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doctorcanon · 7 months ago

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Hey FYI I made a video about the Adult Content bans that led us to where we are now. Please watch a spread this video if you can. Everyone needs to be aware of just how bad its gotten and how much worse it will be if we don't educate ourselves.

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THE NEFARIOUS IMPLICATIONS OF ADULT CONTENT BANS | The Windows Are Blue For A Reason

#my art #censorship #tumblr #livejournal #sims #sims 2 #fanfiction #ao3 #ff.net #fanfiction.net #Wikipedia #kosa bill #stop kosa #pride month #respectability politics #i can think of any other tags rn #but i will #id go so far as to say this is one of my most important videos #Youtube

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bacchuschucklefuck · 7 months ago

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pygmalion and galatea for aroace people

you should tell your friends what I look like, riz gukgak.

#fantasy high #fantasy high sophomore year #fhsy #riz gukgak #baron from the baronies #fh class quangle #class swap babeyy! bard!riz that's whats goin on!#I really need tags for these now I think lmao #ask to tag #I feel like this should be tagged something. but I dont know what #in my brain after the initial kidnapping class swap baron's thing is every time riz keeps his story abt them up in front of his friends #they get a little bit closer. they send him pictures of where they supposedly are n stuff #theres a scene in my brain only of kristen and riz on top of the van and kristen is like everything kinda sucks rn can u tell me abt baron #cause what you guys have is so nice and beautiful. and riz almost doesn't but he ultimately can't deny kristen a little peace #lmao I feel like dipping into baron stuff with the class swap is like showing my whole ass online again I just. I'm a #horror person before all else... I cant stop myself. canon baron is Great and Cool but that is kind of the thing. for a horror thing theyre #Too Cool. I think cool is kind of the neutralizer of scary. when a monster is a certain amount of cool it overrides the scary #and now u just have a Cool Monster #its so fucked for bard!riz this year bc he doesn't have an office (he's mooching off the school wifi from the AV club room lol)#so there's no buffer between adventure and home life. so baron just shows up in the strongtower apartment lmao #sophomore year bard!riz looks like a slasher protag so I just leaned into it I guess. he gets a mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon kennedy #well. its worse actually. they can show up where he is at any moment theyve proven this. but they dont #they choose to punish him slowly as he lies to his friends instead. baron is mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon and also a bitch #I think its gonna pop up if class swap baron ever speaks in a comic I do but their voice comes from like. inside their hollow face #it sounds like it's a lot deeper in there than that skull should be #tbh what I have rn is kinda like a bag of loose pieces that Can fit together into something great but I dont have the energy to #really sit down with them yet lol. Im doing this inbetween other things #it comes or it doesn't! it's fine. funny how today's bad comic day also. I wont say this is for bad comic day bc all my comics are #flawless and beautiful and perfect and awesome and beautiful and the best #but u should. if u havent drawn a comic today or at all ever u should draw a comic

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risingsunresistance · 2 months ago

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would you believe me if i said this is skyblock fanart 😭

explanation below for anyone interested. it's a bit long 🐖

basic explanation for people who dont go here. or the tldr: the rift is a separate dimension in hypixel skyblock where reality and time itself do not function the same. the other npcs tend to take on different forms in there. this is my interpretation of what might happen to techno if he were to travel into the rift based on some other theories about the place and my own headcanons for him

less basic explanation for the rest of you: ok so. first thing to get out of the way, the rift isnt completely separate from the main reality. SOME of your own thoughts and feelings influence the way you exist in the realm and the way the realm itself behaves. not very many people seem to take on forms ENTIRELY divorced from themselves, save for maybe enigma (we dont know who he was originally, if he was anyone at all)

but i have a theory backed up by absolutely nothing that your rift form is mostly influenced by three different things: your inherit magic, your ability to control and manipulate that magic, and your overall stability. stability will look different from person to person and you dont always know if someone is stable or not just by talking to them. even something as simple as a phobia might change them drastically. still, the rift is unstable itself, so sometimes people get altered horrifically even though they were perfectly fine

