#i dont like drinking water every day
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
gideonnavsenormousbiceps · 2 months ago
Text
shang qinghua and shen qingqiu would be so funny as college roommates. because here's the thing, they would definitely both blame each other for basically everything and be like "he's the worst roommate ever!" to their respective boyfriends and then it turns out they're both actually just awful roommates. Like shen qingqiu probably sucks at domestic chores like loading the dishwasher and always does it wrong no matter how many times he's corrected, but shang qinghua is probably up all night typing abd playing music obnoxiously loud (he has one of those really clicky keyboards and also gets way too enthusiastic about typing) and leaves empty energy cans/Ramen cups everywhere. Will either of them move out, or learn communication skills? No, of course not they prefer to complain
50 notes · View notes
coriander-candlesticks · 4 months ago
Text
I'm sick so I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense, but I've been thinking about the nature of myths recently as I've been exploring hellenic polytheism.
For context: I'm ex-Mormon. I was raised in the church and, because of that, was taught biblical literalism but in, like, a more subtle way than most? I was raised believing that Adam & Eve and Noah's Ark, etc., were literally true, but that the story of Job specifically was not; I also always knew evolution and the Big Bang to be correct, despite there being a verse in the Doctrine & Covenants (a Mormon-specific religious book) where God apparently told Joseph Smith that the world is 6,000 years old- a passage I didn't know existed until my senior year of high school. I didn't realize I had believed in biblical literalism until I'd left the church, actually.
Now that I'm aware of it, it's a mindset I'm actively trying to combat while I explore Hellenic polytheism. It's definitely been a task to separate the nature of the Gods from their myths, as brutal as they often are. And it's something I've noticed within the community, too, which I think is interesting. It makes sense: Christianity, at least, has had a chokehold on much of the world for a long time, and so many of us have experienced literalism as our first interaction with any sort of holy text (though, of course, Greek myths as a whole aren't that) alongside our first experience with divinity as a wrathful God whose flaws are waved away, or ignored, or twisted into positive attributes. This also means that I'm trying to re-approach several deities with an open mind (Zeus, Hera, and Ares in particular, but many of them to some extent) while also trying to un-condition myself. I was already in the process of doing this, of course, but trying to figure out how to interact with a completely different pantheon has made that especially clear.
It extends to things like prayer and offerings, too. Prayers were very formulaic growing up, even though most of the time there wasn't a strict script to follow. There was always something you ask as part of the prayer, even if it's just 'please help me do better tomorrow' (alongside giving thanks, of course), so trying to craft a prayer without adding *everything* I'm used to including in makes it feel incomplete and, therefore, disrespectful. And daily prayer is something I'm resistant to because of prior experiences with it. I don't want to offend any of the gods by asking for something or asking for too much, especially so early on, and there's always a promised offering the few times I *have* asked. Add worries about exact obedience on top of that and it's proving to be a difficult thing to untangle. And I know that the gods are difficult to offend, figuring out how to do this takes trial & error and that's okay, it'll get better the more I do it, etc., etc.; this is more an issue with my own overthinking than anything else (hooray for ✨ mental health issues ✨). I'm not really asking for advice here, necessarily, just thinking out loud because I'm not comfortable talking to people in meat space about it yet.
#also: the whole thing about cleanliness? as someone w/ mental health issues? Rough. very rough. what counts? how individualized is it?#if i cant get my room (where my shrines are/will be) clean does that mean i cant give any offerings?#is just washing my hands and/or veiling actually okay most of the time? even when ive been struggling to shower?#when does something require a change of clothes? or do i have to do that every time i offer something at any point in the day?#including meal/drink (ex steam from tea) offerings? i dont have that many clothes besties#if im pouring out an offering to hermes on my way home from work do i have to somehow wash my hands first b/c i just got off public transit#can i pour it directly from my water bottle or do i have to keep a little separate bottle of water just for libations?#and like. i know logically the answer is 'do whatever you can and you'll figure it out' but it hasnt sunk in yet#it's always...interesting when a new layer of religious trauma tm gets discovered#also. maybe it's just the 'tism but 'just jump in!' and 'go slow at the beginning' seem contradictory to me#like. you cant do both??? i dont think??? 'just jump in' is the answer ive been getting when i do tarot so im trying to do that#also. doubts? not offending a deity??? wild concept. just. the hardest thing to wrap my head around. mormon god's ego is FRAGILE fr#hellenic pagan#helpol#hellenic polytheism#not adding exmo tags b/c i dont have a good enough handle on the community here & im too sick to deal with people being weird about this#my post#coriander says#seeing people get into the theological weeds is cool from the outside (see: that 'can spiderman do superhero stuff on the sabbath' post)#but very stressful when there's not centuries on centuries of detailed information to draw from & everyone's just trying to figure shit out#in a world that's *very* different from the one the information we *do* have was written down in#christianity cw#mormonism cw
12 notes · View notes
widevibratobitch · 1 year ago
Text
shut up about your diet shut up about your diet if i hear the words 'intermittent fasting' again ill kill someone
20 notes · View notes
fruity-legos · 24 days ago
Text
Projecting my headaches to Nova cuz I can't suffer alone
3 notes · View notes
glitteratti · 4 months ago
Text
the amount of time the weather has been like "yeah with humidity it feels like 104 degrees" and i have had to stop myself from drinking hot black coffee <- unwell about the band slaughter beach, dog's 2017 ep motorcycle.jpg
2 notes · View notes
tedwinesupernova · 4 months ago
Text
.
