#i blame it on my autism lol

[ribbondee]

My PMATGA hyperfixation is so bad, I think about the show daily. Especially Betrayus. Betrayus. It was love at first sight with that bastard when I was kid. My crush never died out even after all these years.

Like, in a PMATGA Discord server I'm in my role is literally "Friendly Neighborhood Betrayus Simp". I'm serious.

Sadly, if I ever met Betrayus IRL I'd likely go into fangirl mode and be all over him.

...then I'd die because he killed me out of annoyance.

In conclusion, I'm a hopeless simp who is madly in love with a horrible, genocidal warlord dude. Yeah.

[mrmeepsmadmind]

cliffjumper wip. still need to draw his bestie bee bcs i refuse to pit two queens against each other

rip my wife. killed bcs her smokey cat eyed slay was TOO loud 🤫 !!

[therewithinthestars]

warframe 1999 spoilers

dude i'm so so bad with these friendships/romance systems i swear to god, i wasn't sure why i felt so anxious when playing bg3 and was worried about making the wrong choice but I FEEL EVEN WORSE WITH WARFRAME WHY AM I LIKE THIS first of all i want them all to like me T T not even romantically but i just cant handle bad responses LMAO and second of all..... i'm just so curious about their replies to everythinggggggg i want to know all the paths and options! now i dont know, should i just wait till people come up with tutorials so i can pick the answers i want? :') but thats gonna take so long and im also excited to play and and ig thats like inauthentic but aaaa i dont know OTL im stressed out lmao I SHOULDNT BE SO STRESSED OUT ABOUT THIS why am i like this

and the fact that its like... in game? not a replayable thing like bg3 but youre stuck with your choices??/ T T i hate it here shdfsdfsdf

[dmitri-smerdyakov]

Stating the obvious here but this scene should NEVER have been cut from Secrets of Dumbledore, there was absolutely zero need to cut it and I'm going to be forever salty about it.

There's just so much I love about this scene... Newt being Newt, Theseus cradling the baby Qilin and singing to it (my ovaries may or may not have combusted tbh), both of them in waistcoats?!?!, Pickett having a matching bandage on his little twig hand/arm just like Newt, the tiniest scraps of information about the Scamander parents - their mum used to sing to them, their dad had an old drinking song - and just the two of them being brothers... this scene shows why not only Newt but also Theseus are Hufflepuffs, shows their brotherly relationship, shows a caring older brother side of Theseus.

I'm just forever going to be mad about the potential of this series and how it's now unlikely to ever be realised.

[rat-r0mance]

x-men as element benders bc the 'tism said so

logan: earth/metal bender

scott: fire bender

jean: fire bender

storm: the avatar

kurt: water bender

rogue: earth bender

remy: fire bender

hank: air bender

charles: air bender

morph: air bender

bobby: water bender

pyro: fire bender

jubilee: fire bender

quicksilver: air bender

magneto: earth/metal bender

mystique: water bender

emma: water bender

sabretooth: fire bender

[pollen]

letting myself unmask has been so nice at times because i'm seeing my boyfriend express joy much more readily too. who knew me being expressive and all that would do so much good!!!

[loki-is-tired]

I have two hyperfixations that are pretty connected. Like, I see something that reminds me of one of them, which then flares that back up into an obsession, and then I fall into the other one again.

This doesn't seem that weird, but then I explain that it's Pathologic and Mystery of the Druids and suddenly people don't get it anymore.

It's because I was introduced to both of them by my older sibling through video essays very soon after each other and I rewatch the video essays one after the other pretty often?

Anyway, point is Tumblr keeps recommending me more Mystery of the Druids posts and I keep getting kicked back down the hole of hyperfixation.

And now I'm trying not to reference either of the games just in typing this lmaoooo

[brittlebutch]

finally found a place to read With the Light online and i'm thrilled; if you haven't read this manga i do Legitimately recommend it

[somelonelywordmonger]

My MRI with contrast experience wasn't exactly great today. This is hurting something fierce.