my main points of reference for this are that some of our most altered characters are some who check all these boxes, and some who are relatively normal dont check any of them. lathrop/porhtal is split into a bunch of eyes and has one human-looking form that sits motionless at the wither cage and doesnt speak. we know he was incredibly magical, eventually got a great grip on said magic, but was also very very unstable. the wizard is very magical, is a master of said magic, and is pretty well put together. he is nearly unchanged in the rift. barry is the same as the wizard but went a bit nuts before he left, so in the rift he seems just a bit... off

on the opposite side of things, maddox is someone who we are told has ZERO magic in him. the only thing that changes in the rift is the fact that his helmet is red now. kat has never shown us any magic and seems to be pretty normal, so she's also just a different color palette in the rift and happens to have a weird job

anyways back to techno. (btw if you're reading this and happen to not be a regular here this is a mix of headcanons and "canon" but im treating it ALL as real and true facts for the sake of this drawing ok). he could be one of the most magical people here... but he has no idea how to use any of it on command. if you asked him if he possessed any magic, he would say no. his healing ability, while it is VERY strong, is passive, and he was only able to gather magic during the resistance fight with the help of the wands we were given. but he was able to gather a lot of magic during that fight, concentrate it, and release it all on his own. not many people could handle that. he also worships the blood god and has its blessing, and has some connection with spirits in the form of the voices / chat / whatever you wanna call them. there might be even more to him, who knows

so that's already a setup for disaster, but what about his stability? well he's constantly followed by a chorus of thousands of voices all screaming at him and god itself might be hanging around in that mix, led a war against the server staff and a dictator that lasted for 2 years skyblock time, and did the whole potato war thing which was ~70 years server time iirc. i wouldnt really call him stable KFJHG

so what you end up with is a very violent beastly thing, nearly unrecognizable save for the fact that he's still a pig (my first point, you dont become a COMPLETELY different thing under most circumstances). i think he's entirely out of control of himself and would not remember a trip to the rift. a stability elixir might help him in terms of being more aware of himself (i think sirius really downplayed what that potion does lmao it's not just a fun drink, he wanted to guarantee himself some control over his mind while he was conducting his "business" in the rift) but there's no saving the physical form

i wanted him to be beastly to mimic what happens to "dante" in the rift (the memory of dante, it's complicated. but dante and bacte are most likely two different people who are also the same person). yeah he was a big slime in the overworld, but now he's more monstrous. he also doesnt speak, he might not have any idea what's going on. same could be said for techno in a way. of course this is related to dante, what else would you expect from me :P i want to see them fight at the colosseum so bad...

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but anyways THIS WAS SO FUN AAAAAUGH IM SO GLAD I FINALLY GOT THROUGH THIS. MY IPAD FINALLY DIED AFTER AN ENTIRE DECADE IN THE MIDDLE OF LINING IT AND I HAD TO CONTINUE ON A NEW TABLET WHEN I'VE SPENT MY ENTIRE LIFE DRAWING WITHOUT A PEN... THIS DRAWING WAS CURSED KJFDHGK

here's a version without chat and the blood god so you can just see the big hog

and here's my old concept from july of last year for comparison :P

initially in the post for the old sketch i said he was based on what i think would happen if he got a hold of some sulphur. i actually think that would be about the same as his rift form because sulphur seems to do very similar things under certain circumstances. always corrupts your form, can sometimes make creatures MUCH larger (matriarch, kuudra, magma boss), heightens your magic (mage outlaw), and can make you incredibly violent (barbarian duke)

bye i hope i tricked someone into reading a really long skyblock theory post expecting more info about techno FKJHG

#RRAAAAAAAAA IM SO GLAD IM DONE WITH THIS MY FUCKING. BEAST. THE FUCING 🐖🐖🐖 THE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#uhhhh click for quality i think? it looks blurry on my end rn in my drafts #ok quick how do i clog the tags enough to where i can still be consistent on my blog but it doesnt show up in main tags #there is a whole. animation. sitting in my head okay. i know EXACTLY how he is exiting the rift portal #tbh i might make it kinda like a comic strip #i will not name any of the other staff in the post fuck you figure it out yourself KJFHDG #i dont know if i have it in me to make That many drawings without inevitably abandoning it ;-;#even if they are just sketches THAT'S A LOT #but i have to draw him again i cant just do nothing with this #do you think this is enough tags have i rambled enough #technoblade #sb #my art #LONG POST #sb lore

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im-a-lil-bitch-boi · 2 months ago

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yea kno wut i wanna read? fics about Danny bein raised by Life and Death. or at least the personificafions of them. idc how it goes or y hes bein raised by hem

bad parents fentons? good parents fentons but they die? de-aged danny? aged up danny?

hell idc if its a cross over or not. i jus rly rly wanna see Death and Life raisin Danny. bc hes both Dead and Alive. bc he is the balancw. so y not make him their son?