2 notes · View notes
cinnamonfknbuns · 6 months ago
Text
it's so cold but I don't wanna get properly dressed bc im scared of running out of my good clothes... water please come back I miss u......
god if ur hearing this CLEAN WATER. FROM THE PIPES. IN MANAGEABLE QUANTITIES. 🫷😳🫸
2 notes · View notes
eddie-rifff · 6 months ago
Text
i have a headache. thumbs up emoji
5 notes · View notes
kashmirichaiwithmehr · 1 year ago
Text
5 drinks to get to know me: (tagged by @goblinsbriide <3333333 luv u)
any kind of black coffee [iced/hot]: (whether that be an americano, french press, cold brew, brewed/drip coffee, straight up espresso, etcetcetc)
plain teas: ([fresh/looseleaf or teabag] ginger, green/gunpowder/genmaicha/boricha, rooibos, chamomile, lavender, oolong, herbal, etcetcetc)
water mmm mmm mmm
sweetened chai w/ milk [or alternative milks] : (ex. iced chai, masala chai [other ppls or my own that i grind from scratch every time hehehe], my kashmiri naanis kashmiri chai <333 [esp. if im drinking it while in kashmir !!])
[refer to the tags for the "5th" answer] sry not sry i am an indecisive bitch
6 notes · View notes
fereldanwench · 1 year ago
Text
so wellbutrin has done a lot to counter my stress eating but i don't think anything is powerful enough to combat my PMS cravings
still a fucking bottomless pit like 5 days before my period lmao
8 notes · View notes
magnoliamyrrh · 9 months ago
Text
got some laundry done today wooo
6 notes · View notes
inkybinkyboink · 1 year ago
Text
living on ur own is weird.
2 notes · View notes
caffeinatedopossum · 2 years ago
Text
I find it funny when people think eye bags are just from lack of sleep and will always dissappear when you sleep more.
Like baby girl, I can be tired in ways you've never even conceived of before
16 notes · View notes
princessmyriad · 2 months ago
Text
#its 17 degrees and windy with possible showers through the day#i have been out every day this week working hard on magic and agoraphobia and appointments and im so tired#i dont have money and am relying on my skills to acquire my grocerie which im confident in but less so when im tired#the only point of going to the shops today would be to get a drink to accompany the snackies i got#so i will literally return home just to immediately have a cone and use the beverage i just bought#its a total roughly 45 min walk in which for 20ish minutes i will be carrying heavy carton of beverages also#but i just dont want plain water with my snackies today? but i also wanna stay home and dye my hair and relax for the day#due to the aforementioned hard work of magic and also it being the last day of my cycle i am fucking wiped tf out#personal#idkk man shops dont even open for like another 2 hours bc of the weekend but i also know#if i go out ill have a cone first to help encourage me to take the stupid walk but im running low so when i get back and have another#im just worried about how quickly that will go and if i use it all before i get to use the drink that was the whole point of going out?#ill be mad. and im trying hard lately to not be mad and reperspectivize and its going really well like spiritually#i dont wanna do anythinf on purpose that would make me mad and set me back on this particular journey bc i think its going really well#i think i will just have water like a shmuck unless someone wants to pay me enough to ubereats the beverage 👀#im kidding (no im not) but jeez just let me complain on my own blog for a bit okay ill probs do the responsible thing and have water 😒 lame#iced coffee ill miss you today mi amor
0 notes
Text
syyyyyyyyyymgmgmgmgmg
#someone wanna bring me some food while i try to stop the bleeding. i have to cook sonethong#after sanitizing the wound n stuff#im too tired n hungry from blood loss. i dont think ill make it to the fridge to at least drink some water#i have to clean and sanitize all my blood too....#i dont have money to order anything. i do technically but its all cash. i have no bank account. thankfully theres plenty of places in walkin#distance... but i just kinda. i dont. wanna bother.#its not even a grevious wound. i could leave it and be fine if it doesnt get infected. it isnt evem that much thT i lost from that wound. bu#but i do kinda be bleeding various amounts every day. again not huge amounts but im sure all this blood loss is adding up over the years. an#i need to eat something#i dont want to make anything#i dont want to walk to the store and buy something with like8 or so dollars worth of change#... like what do i even want to do here. im not really trying all that hard......#i dont know what i want.#maybe im freaking out over nothing but i know for a fact that the amounts of blood i lose every day are like more or less fine. but for how#much longer tho.#its stupid. i should see a doctor. i finally got all the shit i needed so i can see a doctor. but its been like so lomg. what do i even say#its been so long............................................................................................................................#the most compelling reason i can think of is that i dont wanna deal with mold.#to even BOTHER with cooking that shit....#still
1 note · View note
not-actually-human · 3 months ago
Text
maybe its bc its after 10pm but i feel weird
1 note · View note