#i dont feel like crying today hhh

[ableedingpromise]

I want to read something amazing but everything feels subpar rn maybe I should reread her shimcheong again :D

[lovecrazedpup]

i am going to kms

[wingedbeings]

augh ):

[icarus-showmethemoon]

hmm mental state is bad currently

[waveswept]

you ever feel like crying but like. ur not actively at that point yet you just want to vent out all the emotions

[wychive]

𝙪𝙣𝙨𝙥𝙤𝙠𝙚𝙣 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙨

summary // you found your pile of ‘letters’ to hyunjin that contain thoughts that have never been said and decided to write to him one last time.

pairing(s) // hyunjin x gn!reader, hyunjin x oc, slight minho x reader

genre(s) // angst, letter fic 

warning(s) // mentions of food, themes of being forgotten, vulgar wording, humiliation, overthinking

word count // 2.0k

author's note // happy birthday @noya-sannnn​ !! im sorry this was so late hhh you know how i am irl,, but i hope you enjoy this! i love you so much, jane <3 i apologize for the many grammar mistakes gn. i recommend listening to iu’s ending scene while reading this! btw y/n/n means your nickname.

[10/01/14, 3:55am]

dear jinnie,

hi there! it's y/n <3 i hope you're doing okay - i mean of course you are pfft anyways, just writing this short letter (more like paragraph)  sort of as a venting mechanism? for things i cant tell you about lol  im not so sure how you would call it, since you're so much better at words than i am. basically were like:

hyunjin: ow a brain freeze!

me: haha brain go brrrr

anyways haha yea <3 it's 4am so like,, ill see you at school!

signed,

your loser,

y/n/n

[15/02/14, 12:34am]

yo heartthrob!

im back with this kinda stuff haha it's been a whole? week? since ive written one of these so like yes..hi! i just wanted to say thanks, for today. you really know how to cheer me up huh? you really outdid yourself by setting up that little picnic for us. congrats on making the strawberry cake so perfectly <3 this day will always stay as a core memory in the back of my brain. you're too caring sometimes,,, istg you'll pay for this [maybe hugs?] >:) 

signed,

your partner in crime,

y/n/n

[30/02/15, 01:29am]

jinnie-senpai~~

LMAO you hate me calling you that, doesn't change a thing though. hehe,, nways i hope you enjoyed your birthday present :) i got you that really cool skateboard that you wanted. i worked my ass off for that in my mother's garden so like,, you gotta thank me for that a thousand times :D nah jk, its a sincere gift, from me to you. i rarely do this for ANYONE so consider yourself lucky to have a best friend like me -3- also, seungmin is like….kinda the cutest person ever. introduce me to him pls, thank!

signed,

<your bestest friend3,

y/n

(p.s. you're kinda cute too,,,, ig,,, still stinkee tho)

[13/04/15, 9:04pm]

hey 'baby' (HAHAHA ihy for this)

i hope your day was okay! i didn't see much of you today (which was sort of a bummer but wtv) so like…. uh yea. you told me you were doing okay over text, which kinda surprised me because like?? we always video call lol this is kinda the first time,, but its okay, i trust you! (i really hope youre doing alright tho, i'll beat anyone up if they make you sad >:( ) you also called me 'sweetheart' today which was like…. omg wtf haha????????? that was so weird to me for some reason… a good kind of weird :D we haven't done those kinds of nicknames in a while so…. happy to know that they're back in session <3 i talked to the new girl today, she's really cool! like she knows the bean song on tiktok so like its a total win heh, ill introduce you to her tomorrow! you'll love her a lot

signed,

your 'lover',

y/n/n

[08/06/16, 10:23pm]

hey howl (hehe go back to that movie night we had)

this spring break sucks so much,, esp because youre not here (you still couldve brought me along :'[ ) but wtv i hope youre enjoying yourself. ive been hanging out with yeonnie lately and i found out she likes conan grey too like pls i love her sm. can we adopt her?? please???? she told me you guys have been video calling too and that makes me so happy!! you two are getting along so well aaa my precious babies </3 

what if you developed a crush on her? haha…..jk unless?? (no jk dont shes all mine, stay away >:) ) anyways, i hope the three of us hang out soon. maybe go to that ice cream parlour where they serve the best cookies and cream?  

signed,

your daisy,

y/n/n

[19/07/15, 01:23am]

peepee poopoo hello

heyheyhey!! (heh, haikyuu thingz) i hope youre doing okay! i mean sure you are, with everything going so well. also i feel like you're not telling me something. maybe it's just me? is it? i hope it is because you tell me everything,, we've been talking less these days but its okay! i know how busy you are, especially with your dad always bugging you,,

also, i think yeonbin likes you :0,, she keeps talking about you whenever we hang out. don't get me wrong, its not bad that she likes you but...something doesn't feel right. i feel like i'm being the third wheeler here and like ugh idk. haha laughs yea i think its just me.. im sorry, i didnt mean to do you like this,, anyways, ill see you soon + her too ofc- yall are inseparable lmao

signed,

your moonlight,

y/n/n

[23/07/15, 01:56am]

greetings, kind sir

lol more like mean sir but like aight KSKSK,, anyways,, how have you been? we haven't really talked in a while,, our convos are always so short with it being one-sided :/ i wish you were online more. yeonnie is ignoring me,, do you know why? i think you do,,, but when i asked you just said you didnt know. did i do something wrong? pls tell me.. 

she blocked my contact the other day and she won't even smile at me when i pass her in the hallways. its,, sad and stressful especially because she was the only one that would genuinely talk to me. i hate to say this,, but i miss you. us, hanging out like the best trio we are, yknow? but i dont think you miss me the same way. sorry, im getting out of hand. i know im just overreacting. im just gonna sleep ig,, good night! sweet dreams,,

signed,

your pink lemonade,

y/n/n

[25/07/15, 03:25am]

hi there

i heard you and her got together?? congrats, jinnie! im so proud of you,, especially because you never had even considered getting a girlfriend a few months earlier lmaO you really woo the ladies huh? anyways,, i hope you've been well since we last talked,, how many days has it been?? i would say nearly a week or so but honestly it feels like a hundred years,, considering you and i used to talk every day. but you have her now to keep you company.