I almost panic hit the button to call the tech in because she had taken the IV out and bandaged it but it was still so painful and getting worse. Crazier still is the position I had to be in and my arms pinned to my sides in the machine so that this arm she put the IV in was numb (asleep) as she did it and then woke up with stinging nerves just as she poked me and then the site of the butterfly needle was awful with the pain. And then I go back in the machine and my damn arm with the searing pain and my hand start to fall asleep again while the pain doesn't cease. But then I really panicked when the world suddenly felt lopsided. I couldn't feel the left side of my brain. Suddenly all the weight and the feeling of fullness you have shifted onto my right hemisphere while the left turned to fuzzy nothingness. And my neck was straight but it felt crooked and it was just this awful cacophony of sensations. The location being scanned got hot again while my joints began aching and begging me to move. Meanwhile my head felt lopsided and my arm was searing and screaming in agony from the IV. 0/10 would not recommend.

[uncanny-tranny]

No question. I am informing you that your musings on doing things "half assed" are VERY limited in scope and applicability, especially in the context of interpersonal relationships. Turning comments off will not save poorly thought work from criticism, please think harder before you hit post.

So, reading this came across (to me) as either bad faith or projection, so I looked for entirely too long to try finding this post, but... no, I think this is projection.

I appreciate that not every post of mine is applicable to every situation, but this really comes across as needlessly antagonistic. My comments are unavailable to anybody who is either a brand-new follower or hasn't followed me - they are not 'turned off' unless you are either of these two.

[infinity0nhigh]

“Essentially, neurotypical people instantly and instinctively spot that you, as an autistic person, are not "normal", through subtle body language cues.

Emphasis on "subtle". For example, micro-eye movements, micro-variations of facial expression, posture, gait and voice, content of conversation, etc.

When non-autistic people look at an autistic person they don't know, their brain will instantly process the (dozens of) subtle body language cues from this person. It's not a conscious reasoning, it happens in a split second. And the brain concludes "this person is not like me / not normal" => "I don't like them".

They don't consciously, themselves, know why they dislike us. All they know is that they felt an instant dislike out of nowhere for us. So they'll try to explain it, by saying we give off a "bad vibe"… Or they'll later retroactively justify it by using any specific behavior we have and they don't like (eg. infodumping, interrupting people, etc).

But the truth is that they didn't like you even before you started infodumping, they disliked you even before hearing you talk or knowing your name or anything about you; just seeing you was literally enough.

Even masking autistics can't escape it. Masking can hide the more obvious autism signs (ie. "resting bitch face", rocking back and forth on a chair, hand flapping, etc), because the person is actually aware that they do it.

But controlling, changing, hiding subtle body language cues is near-impossible, because you're not even aware you do it, it's literally as automatic and unconscious as breathing.”

Damn… so there’s no way to get more people to like me then 🫠

[puppys-rhythm-heaven]

i am being so fucking autistic about a video game i've only played an hour and a half of and have absorbed like 99% of my information about through osmosis from my bestie(s. it's complicated) and fanfiction. catastrophic levels of autism. i can't stress this in words i don't think y'all understand. or care honestly sdflkjfdskdfsjsfdkj-

[alchemiclee]

sometimes I think about how everyone is so obsessed with how they look and think other peoples' opinions are what determine if they are attractive or not. by that logic, i'm one of the ugliest people to ever exist because i've never, to my memory, had a random person tell me i'm attractive in any way just by looking at me. I've only had people give me pity compliments after I say something like the last sentence lmao. but I don't accept those. I don't want your pity

[poirot]

some book recs: the haunting of hill house, dr jekyll and mr hyde, the phantom of the opera, the turn of the screw, the yellow wallpaper, sharp objects, the girl on the train

thank you so much for the recommendations, anon <3 it‘s funny because I put ‚the haunting of hill house‘ on my ebook just a few days ago ahsjs haven’t started it yet though because I wasn‘t sure if it‘s too scary for me lol but I think I might read it next!! the phantom of the opera, sharp objects and the girl on the train are on my tbr list since forever, so I definitely should get to them! the other ones I already read (actually just read the yellow wallpaper last week ahsje) but again THANK you sm for the recommendations 💗

[fallowtail]

i try not to let it get to me but the knowledge i am always going to be The Stupid One in every situation i’m in just…really, really sucks. sigh. oh well. i stay silly :3c

[alphashley14]

So I just reblogged a poll about how you hold your pencil and I don’t feel that words can adequately describe how I do it.

So here:

Honestly I blame my dyslexia for this. 📝