#i actually wanna use these two for more than a weird fanfic tho

[cartoon-buffoon]

Okay I'm aware there's a branch of people who ship the WI versions of Oswald aka Euthenasia Rabbit with the weird version of Felix in the background from Leak Ma Balls.

Real quick, I've seen people call the bloody eyed Felix Hysteria Cat which uhh, idk if that's a fanon name or not and it's similar to Oswald where in the files that's the name of the sprite or something? Anyways I can understand the ship, these two exist within the same mod and are both original characters, Oswald actually has some lore behind him though. Now the dynamic of two equally insane wackjobs in love is pretty cute and funny to me, it's a bit less funny in this case though because Oswald's... Emotional baggage, to say the least. But may I present my own idea of who you could ship Euthenasia rabbit with?

нет! Originally a design used for a T-shirt that was stolen and placed in a Russian bootleg game, this cat has been haunting my mind with ship ideas for him and Ozzie. When I tell you this idea has been with me for awhile I mean it, ever since WI came out I been shipping these two because I'm a proud crackshipper, fuck logic embrace insanity. I ain't tired enough to explain it right now yet I came up with an entire backstory and lore for HET and Oswald and how their relationship and dynamic works. To sum up their dynamic: Oswald and Het both have a burning hatred for each other yet their both so alone (for different reasons) that they naturally love each other's companionship. Like they say they want each other dead, however at night they still be cuddling and they'd kill for each other (literally) but it's just layers of denial to the point they don't even realize they're a couple and get really aggressive when anybody points it out.

They're is a bit more layers of to their dynamic from me as well, for example my own lore/headcanons has HET as a toon/entity who loves to kill and take other people's faces and wear them as his own and Oswald's natural luck shields him from getting caught so the cat claims to only be around Ozzie for protection. While being around Ozzie for his own selfish gain he genuinely does start taking a liking to him and he refuses to acknowledge it and actively takes measures to get rid of these thoughts. But I'm not in the mood to ramble on about this idea, maybe some other time, but hay. This is just something to think about and a personal ship of mine that I wanna share.

[imagionationstation]

this is a dumb au I really wanna make for the soul reason that I love Shinigami

so basically…

separated au.

Leo and Mikey are raised by Splinter. Raph is raised by The Purple Dragons. And Donnie was originally raised by Shredder and is later raised along with Shinigami. Cause I love them both and there’s not enough Shinigami out there.

It’s just a dumb lil au I have that I need to expand on.

Plz don't feel like you gotta respond :)

I hope you’ll forgive me because I’m about to overthink this way more than absolutely necessary because that’s who I am.

Shini is great. She deserved more screen time.

Wait I’m a fanfic writer why haven't I fixed that-

“Donnie was originally raised by Shredder and is later raised along with Shinigami-”

DID SHINI’S FAMILY- LIKE- KIDNAP HIM???

DID THEY LIBERATE THE ABUSED TURTLE!?

IS SHINI’S FAMILY ACTUALLY AWESOME?!

NO, wait, even better- Shini came into Karai’s life long enough to kidnap her brother. She’s a sneaky child, but we don’t have any proof that she’s evil. She just vibes. It fits her profile, I’ve decided.

An eight-year-old Shini just comes home one day holding hands with an anxious green child with a shell like, “I HAVE A BROTHER NOW” and her parents go with it because they’re used to her doing as she pleases and Donnie (maybe a year or two younger) goes with it because Shini and her parents were nicer than the Sakis ever were.

*OKAY SO THE WIKI SAYS THAT SHINI LEARNS MAGIC FROM HER FAM WHICH COULD EXPLAIN HOW SHE MANAGED TO KIDNAP HIM SO YOUNG- (Is it kidnapping if he goes willingly?)

AND DONNIE IS NOW FAM TOO

MAGIC WITCHCRAFT DONNIE ANYONE???

If anyone asks, Donnie is her Kappa familiar. Her family is weird and the Japanese are superstitious so absolutely no one questions it.

(He still tries to stay out of sight.)

How does he get back to New York tho? 🤔

I can’t imagine Raph being raised by the Purple Dragons. Those dude can barely crime- raise a kid? Nah. Naaaaah.

I can imagine some crazy things but THIS?

Okay, okay. I’ll give it a try.

-I tried and it didn’t work. I failed you. The cringe is real.

Purple Dragons of another series, maybe, but 2012? Nah. Nah.

Now, to clarify. I’m NOT saying it’s a bad idea. I’m NOT saying I dislike the idea. And I’m NOT saying you shouldn’t play with this idea to your heart’s content. Totally do it. Absolutely go for it!!!

The prospect amuses me. I’m just not built for that level of imagining. As it is your AU, I will leave that up to you. *salutes*

[rex101111]

I'd love to see some commentary on Swipes of Sword and Fan, I'm curious when it comes to more variety-type fics where the inspiration for different chapters comes from and the like. And here's a ⭐ for anything you'd like to talk about in general about whatever!

Thank you!! Looking back im actually pretty proud of this little collection im slowly building up, though to be honest I didn't give it too much thought when I started.

It started out as a bit of a joke, the first chapter was basically just me posting one of the drabbles I sometimes write when somebody sends me a quick description. I just rolled with the premise while staying as close to those two crazy criminals as I could. I posted it as the first chapter of a "collection" half jokingly as an affectionate jab at a trend in fanfiction that is kinda dead these days but was damn near impossible to avoid just a few years back.

People taking an entire prompts list, anywhere from thirty to a hundred, and using that to make a chronologically loose collection of stories based entirely around one ship or group. A select few went the distance and did the whole bunch, but most of them stopped at around the 15 mark. Which is plenty impressive, sure, but it always struck me as evidence that fanfic writers have an awful little habit of biting off more than they can chew.

A habit I'm sure long time readers of my work will no doubt know that I share. The amount of times I said "IM GONNA MAKE A LONG FIC OUTTA THIS ONE JUST YOU WATCH" to myself only to get distracted later on by scheduling issues or just getting attached to another idea... Ah well.

So, yeah, I posted that first chapter as a bit of a jab at myself "oh yeah sure im going to make a collection out of this, the whole nine yards!...probably gonna make it an even 30, be surprised if it hits 15", and the first few chapters came to me like lightning. Since I established the setting in the summary, I pretty much gave myself the freedom to make any story I wanted so long as it was in that very vaguely defined period of time.

Any story. Any at all. Whatever weird idea came to my head with these two that I could fit on two-three pages. I kinda went nuts. Most chapters were born from a quick idea I had like "hey so what if anji got jealous?" or "how do they deal with bounties anyway?" and others I had to really sit with like "...what were Baiken's parents like?" or "tying shoes must be a pain in the ass" or "oh hey what if Anji actually did feel guilty and afraid of his actions hurting the one person he cared about" and so on.

It's gotten to the point where I'm actually fairly certain I will hit that 30 chapter mark at some point. I'm not putting myself on any time line, I just post whenever I have a suitably dense and short story I wanna add. And boom.

and im gonna use the star as a chance to rant a little about how petty I personally can be about comments. First off, I love getting any kinda comment at all, if its a simple "OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS" or something along those lines, I will gobble it up like its delicious because it is.

But! Personally speaking if you really wanna make me happy as a writer, I really REALLY like those comments that pick a sentence or a segment and go "OH I REALLY LIKE THIS PART HERE'S A QUICK RANT WHY". Been this way since I wrote weird OC shit on DeviantArt back in the day, craving that very specific "you did good" validation.

Seriously tho, if a reader doesn't have it in them to write a Formal Review of my fanfic I'm not gonna hold it against them. I probably won't answer because I'm honestly genuinely awkward like that. But the dopamine shot of "Comment on AO3" lasts longer if the comment is also longer, you know? I've read comments that made me dance in place and pump my fists like I won a marathon. that shit rocks and readers who take the time to indulge my need for overly specific praise are a treasure.

[otp-holic]

Will this be the night? (ALSO IN A03)

A random piece of online advertising unleashes some movie memories of a Summer afternoon in 1932

1.5 Ks Fanfic + Pictures Inside. Part of the Never let us lose what we have gained series (AO3) Silly drabble born from my love of classic movies... that ended up not having anything to do with classic movies.

BROOKLYN'S KING'S THEATRE

Poster for Cary Grant's Retrospective. Printed paper 2025.

A poster for the upcoming month long celebration of the movies of Cary Grant to be held in Brooklyn.

Bucky is not expecting a vivid memory of the past to jump at him from a piece of online location-targeted promotion popping on his phone as he and Steve are wandering around the neighborhood on a random Friday.

But the 21st century works in mysterious ways and Google is kindly inviting him to check “Cary Grant: A Celebration”, a month-long chronological retrospective of all his movies taking place at a nearby hipster cinema starting… in half an hour.

He beams as a long string of memories of the both of them in different afternoons and movies plays in his head; how they counted the cents for the admission price, and how Bucky learned to sneak into the movie every time that did not add up to two full tickets.

“Buck, you’ve been smiling at your phone in silence for a whole minute,” Steve interrupts his daydreaming. “Should I be jealous? Worried?”

“Sorry,” he answers, still smiling about the memories. “I think I’m leaving you for Google, they see inside my one hundred years old soul; But I might give you another chance if you don’t mind a change of plans for the afternoon.”

“Lead the way, but can you give me some heads up?” Steve chuckles, more than used to Bucky’s ways.

He takes Steve’s hand to direct them towards the movie theatre and thinks about how much information he wants to share.

Although he is the one who still relies on the comfort of 30s and 40s movies whereas Steve keeps getting bolder with his options, Steve has always loved Cary Grant and Bucky thinks he’s going to appreciate his choice since this particular movie has a history (sad history, maybe) for them, so he debates on whether to tell him or not.

“We are going to the movies. But the real ones, not that shit on Netflix you keep choosing,” he settles for half-disclosure.

“Damn, mister life in black and white strikes again. Embrace the 21st century, Barnes, I think you’ll like it!”, Steve laughs.

“Hey, I embrace it more than you do! At least I look the part of a mid-thirties man from it instead of a fifty-year-old hiding in fucking khakis. Albeit a very hot one, I’ll give you that.”

They both laugh. It’s not the first time these remarks fly between them and having a routine, running jokes, and running pet peeves is very soothing after everything they have gone through.

They’re getting closer to the cinema now, and Bucky can already see the Billboard announcing the retrospective and a small queue forming upfront. He takes a side look at Steve to see if he has noticed and he can certainly tell that his curiosity has peaked.

“Surprise! Call it a win-win, it might be up my alley, but you used to love Cary Grant movies,” Bucky smiles as they reach their place in the queue and glance at the program for the afternoon.