keep this a secret but can you possibly tell me why it hurts when i see her? or when i mention her or even think of her?? is it because she's connected to you? but.. you're my best friend, so why? is it because i miss you? is it because im alone now? is it because you left me with a simple 'i have to go now,, bye y/n/n.'? im not sure either. im being silly, i apologize. ill figure it out sooner or later. sweet dreams, jinnie

signed,

your asswipe,

y/n

[25/07/15, 04:30am]

jinnie

it's because i love you. 

signed,

your butterfly,

y/n

[??/08/??, 05:??am]

you

i miss your lame jokes. i miss your smile. i miss your laughs. i miss your funny faces. i miss the way your eyes twinkle. i miss th way you would make me happy just by doing the bare minimum. i miss the disaster you made when cooking breakfast. i miss the night when you snuck me out just to go to that pretty lantern event. i miss when you would call out my name everytime we met. i miss when we would share earbuds in train rides. dont you get it, hyunjin? i miss you.

[??/??/15, ??:??am]

asshole.

please tell me that isn't true, please. you're too kind to do these kinds of things, right? + i was your best friend,, then, why, why did you hurt me like this. i didnt do anything wrong.. you couldve just told me you didnt like me,,, why did she have to tell me? out of all people. 

youre so pathetic for this,, i thought you were brave, bold - but youre just a fucking coward. i loved you, i really did. and i realised too late… im sorry. she,, i shouldn't have talked to her in the first place, right? i bet you knew she humiliated me, in front of everyone. of course you did, you were the only one that knew. you told her. fuck, i hate you so much (yet why do i long for you on a night like this?). you know how much that'll affect me and yet, there you are, laughing about it with her.

signed,

fuck off,

you know who i am.

[31/08/15, 03:41am]

ah, jinnie

please tell me this is just a nightmare. please, please. stop just reading my texts, please answer them. jinnie. i miss you so much. i dont care bout her, please just let me be in your arms. i dont care if you love me back, please just talk to me at least. tell me what i did wrong,, jinnie,, please,,, clear these tear stains on my cheek with kisses.

signed,

your fuck-up,

y/n

[15/09/15, 04:59am]

jinnie

why do i keep crying because of you? its been a few weeks since everything has happened. please, nothing has changed. i still love you the same even with all the hatred i have pent up in this stupid brain of mine. i wish i could just walk back in time, to where it all began.

when i first met you in third grade and you pushed me while playing soccer or maybe when we took those ridiculous prom pictures, remember those? i hope you still have them,, because i do too. i hope the pictures of us on your wall still hang there,, it'll remind you of the happy times. hm,, maybe you don't need them. 

you already have millions of pictures with you and her,, i bet you printed some and replaced those with ours right? sly dog. 

signed,

friend,

y/n/n

[04/02/16, 12:57am]

hey

i went to the park today and saw both of you being happy. it's nice to see your smile again. im sorry i didnt go up to you,, i just thought it would be awkward. when i heard that adorable laugh of yours, it made me realise that i lost something special. but it's okay isnt it? as your happiness matters more than mine. 

signed,

y/n

[06/01/20, 08:00pm]

dear hyunjin,

im doing fine here. how about you? gosh,, how long has it been? years? since we last talked to each other. i havent heard from you since. i would just like to say i still think of you sometimes, when watering the plants or dancing while making pancakes. sometimes i think you're here with me too, just being the pals we were. 

sometimes i'd see you out, just reading a book in the park or buying pasta sauce at the grocery store. it's nice to see you having a stable life. im not sure if you're still with her or not, but its good to know that you still have that large friend group. also! you're never gonna guess who im dating--

it's minho! do you remember him? the one that i used to hate,, uh yeah. he asked me out the other day- you may wonder how tf,,, i too do not know how tf but he gives the best hugs ever. he gave me the love i wanted from you. he stitched my heart back together after it broke,, i love him so much, jinnie..

it's snowing,, do you remember when we would skate on the frozen lake in front of your house? are your parents well? i wonder if your mother still has those earrings i bought for her birthday. i never told you this but your laugh and hers sound so similar. 

i would just like to say thank you, for everything. you were a big part of my life, up until now. when we see each other after this, we would just be strangers. maybe flash a little smile or give a little wave whenever we greet each other but nothing more. some memories of us would flow in every now and then but it'll just be a short teaser. well, i'll be going now. smile for me, okay?

signed,

the one that loved you the most,

y/n.

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[flutterji]

anything| renjun ff

hi! this is my first ff on tumblr so hopefully it all works out well. hope u enjoy!

desc: y/n and renjun have only been friends for about a month, but renjun was in too deep. whipped renjun, gender not specified reader!! semi drabble, high school au (like all my stories hhh), very fluffy ! barely edited, its a bit long too but whatever

word count:  2103

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y/n and jisung briskly walked the halls of their oh-so-dreadful high school, talking about, of course, absolute nonsense. ‘i mean, like, salamanders are so cute, right?’ y/n questions the tall boy, and jisung nods enthusiastically. “right! so then why would they eat each other?” jisung added. “as babies, too! it doesn make se-” cut off from their sentence, renjun snaked his arms around the both of them before yelling, “hey guys!” “renjunie!” y/n exclaims, and a wide smile paints renjun’s lips. “whats up shawty?” jisung says before making The Fuckboy Face™. “eh, not much, just absolutely dreading and stressing beyond human compacity about the calc exam tomorrow.” renjun says, pulling his arms away and shoving himself in between the two. “maybe we can study? i- honestly i wont be any help, but i have some pretty cool notes i could share?” y/n proposes. “sure, when?” renjun says, without skipping a beat. jisung looks at the two and then looks away in disgust. “you oldies.” he says, before sticking out his tongue in a teasing manner. “whatever, loser!” y/n says, emphasizing the ‘loser’. jisung pretends to cry and is all but payed attention to when renjun bothers y/n for an answer. ‘we cant study if you dont tell me when!” “well if the exam’s tomorrow then obviously we study today! what are you, an idiot?” y/n says, lightly teasing the poor boy. “right, but like, when today?” “you annoy me.” y/n responds without really responding, traveling away to meet their other friend group. “haha, y/n hates you!” jisung says. renjun then nudges jisung not-so-gently before sighing. “i dont get it. i would do anything for them and they just brush me off like im... i dont know, what am i?” he asks, confused. “an idiot. a complete idiot.”