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equalperson · 1 month ago

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people mostly talk about splitting as literally all-or-nothing--"I love you" or "I hate you"--but I personally experience an in-between point sometimes.

I don't know what I'd call it other than "thin-ice devaluation" or something along those lines.

like, yes I devalued you recently and I realize now that I was being irrational, BUT if you say something even slightly suspicious, hurtful, or incorrect, I'm going to assume that you're evil and/or useless again much faster than I would have before.

#narcissistic personality disorder #npd #actually narcissistic #actually npd #I'm sure this is relatable to other splitters but I don't want to clog up the tags of PDs I don't have so I'll just tag ->#cluster b #(not that only cluster B diagnoses involve splitting but. it's a bigger issue than it is in clusters A or C on average)#anyway I just text My cousin about the fortnite/miku collab and she replied 'I didn't know they SUPPOSEDLY confirmed it'#and I was thinking. what the fuck? supposedly?? are you accusing Me of being unreliable??? a liar and/or nitwit????#then she said 'I'm not really into miku anymore.' great (sarcastic). the one thing we had in common is out the window #is that all you think of Me? THEN she said that I can ask her for help if I join fortnite #and now it's like she's saying I'm too incompetent to learn on My own. fuck off!!#and I wouldn't have taken any of this so personally if I weren't JUST coming out of a devaluation episode #she used to be My equal/safe person so I would have been like 'oh she's so kind to offer Me assistance' but not right now. I'm delicate RN #so anyway I DO NOT want to talk to her anymore BUT I have to power through it. sigh. I haven't spoken to her in almost a month #so I'll just feign gratitude. I'd hate to burn bridges after all. gotta keep My options open

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pigeon-butch · 4 months ago

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I certainly have my own concerns about the treatment of moo deng but um. well i think some of you may just be racist

#this ^ isn't directed at any post in particular but instead a lot of comments ive seen. but now im gonna talk about other posts down here #and prefacing anything i put in the tags here with DONT TAKE MY WORD FOR IT DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH #but the biggest post ive seen going around rn about moo deng being mistreated and the general quality of khao kheow zoo is questionable #claims that the enclosure is mostly concrete seem to be false from all the sources i can find #the concrete section looks like its specifically around the feeding area which fits zoo care guidelines which specify that the feeding area #be a surface that can be easily cleaned separate from the substrate and is a surface present in other zoos #the lack of deep water also seems to be purposeful? older videos of the same enclosure show deeper water areas #and looking back through the news every baby pygmy hippo announcement from every zoo i could find mentioned periods where the baby had to #learn to swim and was slowly introduced from shallow water to deeper water as time passed #this was also corroborated by fowlers zoo and wild animal medicine volume 8 which suggests keeping the mother dry and then slowly #introducing water as the baby grows as a potential best practice #damn im treating this like a paper now. anyway the negatives #there are absolutely things that strike me as bad eg. public access to the hippos and the way the keeper interacts with them #for the keeper stuff in particular i'd really like to see input from someone who has experience as a zookeeper with pygmy hippos #the public access is something that i def think the zoo could improve on and even older footage from years ago shows people sticking like #selfie sticks and shit off the side of the railings and right into the hippos faces #however again the zoo seems to be making efforts to curb visitor behavior which is tough when you go from having 800 visitors a day to #4000+ and you can't remodel the whole exhibit right then and there #all this to say! just do your own research and take somewhat inflammatory comments on the internet with a grain of salt #also just to make it clear im not making any sweeping statements on khao kheow or the treatment of moo deng im just summarizing what i foun #based on what's being said in the most popular post on the subject ive seen.#for the potential like three people who will read all this hi :) hope ur having a nice day