‘This is the Night (1932)’, the poster says, ‘Cary Grant's feature film debut on the big screen’

Bucky is deep in nostalgia, remembering a summer day of 32 when they were waiting in line for the same film and how the evening turned out, but when he looks in search of his partner’s reaction, it’s not what he expected at all.

“Steve, you ok?” he asks, worried at seeing Steve frozen in place.

Steve nods. His whole face is deep red, but at least he is responsive. He looks ashamed and Bucky is shifting from worried to curious.

“Jesus, this movie,…” he chuckles now.

“You seem to remember, then. I thought you might.”

It was not a happy memory: Steve had felt really ill halfway through, looking white as a sheet of paper and about to die on Bucky. They had to leave the unfinished movie and run home, as per Steve’s request. But as far as Bucky remembers, nothing to be ashamed of.

“Why are you acting weird? Oh my god, Steven, are you allergic to this movie?”

The silence before Steve answers is a little too long and the queue moves forward.

“Shit, this is not easy to say and I’m sorry in advance.”

“Duly noted, but could you try to explain? I’m lost and I didn’t expect a full-on confession of something to be sorry about when I decided to follow Google’s intelligent advice to an unfinished movie. I just thought it was a good excuse for a change of plans. And kind of closure.”

Steve takes a breath and starts talking.

“I wasn’t honest with you, Buck. Back then…” he stops, searching for words, nervously musing on his beard. “Ah, I cannot believe this hasn’t come up at some point, but there it goes. I absolutely lied to you that day: I wasn’t sick or half dying and I am very very guilty of using my poor health to run away from that place and that movie, but I did the only thingI could think of.”

Bucky is at a loss for words, he’s still deciding if he is angry, curious, or somewhere in between.

“But… but you were feverish and white as a ghost and you said you had palpitations!”

Steve seems to think for a moment again and the bastard laughs so loud they get a curious look from the people behind. And taking advantage of the queue moving up again, he gets really really close to Bucky who honestly thinks he’s going to try to kiss himself out of the situation since it’s a bulletproof strategy.

But he doesn’t: He goes for Bucky’s ear instead, and whispers.

“I had a boner like you wouldn’t believe.”

Bucky gasps loudly totally taken aback while Steve takes a step back and looks at him in the eye more amused and hungry than ashamed, but still blushing.

“But hey, not all lies! I was somehow sick. And pale since my blood was… otherwise occupied. And I was barely 14!”

Bucky laughs at the dork. His dork. But the information is still making its way into his brain.

“Oh my God,” he exclaims as it starts to settle, “You piece of shit, you pulled the poor sick child card when you were just plain horny. I was worried to my bones as we run to your home. Shame on you Rogers!”

“Me? It was your fucking fault! Yours and Cary Grant’s and your stupid grins and stupid chins, those clefts!” he’s screaming in whispers so Steve Rogers’ teenage boner doesn’t make it to the news, but he’s talking as if he was pronouncing an important speech to the UN, “What was a 14-year-old in the fucking 30s popping one upon seeing an actor who kind of looked like a very tall version of his very male best friend to do?”

He is about to say something, but Steve literally covers his mouth with one hand giving Bucky no other option but to stick his tongue and lick the palm.

“Gross, Buck. I’m not done!”, he dries his hand on Buckys’ shirt before he goes on. “I’m not done because as I was still processing all that, you kept brushing your goddamned hand with mine when you went for popcorn! Over and over and over. It was torture. I have palpitations now just thinking about it.”

Bucky full-on laughs. One of those real ones that come more and more lately and that he honestly thought he would never get to experience again.

They have reached the box office, so he doesn’t push it further. For now.

“Two tickets for `This is the Night´, please.” Bucky smiles at the box-office guy. “He is paying, tho. I paid last time we tried to see this one and he didn’t have the decency to stay until the end.”

He actually feels like a teen as Steve takes his hand into the theatre, as he very intentionally buys popcorn to share, and as they start full-on making out on their seats during the commercials once the lights are out.

“Wanna know another secret, Buck?” Steve whispers a few minutes later, eyes on the starting movie as he brushes Bucky’s hand with intention over the popcorn bucket. His flustered face and recently kissed lips bathed by dancing lights and shadows coming from the screen. “It’s a good thing we were already together in ‘38 when “Bringing up baby” came out because I was able to plan ahead and lure you into that memorable window fuck at our old apartment before the show, or we would have totally missed one of our favorite movies, too.”

Bucky hates Steve with the force of the universe. Or maybe not, but he’s not playing clean.

“Raincheck on the movie?” he manages to whisper back as he drives Steve’s hand to his already noticeable hard-on. Two can play this game.

“Oh, poor Buck. Do you have palpitations” Steve chuckles, lips wet on Bucky’s ear and gripping harder on his bulge instead of letting go. “Was that the memory of the window fuck? Or all the making out? Tell me so I don’t do it again.”

“You are a punk, Steve Rogers,” Bucky answers before standing up to leave, closely followed by a smiling Steve.

Argh, sorry for deleting and uploading again, but i had technical issues with this.... so here it goes again. I need to free myself from this one!

[doodledrawsthings]

Oh The Humanity! AU  Masterpost

Hi! Making a masterpost for this AHiT AU so y’all have one place to just find all the important bits that I and other folks in the fandom have done for this AU! Everything will be under the read more

AU Premise: Snatcher steals a time piece from Hat Kid and Bow Kid to mess with them. He tries to use it during one of the Death Wish fights, but turns out the particular time piece he stole was faulty/ something was up with it/ he broke it in a weird way that really messed it up. Because of this, when he broke the piece, instead of rewinding time back a few minutes, it sent his form back about 300 years, returning him to human form, but with all his present memories. Now, he’s stuck as a human as and has to wait for the Time Traveling Alien Kids to fix the time piece and return him to normal, while also being forced to confront his past.

You can find most of this in the tag #oth!au. I will also be updating this as new stuff gets added or if I find that I’ve missed something. Let me know if there’s something I missed that you’d like me to add, cuz boy howdy i didnt realize how much is stuffed into this AU, and I dont remember what I’ve already said and what I’m saving for future stuff:

Significant Events in the Main Timeline story (these are kind of in order and kind of not. There’s more to be added, just not yet):

this au has a bunch of different endings thanks to the lovely ahit fandom’s contributions.

This all happens sometime after This comic. So, by the time OTH!AU happens, Moon and Snatcher are at least on“awkward acquaintance” terms with eachother and snatcher is trying to be nicer to him. He’s still got his moments of being rude and snappy tho, but thats just because he’s snatcher.

The first actual post i made In regards to this AU+ @positive-polygons​ comic interpretation of the beginning of the AU. He breaks a weird time piece he stole and he reverse ages back to being alive again. : Link Link1 Link2 Link3

Snatcher asks moonjumper to watch over Subcon while he’s stuck like this Link

Bow takes him to Nyakuza Metro to get new clothes. He trashes the Prince get-up as soon as possible. Link

Arctic Cruise Arc Link1 Link2 Link3 Link4

Some comics, they learn his name is luka at some point

Moonjumper is taking care of Subcon. They do things way differently than snatcher but they’re trying their best. 

Cooking Cat comes by to cook and help out. She’s very motherly to everyone. She’s taken Mu on as an apprentice, so she’s usually there with her whenever she drops by.

The birds are wrapping up a collab movie. The main cast are invited to the premier party, as Hat and Bow acted in the film. Snatcher gets to wear a nice suit and he has some interaction with the conductor and grooves. Link Link

at multiple points, MJ checks in with snatcher for status reports on how subcon is doing. This is usually where their bonding moments happen and they become less and less awkward with each interaction.

At some point around mid to late story, they find out that Subcon is starting to freeze over again. Snatcher was the only one who could melt the ice so this now gives them a time limit.

The Mirror incident Link Link  second fic by @greentrickster​

as snatcher gets along with the kids more, they remake his mailman hat so he can use badges and equip him with his own umbrella. Link Link

at some point snatcher realizes he doesn’t wanna go back to being a ghost.

Main-timeline ending is a Boss battle with Vanessa. Link

General Headcanons:

Almost everything you need to know about moonjumper and the prince and vanessa’s relationship Link

Snatcher and Vanessa have known eachother since they were kids. Their marriage was arranged, but they were good friends

OTH! Snatcher is aroace 

about snatcher’s feelings on defeating vanessa (*human!/final boss vanessa ending) Link1 Link2

This fic has a really good interpretation of the horizon that I’ve pretty much adopted, myself. Link

regarding snatcher’s expression of empathy and emotion both as a human and as a ghost Link1

Snatcher gradually takes on a fatherly role towards the girls. He is constantly trying to deny it as he comes to realize it but eventually accepts it. 

he’s actually pretty graceful with the umbrella  Link Link

Hat kid’s a good leader, but she can often be reckless and stubborn. Significantly more chaotic of the two space gremlins. She’s a lot like snatcher in a lot of ways, and because of that they are constantly butting heads but they get along better as Snatcher both gets used to being human and grows fonder of the two girls. She’s a bit closer to Snatcher, having been the most adamant about being his friend (initially out of spite but yknow) and they have a lot in common. 

People frequently mistake snatcher for being Hat Kid and Bow Kid’s visiting father. They usually comment on how much he looks like he could be HK’s biological dad. Both are in denial of this throughout the main timeline of this au. It’s a running gag. Link

snatcher is sometimes completely oblivious when he enters Dad Mode sometimes

Bow, on the other hand is generally a bit more shy and careful than hat kid is. She tends to take the passenger seat, taking on a more supportive role. She’s also way more polite. In this sense, she has more in common with moonjumper, and gets along with them quite well and she frequently goes to visit him the most often, on her own.