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as soon as school ends, renjun sends y/n a text. ‘library?’ is all he says, and y/n answers quickly. ‘get here quickly pls,,, i dont wanna waste time” y/n sends back shortly after. renjun walks to their schools library, and sees his study mate. “hey jun, hurry up before i start growing grey hairs.” y/n whisper yells from one of the tables. he had taken longer than he wanted to, so he rushed to the table and scurried to get out his notebook and a pencil. ‘right, so, show me your notes.” y/n says, half distracted by the drawing they were creating in the corner of a scrap piece of paper. renjun opens his note book, revealing his subpar notes. “dude, what-- how much time do you spend actually taking notes?” y/n asks before revealing their organized notes that definitely weren’t the best, but better than renjun’s. “i look out the window more than i pay attention, ha...” renjun admits with a sheepish smile. “sure, just read my notes and copy whatever you need.” y/n says nonchalantly. “thank you so much, you’re a life saver, y/n!” renjun exclaims. “of course i am, i’m me.” y/n says unexpectedly, before ‘posing’ and rolling their eyes.

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after some time had passed, renjun had gotten distracted. “junie, can i tell you something?” y/n asked, looking at renjun’s renovated notes. “sure, whats up?” renjun responds while flipping his pencil between his fingers. “there’s this girl that likes me, but i don’t like her back. it’s kinda so awkward, but i don’t want it to be. ugh, its so frustrating!” y/n whines as they drum their fingers against the table. “oh? who is it? can i know?” renjun immediately asks. “she told me tot to tell anyone. so i’m kinda already not listening, but as long as i don’t tell you her name that should be fine, right?” renjun whines and begins asking more questions. “is she nice? do i know her? when-” “shut up.” y/n cuts him off and runs their temples. “she’s... its not like she’s not nice, and you don’t know her, okay? ugh, i shouldn’t have even tried telling you about my love life.” y/n grumbles. “love life?” renjun asks. “maybe you could repay me by telling me something.” y/n offers, a smirk growing on their face. renjun tries hard not to blush and looks away quickly. “there’s, uh, nothing to talk about, ha.” he explains half heartedly. “sure there is! maybe not recent, but tell me something at least a little interesting.” y/n persuades. “uh, well, last year i made friends with this... person, and i liked them. they, uh, they moved away. yea.” renjun cant help but blush as he struggles to find literally anything else to do. “yea, sure.” y/n takes note of his blush and can’t help but wonder if he’s lying. 

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y/n begins packing up and renjun looks at them in confusion. “you have to go?” he asks, trying to hide his disappointment. “yea, im sorry. you got everything you needed, right?” y/n responds. y/n has a knack for ignoring renjun, the way he blushes, the way he often looks at them with wide eyes, the way he looks around aimlessly when he thinks, the way he throws his head back when he laughs, the way he bends his knees when he screams into the air when he’s frustrated or flustered, and... maybe they didn’t ignore renjun. maybe they didnt ignore him at all. “yea, thank you so much!” and he smiles the cutest smile and starts packing up his things as well. “you have a ride home? i’m taking the bus.” y/n asks. “i’m taking the bus too! maybe we should get a snack for the ride?” “YES.” y/n answers right away. renjun laughs and throws back his head, just like how y/n was just thinking about. a small smile creeps up y/n’s face and a boldness takes over. “you’re adorable, you know that?” y/n asks, swinging their backpack over their shoulder. renjun blushes, and hard. his heart races and he struggles to come up with a reply as his hand thoughtlessly covers his smile. “adorable, ha.” he says quietly. y/n internally yells and waits for him. “yea. so what type of snack do you want?”

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on the bus with chip bags on their laps, the silence is almost comforting, right before it’s not. the bus stops to let in more people, and renjun looks at y/n. y/n pops more chips in their mouth before looking back, and renjun swiftly looks away. they’re sitting next to each other, and renjun has never been that close to y/n. he starts noticing their more delicate features up close and feels his chest tightening. after y/n swallows the chips, they look at renjun’s hand, a single ring on his pointer finger. mindlessly, they pick it up to examine the ring. renjun’s heart starts beating louder at the contact, and he looks out the window without knowing what else to do. “pretty ring.” y/n says. “thank you, chenle gave it to me.” he says, smiling shyly. “so you’re married?” y/n says, a single brow raised. renjun takes back his hand and and looks at his ring. “its not like that! besides, i dont like him.” he says. “do you like someone else then?” “maybe.” renjun mutters so quietly that he can barely hear himself. “HA! I KNEW IT!”  y/n celebrates their small victory and renjun looks back towards the window with a stupid smile on his face and a blush on his cheeks.

