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sorry babygirl i'd go to bed it but its my weekly half-conscious 2am music session where i listen to a song from a game i like and cry about how much i absolutely love it and i love art and i love music and i love loving art. and i express this with barely comprehenisble discord messages that 2 people read where i just send a link to the song im listening to with the caption "OUGH" and then send a bunch of fast moving gifs
#text#and i just feel emotions#tonight its splatoon. specifically i had hightide era hooked in my brain and then started listening to a playlist from there#seaskape fucks me up man . its SO#i didnt even play splatoon 1 .#im not lying when i say weekly this happens literally all the time . at LEAST once a week . usually more .#when its not music it can also be like . the sudden urge to rewatch a certain scene from a show . then feel emotions over that#i cant be the onyl one right .#anyways.#autism#yeahi think that tag applies
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tw stupid vent in tags
#tw self harm#tw vent#“being a teenager is the best!” I CUT MYSELF ALMST EVERYDAY.#IVE SCARRED MYSELF SO BAD ILL NEVER EVER BE ABLE TO WEAR SHORT SLEEVES NO MTTER HOW LONG IT SBENE SINCE IT HAPPENED#I ONYL SPEAK TO LIKE ONE OR TWO PEOPLE IRL I AM DETERIORATING#I ALREADY HAVE A FUCKING SCAR SO BIG U CAN FEEL WHERE IT GETS DEEP#HOW .#HOW IS THIS GOOD#HOW DO I HAVE HTE BEST LIFE HOW R PEOPLE JEALOUS#WHENEVER I GET MISGENDERED I CANT HELP BUT BITE MYSELF UNTIL I BLEED which is really hard to do...#IM SO SIKKC OF IT#IM SO TIREDD.#im going insane again arent i#THERES NOT BEEN A WEEK WITHOUT SELF HARM SINCE GOD KNOWS WHEN#EVERY LIMB HURTS except my right leg specifically i saved that one for spare parts#oh and my goddamn mother only cares about how ill look because of the scars and not that im FUCKING BLEEDING OUT BCUZ OF HER NO LESS#DOES IT GET BETTER. DO I STOP CUTTING MYSELF??#everytime i see a little too much blood it reminds me of when i did it and i feel sick to my stomach
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#i know its mt responsibility because if it wasnt then it no ones responsibility but theres a unique sort of pain that comes with losing one×#parent to suicide and drug addiction and be constantly terrifief that the other parent will end up the same fucking way#i dont want to have to be the one to worry about it anymore i wanna be able to ask mg mom to fucking help me but shes thr one i have to look#out for. i dont want to have fo fucking worry about this I DONT WANT TO LOSE ANOTHET FUCKING FAMILG MEMBER TO AN OVERDOSR#i dont want to do this i hate living in fear and never saying the fucking words aloud like if i address the fear that itll be a possibility#but i know i cant avoid it forever and im fucking breaking down. i dont want this to be another thing i have to worry ahout im so fucking#tired of this im so tired of being scared im so scared of losing my only living parejt to the same fucking thing#WHAT CAN I EVEN FUCKING DO#i pushed her to get help shes on methadone she has a counsellor but shes still using . we dont have the money for that right now#and i dont want to be controlling i donf want to have to control the finances and take away her cards i dont wanf to have to do that#but were going to lose the fucking house . and i know addiction is hard my god ive fuckign seen it i dont blame her BUT ITS SO FUCKING HARD#FOR ME TOO. ITS SO FUCKING HARD TO SEE HER GOING THROUGH THE THINGS I CAN ONYL ASSUME MY FATHER WAS FEELING#AND WORRYING THAT THE INEVITABLE OUTCOME IS THE SAME AS HIS . AND I WISH I COULDVE DONE SOMWTHIFN THEN BUT I WAS 3#SO IM TRYING TO DO SOMETHING THIS TIME AROUND BUT ITS SO . FUCKING HARD#i dont blame her i dont but i am so tired i dong want to live like thid anymore
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hi guys heres my melvin dipp headcanons cuz i cant remember if i ever posted them. been accumulating them for a while now so ignore the poor quality its normally just me ranting whenever i had a thought
- originally tried out for the football but didn’t make it. instead, he joined the track team hence why ponyboy is his number 1 opp.
- brings up sergei whenever he can. “nobody even likes you melvin 😒😒” “SERGEI DOES. 😡” whenever he isn’t around he also accidentally mentions their inside jokes only to be met with pure silence while he laughs by himself… “ts wasnt even funny” “SERGEI IS THE ONYL 1 WHO GETS IT 😡😡😡😡”
- in modern day would be an ipad kid. blockblast brainrotted. bullies kids on fortnite squads gamechat. he tried to play COD but ended up crying when all the grown male adults bullied him in gamechat
- light freckles around his nose and cheeks (very few and VERY light)
- was gifted a pickup line book as a gag gift one year for his birthday… would use the cheesy lines on ace but SERIOUSLY. like hes leaning against the wall and mewwing just to say “if you were a fart, i’d clench you so hard to never let you go 😏” she stared at him in disgust.
- tagteams chet with sergei.
- more outgoing/extroverted but this isn’t necessarily a good thing.
- nevel papperman coded…
- MELVIN DIPP. i whole heartedly stand by melvin being trips younger brother. it’s the reason he tags along every now and then with the socs. seen by them sort of how steve sees ponyboy i’d assume like a tag-a-long. (Brie Leftwich is diaBOLICAL for leading people to believe melvin is chet’s little brother. that’s his OPP!)
- seth from superbad variant
- would have some weird fuck ass pet because his grandma doesn’t want fur everywhere. probably a bird or a gecko.
- melvin is actually dying to be like trip and his friends. he acts annoyed when his grandma makes him go out with trip (hands in pockets puffing out his cheeks WHY) but in reality he’s secretly excited. even if that means he’s just going to be either picked on or ignored the entire time.
- gumball waterson scream: full of voice cracks and high pitched yet hitting puberty scream
- trip when all he can see when he looks melvin is himself despite them being from different dads and looking nothijg alike. its his mannerisms and the way hes become to dependent on cigarettes to get him buzzed reminds trip of himself and alcohol 😴😴😴😴 sinilar bruises blooming over his ribs and cheeks a tell tale sign that hes been getting into fights he cant win 😴😴😴 worrying that the younger is gonna end up in the newspaper the next morning cuz hes digging himself a grave
- melvin has a lisp. he was born with it and did the public school speech classes which somewhat worked but his progress all went to waste cuz of his teeth. he had originally messed up teeth — not to bad but it was bad enough where he had to get it fixed. so when he got braces they literally FUCKED him over. being teased left and right by bob and the others, making fun of his mouth full of metal. not to mention his lisp was still lingering so it just added on. when he finally got them off, he thought he was free at last… little did he know he would have to wear a retainers at night so his teeth don’t revert back. HOWEVER. his grandma FORCES him to wear it ALL THE TIME cuz she’s so worried about all the money she put into those “pearly whites” going to waste. so he has a more noticeable lisp (than he already did because he had one growing up) because of the metal retainer. which, of course, the socs all poke fun at him for. especially when hes pissing them off.
chet: “melvin ‘thut’ the fuck up you ‘thupid’ bitch”
melvin: “😥”
- most definitely one of his weak points. he shuts up as soon as it’s mentioned and his ears/face turn red. FURROWING HIS EYEBROWS. this guy mad ash!!!