 Her and snatcher’s relationship kind of parallels snatcher’s relationship with MJ. Snatcher, having once been a big jerk to these kids, is now trying to teach bow to take more of a leading role and be more confident.

as this au takes place not long after the Clearing Incident comic, Snatcher and MJ’s relationship is a bit awkward in the beginning. Over the course of the AU their relationship would build up to be more brotherly.

the subconites like moonjumper but they miss their boss. MJ spoils them tho, which they appreciate and occasionally take advantage of Link Link

moonjumper learns to stand up for himself, snatcher learns to be more vulnerable

moonjumper is the badgeseller. Only hat, bow, and snatcher know this. 

snatcher very much enjoys feeling warm, its one of few saving graces he clings too in the stressful early part of the story.

snatcher doesnt like looking at himself in this AU. He’s very self-conscious about his “pathetic human body.” He doesn’t like being pitied and he doesnt like being seen as weak.

snatcher frequently has nightmares about his past.

after recieving the mailman hat, people start refering to him as The Mailman. Link

his voice frequently cracks a lot, especially in the beginning, since he keeps trying to use his Loud Ghost Voice, which can do a number on human vocal chords. Link

the kids bully him constantly Link Link Link

his arc is that he learns that it’s ok to be human and it’s ok to be vulnerable and to open up to people, and he learns to accept his past and who he used to be

the girls accidentally call him dad sometimes, which freaks him out at first, but he gets used to it eventually. Link

he adopts them, for sure, it just happens post- whatever ending.

beard. Link

Spin-off AUs, Alt Endings, and Fanfics, Oh My!:

That ending where habijob kills moonjumper  Moonjumper goes to fight Vanessa, alone. In one version they win, and in another, they lose, and snatcher has to return to ghost form to retrieve them from the horizon. by @habijob  Link Link Link 

From The Horizon fic by @greentrickster Link

@lindendragon‘s hypothetical endings where snatcher is captured by vanessa Link Link

@fedoraspooky‘s spinoff au where the timepiece takes him back even further and turns him into a kid Link Link

@positive-polygons‘s Vanessa Spinoff Link

@doodleimprovement‘s Royal ending Link

@erekiosuncreativeideas​‘s fanfic, Being Human, her version of the au’s story in chronological order starting from when he breaks the timepiece Link

@lemonadesoda​’s Fanfic series, And I Don’t Think You Hate This As Much As You Wish You Did, fills in and expands upon the ideas in  my comics for the AU Link

[skyerie]

WIP List of Shame

So I have been challenged by @fiadhaisteach and @oxygenforthewicked to write out every single fic title in my documents list... Which, I’m not going to do for one reason:

I have way too many freaking fics that are just... sitting there. And yeah, this would totally be an ideal time to actually get back into them all, but... I actually want to sleep tonight.

So, what I’m going to do is choose like ten or eleven of them, I’ll put where they’re posted if I have posted them. Not all of them are Dragon Age - I actually only got into DA a couple years ago!

Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Send me an ask with the title that most intrigues you and I’ll post a little snippet of it or tell you something about it. And then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

I promise I will do my best for this...

1. Lance and Naruto 2: a sequel to In a Blank, White Space (which I have actually just remembered hasn’t been posted on ao3, but will do that before I go to bed tonight...) A Naruto/Voltron Xover.

2. Something of the Wolf (WIP, FF.Net): Doctor Who/Percy Jackson Xover (blink and you’ll miss it kind...ish? way...)

3. Naruto would live: Naruto fic. I got like two pages into this thing? I think it was a Naruto and Good!Akatsuki fic but I’ve got no clue... Probably never going to finish this one. Maybe.

4.Recalling: Naruto/LOTR... Maybe a Hobbit xover. I didn’t really get that far into it. Probably not going to finish???? hmmm...

5. Minaeve stared at her father through the glamour: A DAI/Marvel xover. It’s not actually... not canon for my first Inquisitor, Adhlea, but it really hasn’t been elaborated on. Not yet, anyway.

6. Cloud had to admit: a time-travel FFVII story. -actually going to look into this one more...

7. Mo Xuanyu: A time-travel story with The Untamed.

8.Shruiken had never been set free: an Inheritance Cycle/DAI xover with my Inquisitor Adhlea as Shruiken’s actual Rider. It... In my defense, I feel REALLY bad for that poor dragon.

9.John Sheppard had seen quite a lot of crazy shit in his life: Stargate:Atlantis fic featuring Atlantis as a sentient, independent city with John having Hive mind powers and Atlantis becomes a hive mind? Idfk. It’s still a wip. That’s why it’s on the list.

10: queenlavellan: current doc name for ‘The Future Is Not Yet Set In Stone’, posted on AO3, and before you who read it get in a tizzy I am sometimes thematic, I’m not even close to being done with it. Besides, I named the sequel to ‘Never Again’ -

11.leilanigirl2: the sequel to ‘Never Again’. Not yet posted on AO3. :D

12.nextnoct2: sequel to ‘No Need (To Say Goodbye)’, the sequel being ‘It’s On Us (It’s Not Your Fault)’. FFXV fanfic dealing with many, many OCs and Nyx Ulric in need of rescuing lol. I don’t know...

13. Chocobo Retainer: A challenge from... @elements1999. In which Prompto’s spot as Noctis’ retainer is taken by a chocobo. 

14. Being a healer: FFXV fic in which Ardyn kidnaps Prince Noctis, Lunafreya, Prompto, and Ravus and takes them to live in Galahd and is their weird-as-fuck uncle. It’s... I know. Okay? It’s less weird than it sounds, personally. Also characters from ffvii show up.

And lastly...

15. witcherandleilei: Like it sounds. A Witcher xover with my Inquisitor Leilani because I can’t really see my Inquisitor Adhlea within that world where she’s not... kind of tragic. 

So there’s my current wips that I suppose I’m most invested in. Little bit more than eleven, but... you wanna know more about ‘em? Ask~ I’d love to answer questions about them!

Now I do have to say that, er, this wasn’t a ‘graveyard’ list. Again. If I did that I would probably lose a lot of sleep. I enjoy sleep even if I don’t enjoy the acts of getting ready for said activity...

tagging @thejabberwokk, @lolieg and whoever else wants to do it! no pressure tho!

[darkcomesoon]

So, I wrote this little thing because I am going to combust if we don’t have Beau and Yasha talking alone soon. This scene wouldn’t leave me alone the entire day so I had to write it down. Mind you, this is my first time ever writing fanfic, so I have no idea if this is going to be good, also English is not my first language so I’m aware there must be some mistakes here and there. Hope someone other than me enjoys it.

--

They were on a hill in the middle of a forest covered in snow and the sun was going down. Jester and Yasha managed to clear a good amount of the snow covering a big rock they found, right by the edge of the mountain with a good visibility to the rest of the forest. It was going to be tight but it was either that or sleeping on the cold wet snow on the ground since Caleb couldn’t create the tower today.

Ten minutes pass and Caleb finishes casting the spell to create the dome over the rock and one by one they enter the security of the bubble. Even though the dome gave them a lot more comfort and safety, they still needed to take watch to make sure whatever was hunting down in those parts of the forest stayed away.

First shift is taken by Caleb and Veth, Jester and Caduceus take the second watch. When the third shift comes, Jester, who had made sure Yasha and Beau took their shift together, wakes Yasha up and whispers in her ear “this is it, do something”, to which the response is simply a slow and sleepy growl.

When Yasha gets up, Beau is already sitting on the edge of the rock looking out the mountains. She stops for a moment, taking in the view of Beauregard with the white forest background. She tries to be a little stealthy but ends up kicking a little pebble directly into Beau’s tight, making the monk jump up a little bit. Beau turns around to find Yasha looking at her with an apologetic expression.

“oh shit, sorry”

Beau instantly opens a little smile, disregarding the pebble completely.

“Hey… Want to…”

She points to the spot next to her on the edge of the rock. Yasha lets a little “oh” escape her lips as she nods lightly at the question. She sits as they exchange a smile and an awkward laugh.

Both of them look over the mountains in silence, nervousness consuming the air. Yasha opens her mouth and takes in some breath as if she’s going to say something but her mind stops her. Two, three times, and on the forth try she manages to turn her head to look at Beau, who looks back at her. Without a word, Yasha awkwardly extends her arm to the side, behind Beau’s back but not touching her. She holds open her coat and gives a shy little smile.

“Wanna… you know… huddle for warmth?”

Yasha looks a little bit incredulous of what she’s said, but not as much as she looks proud. Beau gets the callback from the first time they took watch together and opens a big smile, admiring the gentle barbarian.

“Oh… I mean, yeah sure” She shrugs a little bit.

Yasha imitates Beau’s smile and waits for her to move in closer and as soon as she does, Yasha wraps her arm around Beau’s shoulder, covering her with her coat. Beau snuggles slightly on the side of Yasha’s body, her face turning a little red from blushing. She waits for a moment in silence before turning her head to the side and a little up to look directly at Yasha.

“So... we never actually talked after… you know, Molly’s grave.”

Yasha just presses her lips waiting for the question she knew was coming. Beau continues.

“I… I wanted to talk to you but I couldn’t really find the moment. I…”

“I’m ok, Beau” Yasha interrupts softly “I’m doing better, you know? I feel weird about all of this but I’m good.”

Beau holds in a smile.

“oh, ok? I, I know you are ok, I mean, you are the strongest of all of us, physically and mentally. That’s not actually what I was going to ask.”

Yasha gives Beau a confused look.

“That’s… I wouldn’t quite say mentally, after all I am the easiest to get, you know” she points at her own head and bobs it a little bit, making a funny face. A short snort leaves Beau’s lips as she laughs softly at Yasha.

“No, I don’t mean like that. And we do need to get you something for that” She also points at Yasha’s head “but I mean, look at everything you’ve been through. After so many people messing with your head you’re still here, and you’re getting better each day. Like, it takes a lot of fortitude and a strong mind to get out of where you were before. You are stronger than you think, Yasha.”

Yasha looks down, a semblance of a smile on her face as she contemplates every word that was just said to her. Beau waits for her response, knowing Yasha likes to pick her exact words every time she speaks.

“I… Thank you, Beau”

“Well, it’s the truth” Beau shrugs.

“What was it that you wanted to ask me then? About Molly?”

Beau turns her head to look away from Yasha and takes a deep breath.

“Yeah… I…Do you think he’s Molly still?

Yasha takes her time thinking about the question, looking over the mountains.

“I think… I wanted it to be him” She looks at Beau with sadness.  “I really miss him… But it’s so weird… he… he left his coat. And I think if it were Molly, wouldn’t he have come for us by now? I mean, wouldn’t we have heard something from him?” Yasha lets out a frustrated sigh. “I don’t know, really.”

“Yeah…”

“Do you think he’s still Molly?”

Beau hesitates, not wanting to say it out loud but Yasha gives her an expectant look.

“I think we are on the same page here, I… Everything points to him not being Molly anymore and I think that would be easier, actually” Beau’s expression hardens. “But I honestly don’t know what to do if it ends up he was Molly all this time.”

Yasha doesn’t respond, she just tightens the grip of her arm around Beau’s shoulder, bringing her even closer.

They sit there in silence for a little while, contemplating the journey ahead of them and the beauty of the place. Slowly the sun starts to show its colors behind the mountains and illuminate the forest, they should wake their friends soon. But before their watch is over, Beau breaks the silence.

“Fuck me. This place may be creepy as hell but it does have its beauty.”

Yasha lets out a small laugh and looks softly at Beau. “Yeah, I think there’s beauty everywhere, you just gotta know where to look at.”