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once renjun reaches his stop, he stands up. “this you?” y/n asks. “yea, bye!” he says, almost sadly walking in front of y/n to get out of the aisle. “no, not bye, lemme walk with you the rest of the way.” y/n says and gets up, walking out and away from the bus shortly after. renjun smiles to himself and walks towards his street, leading the way. “so... who is it?” y/n asks. renjun blushes and covers his face. “i can’t tell you that!” he says. “why not? huh? i’ll tell you mine.” y/n says. “yoU HAVE A CRUSH?” renjun practically screams. “yea, it’s not a big deal.” y/n says, right before pulling two lollipops out of their pocket and handing one to renjun. “fine, but, please don’t hate me.” renjun pleads, putting the wrapper into his pocket. “i promise i wont hate you. who is it?” “well, we only started being friends recently, but they’re just so.. i don’t know. and i’ve told jisung this, but i would do anything for them.” he says, trying hard not to stutter and even harder to not get a heart attack. y/n puts the lollipop in their mouth, and renjun follows. “anything?” y/n asks playfully. “yea, pretty much. i don’t even know why i like them so much, they act like... i don’t know, they kind of ignore me.” y/n secretly wondered what type of human would be able to ignore someone as nice and as attractive as renjun. “ignore you? it’s hard to do that with how whiny you are.” y/n laughs and renjun whines. “see, i told you!” y/n says and smiles around their lollipop. “anyways, do i know them?” y/n asks shortly after. “yea, kinda... hah, all of a sudden i dont really wanna talk about it anymore, so, bye?” renjun forces his hands into his pockets. was he really ready to confess? “fine, i’ll tell you about mine then. he’s really charming in his own way, and i just realized that i liked him recently. we also haven’t been friends for long, ha. i don’t know why, there’s just something about him, his cute little habits are so endearing to me. ew, i sound gross.” y/n pretends to vomit, and renjun sighs lowly. “you really do like him, huh?” he asks, defeated. “yea, i guess i really do.”  y/n smiles to themselves and nudges renjun.

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renjun kicks at a rock before stopping in front of a house. “well, this is my house, so...” “right.” y/n nods and presses their lips together. “hey, could you do me a favor?” y/n asks, right before renjun goes to walk up to the door. “sure, anything you want?” “anything?” y/n asks with a smile on their face. renjun lightly blushes, before saying quietly, “yea, anything.” he sends a small smile and y/n can’t help but walk closer to the boy. renjun’s heart starts pounding inside his chest. did he just confess?   y/n reaches out to him and gives him a hug. renjun frantically tries placing his hands on y/n’s back multiple times before finally resting them in one spot, placing his head in the crook of their neck. to him, it felt like they fit together perfectly. a giant smile paints his lips and y/n starts retracting their arms. ‘it’s you, renjun.” y/n faulters with their words. renjun’s eyes go wide and his lips part to let in air. he felt like he couldn’t breathe. “me. i am? it’s… what? he says, absolutely speechless. “you’re the guy i was talking about earlier. not that it matters.” y/n shrugs, trying to hide the fact that their heart was absolutely racing. “it does, uh, to me, because, you’re the person i was talking about earlier too, so…” he hides his face with his hand and looks away. ‘you think i ignore you?’ y/n says, surprised. ‘uh, a little bit…” he admits, shyly. he felt like he was going to explode, he was so flustered. “sorry, i’ll try to pay more attention to you?” y/n offers, paired with a crooked smile. renjun bends his knees and screams into the air, making y/n smile and laugh shortly after. “sorry, and, yea, that would be nice.” y/n hesitates before stepping forward and planting a quick kiss on renjun’s cheek, sending the poor love-struck boy’s heart to heaven and hell at the same time. a wide goofy smile is shared between the both of them. “ill text you?” y/n offers, hands trying to find a place to stop before finally landing in their pockets. “yes, great! i mean, uh, cool. very cool.” renjuns fails to hide his excitement as he practically floats on air and lets out a sigh, shooting y/n a thumbs up. “very cool, yes.” y/n laughs and finally leaves the boy to go inside, and he automatically starts jumping in a circle and clapping out of happiness.

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the end! 

[actualbird]

CRYING AGAIN OVER THE NEW FICLET CHAPTER OOUEGHHGH (SHAKING VYN BY THE SHOULDERS, LAUGHING HYSTERICALLY) YOU'RE ALL CONNECTED NOW THERE'S NO ESCAPING FRIENDSHIP YOU'VE PLAYED YOURSELF (WRONG) LUKEY... OUYUGHG I LOVE LUKE SO MUCH IN THIHS ONE. Yes he is Combat in the group but even I forgot he was also Investigator and this lad can read people just as well as vyn can and grgrhgrh he just decides to be Kind. i care them so much... -Marsh

ello, Marsh!!!! welcome to the regular anons club, thanks for dropping by :DDD and aaaaaahhh this ask is so SWEET HHH thank u for sending it in!!

HAHA, vyn kinda played himself. like he Absolutely Did Not Mean For This Whole //vaguely gestures at what happens in this ficlet To Happen. from an objective point of view, he fucked up. in his desire to know more about luke, he forgot luke's own specialties. and yet vyn, at the end of this chapter, doesnt see his actions in this chapter as a mistake. he would have, if luke did what vyn expected, if luke used what he knows against vyn. but luke doesnt. luke proves vyn's expectation of the world's cruelty to be wrong.

(actually, hey, segue, i just realized that based on my interpretation of the 4 boys, if i had to put them on a spectrum, marius and vyn are more on the zone of "i dont want bad things to happen to me, how i act ultimately leads back to this." while artem and luke are on the other side of the spectrum in the zone of "i dont want to do any bad things, how i act ultimately leads back to this."

well FUCK now i have another character analysis to write today LMAOOOOO, anyway, back on TOPIC) EDIT: i made the analysis, kill me now

YEAH. YEAH!!! OUR LAD IS A DETECTIVE!!! they throw around the word "special agent" more often now in the story, but when luke first walks into the NXX Investigation Team in main story 5.1, he introduces himself as an investigator. luke may not know like, the absolutely psychology of people like vyn does, but luke understands tendencies and how those tendencies reveal things. i assume he would have to, to be an investigator. you dont need to know how that person works and get them to work in your favor. you just need to....know the person, in a way.

