe your little rivalry isn’t so bad after all.
“Hey, Mattheo,” you say softly, breaking the silence.
“Yeah?” he replies, not looking up.
“Thanks. For… you know, being you.”
He glances at you, one eyebrow raised. “What brought this on?”
You shrug, feeling a bit self-conscious. “Just… felt like saying it.”
He smiles, a genuine, warm smile that makes your heart skip a beat. “Anytime, Y/N. Anytime.”
You lean back, closing your eyes and letting the warmth of the fire and the sound of Mattheo’s quiet breathing lull you into a state of relaxation. In the back of your mind, you’re already planning your next playful attack. But for now, you’re content to just be here, in this moment, with him.
#𓏵 ⋮ 𝙈𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙤 𝙍𝙞𝙙𝙙𝙡𝙚#theodorenmyth#slytherin boys#slytherin#slytherin x reader#slytherin boys imagine#slytherin boys x reader#slytherin boys react#harry potter x reader#harry potter x male reader#harry potter#harry potter fandom#harry potter universe#harry potter imagine#hp fic#hp x male reader#hp fandom#hp fanfic#hp fanfiction#hp#mattheo riddle x you#mattheo riddle#mattheo riddle fluff#mattheo riddle imagine#mattheo riddle x male reader#mattheo riddle x reader#mattheo x you#mattheoxreader#mattheo x y/n#playful
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"hey Missy, im leaving soon! your mom must be around soon in a few minutes" "already? ah... well it was fun Mister..." "you seem so deep in thought today, dear, did anything happen?" "no... nothing...well, uhm, since i will probably not see you again Mister-" " well never say never, i do hope we meet again dear." "yes i hope so too.. but if we dont, is it alright if you could keep a secret for me?" "oh? what kind of secret?" "well its sort of big, but maybe not so much, i feel... like i just got to tell it to someone ,so, my stomach doesnt feel like rocks" "did you get into trouble? you know its alright if you did, we can fix it together" "no no, its, well i feel, i dont..." "take all the time you need"
"is it ok to hate someone?"
"..."
"im scared i hate him too much"
"who?" "Arty..." "your mom´s boyfriend?" "yes, i dont think he likes me... i dont believe him, as much as he says he loves me." "when does he say that?" "sometimes... but then he´s mean to me, so i get scared, i think i dont make a good kid, i know all my manners and i do good in school but, im not a good girl for him." "that´s not your fault, youre a wonderful girl." "thank you Neighbor, but, i still hate him, and , i dont know, i want my mom to be happy...but sometimes..." "what is it?" "sometimes... i wish he disappeared . and thats bad." "you are allowed to feel angry." "im not angry, im sad." "well, i think youve been the nicest kid ive known, and i think he needs to learn his manners." "youre so nice to me" "you deserve the best, you have a good heart, thank you for telling me your secret" "you wont tell?" "of course not. say, uhmm... this thursday ill come by to give you a little something." "whats it gonna be?" "its a surprise dear."
"well! ill see you then?"
"yes sweetie, ill see you... oh and-"
"yes?"
"you better not go out at night alright? heard the Heartbreaker is on the loose again"
"eep! no sir i wont, ill tell mum too!"
"good kid"
#bkmn#be kind my neighbor#bkmn neighbor#mr neighbor#adie neighbor#samsa´s art stuff#drabble#fanfic#this is my hc prequel to what leads to the start of bkmn#implied child abuse
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