Beau looks back at Yasha, a small breath leaving her mouth and a coy smile on her face.

“You’re right.” She laughs “I think you’ve been spending too much time with Caduceus, tho.”

Yasha laughs at the response, a hearty laugh that makes Beau look a little proud of getting that reaction.

“Yeah, I have… He’s a cool guy”

“He is”

“And he gives the best advice”

“Oh, yeah?” Beau looks amused “What kind of advice has he been giving you?”

“Hmm… Just about some things I’ve been struggling with. I… I have some things I want to say to someone and I don’t quite know how to do it” Yasha’s cheeks are red and she looks a little more nervous now “So he told me to not be too patient, not wait too much to say it, you know? Not think I have more time than I actually do.”

“Damn, that’s good advice. And he’s right, you know?”

Yasha smiles “He is”

“So… are you?”

Yasha gives Beau a questioning look.

“Are you going to say the things you want to say?”

Yasha takes a deep breath and looks away from Beau.

“I… I’m working on it” She looks back at Beau “Definitely getting closer”

Beau smiles softly and gives Yasha a proud look.

“Good, I want to hear it someday”

They exchange a knowing look, filled with admiration and tenderness. As the sun rises, they stay there hugging on the cold white forest, waiting for another day to start.

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

so to tackle the elephant in the room, what are your thoughts on the whole "everyone used to agree P5 was the greatest game ever but now everyone calls it cringey or bad what happened?" thing that's happened since....i think sometime after Royal? i mean, you are the og p5 later haha

Off topic answer: There’s an elephant? Where? 0<0 0>0 :0

Short answer: Yeah I’m not surprised it’s happening (there’s a cycle and its about that time in the cycle).

Long answer: 

Despite being an “OG P5 hater”.....I.....really didn’t want to become one. I really fought hard to reason with the faults I saw with P5. Like Anne, an early analysis (not on tumblr) I had of her was she was like Naoto, had a hard time reading the room (and was an airhead).....but like....that only tracks on the CoOp, it doesn’t with the main story (it’s a giant contradiction of her character). Main Story!Anne wouldn’t make the same mistakes with Mika that CoOp!Anne does.

I twisted myself into a pretzel after I played it in Japanese because......even tho I know something felt off, I was like “no! It must be something I didn’t understand! The english ver will clear things up!” And then the english ver came out and....and by the time I got to the 3rd dungeon, the game had me viscerally recoiled against what it was doing. And that’s around the time I became disillusioned with P5. I mean, while I was trying to figure out what was “off” about P5 prior to the english release, I did read one post or two discussing their issues and I was like “hmmm I’ll keep this in mind when I play it in english and see if I can catch it! :)” and......yeah.....those issues were bad but they didn’t completely encompass what I wasn’t prepared for. 

So despite me being an OG P5 hater, it was never my intent to be one. It just happened.

And the devil on my shoulder, salty goblin part of me is “Yes! I’m glad people are noticing the faults in P5! If there’s more of this, then that might mean P5 can crash and burn and we won’t get anymore and I’ll be out of this hellhole!” (overtly hopeful and unlikely I’m aware). 

Another part is....tired, because I know there’s a good portion of these “haters” that probs never played the game, aren’t fans of the series, and don’t fully understand and “appreciate” what’s wrong with P5. They are just jumping on a bandwagon to bully fans rather than to just....criticize the game. And that’s not cool, they don’t get love from me. 

I also hate the idea that “P5 is cringe” it’s not. 1) P5 has actual issues with it’s lessons and messages, 2) cringe culture is stupid and you should be having fun. You want to write that Goro/Mona fanfic? Go for it. You want to do TikTok dances dressed as Makoto? Go for it. You think Futaba’s weird gremlin internet speak is the funniest thing? More power to you. You get excited when you see Tokyo irl or in another game cause it reminds you of P5? You own that and have fun! You want to make “they’ll never see it coming” jokes all day long? Or Pancake jokes? Sure I might be tired of them but if that’s what makes you happy you go for it. You wanna hc something about a char (even if it’s controversial)? As long as you aren't pushing it as canon and insulting people and pushing it down my/other’s throats then I literally don’t care. 

Some things that are fun for you might not be fun for me and that’s fine. Vice versa is fine too. Some people might not like my nendo obsession or my custom nendos, or my videos, or my edits, or my colorings, or my jokes/memes, or my theories, or my rants, or my analyses. And that’s fine, I’m doing it for me, cause I think it’s fun and enjoy doing it and I want to share it. 

Shit, like I’mma be using “I’ve been waiting for this!” till I die. Not because I think it’s super funny, but because I like using that reference as a means to show that I, in fact, have been waiting for this and am excited. 

Just have fun. Stop worrying about what other’s think. Twitter (which is where I find most of these attitudes happening on) is just the same cycle as people saying pokemon isn’t cool any more in middle school and getting picked on for it, and then “suddenly” becoming cool again because some popular kid said it was. None of it matters just have fun.

“But Silly if none of it matters then why be salty?” Maybe the futility, I can’t change anything, but it’s still frustrating. Hard to change what you feel, even if you want to ignore it. But ignore that, do what makes you happy. As long as you aren’t hurting anyone of course.

Ah...but maybe I should mention my theory on how it was considered amazing vs now. At least with (early) reviewers, my theory is that....they either 1) didn’t get far enough into the game to see it’s faults, 2) didn’t catch the faults (P5 just....dumps so much text onto you), 3) they don’t see the faults via because they haven’t played the other games. For point one, I think they most likely barely go to around dungeon 2 (where there’s issues but they aren’t as apparent). It takes over 6 hours to get through Kamo’s dungeon, let alone getting to Madarame’s....and considering how well written Kamo’s is, I wouldn’t be surprised if the (early) reviewers assumed the rest of the writing was like that. People jumped on the bandwagon. Of course that’s just a theory/thought that crossed my mind...I’d need to dig through early reviews and I just don’t feel like it. It’s not that important of a theory for me. But if it turned out true, it wouldn’t surprise me. 

Tldr; I’m sure there are a good number of people being disillusioned with P5, but there’s also some people who are just using it as a means to bully other’s and that’s not cool. If you like P5 just own it who cares. I like P4 even with it’s faults (some justified and some just made up by the fans cause they have their own idea of how things should work), I’m doing just fine. Separate yourself from the “fandom” if you need to (I did with P4 back in 2014, haven’t really missed anything new since)

[ahiijny]

🧑🏆🎁?

Thanks for the ask! :D

🧑 favorite character to write?

Possibly Shirabe (Symphogear). I'm probably projecting a lot when I write her, oops 😅

Her characterization has her somewhat introverted, with a bit of a problem with opening up to other ppl (there's a mini plot thread about this in AXZ). But also she has a bit of a temper, and she's also a bit more analytical and perceptive than the other Symphogirls imo.

Also there are bunch of unresolved mysteries with her backstory that I really wanna dig more into (AXZ pls how can you just dangle that tantalizing bit of backstory to us and then just not do anything with it 😭)

Other close candidates: Serena (she does NOT get enough screentime), Renko (nerd), Merry (ok but what is going on with her eyes), and probably a few others I'm forgetting.

🏆fic youre most proud of?

The fic I'm most proud of that I've posted publicly is uhhhh maybe a toss-up between MariAli South Pole and Phugoid?

With Phugoid, I'd like to think I've done a good job diving into mindsets of the FIS girls and what they were thinking in that span of time between G and GX, since a lot of that is glossed over in canon.

It's still unfinished though, and I do have ambitions of extending the story to cover the between-the-lines of the later seasons, and possibly beyond canon as well (perhaps to finally explore the mysterious backstories of Shirabe and Kirika that we never got in canon? :o)

With MariAli South Pole this was a "oh this is just going to be a short little oneshot for the secret santa thing" and then "oh no this is getting too long" and then "help this still isn't finished". With what I've written so far though, I really do kinda like the imagery in this one of exploring the vast outdoors (might be in part bc I don't go outside irl nearly enough lol). And I really enjoy the idea of Marisa and Alice with their vague memories from the future interacting with historical figures and possibly weirding them out in the process hehe.

So if you're wondering why I haven't finished this fic yet it's because see I have this Excel spreadsheet and I need to figure out how to tweak original Scott and Amundsen expedition travel timelines so that Marisa and Alice can actually meet. And you may be wondering "Ahi why are you making an Excel spreadsheet on such minute details this is a fanfic no one's going to notice" and my only response is "help 😬"

This is the most research I've ever done for a fic tho, so I guess I can be kinda proud of that (but only if I actually finish it lol).

🎁 have a quote from a WIP?

I'll pick a few :3

This one's from a very silly WIP, expanded from one of my writing prompts from the symphogear discord i'm in

"Well, it's all thanks to the Minecraft server," says Miku. There's a short pause. Finé stares blankly. "The what."

Here's one from a ReiSana WIP :3

"Oh gosh, that's right, we have VHS players here!" says Sanae, looking excited. "While we're here, I might as well show you the film. It would be such a waste of opportunity if we didn't!"

And one more

She doesn't look like a bad person, thinks Tamamura, opening her lunch box distractedly. Maybe those were just bad rumours. "I know," says Yoshino, tapping Misami on the shoulder. "Let's play two truths and a lie." Tamamura buries her head in her hands, flushing bright red. She went right for it! Be a little more subtle! Can't you be a bit more subtle, Naganon!?

:3

[secret-engima]

rereading the whole Nox verse tag, just got to N!Axis meeting the canon Glaives a year pre-Movie. and i had the thought of post-marriage, post-kids Nox (and his Axis, who very much remembers that dimensional trip when they were younger, /Nox/) /also/ meeting - maybe different, maybe /not/ and ooo imagine /that/ - canon Glaives pre-Movie. possibly in the field, but just imagine it in the /Citadel/. if they saw these two bf, they were teenagers, now less than a yr later they're grown and /scarier/

Anonymous said: something i wanted to add to that ask about Nox and Axis visitng the same canon verse they did as teengers, but couldn't because of the damned character limit. At some point during the whole thing, the would-be traitor Glaives see/hear/are told something that makes them actually, really /realize/ why the Lucis Caelums are called Martyr Kings. also Nox casually spills the beans on his traveling to many, many other worlds/dimensions, mentioning the Fall of Insomnia, betrayal, and directly to Nyx,-

Anonymous said: - that in every future he's ever been to and seen, he's not been a traitor in one of them, and generally, he was a little /too/ Heroic in most of them. the way Nox says it leaves not doubt about what he means by that. no one familiar with Nyx is remotely surprised, but even after Nox and Axis leave, they're a bit more conscious of Nyx's recklessness and heroic tendencies. also: "Calm down, Axis, maybe I died when I was a kid here, yeah, but Uncle might not even have a sister, here. Leave it be.”