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king-spite · 2 months ago

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so it seems the poppy war has become my absolute favorite series so ofc i'm losing my mind comparing every scene with my other favorite series (red queen) and making an unfathomable amount of headcanons

#first off i think rin and mare would get along. maybe not at first but after a while they would #i think venka and evangeline would become the best of friends like the second they lay eyes on each other #AND evangeline would probably help venka realize that she's an absolute lesbian #i also think rin would get along with farley And with cameron especially #i think the cike (and kitay) would IMMEDIATELY adopt shade and kilorn and they'd have the silliest of dynamics. while being a menace #i think the cike wouldn't like cal at first but then they'd be chill about him #AND nezha and cal would also get along. btw. if you even care.#just thinking about rinezha and marecal interactions makes me dryheave i'm literally climbing the walls of my room right now #also qara and iris would get along AND hot take but i think she'd also get along with chaghan cause she'd be the only person he respects #imo #i also think jiang and mare would get along. tho he'd probably get on her nerves more often than not #i don't think altan and maven would get along with anyone lmao they're such freaks🙌#i like to imagine that altan would have INSANE one-sided beef with cal AND mare that'd be histeric #like they really dgaf about him it'd be so one-sided it'd be embarrassing for altan #maybe. MAYBE. cameron could manage him (cause they're both commited to being Haters yknow). but only for like 5 secs at most .#i also like to imagine chaghan and maven would have the biggest beef known to mankind i think they'd find each other insufferable❤️❤️#and evangeline and chaghan???? ohh chaghan's gonna find out how MEAN a mean lesbian can be alright. mlm/wlw hostility🤞🤞✨️#and what if rin and cal get somewhat along bc she understands the responsability the older sibling has over the younger one.#what if she completely understands his guilt WAAAAIT #ohh the more i think about them the more insane i get #this is just a snippet of the headcanons i have in mind rn #maybe i should make a more ''organized'' post about it #and not hide it in the tags😔#also the joy and whimsy one gets from making your faves hate each other's guts... it's so entertaining... peace and love on planet earth❤️#the poppy war #red queen series #red queen #also don't mind any grammatical mistakes i didn't check anything before typing this. and i don't have respect for the english language <3

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saturnaous · 10 months ago

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I never stop thinking about them.

SEND ME ART REQUESTS BOY

#yeah this is basically an art dump #just a bunch of miscellaneous doodles #that last one is from when I first made the au. I do like. basically doodle sheets. if you understand #there's a bunch of other stuff that I marked out that's why there's a bunch of empty space at the top #if you recognize the individual things from it. no you don't.#god for some reason I think I'm fucking ALLERGIC to using reference. of like any kind #the only one I used anyreference for was the. snowball one which was a pose #also btw I'm trying to break out of a bit of art block teehee #anyways.#spenxer lou art #lou is an artist #fma au #I need to make an actual tag for this au but I'll do it later. when I pin down a name #I really like tongued alchemist. . . it's funny #roleswap au #fma #fmab #fullmetal alchemist #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #alphonse elric #edward elric #traditional art #writhes around on the floor #I have a short comic idea for Ed. because I like making them talk about their feelings sometimes #but Idk if I wanna do it rn. . .we'll see #it's been on my mind #AUUAGHHUHUH Also I lost. my favorite mechanical pencil at a waffle house #I'm so fucking sad about it #I'm going to the craft store tomorrow tho so. fingers crossed #I think. I can stop now. falls to the floor and rolls away like a log

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californiaquail · 8 days ago

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anyone else feeling fundamentally incapable of adjusting to society. also just discovered there's a 30 tag limit which i can't believe i've never hit before