"and he just decides to be Kind" i have a Lot Of Feelings About Luke Pearce (as is probably obvious from the entirety of my blog LMAO). something i want to explore in later chapters is how he is kind, yeah, but also a huge fucking hypocrite. luke is gonna have more moments like these where hes the nice one because thats his overall tendency, to be nice to others, but then layer by layer we'll see that hes not taking his own goddamn advice.

of course by that point the team will be so THOROUGHLY CARING OF EACH OTHER that theyre gonna COME FOR LUKE'S ASS (lovingly)

WHY DO I RAMBLE IN ANSWERS SO MUCH KJSFBS, my point is, thank you so much for this ask, Marsh!!! it made me veryy happy :DDD

[sleepyxdarling]

Todoroki, bakugou, and izuku reactions to a a darling who talks bad about themselves.

That moment where you are depressed and it affects your writing...hhh-

Triggers: not as yandere..maybe if you squint it can be.

Lord explosion murder does not play that

The minute he hears you talk shit he will grab you and force you into a rough kiss as a way to shut up

He will start to dish out compliments in his own special way

"You don't look like shit today"

For every insult you have he will counter that as if it's some competition

"shut the fuck up your ass looks great"

"your face is God damn kissable"

"if you say you look like trash again I will kiss you so damn hard that you will be too tired to speak!"

Bakugou may seem like a tough guy but i see him as a fashion expert

LOOK AT HIS OUTFITS LIKE DAMN

"don't wear that...you will look better in this"

Matching outfits! The boy will do it and you both will look amazing!

All and all bakuboi is a good boyfriend

If anyone talks bad about you they will get their ass beat

Will brag about you like this is a war

"[name] IS THE CUTEST THING EVER! SCREW YOUR BOYFRIEND! ARE THEY AS CUTE AS [NAME]?! I DONT THINK SO"

OH BOY

prepare for a long rant about how good you look

Full on sobs when you talk bad about yourself and it makes you feel guilty

Will shower you with so much love that you will drown in it

"you look like a model! Woah! So perfect! So beautiful!"

"Izuku..I'm..I'm wearing sweatpants.."

Will honestly brag about how good you look

Has so many pictures of you and will show other people while crying about how good you look

"DONT THEY LOOK SO CUTE?! WAIT WAIT! LOOK AT THIS ONE! THEY ARE EATING AND HAVE RICE ON THEIR CHEEK!"

I feel like he will have a whole book about how perfect you are

God help you if you insult yourself infront of him

"IZUKU PUT THE BOOK DOWN!"

"PAGE 87! YOUR SMILE SHINES LIKE THE SUN! ITS IN THE BOOK SO ITS TRUE!"

if you think you are heavy he will spend all day carrying you no matter what you say.

On the good note..that's one way to find him in a crowd just insult yourself

"[name] has an ugly smile!"

"WHO SAID THAT?! THEIR SMILE IS LIKE THE SUN! IT SHINES! FIGHT ME!"

You think you look awful??? Nonsense!

He will be a little dense but will be just as surprised

"why are you saying such awful things..you are perfect"

Will buy expensive clothes(with endeavor's card) hoping you see what he sees in you

If he hears someone talk bad about you then he will incase them in ice before going on a rant about why you are perfect

He is a clingy and affectionate guy so expect lots of kisses if you even try to say you look awful

He won't brag as aggressively as the other two but he will brag

"yesterday during lunch [name] brought me cup soba noodles..I truly am a lucky person"

"[name], you look quite nice today..did you do something with your hair?"

"no...?"

He won't have a book like Izuku but he will have printed out photos

"ugh I looked ugly as a kid..if we have kids I hope they look like you"

"no you didn't..you look adorable"

Whips out a picture from his wallet of your baby photo

"WHERE DID YOU GET THAT?!"

"I paid your mother for these photos"

If you say you are trash he will proceed to be Petty and step inside said trash can

"let's be trash together.."

"todoroki...that's so sweet...but your clothes smell awful now and I'm not hugging you until you shower"

"ah...I see.."

[musicdork]

hello am SO TIRED, painting took so much outta me. i painted my room all by myself and it took about half the day wowie. but it is DONE and now i just need to decorate💪🏼💪🏼 i saw ur post about only sleeping four hours and EXCUSE ME, U BEST BE HAVING MORE SLEEP THAN THAT U NEED IT FOR NUTRIENTS(that makes sense) also where r my manners i just relized i have YET to send in anything about ur mans josuke??? heres a tik tok that i think u will like. i’m a silly billy 100% so—https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMJbM9NGV/ i hope u have seen clone high (or at least the memes u kno)

oh i wanna read stone ocean SO BAD, but also i want to try and attempt to be a good noodle and read all the parts beforehand yknow😖 but when stone ocean anime comes out...u best be knowin..i will Look and Simp all the way.. also v nice about the rewatches!!! diu is genuinely such a feel good part, the most out of all the other parts imo. its upbeat, its colorful, its silly, gah. so good. not 2 mention those bombass ops. UNF the songs r so good. i like how ur rewatching part five :) i think vento aureo is my personal comfort part(despite the tragic events AAAAAA) the visuals and the location and the characters..so beautiful. its physically satisfying for my eyeballs to look at u know?

ohhh man not me listening to the kakyoin playlist before i went to bed last night...not me catching feelings and being IN my feelings while listening to the playlist and desperately wanting to cuddle with him as i fall asleep....n most of the songs in the playlist i knew already i felt so cool dude😎

thats awesome abt college!! and VERY NICE WITH UR DOUBLE MAJOR LIKE UHHHMMMM thats so intense??? crazy. what a smart person. u got it in the bag bro. also its my second yr in college rn, and i aspire to be a professional musician :) but the motivation IS lacking, i dont blame u. esp with covid restrictions making everyone work online and cut off different real life interactions, its fucked and screwing everyone up. no cap. but ANTWAY how was ur day?? i hope it was nice ??!?!! :) did u do anything interesting? even if it was watching tv rolled up in a blanket? (im doing that rn)