Me: ohhhhh interesting thought! I like it in the Citadel, maybe a few months after their first appearance (not a full year tho otherwise Game Events would be happening) and some of the glaives are on Citadel Duty (aka Titus’s ultimate punishment via the most boring job in existence) when there’s this- glitch in the world and then the Crownsguard are YELLING because apparently the Crystal chamber just did something weird. All hands are on deck and the glaives are called in with the Guard to watch the sealed off will-not-open-from-the-outside Crystal Chamber doors and the KING is there with his Shield and the Marshal and Captain and then-.

The door swings open from the inside and the argument can be heard as two figures emerge from the room, one growling at the other in a voice that sounds ... eerily familiar to Nyx and the Glaives.

“-to the Matrons for an exorcism so help me.”

“Hey, I’m not possessed OR cursed, blame the Crystal. It likes to mess with me.”

“It’s a non-sentient hunk of rock and magic, it can’t ‘mess with you’.”

“Wanna ...” the two figures stop and study the bristling mass of Guards, Glaives, Royal Retinue, and King, “bet?” the shorter one sighs and Nyx is having a few flashbacks already to That Time because that is DEFINITELY an older, crabbier Axis Arra and the man next to him looks freakishly like a long-haired Prince Noctis.

Who has a marriage braid and an ULRIC BRAID in his hair.

What the Six.

The Definitely a Lucis Caelum raises his hand, small sparks of flow dancing off it in some weird kind of royal greeting, “Hi dad.” he says with a lazy smile that almost hides the tension in his shoulders and the way his free hand is loose and curled around an imaginary hilt of a blade, like he’s about to whip something out of armiger.

The King gapes for a solid ten seconds before breathing, “Noctis?”

There’s a slight twitch, a flinch from the look-a-like and a low growl from the Arra before the Lucis Caelum (and Nyx knows who this kid is, he REMEMBERS that morning, that scrawny boy, and he knows the other glaives do too) smiles sheepishly, “Not quite. I’m Nox. His older brother actually. Though I’m going to guess Noctis is an only child in this dimension.”

So yeah dimensional shenanigans and Prince Nox being infuriately blasé about the entire thing and hanging out with the very befuddled glaives (Nox stares at Nyx for a c!solid thirty seconds while he stares right back until Nyx asks HOW Nox is an Ulric and Nox cheerfully goes “I married you, how else? We have four kids.” And Nyx spends like- the next three days in a perpetual Blue Screen until Axis takes pity on his Internal Scream by explaining that Nyx is a fem in their world. No. No there was no magic involved in the creation of the kiddos where is your mind even GOING Ulric (Nyx: I don’t know! Magic is weird! And alternate dimensions are a thing how was I supposed to know what other fanfic tropes AREN’T anymore?!?!). Nox quietly dies of laughter in there corner.

They keep a wary eye on the C!Arra-Furia-Lazarus trio in case of trouble because it’s been years for N!Axis but only months for them and it’s like- during one of those wary but cordial hangouts that Nox makes his Comment about Lucis Caelums after a long bout of brooding out the window.

“Dad’s dying a lot faster in this universe.”

All the glaives freeze. Even Captain Drautos lowers the report he was reading and pokes his head out of his office to stare.

“What?” Someone in the glaives says.

Nox doesn’t look at them, he’s glaring out the window and with a jolt they realize he’s glaring at the Wall, “Dad. The King. The Wall is killing him faster here. It was killing him in my world too but ... Uncle and I took care of it. I guess ... it’s different here.”

There’s a long pause before Luche’s brain finishes its dial up noises and he scoffs, “The Wall can’t kill the king. It’s his magic.”

“It’s Bahamut’s magic,” Nox corrects coldly without looking at them, “Magic he forced into human skin and veins that isn’t meant to keep it.” As if he can sense their continued disbelief he drawls, “How long can you hold a Shield spell before you get sick? Before you’re exhausted because the magic has gone past your reserves and started taking you as fuel? The Wall is just a giant, city-sized shield.” Tredd makes a noise that might be question or might be a strangled scoff and Nox finally turns to look at them.

There is something utterly inhuman in his gaze. His eyes are still blue, his face is still human, but there’s something in his eyes that speaks to their primal instincts and tells them to run, to hide.

To dread.

“Go to your local library sometime and look up the births and deaths of Kings of Lucis,” he orders in a deceptively light tone that almost makes it seem like a suggestion instead, “compare the lifespans of rulers from before the Wall was raised and after. Then compare the average lifespan of a healthy Lucian citizen at the time of that ruler’s reign.” There’s a beat of silence, terrible and weighty, then Nox’s lips curl into a tiny smile.

It’s a terrifying thing.

“The Kings of Lucis never die of old age. Sometimes it’s sickness, sometimes it’s war. Sometimes it’s assassination. Sometimes they just- die. For no reason science can explain because scientists never take magic into account. Sometimes,” the smile gets colder, the eyes older, “it’s betrayal. Those who are trusted when they shouldn’t, those who should stand loyal when they are not.”

He looks over them all and every one of them feels a chill up their spine. N!Axis leans closer to Nox as if in an attempt to comfort, to snap him out of this eerie mood, but it doesn’t work. “This has happened to me before you know. Going to parallel times. Do you know how my father dies the most often?”

There’s a breath, and when Nox speaks, there’s a hint of other voices beneath his, an echo of times past and souls lost and endless, ageless rage, “By the hands of the glaives he blessed.”

And none of the Galahdians dare to breathe. Those who have been listening to Captain Drautos’s subtle poison more and more these past few months, whose loyalty is not as solid as they pretend and to whom Niflheim’s lies are starting to sound sweet feel stricken, terrified. Like there’s a shadow of a blade at their necks even though there is nothing.

Nox inhales and when he exhales his breath is like frost. The room feels very, very cold, “They sell themselves to the enemy, they wait until his back is turned, and then they kill him. And when those glaives who are still loyal,” here his red-tinged eyes fall on Nyx and there is weight to the gaze, calm promise that of all in the room, Nyx has never been among those Nox has seen become betrayers, “resist and refuse to join in. The traitors slaughter them too. No regard for Clan ties, no regard for oaths or loyalty or any Color beyond Pink and Red and NIflheim’s White.”

Blue eyes are fully red now as he hisses, “And I hate it. I hate that I remember it, I hate that no one ever understands that magic has a cost. That they can study and feel magic strain over and over again for years and yet somehow they never believe that their king is just as human. That it hurts us just as much. Because Lucis Caelums are ‘blessed’,” Nox laughs and the sound is eerie, dripping in memories of things no one living is supposed to see, “as if an Astral’s Blessing is something to be coveted. As if being born with burning, inhuman magic, like a constant spell of fire in your veins and just beneath your skin that never turns off day or night, makes it easier.” Nox laughs again, something dangerous and sharp in the sound-.

N!Axis fearlessly lays a hand on the back of his prince’s neck, “That’s enough, Nox,” Axis murmurs, “come back now.” And Nox blinks, once, twice, thrice.

And suddenly he is normal. The room is normal, the creeping impression of death and old fury is gone, leaving the glaives breathless from relief. Nox rubs his face with a hand and murmurs an exhausted sounding apology, excuses himself for the day to go lie down in the guest suite Regis gave him.

Nyx watches the prince and his Arra walk away and notices that Nox’s hands are shaking, that his steps are not as sure as they were just this morning.

He thinks of too old words and too ancient eyes, of the knowing bitterness when Nox spoke of magic burning just under the skin with no relief and thinks very suddenly that he is glad he is just an Ulric. Just a Kingsglaive. A glance at Luche, Tredd, and C!Axis reveal them to be just as pale, if not more so than the others.

That night, those glaives who had been listening to their Captain’s less loyal talk had a lot of research to do.

And a lot of silence to ponder in horror as they find that every word Nox said about the old rulers was true.

[kinkymagnus]

Hi! Love your stories!! <3

I just wanna start with I am not transphobic (I know it sounds cliche...) but I am just curious about fanfic authors who write Magnus as trans.

Most of the time I shy away from trans!Magnus fics because for me its hard to picture it when he is male and when I try to read a fic I will get thrown off once I read sex scenes. I love your stories of sub!Magnus (let's be real there is no other kind <3).

I am always afraid to ask (hence the anon ask) cause most of the time anyone who loves trans!Magnus will get really defensive and start getting really mean when it's a general question or opinion and I just wanted to get your take on it.

hm ok. well. i really don’t love the wording of this question. but i like to try and take questions like this that i think are more borne of ignorance than malice and like, engage with them. i don’t think i’m morally obligated to, though, and people you may have said something like this to and reacted negatively, well, i don’t blame them at all. i’m not exactly feeling sunshine and roses about it, either. 

under the cut bc this is long

first: starting with “i’m not transphobic, but--” isn’t cliche, it’s a sign of someone knowing they’re about to say something transphobic. or trying to excuse themselves and distance themselves from any blame. and so on. it’s not like “oh everyone says that” it’s “i read that and immediately know i’m about to put up with some bullSHIT.” like, the fact you put that little disclaimer there means you KNOW IT NEEDS ONE. 

second: “it is hard to picture if when he is male” hm. ok. so. right here you’re assuming trans men =/= male. magnus having a vagina = not man. that’s very much being transphobic.

but let’s give the benefit of the doubt. let’s say you didn’t mean it like that. you might be confused just because you’re so used to cis male magnus, it feels off when someone suddenly describes something that doesn’t fit what you’re used to. it’s like when i read a fic and it mentions magnus’s dick or whatever, and i’m always surprised, and find it hard to picture, because at this point, i’m so used to trans magnus that way i write it. or it might be even something like... 

ok, here’s a weirdly specific example. i read the alex rider books as a kid, and there’s a character who is described as white and red-headed. in the recent tv adaptation, she’s a black woman with long dark curls. i’ve never been good at imagining characters in my head when its just books, so the imagery i’ve attached to this character is the tv show version of her. so now, if i go back and reread the books or read fanfiction for alex rider, every time they mention her red hair or something that makes it clear she’s not black, i’m a little startled, before i remember, oh yeah, originally, she was a redheaded white chick.

so let’s say that’s more the feeling you’re getting: you’re so used to cis magnus, seeing trans magnus is a little moment of surprise. 