#like it was one thing when i was in high school and college like wasn't socialized as a child due to not receiving schooling and growing up #sda blah blah whatever but like i'm almost 27 and i am barely functioning lol like i feel like i'm struggling to have a normal conversation #even more than i used to and i think my speech cadence is noticably off which i don't think it always has been #some of it is definitely from chronic exhaustion from having to get up too early and the stress of having a frequently panic inducing boss #but like. come on now. i can't even drive despite finally having a license because i'm too scared/distractible/poor reaction time #over a dozen antidepressants have not worked. adderall is not working great either #i'm SO much dumber than i used to be and it's driving me quite literally insane #i don't even think it's from getting covid in july because i was noticing it before although it definitely became way more noticeable after #i got this job. i've never been this bad at a job in my life and it's something anyone who knows me would assume i'd be good at #it's embarrassing. i cannot fucking remember anything i struggle to do the most basic of arithmetic to fill prescriptions i make the same #silly mistakes multiple times i am constantly asking stupid questions and still somehow fucking up all the time #it's not as bad as it was a couple months ago and frankly i'm shocked i haven't gotten fired i keep thinking that's going to happen #of course i wanted to quit this job four months ago but now i'm at like a sunk cost fallacy point unfortunately #this is obviously not like any kind of career position for many reasons but i don't know what else to do unless i move across the country #again. i'm not even qualified for anything besides animal related things and summer camp which are fine obviously but not great if you want #things like benefits or paid leave or not to get burned out as hell lmao #i don't even feel like i could do any customer service jobs because i literally struggle to put a coherent sentence together on the spot #everything is so slow. soooo slow i'm literally losing my mind which is catastrophic because my mind is all i've ever had going for me #and i'm having kind of a horrible existence lately which is exacerbating all my problems except the problems make it mostly impossible to d #anything to fix it. ok going out and doing some fun stuff for a day makes me feel better that's great. except then i need a day after that #to recover from doing things the previous day. so the only feasible day for doing things would be saturday. except on saturdays i'm #recovering from working. i literally only work 4 days and barely over 30 hours it's Not that crazy. i mean the boss is crazy and the job ca #also be crazy obviously but 30 hours a week is minimal compared to other work schedules i've maintained before #anyway but the most i can do after work is go to the store if i need to but i almost never have energy for anything fun #and the fucking bus doesn't run on sundays and walking miles to get literally anywhere takes a lot of energy i don't have #i'm about to move next weekend and i'm dreading it because it's going to be so much work and i'm so fucking tired #and i don't have any friends to help me with cleaning i might be able to get help moving my stuff but i'm not even confident about that #i might have to rent a uhaul but i would honestly rather pay somebody to help because i'm that scared of driving even for one 30 min trip #whatever....sorry i had to feel bad for myself in the tumblr dot edu tags again i'm not in therapy rn #(<- guy who should be in therapy)

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gooopy · 1 year ago

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LOOK AT MY SELF INSERT BOY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cringe is dead i can do whatever i want FOREVER and that includes making a character to beat scout tf2 to death with my own two fists

#tf2 #tf2 oc #scout tf2 #sprinter #soldier tf2 #cw blood #goopys glop #i wont tag the other brief appearances here #also if anyone needs image descrptions let me know! i dont know that many people will look at this so im preserving energy rn #but if someone needs i can write them #anyways i lvoe autism i have gameplay mechanics mostly worked out and everything. i love tenth class ocs so beautiful #also i was fighting for my life trying to come up witha fucking name for this guy you dont even know #anyways hes a support type character. big hammer to help destroy buildings and a small sprint meter #can apply a slowness effect w the hammer and i feel that you play him by ambushing people and applying slowness and letting your teammates #pick them off and all #movement speed is actually pretty low and the sprint is very limited #but i straight up could not think of any other decent name. i wanted to avoid another s name but alas....#anyways um um um i love autism if anybody has any questions about him please let me know flutters my beautiful eyelashes

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lemongogo · 23 days ago

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need 2 find myself again in 2025 . tbhwu