- alvin chipmunk variant
- kevin g variant
- gumball waterson variant
- xyler (cosmic earth trip) variant
- sergei and melvin = kurt and ram
- slightly fraser wrwwr coded… very very very slightly……..
- GREG HEFFLEY VARIANT.
- prefers math over reading. he doesn’t really have the attention span to sit around and read a whole novel or scan articles to find evidence. plus, the teacher’s lessons go by soooo slow. math just comes easy to him to the point where he doesn’t need to study and can still achieve a passing grade.
- his eyebrows are permanently furrowed. its so bad boy why do you always look mad as HELL. most of the time it’s pretty subtle but his go to reaction face is DISGUSTED. why are you so judgeMENTAL BOY.
- he would be team logan paul
- tends to jump/threaten greasers who are bigger than him. he thinks he’s tough — thinks he can take them all on his own without anyone’s help, but of course in the end he’s wrong. trip ends up searching around town to find him lying in the lot or in some dingey alley bruised with dried blood on his face. he doesn’t know exactly the reason why he always needs to fight. he just does. it’s an urge that he can’t sustain. maybe it’s to prove something about himself, or to relieve some stress, but glory even Melvin doesn’t know why he’s so reckless. doesn’t know why he ignored Trip’s stern demand to stay home, or why he runs into the rumble. afterward, however, trip checking on melvin after the rumble as he sleeps like peaking his head in and stuff too make sure hes alright 😴😴😴 he was the one to fix him up and tend to his wounds and had been not so silently freaking out the entire time, guilt for the situation coming out in his frustration as melvin continues to tell him he doesnt need help 😴😴😴
- sergei and melvin bromosexual they joke around like regular highschool boys.
- personally, i don’t think ace likes melvin back especially with the way tilly and melody make it out to be. it’s just like a teen boy crush (celebrity crush almost really in a sense), so he’s trying to hit her up and she just glares at him before turning away. he would definitely tell sergei about her though and how he finds her attractive.
- very set on ponyboy and melvin parallels. both on the track team, both strained relationship with their older brother, both no parents, etcetc. also both are CHRONIC smokers. but for different reasons. MELVIN IS NOT THE END OF THE CYCLE. (read dipp brothers lore in case you don’t know). sergei HATES when he smokes strictly because of the smell. it’s terrible and it always lingers on the blond’s clothing.
#melvin dipp#melvin dipp hcs#the outsiders musical#the outsiders broadway#the outsiders#se hinton#terrance trip dipp#terrance trip dipp hcs#sergei meyrink#sergei meyrink hcs
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i might have already talked about this but i honestly cant remember if i did or if its one of my totk thoughts that keep haunting me in my head (and god knows how id find it on tumblr)
.. did they ever say how long link was gone for? like at the start? bc to me it feels like it must have been months or something given how some things are .. although others are the opposite
like the spypost alone is so weird to me, its a goddamn stupid place to put it, a SPYpost should either be concealed or in a hard to reach place with good look of the environment around it- which it doesnt have at all (despite higher up hills being right around the corner ...), who would put a spy post directly on flat ground at the castle doors?? (AND in a place where i think would have been the ONLY good place to put nothing there/dont change it- or have it bee a secret entrance into the castle you can find on your own .. if the castle was actually like a dungeon and inaccessible for the most time ...) makes even less sense if it was built before link disappeared bc wh- .. whats its purpose anyway? the calamity is gone and instead of rebuilding castle town or soemthing nearby you put the words least sensical spypost right at the front of the castle thats a dead dirty lump of rock (yes i know zelda mentions soemthing of the miasma being active or whatever but that changes nothing abotu how little sense thing darn thing makes to me .. ) (i will stand by my idea of rebuilding the ranch ruins into a little hub and tavern instead, a spypost can be a smaller thing higher up but that as a little new town and maybe with my personal little wish of having all your horses run around a ranch, of course its got little defense, this is a ranch and the calamity was gone and its not that close to the castle, its also rather in the middle of the map and a bigger wider area would be hard to miss, plus its using an old neat reference and making something meaningful out of it, soemthing this game is allergic to im- *breathes in* fine.)
death mountain, i assumed at least, cooled down with the cataclysm (.. way too serious sounding for .. largely just some pebbles falling from the sky) and it seems like theres alot of stuff built on there and even grass growing and everything, like its been that way for a long time, yunobo being dumbified by brainwash mask and the things he does also dont feel like they happen in a day or two
the other regions on the other hand ... ignoring how mcuh of a non issue the rito problem is (the oooooh blizzard doesnt even stop them from flying ..... its not freezing them either bc none of them wear any more clothes and just do business as usual .. but then food is supposed to be a problem? .... you .. you can fly ..... ... why wasnt the boss then a monster that eats everything of the region or soemthing ... a big ol worm razing entire forest, or .. you know, make the blizzard an actual problem, winds so strong you cant fly, temperature so low you freeze immediately without special armor), are just .. dealing with it themselves? and dont seem to even seek out the help of anyone else? like it literally just happend?
but then theres entire sonau research teams and people studying it but .. all the shit started to appear with the cataclysm ... so???? though zelda at the start talks about it like its been a well known every day life fact that the acnient stupid furry first king of gods holy lands was called rauru and he was a sonau (WHICH NO ONE KNEW ANYTHIGN ABOUT THE LITERAL ONYL THING KNOWN WAS THE ARMOR SET IN BOTW THAT ALSO DOESNT MATCH ANYTHING AT ALL TOTK SONAU) and his fridge wife was sonia like its just written in every history book and still somehow accurate (might i remind you its been MORE than TEN THOUSAND YEARS sicne then and nothign was known of them in botw) while no one remembers link from a 100 years ago, nor from 6 years ago, but then remembered the champions for the 100 year botw gap and then promptly forgot about them in totk (it really feels like that) BUT THEN you got kids in school that dont fking believe the calamity happend (which was defeated just like 6 years before that)
then again .... theres not a single soul on the sky islands, despite there, NOW more than ever, multiple ways to get up there, are you telling me everyones obsessed with the stupid sonau shit and then no one even tries to go up there??? arguing that it wasnt accessible until noodle zelda broke through the clouds at the end of the tutorial doesnt work bc those ruins already fell down, people must have known and no one even tried?? also they can go up there after it go opened up?? plus clearly the ruins were able to fall through also ... what even determines whether an island falls down or not? why do some fall when tHe dEmON kInG wakes up? you see it with those green sonau magic stuff but like .... who ... did that, both rauru and mineru were dead when zelda noodlefied herself and there everything was STILL on the ground? the only magical thing the constructs do is use fuse sometimes i dont think they can lift up all that shit .. clearly is wasnt rauru either bc he acts surprised about it being up here, but why does it falter when big il ganon man wakes up? mineru after the weird static non battle with ganondorf wasnt doing so hot and we have no idea how much time passed between that and the moment she goes into the purah pad (i could be annoying about that as well) either
in taburasa (tarrey town) they do all that shit with the sonau stuff, implying theres enough time that passed to make people tinker with it too so ?(though i still hate that bc its so .. shouldnt you of all people be scared of more techy bs materializing when the whole calamity is like back almost exactly like it was before? not even suspicious? no? you dont even know how it works yet everyone trying to work with it like there isnt anythign better to do??)