........so what?

your options here are:

don’t read it and be quiet if it bothers you so much

keep reading and deal with the surprise i mean is it really that bad to have a momentary “oh yeah lol” moment? and you might even stop being surprised eventually if you get used to it lmao

i don’t think it’s a big deal to be a bit thrown off when you remember that this person’s version of magnus doesn’t have a dick or whatever. but that’s kind of something to keep to yourself. read it or don’t, but there’s nothing wrong with it. it’s not weird, it doesn’t make magnus less male, and if you don’t like it, don’t read it.  

also, you say “i’m afraid to ask” but come to think of it, you haven’t actually.... asked a question. just “like your fics. im not transphobic BUT... trans magnus is weird because i can forget he’s supposed to be trans until the sex scenes, and then it throws me off because he’s supposed to be Male. it’s weird. i love sub magnus. i’m afraid to ask because trans magnus fans are mean and defensive when you say lightly transphobic things. what’s your take?” 

i mean, is the question the whole “i’m curious about fic authors wrote magnus as trans”? like, what about us? most of us are trans and we love magnus???? idk what you want to know buddy? why people would EVER headcanon magnus as not cis? like, there are lots of reasons for that one being he literally could not possibly be our definition of the western cis male given that he was born like 4+ centuries ago on an entirely different continent . like, really, if you want to know why we headcanon him as trans i’m sure you could read through our blogs and find a bunch of shit 

and anyway it’s like, ok, 1. trans magnus isn’t just about the sex, but that’s a lesser issue.

2. again, no question being asked here beyond a general “what’s your take on this” (this being....”trans magnus weird”? or “trans magnus fic authors...thots?”?)

3. finally to get tho the last part of hmm yikes wording is the “anyone who loves trans!Magnus will get really defensive and start getting really mean”. the word choice here sure does say a lot. 

“defensive” and “mean”. if you’re going up to them and saying “trans magnus confuses me during sex scenes because he’s male!” then yeah, people might get a little upset. and defensive? either a) implies you’re on the offensive, or b) implies they’re like, guilty somehow, they’re being defensive and cagey. 

like, coming out with some casual transphobia or whatever and then playing the victim when people are offended and react....not cool

and just... look. calling someone out for being transphobic isn’t being mean or a bully. and no one’s saying you have to like trans magnus, no one’s holding a gun to your head and making you read our posts and fics. but if you’re going to read our posts and fics, don’t be a dick about it. 

and genuinely, like, i know i’ve focused on the bad here, but like, thank you, i’m glad you like my stories, and hell yeah sub magnus rights. and i don’t think you’re like a bad person or someone trying to be malicious and hateful or something, but like.... my dude PLEASE think about this shit and how you’re wording things like. jesus 

i think the highlights here are 

yes trans man = man

man with vagina = still a man

trans magnus having sex via a cis man’s penis in his vagina = gay sex between two males

people might get defensive or “mean” if you say things to them that are kinda transphobic and that’s understandable. they aren’t aggressors or your enemies for reacting like this.

no one is forcing you to like or read trans magnus content, it’s okay if you don’t, but if so just don’t, you don’t gotta say anything just don’t read it 

there are lots of reasons someone might headcanon magnus as trans 

and headcanoning him as trans isn’t weird, gross, or wrong in any way

honestly headcanoning him as cis makes less sense but that’s another talk

also saying “im not transphobic but--” doesn’t absolve you of any transphobia following it 

[acrispyapple]

why do you watermark official pics that aren't yours? i'm honestly shocked cybird hasn't had you banned for dcma laws + spoiling paid stories and epilogues, but you do you. you made it so i never have to pay money for any of the cybird games + mlqc. also i read why you aren't posting the sprites which is cool and all but you shouldn't be posting game elements either way. that's super shitty of you to do because spoiler THE ARTWORK ISN'T YOURSSSSSSS. the pic of victor on your twitter isnt yours 2

heya! i’ve already answered an ask like this recently and ignored the follow up ones because i don’t really wanna keep repeating myself. but since you’re very persistent and it’s still the same thing, here i go! putting under a cut because it’s long and has images – with stuff written on them! dun dun dunnnn (¯▿¯)

to start things, i’m the wrong person to accuse of being irresponsible with my posts because i’m very mindful of posting etiquette. have you not seen all my campaigns about not stealing from artists, from blogs, etc. i ask for permission for everything, even for random text i want to translate from someone’s post. even for cosplay i’ve seen other people freely post, i always go to the source and ask. i hope my answer clarifies things for you because i don’t really wanna have to repeat it again! (*^^*)♡

re: watermarks (complaint mostly about mlqc because i don’t really do it for cybird)

re: cybird

i’m not exactly a hidden secret blog, so i’m pretty sure cybird is well aware of me. plus, they’ve left comments on my blog in the past. sooo, there’s nothing shocking about it at all! maybe what’s shocking is you somehow expected cybird to not have noticed my blog all these years. do you actually know what the digital millennium copyright act covers? (dmca not dcma btw) as long as i know how to read and understand rules and i’m always within its boundaries, there’s nothing being violated. always post obstructed cgs / never full, snippets of 10 for screenies, never in consecutive order, etc. you should read the rules tbh, you seem unfamiliar with it. ☆

re: you never having to pay money for any cybird game

again, snippets = not full stories. everyone can post snippets. paid or not. that’s so weird that you feel you don’t need to pay for ~any cybird game~ anymore because of my blog. i haven’t been consistently posting paid content for so long. even ikesen epilogues. because i don’t have the time. and i’ve skipped posting a couple of events on my blog too. i don’t post ikerev / midcin consistently either. i’ve posted from two ikevam events in the past months with epilogue snippets. i guess you only played those? that’s hardly everything. nice attempt at creating an issue about me making cybird lose money tho! for someone who thinks i do dodgy things, you sure do like reading from my blog– if what you’re saying is true. but you seem to not know my blog content either. (⌒_⌒;)

i have another answer for this from an ask from 9 months ago:

re: not paying for mlqc

they allow posting everything from their game, i even verified with their team! but even i don’t have the time or post slot to post everything from it. i mostly post about victor soooo, i guess that’s everything you need to know about mlqc then? yay for you only needing victor! ♡

re: game elements

what?

anyway, moving forward to my twitter header:

it’s from this post i made, where i screenied scenes (and edited them a bit to look brighter and prettier) from the pv of the new chapters in the ch version.

now, i just put my username there as a marker and it was already covered in the first part of this ask. (how it helps me keep track of my posts, helps me when people are able to identify it’s from my blog and alert me of it being posted elsewhere, etc.) but i wanted to show it even clearer so you can finally let go of whatever it is you’re burning with. ( ˙▿˙ )

it just says acrispyapple on this screenie i took (that’s right, it’s just a screenshot lmao), it’s a random word or name. i made it small and inconspicuous so it wouldn’t distract from the image. the weibo watermark is bigger and clearer but i don’t use it– i can, but i don’t. when people see it, they know it’s official art and that’s it. there’s no “made by acrispyapple™©®”

(thanks for visiting my twitter btw! it doesn’t really have a lot of followers haha)

sooo, there’s weibo and its automatic watermarks (location can be changed).

“damn, all the users on weibo are claiming stuff as their own!!!! it’s not just a marker that a certain thing was posted from a certain blog!!! they’re claiming it as theirs even tho it’s clearly very easy to see that it’s one of many free-for-all official images!!!” (≧◡≦)

and i’ve seen people use the cards as banners for fanfics and other stuff, or even memes where they put random stuff on it like this:

but writing a random word on it, just because you know my blog is somehow a great sin? it’s not even acrispyapple.tumblr.com ✿

would it maybe make you feel better if it wasn’t just acrispyapple? i can use random words and it’ll still serve as a marker for me lmao

anyway anon, it pays to actually listen and read before you get mad and accuse. i’m not breaking any rules and i’m very much aware of what’s not allowed and what’s allowed. (^ ^*)♡

edit:

i kinda like it. (^◔ᴥ◔^)

side note: if you have a vendetta against me, you’re free to have one. but please don’t try to make stuff up just to yell at me. you can hate me quietly from afar or just avoid me altogether. or if you want to find a reason to yell at me, at least try to educate yourself about what you’re planning on yelling at me about. it’ll save me time trying to explain stuff! i also don’t like wasting my post slots for the day. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i would suggest looking at my actual content first, so your lack of knowledge of it doesn’t give you away. also, try asking yourself if you really think cybird’s en team would miss me after all these years and if you’re somehow the only enlightened one who can see all my ~misgivings~? are you aware of mlqc’s rules?

it’s funny because i’m not even close to covering everything for mlqc and there are blogs that cover far more than i do. i answer a lot of asks (i wish asks were paid content, as in i get paid to answer asks), but game content-wise, i’m faaaar from covering everyone. unless you really consider victor the whole game (♡). in which case i’m still missing his ch11 and ch19 screenies and one date. oh and the recent rumors&secrets! if you take a look at my posts, it’s mostly announcements, asks, fanart, general info, avatar posts, etc. i think you blindly went in with salt. ( ˙▿˙ )

i don’t really interact with people unless i have to talk about reposts and fanart-related stuff. i also just talk about games on my blog. so i don’t know what i could’ve done to merit your hatred. maybe you dislike that i ask for basic courtesy or that i enforce rules given to me by artists? i’m always polite tho. hmm, mystery-desu! ✩‧₊˚

[witchmd13]

Sorry you’re not feeling great about things. Sending love and hugs and all those cute and magical stuff that Luke tells Lorelai to think about, when they’re at the hospital in 1x10. Is it bad I knew the episode number by heart? Probably, but oh wells. I’ve got more knowledge on gg then I do about any of the books I’m currently studying at uni. No regrets tho. Hmm.. what to ask, what to ask? 🤔 I haven’t watched Merlin other than an episode here and there when it was on tv but if you want you could ramble to me about it. Or try convince me to watch it, if it’ll help. Or we can chat about anything gilmore related. At this point you know I could talk endlessly about Luke and Lorelai. My bestie once, when sleeping over started talking about the show just so I would start talking endlessly about it and therefore we wouldn’t sleep yet, instead just talk. It was already late. I think 4am or something and she was going to work the next day. No idea why she still wanted to stay up even later but she got me ranting about Chris, I think. Or it might have been about a fanfic I was reading at the time. Don’t remember at this point. All I know is that she said Gigi’s name wrong and we spent a good hour just laughing about that with our sleep deprived brains. So basically my brain 90% of the time. Lol, I love how this turned into me just rambling off a story you probably have zero interest in. 😂 oops, apologise for that. Anyway, I’ll stop now before I rattle out another random story for no particular reason other then that’s just how my weird brain works. Weird story time aside, I hope all is well, and if you ever want to talk about anything, I’m here 💕Lots of love, L

I have the entire series memorized (well, maybe not so much s7. I think I only watched it fully 2 or 3 times) and I now got to the point where I mouth the lines with the characters 😂 if it’s bad that you know episodes numbers by heart, I’m the worst haha I even keep a few episodes downloaded on my laptop for when I’m at work or studying somewhere and don’t have the internet for some reason. 

