#i am Doing Better

[utterqueerdisasterthesimp]

:)

[hersurvival]

It's no longer just the voices,

I can feel my blood burning,

Itching to be let out,

To drip and glisten across my skin.

But tip to flesh,

Your voice rang in my head,

How convinced you are that I am so strong.

So I settled for a few surface scratches,

That way when you ask how I slept

I don't have to tell you it was in the red.

Arguing with you

About my strength is one thing.

But to prove just how weak I really am?

To show you new scars and lacerated skin?

That might actually kill me.

[thedeafprophet]

feels kinda wild that there's some people who only met me after I got sicker...... but I stand assured that I will be known long after the symptom mitigation efforts have succeed as they have 😤😌

[serrennedyanonwriter]

My friend, proofreading something: Wow, you write Luis getting persuaded into the cult so well, it’s almost like you seen it firsthand.

Me: Oh thank you.

Also me: They don’t know, do they?

[i-drop-level-one-loot]

Hey howdy! If this is too personal or too much or something no reply is needed ofc! I was just wondering if you're feeling a bit more okay? I know it was pretty rough for a while there. I hope you're feeling a little bit better, and aren't rushing yourself to pump out wonderful works for us all here when you aren't ready to. (btw loved the latest! kinda refreshing! felt bad for reader's dad tho)

Lol fr though, I have been doing a little better. I got real bad there for a while, not gonna lie. It's still really rough, I don't have time after work for any of my hobbies, and my new job isn't nearly as good as my last job in terms of pay, but that being said, I am doing better ❤️

I'm learning about myself a little more, I've started moving again and so my body feels a little better (even though I'm getting less sleep), and my mood has started to regulate a little. It's always tough, dealing with mental illnesses, but now that my every day has started to regulate a little, I'm able to focus on my mind.

Thank you for asking❤️

And thank you for liking my newest story ❤️ it's one I've been thinking about for a while, and with my very little free tone it took forever to write 🥲

[vizthedatum]

I picked up my meds at my pharmacy today. I have gone there for several years now…

One of the pharmacy staff told me how proud she was of me, how different I looked, how much BETTER I looked, how I was doing a good job… how I looked happier.

They all know I was going through a breakup and divorce. They don’t know that many other details. Maybe they could tell that something weird was going on? I wonder what other people saw.

But it was really validating to hear her say all that. I know I look different but today I’m wearing clothes I’ve been wearing on and off for this whole week, haven’t showered, haven’t styled my hair, sleepy and fatigued, trying my best during this cursed week, etc.

It was validating that despite me going through a hard time, I KNOW VISCERALLY that most of the pharmacy staff have seen me in very worn-down states - usually sleep-deprived, sleeping too much, extremely high and/or dissociated, worried and not happy, and… usually with my ex.

I’m so happy and proud of myself. Even though times are rough, I am more sure of myself - I am more ME. And anyone who tries to literally drain me… I know I can leave before things get bad.

[mambodork]

This is definitely how it went down

[ramblingtomcat]

Hope you have a lovely day! 🎉🎉 And if not today, sometime soon! 🎉🎉

Aww thank you very much!🥹 This is so sweet! I hope you have a great day too! 🫶

[singswan-springswan]

In a happy world where Jason is legally resurrected and gets to go to college like he's always dreamed of

[hinamie]

10 years later

[theprophecys]

i didn’t believe it when they (friends) all said that it would get better with time but it really does

[spyglassrealms]

had a fucking hilarious dream that tumblr replaced the "block" function with the far funnier "glock" function, which did the exact same thing except whenever anyone blocked you a random bullet hole, like a png of a bullet hole, would appear on your blog. discourse blogs were unreadable bc you'd go to the page and the sheer amount of bullet hole pngs stacked over the blogs obscured everything. I woke myself up laughing

[verflares]

just how long is forever? // not long enough, with you

pssst. check this out on inprnt :]

[rapidhighway]

the thing that caused me so much grief last night but now i feel better about it fdnghgdfggd

[stellarglowsquiiiid]

Parkour Civilization 1 is about how capitalism incentives the people living within it to keep moving up its ranks (even though it’s functionally impossible to do so), believing they’ll be safe if they just get a bit richer, only to be in a situation that’s even more difficult to maintain. How one bad fall can cost you everything, and how it’s much easier for the rich to avoid making that fall.

Parkour Civilization 2 is about getting betrayed by queercoded bitches (you are parkour Jesus Christ).

[thepioden]

if you ever go to an art gallery and you see a painting and you think "that sucks. I could do that." maybe you can! I think a lot of people could do like. Matisse. Mondrian. Rothko. From a technical standpoint at least. Not everyone but a good number of people. But please consider: Artists™ aren't special people. They're just people. Just regular folks with something to say and a trained skill who showed that skill to the right people.

So instead of being like "that sucks! that's dumb! I could do that. It shouldn't be in a gallery." instead try, "I could do that. I should be in a gallery." and then do it and go and show your art to people.