like with everything in this game it keeps contradicting itself, the inconsistency makes me want to rip my hair out anytime i try to make sense of it
#ganondoodles talks#ganondoodles rants#zelda#totk critical#..... okay the totk rants are back#................i really should just write the script instead of waiting for the darn book#ah yes in case you didnt know- im a totk hater and ranter and yes i still hate it with every fiber of my being#i dont quite remember everything bc i#well i havent touched the thing since two weeks after release and i dont own it anymore
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omfg i cannot even imagine moving away from the city to countryside i bet that such a difficult adjustment. NOOO you don’t sound like a brat my love it’s not your fault you grew up in a diff area !! 100% agree they just creep me OUTTTTTT. but it’s weird bc i find domesticated rats super cute and i know they’re super clean but if i saw one irl i would cry and scream and run 😀😀😀😀
OMFG RIGHT ??? I WANT TO KNOW LEE KNOWS WORK OUT ROUTINE SO BAD AND I DONT EVEN WORK OUT. also dude felix’s whole outfit in that was just tdf. honestly …. i found his lower back showing to be kinda hotter than the abs …. i’m just a sucker for dudes backs okay 😔😔. cant wait to attend you and hyunjins wedding and if you need a third pls do lmk 😇 hehe
YEP YOU GET IT !! the men who just look like the eiffel tower are the way to my heart <33333 and the ones who look dead inside w long hair and nice hands <33333 good lord bring them here RNNNN. okay short queens look at us go and flourish. and it’s cute that you’re a little taller than me hehe. AND I DID THE HAND MEASURING and they’re 15.8 cm ^_^ which is cuteeeeee. usually i don’t find myself cute but i feel like that’s kinda cute hehe. i gotta know yours now so we can compare
ALSO I DIDNT DW 🙏🏼 i treated myself to some starbucks after class anddddd now i’m getting chinese food oh yea 😎 i’m taking care of myself just for u ig 🙄. all of those foods are a 12/10, i just looked up tomyum and it looks AMAZINGGGGGGG. i love seafood and spicy so that is right up my alley yum yum yum. i want to try it now. my fave food is sushi, but i love literally everything tbh. i don’t think there’s one food that i hate (although i will say i do not like beets or radishes no matter how many times i try them). food is the way to my heart tho i love cooking and food SM but especially cooking for ppl. and i love eating w my friends and family. if food was a love language it would be mine 😇
😽😽😽😽😽😽 cat kisses 4 u. i’m so excited
to hear your hand size hehe (i’m a slut for hands it’s so bad)
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PLEASE RIGHT. . . imagine i’m used to seeing busy streets and skyscrapers but when i moved for uni i saw cows. COWS. the only time i see a cow at home is on a plate when it’s already become beef soup. 💀 i do Not find rats cute at all 😭 THEY FREAK ME OUT TOOOO MUCH.
talking abt lower backs. . . god i love it when they wear those shirts with open backs 🗣‼️ ALL OF EM LOOK GOOD IN THEM GOOD GOD WHOEVER INVENTED OPEN BACK TOPS NEED THEY ASS ATE 💯 yes ofc ure invited to our wedding u can become my maid of honour and no third person sorry im not poly and im greedy but i will set u up with minho fr 🤝
THE MEN WHO LOOK DEAD HELP I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONYL ONE 🤩 I GET UUU WE ARE SOULMATES!! SOULMATES, BABY! ong ur hands are smaller than mine <33 mine’s 17cm ^__^ so we have roughly about 2cm difference, that’s so cute T_T
YAYAYA tomyum is so yummy i just had it for dinner ^__^ i will gladly cook u a pot baby! i love sushi omg. . . forgot to put that in my list of fave foods. love the salmon ones sm. god i love salmon. if we meet we r having a cooking sesh fr 🤝 i love cooking. it’s theraupetic <33 now im curious, whats ur usual starbucks order? do you get coffee, or something else?
u have my hand size now :-)) thank u for the cat kissies now i present to u, bunny kissies 🐰🐇
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So....i left first in your timeline? Hmmm...a reversal of roles...here, you left first-i vant blame you, you needed your space and we had a bit if a fallout....so you stayed with them a little longer? Tell..me more about thst...if you wamt to..
Her voice is careful and hesistant, but theres no trace of hurt in it, simply a acceptance of facts-thats jer scientific side. And a bit of surprise. She sichs aswell, a heavy one, as if onyl now her heart starts to shrug off the coat of yesrs of pain and loss, all masked under neutrality and being seemingly non-caring.
...it was my duty after all...i..made them immortal, they were my responsibility. My children.....I..i suppose...youre..right about jonny even tho..i cant really blame him..after all, partially i mechanized tjem out of selfishness-i just wanted a family again...but we saw how this worked out....maybe its just me, i might be...destined to be alone...or like, partially alone..
She glances ober to the sleeping alice with the octokittens. Her voive sounds....broken at the last words. Unlkke anything she has ever sounded before. She chokes back her tears, even tho shes more vulnerable arpund scuzz, vrying infront of them is still smth she woudl rsther aboid. She wips her eyes, trying to get the tears to stop.
“Carmilla, um.”
[Upon ensuring that Carmilla is alone, Scuzz speaks up from the doorway of the room.]
“Are you okay? I saw you and Jonny had a kind of… intense conversation.”
[- @askscuzznishimura ]
[[Trying to leave the setting somewhat ambiguous here — hope this works! :) ]
Ah, scuzz, i didnt notice you......i'm...fine..just...a bit worn out.and disappointed in myself.
Shes lying, obviously shes not fine. But shes used to lie about her feelings, its easy to fall back into it. She sits there and just sighs.
......if i only i wiuldve been more of a m8ther and less of a scientist...