I could talk endlessly about it too, trust me. I watched the revival with my sister, who only watched the show once a long time ago, and I think I scared her with all the things I was pointing out. She was actually the reason that made me give the revival a second chance, because I realized that to someone who wasn’t a frantic fan, the revival was actually kind of sweet and served its purpose. It tackled the main questions we got left with with s7′s final and gave us the ending we were originally going to get. Everything else is secondary. 

I love that story 😂 you make me wanna rant about Chris. I think the show did him so dirty. I get that ASP wanted Rory to have all these daddy issues and to emphasize Lorelai’s role as a single mom/wonder woman, but they never gave him a chance. Also he ends up working for his parents?! After putting his life together and raising Gigi alone, he still fails to do the one thing he ever wanted? And I know he wasn’t a very good dad or partner to Lorelai. Even Emily calls him “a weak, but a charming boy” but come on, even he deserved something better. He did lose Lorelai and didn’t get to be close to Rory ever.  

You should watch Merlin. It has beautiful characters and brilliant actors that keep you watching even when the plot isn’t great. You don’t realize it at first but they grow on you. Personally, I don’t like fantasy, and at first didn’t want to watch the show because of that, but Merlin has a human story at the heart of it, which was what made me love it. It’s a lot like GG like that, for me at least. 

thank you for making me rant about my two favorite shows 😂💖💖

[taeyongbestboi]

Okay, so i just took a nap and had the most fanfic / wattpad dream EVER like idek anymore.

It goes like this

I was on a music show concert and one of the artist in the line up was nct dream (we young era OMG THEY’RE SO TINY) and i decided to buy a more expensive seating section, while my friends bought the cheaper one (it was 50 thousand rupiah and mine costed 75 thousand rupiah). It was kinda like “Spotify on Stage” or something, so they’re cheap.

Anyway, idk why but i decided to bring my dog with me and he’s just running all over the place and i noticed that the venue itself wasn’t really crowded (idk why either) and my dog accidentally went to the venue (that time the gate wasn’t even opened) and i took a peek inside and it wasn’t that big. It has 2 levels and apparently, my ticket was idk what happened but i should be on the main section (1st floor) but ended up being on the 2nd level on the LEFT WING jeez. So all of my friends went in first, they all got to the 2nd floor, leaving me and my dog behind and i patiently waited for my section’s gate to be opened.

And so, it finally open. There wasn’t anyone going to my section and i was going in alone (?) pretty weird huh. And so i sat down, kinda near the railing or a wall (the railing or wall is on my right) and who knows where my dog went but he just wasn’t with me anymore (its a dream, relax)

AND SUDDENLY

CHRISTOPHER FREAKING BANG WAS SITTING BESIDES ME.

I’m laughing rn

So he sat down. Lemme describe his physical appearance and look in DETAILS.

He’s wearing a black tshirt (duh, his usual), his hair’s blonde (MY UTMOST FAV), and he’s wearing silver jewelries like a bracelet and also skz’s necklace. He’s so pale jeeeeeeez omg and doesn’t wear that much makeup lol. You know guys, i can LITERALLY feel that he’s besides me. Creepy right omg what kind of dream

And, he’s gorgeous. Guys, he’s so gorgeous :”) i feel like crying right now

AND THEN WE TALK. WE TALKED LMAO

Okay, so i can only remember some, so it goes like this

“Whoa, aren’t you Bang Chan from Skz?”

“Yeah that’s me” and he laughed

AND THIS DREAM WAS SO MADE SENse like HE’S AUSTRALIAN AND HE SPEAKS ENGLISH AND PLEASE IMAGINE

“Wow, what are you doing here?”

“Idk, just seeing a concert, being like a normal people”

Up to this point, only two things went weird. 1st is that i have no idea where my dog went, 2nd idek which country i’m in rn. How is bangchan here watching the same show with me?

After that i just went “ahhh” while nodding and i actually told him that i want to this section alone cos apparently my friends r on another section so i’m thankful that he sits besides me.

And he got closer, talk into my ear (cos the concert’s starting) and said “you’re most welcome”

AND HE ALSO THANKED ME FOR TREATING HIM LIKE A NORMAL GUY AND NOT AS A CELEBRITY

And i did the same :/ i lean in and said “anytime”

AND

AMDISNJZSIUAKKZISB I CANT

THIS PART MAKES ME GO BOOOOOM BOOOOOOM

i’m writing this with the biggest and dumbest smile on my face dang

He said that he got kinda shy after i spoke right into his ear like that (cos we’re too close)

AND I LITERALLY WENT “NOOOO DON’T SAY THAT” and blushed hard damn boy

AND HE’S ALL CUTE AND GIDDY WHILE SAYING THAT???? U KNOW WHEN HE’S GIDDY? A giant fluff ball indeed.

Okay, so then we ended up enjoying the concert together like we’re homies. We laughed, we cheered (i cheered for the dreamies tho lol) and our shoulders would often met and we’ll laugh about it omg it was heavenly

At one point i realised that it was just a dream and i have the audacity to think “well, even if it’s just a dream, make it last” WOW I’M SO COOL LMAO

And the show ends and i forgot whether it’s before the show or after the show but Chan actually asked me out. LIKE HAHAHAHHAHA HE ASKED ME OUT YAS GURL U HEARD ME RIGHT

He said, “why don’t we hang out a little?”

And i was like :0 “o-okay...”

Well i mean, i wouldn’t mind tho??? ITS CHRISTOPHER FREAKING BANG

AHHHHHH AND AND AND I ALSO TOLD HIM (at one point on our convo before the show starts) that i actually like him and that he’s one of my bias in skz and he was like “oh, really??” And i was like “bruh, i watched your show on Januari 2019 in Jakarta!!” And we laughed (again) and he seemed happy to know that i’m a stay

Back to the topic where he asked me out and i said yes and we exchanged our contacts i forgot it was our numbers or sns? Idk i don’t remember.

ONE DAY, he really picked me up y’all. I cant anymore

So apparently, we’re in my country, in my city, basically my territory. And in this dream, i wasn’t super rich, my family was actually struggling to live. And i live in this tall but old building, alongside my neighbours who were as poor as us. We live in flats, yes, that’s the word. And the building we’re living in is actually my church building irl so it felt super real.

The one who picked me up was actually his driver. I have to pick Chan somewhere in the city. After that we decided to grab some meal and we start throwing each other silly questions

Me: “well, what’s your fav food?”

Him: “rice.” WHILE SMIRKING LIKE ????

Me: “bruh, we’re asian!! We eat rice!” I laughed

And he laughed

Akxjdndkdisnkzjdbaksj naui simjang

Me: “okay, what is your fav food OTHER than rice?”

And after that i cant remember anything anymore (about the convo :))

I also can’t remember where we had lunch, this 2nd half of my dream is just us inside his car

Then we talked about a lot of things. I remember telling him a lot about my story (i just cant remember the exact things i told him, nothing really absurd though just my interests n stuffs), and he would too, and just like that back and forth. The ambience was nice, and relaxing. That time i really felt time has stopped because irl i need to deal with quite a lot if things (that include my thesis, the struggle to keep on going as my parent’s business wasn’t in the prettiest shape due to covid-19, and other stuffs). And the fact that i really need someone to talk to atm makes the dream 1000000000000% better.

So, it was the time for us to finally call it a day. And i know by heart that after all of this end, i wouldn’t be able to meet him again. How could i? I have experienced a full day hang out with the precious Christopher Bang, i couldn’t ask for more right? It was more than enough for me and i’ll continue to be his ordinary fan. On our way back to where i live, we kinda became quite. As if none of us wanted it to end.

And

Omg i said the word ‘and’ like a thousand times now

Okay so

Listen

It was 15 minutes away from where i live, so our meeting would soon come to an end.

And he suddenly pulled out some kind of a recorder or a music player idk it has a can-like-shape, and start playing a track.

It was an unreleased track. About a girl who make his heart goes warm, someone who supports him for who he is.

I nearly cried writing this guys

And he asked me to listen to it

And i did

And i was like “chan, this is beautiful”

And U KNOW THE FEELING

OF AN INEVITABLE GOODBYE

THAT ANGSTY FEELING

INSIDE YOUR GUT

I FEEL THAT

*cries*

The song is beautiful. The lyrics, the melody, everything’s perfect.

I managed to listen to it twice, but i cant remember how it sounds like. But it was BEAUTIFUL. Trust me on this.

And i just remembered, THE SONG IS IN FREAKIN KOREAN. I cant speak korean :”) but i understands EVERY. SINGLE. WORD. Dreams r cool

And he got all giddy again with his goofy smile, and somehow my brain process it to:

‘Chan wrote that song a long time ago, probably. Well, definitely before we met. He’s now showcasing it to me and the lyrics clicked and maybe i’m the girl in the lyrics’

I don’t wanna make it sound like it’s all about me (even tho it’s my dream :”)) so i asked him

“This song is about stays, right?”

And he answered

“Well, you’re a stay right? So, yes.”

OKAY :”””””””

I feel like he felt that our meeting was destined, even though we’ll never gonna see each other again after this, we know that both of us are grateful for this meeting.

Omg i really hope that i’ll dream like that again tonight

OH SIS I’M NOT DONE YET.

So, we arrived at my place. He parked the car and i was still listening to the song and when it came to its end, IDK WHY but (please forgive me for this idek what i’m doing) and i somehow REACHED FOR HIS ABS? TRAILED IT ALL THE WAY UP WITH MY RIGHT PALM (Jesus, forgive me), and then we

Kissed.

Yes. Just like that.

And the next thing that i remember is that he accompany me until i’m outside my flat, and people on my neighbourhood wondered who’s the guy (cos he looked rich and handsome) LMAO

And then i wake up.

This is one of the few dreams that i remember that has a nice ending. The nap ends when the dream ends. It was sooooooo satisfying!

——————————————————————————

Okay thank you for listening to my unimportant story :”) i do hope one day you’ll get a sweet sweet dream of your bias just like me. Have a good day, y’all!

[ivanaskye]

WoT reactions: book 5

Oh gods, everything is happening absolutely all of the time.

So, like usual, I’m gonna yell about it character by character.

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(Not that that readmore ever works...)

Rand

Oh, he is a mess.

Remember when Rand was kind of boring and ~just a guy~? Remember when he wasn’t ruling like three or four countries and having a hard time thinking about people in any light other than how he can use them? Remember that?