#depression has hollowed me out in2 a shell of my former self #and i thmk i need 2 grit my teeth and just get over It whatever It is #recognizing its no easy task but also knowing i cant keep on like this #and allowing myself to spiral into misery thereby preventing any possible change or growth #sigh …. sogh .. i want 2 be a person again . picture friends circa 2008 outlining me in chalk. i want 2 know theres something there #how u ask (me asking myself)#idk but one way or anotjer . and not in that new yrs resolution fallacy way #anyways . anyways z . crazy how a week off from work will leave u feeling real again #i gotta get out of there . step 1😭🙏🙏#its especially hard when everyone arnd you is objectively doing better. partners finances purpose . >staring in2 the camera 1000 yd stare #u get thru the beast of being a teenager like thank god thats over and then b4 you even catch ur breath #your mid 20s are casting a shadow over u like some menacing thing and u have to gulp and say hes right behind me isnt he #i think people often like to give the advice that youll figure it out but it leaves me feeling so disquieted #bc its like sure im sure i will ive made it this far i can do what i need to get by when the moment matters #but it does nothing to assauge the immediate anxiety and feelings of worthlessness and lack of direction yk #goddmanit assuage i spelled it wrong everyone point and laugh #bc its like what if i dont and i mean that in a very like . existential & not material way . idk what im saying but i think thats the advice #i hate most . not sure if u have felt or do feel the same . -__- like yes oersonal experience sure whatever happens will happen and you will #simply adjust but will i ever feel like its something i want to experience/endure .#whatever anyways x2. im journalling i think that helps me the best rn . and its the one thing thats allowed me hope and i think #having that time to examine and mull over and deconstruct is rly helpful tbh. and i would like to think #over the long term i can repair my creativity and cultivate a new outlet that doesnt leave me feeling empty if i cant draw as i used to #yaar #i feel like i dont write for very long tho thats the one thing that kinda blows #two pages maybe and ive only addressed two maybe three points if im being generous lol i get so bored with the actual motion #when my mind moves 10x as fast . and idc for audio logs either ykwim.#ohh tumblr how i love u . tag system like no other

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dungeons-and-dragon-age · 1 month ago

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varric's death is actually great for the rook!addie agenda

#laya plays dav #<- still my dav related ramble tag #dav spoilers #oc: adriel #oc: liam hawke #i would have to figure out how the death reveal goes because there is no way in her universe that liam wouldn't be told about it #and there is also no way that he wouldn't insist on her getting tf out of there #in part *because* it already cost varric's life #so it *would* come up #except if i find a way for liam and fenris to be out of the picture for a while #which. thing is in my head they are currently also in minrathous #bc as both natural progression and as the veil is getting more precarious i absolutely imagine fenris's lyrium side effects to get worse #so theyre on the hunt for trails of danarius's old research or any other leads in that direction #to maybe find out how to mitigate the damage #and while they're at it maybe helping varric in his endeavours too; there's quite a bit of overlap for them i think #and in general there's no way varric doesn't utilise every connection he has in hunting down and stopping solas #in any case liam is having the WORST time in veilguard fr especially if addie is rook #the blight already took both his siblings and now it's on its way to take his husband and daughter too #and as if that wasnt enough solas killed one of his best friends #i'd probably age addie up for a rook timeline? but something juicy about keeping her young too #she wouldnt be The Leader TM in that case but she would insist on joining/helping the veilguard #and she *is* stuck with solas in her head so it's not like they can just ignore that #rn the main thing standing in the way is that i cannot for the life of me get her to look right in the cc 😔

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poltergeist-coffee · 1 month ago

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im not watching trsmp but you guys have to promise to tag me if there are any pacmanduo moments, okay? please? im desperate

#trsmp #the realm smp #... are there any other tags i should know about?#i think it's those two right....#💬 one new message #i do NOT have the time rn to potentially get emotionally invested in a new minecraft server....#but i can be pursuaded with pacmanduo or clingyduo moments #i do in fact play favorites

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bunnyboy-juice · 3 months ago

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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner

#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr #me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel #and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need #space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time #but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single #Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was #much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh #i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups #and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that #definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him #its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh #cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did #like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess #guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here #and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno #we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff #that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting #i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it #i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu #anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu #publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago #n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus #being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the #stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)

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pocketramblr · 3 months ago

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I always found it slightly awkward how media makes siblings or people who see each other as siblings call each other brother/sister all the time as in real life you almost never see people do that with their own siblings (maybe someone out there like that)

In the case of Arkham Shadows I see why they did though because Bruce quite literally tells Harvey he loves him and Harvey says it back. Can't have the audience think Batman is in love with the DA.

They had Bruce pay for his college, pay for his campaign, pay for his surgery, pay for his therapy and had Harvey have him as his best man at his wedding. Wow..... Sugar baby Harvey is real.....