#ooc: she sits on the ground. i picture it luek a sort of ..sofsr that sin the ground. alice is jut öiie nappikg next to her#ooc: but alice is peobnjsut VERY SOUNDLY ASL3EÜ#ooc: and oooo fascinazkng! i like that yk th#ooc: thwy make me emotional
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grinch; but i’m not alone anymore! and i have all of you to thank for it! but especially this little girl right here, *gestures to cindy*
bricklebaum; okay that’s nice but what about ME
#◞ ` . 🎅 * 彡 ❛ i Amn juste … a litle craccheade ... » OOC ! * .#((I HATE THIS PART#((I CANT BELIEVE THE MOVIE JUST THREW BRICKLEBAUM AWAY LIKETHAT#((WHAT TBE HELL#((BRICKLEBAUM HAS KNOWN GRINCH#((FOR WAY LONGER THAN CINDY BOOHOO#((AND THEY MADE GRINK GO#((BRICKLEBAUM WHO? IDK HIM#((CINDY DIDN'T EVEN DO SHIT#((SHE THOUGHT YOU WERE SANTA HEADASS#((AND JUST WAS LIKE#((U SHOULD COME SING W US LOL#((AND NOW YOURE LIKE#((THIS IS MY ONYL FRIEND!!!! HOLY SHIT!!! SHE IS THE ONE AND ONLY PERSON WHO EVER SHOWED KINDNESS TO ME!!!!!#((WHILE BRICKLEBAUM IS ////RIGHT THERE////#((THE ONLY ONE MAJORLY AFFECTED BY EVERYTHING GRINCH HAS SAID#((AND UGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGH#((FUCK YOU MOVIE!!!!!!!!! THIS IS THE ONLY PART I GENUINELY DONT LIKE#((IT'S NICE HE HAS A FRIEND AND CONSIDERS HER AS ONE BUT HELLO?
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Quick textual warning for ed / eating disorder / unhealthy eating habits . I just need to vent/ask for advice? Idek what the fuck this here is.
So I've been underweight my whole life, right? Like 'according to my BMI I could faint any minute from malnutrition' underweight. Never had problems before beyond no muscle mass and light iron deficiency which I treat with pharmacy supplements which IG is good?? But like. All useless when you're actually trying and wanting to gain weight to a healthy level??
Anyway I got a diagnosis abt thyroid stuff that causes me to not be able to gain weight easily, paired with past anorexia and current money troubles none of my doctor's tips work. He said to "eat some more of this this and this"
my meds dont help me with the weight because I onyl eat little BECAUSE I dont have the money to spend 30€/week on groceries for one person when I know I cant eat a lot a day bc small stomach and all that fun stuff you have after not eating properly for years. I've tried eating more over weeks to get my stomach used to big portions and big meals thrice daily rather than like five little meals over the day, but didnt work. Nearly caused me to relapse.
Like. How the fuck do I gain weight when i have neither money to get more supplements nor more weight-gainy foods?? (Dietitians arent really a thing where I am and I'd have to regularly drive 4h to find one that isnt covered by my insurance so that's out of the question too for help)
Tips??
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lateposting oversharing to the tumblr void bc i’m sad
i’ve been sooooo down bad with dating like so bad. I’ve gone on 3 dates this year, all I thought went well. first 2 ghosted me. 3rd one lasted for EIGHT HOURS and he was SO romantic and kept telling me WHILE WE WERE ON THE DATE that he was having fun, and then the next day I texted him and said I want to hang out again soon and he said “I had fun too but I have a lot going on so I will have to pass” like bro??? at least he didn’t ghost me I guess but I feel like the way he said that was so fucking cruel like I’m actually so sad. WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT TO SOMEONE????? while we were on this fucking date he kept calling it the first date and saying other things we should do in the future and hugging me and cuddling me and kissing me like not even making out. and then we did fuck and when he left he hugged me for like a minute straight kissing my cheeks like we’re fucking dating. and then he’s like yeah actually i’ll pass. I’m actually sick like why did he ask me deep questions to open up to him and vice versa like I never want to trell anyeone important ever again. and I keep letting guys take advantage of me bc I feel like I put out and then they do this. It’s so discouraging and I’m so ugly and obviously don’t have a good personality bc all these dates fail and I’m so sick of dating apps but I’m literally going to be alone forever at this rate likeeeee it’s kind of sick !!! I also feel like I don;t have any particularly close friend connections right now either and I just feel so lonely! I hate being young in covid times its like no one is trying to actually meet new people romantic or platonically. so I just whore myself out bc it’s the onyl way I can find any sort of connection. my body count is 16 and I’m sick thinking about it. and I see “friends” with their friend groups and im like where the fuck do you find a connection like that!!! I would kill for a friend group and extended friend group and friends of friends and to not feel so god damn lonely all the time
I also hate my job so much like i’m actually miserable and I’m a fucking senior level being paid less than some newer entry levels and it’s so sick and I can’t afford to live! one of my 2 paychecks is exactly the price of my rent and I have such bad credit card debt right now I just really cannot get ahead. and I can’t tell my parents because they will just freak out. like I barely eat 1 meal a day and I still have nothing in my savings. and I applied for new jobs and interviewed for one and got denied and I know that’s life and it happens but god damn it made me feel so bad. no one wants me! as a friend or platonic or employee! like I literally don’t know what’s wrong with me and I feel like I’m so shut off now I barely talk to people about personal things bc I don’t want to give anyone reason to not like me
I know I need to go back on my meds I just CANt force myself too. I also can’t afford the refill. I know I need a second job but not even barista or bar back jobs will hire me. I know I need to go back to therapy but I can’t afford it cuz I can’t afford to live!!! I just cannot do this anymore. not in an unalive way but god fucking dammit when will I catch a BREAK!!!! this shits never ending and I’m only 24!!!!!!!!!! I don’t even have the resources to get myself out of this hole. part of me feels like I need to move out of philly and start fresh somewhere else but like if I can’t make friends in my own city how the fuck am I going to fare somehwere completely new. liike I think I have newish friends that im close with or so I think but then they hang out together and its last minute like oh you should come! obviously they don’t want me there.
it’s 4am and I’m sobbing crying typing this and listening to folklore and I have a meeting at 8am<3
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i'm-
if you have a spotify, click this link and rb with your top lockdown songs!
#so glad its not onyl kpop BUT AT WHAT COST#this does not seem right tho lol#i cant even rmrb the last time i listened to tujamo#woodz is reasonable#i had equal on repeat while i was reading A Little Life#Equal is like my A Little Life official soundtrack#but still i dont understand the tujamo one
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Toxic Family and Friends: Steven Universe
People share there thoughts and feelings about things on Tumblr and Youtube :) Just blurt it out, and, maybe find likeminded people too? I dont know if theres a word for it but I kinda felt like it right now, and sometimes. I get a bit scared sometimes to say like, where do you start? But, hey, I figure, just say
Right now “Steven Universe” is playing on my mind. A show that has a lot of faults, which is a pity cuz it can be better. Best thing about it? Music I reckon. Cant deny the songs are really catchy. Worst? Writing.