(guess who saw ur kakyoin reblogs?? and LOVED THEM??? thank u for the food..,.i am a bad noodle i need to find some fire josuke to reblog. just for u)

-from the tiredest secretive mostnt strnskslymyn andjfoeorngswo ANSON 😗😗😗🤙🏼 🥰

i got sleep dont u worry!! but hell yea, you got the big job out of the way >:D painting a room sounds tiring i,,, you poor soul hhh

I SAW THE TIKTOK

AND MY BROTHER GAVE ME A WEIRD LOOK LIKE “wtf u laughin at” he wanted to see, and he did, but he didn’t get it slkfemsnekj i didn’t get it too much either?? i’ve only seen,,, 3 or 4 episodes of clone high but i know who that Bastard is and i laughed my ass off. i’m also listening to a playlist i made for josuke atm uwu i am really glad you liked the kak playlist!! you are a Legend for knowing most of the songs. i only know some bc of the memes :’)

it’s very valid that you’re trying to read jojo chronologically. i’m just,, impatient LMAO. i plan on actually reading all of it but it’ll probably end up like how i read haikyuu,,, i’ll be fixated for a week or so, put it down for like 3 months, then remember that i wanna read it, read One (1) chapter, then put it down for another 2 months, then bLAZE THROUGH IT LMAO. reading digital manga has been kinda odd for me,, i tend to procrastinate a lot,, but yes!! part 5 has some amazing visuals and i am jealous like?? i wanna go to itally??? i’ve kinda always wanted to go i shove down my hetalia phase and i even tried to learn italian!! but,, didn’t last,, haha,, i still appreciate the culture and all that tho <3

sm...smart? homie i am failing two classes im, im no way smart i just like torturing myself i think. i can be over ambitious too sefklslek bUT YO?? YOU WANNA BE A MUSCIAN?? :0 THAT’S HELLA POG TF!!! you better invite me to your concerts in the future or i am suing you Somehow. wait do you play an instrument or do you sing?? :0 either way, you my friend are So Cool what the hell. i get to be moots with u?? im gonna cry-- i’m kinda glad covid happened only for the reason that it gave me extra scholarship money, very pog. other than that it needs to go away lmao.

but skdelk my day was Okay at most. i was sleeping for a good bit of it,, it kinda fucked up my plans for today honestly. i’ll try to get my day together eventually,, i hope your day was good dude!! am glad i can keep u well fed hehe

[shiro-0197]

Of course! The title is Yuukoku no moriarty, and it's honestly one of the best things I've EVER watched (next to aot and haikyuu) and I watch it with my mom 😆 they're all so pretty I might cry

oh that is SO understandable. We get flooded with lots of work too, our days are always filled with tuition classes and stuff, and the more active you are, the more responsibilities you have, which also eats a lot of time. (I'm VERY active in clubs and extracurriculars so I low-key don't have any time at all when schools on, so it's very nice to relax now)

I hope you find out soon!! And I hope you don't get those headaches :( they must be very annoying... Skdhskks that sounds so nice!! I hope breakfast goes well!!

I woke up early to join an event another Leo club from a different school was hosting. The president invited me and I went as a favour hhh. I'm probably gonna spend the rest of my day working on our event, and inviting people. My email and phone are so packed with contacts to invite 😣🙀 and I've been calling my members since morning to get them to help me with the promotion :D

oh that's so cute! It just personalises the names so well uwu and that way no one else except you guys will ever know which store you're referring to.

YES IT WOULD!! I'd love to bake with you. I totally wouldn't smear flour on you when you aren't noticing, wdym? 💁😼😋

oh I see!! So they celebrate Eid, then? Tho yes I think new year's is universal :D can't wait to count down and welcome the new year~ that sounds so cool!! Gonna check their videos out if I have time, and I added the song to my playlist!! I get what you mean, whenever the singer screams or something, chills istg! I used to listen to a song like that, it had a scream in it halfway but I forgot the name. I'll let you know if I remember!! Do you have a celebrity crush? I'm curious x)

IM GONNA FITE YOUR HEADACHE HOLD ME BACK HOW DARE IT PLAGUE YOU AND MAKE YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE >:(((((( brb gonna Google how to fight a headache :] tho I hope you have a good brunch :D

JB skfhskjdks no 😭😭 me and my friend constantly annoy each other with his song titles, especially "baby" cuz it's the cringiest thing ever, but we can't ever seen to drop it skckdhkdk

thank you!! And good luck to you too, I hope you have a good day!

—Ari

Ohh, it looks good! Thank you, I'll check it out<33

Ahh, that sounds so stressful!! I'm glad you have time to rest today, and I'm proud that you got through that everyday, I would've probably shrunken or something at that amount of work XD

Yep, though sometimes I get distracted enough to not notice them. I forgot how it feels to live without a headache, and now I dont know if I dont have it all the time and if I just imagine the pain sometimes, it's so confusing😭😭 It did!! It was nice, it was really quiet and I decided to put my phone away and it felt pretty good<3

Oho?? That's so cool! From a different school? Our schools have connections too but tbh we dont hold meetings together at all, that sounds so cool. I wish I went to your school😩 mine isn't bad but tbh I'd need something to keep me busy. I'm literally so used to having free time every day it's annoying. I hope you're holding up well with all your work, good luck♡♡

Ahahah, food fight during baking🥰 that sounds like a huge mess, I'm in.

Yeah, they do!! Though not everyone does the fasting part, they still celebrate it.

I hope you like 'em!! And sameeee the absolute blast I feel whenever they scream is INSANE, I'd love to hear that song you're talking about hehe~

A celebrity crush? Well, I'm not really big on celebrities right now XD though about an year abo I was obsessed with Brian Dechart and Ben Lambert, the guys who played Connor and Simon in Detroit: Become Human. I watched EVERYTHING I could find with them.