Because, boy, that Rand is gone

He is literally wanting to die by now

“I deserve death”

“Death would be better”

And this is only book 6 out of 14. Oh boy.

He still Can’t Kill Women tho

This is bad for everyone involved

Pls unlearn ur sexism Rand

Mat

The thing about Mat is that most of his personality traits are things I hate in a character, BUT his core trope is my favorite

He Knows His Past Lives

At least kinda

FORBIDDEN MYSTERIOUS KNOWLEDGE, he is all the other hims he once was

He’s still... Mat tho, desperately trying to run away

All he wants is gambling and casual sex

But NO he has near infinite battle tactics knowledge from 2000 years ago :| I’d feel sorry for him but also like. I do not.

Perrin

Literally not in this book lol, we’ll find out more about what he’s been up to next book

Egwene

Is going through character growth at 500 miles per hour and I’m here for it

That scene where she realized she was talking to Moiraine like an EQUAL. Aaa my heart.

Overrides Nynaeve’s temper with pure calmness

Oh boy I love her

Foreshadowing that she’s gonna be the Amyrlin has only gotten stronger. I feel this in my bones.

Moiraine

I was gonna try to go longer without talking about her, but....

....fuck you, Robert Jordan.

:(

:((

:(((

Okay, the last book and a half she has been displaying every death flag known to man and then some. So I’m not surprised BUT I do still want to cry.

Ofc she had that many flags bc she KNEW SHE WAS GONNA DIE

fucking

She is an archetype I usually HATE (keeps too many secrets) but I! Love her! She is (was) doing her best!

That all said, she might not actually be dead—Amys saying that Rand is a fool right after he says she’s dead + asmodean dying to a mysterious person who may just be Lanfear...

Cause how Moiraine died was tackling Lanfear through a mysterious portal

And now her presence “can’t be felt”

But maybe she’s just in some other reality? I hope?

:x

;-;

Elayne

There are exactly two brain cells left standing now that Moiraine is gone, and Elayne has one of them. (Egwene has the other)

She also uh. Does A Thing this book. But that’s better to talk about under another character’s heading-

Birgitte

Jfc I was NOT expecting what happened here

Tfw you’re in the True Dream World which also serves as an afterlife for perennially reincarnated heroes, which you are, and you’re not supposed to talk to alive people, but you do anyway, and then

Then you get killed, in the afterlife

And develop a fully formed body in the Alive World

And remember all of your past lives

But you’re like, dying

And maybe not in a returning-to-afterlife way

SO ELAYNE FREAKING BONDS YOU AS A WARDER.

Anyway I ship it

Nynaeve

If Egwene gets the award for fastest character development, Nynaeve gets... the opposite award

If anything, she’s getting MORE insufferable and also unselfaware with time

“It’s so great that people get to be around me, who is always calm and never yells at anyone at all!” she thinks. Multiple times.

I’m glad that with her and Elayne we finally got a bit of a Tel’aran’rhiod (True Dream World) training sequence—we hadn’t gotten to see that with Egwene

Meanwhile this book Nynaeve is the poster child for “how close to straight up torturing people are Our Heroes now”

(The answer: pretty close, by which I mean, yes definitely torture, but not the WORST torture. Yet.)

Egeanin

Where is she where is my child

Min

Spends most of the book Escaping with Siuan and Leane, plus giving the two of them a lot of weird looks

Her moment to shine is probably later

Siuan

Let me tell you, as of book 2 or 3 I did not expect her to outlive Moiraine

A Real Good Character

She may be stilled but she can still scheme and manipulate For The Side Of Good

Bonus side effect of not having magic: she is no longer bound by magical path to not lie!

“The Kid Gloves Are Off Motherfuckers” - Siuan Sanche, probably

Leane

Unlike Siuan, finds new purpose/reason not to commit suicide not in revenge but in. Flirting.

“Can’t want to kill myself if I wanna hone my seduction skills instead”

Real galaxy brain take there

I’m love her also

Aviendha

Ok I’m starting to like her now, mostly due to the Most Fanfic Sequence Of Events I Have Ever Read Including In A Fanfic

(That’s right: your fave fanfic could never)

To recap: Aviendha, sneaking into Rand’s to take a bath

Caught naked

Flips out, instinctively does something with the Power that almost no one alive knows how to

That thing being: MAKES A GODDAMN PORTAL

INTO A BLIZZARD

WHILE NAKED, MIND YOU, AND DRIPPING WET

Rand, being Very Concerned about this, grabs a bunch of blankets and follows her

She runs away

For a mile

In a blizzard

While naked

Gets to an iced-over river, FALLS IN

Rand, using the Power but also almost dying himself, pulls her out and wraps her in blankets

Makes a FREAKING HOUSE out of magic

Gets her inside

But That’s Not Enough Body Heat

Oh No He Has To Snuggle Her

Due to the powers of body heat, she retains consciousness

Then They Have Sex

Him, afterwards: oh fuck! We’re not even married! Fuck I guess we can quickly get married as soon as we come back!

Her: marriage whom

Also her, Who Has Just Had Sex With Him: also obviously I can’t marry you, you belong to Elayne

Functions? NO

Brain cells? ABSOLUTELY NOT

Thoughts? NOT EVEN ONCE

I love all these characters y’all

[zukoandtheoc]

1, 8, 9, 16

1. How’d you form as a system?

in… I think it was 2013, Evan discovered the concept of tulpas, and within like a day was like “oh this sounds cool as fuck, time to create an entire person in my head” and that’s how Jade happened! and then literally two months later Jade was like “we need another friend” and Evan was like “yeah okay” and together we made Ollie. and for a few years it was just the three of us, but uh fun fact, once your brain learns how to make extra people, it gets a lot easier for that to happen, and so one day a couple weeks into Evan writing an ATLA fanfic Zuko just kinda showed up fully formed and verbal. we seem to gain a new systemmate once every couple of years, though it’d probably be more if Evan were less resistant to new systemmates showing up, but we do not need every fictional character I ever get obsessed with hanging out with us, ok? ok.

8. How complex is your mindscape? Does your system even use it? Do you even have one to begin with?

we definitely don’t use the mindscape/wonderland nearly as much as we did when we first started out - Evan and Jade created a little gazebo (always called it a pavilion tho) and it had a couch that folded out into a bed and that was where we spent most of our time in the really early days. later we expanded out into a whole island, we had a house and Ollie had a beach house and we had a nice little spot on the beach that was surrounded by cliffs, and there was a spot in the forest by a river that was Jade and Evan’s special spot, all around it was really nice. 

later on, around the time Markus first appeared, the mindscape expanded into an entire planet, kinda floating in a bubble universe in between various fictional worlds. it’s called Perception - i think that happened after a comment Zuko made about there being a lot of perceptive people there? dunno, it made sense at the time. it was created because of an instability in the multiverse, involving some shenanigans featuring Aang and the Twelfth Doctor and various others, but it’s stable now. various fictional characters pass through from time to time, and it’s a safe space where we can hang out and play music and talk to people. most of the people who pass through don’t know the true nature of Perception, and most of them don’t remember it as anything more than a dream when they return to their own worlds, though there are a few inner-worlders, not part of the main system, who are In The Know, like Aang.

also sometimes we will visit other universes, typically whatever fictional world is the current special interest, and hang out and generally get up to Adventures and Shenanigans. it’s fun.

9. Is making major decisions that affects the whole system hard? Who argues a lot when discussing major changes?

hoo boy. uh. who wants to take this one?

Jade: Evan is really resistant to change. We - don’t argue, exactly, because no one - we don’t want to argue, but sometimes I do kind of try to persuade Evan to think more about the system - we’ve talked about doing sort of designated co-fronter days, because I do know that Evan worries that they focus too much on Zuko -

Zuko: Rude.

Jade: - and not enough on, say, Ollie or Alex sometimes. We haven’t really implemented that, though, since Evan and honestly all of us are kind of exhausted most of the time, and this - that’s the kind of thing that requires planning and sit-down conversations and we just haven’t been very good at that lately.

Markus: Well said, Jade, good job, and good job Evan for proxying, I know we’re, you’re tired after talking about Perception and all. We, I do think that all of us are concerned with what Evan thinks about things since - no, write this down - since they’re the host and they’re kind of the center of the system, they really are and we’re pretty invested in taking care of them. They feel weird about it sometimes and sometimes they have moments, even now, where they have doubts about whether the rest of us really exist, but.

Zuko: What was the question again?

Evan: *laughing*

Markus: Stop. Anyway - are we - do we wanna talk about?

Jade: I think so.

Evan: If it’s okay with her? Yeah, and I do think you should be the one to say this, Markus, if you want to?

Markus: Yeah. Yeah. Soo we’ve recently - I guess you could say we’ve recently acquired a new system member.

Zuko: The emphasis on acquired - you, you make it sound like we stole her!

Markus: Shhhhh. Okay. Basically, we noticed her starting to form, and we - Evan was concerned, like always, they’re always nervous about new people, so we did have to stop and kind of talk about it. And it took us a few days, but I do think we were kind of in agreement, that yeah, we wanted this new person. 

Zuko: We were definitely a little worried if now was the best time, we talked about our options,

Markus: I distinctly remember saying “No making major life decisions at 3 am.”

Evan: Yeah, you said that.

Zuko: But at the same time we were all kind of excited, you know? The last one who showed up was Alex and that was three years ago, he was like me with the whole fanfic origin story, and Evan fought against him for the longest time.

Alex: Just - hi - just butting in here, I believe the original arrangement was that I would stay - laughing - I would stay until Evan and I finished writing my fanfic, and then I would go back home to my universe and my happy ending. And that was three years ago, and we never finished the fanfic.

Evan: Oops.

Zuko: Guys, we’re going off on so many tangents here. But we were kind of excited, you know, to sort of nurture this new person and create them together.

Evan: I did - what was it? I remember thinking, why do I always get so excited whenever outside friends get new system members, but with us it’s a source of dread? So I’m trying to change my attitude on that a little.

This got very longer than expected, and also proxying is exhausting. Mostly we used this question as an excuse to talk about our new girl, this is the first time we’ve talked about her outside of just between us, actually. Perhaps if she wants to we’ll do a proper introduction later. Fortunately I wrote the answer to the next question before starting on this one.

16. Do any of your systemmates display unique talents whenever in front? If yes, what talent and how good are they at it? 

so uh, actually we aren’t… able to switch? so I, Evan, am the only one who ever fronts. Markus and Zuko can sometimes help me out when I’m having a shutdown or a panic attack though, by kinda co-fronting and walking me through whatever it is I need to do just then (Markus calls this ‘dad mode’)