And right now I wanna talk a bit about the sadness of Steven.
The gems... They are really, really not good people. Okay there not people I get it there aliens, but they dont even TRY to be better? The have no concept it seems of empathy, kindness, understanding, not even to eahc other. They onyl care about themslves and there problems.
Lets take “Keystone Motel” for example.Ruby and Sapphire realise theyve been making Steven feel bad, that he was to blame somehow for there fight and being assholes?...And still they make it about them. They dont apolgize or say Im sorry for making Steven feel bad, they just sort it out between themeleves and then act like the last few days havent happened at all.
There all guilty of this at one piotn or another. Dont even get me started on Pearl. She is the worst in my opion, and, well cant be helped kinda she was LITERALLY made to kiss Pink Diamonds ass?SO is her supposed “love” for her even real, or just programming? But either way she is cruel, petty, selfish.And I feel like shes got some soprt of “shield” your supposed to take into account but yeah, its flimsy and a poor excuse? “Oh no one can hate me or get mad at me, becuase Im in PAIN you have no idea what it was like.” Especially screamign at Steven “You dident even know her!” A extremely cruel thing you can say to a child and she doesnet even seem to feel the slightest remorse, much less apologize(not to mention letting him hang there when nearly falling to his death). And like she never gets called out on her shit, it feels like, she thinks she can just do or say whatever she wants and there are no consequences, she doenste havta take into account anyone elses feelings but her own.
Well there all a bit like that but, Pearl especially.
I feel like also, if we get serious for a minute The gems dont really love him, not in any helahty sense of the word, despite what they say?
They just want him to be like his mother, EXACLTY, or at best a poor substitue becuase shes the closests thing left of her. They ignore him, they have no idea of his likes, interests what hes doing when there not with him. And only bother with him when THEY feel like it. They see him as a pesky pet at best thats also a WEAPON they need to defeat the diamonds.They DONT see Steven at all
Oh, and also, hes kinda like there short order therapist. They use him to make THEMSLEVES feel better but never ask or wonder if hes okay, much less the damage they do to him when theyve done cruel unkind acts(Amethyst morphing into his mother, KIDNAPPING him as a baby). He doesent register to them. Hes literally there JUST for them
I feel like by SU future this is really starting to effect the kid. Hes starting to see the unhealthy pattern and hes getting sick of it, that this is the “normal” and there happy for it to remain that way. But they wont ever change, there still the same selfish stupid creatures they always have been, even by the end. I dont feel like they apologized and still make it about them even when he changes into a Kaiju. That ending was VERY dissapionting in this sense, they still dont take responbility or try to be better people, for all there lip service about “love and peace and understanding”
Anyone thinks or feels similiar, I admit I’d like to know.
#steven universe#steven universe anylasis#steven universe rant#rant#pearl bashing#gem bashing#SU#toxicity#toxic relationships
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bro Please show us ur ocs what
gladly
just know that names will change bevause i have too many characters woops (im a bad character maker lol)
i made them children who murder but now i dont know what to do with them, soon i will make a story for them
king and jester raise a baby and fall inlove :]
theyre originally humans but with a potion gone wrong, they end up as animals and now they have to work together to turn themselves back, also the snake works with the law and the mouse is a crook
dnd character, but i never got to play him cause i never played dnd, lol, one day, i will
ethan works at a cafe and got turned into a vampire, carter is a monster hunter and wendy is his assisstant. carter has the hots for ethan and ethan doesnt want to acknolwedge his existence. maggie and callie is ethan’s friend, barry LIKES wendy
the triplets were inspired by moosop ngl, but i do remember making triplets in 5th grade lol
inspired by tarzan, but i changed the story cause i made these characters when i was younger and i cant abandon them. meriam raised talia (i changed her name) when she decided to leave london and live in the jungle. talia barely speaks because her speech isnt good. mark comes to visit his mother and to try and see if the island can be used for good money, mark and talia hate each other for this fact.
made this in 4th grade cause my first lesbian ship was bubbaline and i was like, i dont have enough lesbian ships, gotta make my own then,
no name for them but its set in the philippines, inspired by our monsters :]
a fellow monster has to be in love with their food
fairly odd parents oc, josh and penny got adopted by this rich couple, and everything was fine till they figured out that they only got adopted because the parents would get more money from their parents if the wanted kids, this warrented a god parent and francis is here. francis HATES children and is onyl doing this because its good money. penny is too energetic, josh is the quiet kid and francis hates kids, but he can handle one, hes not gonna be able to handle 2
theres 2 stories for this, bt judas and merith were in an arranged marriage and percy became merith’s crying buddy when judas is mean, they can be in a threesome, still dont know. still have to upadte this story
dominic goes savage during the full moon and his sister is the only one who knows this secret. the two rodents have a thing for dominic
these were just random ocs with no actual plot line, dino and cloudy are buddies and they go everywhere together
the colony of ants have a thing for the ant eater, not the tables have turned lol
dad is forced to raise a baby and he cant cause hes sad depressed, and he just doesnt know what to do but he can abandon her. jerry is like, buddy, BUDDY, if u let me crash, i can help out, hes helpful,
used to be an adventure time oc but i scrapped it,
princess aya runs away from the royal family to find her missing sister cause she doesnt want to be queen
she meets with red, a thief who dabbles with magic, which is illegal,
due to unfortunate events, red helps aya find her sister
animal crossing ocs. kenny and lola are dating :]
one and two are childhood friends? one was mean and two got depressed, but now one is trying to make up for it
kylan is failing his class, so richard has to tutor him to make sure hes on the right track, kylan just doesnt want to do anything with him, and when he realises that richard has a hard time making friends, he makes it his task to help him make a friend, in return, richard has to leave him alone
just two teenagers coming to terms about their feelings for each other.
braden never gave romance a thought until he reached middle school. he started to crush on george hard and he doesnt know how to handle this and he tries to deny it.
george is straight and is just vibing, and he thought things were fine until braden confessed his feelings.
braden is demisexual (im demi, hes very special to me)
this ones old, (also i made another oc thats named carter WOOPS)
no name (teddy) got kicked out from home when his mom figured out hes gay, and carter is a rich art student that needs a model and he ask teddy to become his model. carter pays teddy a good sum of money, (i need to work on this story woops)’
melissa is a rich blind girl and shes not allowed to party and go outside if she doesnt hire a body guard (thanks dad), she hired danny, an ex underground boxer to help her around the city.
in this world, magic welders are getting killed because only officials are allowed to use magic. momma summons demote, a demon, with a deal that he keeps her daughter safe. demote and harper hate each other and they have to tolerate each other in order to get away from the hunters. dewey is a forest entity that latched onto harper
my little pony oc
madison loves flowers, she tends flowers and honestly? flowers only.