Also, idk if it counts, but I really admire a girl from Kuro's school. He keeps talking about her, saying how cool she is and what awesome stuff her and her class do. Shes also one of the main members (idk, maybe shes the leader? I'm not sure) of the KVN club of their school, which is really cool. It might be a waste of time, but if you're curious you can check out the team's insta - 6madam - and theres everything else you need. The girl's name is Raushan and the amount of stuff she does for the school is really cool:)

HOW ARE YOU GONNA FIGHT MY HEADACHE ARE YOU GONNA LKE HIT MY HEAD😭😭😭 PLS SOME CUDDLES WOULD BE FINE😝💕 nooo you have a lot to do on your own!!!

BWAHAHAH I feel you, when someone mentions the "Baby", no one can stop singing the freaking "baby, baby, oeaughbehhfhdhhr" part and it's so HORRYFYING sometimes but also so FUNNY😭

I hope school's been treating you well, love you lots😝💖💞💝💕

[milk--bread]

hello!! may i please request a scenario with iwaizumi? just soft comfort fluff with a fem s/o who just finished their exams thus being mentally drained hhh thank u if youre doing this n its okay if u dont want to! <3 have a nice day

Soft Iwaizumi makes me so emotional <3 Hope you enjoy!

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Today is the day.

You’re slumped over your desk with your cheek against the wood. Your last exam was hours ago, but you couldn’t bring yourself to move from this spot. Your eyes are glued to the empty cans of soda and empty mugs of coffee on your desk. You have to clean this mess at some point, but your room is buried in weeks worth of garbage and you just can’t find the energy to do it.

“Y/N!” You hear your roommate call out from your shared living room. “Your boyfriend is here!”

You jerk up in a panic. Iwaizumi is early. Hours early. You were planning on cleaning your room before he arrived so that he didn’t see any of it. “Be out in a second!” You call back, taking a handful of empty cans and shoving them into your trash can. You kick some stuff under your bed, but it’s still pretty bad. Maybe you can get away with just hanging out in the living room. 

You poke your head out to make sure he isn’t right in front of your door and make your way to the living room, a well-practiced smile on your face. It isn’t entirely forced, because seeing Iwaizumi standing in the doorway is a breath of fresh air. He’s wearing grey sweatpants and an old muscle tank, so he must have come straight from practice.

“Hajime! Did your coach let you out early?” You ask, running over to him and wrapping your arms around his waist.

“Yeah,” his arms fall around you, pulling you close. “He figured we’d need a break since finals week just ended.” He places a kiss on the top of your head and you feel yourself melting into his embrace. Now that he’s here and his scent is surrounding you, you feel your barrier breaking down.

It happens in slow motion and you’re so glad that your roommate went back to her room to give you two some privacy because you don’t know how to stop the tears from falling from your eyes. At first you can keep it quiet, but you’re sure that Iwaizumi can feel your body trembling and he can probably feel the wet spot on his shirt where you’re wiping your eyes.

“Y/N? What’s wrong?” he murmurs against your hair, rubbing your back soothingly. It’s such a sweet gesture that it just makes your cry a little more.

You shake your head because you don’t really know how to answer him. He seems to understand, so he just slowly moves towards your room. You’re dreading the moment he opens the door, but you know you can’t avoid it at this point.

To his credit, he barely flinches when he sees the state of your room. He simply picks you up bridal style and puts you onto your bed, the only clean spot in your room. “I-I can explain.”

Iwaizumi cups your cheek and brings his face close to yours, resting his forehead against yours. “Y/N, you don’t have to explain.” He kisses you slow and soft, the way he only does when you’re alone. “Whatever it is, we can handle it.” You feel yourself start to cry again at his words, but he wipes away the tears with a calloused thumb.

He climbs onto the bed with you and sits with his back against the wall, pulling you between his legs against his chest. You can hear his heartbeat and the way his arms wrap around you like a vice feels like it’s holding you together. The two of you sit like this for the better part of an hour. The tears come every few minutes, but he’s always there to wipe them away and whisper sweet words of encouragement into your ear.

At some point you fall asleep and when you wake up, you’re laying down, blankets pulled up over you and your old stuffed animal in your arms. Your eyes still feel puffy from crying, but the nap definitely did your mind some good. You hear some shuffling around, so you open your eyes to find Iwaizumi cleaning up your mess. Your desk is already clean and he’s almost finished picking up everything on the ground.

Clearing your throat to speak makes him turn to look at you. “You didn’t have to do that, Hajime… I would have gotten to it eventually.”

He finishes folding the pair of jeans in his hands and comes over to place a kiss on your temple, running his fingers through your hair and scratching your scalp lightly. Your eyes flutter closed momentarily before focusing on him again.

“I know I didn’t have to, Y/N. I wanted to. Plus, you looked cute.” He hands you the cup of coffee that was sitting on your nightstand and you take a sip. It’s not hot anymore, but it’s still warm enough. Satisfied, he gives you one last kiss and then goes to finish folding the pile of laundry that was sitting on your chair. You’re not sure what you did to deserve Iwaizumi, but you thank every deity alive that he’s yours.

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Requests are {OPEN}

[cherrysnax]

!!!! I JUST SAW THESE 💜💙💜💙

GUYS I CAN VIDEO CHAT WOTH XIOMARA TODAY?????

[clownmoontoon]

MOON I HAVENT THE SLIGHTEST GODDAMN CLUE WHAT CAMP CAMP IS ABOUT BUT YOU POSTING ALL THOSE CUTE DAVIDS IS. MAKING ME FEEL THINGS FOR HIM?? MAYBE??? PTHTHBT I UDNNO HES CUTE BUT LIKE!! I HOPE YOURE TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF, YOU GOOBER, M'PROUD OF YOU FOR KICKIN THIS MONTHS ASS AND HOPE THIS WEEKS BEEN KIND TO YOU SO FAR

OUGKLHASLKKLJDSLKGHAHAHAHA AWWWW!!!! cRIES THAT MAKES ME SUPER HAPPYYY HAHA

DAVID IS A WONDERFUL BOI TO HAVE FEELINGS FOR I MEAN!!! LOOK AT HIMMM!!!!!