The calling sibling title thing is less common in English than in some other languages for sure- me and a couple of my siblings do it on occasion, but it's for a bit then. More common is when I call one of my close family friends "my sister" or "my nephew" when talking about them to someone else because it's faster and easier to say that than to say "my friend who I've known since she was born and lived with for a few years and consider a little sister" or "child of a close family friend who considers me an aunt" to someone who doesn't know them. Which is a lot of words to say that if they wanted to fully sell me on the brothers thing they should have either had a different bit or should have referred to the other as "my brother" when talking to an unrelated character instead.

But "oh no we have to make Bruce not look gay" has been a problem DC has struggled with more than once for many decades and it basically never works so I guess at least they didn't try to solve it this time by having Bruce pick a lady love over Harvey or cutting the holding hands thing

Because I saw that scrapbook! I know Harvey has been Bruce's sugar baby since he was ten years old! But we can't have Bruce take Harvey's hand and call him the love of his life because ok technically that's Gotham but also because gay. And we can't have Bruce take Harvey's hand and call him his best friend because they're not ten anymore and somehow that seems gay also. So brothers it is, I guess. Even if I think my brothers would bite my finger if I ever tried to pay for everything for them on that scale, guess it's different at billionaire levels

#I'm actually simultaneously a believer in grew up like brothers and absolutely down bad romantically #(and harvey as a representation of Gotham itself as a love)#like an election in two (three) positions at once #but the point remains- you can't really fully cover the care by slapping a brother label on it like dc tries to to avoid it being too gay ig #which is very funny because did you see all the bi Tim and Dick stuff in Gotham Knights- but Robin has always had more freedom than Batman #in the 'can we let anyone think he's anything other than totally straight' department #anyway now I'm thinking about how on earth-3 all the characters get a morality flip #but Two Face/Three Face is the only one i can think of who gets a gender flip as well #as if 'oh if we had just originally conceived of Dent as a woman it would have been better (morally) because then it wouldn't have ended up #looking so gay'#but no they did not explore that thread because apparently uh having love interests in the joker and riddler was more important #which you'd think should reflect back on standard issue harv eddy and clown but uh. not really no they don't want to admit it #and i suppose 'well no three face wouldn't have a thing for owlman because he's technically not a version of Bruce he's a version of b's #brother'#but like then again. if Harvey is his brother. then shouldn't something have been used there to connect it #in any way at all #but no #instead I'm left with many thoughts about Harvey as a brother as a lover as a personification of gotham and as a woman but #i am still very sleepy rn so i don't know how many of those thoughts are coherent #but all that to say #YEAH SUGAR BABY HARVEY #guess it wouldn't be comforting for Harvey to shakily ask what he is #and Bruce to answer 'you're my companion who i turn to for affection in and give you obscene amounts of money in turn'#but like. it also wouldn't have been incorrect.#... though 'sugar baby harv as part of the representation of Gotham itself' probably has something to it too #but i digress I'm sleepy #pocket talks to people #anon #* i meant 'electron' not 'election' in that earlier tag

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mayoiayasep · 4 months ago

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society if avex listened to my kantaaoi besties agenda

#paralive tag #visty posting #paradox live #kantarou misuji #aoi kureha #like they're already unitmates in canon but likeeee i want them to be besties. avex. for me. as reparationssss #like /silly reasoning is bc theyre my top two faves so they should be besties. the /srs reason is bc from what we have of their trauma hint #i dont think either of them wouldve had people to really be themselves with that were like. their age before each other #like my hc for kantarou's trauma is that he was socially ostracized at the idol school he went to. and for aoi's trauma while their timelin #doesnt mention any falling out w friends their obvious trans coding makes it likely that the prince thing was also a bit of an escapism #thing from being isolated at school as well.#idkkk i just want kantarou to be the person who aoi can actively let the prince persona down around. bc iirc they do still keep it up aroun #the rest of visty. or at the very least they're not vulnerable w their unitmates #on kantarou's side i want him to have friends. someone who he can actually trust to like him that isnt just people online #idkkk im writing a fic rn but its taking forever so i have to post about these two now. underclassman visty duo ily. u are canon to me #anw gn. ramble over

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