valentine is a match maker and she stumbles upon madison, and her match making skills dont work on madison, just ponies being ponies :]
characters made with my friends but i lost contact with them and one day, ill work on their stories
david is in his first public school and he meets molly and he doesnt vibe with her cause she doesnt talk to him and it didnt settle with him right, so he bullies her, and when he figures out that shes deaf and maliciously bullied her, hes just, not happy and tries to make it up to her, and shes not having it
life and death, my friend wanted me to make a comic bout life and death,
just ur standard life and death ship
used to be an adventure time oc but i changed it
andrew grew up in a religious household with strict parents, making him study. hes not allowed to be with friends
margee is raised by her uncle because her dad died in a car accident,
dally has a strained relationship with his dad, his dad being an alcoholic and not taking care of his health
they were all childhood friends and then they got seperated, when they got older, they all saw each other and got together for support
(ok imm a fool and i try to make a webcomic but i keep not not finishing it so, woops)
bunny ocs when i was younger, i need to work on their stories, sorry, no other info except they want to beat each other lol
cupid accidentally shots an arrown at ching and now they fell inlove with mar, and mar just wants to vibe and be ignored but with ching contantly trying to woo mar, cupid thinks thats enough and tried to help mar because that wasnt suppposed to happen lol
girl realises that the monsters under her bed and in her closet are real and tries to get her mother to help her.
her mother abuses her and the girl is just scared and she doesnt know what to do
(im getting lazy)
baintly wants to be a good wizard but she sucks at everything
butters(the broom) is accidentally made when she tried to summon her animal
she was about to get kicked out of school but out of sepretation, she promised her school that she’ll go get a gem from a feared dragon in order to prove her place in the school
she got lonely and got a pet bunny and fox
terry accidentally summoned perry and she doesnt know how to handle a demon in her room, ralph is terry’s friend
set in space and theyre all animals
the top are a bunch of criminals and the bottoms arer in the police forces
and they both have to work toegether to get rid of a dangerious villian set to destroy the galaxy
ok so i lost their names but basically, big demon goes to the human world and befriends a child. other demon is the right hand and he follows his master and hes just a ball anxiety. the older sister is a monster hunter and she tries to kill the big demon living in her house
#doodle#Anonymous#anon#oc#ocs#long post#im not even joking there more#i just couldnt fit them all in here cause i got really lazy#but uhhh#opions please#cause uhhhh#anon asked#and i want to know what u think#anon please respond#:[
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long post under the cut, but someone told me that chara being the narrator doesnt make up for them being a horrible person, so heres the response i sent them (its kinda messy and has a lot of typos, sorry, but hopefully its not terrible
ok yes obviously but what the narration does do is give them character, outside of being a horrible person, and makes you question the grounds on which you are calling them a horrible person like, at least more than the other characters lets say chara is a horrible person because they hate humanity. well then i guess undynes an irredeemable character too, since hes shown on multiple occasions that she hates and despises humans, that she would gladly kill them. or maybe charas a horrible person because they wanted to kill all the monsters. but that cant e true, becuase if were oing by the narrachara theory, chara obvioulsy loves the monsters and would never want them to die! they literally gave up their life so that they could free them (though it didnt work) or charas a horrible person because in the geno run, they did kill all the monsters. but no, frisk did that. tey are in complete control. like, i mean there really isnt any evidence that chara was in control? like nothing controller-wise changes in the game. you are still frisk. and yes, flowey recognises you as chara, but he aso does that in the pacifist run so well, i guess chara did the pacifist run too, making them a goo person or maybe theyre a bad person because they stole your soul? but thats onyl after you kill all the monsters, so isnt it literally just... payback for what you did? and im not saying thats a good thing but then, again, if youre going to think charas a horrible person for that, then good luck also hating on sans and undyne or maybe charas a bad person because towards the end, they show support for your killing of monsters. but hey, i think its clear that after you brutally killing all their friends and family their mindset has changed? like, take the dogfood in alphys's lab for example, while in pacifist run they seem positive abt it (halffull) in geno run the see it as negative (halfempty). the only reason this minute etail was put there wa to show how starkly charas opinions, beliefs and minsets hae changed after killing everyone they loved or maybe you think theyre a horrible person because, according to azzy, maybe chara, wasnt the greatest person after all EXCEPT, after the game if you go bck to snowdin mk says the same thing about undyne! or maybe you think theyre a horrible person because they manipuated asriel into agreeing with ther plan. that is, a valid reason. it is kinda up for interpration whether they were doing it unintentionally or not. i dont think they were doing it on purpose, i mean they cleearly love azzy, they were best frieds, so it shows that chara probly wouldnt manipul8 him, on purpose. also theyre what? 10 to 12 years old? im not excusing theyre actions, but i do think that act alone doesnt make them an evil demon or maybe, like you said earlier, you think theyre a horrible person because they kiled themself to destroy humanity. but i again, say that number 1, with caras clear love for monsters, theres a probabilitty that they did that fot the. that they sacrified themselves to save them. i mean idk if you mix a suicidal kid with the pressure that "theyre the hope for monsters" thats proaby not gonna go well. AGAIN NOT EXCUSING THEIR ACTIONS. the plan was shitty and stupid, but...then again, i dont think it was a worse plan then waiting hundreds of years for 7 small children to come so that you could kill them off one by one. and ALSO have you read the side effects of buttercups? that shit is nasty. i mean if they were really veangeful and ready to destroy humanity, there are easier ways to do it. stab yourself, thats quck and painless. nstead they chose a painful and slow proccess to do it. im not even sure thats related to anything just ponting that out. yah. or maybe you think charas a horrible person for poisoning asgore. Firstly, they were children? lots of children make that mistake. i didnt even know buttercups were poisonous until seeing undertle. a lot of people didnt. that isnt really evidence that it was on purpose, likely it was an accient or maybe you think charas a horrible person for laughing at peopes pain, like a sadist. but guess what? a lot of people use laughter in ut as a coping mechanism. snowys father, toriel, and even sans smiles to hide what probably is depression or some shit. and come on, all the jokes about death? i think thats evidence that chara diesnt laugh to make fun of their pain, but as a way to cope with grief. or maybe you think charas a horrible person for...other reasons... that i cant think of right now. idk. the point is a lot, of evidence that they are a horrible person can be refuted, or disproved.
#sorry i uh#have strong feelings about chara#so im sharing this thing witch took a long time with yall#narrator chara#chara dreemurr#undertale#pacifist chara#also if yall disagree thats fine but uh#please dont start an argument
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Ep. 13 - “So its been a dayyyyyyy Jayyyyyyy” - Jack

Timmy
How in the fuck am I still here?!?! I'm overjoyed and this is incredible. Tbh Jack totally just fucked his game but this is so good for me, even if I get out at 6, I still made it a little further than I thought I would've. Also, Raffy really popped the fuck off and it was so funny to watch. I'm just in a really good mood right now.