CRIES DONT YA JUST WANNA SMOOCH THAT FACE??

camp camp is all about how david becomes the adopted dad of many children and also the viewer HES A WHOLESOME GOOD SURROUNDED BY BEASTS HAHA i love h e….

AND IM…TRYIN…GHGHGH GOT SOME PRETTY BAD BAD NEWS BC IM A DUMBASS …spilled some water on my laptop and completely fucked up my keyboard hhh and according to the mac doctor guys theres corrosion on the log drive so its basically just a matter of time before she dies completely ;;

SO LOTS OF PANICKING AND CRYING TODAY!! my mom has been super understanding and even got me a new keyboard and mouse we can plug into the usb thingies so i can type again ;; v ;; THIS IS WHY IM ANSWERING THIS KINDA LATE AA i couldnt type at all yesterday ghghg

SO BLS PRAY THAT DORA (thats my computers name aa) LASTS A LONG WHILE EVEN WITH A CORRODED THINGY AAAA

i read some things online by ppl who had the same problem (spilling water on the keyboard) and apparently when they got a new keyboard most of them worked fine for a long while after?? bUT ALSO DORA IS..QUITE OLD..AND HAS ALREADY HAD HER ENTIRE  HEART AND BRAIN REPLACED ONCE GHGH

SHES POWERFUL AND I RELY ON HER FOR SO MUCH SO HOPEFULLY SHE KEEPS ON LIVIN AAA

[redselfships]

tw////////slight vent

at the bus stop today this dude came up to me to talk and so being the nice person i was, i answered whatever questions he had on me without like. telling him too much (even then i feel like i basically told him my whole schedule which i regret now). um anyway, he asked if i wanted to follow him on ig and i kind of got flustered and said “sure” (which i major regret i have him blocked now but hhh, i shouldve jus said i didnt have one) and a few minutes later he goes “do you want my number?” and by then i managed to be like “um no, you have my ig thats enough” and he was like “oh yeah i guess haha”. not to mention during our whole “”conversation”” i kept looking out at the bus and like, being Disinterested(tm)

the bus was finally getting ready to leave and i bOOKEd it. i was like “i have to go he is letting people in” and jumped in the bus when i saw the old lady go in. i didnt care that the bus driver stepped out real fast i just wanted to get out.

i nearly asked the old lady if i can sit next to her because i was lowkey getting scared but i didnt want to ?? inconvenience her so i was a FOOL. i sat on the window seat and put my bag next to me just so he couldnt sit there.

he CAME from this bus and im pretty fucking sure he was taking the other one but instead, he waited a few minutes and then Got On The Bus and sat on the row across from me

at this point im Freaking out because if he stays in that bus he’ll figure out what stop im off on (which is the stop near the house). and i have my earbuds on trying to stay calm but at this point im like, at the point of crying. i have never been so scared my entire life. he talked to me once and i just kind of brushed it off like “yeah cool” and i think he got the message cos he got off a few stops later but i just

the whole rest of the bus ride i was just Quietly crying in the bus because of how scared i was. i didnt breathe for like a Bit.

once i got to my stop i called my friend immediately and i just fucking Sobbed to them. and like it was the pathetic sort of sobbing where i was just hiccuping and couldnt breathe

anyway i still have to take the bus to and fro from school (in a different time than today thank god) but im honestly too scared to take it now

idk if im overreacting about this, its kind of a big city and i hope no one is willing to go out of their way to stalk me but idk these days. i would take a different bus route but the other bus route i can take was one that he mentioned he was supposed to take when he got on the bus so i just. Dont Know what to do and lyft/uber drivers are on strike tomorrow and i just

i cant skip school either cos i have tests to take on both my last days

[actualbird]

just got to reading ur tot fics again right after a really (STATIC NOISES) week AND IM (HOLDING THE LOST GOLD FICLETS IN MY ARMS LIKE A THIEF CAUGHT STEALING GOODS, THEY ARE FALLING OUT OF THEM AS WE SPEAK) u have fed me SO WELL with NXX interactions i am going through Many Emotion in the span of seconds i went from "HFHDSJFKFGKJHSGHJK MARIUS THINKING ARTEM IS HOT IS SERIOUSLY JUST PERFECT -- NOOOOO GIANN AND NEIL ---ARRGBBGBGHH THEY CARE?? THEY CARE !!!!"

hhh anon sorry about your (static noises) week, i hope the coming weeks are kinder to you!!!

and hhhHHHH god anon im...rlly emo, thank you so much for ur kind words, they mean a lot to me. every single comment on my fic means a lot to me but ngl i was feeling a lil insecure with ficlet 4 of filler eps of the lost gold. i did get comments on that chapter and theyre very nice!! but didnt rlly bring up anything in the chapter so i got rlly worried that i didnt write it well enough for people to notice. so ur words are just make me //sob wail cry okay maybe i did do the ficlet okay

hard swerve into commenting at ur comments bc i dont know how to shut up

HAHA i have a general hc that marius finds everybody in the nxx team hot. i mean, listen, im bi and if i were in that team? i would die

marius and artem seem to be at odds, at first glance. youngest vs. oldest, facade vs. facts, weaponization vs. repression.

but also theyre so similar as well, they both just need to realize it. i wont delve into all their similarities now bc im gonna explore it further in the ficlet collection, but the first similarity is yeah. giann and neil. theyve both lost somebody important to them. thats the catalyst for both of them realizing that theyve got something in common, that they can connect, that they can care.

i need to shut up now lol i feel kinda cringe today because of (static noises as well) brain stuff but thank you so much, anon. you made my (static noises) go a little bit more quiet :')