Maynor
I cant believe idol play was amazing but it wasnt needed. Sjdbsb it was 4-3 for Jack to go is crazy. And im so happy that Timmy stayed in the game. I dont want to play the game without him. So im super happy that he’s still in. We need to win this immunity and keep it away from zoe and Raffy. We need those options open. And also try n keep the idol away from them.
Raffy
Last night was a wild trip. Firstly, I cannot believe Ellie would betray us like that when Maynor is still in this fucking game. No one, except me, seems to think that he's going to win if we keep letting him have control of the game. It's as if I am in a game with a bunch of sheep where I am the only free thinker. This applies to Jack too since he voted out Ellie instead of Timmy in the revote. Like imagine keeping Timmy in this game when he has done so much!!! Like we just keep letting them get away with things and we just keep letting them have control of the game. I'm sick of it!!! I can only trust Zoe now since apparently everyone else is too brain dead to see the obvious threats in this game. I pretended to be fake mad to Jack in order to keep him on our side. I told him that my aggression was a ploy to make them think that he's on their side. I mean I was real mad, but he doesn't need to know that. I don't know whether the lie worked or not, but I just need to find an idol or win immunity because I am sick of Maynor and Timmy being like cockroaches in the nuclear fallout. Like??????? And don't get me started on the goat Joseph who doesn't even know how to talk to people properly. All of them can go fuck off for all I care.
Raffy
Well I didn't find the idol, and I know that Jack is on the other path with that BS rotating puzzle. So, tomorrow I'll be doing the tundra and hopefully find it before anyone else, otherwise my time in this game is running out. I don't know how well I will do with the immunity challenge, but I have to be confident to do well. I'm praying that Zoe found something because we desperately need it if onyl to prevent Maynor from having it.
Raffy
Also this is the mood for the rest of the game for John and Ellie and maybe Zoe if she doesn't make it to FTC with me:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0U_Cdrbols
Timmy
Raffy is so fucking smug. He laughed whenever someone messed up in the challenge and basically almost cackled when Maynor and I got it. Like don’t fucking kick me when I’m down. 6th is my Achilles heel and I’m already freaking out.
Jack
So its been a dayyyyyyy Jayyyyyyy. First Zoe comes in here like, "hey my idol still works" so my and raffy and zoe are like okayyyy we have to freaking one of us get immunity so its at least 2/3 and then zoe wins, and then moments later i finished the HELL PUZZLE WITH THE POINTY IDENTICAL LOOKING PIECES AND BACKGROUND and whoops i found the idol, so theoretically the three of us are like 3/3 safe and can vote out maynor. He's a sweet guy but like yeet. Raffy might be in trouble if zoe like wigs out and doesnt use the idol on him/ was like totally bullshitting about it? but i hope she aint cause yeah
Raffy
I'm glad that Zoe won the immunity challenge because it keeps safety away from both Maynor and Timmy. I wanted to win it, but I am proud that Zoe was able to either way. Her idol will be extremely useful going into this next round as we are planning to use it on me in order to make sure that 2/3 of us are safe tonight. Additionally, if the votes ends up tying 3-3, we can make sure that Jack is safe by revoting and keeping him in this game. Although, I doubt it has to come to that because Jack has also found an idol from the rehidden hunt. This means that all three of us will be safe going into this next tribal council unless they have an idol nullifier. Even then they still can only nullify one which means we're still the dominating force. Basically all is looking on the bright side for Raffy in this vote, and I hope things go smoothly in spite of my confidence.
Jack
I don't remember if I already made a confessional on this, but i found an idol, so now Zoe has immunity, she's gonna play her idol on Raffy, and imma play mine on me. Timmy's been hitting me and Zoe up about flipping on Raffy but we ain't doin thatttttt. Also Joseph was like "what happened in the challenge," and then was like what you thinkinnnnnnn. Maynor in general is like kinda accepted fate vibes. Hopefully everything goes well tonight.
Timmy
I’m distraught and upset. I guess it’s pretty much guaranteed that either myself or Maynor will be leaving tomorrow. I’m so sad and he deserves to stay so much and deserves to win and if he stays, I will not regret anything I did in this game. I want him to be happy and I know he belongs in this game and seeing him happy makes me so happy.
Raffy
The plan right now is for Zoe to use her idol on me and for Jack to use his idol on himself so that we are all safe at tribal council tonight. My FTC plan right now is Zoe, Joseph, and I. I love Jack, but he needs to go because I feel like he beats me at the end. He has an amazing redemption arc, and he has pulled off so many things in his short time here without many social connections. That's pretty impressive. However, I want to take him out at F5 or F4 because I still need him on my side. My boot order currently is Maynor -> Timmy -> Jack. However, Jack is also good at challenges which means I have to pry the immunity necklace from his hands. I know I can beat him. I just have to go out there and do it.
Maynor
Tonight might be my last night in the game and its bittersweet. I feel like i played a good game. I also feel like i was given credit for the moves Ive made. I am very proud of myself, and usually im always very hard on myself. I feel like this was my most out there game play ive had and im still very in aw that i was able to pull off a 4-3-3, vote 3-2-2 vote, able to flip Jack to vote Ellie saving Timmy, found an idol and many things. This has been a favorite game even though i might be out tonight. Like they know Ive played hard and i kept fighting to stay in this game. Tribal is going to be 3-3. We are voting jack (me timmy joseph) and (zoe raffy jack) are most likely voting for me once again. I hope. Jack has the idol cuz he did the trees path were i knew it was going to be at but my dumbass decided to do mountain instead. Jack is either going to use his idol on Raffy to try n avoid a tie or of jack plays it on himself and he negates all his votes. Either way. We are going to lose someone and they arent. So whatever happens tonight i will be content with cuz ive done everything that i could to try and survive. ❤️ Jay for having me back. Youre the best. Love you. ❤️
Maynor
My thoughts on 5 of the Final 6 people in the game: 1. Jack- oh the second boot. Was very paranoid early of this game and its understandable. Did good in EOE and returned to the game. Seemed to fall into place to Raffy’s side by not even talking to me or people who were working with me. Made his own ‘move’ by doing Ellie during F7 vote. But honestly it was not a good move for him. Even though I preached Jack has his own story. Honestly, he is still kind of a goat. No one would vote for him to win over others left in the game. Going to the end with Zoe and Raffy is his death sentence but going also everyone else in the game is his death sentence. 2. Joseph- people are saying he is a goat but that is not necessarily true. He has made moves in this game to help his position in it. He took the opportunity at f10 to make a move. Again with John vote. Dylan vote as well. Same with Jack that turned to Ellie vote off. The moves he has made were to help him make it to the end. People are underestimating his game play and if he makes it to the end then he really deserves to win it. Especially over like Jack. Also Raffy and Zoe tbh. 👀 MaynorPart 2: 3. Zoe- Zoe is a good player. But gameplay this season, i dont think she deserves the win. She was already voted out. All her strategic moves did not go according to plan. Was over confident and cocky and comfortable in the game. Wasnt going to make it to the final 7 anyways because her allies Raffy and Dylan were going to take her out. Her game play after making it back into the game due to eoe has made her into a goat. Like if someone votes for her to win its due to them being bitter over everyone else. She didnt try to make connections with everyone. She went right back to the people she was working with. And you can feel the ooze of over confidence when she said “im fitting in perfectly” when her as only talked to Raffy and ellie and Jack. So 🤷♂️ Honestly social game aint that good either. 4. Raffy- oh boi. Raffy raffy. Were do I start. None of his plans have happened besides the Stephen vote and even that he said it wasnt his move. Gave it to Dylan. So 🤷♂️ What moves has he done really? Hes been rude to a few people here and honestly leaves a bad taste in my mouth (game wise) cuz its been more game talk from him. He gets mad when things dont go his way and just starts yelling at people that they made the bad decision. But he still fought in this game. I would gove my vote to him over people like Zoe and Jack. MaynorPart 3: 5. Timmy- can i say how proud i am with Timmy this season. His social game was amazing and strong. He had people wanting to work with him and was in a good spot for a bit. He felt in the bottom and made a move. Since then has been fighting to stay in the game. Got ellie to flip on her alliance. Said Dylan’s name for the target. He played an idol on me instead of himself. He really did all that in this game and he has a big shot to win this game. He just has to reach the final 3. I feel that he can do that. He’s a great person and honestly gunna be sad now going to be able to finish this game with him. Would have been amazing to be able to sit with him at the end of the game. But alas ive made myself into a huge target that no one would want to work with me to get to the end and i understand. It just sucks i wont be able to finish this game with him. But he would be a great winner. And he deserves it with the game he has played. Im wishing him the all the luck and sending him good vibes for the rest of the game. ❤️
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i hope you had a safe flight rachel!!! n that you're enjoying your vacation so far🥰💞i'm glad the peergrade went better than expected!!! now you're freeeee💞💕n excuse me but you're sweeter AND cuter🥺🤲🏼hehe agreed!!! 2020 better be our years or else!!!! 😤my semester is called spring (which idg bc we start in the winter???) but yes!!! hopefully they go well😚💕wishing you the best for grad school n the whole process!!!💕uni just isn't really for me!!!🙇🏻♀️but ill try 2 get involved!!-🎁💫
it was a v safe flight there but the way back.. going to that minus degree weather 😭 and yes im FREE omg i forgot abt the peergrade for a hot sec cant even imagine if i still had to do it after vacation 😔 n no.. jem for cutest sweetest human 😩 i hope u can find smth that makes uni a bit better for u!! 🙇♀️
and now felix's selfies.... OKAY😐he really said hey stay pay attention to ME😭😭i can hear his scalp crying out but he does look handsome😚the future... what if that future is the 26th... what are these dudes doing rachel... a MIXTAPE???😭skz don't know how to rest huh😤when i was young i started with general dance and ballet! i can barely remember most of it anymore but at least i got sir lee as my freestyle dance teacher😎i cant wait to learn miroh and got7s lullaby!!! -🎁💫
me everytime im like: yea im over felix.. felix: i dont think some: ok sir.. ok ur right.. im not over u ....he looks so pretty lately im 😭 leave me alone bro... 😭 fuKCKN I cannot beliEVE we got a mixtape.. ok... i see how it is.. merry christmas to us thank u stray kids for feeding ur fatass well-fed fans... ooh ballet! is there a reason u wanted to pick it up again? :o nd oh lullaby i do love that got7 choreo + miroh ofc 💕
okay me😭i'm so slow with skz schedule and i told myself i'd be chill with skz so everything just comes as a surprise!!! but yes!!! i think they have two more fansigns left??? or one... i just know there's at least gonna be another!!! :0 and omg rachel bin fansites have been providing so much, the amount of cute binnie hqs i've seen these past few days i😭i did actually!!! ticketing was a MESS for LA!!! but i was able to get tix luckily, P3 but hey i won't complain😎-🎁💫
jgsdkg this is why u cant leave skz for a hot sec.. me bein back = assault w content dont even knOW where to start... whack.. ooh i gotta go look at sku to see the fantaken pics theyre always the cutest 😩 omg i cant changbin fansites be like: Die hes so cute 😭 send me some hqs.. really goin thru it today! and omg im glad u got tix at least enjoy them for me 😔🤙
i hope skz go to canada and you can go!!! did they go to canada for unveil??? :0 if so, did you go??? :0 hehe yes let it be your mission!!! its actually super tough for people to get me to stan other groups but i believe in you😌💞mx ray!!! i'll definitely add it to my list!!! hehe🙇🏻♀️changbins muscles are made of love😭💕💞💕💞changbin is a beefcake but the beefiest thing about him... his Heart🥺🤲🏼-🎁💫
they did NOT come to canada for unveil 😞 there’s onyl been a couple of groups that i rmbr that have been to canada rip! omg... im on a mission jem... i have a long list of groups 😖 but mxray is honestly just so funny u dont even need to like mx to enjoy it theyre just ridiculous 😭 mjskgj VIBE his beefest heart muscles.. 🤧
LITERALLY... 😭i dont like aegyo or overly cutesy things and i first interpreted as changbin as just the cute bestie type but he got to me out of nowhere... like wow hand in marriage sir... you can do all the aegyo you want😔🤲🏼yes!!! my ultimate favorite (farming) game is harvest moon animal parade! as for favorite game hmmm i'll just say my current fave which is fire emblem three houses! def recommend!!! and yes animal crossing is the best! its so calming and cute😌💞-🎁💫
me watching aegyo: die. me watching changbin doign aegyo: ok maybe .... ur cute.... oooh ive heard rly great things abt fire emblem from my gamer friends 😌 im gonna add it to my list when i have some more time 😊
will be hoping those uv rays go a bit easier on you😣😤no worries rachel!!! i don't mind at all hehe, take your time n just enjoy your vacation😚💞and PLEASE i adore you too!!! rachel sweetest being💕💞💕💞💕💞and um excuse me take that back you aren't boring!!!😭today is christmas eve n its almost christmas!!! not 100% sure if you celebrate those but nonetheless!!! happy holidays💞💕hope they treat you well😌💞-🎁💫
i didnt get that much sun sadly but it was nice thank u uv rays for not burning me to a crisp 😌 i adore u as ive said 500 times.... thank u for the gifset as well i was so 😭😭 when i saw it!!! and sorry to be so late but i hope u had a lovely christmas as well if u celebrate 💕💕
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